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lonelycornergremlin · 2 years ago

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hoho ho

ohh you are so ebil op evilness destruction mwha hahahaha evil.

i have been being. ur first post in this series? i saw, and waited for theb end but also i don't want this to wnd.

but also ohohoho evil but also glorious work op, your goergoregoeus so prettyv anamzing mm

evey time i read uour works i become so giggly and kicky feety hehehe hoohoo funny and i experienced that whole reading thsi but

when Yuu finally confesded? i cheered.

i got up,stood hgih on my tippy toes and screamched

i was cryigm going "ohhhh ugeuuuu yees YEAGH!!"

quite literally punching the air screeching

and how,, afrer ghat

the. banter the funnies laugh happy

anf the kissing session?? i am lookhing, with my eyes.

and how Cheka was like "if i cant marry Yuu-tan, then who can?" i am sorry, forgive me

how rvry one was like "wtf" and the guard?? oh the funny. the like ShOcked GasP!!1!! and Yuu went like "ik".

and Falend's little like "hi" after being cayght and also wgat the fyck

oh, gourdy!! gourdy!! perfect pumpkin! aeughhyiu are yes. ily you give me the funny happy bone to comsume mm.

tgank you for your existing op, you makw me go "heehee hoohoo" giggly rubbing legs beinng hahaha YES.

【 chapter 7 - first meetings, proposals, and the end of winter 】

summary tags: the last chapter T^T, a family reunion, cheka forcing leona's hand (real), goodbye cheka, and then the angst, me when i finally explain why yuu has the doubts they have :'))), i promise there is comfort at the end of the rainbow

word count: 4.6k (considering there's no omake, this is hefty)

author's note: the long awaited ending to this series is finally here ^^ it's a little surreal how long it has been since i last updated, but without further ado, enjoy the chapter <33

[ baby it's cold outside series | read it on ao3 ]

There were many problems that you could avoid by ignoring them. And there were many that wouldn’t go away, and instead, incessantly keep staring right at you from across the room.

Yuu’s current problem was Leona.

They were attempting to very subtly avoid him, but it was hard when he was one of the only three people in the room. And after the events of yesterday… Yuu would say in very generous language that conversing with him had become just a bit difficult. Leona had, in a roundabout way, asked them if they liked him. They couldn’t quite wrap their head around what he would gain from knowing anyway. The satisfaction, maybe?

Yuu blinked. Focus. They zeroed in on the half-packed suitcase, and then at Cheka, who seemed intent on lying down on the pile of clothes that had yet to be packed.

"Yuu-tan," The little lion was crawling into their lap now, messing up the clothes they were folding. "Can I not go?"

"It's okay," They consoled, hand drifting to the cub's hair. "It’s not a bad thing, I thought you missed your family."

"I do, but–!" Cheka grabbed at the shirt in their hands. "Yuu-tan and Ojitan are family too! Can't you come with me?"

Cheka's eagerness might have rubbed off on them just a little. They were sure they would miss him and his infectious laughter. It was easier than going through the exhausting drag of school. But Cheka needed to go back, and they didn't know what to say except, "I..."

"We have school, you little brat," Leona plucked him up by the scruff. "You could just video call if you miss me."

"You say that like you'll actually be going to class," Yuu couldn't help the teasing words that slipped out of their mouth, all too used to the banter. They froze for a moment, waiting for Leona to ignore them.

Instead, Leona paused, placing Cheka a good distance away from the suitcase, "What classes do you take?"

"Why do you ask?” They folded another shirt. ��You aren’t planning on copying from me are you?”

"Hmm," A faint smirk grew on his face. "Now that you mention it, that would be a good idea. Though I’m sure it’ll end up being the other way around." And Yuu resisted the urge to roll their eyes.

Whatever classes that they took, Leona must’ve already taken in his first year. And with Leona’s freakishly excellent memory, they were sure he would have more than a field day lecturing them through their mistakes.

"Yuu-tan, Yuu-tan," Cheka whispered. They leaned closer to listen as he continued, "Are Yuu-tan and Ojitan done fighting?"

Well, shit.

"What makes you say that?" Yuu said quietly. They wondered which part made it obvious to even a 5 year-old that they had a disagreement.

"It's just..." He hesitated before cupping a hand over his mouth. "Ojitan was staring at you and not talking this whole time."

They blinked, "He was?"

Yuu knew that he was staring. It was all but obvious that Leona wanted them to know that he was, for whatever reason. But for Cheka to notice, was—

"Was not," Leona said. Very loudly, Yuu might add, clearly announcing he heard everything. "And some people should understand that eavesdropping is not a flattering hobby, especially for an adult."

"Eavesdropping...?" Cheka asked. Leona said nothing more, his ears flicking as he stared at the door.

The question of who was eavesdropping was answered as the door swung open, revealing a guilty-looking beastperson hunched next to the door. And right behind him were what looked like two guards.

As the beastperson stood, they came to a startling realization. So this was Falena, King of Afterglow Savanna and brother to Leona. And Cheka's beloved father. It had to be, with hair a darker shade of sunrise that mirrored Cheka's own.

He scratched at his hair in a sheepish manner, "It seems your hearing is as sharp as it was when you were a cu— oof—!"

His words were interrupted by Cheka all but barreling right into his midsection. Ouch. That must’ve hurt. They watched with slight horror as the King doubled over, before crouching down to hug his child.

Cheka seemed oblivious to his father’s pain as he squealed, "Papa! You came to get me?"

"How could I turn down the opportunity to see my precious m'toto sooner?" He asked, kissing the little cub all over his face. And their heart ached as they watched Falena dote on his child. He turned belatedly, with another greeting, "It is nice to see you, brother."

Leona seemed to regard the display of affection with contempt, a frown marring his face, "It's nice to see that you came even after I told you not to."

"Ahem!" Falena straightened his posture. "I came because I wanted to see you." Leona didn’t answer him, turning his attention toward the window. They briefly wondered what Leona felt whenever he saw Falena and Cheka together.

"Aww, I wish that Mama came too," Cheka said, cheeks puffed out.

Yuu was glad that the Queen wasn't there. One Savanna royal was enough on most days, but being in a room with four of them at the same time? They were already struggling not to react to the wary gazes of the guards standing behind the King. It was their job to be vigilant against strangers, and they were quite the definition of a stranger; standing awkwardly in the middle of the room without any purpose. Leona moved closer, almost shielding them.

It wasn't long until Falena's gaze fell on them, a surprised look washing over his face, "My apologies for being so rude. Won't you introduce me to your friend, brother?" There was a pause, where Falena was looking at Leona with a hopeful glimmer while Leona looked like he would rather be elsewhere.

The silence was broken as Leona released a drawn-out sigh, "That's—"

"—Yuu-tan!" Cheka cheered, jumping from Falena's arms in favor of clinging onto their legs. "Yuu-tan's been taking care of us both. And they live in this cool haunted house! And they have a talking cat!"

Great. How positively lovely. It was the first impression of them the King of Afterglow Savanna had and it was the fact that they lived in a haunted house with a talking cat.

"They go to NRC as well," Leona said, folding his arms. "And they can't use magic. They're not a threat." The last part felt particularly targeted toward the guards, who finally loosened their grip on their weapons.

"And, and!" Cheka added taking their hand and Leona's. "Yuu-tan and Ojitan are best friends! Isn't that so cool?" Oh Great Seven. Yuu could do nothing but offer a smile toward the monarch, trying very hard not to catch Leona's prickling gaze.

Cheka then turned to Leona, "I did a good job keeping Yuu-tan a secret, right?"

Yuu couldn't focus enough to listen to Leona's answer, especially not when Falena was regarding them with sparkling eyes.

"Ah, so you must be the mystery person from yesterday!" Falena immediately took their hand in his— though they couldn't follow what he meant. "It is a pleasure to meet you. My name is Falena, I'm Leona's older brother."

Yuu shook his hand, "It's nice to meet you, your Majesty." Their tone felt awkward, jilted even, because well, they were talking to a King. With the way the guards were still looking at them, they couldn't be too careful.

"Ah, you can speak with me comfortably, if you'd like," Falena tilted his head slightly. "It really is peculiar! I've met magicless people before but they usually still carry traces of magic. Instead, you smell exactly like Cheka and Leona."

"Oh," They glanced down at Cheka, who was looking at them so innocently. "I've been with them for the past week, so I guess I do."

"And plus," Cheka added. "Yuu-tan is like family!"

"Family, huh?" Falena hummed before ruffling Cheka's hair. "Do you really like them that much?" Cheka nodded a couple of times and Falena let out a laugh.

"Alright, I like you more already," Falena grinned. And like this, they could see why they were brothers. It was that same glimmer in the Falena's eyes that they would see whenever Leona was playing Spelldrive.

"Oi," Their head whipped around, finding that Leona was back on the couch. "Isn't it about time for you to leave?" The irritation in his voice was blindingly obvious, but Falena seemed to take no heed.

"We'll leave in a second— Guards, please take Cheka's belongings for now— You know it's not every day I get to meet your friends, Leona," Falena turned back toward them. "I wanted to say thank you for taking care of my Cheka and for being here with Leona. And I would like to offer you something in return."

Falena's last sentence seemed to echo in their ears.

I would like to offer you something in return.

Yuu's smile stiffened, "I'm sorry?"

A reward. They weren’t even sure if they should accept a reward for what they did, not when they already had a prior arrangement with Leona. And even if they did, what would they ask from a king?

"A present!" Cheka giggled. "Yuu-tan, why don't you come with us to the Savanna?"

Yuu crouched down, "But I've got school to attend, remember?"

"Noooo," Cheka whined, glancing between them to Leona. "Then can I come to NRC too, Papa? I wanna go to school with Yuu-tan and Ojitan."

"By that time we would've graduated," Leona very helpfully pointed out and Yuu almost wanted to smack him. "Aren't the video calls enough?"

"Then..." Cheka looked frustrated, and Yuu wasn't sure if they should be cheering him up or being relieved that the cub had run out of ideas. "Then!"

"Then?" Falena asked encouragingly.

Cheka’s eyes finally lit up, a big grin spreading on his face, "Then when I grow up, I'll marry Yuu-tan!"

There was a gasp and Yuu turned to see one of the guards with their mouth wide open. The guard immediately turned their expression stoic when they realized they were caught. But they shared the guard's sentiment. How else would someone react to being proposed to by the Crown Prince of Afterglow Savanna?

"Er, Cheka...?" Falena looked just as shocked. "You're already... Marriage?" It seemed that Falena's brain was still trying to process that Cheka was talking about marriage. He had to be, considering that Cheka was his one and only son and the fact that he probably knew little to nothing about what marriages meant.

"Why not? Marriage is when people love each other right?" Cheka looked at them so hopefully, as if they would say ‘yes’ to marrying him. "And then we can all live together at the palace.”

Yuu plucked up courage to speak, "I can’t marry you. I'm too old for you, little lion." That and plenty of other things that Yuu wanted to say but couldn’t, because how was Cheka supposed to understand the different types of love? Cheka frowned a little at the rejection before he turned to his father.

"Then Papa!" Falena snapped to attention. "Can't you find someone else to marry Yuu-tan?"

Aaand now Cheka was asking Falena to set up an arranged marriage for them. What the fuck were they supposed to do now?

"Wait, Cheka—”

But Cheka was on a mission, grabbing at Yuu's arm with enthusiasm, "We have lotsa nice and pretty beastpeople relatives at the Savanna, so Yuu-tan can choose who to marry! That way you can live with us at the pala— Woah!"

"Not a chance, brat," Leona's scowl was on full display as he plucked Cheka into the air. "Why would they marry any other beastperson?"

There was a short pause as if everyone was trying to process what exactly Leona meant. Then it collectively dawned on the room. And Yuu couldn't breathe.

"So Ojitan will marry Yuu-tan?" Cheka asked, his eyes sparkling and a mega-watt smile practically beaming from his face.

Leona didn't say anything. Instead he stared over at them as he shoved the cub into Falena's arms. Yuu's head was still spinning. If they were nervous at the prospect of offending Falena before, the feeling had only gotten worse now.

"N-Now, now Cheka," Falena tried as he finally gathered his bearings. "It's up to Yuu-san who they want to marry. And a reward is supposed to be something they want."

"But Ojitan's right!" Cheka argued, staring at them over Falena's shoulder. "Ojitan is the prettiest and the nicest beastman for Yuu-tan to marry!"

"Be a good boy and hush now, Cheka," Falena said before turning toward them. "Don't mind what Cheka was saying. It was very nice to meet you, but malkia wangu expects me back before lunch, so I have to bid you goodbye. It was very nice meeting you," There was something in Falena's eyes— something that said they would definitely meet again. "Oh, and Leona, don't forget to call me next week."

"Yeah, yeah," Leona ran a hand through his hair, sparing them another obvious glance.

"Bye bye Ojitan! Yuu-tan!" Cheka yelled over Falena's shoulder as they left. "Make sure to get married in the Savanna, okay? Imma get you the bestest gift!"

They slumped on the floor as the door clicked shut. Yuu...didn't quite know what to do now. Their weeklong mission of taking care of Cheka was over. And winter break was going to be over soon enough as well. That meant returning to their normal routine of dragging Grim to class and praying that he doesn't fail. That also meant that their arrangement with Leona would come to an end.

But instead of future plans, Yuu was still stuck on that instead. 'That' being the fact that Leona chose not to step in until Cheka suggested an arranged marriage for them. That being the fact that Leona didn’t refute it when Cheka asked if he was offering himself to them.

"What are you doing on the floor?" They looked up to see Leona watching them. Again. He did that far too often nowadays, staring and getting caught and raising an eyebrow in challenge as if they had been the one staring. They really couldn’t understand his behavior.

"Listen, you..." They very carefully placed themself at the edge of the bed; far away from Leona. "You know I didn't get close to Cheka for some reward, right?"

"Guess you owe that reward to me, huh," He snorted as if it amused him to think of them in that light. "Use your favor well, herbivore. There’s a lot you can ask for."

"I'm trying to be serious," Yuu frowned, and they couldn't believe that they were avoiding him just hours ago. They paused before adding, "And I plan on refusing anything that has to do with me marrying anyone."

Leona's expression shifted into contemplation, "You wouldn't want to marry royalty?"

They entertained his question, chuckling, "I thought we established that I'm too old for Cheka. Your brother looked like he was about to keel over at the thought. And I wouldn't want to marry some stranger. Besides—"

"I meant me, stupid herbivore."

Yuu's first reaction was to hurl an insult back. It was automatic. Natural, even. They had been insulted, after all. That was the game that they had always played, trading verbal blow after blow with a fervor that lit their blood on fire.

It was the very song and dance that had curried Leona's favor toward them, enough so that he didn't completely despise them for being one of the reasons he overblotted, and enough that he would begrudgingly allow them to share a room with him, even if it was only a short three days.

And yet all those biting words fell short of being said, wedged in their throat like a bad case of hiccups because—

No, Yuu couldn't quite believe it. Their mind turned Leona's sentence around in their brain, trying in vain to find some other meaning. Some other meaning that wasn't Leona asking them to marry him, and the multitude of other questions that cropped up if they accepted that meaning.

"You're..." Their brow furrowed, grasping at the only possible logical explanation they had. "You're saying that in a hypothetical way, right?" The answer they wanted was his smirk, the teasing tone of his voice as he asked if they 'really wanted to marry him that bad'. That way they could’ve scowled, or even just laughed it off like it was a bad joke.

What they got instead was his unflinching green eyes taking in their every reaction, "What if I was serious?"

"I'm not a mage," Yuu's heart seemed to crow against their ribs as they struggled for any another excuse. "I don't have any magic or extraordinary talent. Nor do I have strong family backing. I– I can't offer you any power in return. I'm as commoner as a commoner could get, your royal highness."

Cynicism tangled with their tone as they spoke the title. It was easy to say, especially with a week of practice under their belt. They almost laughed at the irony of their master-servant act; at how closely it mirrored their status in the real world. The tension that loomed between them slowly turned sharp, waiting to cut.

"So you've decided that the only possible reason I would marry you is...for monetary gain," Leona's anger didn’t explode. It simmered, the careful deliberation of his words like a twist of a knife. "And in the same breath, you denounce your own abilities."

"Why else would you suggest such a thing?" Yuu asked. No, they accused. It was an accusation, they had to admit. The words sounded so cold, and so...so far away from them as soon as it left their lips.

Leona was on his feet in seconds. It took only two steps for him to be in front of them, and barely another second for him to kneel at the ground in front of them.

Their eyes widened, their instinct to grab at him, "Leona, what—"

"What did I do?" He demanded, his voice strained with anger, confusion, and what they thought was sadness. "What did I do that made you believe that I was incapable of liking you?"

What did Leona do? What did Leona ever say, other than those offhanded comments he made to everyone? Their heartbeat seemed to roar in their ears with every second that ticked by that they didn't have an answer.

"And what did you do?" They didn't realize they had been looking at the ground until Leona's head bowed to catch their gaze. "Why can't you accept it if I did like you? Why can't you just reject me?"

And it felt like the tension had finally shattered. The shrapnel of it cut at the softest parts of their heart. What would it matter if Leona did like them? He would surely leave them alone if they said no. Their nails bit into their palms, the pain a small sting compared to the way their heart ached. It was exactly because they couldn't say no. But what was so wrong with them saying yes?

Leona heaved out another sigh, "At least answer me this time."

This time. Yesterday, they had promised to answer him the next time he asked. And he was asking. Now. The proud Leona Kingscholar, on his knees for them. Waiting on their answer. And Yuu couldn’t help but feel their shoulders shake as they found their answer.

"Do I...deserve you?" Yuu could only afford a whisper as they put a voice to their most pathetic thoughts. "Someone like you shouldn't...you shouldn't settle for less." The worry, the self-doubt, and what they knew was self-sabotage. Everything that tangled into such a big mess that they would rather take scissors to it rather than try to untangle it.

"All my life I spent letting people's expectations ruin my own ambitions," Leona's eyes burned into theirs, a tender understanding in his words. "Deserving something doesn't matter. Take what you want, and fight for it. Fight until you win and if you don't, keep trying. That's the life I want to lead.

"And the person I want is you."

This was Leona trying. There he was, his hands carefully working at his own mess. Yuu understood it now. The Leona they knew who always wielded his sharp words and unshakable scowl was now trying to take a step closer to them. And what kind of person would they be if they didn't try to struggle on their own?

Yuu found the end of their string. And they tugged.

"If..." They watched as Leona's ear twitched at the tremble of their voice. "If we end up dating, you can't always pick fights with Grim. And you can’t get in trouble with Crowley anymore."

Leona's head bumped against their knee, "C’mon, give me a real answer." He stared up at them, brown locks tickling their leg. His face didn't betray his emotions, though they could see hope flickering in his eyes.

"I like you, Leona," Yuu's breath hitched as they spoke the words they had only ever thought of. "I like you so much it hurts to think about rejecting you." Their words seemed to reverbrate in their own chest, sounding too loud for the quiet of the room.

Then Leona was right there, hands gentle as he guided them backward; the softness of his bed engulfing them in seconds. It was like he was waiting for it. The possibility that they would’ve said yes. His eyes peered down at theirs, a hand at their cheek.

"Good," The singular word weighed heavily on their chest as the rumble of Leona's laugh accompanied it. "Sevens, you know by now, how much I wanted your answer to be yes." Yuu managed a nod, all but breathless from the sudden closeness. He pressed closer, impossibly, as he grinned with something boyish they had never seen.

"Herbivore." That teasing nickname had never sounded so sweet before. "We're dating now." Leona said it so much like a statement that they almost balked; even if they weren't opposed. They almost wanted to protest but his hand squeezed their own, "You're mine."

They didn't miss the possessive edge his voice took, raising an eyebrow, "That makes you mine too."

"Say it once."

They feigned innocence, thumbing at his hair, "Say what once?"

"You won't take mercy and indulge in me this once?" His ears seemed to droop the slightest bit. It was obvious that he did it on purpose. But by Sevens, Yuu was weak to him. And they knew it would only get worse with time.

But they knew now that Leona was just as weak to them.

They made sure to look him in the eyes as they spoke, "I'm yours, Leo—"

Leona was kissing them. Interrupting them, though they were sure he heard all that he wanted. Great Seven, his mouth. They could hardly think when Leona kissed them like a man starved of touch. His lips slid against theirs as his hands roamed, tracing their jaw and down their spine; both gentle and scalding. And all they could do was burn, their lips joining Leona's in a feverish dance. With each smooth glide of his mouth, they found it hard to stifle the sounds that threatened to spill from their chest, their grip tightening on his hair.

"Yuu," Leona murmured as he barely pulled away. And they could feel the way his lips shaped around the syllable of their name, brushing against their own. It was intoxicating. They never heard their name being said with such longing before.

Yuu almost wanted to kiss him again.

And they did, pulling him closer to press another kiss against his lips. Slower this time. Savoring the touch. And gentler, though they could still feel heat flare when Leona's tongue brushed their lip; which was too often to be unintentional.

They were both panting as they pulled back, and they couldn't tear their gaze away from Leona. Beautiful Leona, hair in disarray and his lips slick with spit, curved into the softest smile they had seen out of him yet.

"Wow, you really do like me," They breathed out, and they almost cringed at the disbelief in their voice.

Leona rolled his eyes, his expression returning to normal, "It took us making out for you to get it?"

"It took a moment for it to really sink in," They admitted as Leona fell beside them. "You’re out of my league, I think."

"I could say the same to you," Leona didn't seem to react, though his ear swiveled slightly. They were sure he was saying that to spare their feelings.

“So,” Yuu let their fingers slide against the back of Leona’s palm. "What now?"

He grunted, "Now we sleep."

A pause.

"You can't be serious."

"I'm being 100% serious, herbivore," Leona said, his chin pressing against their shoulder. "It's too early in the morning for anything right now."

Wait. Early in the morning…?

"Uhm, Leona?"

"What."

"I…” They mustered the most pitiful expression and tone they had in them. “I forgot to build a fire for the fairies this morning."

Leona opened an eye, "You mean when you were ignoring my existence?"

"You were practically ignoring me too!" Yuu sat up. Or at least tried to. It was hard when there was a seatbelt of muscle basically holding them down. "C'mon, Leona. You don't even have to come with me."

"I do have to come with you," Leona grouched, though he finally allowed them to sit up.

"And why is that?" Yuu asked as they stood up, reaching for their coat.

They spun around to find Leona standing there, jacket half on, "Because it's cold outside."

"You gotta have a better excuse than that," Yuu laughed, finding the frown on Leona's face almost cute. It was clear that Leona didn't want them to leave. They didn't want to leave either, but it wouldn't be funny if they made it through the entire break without missing their task only to get distracted by Leona.

"Fine. I'm supervising you," Leona took another step closer. "For every minute that you spend, I'm gonna extend our nap by five minutes."

Yuu took his hand, slipping it into their own pocket, "Let's just stick with the excuse that it's cold outside."

Leona didn't complain, huddling closer as they walked out. They squeezed his hand tighter as a gust of wind greeted them outside the Hall of Mirrors.

Yes, it was cold outside, but Yuu could hardly feel it. Not when their chest was buzzing with warmth. Not when they were feeling lighter than they had in days. And especially not with Leona by their side, complaining about how it should be a crime for winters to get this cold.

"It's almost the end of winter," Yuu said with a laugh. “Of course it’s cold.” Despite what they said, they huddled closer to Leona.

“At least it’ll be spring soon,” Leona yawned. “It’s perfect napping weather.”

Yuu made a show of tapping their chin, “Maybe I’ll go out on a couple of dates with my new lover.”

“Hmm,” Leona glanced at them sideways, a smirk tugging at his lips. “Maybe you will. After you take a nap with him.” And they supposed that was how it was. They were dating the Leona Kingscholar after all. If they had to take a nap before going out on a date with him, then so be it. Once winter ends, there was no doubt they would have plenty of spring days to look forward to.

and that's (almost) the end !! thank you so much for reading this very largely self-indulgent series of mine, and thank you for not giving up on this ending ^^ the last part of the series is the epilogue, 'winter's aftermath', which will tie off the story for good. until next time, check out my masterlist for more leona-filled brainrot >:D

[ tiny swahili dictionary ]

mtoto means "child"

malkia wangu means "my queen"

see prev chapter for more explanations on each term ++ why i chose swahili

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bpdglimmer · 5 years ago

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Feel like shit just want her back (Lightning’s theme, original song by Kitty’er Rio)

#final fantasy #ff13 #tags bc im desperate but shh #op took the song down but listen I've had it stuck in my head for like 3 years straight now and I've forgotten most of the lyrics so I cant #get it out of my HEAD #I still have it downloaded on an old computer and mp3 player I MIGHT still have but IDK #it's a modern fucking tragedy bc just #that song SLAPPED #anyway if by some amazing chance anyone happened to download this song PLS send it 2 me ily 5ever #it's the one that's like 'I'm looking at you you're looking at me but what can I do but say sorry'#'sarah could u ever forgive me ill be the big sis I should be not be blinded by this fight and hold on to our promise of LIIIIIIIIGHTS'#[sobs now bc that song went SO HARD]#and I might NEVER HEAR IT AGAIN FUCK

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trashlie · 3 years ago

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I've been thinking about how both Shin-ae's ex friend and long lost sister have orange eyes. I feel there's significance to that, such as how they mirror certain paths q-tip potentially could take.

Also, I have a feeling that Nolan's meeting with Shin-hye is much soon, and how that could represent what if q-tip wasn't an ass to Nolan.

I wonder which is important to q-tip's development: that people have a right to reasonably not give you closure for what you did and still remain civil/cool in a totally-not-q-tip way, or the forgive and forget shtick?

I don't know. I'm curious about how Shin-hye fits into the story. And is it me, or do some of the art indicate Min-Hyuk will come to personally know q-tip with the latter's changed for the better? For now, I feel pity at most for q-tip. He's one of the few characters I want to punch in the face.

Oh wow you bring up a lot of really good points! I’ll be honest - I really don’t yet know what to make of Shinhye. I keep wondering if there’s some foreshadowing about her that I’m missing, because I just don’t know what to expect. You’re right and I don’t think she’s an insignificant character at all, or she wouldn’t be woven into this story. I know some people think there’s a lot of storylines running rampant in ILY, but I think everything intersects at some point, and that we just haven’t yet seen the full intersection, or else it’s happened before and hasn’t been revealed to us yet. (For instance, how a lot of people theorize that Shinhye is in Alyssa’s group.)

I’d like to note that I’m PRETTY sure Shinhye actually has the same eye color as Shinae but that doesn’t take away from that point, because it was still a stylistic decision to draw her with that eye color. It’s largely been theorized that it was for stylistic reasons - Shinae had the yellow truck, Shinhye the red doll, opposite colors of their eyes - but I bet you’re right that showing her with that eye color was pointed.

IN FACT. Half a year ago I made this post about episode 36, Shinae’s flashback that first reveals Alyssa, and a really curious use of color. You’ll note that in this episode, everything is grayscale barring eyes some people eyes. You can see some eye colors appear more intense than others; Shinae’s are intense red but if you color pick Shimhan, Maya, and Minhyuk’s eyes, which all look dark, they’re some shade of deep red and Rika’s are in the blue family. The kid Shinae fought with, his mom, and the principal all have gray eyes that fit the grayscale and yet her teacher - the only one who was truly on her side at that school with her best interests at heart, also had red toned eyes. Lil Buddy’s eyes are vibrant, much like Shinae’s. Notably, the only other things in that flashback part of that episode are the scratches on her knuckles from her fight (red) and her dad’s hat (green). Now, I’m not a color theorist unfortunately, but I know that all of this is Big Time Significant. Though Alyssa and Shinhye’s eye color from the prologue are not exactly the same, they’re still in the yellow color family, and I don’t deny that there is something to that. Warning signs? Danger? Something else? I don’t think it’s red = bad green = good yellow = warning because everyone Shinae loves has red eyes but there’s.... something.

Over on reddit, someone made a color theory post about red and green pertaining to the company party arc. Something of note is that as far as light goes, when you mix red and green, you get yellow. Red, yellow, green form a scale where yellow is the mix of them. Given that Alyssa has orange-y yellow eyes and we’ve had Shinhye portrayed with them, I think it definitely flags something. In that post, op theorizes that yellow represents truth where red and green represent fight or flight, respectively. I’m not totally sure how this plays into things - red as fight being that these are people fighting for (or who will?) fight for Shinae? Again, I think the red and green in these instances mostly don’t matter - the people who have muted eye colors are people who will become important to Shinae/are on her side/are significant roles, so I think it’s less about what those colors symbolize. (However, I still have questions about the green cap and the fact that it’s made its way to Nol.)

What I’m getting at, though, is yes, you are on to something for sure with that! But in the same way as Alyssa, it’s hard to tell if Shinhye has good intentions or not. I want to believe that she is approaching Shinae for good reasons and has to sneak for whatever reason (again, the theory that she’s a member of Alyssa’s group) but it’s hard to know for sure at this time. Likewise, it’s hard to know what Alyssa’s real motives are - what we see at face value is hardly the total sum of her, right? But where OP theorized that yellow means truth, it doesn’t seem to fit here, does it?

I feel there's significance to that, such as how they mirror certain paths q-tip potentially could take.

I think this is an interesting take, and if you want to elaborate more, I'd love to hear it! As in, Shinhye trying to connect with Shinae vs Alyssa who has hurt people for her own gain? That does make sense - the crux of Kousuke is kind of his refusal to accept Nol as family and how he considers the hurt he causes to be collatoral damage for the greater means aka his successes. In that vein though, it makes me wonder if there will be a connection drawn between Shinhye and Kousuke, since he already has one with Alyssa. I don’t think he already knows her, because he didn’t recognize her at the company party. I’d like to come back to this because it’s a really interesting point.

Also, I have a feeling that Nolan's meeting with Shin-hye is much soon, and how that could represent what if q-tip wasn't an ass to Nolan

Now this I would LOVE to hear your elaboration on! It’s funny that Nol and Kousuke are the only ones who haven’t yet met Shinhye, isn’t it? Even Dieter has! I think that lends a little more merit to how Shinhye can mirror their relationship in some way. Again, the estranged sibling thing isn’t a coincidence at all and I know it’s for more than simply mirror reasons, but I can’t fathom what her role is beyond that. (I mean there are theories that Yui knows who Shinae’s mom was [is...?] and might even know about Shinhye? I’ve also seen theories that Shinhye is working with Yui but I’m not sold on that yet.)

I’ve never thought of it this way but I think that’s a good way to approach. Kousuke is, obviously, a walking series of contrasts. He thinks Nol should let go of what happened in the past (I mean, to be honest he downplays his view of how he treated Nol) because it was in the past and Nol has grown up and should be beyond that, yet he has never found closure for his father’s affair and what it meant for the perfect family he believed in. I do think he expects things to be solved neatly because emotional messiness is something he pretends to be above, despite, y’know, him having a full break down over his father NOT being disappointed in him but. You know. Kousuke is a hot mess lol. He’s frustrating for all his contradictions and the way he expects things to always work the way he wants and expects them to work out, and I think that’s why the forgive and forget bit seems to stick more - not that I think he views it that way but. I do suspect he just expects people to move on because he compartmentalizes his feelings differently than others do, so he doesn’t understand the hurt people feel or holding grudges for something, even though he does that himself.

And is it me, or do some of the art indicate Min-Hyuk will come to personally know q-tip with the latter's changed for the better?

This is interesting to think about, too. The fact that Minhyuk met Kousuke at all, even though the meeting went really badly DOES make me pause and consider it. Why else did they have that meeting? Surely not because they’ll meet again at this party so.... maybe he has been set to cross paths again at some point, somehow. I would like to believe that Kousuke will respond to more positive influences in his life - being around Shinae and her friends and family more, making him rethink everything he has allowed himself to believe, both about his family as well as his life. I’ve always maintained that I think Shinae will influence Kousuke as a sort of.... like he’s had such a sheltered world where people don’t counter what he believes but being around someone like Shinae (especially if he will come to respect her) could make him question the way he behaves and treats people and what he expects from life. We already see a little bit of it right now, but it seems more catered to controlling how she sees him. I think in time, exposure to her and her world will help him become more sincere about wanting to become a better person. (He just has a few really big milestones to hit first lol.)

But yes, I agree, he’s quite vexing. As a character I enjoy him a lot for the ways that I get to think about him and consider his views and narratives, but as someone who reads for Shinae’s story, man I would love to fight this man sometime lmaooooooo

I really enjoyed your thoughts! I think there were a lot of takes here that I’ve never seen or thought about, and now I’m going to continue to mull over them for awhile. I’m definitely still fixated on the yellow/orange eyes; I wish I was better at theorizing about colors! (But if anyone reads this and has ideas PLEASE let me know!)

#I Love Yoo #ILY Brainrot #Alyssa Cho #Shinhye #Kousuke Hirahara #Shinae Yoo #Yet again Alyssa and Kousuke (and in this case also Shinhye) are such FUN characters to think and theorize about #I just know there's something tangled here but i just am not yet sure WHAT and that kills me lmao #straight up no idea what to think about shinhye but man the relation between her and alyssa and kousuke certainly is intriguing and i can't #wait to see how all of that plays out #to reiterate once more i fully agree that shinhye is a lot more significant than we've yet seen and it's why i still wonder if her motives #are dangerous/bad #there's been a decent amount of weight leant to their story and the possibility of their reunion #or if they ever have a reunion #now that i'm thinking more about it #i've always felt that nol and kousuke will one day reach some kind of peace - i don't mean that they'll suddenly be brothers but #that one day they might be able to see each other's sides and find a way to coexist without destroying each other #it just feels like the closure of their story to be at peace and let go and move on in a HEALTHY way #to heal from it #so i wonder if Shinae and Shinhye will mirror that or if they would foil it #especially because again we have that situation where shinae and nol are mirrored pairs each with a sibling to contend with #and that's what makes me wonder how dangerous shinhye could be #GAAAAAHHHHH so many things to consider!!!!!!!!

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0veil-ablaze0 · 11 months ago

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Hijacking to think how this swap goes to my best abilities in the same format as op rq:

(cw: brief mention of sexual harassment, milgram typical warnings: murder, cults, suicide, etc.)

Mahiru: A young woman who has so much love to give, too much love to the point of her peers couldn't stand her for long. Even within her soulmate's eyes, he finds her love too much. Desperately trying to keep her happily ever after together, sacrifices has to be made. She just wanted to love and be loved, can you forgive her?

Kazui: A man has his secrets, he has duties, he has actions that the normal society allows, he can hurt others. Kazui is no different, he has hurt many with his lies trying to be part of this 'normal' society. The cycle is simple: Find a woman, charm her, get along with her, and hopefully get married only to back out when the relationship escalates. Such a cowardly retreat, embarrassing isn't it?

Amane: Finding comfort in the internet, she finds herself in a group of the good and pure, well, on the surface level. Do something that the masses deem immoral, you're done for, but what was deemed immoral seems to increase. To Amane's own shame, she has things that the people think is a sin, despite all that effort to trying to be a good girl. She hardly joins whatever crusade they were having, the one time she did though, it wasn't at someone the masses expected. She had only rid of a hypocrite, so milgram is nonsensical, right?

Fuuta: He was a pretty popular guy in uni, known to enact justice around campus, he's also quite popular with his female peers considering the most common scum he happens to call out are perverts. His 'friends' aren't exactly fond of this phenomenon, so they did what they always do to scums: tear them down until they're sorry. The people in uni sees him as heroic, and heroes has no flaws, Fuuta couldn't have flaws. So when his supposed 'friends' reveals his vices, he was discarded and scowled at. He went to look for his friends to 'discuss and catch up'. Is it wrong for him to take revenge?

These descriptions are getting longer help me--

Kotoko: An aspiring med student, prodigy even, she knows and even sees the injustice in the medical field. Its bias and whatnot. She swore to rid of this place of corrupt practitioners. Her goals gets more complicated as her grandma gets fatally ill, and donors are few, so she did what she had to. It's fine, she only took from the leeches of society. What's wrong with making the medical world a better place? A lot of things maybe

Shidou: He quits his job as a surgeon once his wife and kids were discharged from the hospital, opting for a job where he can watch over his family more closely. His wife understands that she and their sons had just survived a near death experience, but has her husband always been this overbearing? She's physically tired, and even if her husband doesn't have any ill will, his current self is emotionally exhausting her. Shidou just want to make sure his family is safe, is it a crime to love your family?

Muu: ily muu but idk how to do you. Muu is the queen bee of the school and she has a crush on Rei, this attraction is something that Muu wants to hide, but she wants to be transparent with Rei about her feelings as well. Unfortunately, Muu's clique makes ot hard to make Muu be honest about Rei. So, Muu decided to fess up with her in private. Wether Rei reciprocates or not idk, but she was caught on video by one of Muu friends, Muu wasn't caught because if yes, her friend would've been busted before she can pull out her phone. Muu's confession made everything worse and now Rei is dead. Muu is a monster isn't she..?

Mikoto: Mikoto is a prime example of the perfect work spirit among his cult, that's all what he knows, so that's what he believes at least. He doesn't know how or why he is bandaged sometimes, he doesn't remember, all blank. Either way, he must continue to work hard to be the ideal mascot man for his family and community. He doesn't even know what happened, he just woke up with blood everywhere! They He will not accept that he is a sinner, milgram is undeniably a flawed system! Forgive him, now. We only want to protect him.. [Why am I here? And why are you framing as if I were the devil?]

Haruka: He just wanted attention, is that wrong? He'll gain that in any way possible. He's killed smaller things than himself, bugs, dogs, fishes, all for mama to look at him after so long. Since that worked, he'll continue so others can see him. Cats, birds, small wild animals, a little girl-- it doesn't matter what emotion the people are feeling, he has eyes on him, and he could never be more happy.

Yuno: LITERALLY I HAVE ZERO CLUE WHAT TO DO WITH HER (WILL UPDATE ONCE I GET AN IDEA)

As a follow-up to my Songshift AU, allow me to introduce you to the Songspin AU (a bit like Storyshift/Storyspin), in which the positions of the Songshift AU go the other way!

#milgram #Songspin au #mahiru shiina #kazui mukuhara #amane momose #fuuta kajiyama #kotoko yuzuriha #shidou kirisaki #muu kusunoki #mikoto kayano #haruka sakurai #yuno kashiki #Yuno I am so sorry #I forgot what was my idea for you #Probably something something blood = warmth #I used all of my brain juice I'll write Yuno's later

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revasser-destiny · 5 years ago

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Hello I am your lovely positive Mun anon! This is for you mun! I dare you to show which muns you love like friends or family! You can list as many people you love but for every one person you list, you must say what you feel about that mun.

@idv-ask-azrael ❥ You always make me smile and laugh with Azzy, or just with your amazing personality! I know I always worry you when I consume sweets (pls forgive me, mama), but I do love you very much as a mother figure. You're just the sweetest cupcake I met so far, and I hope everything goes well for you. Ily! ♡

@theunconcernedembalmer ❥Another mama figure I love and cherish. Her artsyle is a lovely dreamscape to escape into when you want to indulge in the world of her muses! She is very kind and smart (dont you dare say no, or give me the no u card), and I look up to her like a butterfly shaped cloud in the sky. Also CLLLLLLAUUUUDDDDEEEEE AAAAAAAAAAA

@ask-idv-embalmer ❥Papasop is a beautiful ray of stardust at night, who listens to you and tries to make you laugh. I love them very much, and I would give them a homemade cake in shape of a heart. Their art is like looking at a colorful meadow of personalities and gold itself in my opinion! They also know my weakness for dad jokes so that's bonus there ♡

@cezlovesart ❥SISTER! I really love Cezzu to the point she is family to me. If I could, I would happily give her my munies and cookies without hesitation. 100% would cuddle and boop this precious angel of a sibling ♡

@idv-mike-morton ❥CLOWN MUMMMMMMM! I remember the day I made a mistake and became your child. I still don't regret it, haha! You are the funniest and loveliest person I met so far, a goddess in my eyes if I may be honest. You always know how to make me laugh and smile, even make the days seem brighter than before. I hope everything goes well for you, and if not, I'll be praying that it'll get better! ♡

@ask-the-idv-magus IZUMUMMMM! She is the chaotically beautiful gf of my clown mum, and I cherish her like the sun (no pun intended) itself. She also knows how to make me laugh, and I enjoy talking with her about aus and story ideas in vc. I compare her to the gentle rain in spring, soothing and understanding, but also very beautiful and sweet as the flowers curl up in wonder.

@seer-is-here ❥Fellow Detective StalkerGay, aka Gayboi Starboi. She is the gayest owl person I know, and she's really funny that I tend to giggle a lot, especially in rank. Jaff is an uplifting angel to me, and she's so kind that often I cry.

@identityvarchives ❥We may have just met, but let me tell you are such a beautiful diamond in the gallery of AUs and storytelling. I look up to you a lot, but I also wish the best to come your way, Alice. Ily! ♡

@http-idv ❥Same with the lovely Alice here, I also look up to you as an inspiration. You're such a gorgeous emerald in the meadow of writing scenarios, and telling the story of your muse. Much love! ♡

@ask-prospector-v ❥BROSIS! *inhales* YOU ARE SUCH A PRECIOUS GREMLIN TWIN THAT I WOULD SACRIFICE EVERYTHING I HAVE SO YOU CAN BE SMILING AND HABBY! YOU MAKE ME LAUGH AND GO UWU, GOD ILY SO MUCH! QAQ♡

@flowwerpot ❥You always take my kokoro with your Flower AU, and for that, I love you. In all seriousness, their Flower AU is like a beautifully made cake decorated as the blossoming dawn. They're just the sweetest person I've met, and I am honored to even be called their child. Flower mama is OP ♡

@nootnotno ❥NOOT, ILY SO MUCH THAT I WANNA CUDDLE WITH YOU ALL DAY, NO HOMO! You're such a solicitous angel, and I'm so happy to have met you in my life. Thank you for being my friend, and I hope you continue being such a sweetheart penguin! ♡

@ask-victor-grantzcampbell ❥Kira Kuro is just,,,, an angel sent from the heavens and I cherish them plenty. Their artstyle and storytelling with Victor has me intrigued and wanting for more. They're such a sweetheart that I wonder sometimes that if meeting them was a wonderful dream.

@ask-thepuppeteer-idv ❥D,,,DIA! She has taken my kokoro many times as well, but I love her very much that I let it happen. Dia is a darling to have around, and an amazing friend to talk with. She makes me smile with her presence and ocs, even if I do cry when angst comes over at times (SOBBING NOISES). I would 100% hold her hand and call her the Queen of Beautiful Dahlias ♡

@idv-lunar-shine ❥Hello, may I hug the mun and the muses (if I can without dying) please? The AU with Alice and Lucie is a wondrous gem to view over and over again that it makes me cry often. The dark parts mixed with light moments is a beautiful bouquet to be shared with people who are interested, and I feel blessed being one of them. If I could, I would love to give yumi a gift but sadly like always, Im a shy birb

@theincessantmercenary ❥First off, I like to mention that I didn't expect a Naib to come in my inbox and make me cry two rivers for an hour. Second, Lucie is a delightful rose in spring and no one can change my mind whatsoever. Their version of Naib is an engaging performance to watch alongside with Alice's Eli and yumi's lunar shrine (how do i mention everyone without breaking the keyboard), and I can't wait to see more. Also Marpesia is precious and I will die for her, thanks for coming to my TedTalk 😔

@ask-idv-conartist ❥A beautiful person with an amazing muse and artstyle. Their introduction is just perfection, and I often reread it because holy shit, it's just exceptionally good. I love the amount of work and care put into Charlie (100% would smooch on forehead, and hold hands with), his story

@ask-cesarandamelia-idvoc ❥Okami is a talented person whose muses are on my must protecc list. They're just the most amiable person I know, and they deserve much love for their creativity. They've also made me cry because of their art and writing to which I say please give me back my heart pls

@ask-magnetboi-nortnort ❥Have I mention that your Norton is the funniest bastard I have ever met so far? Now you know how much I love your blog, interpretation of Norton, and lovely you! Please don't hesitate to take a break once, and take care of yourself! Love you, Cousin Nyeli! ♡

@stitchedstatic ❥Mama Static is an affable rose in the meadow, and I love her very much! Her storytelling is a wonderful experience as more pieces are revealed from the characters. I'm not just talking about Alec and Nikola (you can obviously infer that I love the two), it's also her reverse characters and Clarity that make me go doki doki about everything. Mama Static, I would give you all of my donut cakes without hesitation and carry you to victory ♡

@ask-idvgardener ❥Mama Gwitchy is a wonderful mama, and I love their protrayal of dear Gardener. I would protect them with all of my life because they deserve the best. 100% would smile at just their presence alone ♡

@idv-missionary ❥Hi, Mama Fluff! I would like to tell you that you are the most loveliest morning glory I have ever met, and I wish that happiness will come your way when you need it. Love you! ♡

@ask-vampire-hunter-naib ❥Woosh come back from the war, jk. I love your interpretation of a vampire hunter Naib (including the others as well~)! Makes me want to care him, but also punch him at the same time fhdhdhdh. Please know that you are a beloved jewel in my heart, and I hope that everything blooms better for you! ♡

@ask-chloenair ❥Briar, we need to talk about how importantly beautiful you are. The representation of your muses is beautifully done, and their backstories makes me want to do a chef kiss every time. Your artstyle is just the perfect dessert to go along with the main dish, and I honestly can't wait for more of your story to come soon. I love you, Briar! ♡

@asimplecherry ❥Ah yes, the Angst Demon. Queen of said subject herself. My inspiration for darker writings and art itself. She is also a singing queen, and that opinion cannot be changed. Her muses are blast to have around, especially gremlin Emma who thonks people in the face. I just love Cherry's work so far, and I pray that everything goes well for her.

@idv-askclaudedesaulnier ❥Number one criminal who has stolen my kokoro so many times I've lost count. Their version of Claude is a darker, yet mystifying fairytale - which I fell in love with and thus my love for Claude began. Their artstyle is a mesmerizing star at night that carries on a different story in each of their blogs. And Bee, you are the most marvelous person I met so far, and I love you for being you. Take care of yourself, okay? Love you ♡

@peachy-teacakes ❥Dal here is my wise big sister who can also be dumb at the same time. Doesn't stop me from loving her because of her golden heart. Did I mention that she's a very beautiful being on this planet to the point that I believe she is a Queen? 😔♡

@ask-sculptor ❥My egg sister who apparently thinks that Wick is a, um.... not going to continue that because I know a couple will be screaming soon after i post this (XD). Winter is a beloved snowflake (no pun intended) and she is chaotically funny at the same time. Charlie Gayboi is my tol big bro, and you cant change my mind. ♡

@hatsirsir ❥BIG BROTHER! CAN I JUST SAY I APPRECIATE YOUR EXISTENCE EVERYDAY BECAUSE YOU ARE THE SWEETEST AND MOST CONSIDERATE PERSON I HAVE EVER MET! I CANT DIE FOR YOU, BUT I WILL HAPPILY COMPLIMENT WITHOUT HESITATION! YOU MAKE ME SMILE AND CRY HAPPY TEARS EVERYDAY WITH YOUR LOVING COMMENTS! YOUR CHARACTERS MAKE ME SOFT (except for obvious rats) AND PUT ME IN A CUDDLY MOOD. ILY HAT QAQ! ♡

#this took me about 7 hours finish dhdhdh #look I want to compliment every living being that is close to me qwq #i love everyone on this post and im beginning to cherish more people #*gently sends hugs and kisses*#nini is sobbing

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misswoozi · 2 years ago

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Have we talked about CL and voyeurism before cause i dont think we have but either way its something she fantasizes about but probably wouldnt do 🎮

THIS ONE IS A LITTLE TOUGH FOR ME. I'm not sure I see the Vision. Part of it is probably just because CL is on my Hard To Write Line but also I guess I just don't see CL being interested in sexual situations that don't involve her. Like "just look, don't touch" isn't Miss CL's STYLE, you know what I mean?

#forgive me op ily #xbox anon #cl smut #2ne1 smut

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beautyinflight · 4 years ago

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This but Alya wears Ladybug ones that make everyone look like Ladybug and she starts going around accusing people and going a bit bonkers.

Alya: Aha! I got you! Ladybug I’ve finally found you.

Nino: Alya hun thats a lamp post. This is the 6th time today. Please take them off.

Alya: NEVER! Oh hey Marinette-

Alya: 🙀 Marinette?

Nino: Oh not again.

Alya: But no really look its her its really her! You’ve got to believe me Nino!

Nino, wrestling her for the glasses: Alya come on now hand them over this is too far. Sorry about this Mari.

Mariette:

Alya, trying to get to Marinette: I JUST NEED TO FIND HER KWAMI THEN YOU’LL BELIEVE ME

Marinette:

Nino, dragging Alya away: Sorry! Sorry again!

Marinette:

Adrien who only just got there: What’s up?

Marinette: wtf.

3D glasses are meant to direct a slightly different image to each eye, therefore a properly equipped TV can use that effect to create the illusion of depth. If you look at Nino through 3D glasses, through one lens you see Nino and the other you see Luka.

Honestly that sounds like it would give you a headache since the superimposed images would probably confuse your brain, but no one said finding the truth was easy.

#miraculous ladybug #ml #nino lahiffe #alya cesaire #forgive me alya #marinette dupain cheng #adrien agreste #miraculous #incorrect quotes #incorrect miraculous quotes #incorrect miraculous ladybug quotes #the original ask is a godsend #OP ily your brain is amazing #some people are born to have ideas

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sadgoldensisiw · 5 years ago

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05-12-20 ; 9:00 pm

it makes me so sad thinking na whenever i feel unwanted i tend to isolate myself from other people expecting that they would notice it and tell me na i am important to them.........BUT THEY WOULDN'T DO THAT so i'm going to end up feeling sad again and again and again.......i always think of what other people think about me, likE do they want me???? am i annoying to them???? smth like that. i don't want these feelings. ITS HORRIBLE istg. anyways, if they don't like me naman, they can tell it straight up to my face—nO HARD FEELINGS BRUH (~￣³￣)~ i've spent my whole life hating myself too bUT OBV I'M TALKING ABT MY CRUSH AND ME AND EVEN IF I WANT HIM TO LIKE ME IF HE DON'T REALLY LIKE ME???? ANUNA GORL. "u can't force things", sabi nga nila. HAY. oh, wow. this is giving me relief. u know, i just notice while writing this piece of shit full of grammatical errors because idk anymore i'm writing this while crying and my brain is not functioning bRo forgive my stupid ass this is the only way i know that i thinkKKKK will lessen the pain that i am feeling and will give my mind some PEACE AND FREEDOM.

ok sTory timE stoRy op mY layp and the clownery itself

these past few days, he is always busy......its like we're chatting just to say hello hi ganon lang and even gabi na busy pa rin siya idk why he's always busy but he's telling me na he is studying sO OKAY I RESPECT DAT I KNOW HE ALSO HAVE HIS PERSONAL LIFE HE CAN DO WHATEVER HE WANT BUT IT FEELS LIKE SOMETHING'S OFF???? SOMETHING'S WRONG??? WITH HIM??? WITH ME???? IDK if i'm just overthinking bUT THAT'S WHAT I FEEL :(( AND IT REALLY MAKES ME SAD to think na may mga secret pa rin talaga siya sakin na di sinasabi but i get it......sabi niya nga we're not close ENOUGH to tell me something abt his life (AND IT HURTS???) he don't trust me ??? i guess,,,,,•́ ‿ ,•̀ haha ok but anyways I KNOW THE WORD PRIVACY,,, ITS JUST THAT......WE'RE LIKE LANDI-ING EACH OTHER AND HE STILL DON'T TRUST ME ?????? haha ;"")) no i'm not crying ??? is HE HIDING SOMETHING FROM ME??? whatchu think whatchu thINK TUMBLR ANSWER ME BCOS IM GOING CRAZY ( ꈨຶ ˙̫̮ ꈨຶ )

i wab him beri much even if things ARE NOT SURE FOR THE BOTH US BUT YE I LIKE HIM ANYWAYS AND I PRAY TO WHOEVER UP THERE NA SANA AKIN NALANG PO SIYA cute naman po ako. lordT angels mama mary bIGYAN NIYO PO AKO NG PEACE OF MIND AND HEART. UNIVERSE!!!!? BIGYAN MO Q SIGN?????? please. ty ily

that's all good bye

these are my tots

these are my stupidiy in life

this is me

this is trash

em sori for all d wrong things that i've done HehE pls forgive mE

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doctorgerth · 6 years ago

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howdy

once again, I am not dead, I swear. yo girl has been working a lot and I have barely been home and I am honestly exhausted and I’m sorry for hardly being active lately. I hope you can forgive me?

about my writing: so, I've been stuck on a particular request and I’m not sure why? in the midst of being so busy I've temporarily lost inspiration to write. I feel as if my work is unoriginal, OOC, terribly-formatted, and just all around not good lol it’s like I have been running out of steam and now it’s becoming visible in my writing. so that explains why I haven’t been putting a whole lot of content out lately. of course, that’s no excuse and I’m terribly sorry. I always want to be honest with you guys so you know what’s going on in my brain/writing process.

anywhoooo

I still have a handful of requests to get through, BUT, once I get back in my groove, I believe I’ll be able to slide through the rest easily. I am off work tomorrow so I hope to get a lot done then!

and somehow among all this craziness I've managed to gather a lil over 200 followers?? that is insane, considering I feel like I have hardly put out anything for you guys to enjoy, so THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart. I have been working on ideas for a 100/200 Follower Special so *yes* that is still a thing that I will post about once I am caught up on requests! thanks for sticking by me if you’re still around and if you’re new, welcome to the shit show!

this is all I have to say for this blog and my writing. I hope to give you more content very soon. thanks, ily, have a wonderful day <3

(( my true bae, Tom Hiddleston ))

- Doc

feel free to stick around if you are caught up in the manga!

OP Manga Discussion (SPOILERS AHEAD):

lemme tell you I am L I V I N G for this Zoro and Sanji reunion! If I remember correctly, they haven’t been in the same panel since Dressrosa?? That was like what 5 YEARS AGO?! Insanity. Them both rushing over to protect O-Toko -- MY HEARTTTT!! The way Zoro is holding her, he is BEST DAD//BIG BRO however you see it, either way I am an absolute sucker for men protecting/loving children <3

What’s been going on there with the SMILE fruits is absolutely fucked I have a feeling I’m gonna get real emotional once this is all in the anime.

Have you heard about the ominous Chapter 944 theories? What do you think is gonna happen? If you have no idea what I’m talking about, you can just google ‘one piece chapter 944′ and a whole bunch of theories will show up! Feel free to message me about what you think is gonna happen! Personally, I think this will finally be the arc where we learn more about Zoro! Maybe he has familial ties to Wano?

Where the FUCK is Kid and his crew? What happened to him/them? Is his crew okay? Is Killer ok/did he betray Kid???? I NEED to know what’s going on! I really shouldn’t be so concerned about that jackass but he is my guilty pleasure tbh lol do you think we’ll get a Luffy+Law+Kid alliance against Kaido?! That’d be super cool

Also, I am readyyy for some wholesome Heart Pirate content! Law is gonna fuck some shit up getting his crew back and I. Am. READY. some people are saying he’s gonna die in this arc...don’t come at me with that, I am not nor will I ever be emotionally prepared for that

If you have any interesting theories/opinions on what’s currently going on you can always message me your thoughts! x

#doctor’s note #i'm not dead lol #been in a funk #sorry #thx for following me #ily guys #op discussion #one piece manga

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d bees n d birds

JILY CHALLENGE | @nottellingu vs @siriuslysnuffles social media au + “lily takes a photo of a pretty boy in lectures and sends it to her friend remus who promptly freaks out bc “omG that’s my roommate?? this is bloody brilliant” marauder meddling ensues”

(a brill prompt w lots of potential that i murdered but yay i finally finished) thanks @jilychallenge

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Remus Lupin to Lily Evans: I can’t come to the health lecture. I'm sick.

Lily Evans: whaaaaaaat?!?!?!

Lily Evans: but remus

Lily Evans: they are going to talk bout d bees n d birds

Lily Evans: the BIRDS and the BEES

Lily Evans: STOP LEAVING ME ON READ REMUS JOHN LUPIN!!!!!

Lily Evans: i hate you

James Potter sent a photo to Sirius Black

James Potter: loml just sat down next to me in health

Sirius Black: is dat evans?

James Potter: u kno dis goddess

Sirius Black: way outta ur league mate

James Potter: rude

Lily Evans sent a photo Remus Lupin

Lily Evans: nvm i forgive you

Lily Evans: mr.tdh sat next to me instead

Remus Lupin: mr.tdh?

Lily Evans: mr. tall dark handsome

Remus Lupin: oh

Sirius Black sent a screenshot to 3 musketeers + pete

Sirius Black: prongsie has a crush on lily evans

Peter Pettigrew: lol

James Potter: does pvt chat mean nothing to u

Sirius Black: #yolo

James Potter: yolo cant b ur response to everything

Sirius Black: #yolo

Sirius Black changed the group name to #yolo

James Potter: blocked

Remus Lupin sent a screenshot to Sirius Black

Remus Lupin: Can you believe it?

Sirius Black: otp

Remus Lupin: I should never have told you about that.

Sirius Black: we have 2 do sthing

Remus Lupin: Sirius no.

Sirius Black: 2 l8

Sirius Black created Operation Lames

Sirius Black added Remus Lupin to Operation Lames

Sirius Black added Peter Pettigrew to Operation Lames

Sirius Black added Marlene McKinnon to Operation Lames

Sirius Black added Dorcas Meadowes to Operation Lames

Sirius Black added Alice Fortescue to Operation Lames

Sirius Black sent a screenshot to Operation Lames

Sirius Black: At 10:23 am James Fleamont Potter sent the above message to a handsome Mr. Sirius Orion Black.

Sirius Black forwarded a screenshot to Operation Lames

Sirius Black: At 10:34 am Lily idk-her-middle-name Evans sent the above message to Remus John Lupin.

Sirius Black: By the power vested in me by Cupid I appoint you all junoir matchmakers.

Sirius Black: With me as senior matchmaker, it is our responsibility to bring these two lost souls together.

Sirius Black: Let's make magic happen, people!

Alice Fortescue: omg this is sooo cute!!!

Peter Pettigrew: grool!

Marlene McKinnon: wat shud we do?

Dorcas Meadowes: lilys mid name is jane.

Remus Lupin: For this you can have perfect grammar?

Sirius Black: fuk u moony its tru luv

Sirius Black (@siriuslyblanc) tweeted: all u losers are invited to a party chez moi. Esp @gunsnlilies and @jpotter_unofficial

Marlene McKinnon to Operation Lames: seriously? that was ur plan?

Sirius Black: I’m always sirius

Dorcas Meadowes removed Sirius Black from Operation Lames

Sirius Black to Peter Pettigrew: pete

Sirius Black: pete

Sirius Black: peter

Sirius Black: PETER

Sirius Black: PETER PETTIGREW!!!!

Peter Pettigrew: WHag?!?!

Sirius Black: add me back to op lames

Peter Pettigrew: u woke me up from my nap for THAt

Sirius Black: pls

Peter Pettigrew added Sirius Black to Operation Lames

Sirius Black: miss me? ;)

Dorcas Meadowes removed Peter Pettigrew from Operation Lames

Dorcas Meadowes removed Sirius Black from Operation Lames

Peter Pettigrew to Sirius Black: i hate u

Sirius Black to Remus Lupin: remus

Remus Lupin: No.

James Potter (@jpotter_unofficial) tweeted: @siriuslyblanc i live with you??? y do i get a special invite???

Sirius Black (@siriuslyblanc) tweeted: because i love u

Lily Evans (@gunsnlilies) tweeted: @siriuslyblanc does that mean you love me too?

Sirius Black (@siriuslyblanc) tweeted: @gunsnlilies nah i think ur a swot so u got a speical invite

James Potter to Sirius Black: did u really invite lily evans?

Sirius Black: yea

James Potter: idk if i shud kiss you or kick you

Sirius Black: save d smooches 4 evans

Lily Evans (@gunsnlilies) tweeted: @siriuslyblanc you spelled ‘special’ wrong

Lily Evans to Sirius Black: who is @jp_unofficial?

Sirius Black: jim iams

Lily Evans: ????

Sirius Black: prongs

Lily Evans: ??????

Sirius Black: james

Lily Evans: ????????

Sirius Black: james potter

Lily Evans: ?????????????

Sirius Black sent a photo to Lily Evans

Lily Evans to Remus Lupin: et tu

Remus Lupin: What did I do?

Lily Evans: idk but

Lily Evans: sirius sent me and james potter a special invite

Lily Evans: who is the same guy i texted you a photo of this morning

Lily Evans: according to insta you are all part of some clique

Lily Evans: you are getting coal for christmas

Remus Lupin: As long as I get chocolate for Easter

Lily Evans: im not that cruel

Lily Evans to Sirius Black: my mum said j cant come

Sirius Black: ask her again

Remus Lupin added Sirius Black to Operation Lames

Sirius Black: hi

Remus Lupin added Peter Pettigrew to Operation Lames

Remus Lupin: Lily’s on to us.

Alice Fortescue: i got this

Sirius Black (@siriuslyblanc) tweeted: @gunsnlilies #yolo

Alice Fortescue to Sugar and Spice: yall going to blacks party?

Marlene McKinnon: yep

Dorcas Meadowes: yes

Alice Fortescue: lils?

Lily Evans: no

Lily Evans: gonna do slughorns paper

Marlene McKinnon: nerd

Alice Fortescue: please lil

Alice Fortescue: frank said hell be there

Lily Evans: marls and dork are going

Alice Fortescue: but theyll be 2 busy kissing

Dorcas Meadowes: tru

Marlene McKinnon: ily

Dorcas Meadowes: ily more

Alice Fortescue: please lils!!!!

Marlene McKinnon to Make Alice Longbottom a reality 2k17 : do it for the longbottoms lil

Dorcas Meadowes to Marlene McKinnon: who needs tindr when they got us

Marlene McKinnon: loooooool

Lily Evans to Sugar and Spice: fine

Alice Fortescue: YAY!!!!!!

Lily Evans to Sirius Black: she said ok

Sirius Black to Operation Lames: nice work alice

Alice Fortescue: B)

Alice Fortescue: girl power

Marlene McKinnon to Sugar and Spice: alice wear ur jeans miniskirt and pink jumper with ur hair down, nude lipstick, blush. fuzzy boots

Alice Fortescue: k

Marlene McKinnon: lily wear ur black jeans, green silky top and black slinky heels. Messy pony, chapstick, eyeliner and mascara

Lily Evans: dont tell me what to do

Marlene McKinnon: too bad

Marlene McKinnon: do it or die

Dorcas Meadowes: whoa there

Lily Evans: im going as alices wingwoman

Lily Evans: got no one to impress

Marlene McKinnon: lily lily lily

Marlene McKinnon: no wonder u r single

Lily Evans: hey!

Dorcas Meadowes: the birds got a point

Lily Evans: what about dorky

Marlene McKinnon: im on my way 2 her flat

Dorcas Meadowes: !!!!!!!!!

Lily Evans: :P

Remus Lupin to Operation Lames: This is Sirius on Moony’s phone

Remus Lupin: CODE RED!!!! CODE RED!!!!

Marlene McKinnon: what

Remus Lupin sent a photo to Operation Lames

Remus Lupin: LAMES SNOGGING IN THE KITCHEN

Remus Lupin: Also Moony’s phone has proper autocorrect that corrects spelling and adds punctuation and shit.

Remus Lupin: Remus John Lupin is a phony.

Dorcas Meadowes: scandalous

Peter Pettigrew: is that

Peter Pettigrew: tongue

Marlene McKinnon: its called french kissing

Marlene McKinnon: making out

Marlene McKinnon: lip lacrosse

Marlene McKinnon: tonsil tennis

Peter Pettigrew: i get it

Alice Longbottom: mission accomplished

Sirius Black: dammit

Sirius Black: i wanted to say that

#jilychallenge #siriuslysnuffles #jily fanfic #jily fanfiction #social media au #omg how'd i do #james x lily #nottellingu writes #and participated in the jilychallenge #whoopee

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