#fuck you executive dysfunction

[serious-goose]

the evil (the dishes) is defeated (are clean)

[goth-automaton]

So, the thing is: I have some energy tonight (weird, I know), so I tried to work on my thesis, but brain is not braining this way, brain wants "Obituary...", but at the same time I have a blockage and can't work on a fic until I work on my thesis, and I can't work on my thesis, 'cause brain still refuses to brain and wants "Obituary..." instead, but at the same time the fact I'm not making progress with my thesis is blocking me, so I can't write "Obituary...", 'cause guilty, but I can't write my thesis, 'cause brain, but RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH.

[starpros-sunshine]

Having one of those of god oh dear moments

[snailmusic]

i need to write i need to write i need to write i need to write i need to write i need to write i need to write i need to write i need to write i need to write i need to.

[jadenoryuu]

I don't know what this says about me, but I noticed in my weekly shesh of loading the dishwasher that I used only one (1) fork and a dozen (12) of long teaspoons...

I am so weird.

[doortotomorrow]

I’ve been sitting here all fucking day caught between what kind of editing I want to do. 

[ryanthedemiboy]

I need to eat and take my meds, but I just... can't get up.

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID: an 11 panel comic featuring characters from the owl house. Panel 1- a cloaked Darius sneaking around a wall. panel 2 he peaks around the corner, saying "well? Did you retrieve...the package?". Panel 3 Hettie Cutburn (who has old Hollywood style text announcing "surprise Hettie Cutburn!" next to her) says "Darius! Of course! Took some digging but I found them eventually. Tell the boy I say 'hi!'". Panel four- she hands documents labeled "classified" to Darius. Later, Hunter (post timeskip) walks through a door in Darius' home, saying "hey Darius, hey Eber, I'm ba-". Next panel- Darius, Willow, and Eberwolf on the couch. Hunter says "...willow?", She replies "hey hunter!", he asks "what are you guys doing?

Darius says "oh nothing...except looking at pictures of you as a baby!" Holding up the documents from earlier. We see two pictures of a younger hunter framed like panels- the first is of hunter as a baby/toddler aged hunter freshly sprouted out of the ground with a blanket around him, covered in dirt, while the second one shows a young scout Hunter covered in bandages receiving his sprig plushie. Darius' narration reads "courtesy of Hettie Cutburn- she found the only surviving copy of your early life medical records and gave them to me". Willow says "aww, you were so cute!". The final panel shows Hunter looking embarrassed/stunned as Willow takes a photo of the documents, and Darius says "I'm considering it an early father's day present- so, thank you, Hunter". End ID]

MERRY DADRIUS WEEK!!! Thank you to @sergeantsporks for hosting! There's other prompts I wanna do but they'll probably be late (maybe I'll do them in bulk and upload them on the final day). Til then here's a silly comic!

[gideonisms]

Once again frustrated by how Difficult it is to do very basic tasks

[prefrontal-bastard]

(Context: I'm AuDHD and have ZERO ability to do the thing when I think about doing the thing. I'm trying a new stimulant, Azstarys, and it's given me that ability.)

What it's like having executive function: The moment I think about doing something, it's done. For the first time ever I can make my body move as fast as I can think.

I've been awake for 5½ hours and this is what I've completed:

Went to say hi to a friend for his birthday, which involved: Driving across town, driving into downtown, and finding parking at a parking meter to go to an unfamiliar restaurant.

Dropped him and his wife off back at their house, which involved: Navigating on slippery and unfamiliar roads at night on semi-plowed roads.

Got home and cleaned my room, which involved: Putting all the crap I had strewn about into bins, putting the bins into the halls, picking garbage off the floor, pulling out the broom and dustpan, sweeping, pulling out the vacuum, vacuuming, pulling out furniture, pushing the furniture back, walking up and down the basement stairs to get things, putting the broom back, putting the vacuum back, putting the bins with crap back into my room to sort through later.

Made myself a milkshake, which involved: Pulling out all ingredients, making the milkshake, putting all the ingredients back, and hand-washing the blender and lid. And then I cleaned the few dishes left in the sink and cleaned the sink itself because it looked a little crusty.

The main takeaway I've learned from all this?

Efficiency is a bio-mechanical function, and how well this mechanical function works is NOT a matter of self-discipline or willpower.

When you have working executive function—when it doesn't cause your nervous system pain to set-switch and to execute tasks—doing tasks is EASY. SO EASY. MINDLESS. The moment I'd think about doing something, my body is suddenly doing it.

Additionally, none of this exhausted me. None of it inflicted pain on my nervous system. In fact, the only reason why I'd stop doing a task is purely because it gets boring to do, NOT because I'm burning out from constant pain-exposure.

Fuck literally everyone who claims this shit's a matter of willpower or discipline. If it feels like that to them, then that's testament to just how fucking easy they have it.

[toytulini]

whys it so hard

[simcardiac-arrested]

don’t you want to?

[lika2]

Are you "lazy" or are you just taking a break?

Are you "lazy" or do you just need to relax and unwind?

Are you "lazy" or are you just so overworked in other areas of your life that you cants expend the energy to do another task right now?

Are you "lazy" or do you just have executive dysfunction?

Are you "lazy" or do you just have a healthy work-life balance?

Are you "lazy" or do you have an unseen chronic condition that saps your energy until basic tasks are a burden?

Are you "lazy" or is that just a thing you've been told you are for reasons outside your control, to the point that you've internalised it?

Is there a single person in this world who enjoys feeling like a burden?

Has anyone actually felt motivated to improve themselves after they got called "lazy"?

Or did it just worsen their condition?

Is the concept of laziness just abelist/classist garbage?

[aromanticduck]

When you have task initiation executive dysfunction it's like being on Taskmaster every day except less funny and more soul destroying.

[eldritchqueerture]

unmedicated adhd will have you scrolling through the same posts on your dash for the third time, asking yourself How Do I Leave the House, hoping the answer somehow appears in the posts

[purpurussy]

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