#fuckin adhd

[joitiks]

cryolophosaurus ellioti, a large theropod from early jurassic antarctica

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[lil-gae-disaster]

My aunt when my disability is disabling me in not a stereotypical way: 😧😠 "Why don't you just [thing I'm limited in because disability]! I also have [disability] and I don't struggle with this at all! You're just a lazy child!"

[mtab2260]

Don't you hate when the ADHD paralysis gets so bad you're like,

"Oh shit I'm thirsty. I'm really thirsty. When was the last time I drank water? My water bottle is right there, I should drink water"

AND THEN YOU DON'T

[snoftgays]

i am a slave to deadline pressure and i mcfuckin hate it

[wynnyfryd]

undiagnosed adhd eddie who cries the first time steve says ‘i love you.’

bad tears. tears of dread.

steve says ‘i love you’ and eddie has to admit that he’s terrified to let himself love steve back, because it means he might stop loving him some day and he can’t bear to do that to him.

and steve looks at him with those sweet, sad eyes, a confused little dip to his brow as he asks, “so just- don’t stop then?”

and eddie doesn’t have the word ‘hyperfixation’ in his back pocket, doesn’t have the language to explain his faulty wiring, but he tries. tries to tell him how he can love something for days, weeks, month, years — an all-consuming, better-than-any-drug overwhelming obsession for the thing — and then wake up one day and feel nothing. like his emotions are the boards of a rickety wooden bridge swinging high over a ravine, and at any moment a plank could drop out from under his feet and leave him scrambling for purchase.

and steve just cups his face until he’s done talking and then he tells him that there’s a difference between loving things and loving people, and the difference is that one of them is a bridge you come across and hope it holds, and the other is a bridge you build together with your bare hands.

[sergle]

Another day of “do I have adhd, or autism, or both, or do I just spend too much time on the websites that categorize all thoughts and behaviors as symptoms of some type of neurodivergence” 

[nylongenesis]

Mmmmmmm .. pepsicola.

[aroacedavestrider]

i got 🔥💥fired💥🔥

bluh bluh chronically fatigued aroace trans dude with audhd osdd etc etc

today i learned the hospital i worked at doesnt give sick days and staying home with a 101 degree fever gets you written up. fucking crazy right its a hospital

ignore how wrinkled that shit is i crumpled it into a ball out of stress lmao. anyway

straight to it: i just lost my benefits a month before i get to pay $17k in college tuition ‼️‼️💯💯 WHEEE

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[puppyeared]

Pokeymon

@ask-willowleafeon @ask-shiny-umbreon

[columboscreens]

[cybertron-smash-or-pass]

G1 Warpath

[douche-canoe-regatta]

Harrow meeting Kiriona:

hmm

HMMMM

[mtab2260]

I just got off a 4+ hour Instagram hyper fixation just because my roommate walked in and then I realized I legit had ten minutes to read chapter 2 of the textbook and submit a discussion question

I did, in fact, read the introduction paragraph yesterday and had notes for it so I pulled some random ass question out of my ass submitted the post with legit thirty seconds left

Then I even did the quiz based off chapter one and two for the same class in six minutes (this is due tomorrow thou) without reading any other anything from chapter 2 and got a 4/5

It was a select all too so I was robbed

I was more productive in fifteen minutes because of roommate power than in the last five hours

[synthshenanigans]

I can't help it so I'm going on a mini rant about one singular line from Light because I'm so incredibly normal about it.

The line by Whole "This human you're being" has so much going on with it that means sm to me & I wish was discussed more.

It can mean, to Heart & Mind, that 1. you shouldn't treat the other half as something below a human being. Heart talking about how cold & uncaring Mind is. A madman thats turning whole into something he shouldn't be. Mind saying that Heart is something weaker than a human. A vile creature that should be left out or thrown away. Or how both their views on Soul are either something to control/that has control and not as a being that's a part of themselves/Whole. Not seeing it as a being with its own thoughts & identity [for the first half of Cacophony at least].

Whole stating that they're all just as important & human as the other and they shouldn't view them as something other than that.

But 2. Whole telling them that they should not only view the other as human but themselves as well.

While yes they do insult the other frequently, they also insult themself a fair bit as well. Mind viewing himself as a machine, something thats supposed to be cold & uncaring. Always having to be right about everything and never fail, otherwise he himself is a failure. Heart calling himself weak & vile. Overly emotional about everything; getting too heated in an argument, being too unhappy with life or himself in general to the point where it all seems too much care for and so he flips to becoming apathetic. Thinking those things make him fail at everything and only make things worse.

Or Soul having trouble seeing himself as something that has its own identity. His own Heart & Mind [and in turn his own head] fighting about what they should be. How they should act or deal with things and how they shouldn't. What roles they're all supposed to fit into. All to the point where Soul doesn't know what its supposed to do anymore or how to be anything which leads him to the Tridential Regicide answer.

And 3. Despite everything mentioned before, all three of them [together or apart] are being Human. That despite the Cacophony they're in, how likely it can happen again & loop back over, they'll still be human no matter what. That it just comes with being human. How they shouldn't strive to never have failures or have ups & downs or to be something others want them to be. That what they are already is enough & that they'll get outta Cacophony permanently one day and they can finally stay whole.

I frickin love Light overall but GOD that line kills me everytime I hear it. Especially when connecting heavily to the album and its characters or ideas it just hits hard & is so nice to hear.

Man I just typed 5½ paragraphs over ONE (1) singular line of a song that I've listed to for over a year and I still will never ever be normal about it.

[doomdoomofdoom]

it's always fun to learn about your conditions online. For example, ADHD can hijack your brain into being a plagiarist (James Somerton) and/or go on racist rampages (Cait Corrain)

so glad they get to spread the word about these totally real side effects <3

[system-architect]

if you dont play revenant you might not know that revenants have dialogue lines where their own invoked legends (shiro, kalla, etc) talk to them and the revenant responds back, and these happen like CONSTANTLY-- it gets mildly disruptive sometimes when it plays over story voice acting or such, but that aside

i love thinking about this in a world lore context. like, shiro is talking to me in my head, right? is my revenant just standing in a crowd in lions arch and abruptly screaming "DO YOUR WORST! I AM IMPERVIOUS!" at nothing in particular, in front of onlookers? does he ever just suddenly make a Face and then go "sorry, glint was making those weird grunts again"?? i enjoy the thought.