#fucking TRAUMATISED.
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Even after all that "take responsibility" shit Jimmy kept telling himself, he still took the only way out that â in theory â doesn't hurt. The quickest way out. Everyone else went through so much physical pain and gives himself one bullet this makes me sick
#this game#ooohhh this fucking game#its so good and horribly traumatising at the same time#jimmy makes me so fucking mad though#he truly is a damn coward#mouthwashing
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âWhat happened to the young boy who came into my chambers just a few years ago?â
Well, I mean, everyone heâs ever loved is either dead or about to die, so Iâd wager on that. I mean, I could be wrong, but.
#bbc merlin#merlin#merlin spoilers#honestly Merlin is so fucking traumatised#itâs such a fun show#but then you think about it#and you realise just how tragic the whole thing is#he did everything he could#but there was nothing that could change the inevitable#but he tried so hard to defy fate anyway#even knowing the outcome#great now Iâm sad
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The Three D's
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I have a horrible habit of dropping any series-comics I try to make, so I thought it'd do a little story-ish ask event!!
So far, we've got the three D's: Dogday, Daddy Long Legs, and Drew.
Basic info and closeups!
Drew, he/him, 18 yrs: the horror-loving nephew of an old Playtime Co. employee. Squawks like a strangled bird when surprised.
Daddy Long Legs, aka: "Pops:" If you could find a loving father from the 20s who wasn't a misogynist. Misses his wife, but doesn't blame Drew for her death.
Dogday, aka: "Deedee" or "Dogs:" The last, overly traumatised Smiling Critter who really needs a hug. Drew found him some spare legs in a closet somewhere.
Without dirt and grime:
#Drew's pants got shredded in the train crash so he stole Miss Delight's skirt#and sewed part of his shirt to make pants#it's a little crusty#Woah Drew's got two dads? lucky#two orange coded mfs and a blue bitch/pos#all of them are traumatised#but only one is desensitised#That train crash fucked Drew UP dawg#he was so pissed#Poppy's gonna catch these hands frfr#dogday finds comfort in taking care of others#but REALLY likes being taken care of#Daddy long legs is just kinda there#love him though#dogday#dogday poppy playtime#daddy long legs#daddy long legs poppy playtime#drew poppy playtime#drew garland#three d's#pops poppy playtime#art#phrart#ask phrog#poppy playtime#poppy playtime chapter 3#poppy playtime fanart
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how did we as a society move on from 'you're the only friend i have and i couldn't bear to lose you'. like??? why does no one talk about this. i personally never recovered
#i dont CARE if we're supposed to think he was joking#i don't buy that no homo bullshit#arthur MEANT that#he's just emotionally repressed and traumatised so he tried to play it off as a joke#he has never meant something so much#he knows it#merlin knows it#the knights know it#the whole fucking castle knows it#i think the showrunners were the only ones who didn't#merlin#merthur#arthur pendragon#merlin emrys#uther pendragon's a plus parenting#guinevere#morgana pendragon#uther pendragon#long suffering leon#leon the long suffering#knights of the round table
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One of these scogan Post-X-Men: Days of the Future Past fics where Logan changes things so everyone from the original timeline is alive and heâs back at the school and about to find out somehow that he and Scott are a thing in this new timeline, but first, after Logan is done explaining himself to Charles, Scott is charged with showing him the way to his room and they talk sort of but not really and all of a sudden they both hear a very happy âDad!â screamed through the hallway and they both turn and there is a little girl of age four (or more), smiling and running towards them and Logan doesnât get it because he hasnât seen her before and he had no idea a child so young could even be at this school and someone here is her father but who? Cyke himself? And heâs about tu turn to see if someone else is standing behind them when all of a sudden the girl slams herself against his legs with such force that it wavers his stance for a moment and surely she hurt herself just now because there is adamantium on his skeleton and there isnât any on hers and she is only a child after all but then he looks at her and not only is she completely okay, she is also staring at him and she is smiling and as much as it doesnât make sense, it slowly dawns on him and just as he is about to accept it, the girl lets him go and then hugs Scott, more gently but with no less amount of affection and Scott is affectionate right back but he is also trying to send her away. Only for a moment, though, so he can talk with Logan, and the little girl frowns and doesnât like it but caves in when he promises to get her some ice cream and Logan doesnât get it yet again and as if it wasnât already bad enough, the girl finally smiles again and nodds and then she says, âThanks, papa!â and runs back where she came from, leaving Logan so awestruck it feels as if heâs a mere breeze away from losing his balance.
Part II | Part III
#scogan#scott summers#cyclops#logan howlett#wolverine#x men#fanfiction ideas#hello yes Iâm indeed 24 years late#itâs not exactly my fault as I happen to be as old as the first movie#and I saw these films when I was little and they traumatised me for so long#that I can only now say that I saw them twice#and lo and behold#here I am in the scogan trenches#with this idea in my head which is getting more and more elaborate#donât know if a fic like this already exists#I wish it did#I hoped writing it down like this would help to a small degree#it did fuck all#but anyways#hope you enjoyed
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i dont think i will ever forgive what the internet did to DID because please explain to me how "your sense of self is so torn apart you think youre multiple people" turned into "youre actually multiple people"
do you understand what i mean? please understand what i mean
#kostik speaks#yes cat 3 are real things ive been told and things that honestly really traumatised me and ruined my relationship with myself & disorder#some reassurance im not the only person who finds this super upsetting would be nice#my mental illness: causes harrowing feelings of disconnection from my life and a tendency to disown and/or reject my identity#some people for some fucking reason: reinforces the mental illness in ways never thought possible#i love and appreciate everyone who knows about my bullshit and yet doesnt deny me my personhood or treat me like some freak#i got really triggered about this yesterday so ive deleted the bulk of the tags i wrote (dehumanisation trauma when)#but i stand by this and ive been assured i make sense so sure. posting#this is the real reason i hate giving my disorder by name if you even care. it is specifically this treatment#did tag
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Tw: Violence, suggestions of abuse, suggestions of bullying
A/N: I finally made a part two you guys!!! It was short and simple, the real stuff comes later :)
Part one>>
Your thoughts
The anxiety bubbled in your throat-or maybe that was bile- as the stench of cigars hit your nose. You followed the light smoke into the kitchen, your father seated at the table. His eyes scanned over you, narrowing as he did a double take. âYou're late.â His voice was rough and hoarse, maybe he didnât notice.
You hated that that was a good thing. âThe bus was lateâŠâ Your voice was barely a whisper, you were mumbling again. âSpeak up.â
âThe bus was late.â The stench of cigars was stronger as you saw a cloud of smoke surround your dad, it was a sight youâve seen for as long as you can remember. âThere's a door right there, canât you do that outside?â Nothing in your tone indicated sass, it was a genuine question. You waved your hands, even if you were used to the smell you still didnât like it. âYou can deal with it.â âAnd you can deal with smoking outside.â
Rude. Just rude, he stunk up the kitchen and he didnât even bother to use an ashtray. Just a mess for me to clean up. Why even bother? Shit. âFix your tone.â âRight, s-sorryâŠsorryâ
He turned around, giving you permission to leave the room. It was always a surprise to see him home, and if you were being honest? You wish he never came back.
Only thing you could see were the stairs, after every step they creaked. With your head down you made it to your bedroom, the familiar site making your shoulders feel heavier. You tried your best to close your door without a slam, and it was hard. Your fists needed to hit something, someone. And you hated it, but violence is just how your family does it. Violence
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. Monday 4:59 Jason Todd (Third person)
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Violent. Unstable.
Bruce's words echoed in his mind, sure the old man was probably just trying to get him back âhomeâ ,but to Jason? It just seemed like another way to cage him. Jason was an adult now, he learnt how to do adult things. And he did that alone. He could take care of himself, sure he forgets to clean his wounds sometimesâŠand he might be getting evicted-but still!
With a grunt, he fell onto the worn-out couch he owned. The familiarity of it made the tenseness in his shoulders decrease a little. It was a bad day. One thing on his mind was that kid, why were they all busted up? A small chuckle left his lips when he remembered what they said âYouâre not a wall??â they soundedâŠfunny.
Plus it was pretty dangerous for a kid to just be out and about in Gotham streets. The kid would be fine right?Â
They didnât seem weak butâŠbutâŠ
But why do I care?
With a sigh he fell asleep. If he canât do it at night, he might as well sleep the day away.
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.Tuesday 1:30 (Second Person)
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It felt like the walls were closing in on you, the rush of people getting to class. You hated it, the overlapping sounds of their footsteps and their mindless chatter. You could feel their sides as they passed by you, a few hands here and there, your head still hurt.Â
Two more hours of this bullshit. This wasnât going to work, you needed to skip. But you couldnât afford another detention, literally.Â
They threatened to expel you, your wrist still hurts from that night.
Your nerves were on fire, nothing could calm you down. Definitely not whatever useless subject you had next. Science was it? It was time to use the sick or injured card.Â
You had enough bruises and it worked last time, but that meant entering the classroom, raising your hand, people having their eyes on you as you asked to go to the nurse.
Ah
They implied that new rule, the one where your parents would have to pick you up. Of-fucking-course!Â
Your life was as shitty as ever, and that damned limp had barely gotten better. At least the swelling on your ankle stopped. It had been like that for a week, it was probably a good idea to go to the nurse for that but why bother, then sheâd tell your parents. And no-one needs that.Â
Even though something at the back of your mind desperately wanted them to notice. While deep in though someone bumped into y-
âAh. Sorry about that.â The words held no real apology but at least he had the decency to apologise. âNo itâs alrigh-â holy f-it was the Wayne kid. â...t. I-Itâs fineâ
You didnât really know why but he always creeped you out, it was odd. I mean it was always odd seeing a proper Gotham elite not have some vendetta against you but that wasnât it. He had a particular distance from everyone, and his guard was always up. All he did was sit and watch, he read people well. Just like you didâŠmaybe that was it. The thought of someone knowing how you felt irked you, it just wasnât what you're used to. He looked down at the floor, maybe your ankle, and walked off. Leaving you with a small chill down your spine. Guess you had to get to Science, he was in your class anyway. Couldn't risk it, he might be a snitch. He did look like one.
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.3:19
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School was closed early after a villain was spotted nearby, which was odd they never really came this close to the school during the day. If there was a villain spotted nearby that meant-
ShitThe buses werenât coming. Even if you tried calling your Dad he would say heâs at âworkâ or âtoo busyâ and Mom was too ill to drive, that asshole probably took the car as well.
Guess that meant walking, you dreaded any time you had to walk. It was usually long and unbearable, going from the relatively clean streets to the graffiti-filled alleyways near where you lived.Â
The penthouses would turn into small apartment buildings, just further proof just how big the gap was from the privileged to the others.
When you had to walk you usually kept some sort of weapon on you. Everyone did. Didnât mean it wasnât going to suck.
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The dozens of kids slowly turned into three or five going the same way you were. Some behind and some in front, your old headphones blasting whatever emotional music you were listening to. When you turned the corner you saw him, them.Â
Instinctively your hands balled up into fists, they were laughing. A laugh that bounced around in your mind, you pray that they donât fucking notice you-
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Well never mind then.
âLook who we have hereâŠâ The boy had a mop of brown curly hair and a freckled face, he was a few inches shorter than you. It always made you chuckle, but today you just walked away, that's when you felt the collar of your shirt being pulled from behind. Do these dipshits get off on your torture or something? âHey-â Your reflexes were fast, too fast. Your elbow hit his jaw, fuck you hit him too hard. When you turned around, almost falling he almost pounced on you. Almost. He was grabbed by his collar, like a small kitten would be grabbed by their mother. You stepped back, looking up at the mans faceâŠhe seemed familiar.
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âWhy donât you pick on someone your own size? I saw a squirrel nearby, maybe that would do.â
#jason todd x reader#batfamily x reader#m3v loves you#platonic!reader#red hood#yandere!jason todd?#jason todd i love you#so i give you a traumatised kid#bullied!reader#bullying#child abuse#angst#sad themes#father figure#fuck school#damian wayne x reader#vigilante!reader#what is tags#idk man#im sad guys
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Ellie is 14 years old. And while she's, in some ways, mature for her age, she should not be asked to sacrifice herself for the whole world. "She should have been given a choice and we all know she would have been fine with dying if that meant there is a cure." Absolutely not. You do not ask a 14 year old to make a choice like that. Hell, I'd argue that it's not even a choice. The fact that it's adults that would tell her that makes it even more messed up. These cool adults who are out there trying to save people tells you that you are special, that you're the key to save humanity. Of course you're going to listen to them. Especially if you've gone through the things Ellie's been through. If she as an adult wants to make that decision, sure. But not when she's a scared, vulnerable child.
Should Joel have told her that he killed all of them to save her? Probably. Then he could have explained that she's valuable, not because she's possibly the key to a cure. But because she's a human being that has feelings, that deserves to live. And you could argue as much as you want that she's old enough or mature enough to make that choice. But I don't agree. Yes, she seems to be like that, we see her being snarky and tough but the more Joel shows that he cares about her, the more she lets that mask slip. And she acts like a child would act with their parents.
If her only goal was to reach the fireflies so that she could give herself to them to do whatever with her so that they could find a cure. She wouldn't have been so angry/upset that Joel didn't want to take her, why would it matter who took her there? Because Joel cares about her, and having him let her go hurt her. She could have left Joel to die and gone to find Tommy so that he could take her, like Joel asked her to do. But she didn't because she cares about him. The way she clings to Joel when he finds her and he calls her baby girl should tell you that she isn't ready to make a decision on whether she should sacrifice herself or not. SHE IS A CHILD. And Joel allows her to be a child.
I honestly have no problem with him killing them all to save her. "He took the choice from her!" What choice? They didn't give her a choice, they didn't tell her what would happen to her. And do you really think that they would ever give her a choice. If she'd said no, do you actually believe that they would go "Ah, well. Nothing we can do then, off you go with your new dad. Bye!" Don't make me laugh. They would have just done what they did now. Sedate her and begun to harvest her for what they needed. That's not a choice. She NEVER had a choice, Joel didn't take the choice from her because it was never there. It would have been an illusion of choice. She's also traumatised, most recently from her run in with David. And you want her to make a literal life or death choice?? I completely understand why Joel decided to go on a killing spree, he's protecting a vulnerable traumatised CHILD from people who doesn't care about her, who just wants to use her body for spare parts.
It's not about choice or not having a choice, it's about being valued as a person and not having your life taken away from you by vultures.
#the last of us spoilers#the last of us#no but the rage I feel when I see people who thinks a 14 year old is old enough to make that decision!#a TRAUMATISED child on top of that#the fireflies doesnât give a fuck about Ellie#they saw her as an object that they could kill they looked at that child and saw nothing but body parts#Joel has seen her as a human as a child who gets excited telling bad pun#*puns#and getting excited to feed a giraffe#the fireflies didnât ask her they didnât tell her what would happen#so fuck them Iâm glad Joel killed them all#Joel has done nothing wrong in his life ever and I stand by my man#Nicole watches stuff
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Seriously how can M*r*uders stans like random Slytherins (who tf are Evan Rosier, Pandora (is that Luna's mum and why tf is she Evan Rosier's twin in half of these), and I don't even want to discuss Regulus) and make them Actually Misunderstood Good People Who Were Forced Down That Path when at least one of them *coughreguluscough* was obsessed with Voldemort
And then turn around and make Snape an awful person?
#i saw a post with hcs about the marauders and the âslytherin skittlesâ#and i swear to god they gave everyone a lil nuance but snape was evil#just... how?????#im starting to wonder if they just can't accept that the marauders were actually horrible people as teens#and so in order to digest that they need to make snape awful to be like âOh but he DESERVED it because he's So Awfulâ#it's just ridiculous#like i hate james but i can also acknowledge that he did ultimately love lily and harry and would have been a loving partner and dad#even if he was a fool#and i don't vibe well with sirius but i also acknowledge that he was fucking traumatised so yeah he wouldn't be the best person#why is it so hard for the marauders stans to understand that their faves tormenting a geniunely innocent child#because honestly? severus was innocent from the start#they're the ones who pushed him over the edge#I've said it once and I'll it again:#being into the Dark Arts doesn't automatically make someone evil#anyway i need to go sleep#or at least try. i got very pissed lmao#severus snape#pro snape#anti marauders fandom#(not even anti marauders as much its their fandom that pisses me off)#also#anti james potter#(just because i want to be petty UwU)#snape defense#also you know what#anti regulus black#<-whoever he was it wasnt what the fandom said#in my mind he was one of the worst out of the black cousins from an early age#(mostly as a mental Fuck You to the stans lmao)
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bradley put a lot of effort into wiping out the devils nest, dont bring it back ling!
#i was going to use father instead of bradley but 1 i didnt have any pics of him and couldnt be bothered getting any#and 2 he interacts soooo little with his children he cant be blamed for the fucking up of their minds#he literally just got other people to traumatise his kids for him in wraths case#father techincally âmade him like thisâ aka unable to face the reality of his emotions#but bradley made it soooooo much worse by killing the friends he loved but wouldnt admit to loving bc hes an idiot#greed the avaricious#greedling#ling yao#wrath the furious#king bradley#fmab#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood#more low quality funnies#moss' madness
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A fascinating interview with Liam which was new to me (probably not for others) he really opens up to the interviewer about his childhood. He talks about experiencing nightmares because of Tommy's behaviour, about having anxiety as a child because of the constant feeling of dread he had about his dad. One of the most striking things he says is that as young as 6 he was aware that his dad's behaviour was not normal. Unlike Noel who tried to reason the abuse away by saying it was happening to all their mates too, Liam says he would be confused when he would go to friends houses and they weren't filled with tension and fear and their parents just sat around watching TV.
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#they were both so fucking traumatised#Tommy Gallagher was a monster#Liam Gallagher#oasis#noel gallagher#child abuse cw
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Petition to show this panel to all DC writers who include Jason Todd/Red Hood in their issues.
Is he a violent impulsive asshole sometimes? YES. Do all of his plans make sense? No! Is he coming from a place of deep trauma rage hurt and completely fucked up attachment disorders? Yes!
Is he a one-point-five-dimensional character whose entire personality is âangry gunsâ sprinkled with âreads Jane Austin, how unexpected!â?
NO.
#jason todd#red hood#batman#dc comics#justice for Jason Todd#batman: wayne family adventures#batfam wfa#wfa spoilers#jason todd has ptsd#Jason Todd would have been incredibly traumatised by his childhood before he ever met Batman#Jason Todd was already fucked up#Jason Todd needs therapy#Lazarus pit rage is a cop out#Jason Todd needs a hug#and lots of therapy#and maybe some medication#and a probiotic
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im going through the same emotional journey watching house md for the first time as i did while watching hannibal for the first time
like i go into it with the smallest of ideas of what the show generally is about, and a hunch that apparently theres two guys who will be fun to imagine as a ship because of some subjectively read homoerotic subtle subtext hints
and then i watch the show and its just. text. not even text the show should actually be called "they never kissed or fucked on screen but it would be less graphic than whatever the fuck im watching happen between these two"
#t4lx.txt#none of those words are in the bible#finishing s2 and im. the old man yaoi has gotten to me once again guys#not even just that but wilson and house both are just so interesting to me#i wanna see so much more of them. cannot wait for them both to get more fucked up#(i say this fully aware that im gonna be emotionally distraught upon it happening)#the homoerotically charged profound bond of middle aged traumatised emotionally repressed middle aged men is killing me#house md#hilson#bbc sherlock#hannibal#nbc hannibal#hannigram
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thinking about the character again (cinderpelt) and it's likely unintentional and a result of either her shifting narrative role from young go getter to wise mentor or a shift in how the books display their own politics but i find something really tragic in-universe in how she develops from a character who will actively and willingly break the warrior code when it conflicts with her own morals (immediately lying to cover for graystripe and silverstream, acting in direct defiance of her leadership to nurse littlecloud and whitethroat back to health) but overtime through her role she gradually grows more god-fearing and pious and embodies somewhat of a "starclan is always right, even when they are cruel, and we need to accept that" position
#i dont want to get too into the deeper philosophy behind cinderpelt's arc in twilight bc there's a lot of messier factors there#namely what is potentially intended to be a story about faith and emotional strength in the context of terminal illness#but in warrior cats fate is tied to starclan and starclan is also the theocratic government and the law and the status quo#and i think cinderpelt's character is an interesting microchosm of the influence that proximity to it can have#im interrupting a rant thread on my priv twitter to bring this point here instead but that's not even getting into how like#cinderpelt grew up in the bluestar era where bluestar was rebelling against starclan in a way that directly affected her own life#traumatising her sister with a demeaning name. indirectly killing her cousin. leading to the little+white situation.#leaving her (a child/teen/young adult) in the awkward position of being the ambassador TO starclan#but then when bluestar dies she immediately BECOMES the face of starclan. likely who cinderpelt would often speak with#it's fucked up!!!! theres a lot of implications about her character's relationship to starclan that are really untouched#and it makes sense that they are bc it's all built on headcanon and subtext and entirely unintentional coincidence but STILLL
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i do think there is something wrong with me because i am realising that my reactions to some of the things that luo binghe did because of his love for shen qingqiu seem to be relatively muted compared to othersâ. like donât get me wrong, luo binghe definitely did that like he for sure went there but like at the same time i think heâs so fucking valid and maybe if people just stopped judging the kid for being the teensiest bit obsessed and took the time to understand his hangups then theyâd see that too
#literally did not bat an eye when we learned he slept with sqqâs corpse for 5 years#baby boy never did anything to it but take care of it and try to bring his shizun back (and maybe use it as a security blanket)#come to find out people think heâs fucked up for that like okay so you hate traumatised people#let him live heâs just trying to make it to the next day okay#<<<this is almost entirely tongue in cheek#i am kinda making fun of myself too bc i am aware i also do not have a healthy attachment style#but also iâm not joking bc i understood binghe perfectly all of svsss i was right there with him#i should go back to therapy lol#luo binghe#svsss#bingqiu#they just donât understand his bpd swag#some of you have clearly never had a special person before
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"Between Anakin and Luke who is the better Jedi?"
"Who's the strongest?"
Blah blah blah.
Every single person who thinks it is Anakin is wrong because Anakin "coolest thing about me is my kids" Skywalker would beat you up for thinking that his son isn't the greatest thing of all time.
#you know im right#if this man could chew he'd be eating metal every time someone so much as suggest that luke was anything but perfect#vader canonically loses his temper everytime someone from the empire suggests that luke isnt the biggest threat they're facing#he's like âwhat? do you mean? we should focus on someone else? luke skywalker exists and i have to follow him actuallyâ#luke gets kidnapped and Vader kills the people who did it because only HE is allowed to hubt and traumatise his child like that thank you#âoh but anakin is the chosen oneâ you say#neither anakin or i care we're to busy admiring luke as he fucks up again#kylo meets anakin in the afterlife prepared to complain about luke and his 'failures'#surpised to find that grandpa 'number 1 luke stan' vader couldn't give a shit#'oh he tried to kill you? clearly he didn't do a good enough job. hey you think luke is open to advice? give him advice in killing people'#luke skywalker#anakin skywalker#darth vader#dad vader
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