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ever-growing-system · 2 months ago

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CAN'T ADD MORE IMAGES SO I'M ADDING NEW GOOBERS HERE

All of our goobers know their source isn't real in this dimension (despite it being real in theirs ofc)

Sunny also knows this but he is more affected by his source than everyone else. Please respect that and don't bring it up.

Daisuke:

Chill. Knows about his death now. HATES JIMMY He/they #Daisuke

Nexus:

Werecat who looooooooooooves to flirt with anyone they are involved with (only our partner). This explained a lot about our brain when we discovered she existed because most of us are the "get flustered" type, not the "fluster them" type. She/it/they #Nexus the werecat

Angel:

Yes, from hazbin hotel. He is another one of the flirty ones. His name is Anthony but he doesn't go by that. He/him #angel

Alastor:

Also from hazbin hotel. Doesn't hate Angel, just heavily dislikes him. Aroace. Hates the idea of this blog. Hates the internet in general He/him #alastor

Symmeth:

The dragon. Despite the fact Jinx can shapeshift, there is another dragon here! When they front is the only time we get dragon shifts (therian style) They/it #symmeth

Blitz:

Wow, a lot of us are from the same universe. Very sarcastic. Not nearly as many issues as in the show. Misses Stolas. Terrified of hellfire (not regular fire, it can't hurt him) "why should I give a shit about pronouns?" @ask-blitz-withthesilento #blitz

Nova:

The fox! Just like Symmeth, we only experience fox shifts when Nova fronts! They're very playful and cuddly. They hate typing because it feels weird to type with the body's human hands. They/it #nova

Dipper:

Anxious wreck. Misses Mabel. Smart. Hates Bill, obsessed with ford in the "Wow my grunkle is AWESOME!" He/him #dipper

Stolas:

LOOOOOVES STARS!!!!! And birds. Gets very sad when talking about Via. Hates talking about Stella. Loves Blitz. Literally almost died for him. He/him/star #stolas

Toby:

Came back bc we were tired and pissed. Has memories of being active at around 10-11 (a time of a lot of fear for us). IS THE SAME BASTARD FROM THE 2013 CREEPYPASTA. Has the memories from the story (maybe a bit different but we don't know bc we haven't read it in a while) Anger holder. Does not have all of the disorders as in canon (except ADHD and tics not linked to Tourettes.) HATES THE OTHER CREEPYPASTAS. You call him Ticcy Toby and he will kill you. He/they/it #toby (#???)

Lacey:

Lacey from Lacey's games. Formed when we were 10 (before Lacey's games were a thing so they've shifted between forms) Is traumagenic like toby (same reason too :3 It was ROUGH) She/her #lacey

Killer:

The fuckn undertale AU, first of the bunch. Not traumagenic. Mostly a silly guy but can also get very defensive. That's not hate or determination leaking from his eyesockets, those are his eyes. He/it #killer

Geno:

Constantly annoyed and sarcastic. Likes calling me out for stupid shit. Constantly dying. He/him #geno

Horror:

The bitch in our ear telling us to eat. Makes sense though, he's always starving. He/him #horror

Dust:

Quiet. Doesn't do much unless provoked. Does talk to Phantom Paps sometimes. Not even Jinx can see him. I don't think he minds being called Dust or Murder but he responds to just "Sans" more often He/they #dust

Error:

Like Cyn, Spamton, and a few others, he does move around a lot. He jerks our head around and shit but it's never intentional. He's normally around when we're watching or participating in drama. Does not have a typing quirk (he doesn't care to type out his glitches) He/glitch #error

Nightmare:

Used to be the boss of Dust, Horror, And killer but is not anymore bc of headspace stuff. Very... Creepy sometimes. He/it/void #nightmare

Sunny:

Like from Omori. Very quiet. Not as depressed as in the game but you shouldn't bring up his sister. The flower in his hair is from her. It's fake so he can keep it forever. His timeline is after the good ending, despite knowing the general vibes of the bad ending. We haven't fully played the game so he may form more when we do. He/him #sunny

Kylie:

I used to be Chara's friend and when we fell into the underground, I died on impact. I saw everything that happened... I wanted to stop them but I couldn't. Now we're all together!!! I also have green-brown heterochromia! They/them #Kylie

Vincent:

From deadplate. Very cold and stubborn. He is passionate about cooking but is not allowed to cook because he doesn't like the limited ingredients and will kill us. Not a cannibal anymore but still somewhat ok with it. Misses Rody. Aroace but doesn't know what that is. Sorta like Alastor. 28 He/him #vincent

June:

Anxious around the water, misses her friends, still has no idea what happened to Ryan, Keeps thinking about what happened but knows she can't change it, still very energetic, from Rot in Paradise She/they #june

Augustine:

Good ending, misses Winnie but still visits him from time to time, got into a good college, much happier, Realized that he had a crush on winnie that added to his feelings about him but he got over it, a lot more open with his emotions, from Cold Front He/him #augustine

Bok-su:

Never had a crush on Da-jeong, eventually became a nurse again after what happened in-game, feels slight remorse, would kill again, from Married in Red She/her #Bok-su

Venom:

Misses Eddie. A LOT. Remembers everything from his movies. Doesn't know shit about the comics. Will have random fake memories from alternate timelines. Always hungry. We have to stop them from eating our family when they're being assholes but they like them for the most part! We had to draw its picture because there are no good symbiote pictures. It drew its own picture. They/it #venom

#daisuke #nexus the werecat #angel #alastor #symmeth #blitz #nova #dipper #stolas #toby #lacey #killer #geno #horror #dust #error #nightmare #sunny #vincent #kylie #june #Augustine #bok-su #venom

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wafflecrosantwoman54 · 3 months ago

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Character sheet 4 wafflewoman!!!

"It's okay to decay if people around you don't know."

Nickname(s): WaffleWoman, Wafflecrosantwoman54, Waffle, Woomfie, Wanker, amongst more. Full, real name: Wynter Smith Hazelwood, or, Wynter Hazelwood. Birthday: 01/20/1998. Age: 18. Occupation: None. She used to be a butcher, but got fired after the ahem. Incident. Height: 5'5. Species: Human. Just... Human. Pronouns: She/they. Sexuality: Bisexual, heavily leaning on the women side. Passionate about: Poetry, music, eletronics, drawing (Although not very good at it.) Her friends. Her biggest "passion" (More of an obsession) is The God of Decay and Mortality. [theres cannibalism but we dont talk about that] Personality: A person who tries to be nice, though failing sometimes, getting caught up by the flame of the moment, she tends to be... Rude. But she would never dare to touch someone who has never caused harm. She listens to people, she has a tendency to follow orders blindly. I wonder why... (in alex we hate) Personality, after static/Wynter: Spews out her thoughts without caring about what other people feel. She feels an excruciating pain in her stomach, her left hand was burnt after Artemis' party. She needs painkillers to survive. She's convinced she doesn't need help, and that the static/abyss only speaks the truthest of facts, saying that "It made me realize who I really was." She used to love touch, but now, she'll get agressive even if she barely feels you graze over her body. "If your favorite color was red, i'd bleed out for you, my dear Kayla."

"I give a fuck. I give lots of fucks. At this point I just might be a prostitute of feelings."

Disorders: ... You don't need to know that about me. Dislikes: Pancakepieman45, Grat, Atlas. People who cause harm or who are egocentrical and selfish. Cockroaches, Pieman, Pancakeman, Pieman45, Pancakepieman, Pancake45, Artemis' adoptive dad, Pancakepieman45, Pancakes and pies that are 45 men. Backstory: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1tlkXpukKZg5Jb3pWwPBjmD3I9mIEckQPFeYbBnMLLpQ/edit?tab=t.0 (This is only the main, main stuff you should know about her. Other stuff are slowly let on by me, or her.) Miscelaneous: She loves touch and affection. She likes verbal affirmation. She hates when people scream at her. She hides her story under shallow lies. The "incident" is one of the reasons why she found a god in the simplest of things. She considers herself a horrible person. She can get batshit fucking insane under pressure. She doesn't give up on things easily, but she knows when a cause is lost. Wynter will get mad at you if you call her Wafflewoman, and vice-versa. Wafflewoman does not have a personality disorder; I call her Wynter since the abyss told her to stop hiding under a wall of lies and go back to her old self. She smells like cheap, wood cologne. She doesn't have a house. She mostly sleeps at the Garden or at Daisy's. Her text color is red.

"I have my own back."

#wafflewoman

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us-the-voices-and-more-voices-2 · 1 year ago

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my horrible horrible Batman/bruce Wayne headcannons

He’s half Sicilian and half Jewish. I will take this to my actual grave/srs

the real reason he can walk away and fight people with broken bones and while bleeding out is because he has an undiagnosed pain disorder. Like the one where you can’t feel pain at all. And has never realized it ever, and the batfam are completely oblivious too. Thomas Wayne (his dad) had it and never noticed either.

he sings songs to his kids, but really really bad covers. On purpose. He also has a secret YouTube music channel called “bats in the belfry” where he uploads his good guitar/vocal covers. He accidentally goes viral, and juggles a triple life as a semi-famous songwriter and singer. No one knows it’s him though, not even the league.

Thomas gave bruce all his old medical texts, and used to teach him first aid when he was little. little bruce loved it so much.

bruce actually has his doctorate in chemistry, engineering, medicine, biology, botany, and he took some random courses about the bats of Gotham and then studied veterinary medicine.

he proudly displays his many doctorates he earned in the same 3 years, in the library where no one see them.

his best friend forever is Harvey dent, even though Harvey and Harv are twoface. he does not care and randomly rocks up to his house with some good brandy, and invites them to his house always and forever.

bruce is actually a good dad, he's just also oblivious and accidentally hurts his kids feelings.

he actually hates being called bruce, and considers it his deadname. he actually one time when he was poisoned got out the name change forms filled them out with the name Bat Bruce Wayne and got his name changed and then he started feeling better after being poisoned he realised that he changed his legal name to Bat Wayne and he could not change it back. he tries to lie about it but he still has to sign forms with his legal name, no one has figured it out yet. everyone just assumes Bat Wayne is like his 9th kid or something.

bruce despite being rich as balls actually hates being rich with a passion, and literally throws his money at anything he can. when he was younger he tried desperately to get rid of all his money via charities, investing in local Gotham shops and chains, and literally paying for any health or medical care thing he could. sadly that only made the entire city of Gotham love him, and sadly he just got 30x the money he put in. and he still doesn't know how. it basically turned into a one upping where bruce tried everything he could to get rid of his money but all that happened was people started to love and adore Wayne tech and Wayne industries, and bruce Wayne's constant stream of donations to literally every single charity he could shove money in their hands. it backfired horribly and now he has a LEGION of international Bruce Wayne fans who literally give him money. he hates every single moment.

he has a weird thing going on with joker, they made out a couple times and they both refuse to ever bring it up. (bruce would have killed him if he didn't kinda have the hots for him and thought he couldn't be redeemed.)

he singlehandedly is keeping all of Gothams diverse bat species alive and well, he also has like 1,000s of pet bats in the batcave.

his favourite colour is actually yellow, but he just likes that black is stealthy.

he actually has tons and tons of scars, and no one really knows because bruce always wears fingerless gloves and long sleeves. they just think it's a fashion statement, bruce just likes covering up his scars.

he started a conspiracy that batman was actually not real and just a cryptid, he leans even more into it as Bruce Wayne.

he picks up all his kids and spins them around at random, because he loves keeping them on their feet.

he's low-key on and off dating both Catwoman and Harvey, while having work husband Clark Kent be his teammate.

the media completely forgets bruce literally has multiple doctorates some times. and when he publishes any work he does everyone is like "oh look it's Bruce Wayne, not THE Bruce Wayne of Wayne tech. science Bruce Wayne of the same name. because the playboy billionaire doesn't publish in scientific journals" and then one time he was invited to give a lecture on poison ivy's plants and the critically endangered Gotham wild rose of which there is only one left and of which he is currently keeping safe in his plant house. anyway everyone was fucking shocked and bruce put on his serious scholarly tone and started talking. while in a yellow Gotham U jumper with coffee stains on it while looking like he was in a car crashes aftermath only moments earlier. (he just forgot to set his bones again.)

bruce has autism and OCD. his special interest is gray ghost, and he fucking hates bright lights. (sun glasses indoors kinda guy)

bruce keeps like 50 photos of his kids in his wallet, 1: because it's funny 2: because he does not bring a phone with him anywhere.

and lastly, when he was doing his tour around the world to learn all types of fighting and escapism. he also learned he was horrible at cooking, just downright destructive.

#-pop #tv and movie stuff #comics and book stuff #batman #bruce wayne #headcannons

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schizopositivity · 2 years ago

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Hey, I hope your doing ok and I love your posts, even though I don’t have schizophrenia your posts help me see from other perspectives and be more open minded and considerate.

So anyway in the past week I came across two posts from two different people that were on tik tok that said (jokingly) “none of these people know I have schizophrenia” and it was a picture of an empty room.

I felt the need to share this and I was wondering what your opinion on these “jokes” are. but I don’t get how people can say people with schizophrenia are evil and then turn around and make harmful jokes about it.

And I don’t know if you have tik tok or see any posts like these but I was wondering how you deal with them (or how I should deal with them)

I don’t have tik tok and I refuse to download it but posts like these give me anxiety I do try to avoid these posts but when they cross my path I get angry and upset and I wish these people were educated enough to not make these jokes.

I hope this makes sense and I you have a good day

Thank you! I'm always grateful to see nonschizophrenics follow this blog just to get a new perspective, it brings me hope that people without the experience can still have enough respect and understanding to listen to people like me.

And yes, I am very aware of these types of "jokes". It's common enough to have the name "schizoposting" and I hate it so much. That particular joke has been done many, many times, and the punchline is the person with schizophrenia. These types of "jokes" range from making fun of symptoms like hallucinations, making fun of people who take antipsychotics, or triggering delusions just because people think it's funny. (Sidenote a lot of these "jokes" seem to think hallucinations are usually like seeing full people for long enough, and not being scared by them enough that they are your friend, when that actually isn't a very common hallucination at all and I think that idea comes from misrepresentations in the media.)

I hate these "jokes" for a few reasons. First they are making fun of real mentally ill people who can, and do see these posts. I do not see what's funny about making fun of serious symptoms that people actually suffer with. I didn't choose to have these symptoms or this disorder, it's not funny to me at all. I honestly don't see "jokes" at the expense of people with any other mental disorder by people who don't have the disorder nearly as often as I see jokes about schizophrenics by nonschizophrenics. I've never even looked for them and they just show up. My partners TikTok (which they don't use to look up any schizophrenia content) will just have them pop up. And I rarely see any backlash to this content that I would expect in this time where a lot more people are aware of mental illnesses and mistreatment of those who have them. Secondly, these "jokes" seem to assume that actual schizophrenic people won't see them, or they just don't care. Honestly a lot of people don't realize that schizophrenic people actually exist and actually participate in life and online. Thirdly the "jokes" that purposely trigger delusions/unreality can be very harmful to psychotic people. Once again this isn't funny at all. Fourthly this just adds a new layer of stigma to the already highly stigmatized disorder of schizophrenia. We are still seen as dangerous and scary, and also just existing, taking our meds and having symptoms is funny to people who don't experience it. I honestly have very rarely, if ever see people who are not psychotic stand up for psychotic people online, it seems much more people are willing to just laugh at us.

For people like you who are not schizophrenic and see this content online anywhere, please report it as harassment and don't leave a comment/reply. Even if you are commenting to educate, the algorithm will just see this as engagement and possibly push it out to more people.

For anyone reading this who is schizophrenic/psychotic and you see this content, report it if you feel comfortable with that, and block the account.

These "jokes" shouldn't exist, and everyone should be able to see how rude and sanist they are.

For me, when I see these posts I get angry, but I try not to look at them too long, and I don't attempt to educate those people. It's not worth my time or energy and I think if everyone with respect for schizophrenic people just ignored them it would be helpful. Unless you personally know someone who is posting these "jokes" and they can listen to you, you can try to educate them. Honestly it comes down to letting nonschizophrenic people know that schizophrenic people are human beings that deserve basic respect, because they may have never been told that before.

#answered #schizoposting #schizophrenia #schizophrenia jokes #mental illness #nd #schizophrenic #neurodivergent #psychosis #actuallyschizophrenic #mental health awareness #pseriouslypsychotic

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idkfitememate · 8 months ago

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It’s early so I’m bound to be a bit off but here’s one of my takes/theorys/headcannons on BSD Mori

WARNING!!! PEDOPHILIA IS A MAIN TOPIC OF THIS DISCUSSION!!! BE WARNED!!!

(Another reminder, I am a minor so if you don’t agree or dislike it? Please don’t send hate.)

Mori is very confirmed to be a Pedo/Lolicon, that is super established yes. But we've never gotten real true evidence that he's hurt a child in that way.

He's never touched a child.

Never done anything of that nature to a child.

From what I can tell, he enjoys the natural naïveté and innocents of children, and corrupting it - which to be fair is what a lot of pedo’s like. But in his specific case he enjoys preforming in other means.

It’s like an abusive relationship where one partner toys with the other for their own sexual gratification while ultimately braking the other.

The only time we've ever seen him around a child with even a hint of sexual connotation was the scene where he was dressing Elise, but that wasn't a sexual scene, if anything it was just displaying "Look it's the Pedo hate him hate him!!!"

Vita Sexualis makes Mori's perfect partner come to life and able to preform impossible tasks, but he still has control, and from what we've seen from his and Elise's appearances is that he enjoys that innocence, maybe a hint of brattiness, but nothing inherently sexual.

Is he still in the wrong? Absolutely. It's disgusting to want a romantic relationship with a child, even with no sexual attraction, but it's interesting to think about.

A pedo with no real sexual attraction to children, only 'genuine love'. He enjoys dressing them, having control over them, feeding them, so on and so forth - like a father but with romantic affection.

Nothing sexual.

Also that fact that he seems to be specifically a Pedophile, not a Hebephile or a Ephebephile. Elise isn't over ten, and Yosano was eleven. While technically eleven falls into the Hebephile range, it's safe to assume he most likely likes kids - specifically pre-pubescent kids. On top of that the fact he's straight - He showed no attraction to Dazai whatsoever, considering Dazai is both a man and was pubescent - at the very least just pubescent - when they first encountered.

People who are Hebephile's are usually explained away by letting the most primitive parts of their brain have control, as Hebephile's are those who like children who have just hit puberty - otherwise know as ready to bear/give children. Those who are Ephebephile's like children who have just passed puberty - I.e. 15-18. They are commonly placed with Pedophile's in terms of wrongdoing because there's physically no reason to like children in that stage.

Mori is by definition a Pedophile, a man who likes children that are prepubescent, ranging from about 5 to 10/11 years old. Not sexually, but is still attracted.

Pedophilia is commonly tracked as a mental disorder/illness, that has been proven to be curable at times. The reason for this being that in no way shape or form should a sane or healthy mind be able to conceive that a full adult should be attracted to a child.

Pedophilia is a trait passed down, some studies have even suggested it may be genetic on top of being traumatic.

So more likely than not, Mori was either:

A) Abused himself

B) Related to a pedophile

Or worst of all

C) Both

And judging by his twisted mindset I wouldn't be surprised if it was C.

My IRL Friend asked: “Wasn't Elise's form an older one until after Mori encountered Yosano in that war?”

To answer that question, Elise was much more compliant and had less of a personality before Yosano. After Mori had met Yosano, she took on the brashness and brattiness Yosano had. I've yet to see anything naming an age change, but it still stands to say Mori is best classed as a Pedophile over anything else because that would mean Elise aged down.

Another thing, people commonly fall in love with others that remind them of past abusers, and I've been thinking about this for a while. We get our attractions from many different sources that tend to leave impressions on us.

And that's not to say that Mori didn't get his likes from other sources - I.e. personality from Yosano/Dazai, but what about Elise's looks. It's very reasonable to assume that he got those likes from outside sources.

But it's also common to try and romanticize or humanize past abuses.

Elise - as I said - was very robotic and blank before Mori met Yosano & Dazai, even referring to Mori as 'Master', and he didn't seem to have much care for her. But she looked the same.

It's likely that Mori took the looks of a past abuser - perhaps the one who passed the Pedophilic trait to him - and humanized her by giving her the traits of Yosano/Dazai.

And although names don't mean much in Lore for BSD, Elsie is a very foreign name for a Japanese person to name someone. Perhaps that was the name of the woman who hurt him, and he simply passed it down.

She most likely would've acted like Dazai and Yosano in a way - albeit much more twisted - but enough so that Mori was able to humanize her by taking those traits.

This could be a way to get back at her for the abuse done, a long winded revenge story.

He could also simply be continuing the cycle - as we've seen he love starting and continuing those.

Does any of this justify his actions? Hell to the no, but it gives them an explanation over 'Oh look a lolicon/Pedophilie point and laugh at how disgusting he is!!!"

(I wrote this all at like 3 am so if anything is spelled wrong or grammatically incorrect please let me know!!… God I love Mori sm it’s not good or healthy-)

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd mori #bungou stray dogs mori #mori ougai #bsd elise #Bungou stray dogs elise #Elise #Mori & Elise #character study #Headcannon

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wisteriaiswriting · 2 days ago

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Hi! If you can, can I have a romantic match-up with a character? (TF2)

Name: Xyn

Pronouns: Anything but she/her tbh

Sexuality: Omniromatic Aceflux (look it up if you need lol)

Gender: AFAB agender

MBTI: I/ENFP (I'm an omnivert)

Interests: I enjoy drawing and getting hyperfixated on random stuff, I also enjoy being the therapist friend (helps me remember people value and trust me), I also (concerningly probably) enjoy cannibal facts and everything to do with the such, I also have a facination with the human mind and how it works, I enjoy rambling and being rambled to as well :D

Personality: I'd say my morals can fluctuate between not caring who dies or gets hurt unless I'm close to them or to care about anybody but my thoughts of who I hold close never change, I'm loyal af, like so much so it's probably not healthy, I keep promises to my grave unless I forget I made said promise, but those ones aren't usually the ones that are life altering, I'm horrible at finding "healthy" friends, often clicking with people doing worse than me (IE: a sociopath, not kidding), I try to be patient when it comes to my anger, very few things can set me off and the main thing is hurting/making people I care about upset, I've injured 2 people for that reason unfortunately, I'm pretty forgetful, mainly because of my ADHD and the fact that I ration the medication for it as the Pharmacy rarely ever has it, inky taking it days I have school or have to focus for the day

(Omg I rambled O_o srry)

Xtra facts: I have ADHD, Anxiety (General+Social), Sensory Sensitivity Disorder, and Depression, My handwriting is like Russian cursive (it's a bunch of neat scribbles), in a fight, I'd prefer up close since my aim is worse than my writing, Axes mainly but if it's a bigger weapon, I'll probably bonk somebody with it, I often use simple typing and emoticons (as you saw earlier) along with shortened text, but I am an honors student (dunno if that makes people think I'm stupid) just a very burnt out one :P

Don't feel forced to answer lol, I just saw smth like this and thought I'd be cool :] Have a good day/night!

I match you with...

Engineer!

He will hang up your drawings around his workshop, doesn’t matter what they are. (They even get a spot on the fridge!!)

He gets being the therapist friend, but he also remembers to get you to talk about your own issues. Wanting you to have that trust as well.

While he doesn’t mind you rambling about your many hyperfixations and interests, he does become a little squeamish at the mention of cannibal facts. (Not that he hates them, just give him some warning.)

More than willing to talk about the human mind, often bringing Medic to talk to you.

He doesn’t mind reminding you about many things, including your ADHD medication. (Which is much more often due to Medic having a bunch, just don’t question why…)

He does his best to keep you calm, but it can be a bit of trouble. As his workshop is pretty loud, alongside the whole base.

When you’re up in the enemy’s face he’s sitting behind you, watching your back the whole time.

No matter what typing style you use he will understand it, your handwriting on the other hand? Nope. He’ll bring Heavy over if you don’t tell him what you wrote.

Real proud of you being an honors student, even if you’re burnt out, he does his best to try stop you from getting worse.

While I really wanted to give you Heavy, I felt like Engineer was a bit closer.

Heavy - 6

Engi - 6

Scout - 5

Pyro - 5

Medic - 4

Sniper - 4

Spy - 4

Miss Pauling - 2

Saxton - 2

Soldier - 1

Demo - 1

Administrator - 1

#tf2 matchups #matchups #tf2 x reader #tf2 engineer #tf2 engineer x reader #engineer x reader #wisteria♥

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npdmonoma · 1 year ago

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Can "narcissistic abuse" be something we consider outside of people with NPD? I don't believe in PDs at all as someone who's been diagnosed with one, and I'm very anti psychiatry. However mechanisms of what's described as "narcissistic abuse" are real phenomena and I'm wondering if we can address these situations without linking it to a diagnosis or condemning people as permanently and irreparably broken because they're making those choices in one context

Actually read some more posts on your blog and I think I found an answer that satisfies me in this topic ... I think the move forward would be to unlink certain constellations of behavior (gaslighting, DARVO, etc.) From having a PD. Honestly recognizing that someone who abused me was likely struggling with NPD made it easier to find empathy for them but I still had questions in my mind about how to address this specific pattern

I added your second ask here so I can address them both at the same time. Starting with your statement about not believing in personality disorders due to being anti-psychiatry, this is a statement I both do and don't agree with. All mental health diagnoses are created by psychiatrists by observing patterns of behavior that they label as aberrant and give a name to. So in that sense, they're "not real" because NPD isn't some objective observable thing. However, as long as anyone finds value in using that framework to understand themselves and hopefully begin healing, it should continue to exist as a concept. I personally find incredible value in the diagnosis, and have made significant strides toward healing and becoming a better person since I started applying that concept to myself.

That being said, I do believe in psychiatric abolition. What you said about not labeling people as inherently broken is part of my dissatisfaction with the state of mental healthcare. People with personality disorders can heal, even if our disorders never fully leave us. There's also reason to believe that the idea that personality disorders almost never go into full remission is either partially or fully false. Either way, we aren't broken. Or at least, we aren't required to view ourselves as such.

Second, you're absolutely correct that the things that get labeled as "narcissistic abuse" are real phenomena. I have never, and will never, deny that people who call themselves narcissistic abuse survivors have experienced abuse. I honestly believe that they did. However, those phenomena aren't inherently linked to NPD. I have yet to see an example of "narcissistic abuse" that wasn't just a textbook example of (usually emotional) abuse. There is no need to call it narcissistic, you can just call it abuse. That's what it is.

And yes, you're very correct that we need to disconnect patterns of abuse from personality disorders. We shouldn't be linking any mental illness/neurodivergence to abusive behavior. All that does is cause stigma that leads to people being hated for something they can't really control, and something that oftentimes was done to them. I don't deserve to be hated for what my abusers turned me into. No one does.

I'm glad you were able to find understanding and empathy for your abuser, as that seems to have been healing for you. I'm genuinely happy for you. However, the fact that in your case you learned something about your abuser that gave you context for what happened doesn't mean that thing is inherently linked to abuse in general. My father was likely autistic, and I can see how this played into his abuse of me. And yet, I would never say he abused me autistically, because he didn't. He just abused me. There are abusers in every demographic that exists, but that doesn't mean that the entire demographic gets discarded. People who have never abused anyone don't deserve to be called abusers, especially when they're abuse victims themselves.

Thank you for your curiosity and for having an open mind about this. I appreciate you taking the time to think this through, and I'm glad I was able to help in some way. My apologies if I went over something you already figured out for yourself, but I figured it was best to be thorough.

#narcissistic dialoguing #abuse tw #npd safe

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marbles-for-breakfast · 2 months ago

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My comment was removed by r/fakedisordercringe for mentioning that I’m autistic. This was the response to my response. It all happened kind of a while ago now, but I still want to put it here because it was honestly astounding. And I think it’s worth talking about some of the rules that sub has.

Background:

I used to occasionally look at r/fakedisordercringe (as somewhat of a form of self-harm, but that’s not the point here) They added a rule at some point (no it somehow was not there originally) that you have to provide an actual reason for why you think someone is faking when you post them. I was curious what some of those reasons were. I found one where it was literally just an autistic woman talking about her life, and I think she said some things I related to, so it felt a little personal to see her posted there. (I’m autistic, but I’m not diagnosed bc it was going to cost me $4000 to even get assessed.) One of the listed reasons for why she was faking was that she went to the club with her friends. Now, I imagine it should be obvious why this is a bullshit and extremely ableist reason to give, but of course, the post was allowed to remain up. So I left a comment in response pointing out the ableism and how nothing she said in the video gave any indication that she was not autistic. In the response, I mentioned being autistic myself. It was not there focus of the comment, but rather context and an attempt to get people to listen to autistic people about autism. I later found out my comment was removed.

(I have removed my name because it is the same name as my main blog, and I’m not out as having OSDD on there or irl, and I don’t want it to get linked to this account. If anyone does that as revenge, you are proving my point and you’re a piece of shit. If someone wants me to take this down, give me a good reason. If I have to take it down due to threats or harassment, you will have proved my point and are all pieces of shit.)

This was the reasoning, and my first response.

Then their response:

I actually think that last part is very interesting to hear. They’re just “speculating” about whether people are faking apparently, and this mod thinks that nothing said there can hurt people “in real life”.

And then they 1. Make the assumption that I have never seen a mental health professional for my OCD (I have) and 2. Imply I might not actually have OCD at all and 3. Imply that my OCD is causing me to be upset about this. And all of that just based on me saying I have OCD and that I disagree with them! That sub is fucking brain poison. And yes, I do think the sub cultivated this behavior, because that’s exactly what they do on there every day, to every one of the people they post there. Assumption after assumption, based on nothing. Well, you know what they say about assumptions.

Another long reply from me (you don’t really have to read it. the mod didn’t.):

And there it is. “your intrusive thoughts are kicking in”. Wtf is that even supposed to mean? Oh yeah, “you’re hysterical so I’m not going to listen to you”. That’s what it means.

That first reply was baffling. I think my response finally got to them though (yeah, I would be embarrassed too) so they said it was all in my head, and to ��Have a good one”. Because they’re just so nice, aren’t they?

But they learned nothing, of course. In one ear, out the other. At least in the moment. Maybe they thought about it later and gradually changed their mind about all this.

Also I checked to see if the rule was still there, and it’s more specific and worse now:

“Your personal experience is not a credible source to make claims about a disorder.” But some random fuck can say whatever bullshit they want with no sources whatsoever? Make it make sense. Oh wait, it does make sense when you realize they don’t actually care about disabled people and just want to make fun of us for being “cringe”. It was never about fakers vs “real disabled people”. They hate all of us unless we agree with everything they say and never talk about our disability or our experiences with ableism.

So yeah, fuck r/fakedisordercringe. It is ableist, and I feel like if they have to ban telling people that you’re disabled AND ban calling the sub ableist (yes, that’s actually a rule), it should be obvious already. I tried to engage in good faith (after my original rant), but I was met with ableism and condescension. And that is all I really should have expected. Because thats all this sub is.

#fake disorder cringe #fuck fakeclaimers #systemscringe #faking disorders #ableism #anti fakeclaiming #fakeclaiming

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thehumanexperience8b · 4 months ago

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November 1st, 2024: Halloween!

Happy Halloween, LOVELY!!!

This was the first year that I haven't gone trick-or-treating. I have RESPONSIBILITES, and a real job now! I never continued my work on the farm, I can start working there again in summer of 2025 I suppose according to the internship program. At first work at the kitchen was hard. My anxiety disorder caused a lot of... disorder! But after two days, which I was told where probably the worst days of the year to start training, I contacted management to see if I could switch to another department. My hiring manager told me maybe I could give it another try, and just focus on one thing at a time. So now I make grinders! Following the footsteps of my mom who worked at Subway apparently! And I think I made a new friend! Well actually, I really enjoy the company of all my coworkers. That's probably the main reason I didn't leave, because the two boys who trained me the most (shout-out to Kevin and Nate!) where very understanding and helped me to feel like I wasn't in the way. I also formally met this guy who worked in the deli department, his name is Evan. HELLO EVAN! If you're reading this..! (I gave him a link to my blog.. or maybe I didn't. I'm writing this in the past by the time you're reading this.) Very interesting guy, we have so much in common! And don't worry, I made sure all my coworkers knew I was insane before I started having actual conversations with them. Sorry not sorry! I'm going to be myself and I hate small talk! Still hard to believe I even got hired in the first place. My best friend told me that everyone she knows tried working there, but she was surprised I got hired. Backhanded compliment much?! Just kidding, it's okay! She's right, I don't have much experience other than my farm job. She says it was my personality that got me hired. Everyone always says my personality is the best thing about me. Well, I guess what else can you ask for??

Here's some photos from these past couple weeks. I just got my hair curled in those photos! Autumn is my favorite season! I'm a little sad I couldn't really celebrate Halloween in the magickal way I wanted to, but I was also so excited to be working, so it's okay! Welcome to November!!!

#halloween #october #november #autumn #love you!

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goat-shoe · 1 year ago

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ok, i Rant time

ive been reading this fic Knowing itd be a mess and im just... ive had it with this characterization! aimless rant below ^^;;;

tw for bullying, harassment, abuse, homophobia

so a lot of highschool AUs are just..... Bad? like LOL sorry :x but. youre taking away everything interesting about the miraculous holders, And youre trying to make Fully Grown Adults into children. ??????

n e ways, i found this highschool dropout au,,, im Sure you can guess how i feel abt dugout and tiderdrop together, but personal biases aside (its Icky to me and someday ill figure out why)..... lets read this fic.

(to prove i am Not taking things out of context, heres the whole fic)

FIRST of all, youre ognna notice that the prose is Boring, written in long and uninspired runon sentences. i dont wanna just bash on an inexperienced writer, but if youre gonna be this lazy about it.. who is it for :x

second, headcanoning mariquitas name as the Only spanish name you can think of that starts with "mari"? is just uninspired. mariquita wouldnt Choose a hero name so obviously close to her Real Name.. again im not an unmasker, but this headcanon is ridiculous....

finally, and most importantly.... "he sighs wearily". umm, No actually. he Doesnt. you dont even get an insight into dugouts thoughts other than "im nervous about school >m<"

Needless to say, this and his whiny, whimpering demeanor is incredibly infantilizing,. Furthermore in this context, all it does is plays into the ""yaoi"" trope of a big buff bad big boy x boy who says uwaaah! (i hope it goes without saying, this is Not a condemnation of boys who say uwahh, yall are doing gods work and ily)

cramming tigerdrop and dugout into this trope comes off as (and actually is) incredibly homophobic and harmful. need i remind you, these are real people. i wouldnt be surprised if this author was a fujoshi or something too :x

anyways.

im a dugout fan Because hes reserved, but in this fic, thats being watered down to him just being sad and whiny.

its just so insulting to be written shrugging every 3 sentences. dugout im so sorry theyre doing this to you ;;;

guhh. ill give them points for this cute relationship with mariquita...

but again, the prose is just.. clumsy. and again, all dugout does is whine about change. its not even a realistic portrayal of adjustment disorder :x

speaking of disorders Lol,

we Know how i feel abt tigerdrop, but i tend to actually like fanfic portrayals of him.

but this one is just... Confusing...

(also we have mandatory "describe their entire outfit in vapid detail" LOL i should have made this a bingo)

i havent really been talking about the plot, but heres what it took the author two chapters to get through:

dugout it new in town, hes nervous about the changes. (we dont even know why he misses home??? just, make it up i guess, god forbid a fanfiction Make That part up!!!!!!)

tigerdrop has lived in new york all his life, and he appears to be pretty bored with life (ex: pushes pipsqueak over just because he thought itd be funny, no doubt an allusion to the canal street incident last july)

his characterization is actually really confusing and i think its supposed to be like, Alluring??? but its just disconcerting :x

thats It. Two established characters and empty conversations with others (the mariquita mischaracterization especially drives me up the wall ever since i confirmed my kin with her)

they meet in math class when dugout unknowingly sits in tigerdrops seat..... girl, Literally no one in high school acts like this.

at this point, this fic is no better than glee and the millions of other incorrect and careless portrayals of highschoolers. tigerdrop has some weird banter with the faceless teacher (yet Another reason i hate most highschool fics)

:/ i Kinda saw it coming, but....

tigerdrop apologizing and not meaning it? In character. But, hes just acting like a greaser, and its Weird

dugout wouldnt care! he would not look like "a deer in the Headphones."

i Realize the author doesnt have a beta reader but :x that doesnt excuse pawning off lazy work btw, in case anyone was wondering....

last but probably Most important: this is setting up such a toxic dynamic. tigerdrop is actively pushing the message that dugout is taking up too much space and he doesnt belong. its alienating and shitty. and this is a fic Shipping Them :x

but i Clicked on a dropout fic, so.... should i be surprised :/

like i said. dugout is Already afraid of him.. his body is reacting just to the sound of his voice, not unlike trauma in PTSD victims!

like. guh. this is literally so toxic. also..

take a shot every time you see the word "smirks"

lips ghosting his nose And ear? Lol.....

likely The Worst way to incorporate their miraculous personas :x reading this literally made me nauseous.

anyways.... thats all of the fic thats been posted so far. so to summarize: this is just Icky. its even worse, setting this kind of relationship in their high school years :x imagine if someone treated you this way! youre Not gonna grow up and marry them.

i Cant even.

~ ty for reading <3 ~

#mlb irl #gabby gabs #rant #cullykisser #UGH i dare not tag dropout #i dont need that toxicity..#grateful i could get some of this out there <3 #it was nice also to do some literary analysis ^^#maybe i really should be an english major!#;; back to classes now huwhwuwhuwh

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exo-thermlte · 27 days ago

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hi, i'm yun! i'm an adult trixic hellenic blasian afrolatina native system!

THIS IS A REALLY LONG POST. IF YOU DON'T WANNA HEAR ME YAP ABOUT MYSELF JUST SCROLL TO MY BYF!

i also go by other names, such as ren, sabine, and shade/ghost if you wish to refer to me and my entire system!

i'm very very multifandom because my adhd won't let me die. (/j) i tend to gravitate towards hero shooters the most though!

to be specific about my labels, i myself identify as a non-binary transmasculine boygirl. i prefer to keep my gender expression ambiguous and leaning on both sides of the binary spectrum. sometimes i'll refer to myself as a boy (he/him), a girl (she/her), or just something else entirely (they/them, it/its).

i am on the aroace spectrum, and consider myself a lesbian, with very few exceptions, as my tendency towards both romantic and sexual attraction vary greatly depending on several things that are just way too complicated for me to explain in a single tumblr post lol. feel free to ask more about it tho, i don't bite (i am also sapiosexual, but i generally only interact with people who aren't total idiots to begin with) i am ambiamorous, actively practice monogamy and polyamory with little to no preference, and support others who choose to do the same when all parties involved have consented.

i am a dog, tiger, and snake therian, and i will refer to myself as such. i am an undead cyborg; i will refer to myself as such.

i'm a hellenic polytheist and have been practicing since october 2024! i am a hecate, apollo, aphrodite, athena, zeus, and hermes devotee!

i can very basically understand and speak spanish, have learned korean in the past, and can speak a small amount of, albeit probably butchered russian.

i am an aspiring chemist and toxicologist and love to build computers. my tags for these things are:

what's in the canister - chemistry

flowing juices - toxicology

inside the system - computer building / parts

BYF

i have been diagnosed with social and generalized anxiety disorder, as well as moderate-severe depression, c-ptsd, and anger management issues. i have not been diagnosed with autism, adhd, ocd, persistent depressive disorder, osdd 1-b, and borderline personality disorder, but i'm pretty, excuse my french, fucking sure i have them because they've come pretty close to ruining my life in the past.

i am not kidding, and i have to emphasize this because i have lost entire friend groups over this, when i say i have anger issues. i'm not a ticking time bomb or a disaster waiting to happen, but if you intentionally piss me off, i will not be kind about it. i promise i'm a nice person, just don't be an ass without even bothering to give me a good reason as to why.

if you think narcissists, schizophrenic people, sociopaths, psychopaths, and/or borderlines are inherently evil and meant to hurt people, get the fuck away from me. you will never be right about that kind of judgement and you will never be welcome in my life.

i don't really care about the origins of other systems because it's none of my business. i, however, am traumagenic. though if you claim to have become a system for "fun" or "on purpose" it's a block on sight. you do not speak for the rest of us lilbro.

i am pro-abortion, pro-gay and trans rights, pro-blm, pro-stop asian hate, a feminist, we hate the russian government not the russians, free palestine, justice for ukraine, and pro-defund the police.

PROSHIP/MAP, BIGOTS, EXCLUSIONISTS, TERFS, ANTISEMITES, AND RAMJI + AEON + THORKI SHIPPERS DO NOT INTERACT.

also if you don't like viper valorant just don't even bother either, that's completely non-negotiable. and please don't interact with me if you're under 16 years old </3

if we were friends in the past and have fallen out with each other, please don't try to contact me unless you want to make up. i reserve the right to refuse this request, just so we're clear.

i am literally kapkan (r6s), david king (dbd), and viper (valorant) in real life. if you don't like that or think you're "also" me just block me, i don't care nor do i want to care lol. if you claim to be dating twitch (r6s), carlos oliveira (re), claudette morel (dbd), felix richter (dbd), ace visconti (dbd), sage (valorant), deadlock (valorant), or vyse (valorant) just block me.

i love my husband <33 @felix-the-pup2

if you want more details, go here -> https://ghostz0nes.carrd.co/

#pinned #get to know me #will be edited as time goes on ofc

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fungalwarp · 3 months ago

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this is a mix of an old post that never made it here and some new stuff bc atp this is just kinda funny to me, then imma drop it bc it's also just so boringggg

but im gonna put this here bc ik this loser is still stalking my acct and whatnot, so my final piece or w/e

-"Dont even think abt my sister/talking shit abt my family😡😡" couldnt care less abt ur fuckass sister or family. i cared when they were sticking their noses in shit by sending messages or checking our accounts because?? get a life??? i dont choose to think abt any of u, ever, and would celebrate the day i completely forget abt u

-"YoU wEnT tO mY mOmMy" yeah because we were fed up. because there is a message where you admit you sent at least one thing, along with a vile message from a burner account that mentioned the exact same shit u did in dms, and a whole tumblr with my bf's full name that only families and you knew him by. at least three seperate instances that can be directly tied to you and only you. whether that was you or someone in your system doesnt change that it isnt okay in any degree. it being from a disorder doesnt create a free pass and if you cant keep it in check yourself, someone else needs to be involved. also the screenshot i sent your mother of your dm didnt meantion 'headmates' anywhere, as far as i was ever informed everyone mentioned there was a real person. nothing on there explicity point to DID, i didnt out that

-"he's 27 he should be able to deal with some anon hate" this isnt anon hate. this is repeated harrassment. this is someone implying my mental health is someone's responsibility, and then getting mad when I buy cats that I begged him to let us get and when he's gifted a pc. and i only bring those up bc those are two things you mentioned directly to me along with those being in a vile message from a burner that also implies his father's passing was his fault in any way. that is deranged and subhuman to do and i stand by it. because absolutely nothing justifies a reaction like that. along with an entire tumblr containing his first name and legal last name. something only a small amount of ppl know both of. that account was a recent one too, we have pictures that are time stamped!! so once again, yes, i did send those to ur mother! she should know what vile shit is being sent and that you need serious help

-"Id never go to ur mom!!!" i dont care. if it reached a point of genuine concern when it comes to mental stability, i would hope someone would. ive had people contact my mother over things ive done and i hold 0 resentment bc it helped me in the long run

-"you told someone to kill themselves online😡😡" yeah... i do it a lot... youve heard me do it.... if someone is gonna come into my space and get triggered abt a joke i make w my consenting partner, i will tell them to end it. bc they rlly should. i genuinely believe if ur life is that sad it probably would be better off just ended. what abt it. i dont say it to random ppl for no reason. i say it to people who think i care abt their opinions when it comes to a harmless aspect of my life. oh no, sue me

-"I probably have bpd and i dont run around saying i for sure do" do u have a formal diagnosis for DID? if not then that shouldnt have any standing either. but if we suddenly dont care abt that, yeah i talked to two professionals, both of which agreed i was very likely borderline and one of which is qualified to diagnose but-like my autism-said while i do match criteria it isnt going on my record bc of the walls it can put up in life and they gave me resources before i moved to help w my disorder. and as someone who claims to probably have it, u dont seem to understand how easily it alters ur mood and view on ppl 🤨

-this is a repeated thing and a couple things at once but ur obsession with 'real' names for both humans and animals is just weird and you should probably talk to someone about that. god forbid we have fun with the name we give two cats and ourselves bc we dont live with a stick in our ass? and then ur need to go after his art is wild as if 1) art isnt subjective 2) u have any room to talk abt art skills

#anyways this is our christmas vacation and im done w all this #just wanted to drop this here get a life or smth and get psychiatric help #mica.txt

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bratty-people · 2 years ago

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Patrick Metcalf of Undone Productions - Adulting Gone WRONG

What young adult doesn't love the word adulting. It's about becoming an adult and doing grown up things in the real world. And as a result you feel like a grown up, not a little kid. You get to succeed in the real world, and maybe look good doing it too.

Well, here is a real-life story about a adulting gone wrong. The main character is real person named Patrick Metcalf, a supposed graduate of Northwest University who basically cannot make it in the real world and has exponentially failed at adulting. He is also the founder of Undone Productions.

Who Am I

Who am I? I live in the building next to his. I and other tenants have had to endure years of listening to his purposeful and repetitive door slammings about 6 or 7 years now. He will literally slam the outer metal front door of his unit on purpose as a signal to let neighbors know that he is powerful, or angry. He confuses his sense of self with what us neighbors think.

Sick of Living Next to a Sicko

Also, I am not some hater, hating on someone for NO REASON. I am super busy. But what I DO hate is having to even spend time writing this post or investing ANY of my time dealing with the deliberate nuisance this person is responsible for on a regular basis here. I think years of suffering is NOT fair to anyone. Things have been done to get this person to stop and it is STILL going on.

The police, his manager, the Housing Department of Los Angeles and also the LAPD have all been contacted. Being a nuisance is illegal. But nothing has been done. The LAPD doesn't even do much about all these burglaries in Los Angeles, let alone just some annoying noise. I hope this will change.

This behavior of his began around 2016 or 2017. And at worst, the door slammings have occurred as much as 15 times a day! His landlord has been contacted. All of this is a TOTAL violation of California's nuisance law.

We as renters have the right to the quiet enjoyment of our dwelling. And Patrick is not only bothering us with this noise, but also engaging in all kinds of non-consensual signaling.

We do not give a damn that he wants to feel powerful, that he is angry, that he needs to let us know that he will never give up.

Adulting Gone WRONG

Patrick doesn't seem to have professional life or any life whatsoever. i mean, if he did why does he continue to communicate with us neighbors that he will not give up the purposeful door smacking. Even if he has done stuff for UNDONE, it kind of doesn't matter if your mind is preoccupied with asserting your power and dominance with your neighbors. I would actually feel better if he was busy doing productive things and not bothering us.

The entertainment business is round-the-clock work. Even the Kardashians have to work hard, get up, pitch things, sell things, find new opportunities, network etc.

This person has no self-control or ability to discipline himself. As a result, has failed at adulting and cannot take care of himself or his career. He wants everyone to think he is a winner by exerting power over all us neighbors by smacking his front door on purpose. Often, there is no one leaving or entering his unit.

This shit has gone on for YEARS. And they message he is conveying as he STILL does this is that he will never give up. Giving up would maybe be a sign of defeat, and he certainly will not let this happen.

Many people here believe that Patrick suffers from a personality disorder called narcissism.

This is an important cautionary societal story about selfishness, entitlement and petty competition to the extreme. Who knows if he will escalate to something more violent or damaging to people and/or property?

Most people are familar with media articles and videos about how selfish, entitled, lazy and incapable millennials are when it comes to self care and hacking it in the real world, according to Simon Sinek. Some individuals in our generation will never grow out of these character flaws. And Patrick's story is the perfect example of how these types of people fare in the end.

Seeking Attention and Power

All the door slammings/smackings are done purely for attention and power. It is VERY annoying, especially since the neighbors are not doing anything wrong and the perpetrator refuses to take responsibility for where he is in life, venting all his pent up issues onto us for years and years. No one should be expected to have to move. It is a LOT of trouble, time, energy and effort over such an irresponsible, catty human being.

Neighbors report that these incidences started around 2016 or 2017. Since about the end of 2020, Patrick has been living like a recluse, making up contrived (loudly audible and badly acted) phone stories with his girlfriend, Brianna, hoping people would believe they bought a condo and is now living in it.

The reality is that there is a LOT of evidence that he is still living in that same apartment. Brianna is no longer here, but why is Patrick still in that apartment?

We continue to hear LOUD door smacks/ slamming for NO reason with no one really entering or leaving the apartment.

Who In Their Right Mind Feels Entitled Enough to Smack Their Front Door On Purpose And Never Stop

Patrick tried to make it seem like he moved into a condo back at the end of 2020. Brianna moved out. And a new roommate, a heavy male named Phillip Clum moved in.

Contrived, Fabricated Scenarios - Trying to Make Neighbors Think They Made It BIG

At the end of 2020, Patrick and the girl who was living with him (Brianna) made up these weird story schemes as a result of them caring too much about what other people think about them.

For about maybe a week or two (can't remember) they would hold loud and fake phone conversations sitting right by their open living room window phone so that all the neighbors in our area (their building and ours) could literally hear every word.

These conversations revolved around their (fake) story that implied they made it big in Los Angeles with so much money to the point where they could afford to buy a condo.

I understand that, everyone has to make phone calls but NO ONE sits right by their open window and speaks in such a loud and obvious tone of voice trying to make every word known.

Then at the end of 2020, there was a month of silence. Patrick and his girlfriend tried to make it seem like they moved. But ironically, there was no movement of furniture and possessions. No movers, nothing.

Instead of smacking his door like usual (because obviously he had moved into his condo..lol) he would thump his foot as hard as possible on his floor when he heard his neighbors waking up early in the morning, and basically signaling every time he heard them cleaning their unit, or doing something positive and constructive. This type of thing would drive him CRAZY. Why? Because he is not the type of person who can wake up early and do legitimate positive things with his life.

His girlfriend had not been seen in that building since, but a new roommate named Phillip moved in around that December/following January 2021.

Door Smacks Continue in 2023

Once neighbors complained to the building manager about the continued door smacks in 2023, Phillip started acting like he is the one making these purposeful noises and would actually leave to go somewhere. Phillip was NOT doing this before these complaints.

But there are still, of course, incidents where no one enters or leaves. They just slam/smack the door as hard as possible to piss people off and to express some kind of unmet need for power and control….that they will NOT give up.

The loudness of the door slamming is not a weird, unintentional fluke.

It actually is quite deliberate because no one in his building else makes these types of noises.

Also, both Patrick and Phillip have shown that they ARE quite capable of closing their door at a normal volume. If they can shut their door in a normal fashion, then why are they smacking their door as loud as possible? The obvious answer, as noted earlier, is to piss people off and communicate that they will not give up or be defeated.

Hateful, Jealous Catty and Overly Competitive....Not A Nice Neighborly Attitude

Patrick's overall set of behaviors tell the story of an individual who is pathologically competitive over the pettiest things, completely lacking in self-awareness, a sense of self and character. It's like a five-year-old in an adult body. According to psychologists, this is what narcissists are (underdeveloped in their grown-up body).

Years ago, when this whole thing first started, he was doing this during the daytime hours.

Then it started happening at 5 or 6 in the morning. He was not even leaving or entering his apartment, just walking over to his door (has an outer metal door) to smack it as hard as possible.

He was basically all the tenants around here know that he is UP and not sleeping…that he got up early, like a big boy, and felt so empowered that he HAD to let us know...because we are all losers who did not get up this early.

Who wants to live with ankle-biting neighbors who are this competitive to the extreme? Would you? It is annoying.

Later, he got into a phrase where he would purposely hit the button of his juicer/blender in a really contrived way like he was showing off his morning routine which involved the healthy habit of juicing.

On several evenings in the past, (and in recent history )he would stomp downstairs in dress shoes on purpose, making as much noise as possible like at 10pm -1 am at night.

He wasn't walking like a normal person would, but lifting his leg to really make stomping noises, emphasizing that he was out somewhere formal and fancy, trying to let all of us know how important he is, all dressed up with somewhere to go.

When other neighbors come home late at night, whether dressed or not, they try to sneak in as quietly as possible to not wake people up.

Several times, he even followed one neighbor to their car on several occasions as they were leaving for work. They would leave here about 8:30am. When they started doing this, he would then copy this exact departure time (what a coincidence!) and act like he was going to a job that also required him leaving his building at 8:30am as well. The LAPD was contacted but could not do anything.

Again the theme here is ass holery competition by a narcissist.

Many neighbors here are scared because people who are obsessed like this often tend to escalate their behaviors to something worse.

Desperate Attempts to Cover Up Being A Real Loser

In reality, almost everything in this dude's life is a fake show. This person is totally incapable of getting up in the morning. People who do get up early out of habit don't think twice about it. There is not need to show off.

It is highly probable that Patrick cannot write a resume that sells. Otherwise he would be busy going to work and engrossed in his career.

His LinkedIn mentions that he is the founder of Undone Productions, a film/TV production company. On Google, his You Tube video shows up about winning an award for WGA. But things are not adding up. I could be missing something. Why would he even think to be competing with his neighbors as someone who is serious about his craft? This makes no sense.

Also, I have lived in LA for a long time. I am NOT impressed with fame/celebrities/the hollywood industry etc. I am not even impressed with You Tube bloggers. Many of these people have dark skeletons hiding in their closet. Everything is all about image and the people I have met or learned about online have almost all been a big disappointment when it comes to reality.

Patrick seems like one of those people who looks one way on screen. And the reality is a scary, deranged individual.

Think Ellen Degeneres, Kendell Jenner, Johnny Depp, Amber Heard and a lot of other celebrities out there.

The entertainment business is hard with a lot of competition in Los Angeles. I've known people here doing similar things. It's not easy. Again, the entertainment business is tough. Your work has to bring in money. This part is hard.

Again, you have to network and pitch constantly. You also have to work on new projects and work on keep getting better. You would not have enough time to think about smacking and slamming the door as a regular routine.

People are upset that his roommate Phillip, is now starting to engage in similar behaviors. As they say, birds of a feather flock together. But also, they are trying to cover up that Patrick is still living in that building.

They want to live the fantasy image held by millenials (as portrayed by You Tube lifestyle influencers) energized by their perfect morning routine, going to work in a fancy company office, well dressed and making it in the real world.

Patrick and Phillip are obviously not smart enough to understand that people can see through all of their fake and contrived shows for attention.

Advertising Being a Moron

Most of this, again, started with Patrick. His behavior basically advertises his real character, an individual who really lives the life of a loser behind closed doors. The term moron in the subtitle is not mean or unfair.

Again, the main issue here is that he is bothering and harassing other people on purpose. If he wasn't, he can do whatever he wants in the privacy of his own home...no judgment.

Patrick cannot take care of himself or his home and is deeply insecure about who he is and his habits.

These kinds of people got away for years thinking that it is ok to live uncivilized behind closed doors because no one is watching.

For them it is a big deal, like they feel like they are on top of the world, when they are finally cleaning up after themselves and living like real adults. It feels fancy to them.

Still Communicating Being a BIG BOY?

For example, for years now, since about the 2016/2017 time frame till now, we often hear Patrick using a wooden cooking spoon and deliberately hitting the side of a cooking pot (in the front of his unit) and making a lot of unnatural, contrived noises in his kitchen, which faces our building.

It literally sounds like a purposeful (one-two-three) hitting, not like someone who happens to be using their kitchen, because they need to.

Threatened By Other Young Adults

This often happens when he hears or sees another young adult, maybe coming home from work, or grocery shopping, or hearing them making their own meal in their kitchen.

All this showmanship is the result of him feeling threatened. I know there are young guys in my building, maybe about his age, or younger who are living their LA apartment dream life and have real jobs, the type that Patrick envisions as being enviable to himself and others of our generation.

Sometimes they leave their doors open and talk on their phones. We think that this triggers him. But they are not doing this on purpose. And now they feel like they have to remember to keep their doors shut and speak on their phones inside, not outside in the hallway.

Instead of being responsible and taking accountability for his shortcomings, by working on himself, Patrick tries to exert maniacal superiority over everyone else to mask his weak flawed character.

He literally feels entitled to bother everyone by slamming his door and engaging in non-verbal communication and signaling all the time, for years, without anyone's consent. This is harassment.

Listening to Other People's Lives and Letting Them Know

Another pet peeve is that Patrick is basically listening to everyone's lives and signaling to them that he is doing this.

After years of observing all of this, Patrick cannot do ANYTHING of his own accord. All these behaviors are a reaction to feeling threatened by someone else doing what they are supposed to.

Again, normal people are not obsessed with what everyone else thinks of them. Patrick appears a classic narcissist. This guy has no sense of self. Narcs think that their sense of self is basically equivalent to what other people think of them.

Living Like a Recluse -the Evidence

Also, since the time of those fake phone conversations, Patrick has not been seen walking around the building. He is trying to make it seem like he no longer lives in that apartment. But he is. This is evidenced by the following:

continued defiant door smacking (as hard as fricking possible to communicate all his inner hate and anger). Again, no one in my building or his does this. It is not normal, but a deliberate attempt to convey power.

deliberate foot stomping as hard as possible in response to hearing neighbors living their normal lives, doing productive normal things that us younger generations hate and are considered spoiled as a result.

same weird yawning with a vocalization that suggests an I don't give a fuck about anything attitude. Thiscan still be heard by neighbors in the adjacent buildings, to this very day in 2023.

Same laughter - sounds like part Kermit the Frog and part human

5) same nose blowing into a tissue can also still be heard. This behavior was exhibited by Patrick before the fake phone conversations. Again, this is audible towards the front of the unit.

6) Foot thumping/ signaling has also be heard in that unit even when Phillip the roommate is not home.

7) Patrick sleeps in the livingroom (facing our building)- we can hear him blowing his nose and his recognizable yawn...We .hear this at night or early in the morning. If Patrick is sleeping in the living room, Phillip is probably in the bedroom.

These are way too many factors to be deemed a fluke or a coincidence. C'mon, same yawning, foot stomping, laughing, nose blowing, and door smacking? These things cannot logically be attributed to his new roommate.

And also where is that girl who was living with Patrick? People found their supposed wedding photo in an online Northwestern University magazine about alum who got married. Most likely this also is a total scam, unless something legitimate here is missing. She clearly does NOT live with him. Or if it was not a scam, maybe she divorced him right away. Who wouldn't?

Now in 2023 a visitor of a neighbor reports that Patrick continues to get rattled whenever he hears other neighbors waking up early, using the sink in the morning, cooking, cleaning etc.

People ( think the guy below and the older couple next to him) hear a loud thump on the floor in response to something they did. Or they hear them smacking their kitchen cabinet doors loudly to let their neighbors know that they are listening.

These actions are always contingent on what the other person is doing. They are NOT coincidences. All of this is a total invasion of privacy. Who can live like this?

Frankly, no one can believe that people such as this exist in our world. Society expresses all kinds of shock with so many weird individuals in younger generations (i.e. self identifying as moons, animals, lack of potty training into elementary school etc.) This is one of those stories.

Boomers and Gen-X are stunned by many younger adults with no inner conviction, or no sense of doing positive things for themselves and their future, young adults who try to one-up other people who are living their lives well with responsibility and personal accountability.

It's like both Phillip and Patrick are the types of people who get on an inner power trip when they do wash their dishes, clean their apartment or wake up early for once and they have to broadcast all of this to everyone around here.

Instead, they are basically telling us all that they are really just lazy and immature kids behind closed doors and cannot do anything of their own accord until they feel threatened by other people.

I mean, we all have weaknesses and our lazy moments. But to be putting on all these obnoxious, deliberately loud and aggressive (contrived) shows just for the sake of attention-seeking, with the intent of showing off to the other tenants around here is really, really disgusting.

This shit has been going on for years, despite all the complaints to the city and the owner of Patrick's building about the door slamming and the California nuisance law violations.

The media stories about lazy and entitled millennials are now a vivid and living and everyday nightmare for all these people who live in Patrick's building, in my building, and the other one on the other side.

An Unfair Situation

This whole situation has not been fair to me or any of the neighbors affected by this ongoing nuisance. The non-stop door smacking is loud and alarming.

If any of you were to experience and witness this for yourselves, you would be absolutely disgusted at how much anger and vitriol is invested into these actions.

It is also blatantly wrong to let these two continue to live like this. Patrick has a major mental problem.

And for people to allow him to dwell recluse in a small apartment building, not really seeing the light of day ( due to mental problems) is inhumane.

His family should be aware of what is happening to him and do something to help him get on his feet and live a normal life. This is only fair to the rest of us as this whole ordeal has been nothing short of an illegal nuisance, and abuse at its worst.

As annoyed as I feel in writing all of this, I am bothered, not just for my own sake by also by the inhumanity of this continued situation, someone living like a prisoner in an apartment for years and years and years with no resolution and no help to live a healthy and normal life?

As upset as I am, I will humbly say that I do hope that this post will raise awareness and somehow Patrick Metcalf does get the help he needs in a way that is fair to the residents here.

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shattered-catalyst · 2 years ago

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I was just reading this and let's break it down

First of all we have the pit fall and struggle of all real long term relationships. TS doesn't give us bullshit reasoning for a break up. It's a realistic push and pull between someone and their own identity as they struggle to settle down in their mid to late twenties.

Hes not getting what he needs and he doesn't seem to know what he wants: it's natural and human to be confused in relationships. I think a lot of the hate towards this arc comes from the desire to see the ship together rather than to see the characters grow as individuals. Star is still growing in his confidence of his wants and needs and he's allowed to do that. This backwards step is allowed and permissible in character growth. In fact we usually see this right before someone has major changes and makes positive growth in their life.

Characters aren't static tbh I'd rather have a dynamic relationship being portrayed.

And boy is this dynamic because get me a large popcorn Ric is dragging him.

He acknowledges seeing Star earlier when Star stopped by signaling he needed Ric. But he put up a boundary and said no and continued his life.

I could write pages on how great Rictor is at boundaries like he's the king of boundaries when he wants to be (and then sucks when he doesn't tbh but shhh strengths focus here)

I always read that line from rictor about the posters in a teeth grinding annoyed voice. In a: ' can't you see I have a life and you aren't the center of it you asshole.'

It's a push back. Its healthy. It's maintaining the boundary of ' if you say I can't give you what you need then don't come to me when you need things.'

I also love the indication that the power release wasn't intentional because it relates back to the headcanon of ric having a tic disorder and that's dear to my heart. But I also feel it lends some emotional weight to the piece that shows just how deeply he cares and wants to be there for Star- who he is begrudgingly calling Ben and respecting Stars choice to have a new identity BTW like how fucking nice is that?

He isn't making fun of stars new identity or name he's supporting him. Like gdi ricstar is so great. He obviously doesn't like it and has some feelings there but he isn't forcing Star to be Star he's addressing him as 'Ben' with the quotations . Indicating there's a difference in how they've been handling the switch between Star and Ben.

Trying out different names and identities is very positive and common and I don't think this is a bad thing. I think inherently Star needed to explore life as Ben and that it's beautiful Ric was supporting him even if he personally accepted Star for who he was no matter what name he called himself.

Ric was willing to go with Star with whatever name he wanted to try or use until he was comfortable with himself. He was there to support him. It was Star that iced him out through a trauma response- normal for a real world relationship and great writing for a comic one.

Honestly the nuanced character development here is fantastic for both Ric and Star and pets them shine brilliantly. I only wish we had a Rictor solo series for this timeline to compliment it.

Yeah gasp I would want a Rictor solo series around this timeline or maybe post krakoa or maybe even M day time line.

TS saw Rictors character and gave him the boost up that he deserves and let him shine. He gave him so much development and it's a damn shame it's being overcast by people who are more interested in counting active couples than they are about the personhood of actual Queer characters and their life stories.

I sometimes wonder what would happen if we began to acknowledge the fetishization of two Queer men for being what it is: problematic even if we are LGBTQIA qnd doing the action I ourselves. Gay and Bisexual relationships are not a product to be consumed and the majority of Rictor fans are lesbians (not all but that's the running joke). I think it's important to reflect on how yaoi and Boys love influence how we in the LGBTQIA population view other same sex relationship and view them as a product to consume and fall into the same traps and toxic behaviors.

There's a lot to say on this and I'm not sure where I'm heading. but this one page holds so many little tidbits that show great writing and character building.

It's okay if people don't like the story. There's stuff wrong with it just like there is any other piece of media. But if they don't like it just because the guys aren't together then there needs to be a reflection on how you consume LGBTQIA media. This whole solo series was a love letter for them and a testament to Star building a life for himself and Ric.

#oh no i write about julio again

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