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matan4il · 2 years ago

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Good morning Alice!! If you don't mind, may I add something to the topic of antisemitism? Because in the last year, I had 2 things happen in my personal life that made it blaring to me how much subconsciously for some antisemitism was back on the rise. I am not Jewish, although I am luckily enough to be surrounded by many different Jewish communities and families. In turn, I also live in a progressive city and have always felt I am surrounded by tolerant open-minded people.

But first it was a brunch I was at with some friends. Someone I have known since high school was complaining about a bonus she got and said something like, "Dude, the owners are acting like such Jews." I was taken aback and like what did you just say?? She seemed surprised and was like well that's how people in the office describe them. I mean, I watched Schindlers List with this girl in high school, and I reminded her of everything we learned. The thing is, I know her and her family and have never heard them speak this way. So it's horrible to think she subconsciously always felt that way, or maybe never has, but the term has become mainstream enough again that people felt comfortable using it to describe owners of their company.

The second time was a movie someone recommended to me. Based on what I do for a living, they were being friendly and thought I would enjoy it. I will be sort of vague here so as not to give away spoilers and / or open up the politics of the person involved in the scene. The movie is called "You People". Let's just say I found the movie a bit off putting to start, but then came a scene where someone was bragging about Farrakhan to a Jewish couple. I almost dropped my wine and turned off the movie. In my opinion, the Jewish couple were written kind of as clueless in this scene and the people praising Farrakhan as smart. I only finished the movie because I was waiting for this attitude to be corrected or changed. I was disappointed that it never was. The Jewish couple "learned a lesson." I, of course, messaged the person back and told them what I found problematic about the movie, and again, the person was bemused by my disdain. For me, though, I was just shocked this perspective was able to make it through production. I mean, everyone involved in this movie was never like, maybe this is a bridge to far??

My major point here is that it's scary all this has again become a mainstream thought process. People seem not to notice the repeat of history. I talk to a lot of families all over from very diverse Jewish families. So maybe I am a bit more biased because I hear stories of families in New York that have to hire security to take their children to school because the hate crimes are so bad. However, you never read about it in the media.

My rule now is to not assume anyone is not hearing these things and somehow absorbing it and inadvertently pushing it on. Always be ready to correct or remind someone that yes, they are being hateful. Sorry for the essay I just wanted to point out how people can notice it even from people they least expect it from. Please feel free to correct any POV I presented. You know I always wish to learn!!

As always, stay safe, and I hope you are feeling ok. xoxo

Also, don't feel bad if you don't post this because you don't want to get political on here. I would completely understand

My darling, it is so good to hear from you, no matter what, but especially on such an important topic as antisemitism that is NOT talked about enough.

Thank you for sharing both of these incidents. The first one is just so blatant... I mean, it's clear "Jews" is being used in a negative manner, so how can there be ANY confusion about it being an antisemitic way of expressing oneself? You don't even have to know the specific bloody, hateful history of this particular antisemitic stereotype that links Jews to money hoarding to get that it's a hateful thing to say. And in the case of this stereotype, it really isn't in the past. Just the other day, I reblogged a post about Ilan Halimi, who in 2006 was kidnapped, tortured, mutilated and burned alive because of this antisemitic notion, before he passed away. I'm shocked that in her office, it's an okay thing for anyone to say, but I can't help thinking... this girl can't be stupid, right? So even if she heard it from countless people, there should have been something in her telling her that using the word "Jews" like that is antisemitic and wrong.

As for the movie You People... *sighs* I have it downloaded and waiting for me to watch it. I've tried watching it twice now, and twice I couldn't get past the second scene (when the first one is "just" the movie's opening). So I haven't gotten yet to the part you're describing, but I have no doubt you're spot on in your assessment of it, and honestly... For those who don't know, Farrakhan is a raging antisemite, and praising him to Jews would be akin to the Jewish family praising David Duke (a notorious anti-black White Supremacist) to the black family, and no one pointing out why that's wrong and offensive.

There are several American movies I'm aware of that are based on the concept of "black vs white families who would normally dislike each other have to overcome their differences because their kids wanna get married". This is a concept that works based on the tension between those whose ancestors suffered from slavery in the United States and those whose ancestors were responsible for it. The most basic issue I have with You People is that the white family from the original concept has been replaced with a Jewish one. Since presumably this is meant to work on the same kind of tension, that already implies Jews were responsible for the enslavement of black people in the US. This is not true and has even been recently addressed with historical research on this precisely due to this new antisemitic lie spreading and putting Jewish lives in danger.

I guess that brings me to an issue that's a continuation of something I brought up in my Jewish representation post: American movies and shows hardly ever show us any kind of antisemitism except for the "classic" type trafficked by the Nazis. And the problem with that is that there are so many other kinds, too! We don't represent them in our media, so people don't know to recognize them. And we are not giving young Jewish people and allies of the Jewish community the tools to identify these forms of antisemitism and the weapons to fight back against them.

At some point, I might be able to stomach getting through the movie to detail everything I think is wrong with it, because from what I've heard from you and from @geekgirl101, there's gonna be a lot I would have to rant about. But for now, maybe I'll just mention that the movie has been pretty universally rejected and condemned by the mainstream Jewish community and its allies. Here are just some of the many scathing articles criticizing it:

Critics pan ‘painful’ portrayal of Jews in race relations rom-com ‘You People’

The woke antisemitism of Netflix's 'You People' - opinion

You People's Outrageous Antisemitism

Jew People

Instead of giving us a contemporary Black Jewish story, Netflix’s ‘You People’ erases Jews of color

Netflix’s You People has a problem with Jew people

Netflix Hit 'You People' Branded 'Horribly Damaging' to Jewish People

Thank you for this ask and for caring! Thank you for helping me to still have faith in humanity. Sending you all the love! As always, here's my ask tag. xoxox

#jewish representation #jr #jewish #jewish rep #antisemitism #you people #netflix #you people netflix #jumblr #frumblr #ask #daphnesvalley

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alwayscryingoverdannyb · 22 days ago

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for the tea questions! 1, 4, 11, 15 and 21 - i'm nosy :)

1 How did you come to choose your current profession or lifestyle? profession was an accident. I was a receptionist, then I did backoffice and then I got offered a junior consultant position and seeing as I was overall pretty much fucked I didn't give a damn and said "why not." and then I had a good boss and it made it feel worthwhile to try to get better at it. somewhere along the way the job started to be fun and gave me sense of accomplishment and here I am, a senior consultant :)) as for lifestyle - bruh a ton of therapy. I stopped trying to "fix" things about me I didn't like and leaned into adjusting my life to suit who I actually am. (I'm a 20-80 sunshine-grump mix with extremely low social batteries and fierce need for personal space and time.)

4 Do you have any habits or quirks that others find unique or strange? I actually asked my best friend bc I needed someone else's perspective :D bc how would I know it's strange to other people when it's normal to me? And she said the following: - when I'm really happy about something, I do a small but whole-body wiggle of joy, apparently - I have very specific requirements for temperature regulation (I'm too hot quite often and feel warmer than everybody else 100% of the time. I also takes way longer to feel cold than most people) - I have thick, heavy hair and I put it up in a bun in a very specific way and apparently to other people it's so fast it looks like a ninja trick

11 Do you have any coping mechanisms for dealing with anxiety or fear? yes, I've developed some over the years. when I can't do anything about the situation, I try to distract myself and shift my focus to something else (book/podcast... ideally nothing to do with our reality), I also isolate myself (I rarely want consoling or a pep talk) and go to sleep. and then my brain resets overnight and it's always better in the morning. lots of it has to do simply with life experience - I often say to myself "shut up nerd you always think this and it's literally never that bad." so again. therapy helped.

15 What kind of music do you listen to, if any? there's a reasonably wide range of genres I listen to but I tend to hyper focus on a small selection of artists/songs for long periods of time. like, abt every 2-3 years I have an "eminem month" and then I don't listen to him for a couple years, you know what I mean? but if I go the other way around, I'd say I //don't// listen to anything harder than linkin park, no house, edm, dnb, ska.. and I don't really know the contemporary pop either - no ed sheeran, no taylor, no sabrina carpenter for me. no shade, it just doesn't speak to me. and yes, sometimes it makes me feel like I live under a rock. but that rock is called oasis and I like it.

21 Is there someone who has significantly influenced your life? I'm gonna leave my mom out of this bc that's an obvious answer (and would be like 15k words) but first people to come to mind are two of the bosses that I've had at this job. Possibly first positive/healthy male authority figures I've ever had - them showing trust in me and my professional competence has truly been life changing and confidence building. Also being told "I like you so much as a friend!" by someome who (in my dumb head) only tolerated me, has been a paradigm shift. I think about that moment every time my brain is telling me people must, obviously, hate me.

thank you for asking! I had a lot of fun thinking about these ^_^

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whumpshaped · 11 months ago

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How do you write gore? I am interested in this process.

alright okay so. this got long and i also mention some brief examples of gore in there. i hope its somewhat helpful?? or at all?? im not sure. im not great at giving advice im sorry

gore is something very precious and intimate to me. i feel like i approach it in a way people would approach a tender smut scene. because its the same to me. its being able to peel back someones little layers. to be inside them. to know them. to know them better than they know themselves, because honestly, when was the last time you took a peek at your own kidneys? yeah i thought so. gore too takes two or more people because whatever gore you can inflict on yourself is Nothing compared to the tender intimacy of someone else digging around in your stomach. its vulnerable. its beautiful.

as for literal descriptions, i always try to get very visceral with it, because i feel like it deserves detail and long drawn out paragraphs of description. there are so many sensations and sounds and sights and smells to describe. i cant write super detailed smut but i can write the exact way someone would reach inside someone else's ribcage and slide their fingers under the bone to caress their lungs. its just so much more comfortable to me. it feels like home.

i look at tons of images of specific elements of gore i want to write, real images, drawings, medical illustrations etc. when i can, i watch surgery videos on it. i want to know what it's like so i can write it as best as i can.

i like to relate it to my own life too. shout out to my 5th grade literature teacher who said "whenever i think about being burned at the stake, i like to imagine how much it hurts when i accidentally burn my hand on the clothing iron or stove. and thats just a moment, and a small surface." she was so real for that. breaking every bone in someones body? think back to that time u broke the tiniest bone in your wrist at age 11 and your entire arm went numb. putting needles in someones fingers? blood draws, or pricking yourself while sewing, but times ten or a hundred. and if you really cant relate it to yourself, read about it, read the symptoms, read the accunts of ppl who HAVE gone through it, try to really imagine it.

and dont forget about shock. shock is one of the best parts of gore to me. because you will probably go into shock when you see your severed arm (shout out to the medical instructor who taught us first aid on my drivers course).

idk. gore is something so precious and important to me. it just sucks me in, it feels like writing a long unhinged love letter as an obsessive lover. every time.

and that doesnt mean i condone gore or think its morally awesome to dismember someone. but you can write it that way from a whumper's perspective. but you can also write whumpers who dont really like it but have to do it for whatever reason. whumper pov is good if you dont want to try and explain how itd feel. some things i like to consider: is this the first time whumper does this? does it make them giddy with excitement? or is this the thousandth time and its just work to them? do they like what theyre doing? is it a means to an end or is it for fun? do they have any medical knowledge?

then of course you can write it from whumpee's perspective, which might be good for not going into anatomical detail. whumpee doesn't really see whats going on, most likely. and there's so much blood! it's their blood! theyre not thinking about anatomy, theyre thinking pain pain pain pain PAIN PAIN PAIN. some things i like to consider: has whumpee ever gone through something like this? is this the first time they're seriously hurt? is it the thousandth? and if it is the thousandth, how does it compare to the previous times? how is whumpee's pain tolerance? are they afraid of dying? do they have any medical knowledge, can they kinda gauge how bad the damage will be?

you can bring in a third observer, write it from their pov. itll be vastly different every time based on that character's own feelings towards gore, towards the two or more people involved, etc. there are so many ways to depict and explain what gore looks and feels like.

when i write gorey stuff, i like to just get it all out in a first draft, then go back and do some "realism checks" (this might not be smth you want at all and thats okay :) ). not medical accuracy or anything, but i like to go back and think okay, this character is getting their eyes plucked out, would they really be snarky during the process? maybe not! lets take that out. gore is smth that is usually rly far removed from your life/experiences, so it takes effort to write it in a way that feels authentic.

in any case, just have fun and remember fantasy gore hurts no one :)

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aspd-culture · 2 years ago

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What ASPD stereotypes do you think are the most ridiculous and untrue?

Ooooo, a fun one. In no particular order -

• That every pwASPD hates animals or is violent towards them. This is a super vicious stereotype that has made it's way all the way into the DSM. We are not super likely to hurt animals, at least no more than any other traumatized child. It does happen, yes, but many of us actually feel closest with animals because our lack of empathy and remorse and all that doesn't mean much to them. Depending on the animal, they either love you unconditionally anyway, or they tolerate you on the basis that you keep providing snacks. Plus, they don't require us to understand or care about social code. They also affect a different part of your brain than other humans your own age (more similar to how one bonds with a young child - instinct to protect and care for), so we are more likely to be capable of experiencing close bonds with them. Whilst not everyone with ASPD likes or gets along with animals, we also do not all attack them.

• That lacking remorse is what predisposes us to violence. These are entirely separate symptoms that have next to nothing to do with each other if you put them in that order. Sure, I don't feel remorse besides with Exceptions, but that's not what causes my violent urges. The people who say this are thinking from the perspective of making decisions in fear of feeling bad for things, which if you never experienced remorse in the first place, does not affect you. The people who say that without remorse we must go around violently hurting and k*lling people around us ("because what's stopping you??") are really just telling on themselves & admitting on main that they would st*b their loved ones given the chance. Super weird of them.

• (A classic) That they can pick us out in a crowd/we have a specific look in our eyes. Peak comedy is the many people who say "Don't worry, I'll let you know if you're dealing with a sociopath. They're easy to find if you know what you're looking for" directly to a pwASPD who hasn't told them. Literally my favorite thing ever that prosocials say.

• That a "true sociopath/psychopath" will never tell you they are one/that someone who is good at manipulation would never tell you they're manipulative. Well that's a funky lil trick you got there - you just gave me an easy in to abuse the crap out of you. Good thing I don't want to, but really? You don't see the flaw in saying that out loud to someone? It's also just false. Pretty funny again tho, except I hate the urge to manipulate or abuse people who say this just because I obviously easily could, so I try and steer clear or call them out for how fucking stupid that is.

Many, many more are untrue but these are the more lighthearted, ridiculous ones.

#aspd-culture-is #aspd culture is #aspd culture #tw sociopath #tw psychopath #tw ableist term #actually aspd #aspd #aspd awareness #actually antisocial #antisocial personality disorder #aspd traits #tw aspd stigma #aspd stigma #anons welcome

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carmenized-onions · 6 months ago

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Okay so I needed time to let my thots on the carmy pov percolate in my pea brain for a bit before I sent you my thots but FEAR NOT !! im here to send them to you (idk you may not care but I CARE)

N e way these r disorganized bc its been a bit since I read it BUT BUT BUT

Like okay Carmy is me I am Carmy but I am also Tony like I take care of everyone religiously so i feel her pain but I also think everyone hates me and just tolerates me being there and like the fill in line abt Carmy like, wondering if he was just a sub in Mikey absolutely SHATTERED ME like

Also I love the parallel bc like, idk if you did this consciously (im sure you did) but like from Carms al anon thing (one of them, i think from his lil monolog in s1) he said how he thought mikey was his best friend but it turned out he was everyone's best friend and hes realizing Tony isn't just his guy, she's everyone's person, ans like, that would GUT ME

Also also also

Like them sharing spoons is so cute

ALSO TONY REMEMBERING CARMY'S FAV FLAVOR BC MIKEY TOLD THEM THAT IS SOOOOOO

IM SICK IM SO SICK YOU MAKE ME SICK

Anyway as always i am obsessed w Chicago's Finest and with you 🫶🫵

I FEARED!!! I FEARED A LITTLE BIT!! But I'm so glad you're here now. I will literally always care to hear your thoughts.

And yes, yes yes yes. I think a golden not rule but like... Known adage with writers is that with every character you write, you put at least a part of yourself in. And like, listen. I'm the youngest of 3 pursuing a career in the arts that no one understands and I have a heavy inferiority complex.

I am. The bear. So when I write in Carmen's perspective, there's very much a lot of me in there. SO I TOTALLY GET IT. Tony's got the more nuturing side of being the one that takes care of people; Carmen's the aftermath of being the one that takes care of people. Two sides of the same fucked coin.

AND YEEAAHHHH BABY!!! It was like his whole little spiral with like, realizing that you were actually Michael's friend was very much also a part of that. Like, he had finally figured out the fact that Michael was everyone's guy-- And then you show up, and he figures out, oh-- you were Mikey's guy, like, he DID have a best friend, at it was fucking YOU.

And that's where the whole 'he'll never be as close as you two were' comes in, cause you're also everyone's guy, so that really only leaves, two people that are everyone's must also be each other's key guy. Ohhhhh I'm sick. I've made myself sick. I'm tortuous.

THE SORBET WAS VERY CUTE I was sitting staring at default italian ice flavours for a bit and going like,,, hmmmmmm ,,, which one feels right,,,,,, And I feel like black cherry fit best-- But also maybe that's because I fuck with cherry flavours.

ANYWAYS THANK YOU AND I ALSO DIDN'T NOTICE UNTIL RN IT'S KINDEST NOT FINEST!!!! IT'S SO EASY TO MIX UP I DON'T BLAME YOU!!! but whenever the mix up happens i do have to give a little punch buggy ACAB or it's bad luck.

#yapping #ask #extensive yapping

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blazehedgehog · 1 year ago

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One additional Sonic side-character gets trapped in Cyberspace and accompanies Sonic across the Starfall Islands via hologram. Who would you choose and what would they discuss with Sonic?

I mean, it's Tails. The answer, objectively, is Tails. He has filled that role before in other games. You have little brother chat.

I imagine it wouldn't be very hard to drum that up, either. Spin it like Sonic's always on the road, he's always busy enjoying the world on his own terms, so this is his chance to really catch up with Tails on a level they don't really get into very often.

Maybe that even eventually uncovers that Tails has some things about Sonic he doesn't necessarily like. Get Sonic to admit some of his flaws. Treat it sort of like "these two are now spending 24/7 together for the first time in a long time and learning about all sorts of good and bad habits they might have developed while apart."

Maybe Tails spends so long in his workshop that he doesn't keep a very healthy sleep schedule and being attached to Sonic makes it difficult for Sonic to sleep as a result. Maybe Sonic talks about some of the foreign delicacies he's eaten and Tails still has a kid's palette so he's like, "Ew, gross" because all he wants is basic, simple foods. Maybe we even reveal that Tails doesn't even really like chili dogs all that much and only tolerates them for Sonic's sake. Could spiral out a whole series of conversations about that one. Tails could just not like spicy food.

They could get in to deeper conversations about how Tails really feels about other characters like Knuckles, or Amy. He's generally been pretty reserved when it comes to acting judgmental about them, but surely he's got some feelings about the way they act, deep down within.

Tails could reveal that on some level he respects Doctor Eggman from a purely scientific perspective, for what he's able to accomplish with his machines. There's an easy series of conversation points you could extract from that one. Turn it in to a little debate where Sonic wonders if Tails has gone off the deep end and Tails has to explain himself. Could turn into a "you better not become like him" brotherly bonding moment.

Just lots of good, fun, small talk stuff.

But you said "additional." Someone not already in the game. I feel like Shadow and Sonic would have a lot to chat about regarding... like, clarifying what Shadow is, what his relationship is to Sonic, clearing up his background, really digging into the dude's emotional core... but I also feel like all of that is way too direct and that's why they'd never, ever do it.

Omega would be really fun, on the grounds of how Ian Flynn writes Omega. Maybe somebody from the outside (like Rouge or Shadow) would insert Omega into the situation at the Starfall Islands because his nature as a robot makes it easier for him to interface and understand cyberspace. Could play up some mystery with whether or not the process changed Omega like it did Sage.

But all throughout the game, Sonic would have to put up with Omega's playful hunger for violence and his cold, logical methods of extracting that. It would provide a nice contrast between Sage, too, who is clearly seeking to connect with human emotions.

Omega does not care. Omega just wants to burn things. And Sonic has to do his best to reason with Omega and explain why he won't do that. In the end, Omega does begrudgingly learn something from the process, but it can't change who he is.

Omega would also cut right to the core of Sonic's belief that everyone deserves a chance to set things right. Sonic could even hit Omega with the same speech he gave Shadow in IDW, where Omega wants Sonic to destroy Eggman, but Sonic has spared Omega, an Eggman creation. If Sonic destroys Eggman, does that mean Sonic should also destroy Omega, too?

And maybe through Omega, we can talk a little bit about what Omega thinks Shadow is. Muddy the waters a bit. Don't give direct answers.

Lots of interesting, funny conversations there.

#questions #cypher-ds #sonic the hedgehog #sega #sonic team #sonic frontiers #miles tails prower #writing

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rad4learning · 4 months ago

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“instead, it was revelatory to me because it presents a perspective about the looming threat of male violence (particularly from a lesbian woman whom it is hard to argue does not have a comprehensive understanding of feminism and also has 0 investment in men as romantic partners) that hadn't considered prior to reading this book. many women will simply never prioritize blanket self-preservation over the possibility of adventure and freedom of mobility that can only currently be experienced by living in and moving in a mixed sex society, and choosing to allow or tolerate men in their lives.”

@frigid666 I appreciated seeing this as it’s a perspective close to my heart.

I resent that much of radblr seems to believe that if something carries risk, if the risk tends to outweigh the benefits, then each woman should not do it. There is also tie in here with seeming to want statistics about women’s health and safety to be as bad as possible, that statistics suggesting a smaller average gap between men and women in some domain would be disappointing. As if we need that in order for sexism to be a problem.

I find that much of radblr has a condescending attitude towards women who have been abused, if they were aware of the risk, they must’ve been not really a victim (what did she expect??). If they became victim to abuse, they were stupid. This is the implicit message when I see posts like “do you think your female ancestors were stupid and you are so smart to avoid abuse??” No, I don’t think someone choosing something that had a bad outcome makes them stupid, even if that outcome was avoidable.

I find it particularly frustrating when I - like so many other women - was raised around male violence from a young age. The norm I was raised with wasn’t married mum & dad. I think I saw one example of them, from family we rarely saw and was easily considered the most dysfunctional.

& then I come onto here and see people passing around Why does he do that? quotes while being like, actually, women who experience abuse can’t be trusted to do their own decision making. Actually, the fact that she got into an abusive relationship is supportive evidence of that. Actually, if women don’t choose the lowest risk option, they are culpable for what men choose to do to them.

I’m not saying that choosing to date the walking red flag is something I would advise but it’s not my decision to make and I am not interested in denigrating the women who make that decision. Nuance can come in where a woman has dependents she is exposing to that risk but she does not owe other adults her sticking to their risk tolerance instead of her own.

I don’t know how many people here genuinely have not connected the dots but often encouraging risk aversion aids abusers & encouraging women and girls to think they can’t be trusted with their own decision making does as well. For a victim who lives with an abuser, often her lowest risk least scary option is appeasement and accomodation. The narrative that if victims didn’t choose the least risky option they brought it on themselves plays right into abusers’ hands.

People are shocked when I tell them that after an incident with my brother where I genuinely thought he might stab me over playing ambient sounds while prepping dinner, one of the first things mum did when she came home was preemptively apologise to him for saying it and say “what if he was a rapist?”. She was angry at me for “putting myself in danger” by not doing what he wanted. Later when I ran at a nearby park at night she banned me from running at the park at night because of the risk of some stranger man attacking me. Later, as an adult when I lived with my brother again he wanted me to be grateful to him for “letting me” make the “bad decision” of walking around the city at night alone (clearly I’m such a daredevil! :P).

I have a chip on my shoulder. I am so sick of people acting like any amount of risk is too high a risk for women and girls. I am sick of people acting like women and girls who accept risk must be doing so out of stupidity or arrogance. I am sick of people acting like it’s revolutionary to act as though women need to be protected from their own decision making. Like it’s feminist to frame your life around influencing other women via their perception of you. That women are incapable of standing up to men or managing risk.

I see the traces everywhere, including in terms like victim-survivor, of the belief that the most feminist thing to do is to play up the amount of danger women are in. (Most people who experience abuse don’t die from it!) The best thing would be to remove the uneven penalties from making particular choices that women face. That’s not going to happen overnight. While these uneven penalties exist, it is better to provide accurate information to women about risks so they can make informed decisions, than to try to influence them into avoiding as much risk as possible.

#r4l thoughts

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nowis-scales · 2 years ago

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Takumi Birthday Headcanons

That’s right. I missed last year because of some personal stuff, but now I am back and I am ready to give the littlest Hoshido brother everything he deserves... which is a set of lovely birthday headcanons!

‣ Has a really high pain tolerance, which is about exactly as whumpy as it sounds. If he gets roughed up in battle, he’s not one to legitimately whine about it. He’s very much a grin and bear it person, even if it is seriously putting him behind, which frustrates and upsets Sakura to no end. More than once she has had to explain to unfamiliar healers that just because Takumi is not screaming does not mean that he is not in serious pain. The weirdest part is, it’s not even entirely about his inferiority complex. Like sure, it is partially, but at the same time, he was just always one of those kid who could get beat up and go right back to playing within a few minutes.

‣ You know how you sometimes see an ugly fruit at the store amongst the other pretty ones? Takumi has to buy that fruit because he feels bad for it. In fact, it’s not just fruit. Like, there have been times where he hasn’t done it because he was worried about being judged, but he’s laid awake at night feeling guilty about leaving the fruit there. The fruit didn’t ask to be how it is, how is it fair for everyone to just leave it behind? Certainly he is doing everyone a favour by taking the fruit, especially since people insist that it’s such an eyesore and he shouldn’t want it? He’s quite frustrated that some people just won’t let him love the fruit.

‣ This man is very rigid in and open about his personal ideals. He will commit PVP in the royal court if need be. It’s not like he’s often unprincely about it, but he’s quite outspoken and not afraid to say what he thinks. Due to his affection for philosophy (JPN), he spends a lot of time thinking about how Hoshido and its people should conduct themselves, and tries his best to work to implement these into the mindset of courtiers. This is actually one of the reasons why Ryoma asks him to study government at the end of their support conversations: he genuinely likes hearing about Takumi’s unique perspectives, and likes that what Takumi thinks sometimes challenges what is traditional or what Ryoma himself thinks. Of course, Ryoma probably doesn’t tell him that because he’s allergic to emotional vulnerability and communication, but after awhile, I imagine Takumi probably starts to pick up on it.

‣ A very adept dancer. You know how, at the end of Birthright, Ryoma makes a joke about how Takumi once danced on stage with a bunch of dancers during the last Festival? That’s because Takumi’s got the moves. He might not be able to keep up with Laslow, per se, but he could get pretty damn close. He tends to be able to pick up dances pretty quickly, so even if he were to learn like a Nohrian waltz, it really wouldn’t take him that long at all. Surprisingly, he actually tries to be pretty humble about it. If you throw him on stage like those dancers did, he would be modest at first, but with a little encouragement, he’ll go all out. Nohrian, Hoshidan, Vallite... it doesn’t matter. Once Takumi starts dancing, people cannot help but be taken with him.

‣ Immensely clever, even as a child. His tutors growing up absolutely loved him for his out-of-the-box thinking, and the nursemaids would sometimes set up extra puzzles for him just because he had so much fun solving them. That turned into Ryoma and Hinoka challenging him to shogi, then to extra studying with Yukimura, and... the ball just kept rolling from there. The weird thing about it is that, logistically, Takumi knows he’s smart. He just seems to discount it all the time.

‣ I’ve talked about his big brother and big sister as drunks, and he deserves to be called out for the dweeb he is as well. I think that because he has the swinging pendulum of “I’m the best” and “I’m the worst”, getting drunk gives him a bizarre confidence boost at first. Like he’s ready to be reckless, bouncing off the walls, arm wrestling with people and challenging them to drinking contests and talking about his battle conquests... but the longer being drunk goes on, the more he gets quieter and more introverted, until eventually you could probably put a drunk Takumi off to bed with no trouble.

‣ Has this weird, dad-shaped hole in his heart and he’s not really what sure what to do about it. In the Japanese version of the game, it mentions that Takumi doesn’t really remember Corrin, which... also means that he probably doesn’t remember Sumeragi all that well, either. As a result, he ends up being a bit more of a concept to Takumi than he is a person, although he does like to think about what life would be like if Sumeragi were still around. Most of the time, he pictures the interactions as rather happy and warm, but when the self-esteem issues start getting to him, all he can think about is once again finding a way to be in his big brother’s shadow.

‣ I’m pretty sure this is just popular fanon at this point, but when it came to Mikoto, he was probably the biggest Mama’s Boy. Definitely not in unhealthy territory or anything, but he loved Mikoto with all his heart. Apart from Sakura, he is probably the person he trusted the most in the world. She could do almost no wrong in his eyes, and he grew very upset when people tried to criticize her (considering she was an easy target as a foreign woman). Though she led a busy life, she always made time for him and told him how much she cared. He appreciated that more than words could say. While it is true to say that at times he felt like a replacement for Corrin, he empathized deeply with her agony and did everything he could to ease that pain. It hit him incredibly hard when she died.

‣ Still has a few of his old dolls and takes good care of them. They’re not loved in the same way that Sakura’s are, but he definitely has put them aside and keeps them free of dust and grime. They are also 100% hid out of view of others, because if the servants gossiped about him having a doll he would literally die, but he still makes sure they see some light. He’d never admit it, but sometimes when he’s particularly upset, he take one out to just hold onto for a few minutes. It gives a bit of comfort in reminding him of his childhood.

‣ The most fashionable of the royal children… and Oboro only has a little to do with it. In fact, I think his fashion sense is likely to be one of the reasons she likes him so much. For whatever reason, he’s always just had an eye for things that go well together. Sakura has more than once been stressed about the banquets they must attend as royals, worrying that she will look bad in her kimono, but Takumi is able to console her with a few words. They’ve put you in a blue kimono with doves on it? Well, you look good in blue and doves symbolize peace, it sounds adorable. Conversely, he’s also able to tell when someone is badly dressed. Which, as you can imagine, means that he has seen his older siblings dress themselves, and immediately gone, “Oh gods no, you have it all wrong. Let me help you.”

#LISTEN I'M A FEW MINUTES LATE BUT I DIDN'T FORGET!!#fe headcanons #fire emblem fates #fire emblem #fire emblem takumi #hoshido #fe takumi #FE 14 #fe 14 takumi #happy birthday takumi!!

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marlows-pkmnirl · 11 months ago

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ok so literally nobody asked but i i’m gonna talk about my moms’ pokemon cause i miss them

i miss my moms too but their pokemon are more fun to talk about

they both just have four pokemon, for whatever reasons. they’ve never really given me a straight answer about it, so i’m guessing something bad happened, but idk

pretty much all of their pokemon help out around the lab or with fieldwork, and they’re all pretty smart (from my perspective at least)

my mom grew up in nacrene city like i did, so she’s got a fairly regular set of pokemon

her starter’s a seismitoad named foggy (they have a much longer lifespan than you would think). he mostly helps with fieldwork, but he also likes just hanging out with the local palpitoad and tympole. i think he has secret kids in pinwheel forest somewhere, but mom won’t let me follow him to find out :/

he’s always been a bit standoffish to me, but that might just be cause i don’t really understand him. i was scared of him when i was little, which is really funny considering i was never scared of…

her haxorus, evergreen. well, she was a fraxure until i was like 9, but still. she was a ‘special rescue’ from a shelter that couldn’t take care of her. she broke one of her tusks at some point before mom ever met her, which was the big reason the shelter couldn’t take care of her

i have no idea why my mom was able to take care of her, but that’s another one of those things i’ve never gotten a straight answer about. apparently evergreen used to be super aggressive because of the whole ‘broken tusk’ thing, but she’s been super mellow the whole time i’ve known her. like, ‘tolerates a toddler pulling on her tail’ mellow. anyway, she doesn’t do much around the lab, but she’s great at deterring wild pokemon from breaking in

mom also has missy the cincinno, who is the most uptight old lady you will ever see. she’s very serious about lab clean-up procedures, and is genuinely terrifying if you put a beaker in the wrong cabinet. trust me. i know.

she relaxes a lot when she’s around her other (better) half, but i haven’t gotten to him yet. she’s sort of like a ‘tough love’ type. i learned how to clean my own room real quick when i was little so i didn’t have to deal with it though (she wouldn’t let my moms do it)

my mom’s last pokemon is seashell the floatzel, who her dad apparently caught for her on a business trip to sinnoh (that’s also the most i’ve ever gotten from her about her dad). she’s really nice, and she helped teach me how to swim. she’s a surprisingly good swim instructor!

she’s very much a ‘take it easy’ sort of pokemon. she used to help with scouting out new areas, but since my moms don’t do much of that anymore, she makes sure that new pokémon populations they plan to study won’t be outright hostile. she takes her job more seriously than she takes anything else, which doesn’t say much, but yknow. still!

my mama’s from azalea town in johto, so all her pokemon are johtoan. she also thinks the funniest thing in the world is pokemon with people names, so… yeah.

her starter is daryl the slowking. he makes sure things are running smoothly in the lab, and mama’s trying to teach him how to read so that he can fact-check her numbers too. last i checked, it’s actually going better than you would think. but then again, apparently he can telepathically speak johtoan, so it shouldn’t be that much of a surprise. i wonder if mama’s teaching him unovan?

anyway, daryl always kinda felt like a big brother to me. he’s always looking out for me, and of my moms’ pokemon, i think he was the saddest to see me leave on my journey (although he also definitely knows i’m coming back. he’s too smart not to)

mama also has jenna the bellossom. since grass-types are relatively easy to care for, mama put me in charge of ‘taking care’ of jenna from a pretty young age. really that just meant turning on her sun lamp, watering her, and giving her fertilizer, but i loved it. she’s probably why i love grass types so much now!

jenna helps when my moms have to actually bring pokemon into the lab physically by putting them to sleep first. damage reduction for everybody, basically. she also helps out in our garden!

and since i’m sure you were on the edge of your seat waiting to learn about missy’s other half… he’s edward the espeon. a direct contrast to missy, he’s the nicest old man you’ll ever meet. if he were a human, he would be the kind that gives out full-sized chocolate bars on halloween

he mainly helps out by levitating things around the lab/keeping things steady. apparently it took a fair amount of training for him to actually behave in the lab, though. he was always good with me. my mama has a picture somewhere of edward levitating me when i was a baby (he was a bit stronger back then)

my mama’s final pokemon is nokoribi the ninetales. her name translates to ‘ember’ in unovan! she clearly doesn’t fit mama’s naming scheme, which is because she was named like 300 years ago by her first trainer. since ninetales live for so long (i honestly don’t really like thinking about it), there’s a tradition in the kanjoh region where they’ll be owned by families instead of just individual trainers, and get passed down from generation to generation

nokoribi is very calm, but in a different way than seashell or evergreen. calculating, almost. sometimes i think she’s smarter than she lets on

…but then other times she tries to eat plastic and whines for an hour when we won’t let her. it’s honestly a mixed bag with her. you never know what you’re gonna get!

i could go on and on about all the dynamics that they have, too, but i feel like this is enough info for a post that nobody asked about. i’ll post more about my moms’ pokemon if somebody wants me to or if i feel like it again, cause you can’t stop me >:3

#pkmn irl #pokeblogging

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whenthechickencry · 1 year ago

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Umineko EP3. Replay Part 1

This scene seems like a vague retelling of Kuwadorian Beatrice's life - I say vague because the details seem a little off? Kinzo would almost certainly not care if Beatrice broke a vase. Honestly, she could probably burn down the mansion and he would laugh it off, so I think it's a retelling colored by either Beatrice/Yasu's or Tohya's perspective of Kinzo.

Of course, it goes without saying that what happened in this case was Kumasawa agreeing with K Beatrice to pretend a cat broke the vase instead. And also you are being shown what magic IS - multiple people agreeing to a single story.

It's kind of funny to think about how Kumasawa being a 'minor' character who thinks all of this is a bit game she's a huge part of why Yasu developed her magical thinking in the first place.

It's kind of interesting to think about how all the adults (er uh, except maybe Rosa, she generally treats Maria worse when there is no one to see.) are at their worst during the conferences we see in the game... it makes sense, it's a place for all their childhood traumas flare up.

I think it's kind of interesting how Eva in this scene seems to genuinely believe misogyny is bad and should be fought against - as opposed to older Eva who is happy to throw endless misogyny towards Natsuhi and even Jessica... I think she had to suppress a lot of her beliefs and adopt more regressive ones when she realized she would never personally be head and the only way she could ever even remotely fulfill her dreams was by weaponizing that same misogyny against Jessica with George.

For how much the narration and meta-kinzo (possibly real Kinzo? I don't know) talked about how his family are vultures for wanting his inheritance it's not like Kinzo himself treated his children as anything more than money-making machines - he got what he put into the relationship.

Genji is a horrible enabler even if he's being 'kind' about it.

This line is really interesting to me here, how he defends Eva by lying for her. I think it helps show that the problem isn't that Krauss is just Too Evil and ruined Eva's life - He was dealing with an abusive father and an awful environment too.

The purpose of a lot of ch3 is to ease you into the Umineko mystery and feed you a lot of answers - such as literally seeing the birth of a witch.

This is pretty heartbreaking to read to me, it happens a lot in real life.... someone trying to be the perfect woman, the perfect gay person, etc. In order to try and win the approval of people that will never accept you... and the crushing realization that it will never work and that they consider your very existence disgusting.

What other character is constantly showing up in order to say the mean things that another character just can't bring herself to say?

It's no wonder that Lamda was the one who acknowledged EVA-Beatrice. Her personal belief system is already pretty close to Lambda's.

Ah well, I guess Eva is more or less repeating what I said earlier about throwing away her beliefs with George, haha.

She's more self-aware about how she's just harming Jessica like she was harmed than I realized, it's kind of funny though how Jessica seems to have this vitriol go over her head mostly. I wouldn't be surprised if Jessica considers it at least somewhat and then decides that nah, she must be overthinking what Eva meant.

Again he's such an enabler.... in the same way love can be used to look past someone's flaws and help you understand them love can also make you ignore flaws and prevent growth.

Eva and George's relationship can't begin to heal until Eva grapples with what she's doing with her life. I can't really tolerate what Hideyoshi is doing here...

Interesting to see how the episode that is trying to humanize Eva is also the one that paints her as a murderer, probably should also get you thinking to do that with Beatrice as well!

Hahaha.... poor Yasu. She's even trying to get him to remember directly here and still nothing... and to be honest considering this is written by Tohya I am pretty sure this is very accurate to reality.

It must be really painful for Yasu to hear this is something Battler wants to forget...

Sigh.... Battler... he's being really dismissive of Yasu's feelings here without knowing - but I guess you can say it's an improvement of episode 1 and 2 where he seemed to barely remember Shannon?

I think he's playing up his Persona a bit here but still, seems he learned a lot of bad habits from Rudolf until Yasu was a kind of wake up call, at least in the meta.

The games laying it really thick, huh.

They are dropping the "heart" stuff here too, this scene is really laying the foundation for Answers Arc!

The way they drop Higurashi concepts here is pretty cruel, making you think they will start fixing all their issues in future loops and find the perfect fragment... but Umineko is just not that kind of work.

Think this is the first time Beatrice herself starts calling Maria an apprentice too!

You are one of the first victims here!

The fact Ronove, Yasu's character stand-in for Genji, has one of his traits be "gay" is really funny ngl... guess she knew Genji was in love with Kinzo.

Beatrice is obviously talking about Yasu's childhood here, a pretty big hint these are imaginary friends to someone! And when you whittle down who has been on the island for a long time and would be lonely, well, there's not a lot of people to consider, are there?

I think this is also a pretty obvious stand-in for Beatrice as the author and Battler as the reader - we have accepted that the story has more to it than the 100% classic mystery we saw in EP1, and so characters like these aren't out of place anymore.

Eva knows Kinzo is dead but she isn't going to let an opportunity to become Head go. Also Jesus Christ, Eva. Eva's clearly leading the discussion here and the narrative/Eva is framing Rosa as dumb and slow for not realizing this is her chance at headship... pretty sure she's aware but she isn't happy about the possibility of any of her siblings taking 100% of the inheritance.

#umineko #umiepisode3

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year ago

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I wanted to touch on Day with the Sun in a manner that's EVEN REMOTELY TIMELY so I don't end up piling too much on when talking about your fics [both in terms of how much I'd have to write and how much you'd have to read]. SO! Sorry if this sucks and is inarticulate… exhausted from crunch AND my keyboard is busted… but I will power through because this haaas to be one of my favorite fics of yours and I Cannot Contain Myself. Also I feel bad for egging you on to post it but not actually saying anything yet so☠️

I've said bits and pieces of this before but I adore your fics because I can visualize them with incredible clarity. Like not even kidding, Top Ten Hallucinogens, you've got everyone's mannerisms and "voices" down perfect and you always have just enough detail to be able to See The Vision without the story having to grind to a halt. I really like the way attention is only brought to certain details with purpose, when they're relevant; that adds a lot to what I'm about to talk about.

I think your writing style really shines in works like this, where it's sort of like a Particularly Involved Substory, or a lighthearted "cooldown chapter"--just like, those parts that are all in-engine and mostly unvoiced but have SO much heart and characterization. I can See the camera moves and transitions, and I can Hear the music and sound cues. But at the same time, you take full advantage of the medium in being able to get into Arakawa's head, see what he sees and does or doesn't take note of and the conclusions he comes to, and get into what their day-to-day might be like and the ways this trip is both reflective of and breaks from the usual for them.

It's just SO well-done! The fic as a whole is a delight from start to finish--there's so much to chew on in every moment, every interaction, and the fact you've managed to pack it all into such a short story while maintaining the perfect pacing throughout is nothing short of commendable. Giggling And Kicking My Feet The Whole Time For Real and I MAINTAIN I was right to be excited… I'm so happy to have had the opportunity to read it [three times now]!

Arakawa's soooo moe To Me and reading from his perspective always makes me ill because his worries and concerns and shortcomings are so human, but he's doing his best to make his family happy, and they ultimately do end up having a nice day because of his initiative… Jo is SO cute in this too, I rewatched Hero SP after completing the show recently and he really has that Tsugaru-like Neurodivergent Awkwardness. Last But Not Least I loved Masato, I was his age the majority of the last couple of times I remember going to the beach… he's just like me fr…

No But I always really enjoy this Era of Masato, because in the singular flashback we get, he seems just a little bit more tolerant of Arakawa. It's nice to see him before [I feel like] he stops addressing him as "Dad" to his face, only saying it to specify who he means when he's talking to other people--that's kind of how I am with my mom now.

At the same time, it's of course a little bittersweet. One nice day isn't going to change the course of their futures, and it's painful to see Arakawa have these high hopes for his son that don't come to fruition in the way he envisions, or to think about how Jo's the only one around to remember moments like these now…

At any rate, closing out with some notes that came to mind as I was reading:

LOVE the premise being based in Masato being more open with Jo--I was definitely hoping Arakawa'd have some thoughts on that and I was happy to see he did, and to see echoes of it in things like Masato choosing to lean more heavily on Jo and Arakawa musing on Masato's "preferential treatment" of Jo.

It's also really sweet to see how Jo's earned it; he really spares no effort when it comes to Masato and it shows in big and small ways, like how he seems more synced with Masato when he wants to be put down while Arakawa's lost in thought. At the same time, even though he's grossly overprepared and clearly didn't pack for just himself though he initially wanted to set up away from the Arakawas, he only really has the courage to do any of what he did because of Arakawa strongarming him into actually involving himself and letting himself have a good time. The synergy with those three is unreal

Love literally every single time Arakawa tries to understand Jo… that longing for a greater depth of knowledge when he already knows him well enough to read his thoughts from what he wrote in the pamphlet… the way he notes and responds to Jo's anxiety and propriety, the way he goes and investigates the book, the Painfully Awkward But Real conversation they try to have about art and theater and how he /wants/ to share but they're not quite communicating, the way he doesn't know to connect things like Jo's knowledge of construction and his inexperience with normalcy to his past but has this gut feeling… the way he's right about how he'll never fully know him…

I wanted to note this separately because of The Subject Matter ☠️but although this quote comes from a CSA checklist, it is applicable to others with abusive backgrounds [I mean… I do HC Jo as a CSA survivor and it is close to my heart given he ticks a lot of said boxes either way, but that's a topic for a much different ask… If Ever, it never felt like an appropriate topic to write in about], and it seems relevant to what's going on with Jo in this fic: "31. Limited tolerance for happiness; active withdrawal from happiness, reluctance to trust happiness ('ice=thin')." Obviously He Has Other Reasons but I feel like that's what Arakawa's picking up on at certain points. That's why I was really happy Arakawa got to spot and capture those Rare Jo Moments where he's happy and at peace… it's something that works whether you read the fic as platonic or romantic, but it's interesting to view through both lenses

VERY MUCH NOTICED THE BOOK HAS A BROWN COVER BTW I'm Literally Delusional but I was obviously reminded of the book that keeps popping up in your comics, the tattoo one and the AraSawa Domestic Moments Cringe [For Masato] Compilation… perhaps not the same one but I wouldn't be surprised if it took years to finish either given he hardly got to read it before being pulled away… he's INSANE for describing that as Light Reading [I can't even read my own art history books, I just look at the pictures] but I respect it… I also respect you both actually using bookmarks instead of just Praying I Turn To The Page I Left Off On like I do…

Dadliest FUCKING moments from Arakawa in this one I swear to goddddd I talked about his attempts to understand Jo but his attempts to understand Masato when Masato refuses to get what's on his mind across at every turn are so real… also spooking Masato like that… showing up with only his wallet and practically nothing else but being fully prepared to spoil Masato… wanting to put Masato's sunscreen on for him… not "acting his age"… the SKIPPINGGGGG… the expectation of a soon-to-be-empty nesty making him squish Masato for reasons Masato cannot discern [not to mention The Symbolism of the sunset imagery as the backdrop for this in particular although it should be a beautiful moment]… his FUCKING FIT [JO'S FIT TOO BUT HIS FITTT] GOD I'M LITERALLY JUST LISTING THINGS THAT HAPPENED IN THE FIC AT THIS POINT BUT HE MADE ME SO ILL

I could hardly say any of the above without thinking of Jo though… I mean… Second Parent is so true… A Dad Of Another Variety... Deeply appreciate him getting to be part of the family… speaking of parents I ALSO deeply appreciate the Akane mention…

I'm just. Obsessed with the entire finale and everything leading up to it [AS IF I'M NOT OBSESSED WITH EVERY OTHER THING] but I should let you go at some point so I'm stopping here <3

OH AND I would absoluuutely love to read [Or View] anything else you might have in mind with regard to Ikumi! Loved your art :] We don't have anything concrete to go off of At All as of now, so I don't think anyone could blame you if you wanted to explore one idea one day and a different one the next. I don't think about her often because I'm not creative enough to know where to take things [and I certainly wouldn't know how to make it Not Miserable], so I'd be very curious to see :]

Would also love to hear your thoughts on We Make Antiques 2 and The Deer King :] if you have the time/If They're Still Knocking Around ☠️

[EVERY THOUGHT I GOT DOWN BELOW]

i think its Physically Impossible for you to write anything Lame nor Inarticulate dont WORRYYY best wishes to you and your keyboard regardless tho 🙏 more over i'd be THRILLED to read a novel's worth of your commentary on any of my works- but i also know typing a lot is. Tiring LMAO SO i'm utterly grateful for anythin you send in (;´༎ຶ▽༎ຶ) i also never mind how long it might take for you to send something in: i know you always put a lot of time and effort into your asks, and all of that time is well worth the wait since they always end up being my favorite things to read (❁´◡`❁)

moving on tho, ABSOLUTELY makes me happy to hear my descriptions are good ! i always worry about doing too much or too little, so im glad it's Just Write in terms of highlighting what's important while not lingering too long on unimportant things or going too fast ♪(´▽｀) reading the fic three times… thems Deer King numbers WHAT AN HONOR TYSM FOR ENJOYING AND READING (^人^)

im glad this story can feel 'substory' esque. when it comes to my comics, i generally try to give them that 'side content' kind of feel: just something nice to cut away to away from the 'main action' of the canon story, so im glad that can be reflective in a fic like this (and probably makes sense as to why this is my 'strongest' fic) (╯▽╰ ) ive mentioned it during a stream before (and probably in my tags too), but i do try to 'direct' my art and treat things like a movie set. i try to keep that same kind of mentality when writing, so i'm happy to hear it was effective :]

being able to write from arakawa's perspective is a fun experience to say the least. i really Do Not Hide It when i say that i borrow a lot from my life and the people in my life whenever i draw or write something, and i've made it noooo secret my dad is a big inspo for the things i make, ESPECIALLY when it comes to family. with all of that said, an aspect of arakawa i wanted to try to explore lately was his struggle of maintaining a happy family despite his circumstances. it wasn't a MAJOR focal point of this fic I Dont Think, but definitely was something i had in the back of my mind and is generally something i keep in the back of my mind when trying to portray arakawa

all of that said, i'll try not to be SUPER personal (as i do that anyway LMAO) but i'll confess that writing arakawa is 'special' to me. i can't exactly put a word to it, so 'special' will have to do. when i was growing up, in some sense, i was upset with my dad for things he ultimately had no control over. despite the time that's passed though, he's always tried his best for my siblings and i (and even my mom before this year when An Incident occurred and finally woke up him up to how terrible she is LMAO). he told me once that he wanted nothing more than a happy family, and that he never wanted his kids to feel alone or abandoned. that's a sentiment i can very easily imagine arakawa having not just towards masato, but towards the rest of the arakawa family as well due to his own upbringing; that sort of care extends to jo too Evidently. whether it's romantic or platonic, i do want to communicate that arakawa does try to get close to jo not just cause It's Expected for him to care about someone in the clan, but because he can identify the signs of an uncomfortable upbringing in jo, and doesn't want anyone else to have to shoulder that loneliness by themselves like he did. yk: have a more personal reason to as opposed to it being a part of his job. and lbr: jo can't brood ALL the time, there's GOTTA be a single second he actually does seem happy for once (and those very rare momence, me thinks, are very much all the waiting for arakawa)

with all of THAT said, being able to explore these thoughts and scenarios with arakawa is a way for me to better understand and appreciate my dad and what he had to go through i guess- sort of like an apology for how much i tended to doubt him even though i knew he wanted nothing more than to be there for us, so i'm def happy exploring that for myself has been able to become a good read (❁´◡`❁)

onto jo tho…. i love portraying jo in these domestic settings somuch (evidently). bro really is just so out of his element, ESPECIALLY when he's trying to appear Tolerable (in his eyes: arakawa will ALWAYS love him) it's just such a hilarious contrast to how we know him (a cunt) ☠️ as i was writing this fic i just kept thinking to myself that- in an ironic sense- jo would absolutely be a beach/airport dad given the circumstances (just pack unnecessarily, be overly vigilant to make sure things go accordingly, etc etc) and it's what really made writing everything so fun when i got to sit and imagine it and share it （￣︶￣）

that fun bit aside, i do also enjoy writing jo in these types of scenarios in a similar vein to why i like writing arakawa: it's a bit personal. i'd rather equate my upbringing to negligence opposed to outright abuse like jo experienced, but i can't imagine how my thoughts manifest to be too different from jo's in certain scenarios. especially when it comes to his hesitance towards happiness or believing he isn't deserving of that happiness (or anything good really), it's a very personal feeling i get a lot, and in particular his need to not want to intrude or take up space (doubly considering it may seem as tho he's trying to 'steal' masato even though he gave him away in the first place). it's pretty easy to write with that respect (and is probably why i tend to drift to portraying his pov's LMAO), and trying to capture that feeling of anxiety or worry or apprehension but still keep it in tune with jo's 'stonewall-esque' character is definitely cathartic in a sense. it's also interesting to do when i have him next to other characters, and ESPECIALLY when im writing from a perspective that isn't his own. it's important i don't make him appear too outwardly anxious or 'small,' but i also want to make sure it's clear he does feel those things in that moment: i want that fact to be sort of a blink-and-you-miss-it kind of deal.

all of THAT said though, i AM very interested to hear more about your thoughts on him as a CSA survivor (and me wonders if that is what you were referring to when adding to his backstory some asks ago)... VERY fair if you'd rather keep that discussion elsewhere though: it is a very sensitive topic

onto masato though, i enjoy portraying masato a lot pre-ichi times. i guess it's just a nice phase to touch on before Everything Spirals, so to speak: he still has some of that anger from his childhood, though he can't express it the same way anymore. he has to be a bit more mature about it- but he is still a teenager. plus, since he's still a teenager, he still predominantly relies on jo and arakawa, and Of Course i have the most fun when i get to portray any combo of that trio interacting with each other (and it shows lmao).

on that note though, i do enjoy thinking a lot about the supposed relationship jo and masato mustve had while he was growing up. as it shows, jo turned out to be 'masatos favorite' (however much that means all things considered). there surely must have been some seeds planted for that to have been the outcome later on, so it's fun thinking about how those things can manifest, and it's especially fun getting to pen arakawa's perspective on it

AND OF COURSE THE BOOK WAS INTENTIONAL LMAOOOO yk what they say One's An Incident Two's A Coincidence Three's On Purpose You Asshole ☠️☠️ the first two times were truly accidents but at this point it doesn't hurt to have a 'running joke' or something like that in my comics/fics. we'll get him a new book someday i promise ♪(´▽｀)

as for me though, i cant trust to open on the same page i left off on.. plus i really like collecting bookmarks, especially when they're of butterflies: it gives me a reason to look them up and learn something since the designs are always pretty enough for me to wonder what species they're based on (❁´◡`❁)

ALL IN ALL THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH FOR ENJOYING !!!!!!!! truly commentary like this gives me reasonsto keep writing its SUCH a huge motivator i cant stress it.. all the pain is worth it when i can see how much you enjoyed the fic.. i hope to always make you feel that excited to read something from myself ╰(°▽°)╯ !!

with THAT in mind tho… i certainly do feel the motivation to pen at least ONE ikumi story now.. when that's finished is TBD but for now i hope you enjoy this Kinda Old scribble of a Little Older ikumi i did (or at least one variant of an older ikumi) <- drew it so i could hallucinate better

im not good at fashion and i was really trying to figure out a look for her that still REMINDED people of ikumi but yk. was appropriate for a 30-something-year-old woman in the 90's.... but i have plenty of time to explore other looks so i wont worry (i do really like this hair cut tho.. maybe that'll be a constant)..

AND OF COURSE i'd be happy to write two quick lil reviews for those movies: i LOVED them after all (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ)

for WMA2, my favorite bits of these movies is always The Plan Coming Together- yk the last like. thirty or so minutes LMAO BUT FR ill never get over watching everyone work together to con people (plus the turtleneck really is A Look for nakai.. BIG fan- also them goofy ass magnetic glasses.. what even are those i love them). had me GOBSMACKED when it was revealed shino wasnt even a real mom but also Not Surprising in retrospect but ALSO Whose Kid Is This. Where Are Your Parents.

i do love how the movie started with the idea that sasuke Wasnt going to do any more con jobs and was going to be living honestly, yet In An Ironic Twist to ensure japan wouldnt have a Counterfeit Antique problem he ended up having to make so many fakes… a necessary evil me thinks… more importantly i really will never get over yo-chan fucking licking everything like ENOUGH. STOP. but dont it still makes me laugh fuckin weird ass old man (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)♡ it did make me happy to see sasuke's son get a job he really loves tho… that was cute.. AND WHEN HE TRIED THE POTTERY WHEEL That Was Cute :) anyways.. all in all lovely movie Of Course I'd Love It… one day i hope we can find the third movie….

AS FOR DEER KINNGGG ABSOLUTELY LOVELY MOVIE you were right the animation was GORGEOUS and PERFECTLY weighted. i ESPECIALLY loved the scene with the stilt walkers not just atmosphere wise, but the actual weight and heft of the stilts was just so… Immaculate. AND LEST I NEGLECT TO MENTION YUNA'S THE CUTEST LITTLE GIRL EVER i love her so so so much she's so adorable her cheeks are plump like a peach's her pigtails are adorable and i love her tooth gap (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ)(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ) van and yuna getting to hang with the villagers was MAD sweet tho… had me deceased at the end when the cure of Mad Wolf Disease was just deer milk tho. NOT A HATER was just a hilariosuly simple solution considering The Horrors caused by the mittsual (i knew i wasnt a sicko for drinking milk...)

As If I Need To Say It Anymore very lovely movies….. thank you much both for going through the effort to find WMA2 and for reccin The Deer King…

#long post #fave #MEGA FAVE. INSPO FAVE EVEN #will certainly read this whenever i doubt myself Thank You So Much.. will def never accuse you of callin my stuff mid again..#a tag i wont even be able to find later....#snap chats #snap sketches #ikumi #I PROB LEFT SOME STUFF OUT BUT YEAYEAYAYA TYTYTYT FOR READING AND ENJOYING AND SUPPORTING MY STUFF !!!!#as some Final Comments... absolutely blame my dad for arakawa being Extra Silly in this fic (and in most of my portrayals tbh)#my dad's the silliest guy i know and he def loved spooking me when i was growing up and being Annoyingly Silly #like he'd love pinching my cheek or trying to tickle me and its like Dad Stop I'm 15 I'm A Grown Up <- thats literally baby age shut up #def try to channel that energy when portraying masato and arakawa together..#just as an Extra Tidbit since i meant to put this in my initial fic link's tags: i origianlly wanted to feature a beach wheelchair #but after triple checking the first beach-accessible wheelchair wasnt patented until 1997 #one was MADE in 1994 but p much exclusively for the inventor's wife #and by the time it'd be 1997 masato would've been 19/20 and that's out of the age range i wanted to write for #onward tho... i still am curious as to what you have to say about my other fics tho...#you HAVE left some thoughts on them I DO KNOW THAT #BUT i'm still curious as to what The Bigger Review is.. if it's anything like this review yk- NO PRESSURE OF COURSE NO RUSH #its only natural i be a lil curious tho (╯x╰ ) forgive me (╯▽╰ )#and especially forgive me if i post another fic soon and prompt you to want to write more commentary (╯▽╰ ;;)#even if you dont tho just gettin the simple notice that you did read and enjoy is plenty enough for me (❁´◡`❁)#but i absolutely do enjoy a review like this WAAH still not over it its so thoughtful #i had as much fun and felt as much joy readin this ask as you might have readin my fic LMAOOOO #i was out walking when i saw the notif and i couldnt go home yet so i just kept rereading this ask and bein happy...#so again thank you... i hope to continue making good things in the future (❁´◡`❁)#it is MOST LATE rn tho.. i should sleep... i do have work i still have to do uh oh ☠️#i feel like i left a lot of commentary out but my brain works.. Never... i think i said A Lot As Is tho so we'll leave it at that #SO I LEAVE YOU WITH ANOTHER THANK YOU🙏

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gameshowtrainwreck · 12 days ago

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A country founded by a bunch of drunk assholes wrecking private property (and worshipped by those who see their thoughts and deeds as immutable and sacred) do not understand why people would riot; beyond, of course, what they've openly concluded as self-destructive greed (half will say that it's because of indoctrination or ignorance because those speakers are incredibly stupid; the other half will say it is innate, born within the rioters because those speakers are incredibly racist).

I feel like there are some things that needed to be mentioned in order to temper one's perspective on history.

(tw: descriptions of violence as part of historical context, plus delivered in a really fuckin sarcastic tone about all of it because of fucking course we are going to repeat history that's just as much a part of humanity as infinite as our imagination)

I do not see riots, particularly the ones happening in Milwaukee, Wisconsin in the wake of George Floyd being slowly, publicly, and extrajudicially executed by a cop (who probably got trained by some bloodthirsty ghoul up the pecker order who went to Israel, if his murderer wasn't trained by the IDF himself) as failures on the part of the citizens but rather the absolute and utter failures of the local civil leadership (from the Floyd murderer's commanding officers, to the mayor and city council) on a multitude of ways. The most glaring and galling of these failures was in openly ignoring demands for justice when a known quantity and frequent bad actor decided qualified immunity would cover him like it did all the other times it covered him before; and the sumbitch pleading under his knee really deserved it for holding a fake (looking but entirely real) twenty dollar bill and being disrespectful when denying he had done any wrongdoing.

To whom much is given, much is required. The higher up the chain you are, the higher the standard you should be held to. And apparently used to be held to, if the propaganda I've been exposed to all my life held any basis in reality. Don't tolerate asshole leaders, don't tolerate lesser evil, don't tolerate *any* fucking evil. Examine your place in it and look for ways to mitigate it if that shit bothers you, don't shout down somebody else because they put you in cognitive dissonance, sort that shit out in your own fucking head.

Need help? Think of it this way: If it's something you wouldn't want to happen to you but you're okay with it to happening to somebody else (which would also include 'if it happens to them, it will prevent it from happening to me'), that is the literal textbook example of evil (with or without the 'coward' status effect).

The poor value their lives and the lives of those around them because it's all they have that has been of any real worth to them. The powerful don't value the lives of the poor as much as they value their property. There have been a number of times in history where the poor have shown their betters how much more disposable property can be: The multiple seccessio plebuses during the Roman Republic, the peasants' revolt in England, the French revolution... And that's the stuff off the top of my head from before the industrial age.

Does that mean I'm gonna join a riot myself? More than likely not, I don't look to start shit. Sometimes trauma makes you try to use every tool at your disposal before it gets to that point. I just think anybody seeing a potential storm on the horizon and feeling a change in their broken bones will feel a duty to warn everyone around them that their pattern recognition is kicking in again in ways certainly stronger than mere pareidolia. Never mind that apart from a couple of rare and infrequent exceptions, rural American riots historically have involved the kind of goings-on the song Strange Fruit was about, and motherfuck that abhorrent horseshit; the klan started in Central Tennessee, not East Tennessee tyvm.

Besides, my jive is more with stuff like the Battle of Athens (1946). That was some good, old-fashioned, motherfucking siege warfare with a textbook Hollywood plotline: GIs come home from WWII and found the local political machine running roughshod over their kin, GIs do things by the book (including putting a ticket of GIs for local offices) while the machine used the sheriff's dept to bully everybody around.

Election day comes, poll watchers for the GIs start getting arrested for undisclosed 'federal offenses' while the deputies seize three ballot boxes. GIs wired the governor and the U.S. A.G. for help on ensuring a fair count, and they go unanswered (surprise, surprise). GIs figure they got to do something, so they decide to arm up, mount up, and lay siege to the county jail to force an honest count and release the poll watchers before the state militia could mobilize and shut them down in the morning.

A lotta gunfire exchanges, and sometime around 3:30am and the third charge of dynamite against the jailhouse, the deputies surrendered. The machine was actually trying to rig the election but the true count had the GIs winning.

It's a cute story...

...but it's also a situation that could be almost the polar opposite of how things are today. The bad guys were unorganized beyond the chain of corruption that linked them all, the GIs used their military training. Compare that to today where the corruption enabled them to fund the paramilitary training. The GIs had the benefit of slower lines of communication. Any rebellion today would not. Most of the 'reforms' that have happened in elections have been more or less to speed up the certification process and make things more difficult at the voter's end. If it happens fast enough, you can still say the process is fair while also blocking any and all transparency to the voting process, right? (Liberals love the appearance of legitimacy more than they like actually being legitimate, but I have no standing on the topic as I have always admitted to being an absolute bastard.)

I would love to be wrong, and I always hope I am, but life experience has taught me more than other people's words have been able to counter.

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