#fucking hell they make me so emotional
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So I was looking through Rei's appellations and:
This is so fucking sad???
SHU CALLED HIM HIS FRIEND. HE'S STILL ONE OF NATSUME'S BELOVED NII-SAN'S. THEY LOVED HIM SO MUCH, THEY STILL LOVE HIM UNCONDITIONALLY.
Even when Kanata would've drowned himself if not for Chiaki grabbing him, even when Shu was being barely kept alive by a desperate Mika, even when Wataru smiled and tried to reassure them as he calmly walked to his execution, even when Natsume could only cry from the shadows - none of them ever resented him for it.
But Rei resents himself, because he couldn't save them, or Ritsu, or Koga, or anyone he cared about.
And that is why he can't let them be that close - it'll only hurt them more when he lets them down again.
#rei does everything now under the guise of being this wise serene grandfather who knows all the answers#a child who did everything to find his brother a cure only for ritsu to resent him for leaving him scared and vulnerable#a child who tried so hard to lead them and could only react in horror when shu and kanata were executed#a child who so desperately tried to shield natsume from the worst and later realized how much more he hurt watching his nii-san's suffer#a child who watched wataru accept that they couldn't be saved and watched as the least gleam of hope fell in front of his eyes#But he was a child. He was 17 years old.#shu and wataru and kanata were too#they were the age of tori tetora midori shinobu hiiro hinata yuta tomoya hajime mitsuru tsukasa and sora and they were being executed#natsume was aira and kohaku's age. and instead of squealing over idols and engaging in harmless mischief he was fighting to survive#fucking hell they make me so emotional#ensemble stars#enstars#five eccentrics#five oddballs#enstars relationships#enstars appellations#rei sakuma#kanata shinkai#wataru hibiki#natsume sakasaki#shu itsuki
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i love you royal trio (minus akechi)
#i was listening to the world we knew by frank sinatra while drawing this to inflict maximum emotional damage 😔#royal actually shot me fifty times in the chest and slaughtered my entire family#i’m actually inconsolable over the ending what the fuck do you mean akechi chooses to die of his own volition rather than be manipulated#god it’s just. his character actually makes me violent and insane. they’re going to drag me kicking and screaming to the psych ward#he never had an ounce of control over his life. not even once. he was CONSTANTLY being yanked around like a marionette#until he was disposed of as another pawn in shido’s plan#and then out of some cruel irony he was resurrected even though he did not want to be alive#for once in death he would have found peace—only for that to be taken from him too.#and bc he thinks he’s worthless and his life is so easily gambled away he doesn’t view it as a major dealbreaker when maruki brings it up#“do you really think something as trivial as my life should stand in the way of your decision?” yes you fucking asshole#what do you mean he’s literally fated to die in every timeline? definition of doomed by the narrative#there’s not a single version of his story that doesn’t end with him being slaughtered#GODDDDD he makes me violently ill i hate goro akechi so much he’s so fucking selfish HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT THIS DEAL IS TEARING ME APART#i was so tempted to get the bad ending just so that he was alive ☹️#he looked so happy. he was surrounded by people who loved and treasured him.no shido. control over his life. the ability to choose his futu#TEARS IN MY EYES MARUKI WAS THE ONLY VILLAIN WHO WAS LOWKEY MAKING SENSE 😭😭😭😭😭#my toxic trait is that i think maruki was right all along 😔#ALSO SUMIRE AAUUGGHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#the survivors guilt literally eating her alive until the point where she gaslighted herself into thinking she was her sister. insane.#royal was so good bro i’m so glad i endured 200 hours of hell just to play it#terrible terrible ending with everyone going their separate ways and ren ending up in juvie for months#akechi actually being dead in the good ending is so fucked up 😭😭 i thought there was some way maruki could bring him back regardless#not ren hallucinating him in the last cutscene too 😭😭😭😭 “i still see your shadows in my room” ahh ending#persona 5 royal#persona 5#ren amamiya#akira kurusu#sumire yoshizawa#goro akechi#lotus draws
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sometimes I think of all the on-the-surface warm, well-meaning but deeply ineffectual advice and attention john gives harrow through harrow the ninth (make some soup and get some sleep! get a hobby! don't be so hard on yourself! self care harrow! as long as I need take no actual responsibility in this relationship whatsoever I would have loved to be your dad!) set up against the stark truth that with his other hand he has been staging her attempted horrific murder again and again and again like a living nightmare on the logic that it will 'put her down or fix her'. and then I find that I wish there is a hell. a special hell where twitch streamers turned necromantic death emperors go
#the locked tomb#harrowhark nonagesimus#john gaius#harrow the ninth#this is why I don't buy john as misunderstood and initially well-meaning AT ALL#this is a pattern you see with him again and again and again -- right down to his interpersonal relationships#(and indeed it's in the more grounded interpersonal relationships you can most clearly see him as he is I think#the fantasy death empire of a thousand years doesn't register quite as viscerally because it's like. heightened; not quite real#but the emotional violence and manipulation that surrounds him? oh boy that is EXTREMELY real and scarily well-observed)#there's a premeditation to so much of what he does (contracts with planets that only end 'in the event of the emperor's death' anyone?#yeah john we get it you're hilarious and I wish you weren't)#the greatest trick john ever pulled was making anyone think he's just a lil guy. what does he know he's only god#when you first read the book the complete callousness of the other adults is so horrible that john seems like an oasis of care#(though you start to get this uneasy feeling when that care never seems to translate to like... relief or soothing or resolution)#and it makes it feel almost obscene when you find out what's actually going on#it's the mercy & augustine enabler hour but at least they're completely honest in their cruelty there#while john is -- well he sure is being john huh#this is just me being angry with him btw philosophically I don't think this is how the story will or should end#(with john slam dunked right into hell that is)#it's just... harrow is so vulnerable. and what he does to her is so insidious and fucked up#john is very deeply human. unfortunately the capacity to quite simply suck so much is deeply human too
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james who can’t explain what he’s feeling or what he needs and sirius who just knows, who looks at james and that’s all they need to stop feeling alone
#i need them#they make me so emotional#fucking hell#they just#its them#prongsfoot#sirius x james#sirius black#james potter#marauders
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No jokes here. The Navy’s best pilot and the Navy’s best admiral. Between them, eight air-to-air combat kills and five stars. These were men who commanded respect with or without your approval. This was the picture of ruthless competence.
Debriefing (& Other Stories) • part 2 of Easier Done Than Said by @compacflt
#easier done than said by COMPACFLT#this is one of my alltime favourite fics rn#and probably for the rest of time too#its a topgun fic written by COMPACFLT and its insane and its so fucking good#its basically a canon rewrite of#top gun 1986#and#top gun maverick#and spans thirty years of Ice and Mavs relationship#theres just so much in this#so much emotion and characterization and everything#which has driven me insane that im having one hell of a dopamine comedown this week after having read it#i highly reccomended people go read it cause its just really that good#pete maverick mitchell#tom iceman kazansky#bradley rooster bradshaw#jake hangman seresin#i love how the commander wrote mav and ice in this. like theyre clearly military men#but theyre also SO much more#icemav#and theyve taken the canon 'whos the best pilot' and given its own twist#'hes the best pilot in the world'#my heart cant take it anymore#i know im making this sound like 100k words of just fluff but believe me its not#its 30 years of pain and internalised homophobia and time away and falling in love and raising a kid and not once talking about any of it#but the ending is so so so good and the additional parts from different povs literally left me wanting more#i cant do this someone help me go read this go read this go read this#and come cry with me how we cant ever read this for the first time ever again#also shoutout to the commander once again for the insane amount of preplanning and research into the navy theyve done to write this fic#im forver thankful. sorry im a stalker
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おかえりなさい…
#ya'll know that one hadestown song i shared and said reminded me of the moment kara & kuro reunite after his hell adventures?#yeah. i finally drew it.#drawing and looking at this makes me want to gnaw on my arm gOD.#i didn't post it with the other kurokara doodles bc it felt so out of place it was the only serious thing i drew 😭#ya'll can imagine how kuro fucking doing para-para would undercut the emotion going on here#also i imagine that kuroba would usually hit kara w/ a “ welcome back / okaeri! ” whenever he comes into the shop#which tickles him but i want ya'll to read the caption as '' welcome home. '' bc that's the emotion kuro would have here.#gay asses.#i too am a gay ass and i'm about to burst into flames they make me feel batshit#osmt#yumematsu#karamatsu#mj ocs#oc : kuroba#ship : kurokara#mj draws
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k hold on im going insane. so. what i just said abt dean beating up the car instead of sam. the Next Episode is the one where sam is like “you miss dad sooo bad and i can see right through you” “you can’t just substitute him with whoever you want.” and then dean punches him. guys if sam KNEW.
then sam is Begging dean to hit him. you don’t GET IT HES CRAZY.
dean doesn’t want to show these emotions to sam. he wants to be strong for him. so he tells gordon about them instead. but sam sees dean choosing gordon over him, believing gordon instead of sam. sam wants to be his equal, not his kid. dean doesn’t think sam knows what he’s doing. but sam understands dean’s emotions more than dean does.
so he goads dean into hitting him, just to prove he can take it. “you can hit me all you want. it still won’t change anything.”
we Know from how hands-on he is when sam gets injured that dean uses physical touch instead of words to show his emotions. if sam saw him fuck up the car, saw his warning, he knows that dean is struggling and wants sam out of the way so he doesn’t hurt him. dean might not even realize he’s doing it, but sam does.
and sam doesn’t let it go. sam shows dean that he’s here for him, no matter what dean does. if dean needs an outlet for his emotions, then sam will make sure it’s him. he doesn’t care that dean is messy and angry and mean right now. those emotions, those punches, are for sam. not for gordon, not for a monster, not even for his car. for sam.
#he’s so fucked in the head#i know there’s a bunch of posts abt this scene alr#but it’s making me even crazier today#the more i think abt sam realizing that dean is For Him the crazier i become#bcs dean will do it. hell do anything sam wants. literally anything#like sam is the sub but he’s also so completely in charge. Fuck#like. deans emotions are so completely about sam it’s actually crazy#even in this case where they’re about dad. they’re mostly about sam#everything is about sam to him#mars.txt#masochist sam#obsessive sam#wincest#i love you crazy girl#sex and violence#<3333#spn studies
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Oh oh oh, them holding hands? Or hugging after S3 because I'm a sucker for some fluffy angst
Aw HELL yeah dude snuggly mushy stuff is my favorite fuckin thing so why not both!!
Holding hands while they wreak havoc hdjfhsjhsjsb
God season 3 makes me WEEP AAAAHHFJFJSHSHDHSHGS 😭😭😭
Although personally I felt very let down by the ending (I just found it kind of narratively unsatisfying) so I like to imagine an au where Sam abruptly remembers that they’ve been to hell and that’s def where Max went, so he just calls Jurgen over the hell customer service line and bothers him until they finally yeet Max back out due to pure annoyance lmaooo
#but let’s be honest either way Sam gonna be fucked UP over it all#bro he went through so much shit and then didn’t sleep for a week and didn’t even get his original husband back……..screaming and crying#like!!!! it just doesn’t feel fair to either of them to me it makes alt max feel like a consolation prize to avoid how upsetting it all is#and that’s not even touching how they’ve LITERALLY BEEN TO AND ESCAPED HELL GO LOOK FOR HIM THERE#anyway. having emotions for all eternity#sam and max#sam and max freelance police#freelance husbands#the devil's playhouse#the devil’s playhouse spoilers#my art#asks
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Been having a rough couple of days. Send me asks?
#Long story short: I’m quitting my job! Yippee!! 🎉#Don’t wanna get TOO into it but I’m so fucking tired of being treated like shit and getting blamed for things completely out of my control#I’m done. I’ve BEEN done for months at this point#And now it’s at the point where my boss doesn’t think I’m doing my job right bc she keeps finding issues that again. Aren’t my fault#I’m sorry I can’t control everything for you! I don’t have that kind of power! I can’t make things magically happen the way you want!!#My other coworkers have been undergoing the same bullshit treatment so I know I’m not alone#But yeah I’m getting the hell out of dodge. My mental health has been sooooooo bad lately#I cannae. I’m going to end up dead in a ditch at this rate#Had the WORST panic attack of my life yesterday and my mom and I were both like. Yeah. It’s time for you to leave#Have fun running the department without me! Bye!! :)))))#Shima speaks#Vent#Anyway I’m a goddamn mess. Sorry. Lol!#I’m dreading going back to work on Monday I would literally rather claw my own eyeballs out#It SUCKS bc I know none of this is my fault but I still feel like shit anyway.#And I WANT to draw bc it’s the one thing that makes me happy but I just#Can’t. Right now. I’m not in a good emotional state#It feels like physical torture to sit down at my desk and put my pen to my tablet#Slams my head into the wall#I’m soooo tired girlies. I’m so over it#Anyway. Send me asks. Keep me company while I try not to have another breakdown. Tee hee <3
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Called my healthcare marketplace to unlock my account bc I forgot a security thing, and the guy over the phone proceeded to:
Get all my info and account's email, confirmed that was me, yet still kept asking for other emails associated with our address in a very confusing way where I thought he was asking for a backup email separate from the one I used, NOT the one tied to the account. Then he actually asked for the backup email, great
and reset for the wrong person in our family, despite the fact those accounts have our NAMES ON THEM
Also I'm pretty sure dude was stoned as all hell, which explains basically everything
I'm so tired
#My tactic if I can't get my damn renewing health insurance canceled directly is to just not pay the premium#Not ideal but I am So Tired and I am under so much stress I feel like I'm going to collapse into a star#My meds make me stressed easier (but have higher emotional highs so that's nice?) AND I'm at like 1gb left of mental RAM#and what the FUCK can I do when there's 300000 barriers for me to jump over that are never explained to me or THEY do it wrong#or neglect to inform me on necessary steps????? HELL THE FUCK O?
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also I'll keep my thoughts about this in the tags, don't look if you don't want any leaked information, but the video of viktor's chinese voice actor.... have any of you seen it......... because.......
#haven't stopped thinking about it to be honest#and I probably won't until act 3 is out#basically if you haven't seen it#the chinese voice actor for viktor posted him reading some of vik's lines from act 3#'i once thought I could put an end to the suffering in this world'#'but what lay ahead of me was nothing but foggy solitude'#ohhhhhh he's so machine herald#vik who was so focused on being able to finally make a difference and save people#so blinded by the newfound potential the hexcore gave him#so hurt by the betrayal of the council making weapons that all he wanted was peace#but realizing none of it was right#emotion is a curse but deep down he knows it's inescapable#ohhh machine herald fans we are back#I just need viktor to choose for himself#for him to choose to modify his body and attempt to distance himself from his emotions#not singed or ambessa or the hexcore#because the one thing I dislike most about his story is his complete lack of agency#when him deciding his own future for himself#was his main driving point in his original story#also still selfishly hoping that his design will be very similar to his current one if not exact#if they remove the hexclaw. trust you will be hearing from my lawyers#also 'only you. made me see this truth.'#just say you wanna kiss that hammer man already fucking hell man
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no ok we finished episode 2 what they have done to katara is unforgivable. they have completed zapped every ounce of her personality away. why. why. look how they massacred my girl
#i haven't even GOTTEN to azula mai and ty lee i'm scared#why the hell they're even IN season 1 is beyond me but whatever#i cannot fucking believe the amount of exposition dumping. did a 10 year old write this#this actually would be a very good lesson for young beginner writers actually#if someone's like 'i don't really get the show don't tell rule' show them this. then show them the cartoon. THAT is show don't tell#all. they. do. is. TELL. it's INSANE#zuko is the best actor at least but that's kind of like winning a game of chess against a broom#it's statistically impossible that they could only find ONE actor who can deliver a line competently. it's impossible#i delivered better lines pretending to earth bend w my sister at age 7#i'm so confused about katara though.#like yeah the 'sokka can't be sexist that's problematic (that was the entire point)' is stupid#but that is at least AN explanation for why he's different. why on earth would you make katara like that#i can't even make an ember island players joke. at least their katara showed emotion???#really fun hate watch to do w other avatar fans 10/10 recommend#when gran gran started saying the intro and it was so awkward jdskfjdsfldsjfslkfjlkfs i was LOSING IT
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love my bad mental health, love being suicidal all the time
#abc shut it#im tired of fighting it and trying to participate in life when it feels like i dont exist#love being lonely and then being told its due to my bad mental health so i pretend it doesnt affect me and i try and be myself#and no one likes me and i dont exist unless i remind people im a person so its kinda like#at a point where its not just suicidal ideation#its just a situation of /when/ and not if haha#ive been alive for 26 years and 20 of those have been exhausting as hell im ready to be done#exhausting and lonely and isolating im sick of it#i try and i try and my life doesnt get better or anymore worth living#and when i vent abt it i get told i need to try harder and im not trying at all and i need to stop being so depressed#its hard to not be depressed when the universe gives everyone around me a better experiences than me#i feel like im screaming that im here please pay attention#and nothing#i talk and my voice gets ignored or i get talked over#i post online to try and start conversations or make friends and i just get ignored#like do i exist at all to anyone else but myself#im trying to reach out and make friends but none of the ppl i wanna make friends with seem interested in having a conversation with me#i add all these people to discord and message them all the time#but nothing gets passed me sending them messages no one ever fucking messages me first#it feels like no one thinks about me and i dont matter#literally no one gives a fuck what i have to say#or anytime i talked im corrected on SOMETHING i say or i get a belittled in response#i cant do this shit anymore i cant#no one gives a shit about what i have to say and its really coming across that no one likes me#bc if my friends cant text me first or respond to my messages at all#why am i in the wrong feeling like im alone and have no friends when im the only one reaching out ever if i wanna have a conversation#and when i do feel like im allowed to talk i just talk and talk and talk and know the people dont give a shit abt what i have to say#i jsut feel like im here to be talked at and do things for other people and nothing more#that whenever i have an emotion its wrong and i need to bottle it up#and i dont eve get a chance to learn how to manage my emotions bc it feels like im going to get scolded or belittled for feeling things
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seriously debating whether or not I can handle the emotional damage of starting torchwood rn… hm. many thoughts.
#‘but sunny why wouldn’t you wanna watch an entire spin-off show solely dedicated to like your second favorite dw character-‘#BECAUSE IM SCARED OK. I DONT KNOW WHY. IM SCARED OF IT HURTING ME#I know Jack gets a bit darker in that show and I am scared it will make me like him less bc he is pure angelic baby in my eyes#and I don’t wanna be mad at him :((( also I already know that his cute boyfriend fucking dies so like. emotional damage#I already know it’s just gonna be sad as hell 😭😭#but also…. jack harkness…….. my baby boy….#and he actually gets to fuck!!!!#much to consider
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Man if Marcy keeps ending up with like child protection services in all these fics over her parents being slightly distant then my parents should be in JAIL
#idk if I'm wording it correctly but this goes hand in hand with some posts I#I've made abt Marcy's parents not being super great but also not being like...#like i didn't imagine them as outright abusive or deserving of losing custody over her#and people kept reblogging them and tagging them as abuse?? 😭😭#like if THAT is abuse. then what the fuck what up at my house#c'mon! her parents growing to kinda hate her because they couldn't stand her personality and failing to fulfill her emotional needs#while still always making sure she always had her material needs met#and doing their best not to blow up at her#resulting in them always acting mildly annoyed towards her#is not *really* abuse. right? like that's just how pretty much every parent feels tbh#like i've never seen a parent who genuinely likes their kids. every parent i know is either sick of them or morbidly depressed#like wondering why the hell they chose this life for themselves#some parents are just better at being optimistic and focusing on the nice parts than others#but not all have the mental fortitude to smile through the disgust and resentment they feel all the time#which tbh is an inhumane thing to ask from a person. parents are humans too and there's only so much a person can repress#i'm convinced parents like the boonchuys only exist in fiction#i just imagine Marcy's parents as being average parents who just don't always have the patience a kid like Marcy needs#like over here my parents are breaking my assistive devices and spying on me while i'm in the bathroom and I never considered that abuse#i just used to drive them insaneeeee back in the day lol#just like with friends and couples. sometimes parents and their kids aren't meant for each other y'know? and maybe that's just Marcy's case#i do know that's my case#but strangers online are here crying abuse for less#so now i'm like. hehehehe. say what now#personal
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Play 13 Sentinels I am no longer asking
#13sar#13 sentinels#Some maybe implied spoilers in tags#I am not okay in any way I love this game so excessively much#I'd need like a 500 slide powerpoint precentation but tldr#Hijiyama's route is my favourite and also Insanely good#Gouto's route is incredibly good and an unexpected favourite I didn't expect that to be as good as it was#They really saved the absolute best for last#I have beefed so much with how late Hiji's route is forced because I loved it from the prologue but I 100% understand and I am 100% okay#with it cause every single time I've been forced to wait for it it was so fucking worth it#Girlies after they finish Live to Protect and ESPECIALLY girlies after they finish Hiji's last event whose name escapes me now#But holy shit dude Hiji's route is excellent I can rant about it for hours#It's enjoyable as hell it's got Excellent plot reveals it hits EVERY emotional beat it pulls#Like she has it all#Not to say that the other routes don't they're all excellent Hiji's just my favourite out of the bunch and succeeds in All aspects#Whereas some routes like Yuki's I feel are Completely carried by how enjoyable Yuki herself is#While not succeeding as much in say the plot department#Which isn't a Problem but it's just something which makes me prefer routes over each other when some can hit Everything it tries while#others might neglect certain aspects in favour of others which doesn't make it Worse but makes it less complete as such
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