#fuck this might be rough idk

[oreganosbaby]

roman’s negative oedipus complelx plays an interesting role in highlighting the way being “not a real person” works within the show. he identifies with the sexual role of the mother in relation to the father. the identification is primal and comes from the imposition of the nuclear family, baby’s first social structure. roman is forcibly made aware of this, his femininity, as “abnormal” in childhood and so, roman becomes aware that he himself is “not a real person" because he relates to his own body, as well as others, in the way someone who is “not a real person” might. i think this episode reminds us of that because without logan, the social order becomes self-regulated but, on their subjective interpretations and according to the traces of the hierarchy he once controlled. now, we have marcia and kendall (and frank?) controlling it.

this episode, we see roman empathise with kerry. she gets “taken out back” and marcia says that she’s gonna take the “subway to her little apartment.” it’s a classist comment, of course but, she’s also saying that kerry is vermin. marcia is fumigating logan’s life, controlling the narrative by exterminating kerry, making her “not a real person.” that there is nothing left by logan to legitimize their relationship makes her all the less “real,” so “not real” that she may as well be dead. after all, what’s more “not real” than real emotion, that lack of self control that’s so animal. kerry, to marcia, was nothing more than a body for logan to fuck. that’s always what not being a real person was, being just a body.

earlier, willa says to marcia “look at us,” implying that she and marcia are the same. marcia was disgusted by this notion because willa is a sex worker, vermin, “not a real person.” again, it’s this idea about being “just a body.” willa’s worth to the market, in both her career as an actor and as a sex worker, is her body— she’s defined by it. it’s a very old fashioned way of thinking about the performing arts but, it rings true with the way the roys treat those in it. marcia being logan’s wife implies a sexual relaltionship and therefore, also makes her defined as a body within this context. the difference is that it’s legitimised through language. “wife” is a title that separates her from a courtesan but now that the courtesan bares the title “wife,” is this title now degraded or is willa somehow illegitimate as one?

shiv, roman’s sexual inverse, tends to see herself as a “real person” and not “dirty” like roman; however, in logan’s death, she is being very obviously excluded because she’s a woman and with her being a cis woman, it also shows up in this possibility of her being pregnant, the ultimate in domination. her body is now colonised. logan had seen her as something of a hyperreal person, a mere signifier for purity without any substance, without a body but, kendall doesn’t see her that way. that’s not the relationship they have so, she’s unable to feel like a “real person” because she is being explicitly treated like “not a real person” by everyone without being able to go somewhere where she can feel like one, at least not in that moment.

roman doesn’t have this need to feel like a “real person” the way shiv does. i’m not sure if he knows what that would feel like, anyway. instead, roman seems to feel like some “not real people” will get treated better than others. roman obviously wants to be one of those but he’s also constantly expected to grow into being a “real person,” a role he doesn’t aspire to nor does he know what that would even feel like. for roman to intuitively reject the “real person” role that’s so privileged compliciates the value ascribed to these roles by logan. in fact, this was already complicated by logan himself through dignifying titles like “wife,” seeing shiv as hyperreal and expecting roman to grow into being a “real person” despite already deciding he’s “not a real person.” being “not a real person” isn’t inherently a bad thing and it isn’t even something that will put you in the worst position but, it’s a role marked by bodily objectification and vulnerability because this role is inevitable in capitalism. roman can’t see anything better for himself because this system, his father’s, can’t have anything else for what he would understand as people like him.

[deoidesign]

important distinction.

Testing a few different things with this one

[pepperpixel]

“put me on a pedestal and i’ll only disappoint you

tell me i’m exceptional, and i promise to exploit you

gimme all your money, and i’ll make some origami honey!

i think you’re a joke!!! …but i don’t find you very

fuuuuuuu~nyyy”

More tagr art!!! Assorted stuff this time! Featuring some cute chibi stuff. Some solo gaz’s, a lil uhhh. Comic of an altercation.. and a very belated Halloween pic I started drawing last Halloween and didnt finish lol. Also featuring lyrics from pedestrian at best cuz that song rllly rlly fits my ver of tak lol.

[momo-shut-the-fuck-up]

Thank u for the replies i have remembered that we already established this is an alternate timeline. Memory issues go brr

Despite the founder sayin its an alternate timeline, im still gonna try to find connections to the miralands we know, cuz it just feels right. Like, yes, alternate timeline, but roughly what year? Are we in the "new era" equivalent or before that? Its an alternate timeline, so when did it "split"? That's what i wanna figure out and maybe i can even see why some places became what they are that d be fun

Like, cicia still exist. Its no longer got a "design school" its an art academy, ( they still. Do design though. Whatever) but it s still Named cicia. Does it have a theatre? Idk. I wanna know why they decided to rename every other city and country but kept cicia. Maybe just cuz they felt like it lol but anyway thats my ramble done i cant wait to comb this game properly

[moe-broey]

Realization.

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya is definitely the sort of parent who prefers to sleep in the same bed as his baby.

[shittygothbitch]

Okay

[waywardsalt]

idk why i keep acting like i need to get through the first parts of this fic before i can get to the speculative biology stuff with bellum, as if it's some carrot on a stick for me. i have literally no reason to put it off in fact i should just start writing down my notes for bellum speculative biology now so i'm not just floundering when i actually get to it being relevant

[magentagalaxies]

having a moment about my gender rn and i'm just like ugggggh @ my brain do we have to. like can we just not

[hoardlikegoldenirises]

a scar i totally forgot about in my notes and by extension that drawing i did (but you couldn't see peter's back there anyway so eh)

it's a handprint from kaine (somehow the only one? idk) TBH there's a chance this scar doesn't even end up happening so i guess it doesn't really matter if i forgot it cause it might not be relevant lol but i wanted to doodle it anyway...

[gibbearish]

am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes

[touchlikethesun]

despite the current state of things, good things have in fact happened. if they’ve happened in the past, they can and they will happen again.

[blasphemyisjustforyou]

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[backinblackstaff]

Not to be unapologetically horny on main...

But I could really use a hungry mouth on my cock, or a warm inviting set of holes to fill. Anyone in the Chicagoland area interested in helping a guy out?

If you're not looking for reciprocation (which I'd be down for, btw) I'm down to get you pizza or Portillos afterwards, or some candy/weed, your choice.

If you're cool and we click, maybe both?

[vermillioncrown]

[+] my revision of formulation for the whole study & thesis was majorly approved, ppl can no longer pretend to or actually be lost

[+] minion² was contained, showed up in person and got the sense that no one was going to take his nonsense

[+] no major disagreement between the supes, all subteams understand their tasks

[-] back-to-back-to-back meetings w advisors, integrators, external working groups, and study lead in the next two weeks

[-] i have to finish reading... 15+ papers and compile their data

[-] fix a data structure implementation in my optimization model that i had promised since... nov last year lol (it wasn't entirely necessary. until now)

we'll see if i'm in the mood for stress relief writing instead of just stress relief daydreaming... there's a lot of stuff for every fic but it's all over the place. tpac hyperfixation is still holding strong (esp when compared to all other wips, it is second place for most concrete ending + actual epilogue)

(first place is larb bc every chapter is outlined and scoped; just haven't felt like writing it)

(not saying the other fics don't have planned endings but besides their plot i don't have the context for the endings yet. the shape of the ending scenes are very much informed by the long, in-between chapters)

[glitterhoof]

i didnt like nightbirds redesign tho. maybe because im biased 4 my own design of her. leav me alone. im mourning air razor okay