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i don't know who needs to hear this, but you have to allow yourself to start somewhere.
you will not understand that thing you are trying to learn or unlearn overnight, and that is to be expected.
you will keep working on it, and likely, it will take years at least, alright?
but you have to allow yourself to start, even if you slip up and forget and fall back on your old habits. even if it keeps happening - today, tomorrow, next week, next month, next year.
that isn't a sign that it isn't working and that it isn't worth it. the brain can be a stubborn stickler for the ideas it's been brought up with, but it learned those old habits somehow too. that began somewhere.
you will get through this. you will see the old habits everywhere around you everyday, but you will get better at noticing them, and understanding why they exist or existed. you will get better at not relying on them, and looking for options that do help you get to where you want to be.
it will be tough, but you will get through this.
you always have.
#for whatever this may apply to#people learn to change differently so this is for those out there who need a little reminding that change isn't immediate#and to not be discouraged by that fact#snail rambles#notes to self
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I don't know who needs to hear this, but as a creator -
I am fine with "the audience" -
downloading my fics
printing my fics
copy/pasting or screenshotting my fics
sharing your saved copy of my fics with anyone else who might want them in the unlikely but never impossible case that my fics are no longer available on ao3
making a book of my fic(s) and running your fingers across the pages while lovingly whispering my precioussss
doing these things with anything I create for fandom, such as meta, headcanons, au nonsense like 'texts from the brodinsons,' etc
I am not fine with "the audience"
doing any of the above with the purpose/intent of plagiarizing my work or passing it off as their own in any capacity
feeding my work into ai for any reason whatsoever
Save the fandom things. Preserve the fandom things. Respect the fandom things.
Enjoy the fandom things.
#fanfic#ao3#archive of our own#fandom things#tumblr things#i may have said this at some point#i'm sure i have#but whatever - just in case#i don't say this with the presumption that i'm so amazing and people are clamoring to save my fics#but just if anyone is so inclined that's all#ftr i don't intend on ever removing my fics from ao3 or deleting fandom things from this blog#i've always shared my fandom things with the intent of keeping them shared bc that's the whole point of posting#but the fandom atmosphere and ao3 constantly being under attack who knows what can happen#not that this applies to anyone but should all else fail you can also reach out to me and i will personally give you a copy#at least of fics bc i save everything#not so much the tumblr things but this is a good reminder to myself that i should do that for the things i care about#that i've made or done and only posted here#anyway sorry i have now used up my quota of the putting words into sentences doing for today#i have plans to stare into the void now
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more cisgender women should be looking at cisgender boys' puberty as a menopause preview, honestly. i find that cis men treat menopause with more pause, ironically, because they recognise the emotional/physical rollercoaster - gee, your body is suddenly sweating absolute buckets and smelling way outside of your control? you feel gross, you keep growing patchy hairs in new itchy places, and summers have suddenly become unbearable? woof, been there done that, let's get you an ice pack and some gatorade buddy, i mean mom
until menopause hits them, cis women (among others) can sometimes treat male puberty as a gross horror that they are forced to mitigate the consequences of - ugh, men with their hair and their smelliness that they can't keep sanitised, it's a concession to live with them, it's a chore to share space with them. you know it's not just a Boy Hormone, right? this exact same testosterone will jump you in a dark alley 30 years from now, you can accept it before then or keep treating it like an enemy latched onto those around you
#i'm not menopause or puberty age so as a twenty-something i realised i can pick and choose what to equate my transition to#and it makes me wonder why they dont get equated more often in a more genuine empathetic fashion#lgbt#gender#i wish there was a way to tag for bigotry against men that didnt fall into a tag that someone out there would call misogynist lol#bigotry against male bodies. whatever. bigotry against male gonad hormone effects on a body whatever gender it may be#transandrophobia#i guess since im a trans man and i feel uniquely crammed into these expectations and this distaste for what im choosing to do#also this applies to more people than just cis women but they often dont think about maleness as something AT ALL relevant to them#other people may have to work through distaste for hair/maleness alongside their gender exploration for similar self-love reasons
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Was playing da2 act 1 recently and there's ambient dialogue from a mage in the gallows along the lines of "you're from Ferelden. Do you know anything about the circle there? I've heard it's much better than here." And having heard some of the stuff from Anders, like the year in solitary, and having played awakening and seen the way the templates acted toward him, and having played the mage origin...... Imagine calling that better. Imagine that being better and more relaxed than what the mages in the gallows deal with. And this is act 1! Meredith isn't even off her shit on red lyrium yet! And it's still that fucking bad in the gallows
#dragon age#da2#dao#And that's not even touching the thing with Karl - making a harrowed mage and senior enchanter tranquil out of spite? As punishment?#It's a massive threat to every mage in the gallows - you will never be out of danger. The rules don't apply to the Templars#They may do whatever they want to you and we will not stop them. There are rules against it? Well there are rules against making harrowed#Mages tranquil and we didn't give a shit about them. We will not help you. There is no recourse for you. Not now not ever#And if you make too much of a fuss then we'll make you tranquil too. And you know what happens to them#And this is all before the red lyrium idol
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Michael and Leaf Pokemon but they've suddenly been isekai'd to Sylvarant oops
The template @frayed-symphony, @ciryze and I collectively put together.
...also uh 👉👈
there's this
#the stats aren't super specific tbh#i just kinda based them off of Genis and Colette from my various saves at that point and just tweaking where i felt like it#and i know this template was more or less made for ToS OCs but since i don't have any...#...and uh.. may as well admit that this specific scenario is something i've thought about for well over a decade by this point...#uuagh just allow me to indulge in my bullshit for a moment#this applies to myself too btw#like it's perfectly ok to do stuff like this right#so why does *this* feel scarier than me posting any other kind of art?#whatever don't think about it#it's there now and it was fun to make and it took far too long to not dump it /somewhere/ for the public to gawk at#still too nervous to put this on my twitter right now though god fuck#maybe after a sleep i'm exhausted#ok proper tags time#trainer michael#trainer leaf#pokemon xd#pokemon frlg#tales of symphonia#ravinoforre
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Omg I just realised--
1) Kim has a French accent, but as he's said, he doesn't speak even a lick of the Seolite language. He's just your average Revachol guy.
2) Multiple of Harry's colleagues at 41 also have a French accent. We can safely assume they're also from Revachol or surrounding areas, else they would probably work in other places.
-> this suggests the French accent is a common thing in the Revachol area and might even simply be the main local accent.
3) Harry intrinsically knows quite a bit of French.
4) Even with his scattered memory he claims he's probably not living far away.
5) We never hear Harry talk.
Result: what if Harry ALSO has a French accent???
#disco elysium#harry dubois#kim kitsuragi#i don't know if this has any real baseline but this thought just came to me and is consuming me#we're still in day 1 i'm working with scraps here#but omg#just imagine#harry having a french accent too and kim being vaguely confused that harry doesn't seem to realise it#replace the 'french' with whatever region name actually applies in universe of course#which may be Revachol or maybe not but i'm rolling with this for the moment--
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"their relationship is romantic" "their relationship is familial" "their relationship is platonic" you're thinking too narrow. their relationship goes beyond labels. the family is inherently queer. their platonic love is romantic. the erotic is familial. each one is the other and the other is them
#.txt#i've gotten to the point of relationship anarchy where i no longer understand the obsession with labeling relationships#there's a post floating around like 'it doesn't matter if you view them as romantic or platonic the point is that they love each other'#and i get the message. however may i propose that distinctions such as that don't even have to matter. consider#bold claim probably. but whatever i didn't have the choice to think about love in a normative way and as a consequence i have thoughts#of course i am thinking about wincest but it applies everywhere. jopzier even#jopson views crozier as a surrogate parent but in an inherently queer way. does that mean he want to fuck his mom? probably not#but the fixation and need for redemption turns the traditionally familial relationship into something far more#do you understand#once you leave the normative behind labels become useless#do sam and dean love each other romantically or platonically or familially? consider: it doesn't matter. there are no words to describe it#their love is queer in the sense that it extends beyond normativity. society holds no sway over them. they are ungovernable#i find it ultimately unhelpful to discuss fiction in normative terms when the characters themselves exist outside of normative society#shows like supernatural and the terror are perfect examples. sam and dean were never normal and franklin crew left normal behind#the arctic doesn't care if you fuck your mom. the impala doesn't care if you kiss your brother#this isn't really about anything i just saw that post the other day and i was like. why doesn't this Hit for me. well this is why#however it IS helpful to discuss fiction set within normative society in relation to normativity. it's relevant!#most stories are not however set within the bounds of normativity. that's kinda the whole point of a lot of fiction#baby i explore relationship anarchy in ways that you couldn't even imagine#<-tldr#i have a tendency to write essays in the notes every time i post something. sorry about that. it feels safer here and i am skittish
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Genuinely really loving the tendency of official Doctor Who stuff to now refer to the Doctor in general with they/them pronouns
#Doctor Who#New Who#The Doctor#I am talking#I feel like the Doctor in the show just lets people assume whatever pronouns and gender#because people are going to make assumptions and whatever anyways#and going along with people's weird assumptions until there's a reason not to is generally the Doctor's MO#see: anytime someone is like 'are you here for XYZ reason?' and the Doctor's just like 'yes absolutely'#but I feel like if the Doctor had a reason to care about the nuances of human gender conventions in the 21st century#they would like they/them pronouns#also I think it's neat that Time Lords who do have an actual experience of gender#like the master#seem to use whatever pronoun applied at the time in question when speaking in past tense in English#rather than the human convention of using the current pronoun even when speaking retroactively#it's just an interesting distinction#and then that makes me think about translation stuff and how concepts about gender may not even apply in Gallifreyan#but this is getting too long for me just rambling in the tags
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Trick or Treat!!!👻💀🎃
Send me an ask with the name of a character and “trick or treat” and I will either respond with a snippet of them from a WIP OR an associated headcanon from a fic I’m working on.
#mostly applies to the lady terror saga but I will happily take stuff for joker as well bc I’ve been working on that as well#think of it as teasers for things to come that may also help motivate me#because I have had at least ideas for what just about everybody thinks about lady terror if nothing else lmao 😂#also for joker stuff I have thought a lot since the sequel dropped about how harvey dent fits into the story I’ve been coming up with so… y#or y’all can just ask me whatever ig idk I’m makin it all up lmao but I think we all need to have some fun today#ask games#trick or treat
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all gmmtv shows are actually set in a subtle alternate universe where everyone is continuously fascinated & delighted by their printers
#drinks deodorant inhalers cars. sure whatever#but those hamfisted canon ads (the printer company not the fandom word) always get to me the most#let's stop everything for thirty seconds to adoringly stare at our printer together! 🤩 look! 😮 it's so easy to refill!!! 🥰#< this is just fjkdfd. such a normal human way to behave. not weird at alllll. this is part of my daily bedtime routine actually#and then there's the sort of closeup usually reserved for big emotional moments but. sorry if this sounds harsh. that printer can't act#VERY flat performance. colorful as it may be it's paper thin#*#mama gogo#is the show that made me write this. but it also applies on some level to at least#3 will be free#bad buddy
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i sometimes wonder if the people who put sad face emojis on show groomed dogs are also critical of compulsion in hobbyist dog training or reliance on stress in sports
#something in every avenue etc etc and some dogs will be in places doing things they shouldnt be#you could turn this around also obviously#but theres a lot of 'let these dogs be dogs!!' and i think that applies. or should apply. to a lot of other avenues as well#theres. to me. a lot riding on 'how much does it take to make dog do thing'#very how much does it cost the dog to thing vs how much do owner gain from dog doing thing#not financially. but for... whatever it is we gain from competing with our dogs#ideally it should cost the dog next to nothing. and it often does! most showdogs i see are having an outing w their owner. ag dogs loving ag#all of those things#but sometimes (more than we like i think) either the action or the process of getting there is asking more of the dog than what may be fair#some show dogs hate the ring. this is true#but theres also reasons why handlers can be dismissed from agility comps for off-track behaviour now
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One of my favorite hobbies to engage in is ignoring the canon course of video game romances
#yes my warden in an open relationship will have a foursome at the pearl#and yes I will continue to have Morrigan sleep with Orest after the “I love you and I hate it” conversation#I am digging into her brain so deep rn#morri seeing sex as the main manipulation tool she has and being so scared to have orest be just In Love With Her#she says no to his invitation of sex once and he just goes oh okay I'm sorry#I still love you that's okay#and it scares the bejesus out of her#time to keep fucking him so I can pretend that he just wants me for my body#time to let him fuck other people so it'll be easier for him to leave me in the end#I can't have him so dependent on me for his happiness or else it will destroy him (the man I love) in the end#I have to let him leave my side slowly or else he'll die if I separate myself from him I saw what happened with his ex-lover (tamlen)#let him be happy with zevran or leliana or anyone#fool woman he will never let you leave and never stop loving you#I love morrigan and her fucked up relationship with intimacy so much#orest is also especially easy to think you're manipulating because he acts so stupid (and it's only partially an act)#he loves so openly and so intensely and yet he's also clearly very easily drawn in with the appeal of a Nice Ass#I could talk about them forever#I'm editing an old fic to better fit with their dynamic and the canon of the romance#and the orest x morri content I've written since I first wrote this fic#and this doesn't just apply to orest and morrigan#I ignore that tamlen and gorim are female warden LIs only#I ignore that Blackwall is “straight” (blackwall may be but thom isn't that's for sure)#I do whatever the fuck I want with da2#anyway time to stop rambling in the tags and actually get back to writing#dragon age#dragon age origins#dragon age ii#dragon age inquisition#original content#and mainly
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"As regards women whose monuments depict a livery collar, the traditional supposition which saw ladies as appendages of their husbands should be revised. It may be true that some women did have livery collars depicted on their memorials in right of their husbands, but there are examples of those who were probably awarded a collar for their own royal service [...] Elizabeth Donne, wife of Sir John Donne, is depicted along with her husband wearing a collar of suns and roses with a white lion pendant in Hans Memling’s Donne Triptych. As she was one of Queen Elizabeth Woodville’s gentlewomen, receiving a £10 annuity, it is likely that she received a collar in this capacity. The same can be said of Margaret, wife of Nicholas Gaynesford (d. 1498), whose brass at All Saints’, Carshalton (Surrey), survives. Although her husband has no collar, Margaret is depicted in a ‘choker’ collar of suns and roses. According to the tomb inscription, she served in the households of both Elizabeth Woodville and her daughter Elizabeth of York."
-Matthew Ward, "The Livery Collar in Late Medieval England and Wales: Politics, Identity and Affinity"
#medieval#gender tag#english history#my post#elizabeth donne#margaret Gaynesford#elizabeth woodville#elizabeth of york#Ward also includes Margaret Holland Duchess of Clarence in this as her tomb effigy in Canterbury Cathedral once had a metal livery collar#but tbh I don't understand how that applies the same way#Margaret was literally queen-in-waiting up till 1421 as the wife of Thomas of Clarence (heir to the throne until his death)#Her importance at court was not because of her royal service as much as her very prominent status and connection to royalty#- which was derived or at least massively strengthened by her second husband#(ie: she would have been entitled to a livery collar regardless of whatever activities/service she may or may not have done)#it's very different from the individual royal service of the other two and so I don't think it makes sense to group her with them#but I figured I should mention it in the tags#queue
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#applying to jobs that are way out of my league/paygrade/level but idgaf i need MONEY i wanna attain it#hopefully i can start doing that next week/mid next week#need to update my resume & apply 😭#i’m also genuinely. so drained from these past few weeks i don’t even have the energy to write posts/read simple stories or read fics 😪#hopefully EVENTUALLY i can do that#i don’t like being in this Slump it makes me MAD#grrrrrrr snarl hiss bark#so i fear i may not be on here as much until the Drainingness goes away </3#BUT ALSO#tbh. may have to sign back into my armytwt acct again i haven’t been on since summer of 23#but jin is coming back soon so :3#AHHHHHHHH i hope things look up! i hope i get whatever i apply for and be blessed w lots of money & opportunities#we shall seeeeeeeee :3 hope everything is going amazingly for everyone! i hope everything works out in your favor @ anyone who sees this!#MWAH! :D#another also. enjoy the taechwita gif it’s one of my FAVS.#personal
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As a lover of ambiguous relationships in media, Carmen Sandiego is literally my bread and butter. The creator basically went on record saying if you want to see [a certain dynamic] it’s there, and I love that so so much. So much room for (a)romantic interpretation of relationships, and idk. They’re just all written so well.
#when Sen is not quiet#Carmen Sandiego 2019#just gonna tag my favorite implied ships#redcrackle#carmivy#not a fan of carulia but this post definitely also applies to it#oh and#jeantonio#its practically canon but it’s NOT#and that makes me go sfvkfcbtsfvhsgj /pos#Because whatever labels may or may not exist they clearly care for each other#that kind of affection and unspoken bond is so special to me and so underrepresented#if I ever write a story that’s probably what I’m gonna do with my characters#Leave it up to implication#aromantic headcanons#kinda
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hey what if Max has to have her head shaved for brain surgery or something and El buzzes her own head again in solidarity after her hair has yet again finally grown back to something she likes? what if El doesn't even announce she's gonna do it, Max just hears bzzz right after they've had a conversation about her hair, and puts 2 and 2 together?
"Don't. El? El. Don't you dare. I can't even see you, this doesn't help me. Seriously - it'll grow back -"
"So will mine. We will grow back together."
bzzzzz
"No! El, you don't have to do this!"
"I don't have to. I want to."
#headcanon#elmax#mine#in the hundreds of times she'd had her hair buzzed she's never actually seen it#there was no sitting in a hairdressers chair with a mirror in the lab. they probably just lined them up and did it every few weeks#and there's something cathartic about watching herself do it and for a reason she wants to#this tricks Max into being less self conscious about it#because normally she would be relentlessly self deprecating about how bad she must look#but now whatever she says kinda applies to El too so that slows her way down because she wouldn't be as mean to El as she is to herself#besides she's seen El buzzed and she looked badass. and El says she looks badass now and she has no choice but to trust her#El leaning her head against Max's and them feeling each others' prickly heads. Max cries. that's all. now you may go about your day
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