#fucking hell they make me so emotional
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So I was looking through Rei's appellations and:
This is so fucking sad???
SHU CALLED HIM HIS FRIEND. HE'S STILL ONE OF NATSUME'S BELOVED NII-SAN'S. THEY LOVED HIM SO MUCH, THEY STILL LOVE HIM UNCONDITIONALLY.
Even when Kanata would've drowned himself if not for Chiaki grabbing him, even when Shu was being barely kept alive by a desperate Mika, even when Wataru smiled and tried to reassure them as he calmly walked to his execution, even when Natsume could only cry from the shadows - none of them ever resented him for it.
But Rei resents himself, because he couldn't save them, or Ritsu, or Koga, or anyone he cared about.
And that is why he can't let them be that close - it'll only hurt them more when he lets them down again.
#rei does everything now under the guise of being this wise serene grandfather who knows all the answers#a child who did everything to find his brother a cure only for ritsu to resent him for leaving him scared and vulnerable#a child who tried so hard to lead them and could only react in horror when shu and kanata were executed#a child who so desperately tried to shield natsume from the worst and later realized how much more he hurt watching his nii-san's suffer#a child who watched wataru accept that they couldn't be saved and watched as the least gleam of hope fell in front of his eyes#But he was a child. He was 17 years old.#shu and wataru and kanata were too#they were the age of tori tetora midori shinobu hiiro hinata yuta tomoya hajime mitsuru tsukasa and sora and they were being executed#natsume was aira and kohaku's age. and instead of squealing over idols and engaging in harmless mischief he was fighting to survive#fucking hell they make me so emotional#ensemble stars#enstars#five eccentrics#five oddballs#enstars relationships#enstars appellations#rei sakuma#kanata shinkai#wataru hibiki#natsume sakasaki#shu itsuki
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sometimes I think of all the on-the-surface warm, well-meaning but deeply ineffectual advice and attention john gives harrow through harrow the ninth (make some soup and get some sleep! get a hobby! don't be so hard on yourself! self care harrow! as long as I need take no actual responsibility in this relationship whatsoever I would have loved to be your dad!) set up against the stark truth that with his other hand he has been staging her attempted horrific murder again and again and again like a living nightmare on the logic that it will 'put her down or fix her'. and then I find that I wish there is a hell. a special hell where twitch streamers turned necromantic death emperors go
#the locked tomb#harrowhark nonagesimus#john gaius#harrow the ninth#this is why I don't buy john as misunderstood and initially well-meaning AT ALL#this is a pattern you see with him again and again and again -- right down to his interpersonal relationships#(and indeed it's in the more grounded interpersonal relationships you can most clearly see him as he is I think#the fantasy death empire of a thousand years doesn't register quite as viscerally because it's like. heightened; not quite real#but the emotional violence and manipulation that surrounds him? oh boy that is EXTREMELY real and scarily well-observed)#there's a premeditation to so much of what he does (contracts with planets that only end 'in the event of the emperor's death' anyone?#yeah john we get it you're hilarious and I wish you weren't)#the greatest trick john ever pulled was making anyone think he's just a lil guy. what does he know he's only god#when you first read the book the complete callousness of the other adults is so horrible that john seems like an oasis of care#(though you start to get this uneasy feeling when that care never seems to translate to like... relief or soothing or resolution)#and it makes it feel almost obscene when you find out what's actually going on#it's the mercy & augustine enabler hour but at least they're completely honest in their cruelty there#while john is -- well he sure is being john huh#this is just me being angry with him btw philosophically I don't think this is how the story will or should end#(with john slam dunked right into hell that is)#it's just... harrow is so vulnerable. and what he does to her is so insidious and fucked up#john is very deeply human. unfortunately the capacity to quite simply suck so much is deeply human too
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Not to take away from the anti-ai commentary because it was honestly one of my favorite things about the dlc, but I think that the fact that when they tried to replicate Alan's writing with an actual human being and that also failed, it speaks volumes of how grossly wrong the FBC and the Marmonts are in their understanding of what Art is. You can admire someone else's art, be inspired by it, take aspects of it and incorporate into your own art with your own artistic touch, but when you start looking at art and think I want to do that exact same thing, in the exact same way, without putting anything of your own self into it, that's when you seize to be an artist. You're just a glorified copy machine at that point.
That is exactly what they wanted Ed to be, a copy machine. But Ed, being a true artist at heart, did not become a copy machine. Through his idle dialogue, you can clearly hear how much he actually admires Alan's writing (even if he doesn't know what it is), how he starts forming his own interpretations of it and meanings behind it, meanings that make sense to him specifically, and THEN he starts incorporating it into his own writing. Alan's writing inspired him, breaking him out of his own writer's block, but it was never his intention to imitate or copy Alan.
Of course, Diana hated that. This is not what she wanted, this is not what she was promised. And it really shows you not just how cruel she is as a person, but also how fucking stupid she is despite being a scientist, that her one big idea to redirect Ed into the "right" artistic direction was to introduce abuse and violence into the equation.
#the marmonts: let's abuse our test subjects that'll surely get the artistic juices flowing 🤗#fuck right off I hope you're rotting in hell#i have thoughts on jules/lane as well but if i start writing about lane i'm gonna start crying lol#this dlc just gave me so many emotions... so much to think about...#i'm not particularly good at putting down my thoughts in an eloquent manner but damn. this dlc is making me try#alan wake 2#the lake house#lake house spoilers#ed booker#diana marmont#vg
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No jokes here. The Navy’s best pilot and the Navy’s best admiral. Between them, eight air-to-air combat kills and five stars. These were men who commanded respect with or without your approval. This was the picture of ruthless competence.
Debriefing (& Other Stories) • part 2 of Easier Done Than Said by @compacflt
#easier done than said by COMPACFLT#this is one of my alltime favourite fics rn#and probably for the rest of time too#its a topgun fic written by COMPACFLT and its insane and its so fucking good#its basically a canon rewrite of#top gun 1986#and#top gun maverick#and spans thirty years of Ice and Mavs relationship#theres just so much in this#so much emotion and characterization and everything#which has driven me insane that im having one hell of a dopamine comedown this week after having read it#i highly reccomended people go read it cause its just really that good#pete maverick mitchell#tom iceman kazansky#bradley rooster bradshaw#jake hangman seresin#i love how the commander wrote mav and ice in this. like theyre clearly military men#but theyre also SO much more#icemav#and theyve taken the canon 'whos the best pilot' and given its own twist#'hes the best pilot in the world'#my heart cant take it anymore#i know im making this sound like 100k words of just fluff but believe me its not#its 30 years of pain and internalised homophobia and time away and falling in love and raising a kid and not once talking about any of it#but the ending is so so so good and the additional parts from different povs literally left me wanting more#i cant do this someone help me go read this go read this go read this#and come cry with me how we cant ever read this for the first time ever again#also shoutout to the commander once again for the insane amount of preplanning and research into the navy theyve done to write this fic#im forver thankful. sorry im a stalker
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おかえりなさい…
#ya'll know that one hadestown song i shared and said reminded me of the moment kara & kuro reunite after his hell adventures?#yeah. i finally drew it.#drawing and looking at this makes me want to gnaw on my arm gOD.#i didn't post it with the other kurokara doodles bc it felt so out of place it was the only serious thing i drew 😭#ya'll can imagine how kuro fucking doing para-para would undercut the emotion going on here#also i imagine that kuroba would usually hit kara w/ a “ welcome back / okaeri! ” whenever he comes into the shop#which tickles him but i want ya'll to read the caption as '' welcome home. '' bc that's the emotion kuro would have here.#gay asses.#i too am a gay ass and i'm about to burst into flames they make me feel batshit#osmt#yumematsu#karamatsu#mj ocs#oc : kuroba#ship : kurokara#mj draws
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k hold on im going insane. so. what i just said abt dean beating up the car instead of sam. the Next Episode is the one where sam is like “you miss dad sooo bad and i can see right through you” “you can’t just substitute him with whoever you want.” and then dean punches him. guys if sam KNEW.
then sam is Begging dean to hit him. you don’t GET IT HES CRAZY.
dean doesn’t want to show these emotions to sam. he wants to be strong for him. so he tells gordon about them instead. but sam sees dean choosing gordon over him, believing gordon instead of sam. sam wants to be his equal, not his kid. dean doesn’t think sam knows what he’s doing. but sam understands dean’s emotions more than dean does.
so he goads dean into hitting him, just to prove he can take it. “you can hit me all you want. it still won’t change anything.”
we Know from how hands-on he is when sam gets injured that dean uses physical touch instead of words to show his emotions. if sam saw him fuck up the car, saw his warning, he knows that dean is struggling and wants sam out of the way so he doesn’t hurt him. dean might not even realize he’s doing it, but sam does.
and sam doesn’t let it go. sam shows dean that he’s here for him, no matter what dean does. if dean needs an outlet for his emotions, then sam will make sure it’s him. he doesn’t care that dean is messy and angry and mean right now. those emotions, those punches, are for sam. not for gordon, not for a monster, not even for his car. for sam.
#he’s so fucked in the head#i know there’s a bunch of posts abt this scene alr#but it’s making me even crazier today#the more i think abt sam realizing that dean is For Him the crazier i become#bcs dean will do it. hell do anything sam wants. literally anything#like sam is the sub but he’s also so completely in charge. Fuck#like. deans emotions are so completely about sam it’s actually crazy#even in this case where they’re about dad. they’re mostly about sam#everything is about sam to him#mars.txt#masochist sam#obsessive sam#wincest#i love you crazy girl#sex and violence#<3333#spn studies
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another angle of this beautiful solo [x]
#joker out#jan peteh#with bonus yearning nace#i literally can't take this his playing is just so fucking beatiful#jan je bog#truly#that's gonna be my tag for jan solos that make me emotional because fucking hell#i can normally refrain from sending stuff about them to my friends but this i have to show them#he's literally a genius
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Oh oh oh, them holding hands? Or hugging after S3 because I'm a sucker for some fluffy angst
Aw HELL yeah dude snuggly mushy stuff is my favorite fuckin thing so why not both!!
Holding hands while they wreak havoc hdjfhsjhsjsb
God season 3 makes me WEEP AAAAHHFJFJSHSHDHSHGS 😭😭😭
Although personally I felt very let down by the ending (I just found it kind of narratively unsatisfying) so I like to imagine an au where Sam abruptly remembers that they’ve been to hell and that’s def where Max went, so he just calls Jurgen over the hell customer service line and bothers him until they finally yeet Max back out due to pure annoyance lmaooo
#but let’s be honest either way Sam gonna be fucked UP over it all#bro he went through so much shit and then didn’t sleep for a week and didn’t even get his original husband back……..screaming and crying#like!!!! it just doesn’t feel fair to either of them to me it makes alt max feel like a consolation prize to avoid how upsetting it all is#and that’s not even touching how they’ve LITERALLY BEEN TO AND ESCAPED HELL GO LOOK FOR HIM THERE#anyway. having emotions for all eternity#sam and max#sam and max freelance police#freelance husbands#the devil's playhouse#the devil’s playhouse spoilers#my art#asks
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Been having a rough couple of days. Send me asks?
#Long story short: I’m quitting my job! Yippee!! 🎉#Don’t wanna get TOO into it but I’m so fucking tired of being treated like shit and getting blamed for things completely out of my control#I’m done. I’ve BEEN done for months at this point#And now it’s at the point where my boss doesn’t think I’m doing my job right bc she keeps finding issues that again. Aren’t my fault#I’m sorry I can’t control everything for you! I don’t have that kind of power! I can’t make things magically happen the way you want!!#My other coworkers have been undergoing the same bullshit treatment so I know I’m not alone#But yeah I’m getting the hell out of dodge. My mental health has been sooooooo bad lately#I cannae. I’m going to end up dead in a ditch at this rate#Had the WORST panic attack of my life yesterday and my mom and I were both like. Yeah. It’s time for you to leave#Have fun running the department without me! Bye!! :)))))#Shima speaks#Vent#Anyway I’m a goddamn mess. Sorry. Lol!#I’m dreading going back to work on Monday I would literally rather claw my own eyeballs out#It SUCKS bc I know none of this is my fault but I still feel like shit anyway.#And I WANT to draw bc it’s the one thing that makes me happy but I just#Can’t. Right now. I’m not in a good emotional state#It feels like physical torture to sit down at my desk and put my pen to my tablet#Slams my head into the wall#I’m soooo tired girlies. I’m so over it#Anyway. Send me asks. Keep me company while I try not to have another breakdown. Tee hee <3
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i love and post a lot about entomologist roach but what about roach who got his callsign because he was terrified of insects and someone saw him freak out when he saw a cockroach
#so they call him that forever#he secretly cherishes when ghost calls him sergeant or sanderson because he hates hearing the word roach come out of ghosts mouth like that#ghost has no idea#the first time ghost calls him gary he almost cries#like idk man military culture is really harsh and mean and sometimes i think we all forget that#if none of yall have seen it up close like. idk how the BRA is but in the u.s. military them mfs really are mean as hell#its part of the abusive cycle that keeps service members conditioned to accept their treatment imo. the military abuses the fuck out of#everyone so service members all engage in 'joking' verbal&emotional abuse with each other to cope#because if its coming from your fellow service member its camaraderie right#and big daddy government cant hurt you if you and your bestie are already calling each other worse shit#sorry that shit makes me kinda depressed. anyway#gary roach sanderson#roach cod#cod roach#roach call of duty#call of duty roach#idea tag
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no ok we finished episode 2 what they have done to katara is unforgivable. they have completed zapped every ounce of her personality away. why. why. look how they massacred my girl
#i haven't even GOTTEN to azula mai and ty lee i'm scared#why the hell they're even IN season 1 is beyond me but whatever#i cannot fucking believe the amount of exposition dumping. did a 10 year old write this#this actually would be a very good lesson for young beginner writers actually#if someone's like 'i don't really get the show don't tell rule' show them this. then show them the cartoon. THAT is show don't tell#all. they. do. is. TELL. it's INSANE#zuko is the best actor at least but that's kind of like winning a game of chess against a broom#it's statistically impossible that they could only find ONE actor who can deliver a line competently. it's impossible#i delivered better lines pretending to earth bend w my sister at age 7#i'm so confused about katara though.#like yeah the 'sokka can't be sexist that's problematic (that was the entire point)' is stupid#but that is at least AN explanation for why he's different. why on earth would you make katara like that#i can't even make an ember island players joke. at least their katara showed emotion???#really fun hate watch to do w other avatar fans 10/10 recommend#when gran gran started saying the intro and it was so awkward jdskfjdsfldsjfslkfjlkfs i was LOSING IT
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seriously debating whether or not I can handle the emotional damage of starting torchwood rn… hm. many thoughts.
#‘but sunny why wouldn’t you wanna watch an entire spin-off show solely dedicated to like your second favorite dw character-‘#BECAUSE IM SCARED OK. I DONT KNOW WHY. IM SCARED OF IT HURTING ME#I know Jack gets a bit darker in that show and I am scared it will make me like him less bc he is pure angelic baby in my eyes#and I don’t wanna be mad at him :((( also I already know that his cute boyfriend fucking dies so like. emotional damage#I already know it’s just gonna be sad as hell 😭😭#but also…. jack harkness…….. my baby boy….#and he actually gets to fuck!!!!#much to consider
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Man if Marcy keeps ending up with like child protection services in all these fics over her parents being slightly distant then my parents should be in JAIL
#idk if I'm wording it correctly but this goes hand in hand with some posts I#I've made abt Marcy's parents not being super great but also not being like...#like i didn't imagine them as outright abusive or deserving of losing custody over her#and people kept reblogging them and tagging them as abuse?? 😭😭#like if THAT is abuse. then what the fuck what up at my house#c'mon! her parents growing to kinda hate her because they couldn't stand her personality and failing to fulfill her emotional needs#while still always making sure she always had her material needs met#and doing their best not to blow up at her#resulting in them always acting mildly annoyed towards her#is not *really* abuse. right? like that's just how pretty much every parent feels tbh#like i've never seen a parent who genuinely likes their kids. every parent i know is either sick of them or morbidly depressed#like wondering why the hell they chose this life for themselves#some parents are just better at being optimistic and focusing on the nice parts than others#but not all have the mental fortitude to smile through the disgust and resentment they feel all the time#which tbh is an inhumane thing to ask from a person. parents are humans too and there's only so much a person can repress#i'm convinced parents like the boonchuys only exist in fiction#i just imagine Marcy's parents as being average parents who just don't always have the patience a kid like Marcy needs#like over here my parents are breaking my assistive devices and spying on me while i'm in the bathroom and I never considered that abuse#i just used to drive them insaneeeee back in the day lol#just like with friends and couples. sometimes parents and their kids aren't meant for each other y'know? and maybe that's just Marcy's case#i do know that's my case#but strangers online are here crying abuse for less#so now i'm like. hehehehe. say what now#personal
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Play 13 Sentinels I am no longer asking
#13sar#13 sentinels#Some maybe implied spoilers in tags#I am not okay in any way I love this game so excessively much#I'd need like a 500 slide powerpoint precentation but tldr#Hijiyama's route is my favourite and also Insanely good#Gouto's route is incredibly good and an unexpected favourite I didn't expect that to be as good as it was#They really saved the absolute best for last#I have beefed so much with how late Hiji's route is forced because I loved it from the prologue but I 100% understand and I am 100% okay#with it cause every single time I've been forced to wait for it it was so fucking worth it#Girlies after they finish Live to Protect and ESPECIALLY girlies after they finish Hiji's last event whose name escapes me now#But holy shit dude Hiji's route is excellent I can rant about it for hours#It's enjoyable as hell it's got Excellent plot reveals it hits EVERY emotional beat it pulls#Like she has it all#Not to say that the other routes don't they're all excellent Hiji's just my favourite out of the bunch and succeeds in All aspects#Whereas some routes like Yuki's I feel are Completely carried by how enjoyable Yuki herself is#While not succeeding as much in say the plot department#Which isn't a Problem but it's just something which makes me prefer routes over each other when some can hit Everything it tries while#others might neglect certain aspects in favour of others which doesn't make it Worse but makes it less complete as such
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Some may say that LarPhee is enemies to lovers, but the true enemy all along was just McPhee fighting himself.
#please guys#here me OUT#PLEASE#McPhee clearly shows affection towards Larry at the end of second film#hell even in the third film#but he also so clearly bottled up these emotions#bc A. he doesn’t feel worthy enough#B. he’s scared of another relationship failing#or C. Larry just keeps fucking leaving ABDSJJA#Larry leaving is a problem all in itself#they both have such avoidant attachment issues omfg#they need each other#but they’re so scared to fuck shit up#they make me crazy#PLEASE GUYS LISTEN TO ME#(I’m going insane)#larry daley#night at the museum#natm#LarPhee#museum dads#ask me questions#ask box#pls YALL give me your opinions
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Reading my fave thin man and lady fic. Kicking my feet a lot because tbh. Sometimes a sad man really is just a weird woman's science project in a way that is so homoerotic
#carols.txt#when i tell you i've been re-reading this single one shot religiously every single month for almost three years I mean it#《straight》 ship so good we call it queerbaiting#LMAOOOOOO#call it yaoyuri the way these old people r tragic and doomed by the narrative or whatever#listen as a bi person on the aroace spectrum whatever this fic was trying to convey really strikes a cord#while its not the same as my own this characterization of them is so intriguing. im so hooked on it#^^ one thing i think this person really nailed was thin man's immaturity (stemming from his emotions oftentime being too big to control) ->#and the desire of attention that comes with said immaturity while also having the lady be both cold (normal) and intrigued in a way that ->#that really fits her character. curiosity is one of the many facets that make up her character that don't get explored much and i think its#done so well here for like no reason💀 THIS AUTHOR COOKED TOO HARD YOU GUYS#like ofc she wouldnt send him away. shes studying him under a microscope. even though hes annoying as hell#thin man is plagued by sassy man syndrome in this which is really fucking funny cus it lasts a total of 3 seconds before she finds him out#PLUS THE TALK ABOUT THE TOWER AND THE WORLD... AUGHHH#i need this author to give me their brain NOW#AUGHHHHHAAGGGHEEHH#everyone needs to start doing thinlady the way this person was doing it#this is the biblically accurate old people (in case my theory abt baby lady having been in the pale city is wrong)#live laugh love. its my birthday. spoiling myself a bit. goddamn.
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