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So since youâve been getting into Sonic lately, thereâs something cool that Iâve been meaning to bring up. I donât know if youâre familiar with her, but I canât help but think of Blaze the Cat whenever I think about your portrayal of Newtwo:
- Both have incredible power and super speed
- They use said powers to protect their friends/home/family
- Theyâre both felines
- They originally were loners before meeting someone that caused them to open up/change their ways around viewing people.
Some of these points might be a bit of a stretch, but I canât help but feel thatâs why I love Newt as a character. Wonder if the two of them would get along?
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and both are voiced by the same person in comic dubs, I once drew a sticker design for Newt years back for OVAS lol
what are the odds lol
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TASTE.
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FINAL CHAPTER: TASTE.
Lee Know x reader. (s,a)
TASTE MASTERLIST
Synopsis: When Minho is hired as the head chef of Farfalle, a prestigious Italian restaurant, expectations are high for him to elevate its reputation and bring it to new heights. However, no one anticipates the drastic changes he implements in the kitchenâincluding his strict rule that that there'll be no women and no romance in his kitchen. (10,2k words)
Author's note: Can't believe it's the end already. Thank you so much to each and everyone of you for following Taste series âĄ
Taste. /teɪst/ (n) 1. the sensation of flavor perceived in the mouth 2. a brief experience of something, conveying its basic character.
The first thing Minho ever learns about taste is balance.
A dish can be technically perfectâeach ingredient measured with precision, each technique executed flawlesslyâbut if it lacks harmony, it falls apart. Too much sweetness, and it becomes cloying. Too much salt, and it overwhelms. Too much bitterness, and it alienates the palate.
The key, Chef once told him, is knowing when to lean into one over the other. To understand how the sour sharpens, how the sweet soothes, how the bitter lingers, grounding everything in something real.
Minho spends years mastering that balance in food. He doesnât realize, until now, that he has never quite mastered it in himself.
The sharpness of ambition pushes him forward, the bitterness of disappointment keeps him guarded, the salt of hard work keeps him steadyâbut he has never truly let himself indulge in sweetness. Not until you.
And now, as he watches everyone in the kitchen, his chest feels both light and anchored.
For the first time, he isnât just chasing balance. Minho has found it.
He moves through the kitchen with sharp eyes and precise steps, watching every station like a hawk. The air is thick with heat, the clang of pans and the rhythmic chopping of knives forming a symphony of controlled chaos.
A new order spits out from the machine, and Minho grabs the slip without missing a beat. He barely glances at it before his voice cuts through the noise.
"Two risottos, one sea bass, one osso bucoâfire it now!"
A chorus of Yes, Chef! echoes back as he moves.
"Hyunwoo, take the risottos. Seungwan, the sea bass is yours. Seojun, on the osso buco. Felix, whereâs my agnolotti?"
"Coming up now, Chef!"
Minho barely nods before his gaze lands on you. "Hurry up with that basil pesto."
"Yes, Chef!"
The kitchen hums, bodies moving in perfect rhythm, but Minho doesnât let up. He paces through the space, watching every detail, catching the smallest missteps before they happen.
âAre you all tired yet?â he asks, voice loud enough to cut through the frenzy.
No one answers. They know better. A slow smirk tugs at Minhoâs lips. He stops between Hyunwoo and Felix, arms crossed. âThis is all your fault.â
Hyunwoo glances at him, amused. âYes, Chef?â
Minho nods toward the packed dining area beyond the kitchen doors. âAll of you. Itâs your fault the restaurant is bursting with customers.â He shifts his weight. âItâs your fault that expectations are through the roof.â
Hyunwoo grins. âYes, Chef.â
Minho continues his path to the entrĂŠe line, sharp gaze flickering over the plates in progress. âIf anyone screws up, you're all dead.â
Instead of intimidation, the response is instant, almost teasing. "Yes, Chef!"
Minho strides back to his table just as Seojun, Seungwan, and Hyunwoo present their dishes for final inspection. He leans in, taking in the plates, the precise plating, the balance of color and texture. He picks up a fork, slicing into the tender osso buco before taking a bite. A smirk tugs at his lips.
âFirst-place winners, indeed,â he mutters. Then, louderâ âPass!â
The three of them beam before rushing back to their stations, pride radiating off them.
Minho exhales, just slightly. The chaos, the heat, the relentless push for perfectionâthis is what a kitchen is supposed to feel like.
Itâs exhilarating. Exhausting. Satisfying.
Because this kitchen? Itâs his now.
-
Minho steps out of the restaurant, inhaling the crisp night air. The warmth of the kitchen still clings to his skin, the adrenaline from dinner service not yet fully faded.
He glances up at the restaurantâs facade, eyes landing on the banner draped proudly across the entranceâCongratulations to Farfalleâs Seojun, Park Hyunwoo and Choi Seungwan. Winners of the New Chef Culinary Challenge!
A quiet chuckle escapes him. It's ridiculous, really, but he can't deny the swell of pride in his chest. They earned it.
Shaking his head, Minho turns toward the parking lot, his pace unhurried. He doesn't expect to see anyone waiting, but the moment his eyes land on you, leaning against his car with that familiar, knowing smile, he feels his pulse stutter for a fraction of a second.
You were waiting for him. Your lips curve just a little more as he approaches, the kind of smile that tells him youâve already decided how this night is going to go. Minho stops right in front of you, gaze flicking down as you reach for the front of his jacket. Your fingers curl into the fabric, tugging him closerâclose enough that he can feel the warmth of your breath when you finally speak.
"The contest is over," you murmur, voice low, teasing. "You're done helping the team."
Minho tilts his head slightly, watching you, feeling the heat of anticipation coil low in his stomach.
"Which meansâŚ" Your fingers tighten ever so slightly against his jacket. "Tonight, I'm taking back what's mine."
A smirk ghosts over his lips. The thrill of competition, the rush of victoryânone of it compares to the way you look at him now.
Minho isnât sure whatâs going to happen next. But he canât wait to find out.
-
The second the door clicks shut behind you, Minho barely has time to react before you shove him backward. His back hits the sofa, a low chuckle escaping his lips as he watches you climb onto his lap, your eyes dark with intent.
You waste no time, crashing your lips against his, the kiss hungry, urgent. Your hands are already working open the buttons of his shirt, fingers quick, almost impatient, as if you've waited too long for this moment. Minho lets you take control, but his own hands aren't idleâthey move instinctively, sliding over your waist, your back, gripping and tracing every inch of you he can reach.
Itâs been weeks. Weeks of late nights at the restaurant, weeks of stolen glances, of tension thick enough to cut with a knife. And now, finally, there's no more waiting.
Minho exhales sharply against your lips, tilting his head to deepen the kiss as his fingers tighten on your hips. He can feel the heat radiating off you, the way your body presses so perfectly against his.
God, he missed this. Missed you. And now, heâs not holding back.
Minho groans into the kiss as your fingers finally push his shirt open, sliding over the exposed skin of his chest. His hands tighten on your waist before gliding up your back, pulling you even closer until thereâs no space left between you.
Your lips move hungrily against his, tongues tangling, breaths mingling. He tilts his head, deepening the kiss, his fingers trailing down your spine, reveling in the way you shiver under his touch. His grip grows firmer as he shifts beneath you, the heat between you both rising with every second.
You break away just enough to catch your breath, your forehead resting against his as your fingers lazily trace patterns on his chest. Minho smirks, his hands slipping under your shirt, fingertips teasing over your skin.
âYouâve been waiting for this, huh?â he murmurs, voice husky, his breath warm against your lips.
âTell that to yourself,â You teasingly respond before pressing another kiss, slower this time, but just as intense. Minho groans softly, his hands exploring, savoring the feeling of you, the way you melt into him so effortlessly.
The night is just beginning but Minhoâs hands are impatient now, his fingers slipping beneath your clothes, rough and eager. You gasp against his lips as he tugs at your shirt, pulling it up and over your head in one swift motion before tossing it aside. His eyes darken as he takes you in, a smirk curling on his lips.
âGod, you're perfect,â he murmurs, voice thick with want, but you donât give him a chance to say moreâyou crash your lips back onto his as your hips beginning to move, grinding on his growing bulge.
Minho groans as your hands explore his chest, nails scraping lightly over his skin. His own hands travel down your back, gripping you tight as he shifts beneath you, his body pressing insistently against yours.
You grip his shoulder as you grin harder, your heating core making friction with his crotch. The heat between you is undeniable, every touch electric, every kiss more desperate than the last.
You slow down as you drag your lips down his neck and before he knows it, you get up from his lap. You stand in between his spreading legs, your eyes locked in a steady gaze as you unzip the zipper of your skirt and then letting it drops, pooling around your ankle before you kick it aside.
You bend down and put your hands on each of his knees, leaning in until your lips meet his in a rapturous open kiss. You let go of his lips only to continue making a trail of hot kisses down his body and then, before he knows it, you drop to your knees.
You look through your lashes as your fingers move to his belt, tugging it free with a satisfying snap. Minho flashes you a sly smirk as you slowly pull the zipper down and then roughly pulls the front of his jeans.
âImpatient, are we?â he teases, though his own hand is just as eager as he grabs you by the neck.
You pull his cock out of its confine, you gasp at how hot, how stiff he is in your hand. You slowly stroking it, once in a while, your gently rub the head with your thumb before giving it the gentlest of kitten lick but it's enough to make Minho gets hot all over. His ear, his chest, parts of his body reddening as desire makes his skin flushed.
His other hand reaches for your jaw, he tilts your head toward him and then shoves his thumb into your mouth. Your lips automatically wrapped around it, sucking and twirling your tongue around it. It gives him an idea what your mouth feels like and it gets him impatient.
Minho roughly pulls his thumb out of your mouth, sending a string of saliva dripping down your chin but instead of wiping it off, you grin at him and open your mouth wider. Then slowly, you bring your head lower as you aim his cock into your mouth.
âThink you can take it, mmh?â his voice is dripping with condescension.
You take him little by little. You take a second to adjust yourself before taking more of him. You pull away when it gets too much and doing it all over again.
Minho canât decide which one is hotter: Watching you pleasing him with your mouth or how eager you are to please him.
He grabs the stray hairs covering your face and gathering it at the back of your head, one hand holds firmly holds it, forming a makeshift ponytail. That way, he can watches your lips wrapped so beautifully around his cock.
âCome on, you can take a little more,â his voice is low, husky and assertive.
You tilt your head a little to the side and take him up on his challenge, taking more of him until Minho feels nothing but the back of your throat. Your hand compensate the rest you can't take.
âNow, let's see what that pretty mouth can do,â he sighs, tugging at your hair a little harder.
You sync your mouth and hand movements and eventually finds the rhythm that makes Minhoâs eyea fluttering shut, intoxicated by the way your mouth feels around him. Low grunts spilling out of his slightly parted open mouth. He must admits that you're too good at it.
You stop when he's close enough to the edge and gasp for air, you don't bother with the saliva dribble down your chin so Minho wipes it for you. Then without hesitation, he plants a kiss on your open mouth.
He pulls away but he keeps cradling your head in both hands and mutters, âYou look pretty like this.â
He helps you get on your feet and wastes no time tugging his fingers on the elastic band of your underwear. He looks up at you but his hands are pulling your underwear down your legs. He then lifts your leg, resting the sole of your feet next to his thigh.
He begins by placing fluttering kisses on your inner thighs and not stopping until his mouth meets the source of heat. Gosh, you taste so sweet, so intoxicating that Minho buries his mouth deeper in your wetness.
You moan with your head lolling to the side, your hand is tangled in his dark locks while the other is gripping at his shoulder. In no time, Minho succeed on making your legs trembling that you end up on his lap again.
You prop your knees on the sofa, giving you the space to align his cock with your entrance before you slowly lower yourself on him.
âOh...â your moan is low and sultry, it goes on until you take all of him.
Minho plants a haste kiss on your neck and then presses his mouth close to your ear. âYou feel so fucking good,â his voice strained, as if overwhelmed by what he's feeling physically.
He slumps lower on the sofa, allowing you to drop your hands on his knees and plant your feet on the sofa. That way, you're free to move against him, bouncing on his cock and at the same time, giving him the best view of his cock slipping in and out of you.
âKeep going,â he sighs in between his breathless grunts, âYouâre fucking me so good. Don't stop.â
You keep going for a few moments until you tire yourself out and you're settling down onto his back. Minho immediately wrapped his arms around you tightly as he starts bucking his hips down from under you.
The world narrows down to just the two of youâskin against skin, breath mingling in the space between kisses. Minhoâs hands grip your waist, guiding you, his touch firm yet reverent, like heâs memorizing every part of you. The rhythm is unspoken but understood, each movement drawing you closer, deepening the connection between you.
And then, in the midst of it all, something shifts. A sudden rush of emotion wells up in your chest, raw and overwhelming. Your hands find his face, cupping his cheeks as you slow down, locking eyes with him. Minhoâs gaze softens, the heat in them replaced with something deeper, something that steals the breath from your lungs.
"I love you," you whisper, voice barely audible but carrying all the weight of your feelings.
For a moment, Minho stills. His expression changesâsomething flickers behind his eyes, something unguarded, completely open. Then, his lips part, his voice hushed yet firm. "I love you."
His hands tighten on your hips, not possessive, but grounding, as if anchoring himself in this moment. He pulls you down into a kiss thatâs different from the ones beforeânot rushed, not desperate, but filled with something far more intimate.
The movements between you grow softer, slower, every touch lingering, every breath shared. Itâs no longer just about the heat or the needâitâs about this, about the way you fit together, about the way your hearts seem to beat in sync.
And as Minho presses his forehead against yours, whispering your name like a prayer, you knowâthis moment, this feeling, is something neither of you will ever forget.
Thereâs no space between you now, nothing but heat and breathless laughter, the two of you tangled together, lost in the moment as the world outside ceases to exist.
-
The warmth of Minhoâs body lingers against yours as you lie tangled together on the sofa, skin still burning from the passion of moments before. His lips trace lazy, playful kisses along your neck and chest, his soft laughter vibrating against your skin as he intentionally tickles you with them.
You giggle, half-heartedly pushing him away. âMinho, stop,â you murmur, breathless.
He only chuckles before relenting, his eyes gleaming with mischief. You take a moment to simply look at himâhis tousled hair, the sharp yet delicate angles of his face, the way his lips curve into the slightest smirk even when he isnât trying. Every detail of him is unfairly beautiful. Youâve always thought so, but in moments like this, when heâs bare before you, when his body is still marked by the traces of your touch, you canât help but admire him more.
Minho is sculpted like something divine, every line and ridge of muscle seamlessly carved into perfection. The sharp planes of his collarbones, the expanse of his chest, the flex of his abdomen as he shifts beside youâitâs mesmerizing. And his face⌠god, his face. Even when heâs teasing you, even when heâs looking at you like he knows exactly how much power he holds over you, you canât bring yourself to look away.
You reach up, running your fingers along his jaw, and suggest, âWine?â
Minho pecks your lips before pulling away. âIâll get it,â he offers, and without a second thought, he gets up, not bothering to cover himself.
Your gaze follows him, utterly shameless as he walks toward the kitchen. You could watch him for hoursâthe way the light catches his skin, the strong lines of his back, the easy confidence in every step he takes. He is a masterpiece, and you drink him in like heâs the finest piece of art youâve ever seen.
Minho glances back and catches you staring. His lips curl into a knowing smirk. âStop staring, you perv!â
You grin, shaking your head in defiance. âNever.â
He scoffs and turns away, busying himself with picking a bottle of wine from his collection. You sit up, pulling the quilt from the other end of the sofa to wrap around yourself, and in the process, your elbow knocks something off the coffee table. A soft thud follows, and when you glance down, your eyes land on a large brown envelope. Your stomach drops.
Italy. The address on the front is unmistakable.
A sinking feeling settles in your chest as you reach for it, your fingers trembling slightly. You donât need to read much to understand what it is. A contract. Minhoâs name in bold. An offer from Paoloâs, the world renowned Italian restaurant.
Which only means that Minho is leaving.
Your heart clenches painfully, but you quickly put the papers back into the envelope just as Minho returns, a bottle of wine in one hand, two glasses in the other. His eyes flicker to you immediately, and for a second, the room feels heavier. He sees you putting the envelope back, and you know that he knows.
Forcing a smile, you reach to take the glasses from him. He says nothing, just watches you as he removes the cork, the rich scent of wine filling the air. But itâs not enough to distract you.
As he pours the deep red liquid into your glass, you keep your voice light, casual. âPaolo scouted you, huh?â
Minho doesnât hesitate. âYeah, he wants me in his kitchen.â
You take a sip before asking, âDoes that mean youâre going to Italy?â
Minho brings his own glass to his lips, pausing before replying. âDo you want me to go?â
The weight pressing against your chest is suffocating. You inhale slowly, steadying yourself. âAs your girlfriend, I wish you wouldnât,â you admit softly, keeping your grip on the glass firm. âBut as a chef��� you should go.â
Minho smirks, lips curving just enough to taunt. âAh... You want it both ways.â
A breathy, shaky chuckle escapes you. âI guess I do.â Then, barely above a whisper, you ask, âSo⌠that means youâre going?â
Minho takes another slow sip before nodding.
You knew this was coming. You expected this. But still, the confirmation stings like an open wound. You force a smile, hoping it hides the ache beneath. âIf I were you, Iâd go too.â
He watches you carefully, his gaze unreadable.
You swallow hard and meet his eyes. âYou have to be good to me until then.â
His smirk returns, but thereâs something softer in his expression. You add quickly, âAnd Iâll be good to you too.â
He nods, but as you look at him, the weight of it allâthe inevitable goodbye, the time slipping awayâbecomes too much. Your eyes sting before you can stop them, and the first tear escapes, sliding down your cheek. You quickly brush it away, rough and careless, but more follow.
Minho moves closer, his hands reaching for you with the gentleness that always undoes you. He tilts your face up, his thumbs sweeping away the tears with careful strokes. His voice is quiet when he says, âDonât cry.â
You nod quickly, even as more tears slip free. You offer a small, trembling smile. âIâm just happy for you.â
And you are.
But your heart⌠your heart is breaking.
-
Minho sets the last plate down on the dining table, the smell of freshly cooked breakfast filling the kitchen. Everything is readyâthe only thing left to do is wake you up.
He walks toward the bedroom, but as he reaches the doorway, he stops. Youâre still curled up on the bed, bundled in the duvet, your breathing soft and steady in sleep.
Last nightâs conversation replays in his mind, the weight of it settling heavy in his chest. The next second, his jaw tightens when he remembered the one thing that nags at him.
âShe didnât even try to stop me from going,â he mutters under his breath, voice low and bitter.
A scoff leaves his lips before he strides toward the bed. He grabs your foot, giving it a firm tug, just enough to jolt you from your sleep. Your head slumps down against the pillow, and a sleepy murmur escapes you as you stir. Slowly, you blink your eyes open, meeting his gaze.
Minhoâs voice is cold. âWake up. Breakfast is ready.â
Without another word, he turns on his heel and leaves the bedroom, heading back to the kitchen. The moment he steps away from you, he exhales sharply, as if the air in that room had been suffocating him. He pours two mugs of coffee, the steam curling up in delicate wisps, but his expression remains tense.
Itâs only after a short moment that he hears your footsteps. You emerge from the room, wearing his shirt, the fabric hanging loosely around you. Minho doesnât react, even as you step close and press a quick kiss to his cheek before murmuring a soft, âGood morning.â
You take a seat at the dining table, and the sight of the breakfast spread makes you gasp. âWow,â you say teasingly, picking up your coffee. âWhatâs the occasion?â
Minho settles into the chair across from you, leaning back slightly. His tone is casual, but thereâs an edge of something unreadable in his eyes. âYou asked me to be good to you,â he says simply.
You chuckle at that, taking a careful sip of your coffee before setting the mug down. As you pick up your fork, you glance at him and say, âI just remembered that I have to go somewhere today.â
Minho lifts an eyebrow but doesnât let his curiosity show. Instead, he keeps his tone indifferent. âEat your breakfast before you go.â
You take a moment to chew, then look at him again. âWhy donât you come with me?â
Minho tilts his head slightly, pretending to be disinterested. âWhere?â
âIâm looking for apartments.â
His fingers tighten around the handle of his coffee mug. He still doesnât look at you. âWhy?â
âChef Sara is moving out soon,â you explain, setting your fork down. âAnd I canât afford the rent by myself.â
Minhoâs next words come out without much thought, his voice calm, almost nonchalant. âYou donât have to worry about the rent if you come with me to Italy.â
Silence lingers between you. Then, you smileâsmall, knowing, a little sly. âCome on. Just come with me,â you say softly.
Minho exhales through his nose, eyes flicking up to meet yours. He doesnât have anything better to do today anyway. âFine.â
Minho lets himself be dragged through yet another apartment viewing, barely paying attention as the property agent talks through the details. He already knows youâre not going to take itâyour face gives everything away. The moment you saw the kitchen, your enthusiasm faded, your disappointment barely masked by the polite nods you kept giving.
Then, the property agent, oblivious to the way Minho is barely tolerating this whole ordeal, suddenly comments, âItâs a little small for two people.â
Minho barely has time to react before you loop your arm around his, leaning into him with a sweet, practiced smile. âItâs fine,â you say smoothly. âWeâre in love, so the small space doesnât matter.â
Minho stiffens slightly, caught off guard by the sudden declaration, but the property agent only smiles bashfully, nodding in agreement. âAh, of course. Love makes everything easier.â
Minho resists the urge to roll his eyes.
When the agent asks if youâre interested in any of the places he showed you, you respond with yet another polite smile. âWeâll take our time considering it.â
Minho bites back a sigh of relief when you finally part ways with the property agent, the two of you walking back toward where his car is parked. As you keep your arm linked with his, Minho glances at you, narrowing his eyes in suspicion. âYouâre dragging me around so Iâll lend you money, arenât you?â
Your eyes widen in exaggerated surprise. âHow did you know?â
Minho scoffs, shaking his head. âUnbelievable.â
You hum, as if youâre genuinely considering it. âShould I look around Taesooâs neighborhood instead?â
âItâs all the same,â Minho mutters.
You suddenly stop walking and let out a dramatic pout. âThen I donât think I can afford anywhere else.â
Then, just as Minho is about to remind you again that you donât have to, you turn to him, your voice casualâtoo casual.
âI think Iâll go to Italy with you.â
Minho freezes. His breath catches slightly, but his expression remains neutral. He blinks at you, processing what you just said before responding. âWhat?â
You give him a small, knowing smile. âAt least in Italy, I can stay with you. Right, Chef?â
Minhoâs heart stutters in his chest. He doesnât want to react too quickly, doesnât want to get ahead of himselfâso he asks, voice steady but probing, âDo you really mean that?â
You hold his gaze for a second, then, without a word, you slowly let go of his arm. Then you shrug, nonchalant as ever, and turn away, walking off as if you hadnât just dropped a bomb on him.
Minhoâs eye twitches. âYouâstop right there.â
You donât. Instead, you keep walking, laughing under your breath.
Minho doesnât think. He just starts chasing after you. âWhy do you keep changing your mind?â he shouts, exasperated.
You donât answer, just laugh again, quickening your pace.
Minho curses under his breath but canât stop the small smirk forming on his lips as he picks up his speed, determined to catch you.
-
Once the dining hall is finally empty, you allow yourself a moment to relax. Sitting at the coffee station, you stack your hands together and rest your head on top of them, sighing deeply as you let the exhaustion of the day seep out of you.
A while later, Minho joins you, settling on a stool just one seat away. You lift your head, smiling despite your fatigue, and in your most professional tone, you tell him, âYou did a good job today, Chef.â
Minho scoffs, eyes flicking away from you. His voice carries a quiet bitterness as he mutters, âIâm going to leave, and you donât even seem to care.â
You bite back the urge to tease him, watching him sulk like a child. Instead, you soften your expression and say, âI do care about you.â
Minho looks at you for a second, as if assessing the sincerity of your words, before looking away again, unconvinced. You lean forward against the counter, tilting your head as you ask, âDo you know when I first started caring about you?â
Minhoâs curiosity piques. He turns his head slightly toward you. âWhen?â
For the first time ever, you decide to reveal it. Meeting his gaze, you say, âIt was back in culinary school, during one of our earlier classes. You helped me French trim a lamb rack.â
Minho frowns, visibly confused.
You smile at his reaction and continue, âThatâs how I fell for you.â
Minho's eyes widen slightly, but he says nothing.
You lean your elbow on the counter, propping your chin in your palm. âAll the other guys kept telling me I was doing it wrong, but you were the only one who actually showed me how.â A small, nostalgic laugh escapes you. âI was so nervous, I couldnât even look you in the eyes.â
Minhoâs lips twitch, the corners threatening to curl upward. He props a hand under his chin and asks, âSo⌠was it love at first sight for you?â
You nod, smiling.
Minho's smirk deepens, the amusement clear in his gaze. âReally?â he presses, as if trying to tease a different answer out of you.
âYes.â You nod again, this time more confidently. âThatâs when I started caring about you.â
You pout slightly, feigning disappointment. âBut you donât even remember that day. You only started caring about me recently.â
Minho opens his mouth, but before he can say anything, a new voice enters the conversation.
Chris slides onto the empty stool between you and Minho, effectively cutting off your moment. He swivels to face you, giving Minho his back. âSo,â Chris starts, his tone light and playful, âshould we do something fun this weekend?â
Behind him, you hear Minho scoff, but Chris ignores it. âIs there anything you want to do?â
You think for a moment, then shake your head. âUhm... not really.â
Chris hums, unfazed. âThen, maybe thereâs somewhere you want to go?â
Minho lets out a sharp breath before finally breaking his silence. âHey, ChrisâManager Bang,â he calls coldly.
Chris finally turns to face him.
Minho stares at him, unimpressed. âYou seem rather pleased that Iâm going to Italy.â
Chris shrugs. âYouâre going to work at one of the best Italian restaurants. Of course, Iâm pleased.â Then, with a grin, he adds, âAnd while youâre gone, Iâll take care of her for you.â
Minhoâs expression darkens, irritation clear in his posture. Without another word, he gets up from his stool. âYou two go ahead and talk. Do whatever you want,â he mutters. âLeave me out of it.â
Then, just before leaving, he shoots you a glare, as if blaming you for the entire conversation.
Once heâs gone, Chris leans back slightly, exhaling through his nose. âItâs not like him to leave us alone.â
You let out a dry chuckle and rest your hands on the counter again.
Chris watches you for a moment before sighing. âYouâre right, though. I like that we donât feel awkward around each other⌠but it must be different for you.â
You shake your head, quickly denying it. âItâs not that. It's just... I donât get Minho sometimes.â
Chris gestures for you to lean in closer. Without questioning it, you do. Lowering his voice, Chris says, âI bet heâs not actually going to Italy.â
You blink, pulling back slightly. âHuh?â
Chris nods toward the direction Minho walked off in. âHe hasnât been acting like himself. Itâs obvious to me.â
Your forehead wrinkles in confusion. âHe doesnât seem that way to me.â
Chris lets out a small chuckle before draping his arm around your shoulder, pulling you close until your heads are touching. âIf it were me, I wouldnât want to go either,â he murmurs. âI wouldnât want to be far away from someone I love.â
The way he says it makes sense, but at the same time, itâs Minho. Who knows how his mind works?
Chris suddenly grins and holds his hand out toward you. âCome on. Letâs bet on it.â
You roll your eyes but ultimately shrug and take his hand, sealing the bet.
-
You donât notice Minho carrying anything until the two of you step out of the car, and you see a paper bag in his hand. He doesnât mention it, and you donât ask, leading the way to your dadâs house instead. Letting yourself in, you call out for your dad from the foyer. When no response comes, you sigh and drag Minho inside with you.
Turns out, your dad is in the kitchen, busy preparing food. âDad?âYou call for him again, and this time, he finally looks upâfirst at you, then at Minho.
Minho quickly straightens, offering a polite nod and a greeting. âHello, sir. How are you?â
Your dad doesnât bother replying, only narrowing his eyes at you before grumbling, âWhy are you just standing there? Make yourself useful.â
You roll your eyes but move to help, expecting Minho to follow. Before he can, though, your dad gestures for him to sit instead. You suppress a laugh at the way Minho hesitates, clearly uncertain, before reluctantly taking a seat at the dining table.
While you work, you sneak glances at them. Minho shifts uncomfortably in his seat before finally handing your dad the paper bag. âI brought this for you, sir,â he says. âItâs supposed to be good for your health.â
Your dad eyes the gift before scoffing. âI heard you're going somewhere?â
Minhoâs gaze flickers to you, just for a second, but itâs enough to make you feel guilty. You never told him you mentioned Italy to your dad. He nods politely. âYes, sir.â
Your dad sets the bag aside, uninterested. âAnd what about the two of you?â
You cut in, setting the first dish on the table. âWeâre still working together in Farfalle, dad,â you say quickly.
Your dad ignores you, keeping his focus on Minho. âSo, youâre breaking up?â
You and Minho exchange an uneasy glance, but before either of you can answer, your dad presses further. âIf youâre breaking up, whyâd you come here?â
Minho clears his throat and forces a polite smile. âWe arenât completely breaking up, sir,â he answers carefully.
Not liking where this conversation is heading, you hurry to set the rest of the food on the table and put an end to it. âLetâs have dinner first,â you say firmly, patting Minhoâs thigh under the table as a silent reassurance. He softens slightly, but his posture remains stiff, and you have to bite back a laugh.
Your dad nods. âLetâs eat.â
Minho, still tense, mutters a quick, âThank you for the food, sir.â
Your dad doesnât respond. Instead, he watches Minho intently as he takes his first bite. Minho chews carefully, clearly aware of the scrutiny.
Your dad leans back in his chair. âShould I cook it again?â
Minhoâs eyes widen slightly, and he swallows quickly. âNo, sir. Itâs fine.â
Your dad clicks his tongue. âYou can just say it.â
Minho shakes his head, taking another bite. âNo, really, itâs good.â
Your dad smirks. âYou can say no, but you canât say itâs delicious.â
Minho chews faster, then swallows hard. âItâs delicious, sir.â
Your dad raises a brow. âSo, did I pass your test?â
You groan, reaching over to squeeze your dadâs arm. âDad! Can you stop?â
Desperate to shift the mood, you grab the wine and fill everyoneâs glass, hoping itâll help things settle. But of course, your dad isnât done yet.
Halfway through dinner, he turns to Minho again. âWhatâs better about you than my daughter?â he asks bluntly. âBesides being a chef.â
Minho straightens slightly but doesnât answer right away.
Your dad continues, âSheâs going to be a chef too, eventually. And when that happens, youâre out.â
You sigh, rubbing your temple. âDad, pleaseââ
Minho speaks up before you can stop him. âNot everyone can be a chef, sir.â
Your dad scoffs. âIf everyone else can, why canât she?â
Silence.
Your dad clicks his tongue. âI sent her to Italy to become a classical pianist, and what did she do? Went to culinary school behind my back. And now, after all that, she still canât be a chef?â He shakes his head. âPathetic.â
You stiffen, barely daring to look at Minho. You clasp your hands together under the table, feeling embarrassed with what your dad has just revealed to Minho.
Your dad chuckles humorlessly. âShe didnât have a problem not contacting me for years. I doubt sheâll have a problem being away from you.â
You glare at him, but when you finally sneak a glance at Minho, heâs already looking at youâsharp, unreadable.
Your dad sighs dramatically and gestures toward the liquor cabinet. âBring me the bottle of liquor.â
You cross your arms. âYou shouldn't be drinking, dad. It'sââ
Your dad scowls. âJust do what I said.â
Not wanting to argue, you push yourself up from your seat and make your way to the cabinet, grateful for the excuse to hideâfor just a little while.
-
Itâs only beenâwhat, five glasses? Maybe six? Minho isnât counting, but he knows heâs one drink away from crossing the line into being properly drunk. Before that happens, he pushes himself up from his seat and mutters, âBathroom.â
You glance at him before pointing down the hall. âEnd of the hall to the left.â
Minho nods and makes his way there, feeling the slight unsteadiness in his steps. Inside, he leans over the sink, twisting the tap and letting the cold water run over his fingers before splashing it onto his face. He exhales sharply, gripping the edges of the sink as he stares at his reflection. His head is buzzing, and he needs to clear it.
A few minutes pass before he leaves the bathroom, but just as heâs about to step into the living room, he hears your voiceâlow and sharp.
âYou shouldnât be drinking that much.â
Your dad scoffs. âWhy do you care?â
Minho freezes in the hallway. He doesnât mean to eavesdrop, but then your dadâs voice lowers, his words slurring slightly.
âIf you love him so much,â he mutters, âwhy are you letting him go?â
Minhoâs fingers twitch at his sides. He should walk in. He should make his presence known. But he stays put.
Thereâs a pause before you reply, your voice quieter now. âWhy? Do you not want me to lose him? Is that it, dad?â
Your dad lets out a dry, humorless chuckle. âYouâre not exactly a great catch.â
Minho frowns.
Your dad sighs heavily. âSomeone has to take care of you when Iâm gone. Who else would do that? Who else but Minho?â
Silence.
Then, your voiceâsoft, wounded. âWhy would you say that, dad?â
Your dad exhales, long and tired. âI donât know,â he finally admits. âI just⌠I miss your mother so much.â
Minho swallows, his chest suddenly tight. If he steps out now, heâll be interrupting somethingâsomething raw, something unspoken between you and your father. So he lingers a moment longer before quietly making his way back to the living room.
The moment you see him, you straighten, forcing a small smile. âIâll get my dad to bed,â you say.
Minho glances at your dadâhead slumped, completely knocked outâand shakes his head. âIâll do it.â
He carefully lifts your dad, guiding him to his room. By the time he returns, youâre already clearing the table, stacking plates onto the counter. Without a word, Minho joins you, gathering the empty glasses and wiping down the dining table.
You move on to the dishes while he puts the leftovers into containers. The kitchen is quiet except for the sound of running water and the occasional clink of plates. Thereâs an understanding between you, a rhythm in the way you move together, no words needed. But Minho speaks anyway.
âSo...â he murmurs, mostly to himself. âYou werenât exactly slacking off.â
You donât turn to him, but he catches the small smile on your lips. âYeah,â you say. âI was juggling between music school and culinary school back then.â
Minho exhales, leaning against the counter. âAnd the guys everyone thought you were dating?â
You shake your head. âFriends from music school who helped me practice for recitals.â
Minho nods slowly, taking in the weight of these small revelations, these pieces of you he didnât have before. He slides these pieces into place and it's all clear to him now.
Once the food is stored away, he steps closer. Without thinking, he slides his arms around you, pressing himself against your back. He dips his head, pressing a soft kiss to the side of your head before murmuring, âAre you okay?â
You donât answer right away. You just nod. But Minho knows better. Your silence says more than words could, so he tightens his arms around you, lowering his head to place another kiss on your neck.
You stop washing the dishes abruptly. The water continues running, but your hands are still. Then, in a voice so quiet he almost misses it, you whisper, âI canât leave my dad... again.â
Minho doesnât say anything. He just holds you. And in that moment, he finally understands.
-
Minho stirs awake, his eyes still heavy with sleep. The room is dim, the early light barely slipping through the curtains. He blinks up at the ceiling, exhaustion weighing on himânot just from lack of sleep, but from the thoughts that kept him awake through the night.
Youâre curled up beside him, lost in dreams, breathing softly against his arm. He watches you, taking in the peaceful rise and fall of your chest, the way your fingers are lightly curled against his sheets. And then, like every night before, the same question echoes in his mind.
Am I really going to leave this?
Just the thought of it makes his chest tighten. His arm moves before he even thinks, wrapping around you, pulling you close as if holding you tighter will somehow anchor him here, keep him from drifting away. The idea of losing youâitâs unbearable.
Minho exhales, pressing a soft kiss to your lips and in that quiet moment, he makes up his mind.
With another lingering kiss to your bare shoulder, he carefully untangles himself from you, slipping out of bed. He pulls on a shirt and pads barefoot into the living room. His eyes land on the envelope lying untouched on the coffee table, the same one heâs been avoiding. He picks it up, running his thumb over the edge before taking a deep breath and stepping outside.
He stops at a door next and presses the doorbell. It takes a moment, but soon, the door swings open, revealing Sara. She blinks at him, then offers a soft, knowing smile. âIf youâre looking for her, she didnât come home last night.â
Minho smirks. âI know. Sheâs with me.â
Sara flashes him a knowing smile and Minho doesnât give her time to tease him before handing her the envelope. âHere. You should go instead of me. You'll be better at it,â he says simply.
Sara glances down, recognizing the weight of what heâs holding out to her. Her brows furrow, and when she meets his eyes, thereâs disbelief in hers. âPaoloâs? Haven't you always wanted to work there?â
Minho shrugs. âNot anymore. I think I like Farfalle better than world-famous restaurants.â
Sara exhales a short chuckle, tilting her head. âBecause of her?â
Minhoâs answer is immediate. âItâs far more than just her.â
Sara shakes her head slightly, pressing the envelope to her chest. âMinho, I donât think itâs a good time for me right now. Not when I'm... like this.â
His brows knit together. âWhat do you mean? Like this?â
Saraâs fingers tighten on the envelope. âLike this. All broken up.â
Minho scoffs. âWhatâs broken? Your hands? Your tongue?â He nods toward the envelope. âAs long as your hands and tongue are fine, what more do you need as a chef?â
Sara lets out a quiet laugh, but itâs tinged with something fragile. âI should at least be better than what I am right now.â
Minho gestures toward the envelope. âThen be quick about it. This spot wonât open and wait for you forever.â He holds her gaze for a beat longer, a silent challenge in his expression, before turning and heading back to his apartment.
Minho feels a lot lighter because it's all up to her now. Whether Sara takes it or not, he believes she'll make the right decision.
The moment he returns to his apartment, warmth settles in his chest. He walks into the bedroom and finds you exactly as he left youâstill curled up, still lost in dreams. A small smile tugs at his lips as he sits on the edge of the bed, brushing a few strands of hair away from your face.
He tenderly cups your jaw, his thumb gently rubbing your cheek and suddenly, your eyes flutter open. The moment you see him, that familiar softness fills them, the warmth that makes everything else fade away.
âMorning,â you mumble, voice thick with sleep. You lean into his touch and close your eyes for a brief moment.
Minho only smirks in response, but he keeps cradling your face like it's a fragile object.
You stretch slightly, then give him a lazy smile. âBreakfast?â
Minho raises a brow. âAre you asking me to cook breakfast?â
You shamelessly nod and grin, your fingers lightly tracing the evident vein on his forearm.
He scoffs. âAre you saying you'll never cook for your boyfriend?â
Still drowsy, you playfully reply, âWhy should I cook when I have a boyfriend who's a chef?â
Minho huffs, amused, but the smirk on his lips softens as he leans down. He kisses youâslow, deep, lingering. A kiss that says everything he hasnât put into words yet.
Then, with a sleepy smile, you murmur, âNot just a chef. My boyfriend is the best chef in the world.â
You donât even seem to notice the way he falters. You just keep looking at him, all warmth and certainty, like calling him the best chef in the world is the simplest truth.
He exhales sharply, shaking his head as if trying to brush it off. âYeah, yeah,â he mutters, but thereâs no real bite to it.
You grin up at him. âI mean it. The best chef.â
Minho doesnât know why that gets to him the way it does. Maybe itâs because heâs spent his whole life proving himself in the kitchen, fighting for recognition, never feeling like itâs enough. But youâyou say it so easily, so sincerely, like youâve never once doubted it.
He swallows, unable to stop the way his body softens against you. Instead of a snarky remark, instead of brushing it off with an eye roll, he just looks at you, something unbearably tender in his gaze.
And then he kisses you again. Slower this time, deeper. Like heâs sealing this moment, like heâs trying to make you understand that heâs here, heâs staying, heâs yours.
When he finally pulls away, he lingers, his lips ghosting over yours as he whispers, âIâll cook breakfast.â
And just like that, he knowsâthereâs nowhere else heâd rather be.
-
Minho raps his knuckles against Chrisâs office door before pushing it open, stepping inside without waiting for an answer. Chris barely glances up, finishing the last strokes of his signature on a document before setting his pen down and gesturing toward the chair across from his desk.
"Have a seat, Chef," Chris says, standing as Minho lowers himself into the chair. Instead of staying behind his desk, Chris moves to the single sofa facing him, his posture more relaxed than usual.
"I was just about to bring this up with you," Chris begins. "We need to start looking for new cooks."
Minho nods, his voice calm. "Iâll take care of it."
Chris tilts his head slightly, a sly smile creeping onto his lips as he leans back against the cushions. "Are you only going to hire men this time, Chef?"
Minho barely reacts, only giving a dismissive glance. "I told you, Iâll take care of it."
Chris hums, but thereâs something sharper in his expression now, something more observant. He leans forward, resting his elbows on his knees as he studies Minho. "Does this mean you've decided not to go to Italy?"
Minho doesnât answer right away. Instead, he lets a smirk play on his lipsâsubtle, but just enough.
Chris catches it immediately. His grin widens, and he leans back again with a muttered, "I win the bet."
Minhoâs eyebrows pull together slightly. Of all the reactions he expected, Chris being happy wasnât one of them. He tilts his head. "Did you just say something?"
Chris waves him off with a flick of his hand. "Nothing."
Minho eyes him for a second longer, but Chris shifts gears, settling back into his usual professional demeanor. "Chef, I know you have the authority to make the hiring decisions," Chris says. "I trust you with that. But Iâd like you to keep me updated now and then."
Minho raises an eyebrow, waiting for him to continue.
Chris exhales, resting an ankle over his knee. "I know the kitchen is yours, and I have no intention of interfering or challenging you. This is purely for the sake of the restaurant. From now on, let's be open about what kind of strategy you're running back there."
Minho narrows his eyes, arms crossing over his chest. "Since when did you get so interested in what happens in the kitchen?"
Chris smilesânot his usual smug smirk, but something softer. "Since it became clear to me that people are more important than money."
Minho watches him for a long moment, weighing his words. He finds, much to his own surprise, that he doesnât immediately feel the usual irritation toward Chris.
Instead, he nods, just once and maybe, just maybe, Chris is not as annoying as he thought.
-
The kitchen is alive with movement, the clang of metal against metal, the sizzle of hot oil, the rhythmic chopping of knives. Heat radiates from the stoves, from the bodies moving in sync, from the sheer force of effort that everyone is putting into the final push of the night. Minho reads the orders, his voice sharp and clear above the chaos, but beneath it, there's something deeperâsomething that makes his chest tighten as he shouts encouragements, urging them to finish strong.
The last dishes land on the chefâs table. Minho stabs the final ticket onto the board. The printer hums softly for a second, and then he turns it off. Silence washes over the kitchenânot complete, but significant. He looks around, at the people who have worked beside him, sweated through long hours, fought through exhaustion, and created something brilliant night after night.
"This is it," Minho announces, his voice carrying through the space. "This is our last order of the dayâand the last in this kitchen for some of us."
His eyes find the entrĂŠe lineâSeojun, Seungwan, Hyunwoo. Soon, they'll be gone, off to Italy to study, to chase something bigger. Minho lets that reality settle for a moment before continuing.
"Before we close for good tonight, I want everyone to prepare their final dish for our VIP guests." He looks at each of them, his gaze firm but full of meaning. "Make it your best."
A chorus of voices rises in response. "Yes, Chef!"
The energy shiftsânot somber, not sad, but determined. Minho calls out the orders, listing the best of what they can offer, then gives the signal. "You may start!"
And just like that, the kitchen comes alive again.
This time, as Minho walks through the stations, it feels different. Itâs not about control or perfectionâitâs about seeing them, about feeling the weight of everything theyâve built together.
He stops by Felixâs station, watching as he twirls fresh pasta in a pan with practiced ease. "Looking good," Minho comments.
Felix grins, focused but pleased. "Thank you, Chef."
At your station, he watches you work, the effortless way you shake the frying pans, flipping the ingredients with precision. You meet his gaze, and he gives you an impressed smile. Before he can say anything, Taesoo, watching you in awe, blurts out, "Chef, can you teach me to shake frying pans like that?"
Minho raises an eyebrow at him. "That depends on you."
Taesoo groans. "Just say yes or no!"
Minho flicks his forehead hard enough that Taesoo yelps in pain.
You chuckle at Taesooâs pout, murmuring, "Donât worry, Iâll teach you."
Minho moves on, observing Seungwan carefully garnishing a tuna salad, Hyunwoo pouring clear soup with the kind of care most people reserve for handling delicate glass. At Seojunâs station, he pauses. "Iâll help."
Seojun shakes his head. "I got it, Chef."
Minho doesnât budge. "Letâs do it together."
For a second, Seojun hesitatesâthen he shifts, making room. Side by side, they cook in unspoken understanding.
Seojun murmurs, "The beef is good today."
Minho smirks, seasoning his own cut of meat. "It is."
And just like that, the dishes are sent out. The kitchen exhales, the weight of the night lifting. The finality settles in.
Minho lets out a breath. "Weâre officially closed for business today."
Taesoo starts clapping, and soon, the entire kitchen follows. Itâs not just for the hard work tonightâitâs for everything.
People scatter, exchanging hugs, handshakes, pats on the back. The air is thick with something bittersweet, something profound. Itâs an ending, but itâs also a beginning. The entrĂŠe line will leave. Minho wonât work with them in this kitchen again. But theyâre going toward something greater, toward dreams theyâve worked for.
As the kitchen quiets, Minho turns to them. "Good luck on your studies."
Seojun steps forward first, surprising him. He extends his hand. Without hesitation, Minho grips it firmly.
"Thank you, Chef," Seojun says.
Minho nods, a rare softness in his expression. "Youâll do well."
He moves to Seungwan and Hyunwoo next, shaking their hands, exchanging quiet words of encouragement. When he lifts his head, he sees you watching him from across the room, a fond smile playing on your lips.
And for the first time, as he stands here, surrounded by the people who have built this kitchen with him, Minho feels itâthis is where he belongs.
-
You step into the locker room, not expecting anyone to still be there. But there he isâSeojun, standing by his locker, his fingers grazing the nameplate on the door with a wistful look in his eyes. He doesnât notice you at first, lost in thought, but when he hears your footsteps, he turns and smiles.
You hesitate for only a moment before stepping closer. You didnât get a proper chance to say goodbye earlier, and now that you have him alone, you take the opportunity. âGood luck on your studies, Sous-chef,â you say sincerely.
Seojun turns fully to face you, his smile widening.
âYou should travel a lot while youâre there,â you continue. âDonât just stay at school. Go beyond the fancy restaurantsâfind the small pasta shops tucked away in alleyways. Thereâs so much to learn from the locals, from the people whoâve been making pasta their whole lives.â
His eyes brighten, as if heâs already imagining it. âIâll remember that. Thanks.â
Then, as if something just occurs to him, he reaches up and tugs at his sous-chef necktie. In one swift motion, he pulls it free and extends it toward you.
You blink in surprise, staring at the fabric in his outstretched hand. It takes a moment to register what this means. When you finally take it from him, your fingers curl around it carefully, reverently.
âChef will decide on the new sous-chef,â Seojun says, âbut Iâm giving my vote to you.â
Your heart swells. Youâre proud of him, proud of everything heâs accomplished, but youâre also deeply grateful. The weight of his support, of his belief in you, settles warmly in your chest. You look up at him, smiling brightly. âThank you so much, Sous-chef.â
Seojun waves you off lightly. âYou deserve it.â
He turns back to his locker, reaching for the door handleâbut then he pauses. A second later, he pivots to face you again, something unreadable in his expression.
âAnd oh, you must be happy.â
The words catch you off guard. You frown slightly. âAbout what?â
His lips curve into a knowing smile. âThat Chef is staying in Farfalle.â
Your breath stills.
Itâs news to you. And whatâs even more surprising is that youâre hearing it from Seojun rather than from Minho himself.
You manage a small nod, masking the mix of emotions swirling inside you. âPlease, tcare of yourself, Sous-chef,â you say, shifting the conversation back to him.
Seojun smiles, giving you a final nod before turning back to his locker.
You move to the other side of the room, gripping the sous-chef tie a little tighter as your thoughts drift elsewhere. Minho isnât going to Italy.
You should be upset that he didnât tell you first. But that feeling is eclipsed by something elseâsomething impossible to ignore.
Minho is staying.
-
The dining hall is packed, the room filled with chatter and laughter as the cooks and staff gather around long tables. The scent of freshly prepared food lingers in the air, plates and bowls scattered across the tables in a feast prepared with care. Tonight is a farewell party for Seojun, Hyunwoo, and Seungwanâthe three chefs who will soon be leaving for Italy.
They sit together at a table near the front, joined by Minho and Chris. Youâre seated nearby with Felix and Taesoo, the three of you sharing quiet conversation between bites of food. In the crowd, you spot familiar facesâMinji and Yura, who must have been invited for a reason.
A sharp clink rings through the air as Minho taps his wine glass with a spoon. The noise settles as everyone turns their attention to him. He remains seated, but his voice carries through the room with ease.
âBefore we begin the party, Iâd like to propose a toast,â Minho announces. âTo the people who made this feast with their utmost care and skill.â
A round of applause erupts as everyone cheers for the three departing chefs. Seojun, Hyunwoo, and Seungwan nod in acknowledgment, their expressions a mix of pride and gratitude.
Minho shifts his gaze to them, his tone steady yet sincere. âGood luck. Take care of yourselves. Letâs all meet again in better shape, okay?â
âYes, Chef,â the three of them reply in unison.
Satisfied, Minho sits back down, and Chris takes his turn to speak.
âI have another announcement to make,â Chris begins, his voice brimming with anticipation. âSince a part of our kitchen family is leaving for Italy, itâs time to welcome new members who will be filling those empty spots.â
At his words, he gestures toward Minji and Yura. âStand up, you two.â
Minji and Yura exchange confused glances before slowly rising from their seats.
Chris continues, âAfter careful considerationâand after consulting with Chefâweâve decided that no one would be better suited for these roles than you two.â He smiles, then extends his hand toward them in invitation. âSo, Minji, Yuraâplease accept our offer to work at Farfalle, starting next week.â
All eyes shift to the sisters. Minho raises his glass slightly, watching them expectantly.
Minji and Yura share another lookâthis one filled with silent understandingâbefore Yura breaks into a wide smile. âWeâll be ready next week, Chef!â
A satisfied nod from Minho while Chris grins in reaction. âThen itâs settled. Now, letâs enjoy the feast.â
Cheers rise again as glasses clink, laughter spilling into the air. The party resumes, but as you glance back at Minho, you catch a flicker of something rare in his expressionâcontentment. Maybe even pride.
-
Minho has been searching for you all over the restaurant. The locker room, the kitchen, the back entrance, even the steps where he always finds you when you need a moment aloneâyouâre nowhere to be seen. He exhales sharply, pressing his tongue against the inside of his cheek in mild frustration.
Itâs only when heâs walking toward his car that his phone buzzes in his pocket. A message from you.
Meet me at the bar.
Minho doesnât need to ask which one. He already knows. Itâs the same bar where he first met you.
When he arrives, he spots you immediatelyâsitting in the exact same seat as that night. The memory surfaces effortlessly, but Minho pushes it aside, stepping forward, approaching you from behind. He leans in close, just enough for his breath to ghost over your ear, and murmurs, âThatâs my seat.â
Slowly, you glance over your shoulder, meeting his gaze. âSo what if it is?â
Minho smirks, sliding onto the stool next to you. He gestures to the bartender and quickly order a drink. But as he waits, he reaches for your drink instead, taking a slow sip before setting it back down.
You watch him with amusement. Then, without a word, you pull something out of your bag, holding your hand out to him.
The sous-chef tie.
Minhoâs eyes flick to it for a second before he looks away, feigning indifference. âWhatâs that?â
You bump his shoulder, playful yet insistent. âYou know what it is.â
Taking back your drink, you sip from it before tilting your head toward him. âNow that Iâm a sous-chef, I want to go back to the pasta line.â
Minho lifts his own glass, taking a sipâand immediately gasps at the aftertaste. He glances at you. âWho says youâre a sous-chef now?â
You pout at that, eyebrows knitting together in protest. âSous-chef Seojun gave me his vote. Now I want yours, too.â
Minho clicks his tongue and daringly gaze into your eyes. âHow dare you argue with your chef?â
You narrow your eyes at him, boldly. âHow much more do I have to prove to you, hug? What else do I have to do?â
He leans back slightly, meeting your gaze with that unreadable expression he always wears when heâs making you work for something. âBe good at everything.â
You groan. âAnd when do I get to be good at everything?â
Minho shrugs. âWhy are you asking me? Thatâs up to you.â
You huff, pressing further by grabbing his arm and make him looks at you. âSo whatâs it gonna be?â
Minho watches you for a moment before he simply says, âYouâll find out tomorrow.â
Your lips part, ready to argue again, but this time, Minho smirks. The way youâre whining, the way youâre pressing him for answersâit reminds him of how he met you. How things have unfolded ever since.
So he leans in, close enough for your noses to almost brush. âLetâs do it.â His voice drops slightly, lower, more deliberate. âGo out with me. Date.â
For a moment, thereâs silence. Then, instead of answering, you take him by surpriseâpressing your lips against his in a kiss so sudden that he barely has time to react.
Minho is still for only a second before instinct takes over, and his hand comes up to cup your jaw. The first kiss is hurried, almost clumsy, but when you start to pull away, he stops you. Fingers curling against your skin, he brings you in for another kissâthis time, slow and deep. Proper.
When he finally pulls back, he lingers there, eyes fondly gazing into yours, flickering with something unreadable, something softer than before. The years of tension, the push and pull, the battles fought in the kitchen and beyondâthey all led here, to this moment. A quiet certainty settles in his chest.
Minho has always believed that food tells a story. Every dish holds a memory, every flavor carries a feeling. And if love were a taste, he thinks it would be something like thisâbold yet familiar, unexpected yet deeply satisfying. Something that lingers long after the last bite.
His lips brush against yours as he mutters. âYou know, I think you might be my favorite dish after all.â
You scoff, rolling your eyes, but he catches the smile you try to hide. âThatâs the worst line Iâve ever heard.â
âStay. Have another drink.â His thumb grazes over your cheek, his smirk unmistakable. âLetâs see where this goes.â
Instead of answering, you smile before leaning in for a gentle kiss and then reach for his hand. Your fingers brush against his, a quiet gesture, warm and certain.
For once, Minho doesnât have anything clever to say. He just laces his fingers with yours, holds on, and lets the moment settle.
Tomorrow, the kitchen will still be loud. The work will still be demanding. The challenges will still come. But tonight, there is just this.
A beginning wrapped in an ending. A promise folded into a touch.
And for Minho, that is more than enough.
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The thing is there really isn't similar imagery in the backgrounds. The only similarity in the backgrounds is that they both have lighthouses in them somewhere and those lighthouses look completely different.
But I do think this is maybe starting to get a little too bogged down in the imagery. A good visual parallel can absolutely cue the audience in to look for more parallels and similarities (or contrasts), but it's not actually necessary to creating a meaningful parallel (nor is it sufficient, but that's a unrelated conversation). So let's set aside the lighthouse and visual parallels for a second and look at the other points of comparison. Taking from above this are two scenes where "ed strangles a mean old white guy whoâs hurt the ppl ed loves" so our three points are 1) mean old white guy, 2) hurt the people Ed loves, and 3) strangles (I know that's out of order, but this is going to flow better if I do strangles last).
Starting with mean old white guy, I don't want to leave it unremarked that there are actually a fair number of mean old white guys in this show, but that said that doesn't it can't be a meaningful point of similarity in this instance; we have to consider how being a mean old white guy relates to these two scenes. So with Izzy, Ed attacks him because Izzy is being homophobic (in that way that's also pretty misogynistic) poking at Ed's vulnerability and heartbreak and more broadly trying to police Ed's performance of masculinity. Ed attacks his dad because his dad is an abusive dick who beats his mom, which is suppose does loosely connect to Izzy's thing on the misogyny front, but it's fairly tenuous. (I am aware of the cut line where Teach Sr is mad Ed's mom made him weak but ultimately that line was cut and to my knowledge we don't know why.)
I do actually think this could be a meaningful point of connection, but sort flowing out from the parallel rather than flowing in. That is to say I don't think this is strong enough of a similarity to make a much of a case for there being a parallel here, but I think if we can find other evidence to help establish that there is a parallel between Izzy and Ed's dad, then we can use that parallel to inform us more about these characters. It could help strengthen the case that Izzy's behavior is meant to be abusive for people who won't believe that unless they see man hitting a woman or in the other direction it could help suggest that Ed's dad also policed Ed's masculinity (I absolutely do think he did that), some textual evidence to bring that cut line back into play even.
But we still need to build the case for that parallel. Next is hurt the people Ed loves. Big check on that for Teach Sr; the way it's presented is he hit Ed's mom and then Ed followed him out into the night and strangled him. He did it and it is immediately connected to what's happening in the scene. But with Izzy it's a bit more of a stretch. Not that he did it, Izzy definitely hurt Stede, tried to kill numerous times. The problem is it's not really that connected to what's happening here. Prior to Izzy getting into Ed's face, Ed's totally chill with him; there's no indication that he's bearing a grudge aout Izzy trying to kill Stede. And while Ed lashing out is immediately preceded by the mention of Ed's "boyfriend," but not in a context where Izzy is talking about having hurt Stede in the past or where Izzy is even trash talking Stede in any particular way. Rather, Izzy is putting Ed down for his feelings for Stede; he's insulting Ed for being heartbroken. So yeah, Izzy has hurt the person Ed loves, but that's not relevant to this scene, if the person Ed loves in the scenario is meant to be understood to be Stede (put a big old pin in that; we are going places in this post).
Which brings us now to the strangling. Ed choking Izzy and his dad are hugely important parts of these two scenes, enough to be the basis for argument that there is a parallel here worth further investigation all on its own. If we have the strangling we don't even need the lighthouses. (What a weird fucking sentence, lol.) The problem is the methods of choking not being similar enough actually is really important in this specific case. Because it's not as simple as Ed strangling his dad (he also kills him. And if Ed had killed Izzy, that would definitely be enough for a parallel, and also a special treat for me, but alas. Back on topic.) The most important, impactful thing in that whole sequence where Ed kills his dad is in the opening where he's telling the kraken version of the story, we get a shot of Ed's dad from the front where we can see the kraken's tentacle wrapped around his neck, strangling him, while Teach Sr grabs at it with both hands, trying to pull it away from his neck. Then later when Ed is confessing to Stede, we see the same shot again, but this time the tentacle has been replaced by a rope with Ed behind him, pulling on it. "I'm the kraken." The method Ed uses to strangle his dad is deeply embedded into the metaphor they've built. If you want to build a parallel based on the strangling, Ed's needs his metaphorical tentacle to strangle Izzy with. I don't think it needs to be a rope per se, it could be a rope or a tie or he could turn Izzy's own cravat against him or grab a string from Frenchie's lute, or pull his own sleeve down (picture with me for a moment Ed, with the pink robe falling off his shoulder as he uses his shirt sleeve to strangle Izzy. Beautiful). He just needs something.
So despite all that, and as you might have picked up on, I'm not actually opposed to the idea that maybe there is a parallel between Izzy and Ed's dad here. But to get to that, first we need to jump a head a bit. Lets go a couple scenes later to where Ed is suiting up, and then looks at his reflection and says "I'm the kraken." There is our incontrovertible call back to the scene where Ed kills his dad. That sentence is pretty particular, it's not something he's likely to say in these two different scenes by coincidence. And furthermore it connects thematically across the two scenes. The first time Ed says is he's using it as a way to confess to Stede that he is not a good person, he's a monster. And in the second instance he is declaring the same to himself as he starts to fall into his downward spiral.
Now let's follow the narrative parallel backward. In the flashbacks what caused Ed to "turn into the kraken" was killing his dad. And then after that he never killed anyone directly again, not until right before he redeclared himself the kraken when he killed Lucius (or at least he intended to kill Lucius and thought he had, which is close enough for this parallel). The parallel to Ed killing his dad then is actually when he (almost) killed Lucius. Which is not to say that I think they are trying to imply a similarity between Lucius and Ed's dad; if anything it's a parallel of contrasts where there is meaningful analysis to be done in unpacking what the significance is in the two people he killed being so different, but that is beyond the scope of this meta, which is already too scopeful for its own good.
Now let's move back in time even further. The (attempted) murders were what pushed Ed over the edge into becoming the kraken, but what was it that pushed him to that edge? In the flashback it's the scene where Ed watches his father his father abuse his mother. In the present, its this scene that we started with, where Izzy confrints Ed. Boom, there's your Izzy-Ed's dad parallel. Its not to the scene where Ed is strangling the abusive dick, its to the scene where he's being an abuser. And now you can go back to all those comparisons I said you could draw if we could prove the parallel and plug those in.
And also, let's go back to the pin I put in the idea of Izzy hurting the person Ed loves. If the parallel is to the scene where Ed strangles his dad, then the part where Izzy hurts someone Ed loves has to have happened before this scene. But if this is paralleling the abuse scene, then Izzy should be hurting the person Ed loves in this scene. It's Edward. That soft vulnerable part of himself, that's the person who Ed loves that's paralleling his mother. Bring that cut line back, Ed's dad accused his mother of making Ed weak, and now that "weak" side of him is paralleling his mother.
And if we have Izzy paralleling Ed's dad and Ed is paralleling his own mother, then we're creating a parallel in Ed and Izzy's relationship to a married couple. Which ties perfectly into the fact that this episode also has Ed and Izzy paralleling Stede and Mary. (Another parallel of contrasts in that case. They're perpendicularing them?)
And I know maybe it sounds weird that I was pushing back against the other two scenes not being similar enough, when these scenes aren't seemingly that much more similar. And I can pick out the specific details to argue the case like was done with the other two scenes. The one scene being in Ed's home and the other in Stede's quarters which Ed was trying to make into a home with the abuse violating what should have been a safe space. The thrown plate to the torn and crumpled page and thrown book. The disgust at being presented with "slop" and the disgust at "whatever it is you've become". The storming out at the end of the scene. And there is definitely something very very about comparing the violence of Ed's dad backhanding his mom and the violence of Izzy stroking Ed's cheek. But really the point I want to make here is it's not in the random details you can point to as similar if you look at them right. Its about thematically, narratively what are these scenes doing, and that's where I think these two have the stronger parallel.
So Iâm up to episode 10 of my most recent rewatch and I noticed something interesting in the scene where Izzy confronts Ed. At the beginning of the conversation the camera tends to stay with Ed in the left side of the frame and Izzy on the right, with the space between them in center. We do get some shots of just Ed where heâs in center (not included) but any shots that focus on Izzy still keep Ed in the frame with Izzy staying right of center.
So I am not a cinematographer by any stretch, but this seems all pretty straight forward to me? Like, weâve got these two people having an argument so weâre showing them on literal opposite sides, and our shots are biasing toward whoever is speaking at the moment, but with an overall bias toward Ed, who weâre supposed to sympathize with.
But where it gets interesting is when Izzy makes his namby-pamby comment, and Ed pushes Izzy up against the wall. Izzy is still right of center, but take a closer look at what is now in the center of the frame.
The lighthouse painting. The lighthouse which represents both Stede and Stede & Ed together. In this moment while Ed briefly appears to have control of the conversation, this painting representing many of the things Ed wants and wants to be is prominently in the shot even while weâre supposed to be focused on Izzy. And as an added bonus just as Ed is consistently on the left side of the frame in this argument, the lighthouse is on the left side of the painting.
But then Izzy takes back control over the conversation. He reaches out and strokes Edâs face, causing Ed to jerk back and let go of Izzy.
Izzy takes advantage of this to step closer to Ed, bringing him to center frame.
And even then he continues to get closer and closer.
And as Izzy whispers his threat to Ed weâre left with this: Izzy filling the center of the frame, with Ed only barely visible at the very edge, and the lighthouse missing from the painting, completely blocked out by Izzy.
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Neve Gallus - Character Design Analysis
Neve knows how an outfit builds character, whether it's to project a genuine or false perception of the wearer. All her clothes are designed to convey "wealthy and powerful mage" as a safeguard. In this analysis, we'll take a look at Neve's Dragon Coat and point out details, symbolism, and intention with designâall under the cut.
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Asymmetry
The first aspect to cover is the asymmetry in Neve's overall design. Not pictured, her bun is uncentered. Pictured, her coat is raised higher above the left thigh, and her hat sits at an angle while the veil creates a dividing line across her face. Her bangs act like a veil of their own as well.
Asymmetry in a character suggests they're dynamic, unconventional, nonconformist in some capacity, willing to behave outside of the box, etc. You can see that reflected through Neve's willingness to work with the Threads, to skip ritual protocol (re: her conversation with Emmerich), her work-life imbalance, and how she's open and teasing with the companions despite her archetype. You'd expect a jaded and cynical detective to be more gritty and detached, but Neve is soft and engaging once she's beyond her initial assessment of each companion.
Returning to the coat's left side: I would guess the raised adjustment's purpose is visual compensation, to bring attention away from her prosthetic. It's easy to notice the length difference with a still, but when she's walking and in motion, it's not something you pay attention to. The devs mentioned they wanted her prosthetic to be treated like an average part of her, and they succeeded.
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Thematic Imagery
The major imagery shown above is a butterfly. Butterflies represent metamorphosis. Change. And that's exactly what Neve endeavors to enact for Dock Town. Her scarf's knots create the head, around her neck are the antennae, and the braided tails form the body. Her collar and lapels shape the wings, while the curving leather and embroidered gold are reminiscent of a monarch's pattern.
The secondary major image are the wings, created from her shoulder pads with unfurled feathers beneath them. Wings typically represent freedom. In Neveâs case, this freedom relates to her city.
Combined, the butterfly and wing visuals symbolize transformation taking flight and paving a course for a better Dock Town.
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Tevinter Symbols
Recurring motifs include snakes (belt, cobra prosthetic, scaled earring) and diamonds, both symbols heavily used by the Tevinter Imperium. They serve as provocative and centering design elements at face value.
The diamond adorning her back reminds me of a coiled snake; the end curl would be a tapering tail. Scales are embossed in the leather for a tasteful touch. Or maybe the shape represents a dragon, because the crowns adjacent from the diamond look like feet? It is called the Dragon Coat, so maybe it's a dragon's butt.
I've debated about whether the tiny, gold diamonds with tails are of significance, but they could very well be simple elements to break up monotony. Theories on what they could represent include the Wall of Light, architecture, fangs, or scales. Perhaps they're pins for case notes? Girl is on point and also kind of a disaster. I can imagine her pinning random notes and categorizing them by what layer they're pinned to.
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Utility
Neve has options to choose from when it comes to keeping detective gear on her person, which shows her practicality. It pays to look good, and it pays even more to have fashion be useful.
The Dragon Coat's description itself mentions many pockets to stash case notes. The pockets are likely on the inside of her sleeves. Attached to her waist is a compact pouch with two objects slotted into the adjacent holders (could be writing utensils).
Again, if those diamond tears are pins... you can see the potential for stashing even more notes.
Neve's cobra prosthetic is part of every outfit, but I wanted to showcase its degree of function under utility. The ankle was designed as a hinge. This gives her improved mobility, which of course includes stretching. It most likely becomes uncomfortable after long durations of use; you can often see her weight shifted to her left leg and checking on her right leg. The entire prosthetic design is on point, and the extra attention to detail is exquisite.
Color
Turqoise.* In every companion outfit available, there is turqoise. I would say she "just likes turqoise," but that doesn't align with how she searches for deeper meaning in the subtle things. So for analysis' sake.... The color itself compliments Neve's playfulness and creates contrast to Dock Town's more or less neutral palette. It's a fun, vibrant color that makes a statement. It's also shared by the Shadow Dragons.
While Neve can be intimidating and is a badass, she's light and idealistic at heartâif you dig deep enough. All cynics at one point held hope in high esteem, before they were proven wrong one too many times, or maybe in one heinous letdown.
(*As a disclaimer, the color may not actually be turqoise. The symbolism as a vibrant and saturated color stays the same though, whatever the case.)
And⌠that brings us to the end of examining Neveâs Dragon Coat and what it shows us about her character. Any other thoughts, please share!
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I've seen some people compare Vax's resurrection in C3 to bringing back Molly (later revealed to be Kingsley) in C2E140. How do you think these two scenarios differ and why does one work and the other doesn't? Also, do you think C2 scenario would still work if Taliesin played it like it was in fact Molly that was brought back (as Mighty Nein originally believed) and not Kingsley?
Hi anon,
I mean, you kind of answer it here: Molly wasn't resurrected. Kingsley, a different aspect of the same fragmented soul within that body, was. This isn't bringing back someone who died; it's starting a new life from what was left. It's thematically coherent with the rest of the Nein's stories, both in terms of many of them coming together still getting over a devastating loss or change and becoming someone new in the ashes of that; and with the very specific endings of many of their stories: probably most obviously with Caleb, choosing to leave his parents to their rest and instead building his own life in the model of what he wanted before the Volstrucker training, but also with Beau embracing the Cobalt Soul, Yasha finding new love, Veth and her family restarting their lives in Nicodranas, Jester with a deeply altered but intact relationship with Artagan, Fjord with a new patron, and Caduceus with a renewed grove.
I admit in 2x140 I cheered that nat 1 on resurrection, and the success of the Divine Intervention gave me pause, particularly on the heels of such a fantastic moment between Essek and Fjord after it failed. I went into 2x141 with considerable trepidation, so Taliesin's choice to have Molly remain dead while still making the Divine Intervention mean something was an unexpected joy and some truly excellent storytelling. I do not think it would have worked well had he brought back Molly, though it wouldn't have been quite as egregious as Vax coming back, and I'll talk more about that at the end.
Vax coming back fails on every single level. On a basic level, there is really no mechanical or logical justification for it to happen. There is no attempt from Vox Machina to bring him back as a mortal. There is no reason for him to revert from celestial to mortal (and the fact that he'd already left at the top of the episode really underscores this; I'd still have my other complaints had he still been with Vox Machina at the time of Catatheosis but this really makes no sense); angels of the gods canonically remained such during the first time the gods became mortal. It is not something he asked for, nor Keyleth asked of the Matron. It simply occurs. Then, of course, there is what it means for the characters. What does it say that Keyleth never moved on? What does it say that Vax never gave her the space to do so and now she doesn't have to - particularly in the statements during 4SD that their actions both were somewhat unhealthy and that Vax's inability to let go is what enabled Ludinus's plan to succeed in the first place? What does it say, as this post points out, about Scanlan's choices?
And then there's what it says thematically across the entire decade of storytelling: What does it say about such stories as Orym's or Yasha's, about finding new love after loss? In a narrative where the party was faced with an incredibly difficult choice with far reaching effects (whether or not that narrative was well done, it was a story of choices) what does it say that Vax's conscious choice to become a revenant and have a few more days with the people he loved rather than remain dead was ultimately simply a long inconvenience?
And finally, what does it say about the casts' past statements? I was struck with the grace with which the cast handled the backlash from Molly's death. Liam spoke of the meaning of death in narratives; Ashly Burch shared an incredibly moving essay on the death of her partner at a young age; and the conversation on Talks in which Matt talked about the importance of death was one that at the time I dearly loved. In it, Taliesin pointed out the ephemeral and physical nature of Molly and the concept of that character, and how there was no way to bring back Molly without destroying the entire premise. The reason Molly wouldn't be as much of a failure is because at least it would have been driven by the actions and choices of the Mighty Nein, and that we did not have insight into how Molly felt about his demise.
Because that is the other thing. We've seen Vax multiple times since his death, at Vex and Percy's wedding and at the Malleus Key, and both times he was greatly changed and did not agree to stay. He didn't change his mind; it was changed for him. And in the casts' past statements, Liam has been an advocate (as he was in Molly's death) for the importance of death and tragedy. How does that square with all of what they said then?
It's damning that the only defenses of this decision have been entirely Doylist (when I have both Watsonian and Doylist critiques) - that Happy Endings Are Good. The thing is, Keyleth's story could have been a happy ending, as the Mighty Nein's was despite their loss. It was a choice to have Keyleth never get over it. That is, ultimately, the only choice that was honored. I do understand a desire for a happy ending, but I find this desire for not just a happy ending but a vanishingly narrow and particular one to be childish, self-indulgent, and destabilizing of previous storytelling integrity. The song Tokyo Sunrise always was in a major key, after all.
One thing that came to mind while I wrote this up was something a few people have pointed out about Dragon Age: The Veilguard, which is that it consistently has a message that prioritizing immediate catharsis often feels hollow in the end, and cuts off opportunities for growth and redemption, and the gameplay is consistent with that narrative. It can feel good to punch the First Warden, or to leave the mayor of D'Meta's Crossing to his fate, or imprison Illario, in the moment; but these all ultimately serve as a detriment to your goals. Even fighting or tricking Solas rather than giving him an ending on his own terms, the last choice you can make in a game that ends immediately after, is something many players have reported as feeling unrewarding after a day or two. I do wonder whether this decision, to bring back Vax, felt good in the moment, but will similarly sour and curdle in time.
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The level of tension Brennan is able to build in so little time and then maintain is both impressive and deeply distressing. Some Divergence episode one/character thoughts:
Erro!! Sad old mapmaker dragonborn who I love immediately. âGive and take and take and takeâŚâ A man whoâs too tired for optimism but appreciates it in others instead of miring them in his own darkness. Liam once again bringing that âirrevocably changed by loss and being so brave about it (or am I)â energy to the table and Iâm THRIVING.
Nia is so good, thereâs an edge to her but she so obviously wants to choose gentleness - but the kind of gentleness that sends a dying man off to rest, sweet but not saccharine. Is this really Celiaâs first time playing? Theyâre doing amazing and I want them in more games immediately.
Crokas is my son in real life actually, I raised him and keep him in my pocket and feed him little treats. Monitor lizard carrying the kids on his back is such a good visual Iâm weeping. I think dragonborns should nuzzle as a show of affection and also nothing bad should happen to any of them except that bronze asshole. Alex kills it with the creature sounds and physicality (I need to revisit la by night at some pointâŚ). Imagine making eye contact with a lightning strike and making it laugh.
Garenâs introduction set him up to be the naysayer, the pessimist, broken and tired, but the moment it became an option he wanted nothing more than to look for survivors and rebuild. He believes that there will be a future worth living, one worth fighting for, even after the end of the world. He got exactly one (two?) good rolls all night and weâre all very proud of Matt.
Fiedra is the hardest to read, but I was immediately obsessed with her crew and the dynamic she had with that guard. The dice undermined her but she seems to be a sharp, capable person who figured out how to assert control over her life while a prisoner, if only in small ways. I want to know where she came from and what she wants beyond pure survival - I want to know if she can even conceive of something beyond survival. The RP chemistry between Jasmine and Brennan makes me want to see her play in a more light-hearted game with him, theyâre a great match in terms of humour from the little bit we got to see.
#op#text#critical role#cr meta#sort of#exu divergence#erro moradaurum#fiedra marrow#nia saph#garen exu#crokas exu#critical role spoilers
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Pulling Punches
character: Din Djarin (The Mandalorian)
prompt: "Look, I know I probably should have backed off and I apologize." "No, honestly it was kind of hot." "What?"
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You sighed and set your hands on your hips, leaning close enough so that your muttered words could only be shared between the two of you. âDin, honestly. Iâll be fine in there.â You gestured with your head to the cantinaâs threshold. âJust stay out here and watch my back. Okay?â
Din shifted his weight between his feet and flexed one of his gloved hands. The other rose to adjust his vambrace. With a heavy exhale of defeat and a swing of his helmet, he relented. âFine.â His visor found you again. âJustâ.â
âBe careful.â You huffed and gave his armored shoulder a playful punch. âI know. I can handle myself.â You turned towards the door and spoke to him over your shoulder. âIâll be back in a few.â
With that, you strode forward. The door slid open for you, and you felt Dinâs gaze lingering on your back until the closing door made it impossible for him to see you any longer.
You rolled your eyes. Honestly, for a man who had yet to even mention the idea of being with you romantically, he was so unnecessarily protective.
The cantina on this world was crowded that night, practically shoulder-to-shoulder as you wove your way towards the actual bar. You were soon close enough to spot the familiar blue skin of the Twiâlek bartender, and after raising your hand and keeping your eye on them, you caught their attention. The Twiâlek woman smiled and waved you forward.
âSorry.â You smiled sheepishly as you stepped up to greet the bartender. âI know Iâm a bit late.â
The Twiâlek raised an unimpressed brow, despite the glint of fondness in her gaze. ââA bitâ? It was two full rotations.â
You shrugged. âKark happens.â You subtly scanned your surroundings and lowered your voice. âDo you still have it?â
The Twiâlek hummed a positive note as she finished pouring a drink. âItâs in the back.â She picked up the glass in her hand and nodded. âIâll go grab it.â
Your face softened in gratitude, even as your fists tightened on top of the bar. You wouldnât feel much better until the datacard was in your hands.
Just as you watched the blue Twiâlek disappear into a back room, the man on your left started to speak to you. âNever seen you here before.â
You huffed and cut your gaze at him. âMoved off world a few cycles ago.â
âMakes sense.â He shuffled closer to you. âIâd remember a face like yours.â
You let out a low chuckle and glanced over at him, amused. âOh, yeah?â
The man hummed his agreement and gave you an obvious once-over. âWhat brings you back here?â
You offered him a shrug. âJust visiting an old friend.â You gestured with your head to where the bartender had gone.
âWellâŚâ The manâs hand slid closer to yours on the bar top. âIâm glad you did.â
Your eyes narrowed as you looked him straight in the eye. âIâm not staying long.â
His brow rose slowly. âI wonât need long.â
You frowned and pulled your hand closer to yourself. âOkay, then let me make myself clear: I donât want whatever youâre trying to offer me.â
The man chuckled. âPlaying hard to get? Really?â
You crossed your arms, but kept your hands pulled tight into fists, ready to punch if you had to. âIâm not âplayingâ at all.â
The man lifted his hand as if he was about to set it on your shoulder. âThen let me help youâ.â
Whatever else he was saying was lost in the shuffle of someone stepping in between the two of you so quickly that you nearly jumped into the person on your right. The flash of silver was all you needed to see to identify who it was that had grabbed the manâs wrist so hard that you audibly heard it crack.
The man gasped in both pain and surprise, but Din didnât release his wrist, not even as he spoke. âLay a single hand on them, and Iâll cut it off.â
The man sputtered before he tried to snatch his wrist away from Din. âAlright, alright! Relax.â
âThis is me relaxed.â Din still didnât relinquish his grip. âYou donât want to see me when Iâm not. Do I make myself clear?â
The man huffed indignantly. âYeah, yeah! Whatever. Just let me go!â
You observed the attention you were suddenly getting and sighed. You pinched the bridge of your nose and closed your eyes. âLet him go, Din.â
Din hesitated, but you soon heard movement as he dropped the manâs hand. You reopened your eyes to see the man cradling his bruising wrist and glaring between both you and Din. His words were directed towards you when he spoke again. âYou could at least fight your own battles.â
You were ready to do exactly that, but Din beat you to it. He slammed his elbow into the back of the manâs head, forcing his front half to fold over the bar top, and then punched the manâs gut to make him fall back a few steps. Dinâs final hit was an uppercut that had the man knocked out in seconds.
The man hit the floor, and the cantina froze for a single moment in time as Din flexed both his hands and spoke to the limp body underneath him. âThey donât have to.â
You shouldâve been mortified by his actions, and part of you was, but mostly⌠you were hit with a rush of warmth that brought a fond smile to your lips. Din was always protective, sure, but this was something different. This was a fight to protect your honor.
Like he had said, a battle you could have fought on your own, but you didnât have to, because he wanted to do it for you.
Din then shook his helmet as if pulling himself out of a trance and turned around to face you. He took a step closer, as if he was about to start speaking, but your attention was pulled away by the bartender returning.
âHere.â The Twiâlek woman handed you the datacard, and you thanked her quietly. Her gaze fell to the man on the floor, and her brow raised as she let out a relived exhale. âOh, finally. Someone took care of that guy.â
You frowned in confusion. âWhat?â
The bartender nodded at the body. âGuyâs been harassing our patrons for weeks.â
âOh.â You looked down at the man and kicked his limp foot with your boot. âGood riddance.â
The Twiâlek huffed in agreement and only briefly looked between you and Din. She smiled and nodded towards the door. âBe safe out there.â
âAnd you be safe in here.â
With those words and a small smile of your own, you turned towards the door and started making your way out. It was admittedly easier, though, with Din at your side, as he had no trouble pushing people out of the way for both of you.
As soon as you were making your way back to the ship, Din began to speak. âLook.â
He let out a soft breath as his visor glanced over at you.
âI know I probably should have backed off.â He looked down at the fist heâd punched with and flexed it. âI apologize.â
You hummed, pretending to consider his apology. âNo. HonestlyâŚâ You shrugged. âIt was kind of hot.â
Dinâs helmet whipped towards you so fast that youâre surprised he didnât actually trip a step. âWhat?â
You laughed, shaking your head as you bumped your side against his. âIâm being serious!â
Dinâs helmet tilted at you. âBut youâre laughing.â
âBecause itâs funny.â
Din sighed. âWhatâs funny?â
You nodded at him. âYou being so shocked that I find you attractive.â
Din stiffened in clear embarrassment as he focused on the way ahead. âAre we really doing this here?â
You pretended to be disappointed. âSo, youâre saying you didnât do what you did because you find me attractive?â
Dinâs helmet turned towards you again. âI never said that.â
Your teasing smile was impossible to fight. âThen you do think Iâm attractive?â
Din suddenly stopped in his tracks, letting out an exhale heavy enough to make you hold back a laugh. He took you by the arm and pulled you aside to keep you out of the way as he responded.
âClearly. How many more people do I have to punch to make that obvious?â
You blinked at him before you burst out laughing again. "Din, there has to be a better way for you to tell me how you feel."
Din shrugged. "I was raised a fighter."
You raised an eyebrow at him. "Not a lover?"
"Jury's still out."
You snorted in amusement. Din, however, was quick to shift gears, his hand lowering from your arm to your back as his visor gave your surroundings a cautious glance.
"Now, can I please get you back to the ship safely, and then we can discuss this more properly?" He tilted his helmet at you. "Or, in your case, laugh about it."
You gave your eyes a playful roll, though the smile on your lips told a different story. "Fine." You nodded towards the way ahead. "Just try not to punch anyone else."
Din huffed and gave your back a gentle tap. "No promises."
Given what additional insight you had now regarding Din's motivations, you found your smile widening as you stayed close to his side, at last fully grateful to be within his protective reach.
#happy valentine's day! a new din piece has been long overdue <3#din djarin#the mandalorian#din djarin x reader#din djarin fanfiction#din djarin fic#the mandalorian fanfiction#prompts#dindjarindiaries
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That's so funny. I guess they toned down the anomaly imagery to make it slightly more ambiguous what was happening here, but... they're literally engulfed by an anomaly, both in the mortal realm and astral plane (or whatever we call these places).
You need two ingredients to teleport in Arcane: an anomaly and the acceleration rune.
They have both bc Ekko throws the Z-drive in Viktor's face which creates the anomaly. They're doing the exact same thing! All imagery is suggesting that they're activating a spell.
It's also not only identical visually, the impact sound is exactly the same too.
There's only two reasons why they would've removed the 3D style anomaly around Jayce and Viktor in their final moment and that is
a) they're trying to make it more ambiguous as to what's happening so the ending becomes open for interpretation (and leaves the door open to bring characters back whenever they want, like with Jinx) and
b) the 3D style anomaly is too strong visually and detracts from Jayce and Viktor's intimate moment. They simplified it into the 2D effect style and put it above them so we can focus on the characters.
It's still there, though.
JAYVIK NATION WAKE UP KEYFRAMES JUST DROPPED SHOWCASING THAT JAYCE AND VIKTOR MIGHTâVE SURVIVEDâźď¸âźď¸âźď¸
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(Jayce and Viktor enveloped in a manifestation of what looks identical to the Arcane that teleported Ekko to the correct timeline)
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(Credit to twitter user Dexoden for pointing out the details of the teleportation lining up exactly. Theyâre stretched in an identical manner, down to the colour scheme, which is unlike any other behaviour weâve seen the Arcane exhibit. WE WIN!!)
HOW WE FEELING
#arcane#didn't know this was contested lmao they are literally doing all the steps for a teleportation spell#there's finality to Jayce's final lines tho so that also helps with the âoh shit this is itâ feeling#but they're def casting a spell#they just don't know where that will lead them
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Hey :3
could you please write arcane women with a chronically ill user? Especially a FAINTING CONDITION, I have one and I would love to see how would they react and take care!!
of course! thank you for the request <3
disclaimer that i do not have any experience with this kind of condition. i did some research and did my best to portray them accurately, but as always, iâm open to feedback.
summary; headcanons of arcane women and fem!reader with a fainting condition.
characters included; jinx, vi, mel, sevika, caitlyn
tags/warnings; hurt/comfort, fluff, chronically ill!reader, mentions of fainting (duh), medical talk
men dni.
jinx;
â§.* the first time it happened, jinx was in absolute shock. one second you were upright, talking to her about your latest endeavors. the next second, you looked a bit out if it, like your vision was starting to blur and you were becoming disconnected from reality. the next second, your body was going limp, and jinx was scrambling to catch you.
â§.* it'd be an understatement to say that she was panicking. she's shaking you, yelling at you, trying to manipulate you into a sitting position so she can try and figure out what's wrong. she got so desperate that she ended up pouring some cold water over your face, and that was what brought you back to consciousness.
â§.* she's bombarding you with questions as soon as she sees your eyes begin to blink open.
â§.* "what happened, toots?!" she'd ask, or, "you went all... blank, then nothing. what's that about?"
â§.* she can come off as a bit blunt with her questions, but she doesn't mean anything by it. jinx is just a girl with little to no filter- she genuinely is concerned.
â§.* you take a few moments to come back to your senses, all the while jinx is sat next to you with a hand gripping your knee, tight. it's both for you and herself, for jinx to reassure herself that you're here, you're alive, and you're (hopefully) okay.
â§.* once you're in a sound state, you explain to jinx that you have a fainting condition. you'd meant to tell her earlier, but it kept slipping your mind, until you'd actually fainted. you reassure her that it's nothing life-threatening, nothing that'll put you in danger (in most situations).
â§.* jinx still worries, of course she does. she worries about you when you're just going to the convenience store to grab water bottles, so her anxiety when you tell her about your condition is off the charts. regardless, she tries to hone it in and trust your word. you've lived with it for years, and you know your own health better than she does.
â§.* after the first conversation, jinx doesn't bring it up often. of course she'll talk about your condition if you're the one to mention it, but she doesn't want you to feel like she's treating you any differently.
â§.* tries to distract you with colorful smoke bombs, affection, and jokes after you regain consciousness most of the time. peppering your face in purposely wet and rushed kisses in an attempt to see you smile. she knows it'll take you some time to come to, but she wants you to be in good spirits when you do! jinx hates a lot of things, but none quite as much as seeing you unhappy or in distress.
â§.* but she keeps both her hideout and her bags stashed with things that'll help in case of another fainting spell. if there's one thing that jinx is, it's observant. she knows every one of your habits, your little quirks. she could write a damn novel full of things about you that you haven't even noticed about yourself.
â§.* and if she notices those telltale signs- your eyes beginning to cloud, starting to space out, losing your balance, she's on it. water is a given, she'll also usher you to sit or lie down so that you can focus on your breathing. if it's bad enough, jinx will try to guide you through some breathing exercises, even though she doesn't have a clue what she's doing. she's trying her best :(
â§.* "you're lookin' all... far away again. sit down, toots, breathe." she'd say, her face getting impossibly close to yours, thick brows furrowed.
â§.* does as much research as possible! there's not much that frustrates jinx than not being able to understand something. these things are like a puzzle to her in a way. she wants to be able to analyze, understand, and help. she knows there's really nothing she can do to prevent fainting spells, as much as she wishes she could. regardless, helping you through them becomes one of her most important self-appointed duties.
â§.* if she sees you standing for a bit too long, your girlfriend would make sure to ask you to take a little break. she doesn't want you to start getting lightheaded and have another spell when it might be preventable
â§.* jinx would also make sure that you're not close to any hard surfaces or corners if she notices you right on the brink of fainting. the last thing that she needs is you to hit your head on the corner of a table.
â§.* "hey- hey! get away from there," a jumbled mess of words, before wrapping her arms around your waist, slowly pulling you away from near a hard counter and supporting your fall.
â§.* she becomes pretty good pretty quick! it just gave her a scare at first is all :(
vi;
â§.* it was one of the first things you'd told vi when you first began dating- that you have a fainting condition. you faint from time to time, there's signs, and you can't control it. it happens, and it's bound to worry her, but you're okay.
â§.* she'd hear you and listen to you, vi always does. but i don't think the magnitude of your words would really sink in until the first time she witnessed a fainting spell of yours, and she was in shock.
â§.* she was utterly panicked. holding you across her lap, checking your pulse at both your wrist and neck, shaking you, trying to talk to you, anything.
â§.* it seems fruitless, and vi can feel tears beginning to prick at the corners of her eyes. she didn't realize the sheer depth of what you'd said until now, and the girl is internally beating herself up for it. you told her you had a fainting condition, of course you'd faint! how could she have not been prepared?
â§.* but eventually, you do start to regain consciousness. she immediately holds you close to her chest, whispering quiet and rushed 'ohthankjanna's and 'you're okay, aren't you? please tell me you're okay.'
â§.* it takes a moment for you to return back to consciousness, weary eyes looking up at vi. you can only slowly nod. it's not much of an answer, but it's satisfactory for vi- letting her know that you hear her and you're alright.
â§.* "i'm so sorry i wasn't prepared, you told me and i still-" "vi, love, stop. it's fine, i'm fine."
â§.* she makes sure that she's prepared for next time. she doesn't want to make you feel as if you're delicate, like you can't take care of yourself. vi knows you're more than capable, but still, she's your girlfriend and she wants to look out for you.
â§.* she asks you to describe everything to her- how you know itâs getting bad, what works to help you both before and after the fact. itâs vi trying to understand exactly what you need, rather than simply assuming.
â§.* after those conversations, your girlfriend does grow to recognize the signs and symptoms you have rather quickly. the moment she sees you start to look a little out of it, sheâs pulling you away from anything you could fall onto, coaxing you to lay down or sit down with your head between your knees.
â§.* âhey, hey. sit down, okay? iâve got ya, cupcake,â sheâd whisper, her hand rubbing gentle circles into the small of your back. sheâd press light kisses to your temple, plump lips a reminder of her presence and affections.
â§.* thereâs always a few water bottles in her bag just in case though, and some snacks (your favorites, too) whenever she feels you may need them.
â§.* while vi did freak out after the first fainting spell you had, she learns to manage them soon after. now that youâve talked to her and she knows what to expect, she can rest assured that youâre alright and youâll come to with a bit of time and support.
â§.* once you do regain consciousness, she doesnât make a big deal of it. VERY affectionate, though. sheâs just so happy that youâre doing alright, she canât help it⌠chaste kisses to your lips and tight embraces when she notices your light grumbles and your eyes fluttering open.
â§.* if you were having a conversation before fainting, sheâd wait out the episode, then continue the discussion like nothing had happened. while vi absolutely worries, she doesnât want to make you uncomfortable or feel like sheâs only focusing on what happened. unless you want to talk about it of course!
â§.* âyouâre okay, right?â âmhm⌠just a little hiccup,â youâd murmur. âright. where were we?â
mel;
â§.* mel has seen people faint several times in her life and career, but iâd imagine youâre the first person sheâs met with a fainting condition.
â§.* mel is a stellar listener, though. once you inform her of your condition, your symptoms, how it affects your daily life and how you navigate it, sheâs taken everything to heart. mel may not fully understand, but she wants to try the best that she can.
â§.* asks a lot of questions. your girlfriend isnât trying to interrogate you or pry any information from you, instead just trying to grasp your condition better. trying to prepare for the inevitable fainting spells you have and know exactly how to handle them. questions like âhow do you know one is upon you?,â or âwhat do you think helps best, when itâs said and done?â
â§.* so the first time that sheâd witnessed an episode, mel knew exactly what to do. she saw the undeniable signs; the far-off look, the light sheen of sweat, the way you were ever so slightly off-balance. she sprung into action and guided you by your shoulders to lay down, legs above your chest and encouraged you to simply breathe through it.
â§.* âyouâre sweating, love. and you look like youâre having trouble focusing,â sheâd say- a statement, rather than a question. mel would take you by your shoulders and guide you to one of the lush couches in her home, ushering you to lay down. âcome on, breathe. in, out⌠like that, yes.â
â§.* though she gets some close calls and is able to help sometimes, mel knows that she canât always prevent a fainting spell. but sheâs always there to break your fall, hold you across your lap, brush stray strands of hair from your face and run soft thumbs across your cheeks until you come back to.
â§.* so incredibly sweet and attentive once you come back to your senses. mel is peppering gentle kisses across your cheeks, forehead, the bridge of your nose, the corner of your lips. a light sheen from her lip gloss remains on your skin. sheâll take your hands in hers, whispering sweet nothings into your ear while your fingers intertwine with her own.
â§.* âyou scared me there, darling,â sheâd tease, soft lips brushing against your temple. âbut thatâs alright. youâre okay now, arenât you?â
â§.* doesnât dwell on it, though. mel doesnât want this to be the focus of your day if you donât want it to be, so sheâll give you your kisses and cuddles before letting go and continuing on with whatever you were doing, unless you ask her to keep giving you that affection. in which case she is more than happy to oblige!
â§.* she does have connections with doctors just in case she feels you may need one. it rarely gets to that point, but having those emergency contacts puts melâs mind at ease. if you were to take a little too long to wake up, she didnât react quickly enough and couldnât break your fall, sheâd know exactly who to go to.
â§.* mel has all of the essentials packed at all times. water, snacks, even a device to track your blood pressure when necessary. sheâs stocked constantly, youâll never want or need for anything with mel.
â§.* âthat looked rough,â sheâd say, crouching next to your form and holding out a bottle of spring water. âdrink some of this, okay? even if you feel alright, itâll make me feel better.â
sevika;
â§.* you swore that youâd meant to tell her, you were just waiting for an opportunity. a minute of peace in her chaotic days, maybe a tranquil moment after all the rough jobs and rushed fights.
â§.* but the âright timeâ never came, sevika is a busy woman after all. by the time you have a moment to yourselves, sevika is washing up in preparation for bed, her eyelids already drooping. you know you need to tell her about your condition at some point, but you don't want to spring it on your girlfriend while she's this tired.
â§.* so when you're out at the casino, the woman playing a heated game of blackjack with you and a few of her old friends and you suddenly slump in your seat, sevika has no idea what's hit her. immediately she drops her cards, rushing to your side of the table to shake you, talk to you, desperately try to get you back to her.
â§.* "shit- dove, what happened?" she's saying. her voice is rushed and panicked, much unlike her usual gruff demeanor. "come on, please wake up..."
â§.* she stays by your side the entire time, simply waiting for you to wake up. her friends can wait, the game can wait, and she doesn't pay any mind to the lingering stares of other patrons. all that sevika can think about in this moment is you, and your well-being. she's never seen this from you before. she's panicked internally, but she's good at putting on a brave face for you.
â§.* the second your eyelids begin to flutter open, sevika is all over you. she was panicked, and most of all she was scared. as irrational as it may be, part of her was afraid that she was losing you- even though she was able to take note of the subtle rise and fall of your chest, and the fact your pulse was still steady.
â§.* once you're back to feeling yourself, fully, sevika would pull you out of the casino and onto the street for more 'privacy' (not much of that in zaun). sheâs immediately going down a list of questions- if youâre okay, what happened, what caused it, if this is a recurring issue, and if you knew this would happen.
â§.* you explained to her, your gaze downcast and voice tinged with a hint of guilt. âiâm sorry, sev. i meant to tell you, just⌠the time wasnât ever right.â she let out a heavy sigh, crossing her arms over her chest and shaking her head. though sheâs a bit shaken up by what just happened, sevika canât bring herself to be mad at you. she understands where youâre coming from.
â§.* "there is no 'right time,'" she said, hand on your shoulder. her thumb rubbing slow circles against the fabric of your shirt. "you can tell me these things, especially when they involve you fainting." her tone is firm, yet there's no anger or malice behind it.
â§.* from that point on, you've been more open and willing to express things without the fear of timing or anything similar. you discuss your symptoms with her, the way your condition affects your daily life, how you work around it, the like. she listens and makes mental notes of everything you say, even trying to read between the lines at some points. sevika is that devoted and that concerned for your well-being. she wants to make sure she's prepared for whatever comes and she's able to be a good girlfriend through it :(
â§.* her home is STACKED with cases of water bottles, any medications that might help, and your favorite snacks. she's already made a substantial effort to make her once uninviting place more comfortable for you, but now she goes the extra mile- and you didn't even ask her to.
â§.* after a while, sevika comes to expect fainting spells and knows when they're coming on. she'll stay close to you, trying to talk to you and ground you in the moment- having you sit down, try to look at her, try to focus. but she knows that eventually you'll likely faint, and that's alright. as long as you're in a safe environment and she's able to look out for you, your girlfriend's mind is at ease.
â§.* âdove, youâre about to-â sheâll move to hold your shoulders, gently guiding you to a place away from any hard surfaces. âsit here, alright? iâll get you some water.â
caitlyn;
â§.* it was one of the first conversations youâd had with caitlyn when you begun dating. now that youâre spending more time with the woman, you know itâs best to inform her before she finds out by you actually fainting.
â§.* caitlyn doesnât immediately understand your condition, sheâs never met somebody with a condition like yours before. however, she absolutely does want to understand and as soon as youâre finished talking, she takes a trip to one of piltoverâs libraries to do some reading.
â§.* she reads about your condition, its symptoms, and how fainting spells can be treated. the signs that one is approaching. caitlyn would also read a few medical papers for good measure, just to see what professionals recommend. this is of the upmost importance to her.
â§.* the first time caitlyn was witness, you were thankfully in the comfort of her own home. helping her cook dinner, reaching up to the cupboards for some spices before you felt lightheadedness set in. caitlyn is perceptive- she noticed almost immediately.
â§.* she wrapped an arm loosely around your waist, trying to support the inevitable fall as she pressed soft kisses to your cheeks. "hey, i'm with you," she whispered. she didn't want to necessarily coddle you, but she wanted to remind you that she's there, first and foremost.
â§.* caitlyn feels you slump against her. she's keeping that same stoic face she's so known and feared for, but underneath the surface, she's terrified. terrified that you're not really okay, even though you've assured her this happens regularly and you're alright every time. terrified that she's doing something wrong, or even making things worse.
â§.* it takes a few moments, some gentle brushes of her hand against your arm in a motion meant more to reassure caitlyn, but you come back to.
â§.* "there you are, love," she murmurs, her hold on you tightening the slightest bit. "that was... scary."
â§.* "i'm alright, cait," you whisper, a weak smile on your face in an effort to reassure her. "i'm sure it's scary for you, but i'm okay. i promise."
â§.* caitlyn takes your word for it, you know yourself best. but even so, she can't help the nagging fears in the back of her mind, no matter how hard she tries to get rid of them. she's got water- expensive water stocked up, snacks, over-the-counter medical equipment, the like, all in her home for you.
â§.* her worries subside with time, but they never completely go away. they likely never will. she's your girlfriend, after all :( but she grows accustomed to fainting spells and almost-fainting spells as part of life. she's observant and intuitive, and cait is able to spring into action the moment she notices something is wrong.
â§.* "alright, that's enough," she'd say, her voice gentle yet firm. guiding you from the table you're cleaning. she sees the way you're starting to become a bit wobbly on your feet, and how your gaze isn't as focused. "i'll take it from here. lie down, love, i'll get you something to eat. alright?"
â§.* caitlyn is observant, but she doesn't ask for you to give her more than you're willing. verbally, she won't pry, she won't check in too often (unless she sees you looking unwell), she won't ask too many questions.
#jinx x reader#vi x reader#mel medarda x reader#sevika x reader#arcane x reader#arcane x you#lesbian#sapphic#caitlyn kiramman x reader#reader insert
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Who Will Catch Me When You're Gone?
Content Tags: Platonic Sobin, major character death, grief, depression, major character undeath
Inspired by this beautiful art by @tarraing
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When they found Steve, broken and bloody and scraped raw from the bats, all Robin could think about was that Steve's favorite sweatpants were ruined. She'd never understood those things or how someone so obsessed with fashion could wear them, but he'd always loved how comfortable they were. She razzes him about it every time he wears them.
Now they're ruined. Dirty and ripped.
She can hear Nancy ordering them to help her and Eddie freaking out but it's all just white noise to her right up until the moment everything comes flooding back in and the world has never been louder. Her breathing is deafening like she's trying to breathe for both of them.
Steve isn't breathing.
Steve isn't breathing but somehow she still is.
One moment she's stuck watching Nancy Wheeler try to patch her soulmate back together the next she's doing it for her so Nancy can start CPR. Eddie has stopped freaking out, she is dimly aware of him standing behind her, hovering because he doesn't know how to help. Doesn't know if there's any way to help.
Robin knows she's talking but it doesn't matter what she's saying. She doesn't think Steve can hear her. How could anything she says matter when her best friend isn't there to hear it? But she can't make herself stop, just in case.
But Steve never hears her. Nancy pushes on his chest and forces air into his lungs until her arms are shaking and she doesn't have enough strength to move his chest anymore. Then Robin takes over even though she has no idea what she's doing. Even though Nancy and Eddie are trying to tell her it's no use, that they need to go.
Like she could leave him here.
Then she's kicking and screaming because they're trying to pull her away. She's biting down on Eddie's ringed hand and kicking out into Nancy's ribs. She's not leaving, she's not. She can't do that to Steve, would rather lie down next to him, take his hand, and let the bats find her than leave him behind.
The last thing she sees before someone knocks her in the head is Steve's eyes, open and empty and staring right at her.
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When Robin wakes up she's surrounded by people, but no one says a thing. She sees Dustin, red-eyed and empty standing in a corner across from the couch she's been placed on. Max won't look at her, Erica is glued to her side, Eddie looks lost, and Nancy looks like a block of steel. Steve isn't anywhere to be found.
But then again, Robin knew that. She'd know if Steve was her because their hearts beat as one, but now her chest feels empty. It's Max, brave, scared Max, who breaks the silence. Robin doesn't hear it. Doesn't listen as people start explaining plans around them. Can't channel the righteous fury she sees in Nancy, Dustin, and Max or the barely concealed fear in Eddie and Erica. All she feels is empty.
She's going to do whatever they want her to do because she knows it's what Steve would do. Knows without a shadow of a doubt that if she was the one lying dead in the Upside Down he would be on a war path in her name, so she needs to do the same.
When she launches that last fire bomb into Vecna's ugly head, it's a hallow victory.
Everyone else survives. The Byers move back to Hawkins. The town starts to rebuild. The big bad is gone for good.
But it doesn't mean anything to her. She lies in bed most days without saying a word. She lets her parents dote on her, listens passively as they try to remind her of the college acceptance letters waiting for her on the kitchen counter. Manages to sit up and smile just a little when Eddie brings Dustin and Erica by to see her. Cries with the two of them tucked under her arms, all three of them aware of how vulnerable they feel without a strong pair of arms wrapped around their other side.
Robin asks Eddie to hang back one day and makes a request. The next day he comes by with a clean needle and a pot of ink and Robin sits motionless as he engraves a sunflower inner her wrist, somewhere she'll always be able to see it. She always swore to Steve that she would never get a tattoo, too freaked out by the possibility of an infection, but those fears feel so distant now that the worst thing that could happen has come to pass. She catches Eddie with one of his own to match the next week.
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A month goes by. She doesn't leave the house, even when Dustin comes by to beg her.
Then two. She can tell her parents are starting to really worry. They've given up trying to get to college and started trying to get her to think about therapy.
Then Five. She started going to work again. She puts on her Family Video vest and thinks about Steve. She walks through the door and imagines Steve leaning over the counter. Keith turns on Back to The Future and she goes home with a panic attack. She doesn't speak unless it's necessary, but she's trying to move forward. She knows it's what Steve would want for her, even on the days when it's not what she wants for herself.
And then Six months pass. There's a tap at her window.
She ignores it, at first. She refuses to go to a shrink, there are too many things she can't say to the ones her parents recommend, and she won't accept anything from those government goons who turned her best friend into a soldier. Into cannon fodder. Instead, she writes letters.
She sits down at her desk once a day and pours her heart out to Steve. She lets herself pretend for a few moments every day that he's just been dragged away by his parents for a few months. He's out there somewhere in the world relying on her to keep her updated on the kids and the drama at work and herself until she can go out and join him, wherever he is. Some days she writes about nothing at all, some days she rages at him for leaving her behind, sometimes she speculates about their future where she goes to college wherever he is and they get an apartment and two dogs. She seals every one in an envelope, tucks them in a drawer, and lets herself breathe in that perfect fantasy for just a moment. It's the best part of her day, and nothing can tear her away from it.
Except the tapping doesn't stop.
And Robin lives on the second floor.
And everyone she knows would just come through the front door.
She turns, so slowly, toward the window. The glare from her bedside lamp makes it impossible to see anything through it, but she doesn't need to.
There are fingers, claws, forcing their way under the sill. She sucks in a sharp breath as they curl upward, crashes to the ground as they start to pull.
She's scrambling back, getting ready to scream and make a run for the walkie she leaves on silent on her desk to call for help. To warn the others that their monsters are back before it mows her down.
But then the window gives way and she stops. Stops everything.
Because the thing in her window is wearing her best friend's face. It's wearing his hair and his moles and his stupid fucking sweatpants.
And at the end of the day it doesn't actually matter what he looks like. It doesn't matter if there are new hinges in his jaw to show off new, shark-like teeth. It doesn't matter mater if he can't say anything besides a hissed, garbled rendition of her name. It doesn't even matter when he latches onto her wrist, right above that little sunflower, and sucks, taking just enough blood to make her light-headed.
Because she can feel his heartbeat pounding along with her own, perfectly in sync.
Because she's not alone, anymore.
#in my stobbin feels again#they will be buried in the same grave#and of course#a little hint of implied steddie#because I can't resist#stobin#platonic stobin#implied steddie#NOT the focus though#strange things#fanfiction#dreamer speaks#robin buckley#steve harrington#eddie munson#nancy wheeler#cw major character death#cw grief#cw depression
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DAISUKE EATING THEIR PARTNER WHILE THEY PLAY VIDEO GAMES.
My first ask!? Omg hehehe, I've been waiting for this day! Of course, theres others lined up too, but I would love more suggestions in the future! Thank you and for your patience hears your prize! It a bit short... but bear with me. I've been busy lately!!
Girls And Video Games
The ship was quiet today, nothing needing fixing and Curly was letting everyone take the day off. You decided why not go to your boyfriends room and hangout with his cool toys?
You grabbed a blanket and some snacks from your room to go down to his. You heard some music and what sounded like daisuke cursing.
"Fuck!" You heard as you opened the door. He was sitting on his bed with his headphones plugged in. You could see he was playing Mario kart on hamis switch. You came over to him and light tapped his shoulder.
He jumped, "Shit!"
"Heyy!" You said sitting down. Daisuke threw his arms on you, pulling ykj down on the soft bedding. "Babeeee! Hi, what have you been doing!? You sleep good? Miss me? Love you! Did you come to see meee? Oh you shouldn't have!" He was overly excited for you and it made you giggle on the inside. He kissed all over your face and neck, "Mm~ someone smells really fucking good!" He said, taking a deep breath in. You squirm, feeling his hair tickle you.
"Heyy! I didn't come here for thisss! I came cause you said you'd let me play Super Smash Bros with you!" You pushed his shoulders gently. He pulled back, kissing your forehead.
He sat back to set the game up for you two. He slipped to the floor to sit between your legs. "Kay baby, choose your character! Me, I fuck with King Dee Dee Dee." (Yall please, he's my fave cause he's so cute... imma Kirby gurl though.)
"Donky Kong." You said. He looked up at you, those brown eyes that mesmerized you. He gave you a tight, "Pfft."
You scoffed, rolling your eyes, "What!?"
"Stop grabbing. " He said dryly.
"Stop, smashing." You said.
"Get closer you coward." You said with an annoyed grin.
Daisuke rolled his eyes and started the match.
As the game went on, you both became heated. Throwing insults and raged outbursts until eventually.
"Fuck you, I won!" You said. He looked up itu a goofy smile, "Cause I let you. Stupid girl~"
Your face felt hot, looking away from him and ruffling his hair. You decided on playing animal crossing while he laid between your thighs, lovingly squeezing and kissing them.
You were too far gone trying to fish and fuck around going bankrupt, not noticing his advances.
He slowly started nipping and sucking your thighs, groaning internally as he did. You moaned a bit when he slowly trailed his lounge over the sensitive spots he bruised.
"What are you-?"
"Hush, and continue playing. You're making me bankruot, might as well pay me?" He said in a low voice. He sounded bored and out if it, but you knew he had a motive.
You continued playing while he was still being mischievous. You felt him turn around fully, his breath ghosting over your thighs. He took his hand and pushed your stomach until you laid all the way back.
"You okay dai?" You asked still not looking down at what he was doing. He responded with a mumbled yes and started slowly bringing your shorts down. You whined and he quietly shushed you, "Hush, last time I got caught it wasn't so good for me. Be good baby."
He continued on, kissing down your stomach until he made it to your panties. Like he was unprovoked on the position he put you in, he pushed your legs apart until they were wide enough for him to slip between.
You were trying to distract yourself from the growing wetness dampening your panties. He licked a long stripe up your clothed cunt before settling on your clit.
Slow licks that sent shock down your spine and made you slightly moan. He pushed them aside slowly, watching you stick to them slightly.
"Holy shit. I haven't done anything to you yet~ Selfish girl." He purred. You jolted, his tongue seeped between your quivering folds, licking up your sweet fluids like it was sweetener, earning a rich and satisfied groan.
"Fuck you're delicious. So fucking good." He whispered against you.
You were trembling, trying to hold the console in your hands while simultaneously indulging in such lewd acts against your body. Your back arched unconsciously when his tongue swirled aroudn your sensitive clit.
"Ah- shit!" You moaned, unable to keep focus. He gave a small smirk, spitting on your clit and licking it off.
Two arms locked your legs around his shoulders and gently he began undoing your most sensitive spots and making you a mess.
He started shaking his head, suckling your precious pearl like it was candy.
He had a knack for eating messily. Leaving you drenched in saliva and your juices down your ass and onto the bed.
"H-hey! Wait!" But it was too late. His tounge traced a singular line up, leaving you aching. The pleasure he gave you was on another planet.
You felt the coils in your stomach coming undone, arching and grinding into his face, wanton moans leaving your wet lips.
"Dai! I'm gonna-" and then he stopped. That pressure building ceased and left you with this buzzed feeling downway.
You shot up immediately to see what the problem was, for a second you thought you did something so you were cautious to make sure he wasn't hurt or anything, but he was smiling up at you, "Mm? Sorry, pretty, not yetâĄ"
"What!? What the hell, if this is about earlier, I won fair and square! You're being a tease and I wanted to cum why!?" You were pouting, he loved that. It made him stiff, but that was for later, right now though...
He stood up, grabbing a joystick and sitting beside you, "Well, I'm a sore loser, so best two out of three?"
"If you lose daisuke, I'm going to fuck you up do for this." You snarled. Daisyke didn't care, though. He knew a way to best you fair and square without even cheating. Beating you at a game of, "Jumpforce?"
"No. Dude that's fucking cheating cause you know I'm bad at that! Can't we just have fucking sex!" You whined.
"No, you're being a baby right now, Y/N~" He sung to you, his fingers trailed your thigh to your cunt. He split your thighs apart, slipping his fingers tontouch your clit. You moaned, "Daosuke~"
He licked your neck before sucking it, "Stop being a whine and play the game baby~"
"You're such a tease, daisuke. Such a fucking tease."
#mouthwashing#mouthwashing x reader#anya mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#daisuke x reader#oc x canon#oc x daisuke
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HALLOWEENIE. [3]
skully j. graves x (female) reader cw: nsfw, retail au, smoking, modern au (no magic), cheesy workplace romance, may be ooc (some creative liberties were taken for various aspects of skully's character and may not align with characteristics shown in tnbc event), characters written as 18+ note - skully returns for another season of work at fellow honest's halloween store. is this the year he finally musters the courage to confess to his cherished coworker, or is it going to be another year spent with his nose buried in his poetry journal? // split into three parts due to size. read part one and part two.
Fellow saves everyone from the nail-biting tension by not scheduling you and Skully together, which takes the duo out of his prized Dynamic Duo. Now youâre just a disaster. Skully doesnât fade into obscurity, though. Rather, heâs ever-present in your thoughts. You think about him when you drag yourself down the halls at school, occasionally sticking your head into the drama club or the music room in hopes of spotting him. Youâre not sure why. Youâve never had anything to do with either of those spaces, but now youâre haunting them like a pesky poltergeist in search of something just out of your grasp.
Thatâs what it feels like to have this cavern open up between you and him. As if youâre confined to separate worlds. You dwell in the realm of the dead and Skully exists in flesh. Itâs impossible to cross paths like this.
No one seems to know of him either, which makes him seem more cryptid than he actually is. When you interrupt a drama club meeting with, âWhich one of you nerds knows Skully J. Graves?â they blink owlishly at you.
Youâre beginning to think he really is the ghost and youâre actually the living person.
Youâve considered visiting him during one of his shifts, but then youâd be no better than Salad Fingers.
This is so lame. Why do I care so much? I shouldnât, you think, scrolling on your phone while Rollo does inventory for Fellow. You search for Skullyâs number before remembering you never exchanged contact information.
âYour moping is bringing sales down.â Fellow raps his cane against the linoleum to get your attention.
âIâd argue itâs bringing in more business. Not often the customers get to see me without my usual swag.â
âThatâs what sheâs calling it?â Rollo mutters from behind his clipboard.
âMiss (Name), it pains me to see you in such a tizzy. Skully hasnât been any better, I assure you.â
You perk up at the mention of him. âWhat does he say? Does he talk about me? Does he hate me? Should I disappear forever and never return to this town?â
âWhoa, whoa! Where is this coming from? Honestly, the youth are so complicated nowadays.â Itâs a whack from Gidelâs hammer that sets Fellow straight. âAhem! Right. What I meant to say was that itâs obvious this situation is causing a fair bit of trouble for both of you. These conditions limit your ability to work as you normally would. As your boss, I should only intervene when itâs truly detrimental, but as someone with a brain I think weâd all benefit from a quick solution to this mess.â
âBelieve meâif I could wave my magic wand and fix this, I would. But we canât just kiss and make up. I hurt his feelings.â You run your finger over your phone and catch your shattered expression in the cracked screen. âNo amount of apologizing can undo that.â
âYou ought to know he asks after you.â
âNo, he doesnât.â
âItâs true,â Rollo adds. âIncessantly.â
âWhy?â When all three of them look at you like it couldnât be more obvious, you throw your arms up. âNo one answer that. Iâll take you out back and curb you if you do.â
âI wonât speak on Skullyâs behalf, but I believe itâs rational to assume he would never want you to disappear.â
âAnd he certainly wouldnât hate you. Goodness, I donât think that boy has the heart to harbor hate.â
âNo, he does. He definitely does,â comes your and Rolloâs swift correction.
Gidel opens to a page in his notebook, where heâs doodled you and Skully holding hands in a heart. It reminds you of the flower wreath, which still resides on your desk even though the flowers are beginning to curl up and wilt.
You groan and slump in your chair, arms hanging limply at your sides. âHalloweenâs in two weeks! If I canât find some way to make it up to him, heâs gonna spend his favorite holiday sad and miserable.â
âHeartbreak isnât something you can simply mend with goodwill. Itâs a process. You heal over time.â Melancholy descends on Rolloâs face. You get the feeling heâs weathered the woes of a broken heart before. If anyone understands loss, itâs Rollo Flamme.
He loves me and I crushed him.
âYou donât think I gave him false hope, do you?â
âYou couldnât have known.â
âEven though it was as clear as glass to anyone looking in,â Fellow murmurs, and you choose to ignore that. âWell, whatâs done is done. ClichĂŠ as it sounds, you can only move forward from here.â
You lift yourself off the chair and stretch. âIâll grab the broom and get to sweeping.â
âDonât bother. We wonât do all of that tonight.â
âOoh, looks like someone was bitten by the bug of benevolence. How sweet.â
Fellow chuckles and collects the completed inventory from Rollo. âYouâre free to go. Iâll see you tomorrow. And, Miss (Name), try to get some sleep.â
Immediately, you open the camera on your phone to check for any noticeable signs of sleep deprivation. Finding none, you scowl at Fellow.
âNot funny. I actually thought you were being serious.â
âBut you checked.â
âThat she did,â Rollo notes with a small grin.
âBecause youâugh. You couldâve just said my shoes are untied.â You click past the both of them in your Mary Jane pumps. âWhat does it matter if Iâm losing sleep?â
âAre you?âÂ
âIâm not. Shut up.â
Youâll bury yourself alongside the worms and maggots before you confide in them about your recent sleepless nights, each one punctuated with a replay of your fight with Skully and all the ways it couldâve gone differently had you just been honest.
There are two sides to your honesty: the lies that can pass as the truth and the actual truthâthe truth you were keen to shelve ever since it cropped up.
The truth that feels a little like the onset ofâŚ
You wonât dwell on it or the profound consequence it has on tonightâs dreams.
Youâd praise the convenience that is small town logic if it applied to Skully. In this foothill town enshrouded in trees and mountain peaks, everyone knows everyone. Students only have one choice for university, and itâs a dinosaur-aged institution thatâs probably seen every era and more with countless graduating classes having been fostered in its brick walls. If youâre searching for someone, you shouldnât have to look very far. Inevitably, youâll stumble upon someone who knows someone who knows someone who can get you into contact with that person. Everyoneâs stapled into the paper chain here.
Everyone except Skully, apparently.Â
It continues to baffle you that no oneânot even any of the students in his classes or clubâknows of his existence.
âSkully J. Graves,â you stress to the head of the drama club, who stares absently in reply. âHeâs literally in your club. White hair, glasses, tall, kinda nerdy but overall really sweet. Does any of that ring a bell?â
When youâre met with silence from him and the rest of the club, you smack your hand against your face and groan. âJack Skellington.â
A murmur of collective consideration sweeps through the group.
âYou mean that weird guy who keeps to himself?â a girl pipes up.
You give her a censorious look. âYouâre gonna hafta be more specific, girlfriend. Youâre naming, like, a decent chunk of the schoolâs population.âÂ
âAlways has his face in his books,â another offers. âNot really friendly, that one. Definitely on the quiet side.â
âAnd heâs usually scribbling stuff in a journal during club meetings, right?â a third student asks.
âYes!â You clap. âThatâs my guy!â
âOhh, youâre talking about Halloweenie,â the head of the drama club says, snapping his fingers once the descriptions finally click.
Halloweenie?
Youâve known Skully to go by all kinds of nicknames at the shop: Skulls, Skeleton, my boy, and (from snotty Salad Fingers), Prince of Darkness. This one, however, is brand-new. You donât need a thesaurus to get the general gist of the meaning behind that self-explanatory name.
âWhat do you want with him?â
Apple-red lips curl up into an impish grin, and you lift your finger in shush. âItâs a secret.â
âWell, good luck finding him,â he says with a snort. âHalloweenieâs practically a ghost when he isnât working on props for the shows. He could be anywhere on campus.â
The rest of the club confirm this with mechanical nods. Itâs so synced itâs almost like theyâre a group of mind-controlled marionettes.
I canât believe none of these losers know where Skulls is.
You remember browsing the drama clubâs website with Rollo. Skully was noted as an ordinary stagehand there. Once more, it seems like fate is having a grand time keeping the two of you apart. Maybe itâs better that way. Maybe you donât deserve a friend like Skully.
Before you can sink into self-deprecation, you whirl towards the door.Â
âYou come by looking for Halloweenie a lot, yâknow,â a member accuses, arms folded like some hard-boiled detective. âYou into him?â
What the fuck? Why is everyone assuming that?
âNoooâoh, hey! Whatâs this?â You point to the poster pasted on the door. The words Drama Club Presents: A Thrilling Tale of Treacherous Love and Music! are printed in fancy font above an infamous mask. âIs this what youâre putting on for this year?â
âFor Christmas, yes. It was either that or an actual Christmas play. Like âA Christmas Carolâ or something equally festive. Majority wanted the charming and dangerous Opera Ghost.â
âGood taste. So where can I audition?â
âCan you sing?â
âIn the shower.â
âCan you act?â
âWhat is life if not the stage we play on?â you counter, stealing a philosophical page from your bossâs book of esoteric wisdom.
The head of the drama club isnât impressed. To be honest, youâre not either. An actorâs life is not for you.
âWhy? No offense, (Name), but youâve never been interested in us or the work we do. Youâve gotta have passion and soul to put yourself on that stageâsomething you so clearly lack. If youâre only doing it for Halloweenieââ
âThat stings, Prez. And here I was ready to dazzle my way to stardom.â
âSure.â He rolls his eyes. âIf you have no other business with us, have a good day.â
Are all the presidents in this school hard-asses?
Sensing your presence is no longer welcome, you wink and take your leave.
Now left to aimlessly wander the halls, you think back on Skullyâs lamentations from before: I was all alone before you moved hereânothing more than a quiet, transparent existence.
You know what thatâs like because thatâs exactly how you lived when you were growing up. There is no trick to surviving the devils of childhood. You just have to hope that if youâre silent enough theyâll leave you alone. Because hiding beneath the covers only works when theyâre figments of your imagination. When theyâre very real and oh-so-tangible, they can dismantle the seemingly impenetrable blanket fortress you put so much faith in.
If you lived as a ghost back there, then this dreary town was your resurrection.
Perhaps she, sitting solitary on her throne, is lonely just like me.
Skully was right. As it happens there is no truth in being accessible to everyone in your infamously obnoxious, effervescent way. Youâve built yourself up on flowery liesâa faux Spider Queen who isnât so venomous as sheâd like everything to believe. The (Name) who smiles and flirts, who holds every bed partner at armâs length because sheâs too scared to let them into her embrace, is a phony.
The Spider Queen is scared of loving and being loved.
Thatâs why she strings everyone up in her web, never letting them know what hides beyond gossamer strands woven so meticulously thick.
Because once they start to disassemble her messy masterpiece theyâll see its flaws and insecurities woven into unmistakable patterns.
Get it together, (Name). No way were you about to throw yourself into a school play all for some guy! Be more swag and less dramatic.
But just as you admonish yourself with that, a discordant note rings out. You failed to realize you were traversing random halls until now, where you find yourself in a desolate corner of the building, just outside the music room. Shaken from your self-doubt, you peek into the room out of plain curiosityâŚand immediately come to regret it when you spot a familiar head of white hair.
His back is turned to you, head bowed, and he plays according to the sheet music propped in front of him. You linger in the doorway to listen and it hits you thenâwhat heâs playing.
A piano rendition of âThe Music of The Night.â
Transfixed, you allow yourself to creep in closer. The soft, soulful melody lulls you into a state of serenity. Watching him and his fingers waltz along the keys, you canât help but feel like youâve missed your chance. What that chance mightâve been, you donât have the guts to name.
Just when heâs about to reach the chorus, he misses a chord and the entire piece falls apart.
âConsarn it!â He slams his hands down on the keys.
You wince at the strident smash that echoes through the room, but nothing is more jarring than his language. Youâve never heard Skully, the quintessence of chivalry, curse so openly, even if itâs very 1800s. But after your argument with him, youâve acquainted yourself with his temper and all that boils within it.
âIt needs to sound just like the song.â The sound of shuffling sheet music follows. âIf I canât get past this chordâŚâ He sighs and taps a few keys in random succession. âMy dear will never be impressed with my lousy performance.â
Your heart flips over in your chest, knots itself like Ouroboros, and then collapses into your stomach. Any confidence you had in approaching Skully vanishes in a blip. Of course heâs still into you. Why wouldnât he be? Rejection and a few weeks of separation arenât going to undo years of infatuation. Silently cursing the world, you press the heels of your palms into your eyes, realize youâve just ruined your eyeliner, and drag them away with an aggravated breath.
âIs someone there?â
Skully turns on the bench right as you stumble out of sight. Your sneakers squeak on the tiles as you make your escape, darting around a corridor just in time to avoid the confrontation. Thatâs all youâre good at. Salad Fingersâs criticisms play in loops. You hasten your steps. Running away.
Rolloâs slender fingers work deftly to lace up your corset. In the background, faintly pouring in from the kitchenette, Halloween music plays.Â
âTighter,â you hiss at him, bracing yourself on the edge of your vanity desk, hips jutted out and ass raised high. âMake it so I canât breatheâlike Iâm getting disrespectfully choked by the latex. None of that âLove Me Tenderâ shit. I need to be fighting for my life in this fit.â
âThis is foolish. You should prioritize your comfort overâŚwhatever this is.â
âAww. You really are an angel, looking out for me and my lungs.â
In retaliation he yanks on the ribbons and the corset cinches around your ribs, effectively stealing your breath. You crumple against the desk with a wheeze.
âIs that tight enough for Her Majesty?â he asks, smirking at you in the mirror.Â
âP-PerfectâŚâ You raise a weak thumbs-up. âThanks, Uriel.â
Rollo rolls his eyes. He looks every bit the modest angel in pure-white robes with accompanying gold accents. The look is finished off with feathery wings, a halo headband, and a pair of open-toed sandals. He adjusts one of the aureate cuffs around his wrist and scrutinizes his reflection in the cheap material. Conversely, youâre dressed as a sexy succubus, all red, tight-fitting, skimpy latex and matching thigh-high stockings. The costume came with horn hair clips, an attachable tail, and a pitchfork. It was your creative idea to accessorize with a black choker, sheer, lacy gloves, and suede knee-high heeled boots. You even got your nails done for the occasion, and they drip in grisly patterns of blood splatter.
âItâs missing something.â You pull Rollo against your hip so he can see what youâre attempting to visualize.
âYour makeup looks fine, (Name).â
âNot that.â Your blunt-toothed, smiling reflection peers back at you. âOh, I know!âÂ
You rifle through your makeup box to find them: the packaged fangs you swiped from Fellowâs store just the other day. Your boss graciously gave you and Rollo the day off after it became clear he wasnât very willing to shell out holiday pay. Knowing your erudite roommate, he wouldâve debated Fellow into his grave until he budged. Day off or holiday pay? It wouldâve been his losing battle no matter which side of the argument he fell on.Â
Gleefully, like a cannibal ripping into a corpse, you tear open the plastic and fit the fangs on over your teeth.Â
âWhat do you think?â you ask, flashing a wicked grin at Rollo.Â
âAppropriately hellish. Anymore and the Devil might come up here to give you his regards.â
âArenât I just the luckiest girl?â You giggle and nudge him. âYouâre not half bad yourself, Bible Study.â
âHigh praise coming from Satanâs Sweetheart.â
âThe Devil wears imitation Prada.â
ââBy all means,ââ he quotes, draping a fuzzy jacket over your shoulders, ââmove at a glacial pace. You know how that thrills me.ââ
With a snicker you follow him out the door, playfully poking at his back with the pronged pitchfork to hurry him along. He swipes the car keys on his way.
Paper lanterns and strands of amber-hued lights are strung up on low-hanging branches. In the very center, hollowed out into the ground and circled with sizable stones, is a bonfire pit. The flames lick towards the stars, wavering in time with the bass thumping through the trees. If you didnât know any better, youâd think the swaying silhouettes were monstrous fiends gathered for Halloween night.
Having left your jacket in the car, youâre quick to pull Rollo towards the refreshments. Youâre desperate to warm yourself with a few drinks before you make your way towards the fire and the throng of bodies. Rollo, while not the partying type, is very particular with his preferences, so you donât expect him to jump at the sight of beer. It does, however, startle you when he slides the cloth covering away from the basket draped on his arm to reveal a bottle of sacramental altar wine.
Sometimes you forget your roommate can be cool.
âYouâre the best.â You pull him against your side in another hug. He doesnât fight it. The yellow-orange glow casts shadows on his face, obscuring his pleased smirk. âI cherish you, you know that?â
âYes, well, I canât allow you to indulge in this party slop.â
âAmen!â
You squeeze him once before releasing him from your constriction to grab two cheap chalices. After checking to make sure theyâre clean and havenât been tampered with, you stride over to Rollo. You notice heâs eyeing the pit warily, his haunted expression looking much more cadaverous in the firelight. Gently, you shake his shoulder and step in front to intersect his view of the fire.
âHey, you okay?â
Rollo shakes himself out of his head and loosens his grip on the bottle. âYes⌠Yes, Iâm fine.â
You want to trust him, so you hold out the cups. âWanna say our prayers and indulge in the Body of Christ?â
He taps your head with his fist, features drawn in a humorless lour. âBread is the body. Wine is the blood.â
âMy bad, Father.â You pout at him. âForgive me for my sins and transgressions and everything else. Iâm just sooo unholy.â
He spends a quiet moment staring at youâlong enough that it has a smile spreading on his lips. He breathes a soft laugh. âWhat a peculiar choice of words for a demon.â
âEven more peculiar for an angel to be drinking on the job.â
âI suppose that makes us even.â He unscrews the cap and pours a generous amount in both cups. You watch the scarlet liquid slosh within. Capping the bottle, he tucks it away in the basket and takes the cup from you. âMerci.â
âA happy Halloween to us.â You raise your cup and his bumps against yours in toast. âAre you ready to be dead on your feet for tomorrowâs shift?â
âOnly undead,â he replies, following you to a fallen tree. âIâm driving, so I mustnât become too much of a zombie.â
âWho cares about coherency? Live it up tonight! We can sleep in the car. Iâve got pillows and blankets in there.â
âMhm,â he hums around the plastic rim.
You plop down on the tree trunk and take a gulp, smacking your lips in approval. âIf itâs cold, we can just cuddle.â You bump shoulders with him.
âIâll pass. The last thing I need to earn is more of Skullyâs frosty envy. Iâd like for my plants to survive winter, if possible.â
âUgh, right.â Your gaze drifts to your pitchfork propped against the tree. âI donât know what Iâm gonna do. I mean, I almost joined the school play for him. Thatâs bonkers even by my standards.â
âAs if the club would allow that.â
âThey hate me for my potential.â You click your tongue. âHow can I make thisâŚnot worse? Because it feels like all Iâve been doing is making it significantly worse.â
âYou should have a proper conversation. One that isnât senseless screaming.â
âHe was inside me, Rollo. How the hell am I going to have a âproper conversationâ when thatâs our history?â
He peers into his chalice, contemplation burning behind his eyes. âWell, I wasnât expecting you to lay with him. âDisprove his alleged crush,â she said and then proceeded to do the exact opposite.â
âI mean, I donât want him to think I hate him or that he has to avoid me. Thatâs not it. And I wasnât trying to sound so cruel that day. Stuff just slipped out unchecked and he wasnât listening. Itâs not like we can go back to being friends with this whole cloud of unrequited romance hanging over our heads.â Sighing, you draw circles into the leaf-strewn ground with the tip of your boot. âI wish things werenât so complicated. Itâd be easier if he was terrible through and through, but heâs not.â
âWhat makes it so complicated?â
âHis feelings.â
âAre you sure thatâs all?â
You narrow your eyes at him, perplexed. âWhy? Is there supposed to be something else?â
âWhat about yourself?â
You chug the rest of the wine in your cup. It burns the back of your throat and straightens out your thoughts. Not so much your heart, though. Rollo takes his time pouring to give you a moment. He even offers you half of a baguette from the depths of his basket, which draws a snort from you.
âWhat? You canât drink on an empty stomach. Last time you did that, you sullied the car with your vomit. It took days to clean and freshen up the interior.â
âAt least it was pink! Thatâs much prettier than non-pink barf.â You shake your head, unwilling to argue old news. âThanks for your concern, Little Red Riding Rollo, but Iâm not hungry.â
âIâve brought an assortment of jams and cheese.â
âOh, my gosh,â you say around a high cackle. Rollo doesnât see the humor in any of this, but he still manages a pinched smile. âYouâre amazing. The best roomie Iâve ever had.â
âI try.â
âOkay, Father, I yield. Break the bread and letâs give thanks.â
Between sips of altar wine, you and Rollo munch on pieces of baguette spread and topped with strawberry jam and nettle cheese.Â
âWhy me?â you ask around a mouthful of bread. âI know Skulls isnât sociable at schoolâdrama club told me all about the unlikable Halloweenieâbut Iâm sure there are better candidates for him to crush on. Iâm a mess. I canât garden or look after houseplants like you do. I canât do any of that cute shit girls do on their socialsâlike live aesthetically or be effortlessly adorable. I donât think Iâm Skullsâs type.â
âHmm.â
âHe said Iâm the only one whoâs ever understood him, but isnât that what friends do? You and I understand each other and weâre friends.â
âSomehow thatâs different.â
âHow? What makes it different?â
Rollo shrugs. He looks like a mouse as he nibbles at his bread and cheese. âPerhaps itâs because my relationship with you is nothing like the one you have with Skully.â
You scowl at the crowd of dancing, costumed partygoers. Itâs only different because of love and sex.
âPutting that aside, what makes you think youâre not his type? Have you ever considered what his type might be?â
You hadnât given it much thought. Skully has never mentioned love and its variations at work. Thatâs your jobâto complain about and commend all of your flings and situationships whenever itâs necessary. To flirt with customers who look wealthy, attractive, or like theyâd be good in bed. To aim for a phone number or an exchange of socials when theyâre funny, sweet, or just annoying enough to seem charming. Your list of past lovers is as long as a photo spread in a wallet.
âIf we consider his poetry,â Rollo says, as if pushing you towards a cliff you donât want to jump from, âhis preferences arenât so elusive.â
Even though thereâs no reason for it, you feel an unusual warmth climbing up to settle under your cheeks. You hurry to tilt your cup back, putting your mouth on the same lipstick stain from earlier.
âSo what sort of type is the Spider Queen?â
âSheâs meant to be you, is she not?â
But youâre not sure what he sees in youâin the Spider Queen. You annoyed him during the first real conversation you had, back when he was just fifteen and you were an angsty eighteen-year-old trying to look like she hadnât just gotten disowned by her family. What changed in the four years since then? You remember he absolutely hated the Halloween party and spent the entire time scribbling in a journal. You wouldnât be surprised if the entry about his first impression of you was written that very night. He has every right to despise you for your rowdy spirit. What he sees in you, you clearly canât see in yourself. Maybe youâd feel less guilty about the situation if he hated your guts, but thatâs not the case.
âI donât know!â You groan. âMaybe heâs in love with the character heâs created and not me.â
âI highly doubt that.â
âDo you have candy in there? I need something thatâll mess me up and make me forget all about this.â
I need to stop running away and face reality.
âIâm certain the alcohol will do the trick.â
And it is. You havenât kept count of how many chalice-sized drinks youâve had, and at some point youâve even swiped the bottle from Rolloâs basket.Â
âShall we address the facts?â he tries again, and youâre tempted to listen because heâs logical enough to sort through the emotions. âSkully is in love with you, a truth too blinding for you to notice, but we were all wearing sunglasses.â You smack him for that and he clears his throat. âRight. The two of you went on a âdateâ and it ended in bed. Youâve told him you donât love him. Really, (Name), if your feelings donât match his, I see no other reason to stump yourself.â
And isnât that the truth?
But thereâs a niggling sense of something more that you canât confront. You push it down to make room for the wine.
âI need a cigarette.â
âFrom one vice to the next. Very clever.â
Your acrylics tap anxious pitter-patters against the glass bottle. A distraction would sufficeâanything to take your mind off of Skully. If you could saunter into the crowd and fall into the arms of a temporary thrill, you would. Itâs what you plan to do as your eyes survey the crowd, cherry-picking faces from the firelight. And then, just past the flickering flames and undulating ghouls, you see him.
âErik!â
You stand up so quickly that you lurch forward. The bottle almost slips from your grasp. Rollo catches your arm before you can fall.
âWhat?â Rollo blinks up at you in bewilderment. â(Name), sit down. Youâre drunk.â
âPiss off. I know what I saw. Someoneâs come as the Phantom.â You throw your head back to suck down the rest of the wine. âAnd it takes more than that to get me tipsy.â
âCongratulations. Howâs the liver?â
âHa-ha-ha,â you snap, sarcastic. âUnlike you, Iâm about to tongue it with the Phantom. Not many can say they did that on Halloween night. Be back soon!â
âNo one else is trying to accomplish that!â he calls after you, but you only catch part of it as you beeline for the fray.
Pitchfork in hand, you weave around kissing couples and clusters of friends. You have your sights set on the mysterious Phantom, his back turned to you. You call out to him: âHey, you!â but your voice is lost in the deafening beats and the ecstatic, tipsy whoops from the partygoers.
âExcuse me! Pardon,â you hiss, pushing past a witch and a knight. âMove.â
Youâre nearly there. But then someone knocks into you, and you stumble into another person. He catches you with a whistle, his palms strangely slimy.
âHey there, little lady. Looks like itâs my lucky night. You sure youâre not actually an angel in disguise?â
You scrunch your face, looking past him. The Phantom is gone. âFuck!â
âAt least introduce yourself.â He laughs and spit speckles your cheek. âThen we can get there, yeah?â
âYou want an introduction?â You slam your heel on his foot and are quite pleased when he draws back with a curse. âHowâs that for angelic? Happy Halloween, asshole.â
Equipped with a mission, you disappear into the darkness. Stapled to your feet, your shadow stretches into the trees behind you. In hopes of locating the familiar mask or cape, you whirl to and fro. It seems like youâll never find them, and for a second you wonder if theyâre a hallucination birthed from your tumultuous feelings. Of course youâd be imagining the Phantom after that day in the bookstore with Skully. Itâs like heâs everyone you look. How could he not be? Halloween is his day.
You hope heâs happy, even if itâs only for tonight.
This is a waste of time. Iâm going back.
You pivot on your heelâŚand there he is. The Phantom of the Opera, hunched over between the trees, his gloved fingers splayed against the rough bark. The exact opposite of graceful and mystifying. More of a mess than a graceful, gothic beauty. Your mouth drops open, and then you cringe when you hear a not-so-musical retch.
Oh.
Heâs sick.
âUh, hiâŚâ You inch closer. âI recognized your costume. Youâre supposed to be Erik, right? The Phantom. You knowâthat guy from the opera?â
He wipes his mouth on the back of his hand and turns to look at you, woozy and mechanical. Your heart rushes into a gallop when those infamous orange eyes fall upon you. Even with the mask hiding half of his face, you know itâs him. You think heâs worked out your identity as well because he straightens to his full height on unsteady feet, as if heâs been slapped sober. The only indication heâs inebriated is the way he sways like a spinning top on the verge of falling over.Â
âSkullsââ
â(Name)ââ
âAh, um. My apologies. You should go first.â
âNo, itâs nothing.â You wring your hands around the length of the pitchfork. âUm. You⌠You came.â
âI was looking for you.â He gestures to the crumpled can at his feet, sheepish. âFound that instead.â
âWhy?â
Skully twists the hem of his cloak in his fists. âI wanted to wish you a happy Halloween and show you my costume.â
His costume? You remember he told you and Rollo he was going to dress up as something scary, and while the Phantom is technically a fearsome villain⌠Itâs not the first thing youâd think Skully would go for. Did he dress up for my sake? What if he had another costume planned but changed his mind afterâstop that. Donât go down that rabbit hole.
âBut you hate parties.â You poke at the can with your pitchfork. âAnd you donât drink.â
His eyes glaze over. You watch his lip tremble. âIâm sorry. I⌠I thought that if I⌠If I could justââ He inhales a rattling breath. âIf I was more like youâlike Mr. Rollo or any of your partnersâyou might⌠Y-You might want toââ He breaks off from that sentence with a choked cry and sinks to his knees.
âSkullsâŚâ Lowering to his height, you reach out for him, hesitate for a strained breath, and then gingerly peel the mask away to reveal his teary, snotty face.Â
âIâm so s-sorry,â he continues, his voice breaking more and more. âI yelled at you. I wouldnât listen. I pushed you into a corner and provoked you, and that wasnât right. I was no better than Salad Fingers.â He places his palms on the ground to steady himself. A sob shudders through his body. Salty globs pool along his lash line and slide down to his chin, landing in steady drops on the leaves below. âItâs not fair. Itâs not fair, not fair, not fair! All of those undeserving people who get to behold you! Those⌠Those foolish, idiotic bastardsânone of them are worthy of you. I donât understand. They never see you. Theyâre so attached to flimsy, vapid pleasure that they donât even cherish you properly. Why?â
You manage to find your voice then. âI donât care about them. I mean, I did. I always care. Just not likeâŚthat.â
âSo then why? Why do you let themâwhy wonât you let meââ
Love you?
âSkully, youâre drunk.â Hardening your heart, you stagger to your feet. âNowâs not the time for this.â
Running away again. Typical, Salad Fingers jeers. Sheâll eat your heart if you arenât careful. Save yourself while you can.
You swat his influence away.
A twig snaps behind you. You almost donât hear it over Skullyâs sniveling.
âDo you know how many fools have been pointing me to âGrandmotherâs Houseâ whenever I ask after you?â comes Rolloâs voice, every accented syllable threaded through with annoyance. âIâm sick of this asinine nonsense. Itâs not even funny. Iâm very clearly an angel, and yet everyone thinks Iâm on my way to seeâoh, Skullyâs here. Ahem. Pardon me.â
âItâs just not fair,â heâs mumbling to himself, over and over, like a broken record. He doesnât even acknowledge Rolloâs arrival or greeting. âNot fair, not fair, not fair.â
âIs heâŚall right?â
âDoes that look âall rightâ to you, brainiac?â You knock Rollo upside the head with your plastic pitchfork, and he rounds on you with an indignant glare.
âYou tell me! I only just found you.â Rollo canât hide behind his handkerchief, so his frustration is on full display. It twists his features into something loathsome.
âHeâs drunk.â
âClearly.â Sighing, Rollo stoops over him. âSkully, can you hear me? How did you get here?â
He pans his bleary gaze over to him and sniffs. âWhatâre you supposed to be?â
âGodâs little lamb.â
âThatâs not terrifying at all.â
âIt is if you carry the guilt.â He takes a harsh elbow to the ribs for that, one he begrudgingly accepts with a scoff. âYou should go home, Skully.â
âDid someone bring you here?â you ask, peering into his face. Itâs hard to imagine him willingly coming with a friend or classmate.
Actually, itâs hard to imagine he came here at all.
He lifts an unsteady arm and gestures in a general direction. âBicycle,â he says.
A silent debate mushrooms between you Rollo, wedged in the space where your eyes meet.
âHeâs a liability,â you whisper after pulling him aside.
âA liability to your love life, maybe, but we canât just leave him here.â
âI wasnât saying we should! I just donât think itâs gonna help if he comes home with us. Heâs not thinking straight. And last time he was thereâŚâ
âSo we drop him off at home and his parents can handle it. I know the way.â
âTheyâll kill us. Are you looking to be lectured tonight?â
âHeâs nineteen.â
âDoesnât matter. Thatâs their babyâall two-hundred-something centimeters of himâand heâs drunk off his ass on Halloween night.â
âHe risked a scolding all for you, didnât he?â
âHeâŚâ You groan, unsure of what to say. âIâve never met a guy like him. Heâs in another league of his own.â
âAnd I donât suppose heâs ever met a girl quite like you.â Smiling, Rollo cocks his head playfully. âYouâre meant to be.â
âIâm meant to punch you in the mouth if you keep talking stupid. Justâugh, fine, whatever! You carry him back to the car. Iâll get his bike. He can crash with us tonight. A slumbie is safer than getting him and ourselves in trouble with his parents.â
âSo the demonâs secretly a good girl.â
âAll that altar wineâs going to your head and making you cheeky, âGodâs little lambâ. I guess you do care for your friends after all.â
Index pressed to his lips, he hushes you. It takes a few minutes of coaxing and âLift your head, Skully. How else are you going to look up to Jack Skellington?â before Rollo manages to get him to his feet. Heâs all gangly limbs as he drapes himself over your roommate, clinging like mildew to a damp corner. Grunting with the effort, Rollo hoists his arm over his shoulders and Skully flops against him like a worm.
Before the two of them begin the hobble to the car, Rollo asks, âWill you be okay on your own?â
âIâm the Devil. Thereâs nothing I canât do!â You wave your pitchfork around and flash a fanged smirk. âThey donât call me Godâs strongest soldier for nothing.â
âUh-huh. Well, be safe. If youâre not at the car in the next five minutesâŚâ
��Yeah, yeah. Youâll exorcise me on the spot. I hear ya.â
Rollo turns away then. âCould you be any more boneless, Skully?â
âWhy, of course I can! Does this help?â
âWhaâhey! Donât go limp! Stand up straight!â
After locating his bike and wheeling it through the woods to the car, where you and Rollo work together to load it in the back, you both head for the driverâs side.
âIâm driving.â
âNo, youâre not. I am.â
âYouâre drunk.â
âDonât think I didnât see you merrily sipping your little God juice like a sailor.â
âYou had more than me, and itâs not âGod juiceâ. Itâs sacramental altar wine, sourced from the finestââ
âBlah, blah, blah. My name is Rollo Flamme and Iââ
âMy wonderful, spectacular, amazingâŚdeeeaaarss,â comes Skullyâs slurred voice. He pokes his head out from the back, half-leaning out the open door. âI can drive.â
Rollo stares blankly at the very inebriated Skully.
âYeah, go on, Rollo. Let the Phantom drive. I trust him with my life.â You stick your arm out and present him with a cheerful thumbs-up.
âSkully, sit back down. And donât even think of getting sick in the car.â
âYes, sir.â You hear the click of a buckle and then, miraculously, he passes out.
âWalk a straight line and Iâll let you drive.â
âI got this. Watch.â
You shove your pitchfork at his chest and, looking to make sure heâs observing, walk along the strip that divides the road from the forest. It doesnât feel like youâre doing it right, your feet blurring and crossing over each other clumsily, but somehow you think it must look straight to Rollo. Once youâre thirty paces from the car, you whip around to hear the verdict.
âWell? Straighter than straight, yeah?â
âAbout as straight as a rainbow. Now get in.â He opens the passenger side for you and tosses the pitchfork in the back next to a snoring Skully.
Wordlessly, you perform your staggering walk of shame back to the car. The drive home is punctuated by the sophisticated notes of Indilaâs Mini World album. The songâs instrumentalâthe one where you can only parse the lyrics love storyâreminds you of a music box. You sink into the worn polyester seat and paint yourself as a princess in a grand, glittering palace. Waiting for you in the gardens, haunting your head like your very own gothic ghost, is the too-tall, dorky Phantom of the Opera.
Maybe itâs the alcoholâitâs definitely more than just the alcoholâbut you feel warm thinking about him. So warm you forget youâre not wearing your jacket.
Fuck. This altar wine is really hitting. How are they not partying during every sermon? Oh, wait, they only drink a pinkyâs worth. Laaaame.
âI think, if I were to murder someone, Iâd get your help getting rid of the body.â
âPlease donât,â Rollo mutters, awkwardly lifting Skully out of the car with your aid.
âDonât ask for help orâŚ?â
âDonât make me accomplice to a crime and donât murder anyone.â
By the time youâve carried Skully up the stairs to your door, you feel the mawkish beginnings of affection weighing on your shoulders. That, and Skullyâs arm.
âHey, Rollo?â
âMhm?â
âThanks.â
âWhat for?â He fiddles with the keys in the dimness, half-listening.
For being my friend. For never getting tired of me even when Iâm nothing but trouble.
âFor being my roomie.â
His hand stills. âDonât be foolish,â he says, clicking his tongue in chastisement. The key twists in the lock. He pushes the door open with his foot, revealing an apartment cloaked in shadow. âYou said it yourself. Weâre a team. We need to stick together.â
âHow else is rent going to be paid?â
He exhales a short, authentic laugh. âThatâs the million madol question.â
Skully is deposited on the sofa, snoozing away like itâs the middle of winter and heâs hibernating. After locking the door and flicking on the lights, where you then proceed to hiss like vampires as said lights burn holes into your eyes, you and Rollo roll your stiff shoulders.
âWe should stay indoors next Halloween.â
âAgreed. Maybe introverts know what theyâre doing. This was exhausting.â Plopping down on a nearby stool, you work to remove your heels. Itâs more challenging than it seems, what with alcohol muddling your motor skills. âMy feet are killing me.â
Rollo pulls the fridge open and pokes his head inside for mindless inspection. âHmm. Whose turn is it to buy groceries?âÂ
âMine, probably.â You toss your boots across the room and flex your toes. âIâll do it tomorrow.â
âWe can survive a little longer. At least until the middle of the week.â
You snort. âSo are we leaving Skully out here? Should we call his parents?â
âI doubt theyâre worried. Not truly.â Rollo shuts the fridge and comes to stand on the other side of the kitchenette peninsula. âItâs a small town with a middling population, and the majority are harmless elders.â
âBut what if they think he got murdered?â
âBecause someoneâs itching to put Halloweenie in his grave. Sure.â
âOkay, fair point.â You glance over your shoulder at Skully, his legs hanging over the end of the armrest. âHeâd make for a difficult corpse.â
âIf two of us struggled to drag him back here, imagine how much more burdensome heâd be undead.â
âOoh, a zombie. Something tells me heâd rather be bones than rotting flesh. Just like Jack.â
âSomehowââ Rollo drums his fingers along the countertopâ âI feel itâs poor manners to talk so morbidly of our very alive and well coworker.â
âMm, probably.â You swivel in your seat. âMore importantly, whereâs he gonna sleep?â
âIâm keen to leave him here. Weâll dim the lights.â
âKinda rude to make him sleep on the most uncomfortable couch in the world.â
âIt could be worse.â Rollo walks around to the wall opposite of you to lower the switch. The lights lessen in their intensity, from searing to merciful. âBesides, where else is he going to sleep? There isnât room on my bed.â
âHe can sleep in mine,â you say without thinking, and you really arenât because he looks at you like he canât believe heâs hearing you right now. âHe deserves a comfy bed, at the very least⌠Itâs not gonna mend heartbreak, but it wonât give him stiff joints in the morning.â
âWhere will you sleep?â
âOn the floor.â
Rollo raises a dark brow. âThe (Name) I know would never sacrifice her comfort for someone else.â
âFor flings, fuck no. But heâs a friend.â
âAll right,â he concedes. âLetâs get him to your room. Heâs staying there, though. Iâm not going to move him anywhere else.â
âRoger that, roomie.â
Like before, the both of you lift him from the sofa and, taking care not to disturb his slumber, transport him to your room. Heâs lowered onto your unmade bed. You move with absolute precision, undoing the clasp around his neck to pull his cape from his person so it wonât tangle around him in sleep. And then you drag a fluffy quilt over him. His fringe falls over his face in a way that reminds you of Sleeping BeautyâŚonly if she had been pie-eyed and prone to vomiting in the hours before her eternal slumber. He looks less of a prince and more of a pale monster.
Sleeping Liability.
You wince. That sounds a lot like something Fellow would say. Youâre too young to start thinking and speaking like your boss.
Itâs then when you realize youâve been staring at him like youâre about to lean in for true loveâs kiss.
âAre you going to bed?â
âNo, Iâll be up.â Rollo rubs his tired eyes and stifles a yawn.
âTry to get some sleep. Iâd say letâs watch a movie, but I donât think I can stay awake for another hour.â
âDonât force yourself. We all need the sleep for tomorrowâs shift,â he says, but you suspect heâll be up late into the night and heâll wake just as early.
âUgh. Donât remind me. I guarantee Fellowâs gonna be just as sleep-deprived as we are. Gidel probably kept him out as late as he could for trick-or-treating.â
Shaking your head, you begin to pick off pieces of your costume. The detachable tail, the horns, the little fangs. You prop your pitchfork against the vanity desk.
âSo we all have valid reasons to complain.â
âIâm always ready to be a hater. No fair we have to go into work after a fun night. Why couldnât he be nice and give us tomorrow off as well?â
âOne can hope.â
âAnd one does.â You open your closet and retrieve a few spare blankets from within. âGood night, Rollo.â
âYes. Good night to you as well.â
His footsteps pad down the hall to his room and then you hear him ease the door shut. Itâs not even a minute later when your thoughts begin to buzz in your ears. You busy yourself with spreading out the blankets and creating a comfortable place for yourself on the floor, listening to the low hum of a fan in place of soothing music. The fairy lights strung around your bed shine soft light on the snoozing Phantom, whoâs curled into your bed like itâs to become the chrysalis that envelops the squishy, vulnerable pupa that is Skully.
You donât want to think about it. About why he was here tonight and why he came dressed as one of your favorite characters. And the last time he was on your bed was whenâŚ
Blotting that memory out, you snuggle into the blankets and rest your head on a sizable plush youâve swiped from the end of your bed. If you can sleep all of this mess off, youâll have a better time making sense of it once morning dawns.
That was your plan, but now that youâre in the position for sleep, eyes closed and mind racing, you find yourself unable to settle down. You turn one way and spend the next few minutes in your own head, tossing around Skullyâs motives and what everything means. Maybe youâd sink into slumber if you were contemplating brain-bruising philosophy, but when every route leads back to that complex, confounding feeling it leaves your body crackling with nerves.
Shifting over on your back, you gaze up at the ceiling. âIâm sorry, Skully,â you whisper before you can stop yourself. âSalad Fingers was right. Iâm only good at running away. Iâm the best at being the worst. Iâm, like, super, pathetically, abysmally bad at romance. I donât know how to do it or what it means to feel it. I⌠Iâve never given myself that chance.â
Iâve spent too long pushing everyone whoâs ever tried to love me away.Â
You feel around blindly for your goat plush and hug it to your chest. His name is Mini Rollo.
âThe truth is that my worst fear isnât even thunderstorms. I hate those, too, yeah, but itâs love that scares me the most. Which probably sounds really silly to you because youâre soâŚfull of it. Full of love, I mean. And I was afraid. Afraid that youâd found something about me thatâs worth loving. I mean, you kinda saw through me from the very beginning and not many people do that. It made me feel so itchy. Like, what the hell? Who does this guy think he is, solving me like Iâm some lousy cube puzzle? Howâd you do that?â
A weak laugh tumbles out of you then. Youâre not sure where the humor is in any of this. Maybe youâre just laughing at yourself.
âWhat scared me most, though⌠I caught myself considering it. Itâs all Iâve been able to think about, actually.â You bury your face in Mini Rollo to save yourself the embarrassment of addressing a dim room with an unconscious audience. âI really donât know how you do it. Youâre like an infection. Or, uhâhold on. That came out wrong. Ugh. Just as bad as the lice poem. What I meant to say is that youâre so good at making me feel happy. So I guess that means your energy is infectious?â
Sighing, you shut your eyes and place yourself in the memory of that day, swapping cruel cowardice for a real confession. Mini Rolloâs soft head is tucked beneath your chin. âNo oneâs ever danced in the rain with me before to chase away my anxiety. And theyâve never made me their muse or written pages and pages of poems about me. Theyâve never made me smile and laugh as much as you do. They certainly didnât come to my door to give me an entire handmade flower wreath. Thatâs the stuff youâd only find in romance novels. Youâre seriously one of a kind.â You force another sad, pitiful laugh. âI donât deserve you or your love. If anything, youâre the cool one. Definitely way more than a fly.â
Youâre my Pumpkin King.
âNever mind. What am I saying? Ew, ew. Gross. This is soâŚyuck.â
Stop talking. Youâre making it worse, (Name).
You yank the blanket over your head and stuff down whatever else is threatening to spill out in this moment of alcohol-addled vulnerability. Although youâre not sure how much of that was liquid courage.
Is love supposed to feel soâŚitchy?
Like a sweater woven from coarse wool. Like an irritating bug bite thatâs just out of reach. Like an allergic reaction.Â
But then that same love is also so welcomingâa blanket fresh from the dryer, a flattering poem penned from the heart, a dance in the rain. A distinctly Skully-shaped love, one thatâs cradled in the cobwebbed confines of his heart.Â
You donât want to run away from thatâfrom him.
Warmed by these revelations, made weightless from the truth, you drift away on a stream of waning consciousness.
Good night, Skully.
Morning trickles through the mountains, bringing with it strips of sun that shine through the thin part of ratty curtains.
Your body is strangely light when it should be heavy with a skull-crushing hangover. Even your mind, which is normally fuzzy and filled with an unshakeable pressure in the dawn of last nightâs chaos, is the shape of a Zen garden. You think you hear movement in the kitchen, but your sixth sense tells you itâs still too early and so you roll over in search of Mini Roll, who somehow slipped from your embrace during the night.
You find Skully instead.
Heâs squished in the space between your bed and the nest of blankets piled around you, and it leaves you wondering how he managed to get down here. From how soundly he slept last night, you didnât take him for a restless sleeper. You realize then that his eyes are open, watching you, and suddenly nothing else matters.
Oh.
âH-Hey,â you whisper, cringing at the roughness in your voice.
âHi.â His voice is no better. More of a crowâs call than fluttery birdsong. âGood morning.â
Youâre not sure what to think at first. Is this real? How did he get on your floor? Why is he here? Whereâs Rollo? Whereâs Mini Rollo?
You reach out; your palm hovers over his head. To save you the trouble, he leans into your hand. He feels real. He looks real.
âThereâs only 365 days left until next Halloween,â you blurt.
Skully blinks at you. â364.â
You start to smile. He follows your lead.
Heâs real. It wasnât a dream.
âUm⌠So,â you start, but he reels back before you can get the rest out.Â
âS-Sorry! Iâm sorry! Iâm much too close.â He scrambles to sit up, but the sudden change in position has him gripping his head. âSpinning⌠Oh, I feel ill⌠Please give me a moment and then I assure you Iâll be out of your hair.â
You bare your teeth in an awkward, sympathetic simper. Welcome to hangover hell.
âWhy were you on the floor anyway?â you venture, sitting up with him, and then the shitty feelings descend. You hiss out a colorful word.
You realize youâre still wearing your costume from last night and, even though you think you should wrap yourself in a blanket, itâs nothing Skully hasnât seen before. Heâs seen all of you, as a matter of fact, and the knowledge of that sends a timid tremor ricocheting through your veins. You feel like you need to cover up now, as if youâre somehow exposed in your skimpy latex and sheer stockings, and itâs a ridiculous thought. The time for diffidence and modesty has long since passed.
Skully refuses to meet your stare, opting to gaze at a boring corner of your room instead. âIâŚâ He sighs. âI heard you last night. And shortly after you retired⌠Well, I was struck with a jubilation like no other and IâŚâ
âRolled right off the bed?â
You picture it then: a squealing Skully squeezing the pillows and kicking his legs out, tangling himself in the sheets, every nerve alight with celebration.
âIâm sorry. I wouldâve moved, but I feared Iâd wake you if I wasnât careful. You looked so relaxed⌠I couldnât bring myself to risk it, so I remained there until now. Oh, but I promise I didnât do anything untoward while you slept! Iâd never!â
You exhale through your nose. âI trust you, Skulls.â And then you stiffen. âWait. You heard me? H-How much?â
âAll of it?â
You flop back onto the floor and muffle your groan in your hands. Not how youâd been hoping to start your morning. The hangover, you can handle. No problem. Whateverâs going on between you and Skully? Big problem. Massively heart-sized problem.
But youâre not going to tuck your tail and flee. Not this time. Youâre better than that.
âI thinkâŚâ Skully hesitates around the mouthful perched on his tongue. âI acted rashly last night. You saw such a terrible, immature side of meâand on Halloween, no less! There are no words in the dictionary to describe my shame.â
You remember his drunken meltdown. Itâs not the prettiest image, but thereâs no one else in this world you know of whoâd go to such lengths for you.Â
âYouâre upset. I get it. Alcohol will do that to you. Makes you ten times more of an emotional wreck than you already are. I would know.â Youâre not sure where youâre going with this, but you peek through your fingers at him and hope the tenderness in your tone hits its mark. âWhat Iâm trying to say is that Iâd like to try. If you donât mind. If youâll have me.â
I think I understand nowâwhat I want.
âTry?â
âThis. Us.â
He stares at you with dinner plates for eyes. A few seconds of silence bloom between you, and all throughout it heâs growing more pink-cheeked.
âWe donât have to! I mean⌠I completely understand if you donât want to after everything. Iâm a mess and I havenât treated this situation very well, but Iâm willing to give it my best shot. Fellow always says thereâs only one way out of a ditch and maybeââ
Skullyâs outstretched arm is in your face next. You follow the length of it to find his encouraging expression. Tentatively, you place your palm in his and allow him to help you up from the floor. You sit in front of him on your bed, and itâs as if youâre the last two humans on the planet.
This is new. The anxiety and the nervous sweats. The rushing blood in your ears. Youâve never felt this way before.
Then again, youâve also never done any of this before. Itâs all instinct; youâre treading the path projected by your heart this time. Itâs every bit the terror you imagined it to be, but itâs exhilarating and refreshing all the same.
Heâs still holding your hand. When you look down, you notice itâs shaking. You canât tell if thatâs from you or him, but it settles once your fingers interlock.Â
And then, before you can prepare yourself, heâs yanking you towards him. The force of his pull has you falling, and your arm shoots out to prop yourself above him.Â
âMayIkissyou?â he babbles, hurrying through the question so itâs pronounced like one gasping breath. And then he catches himself. âForgive me. Iâm justâŚso relieved! Oh, I was terrified youâd hate me and think I was a rotten person.â Heâs tearing up, but you surmise these are happy tears. âI thought weâd never end up together. Like in âSallyâs Songâ! I thought we were doomed. I thought I wasnât the one for youâŚâ
âNo, I couldnât ever hate you! Youâre not a rotten person. Never. Iââ think Iâm falling for youâ âIâm feeling things for you. Like in-my-heart things. Good things. Thatâs a horrible way to put it, I know, but I promise I mean every word. Iâm just not as eloquent when it comes to these things. Compared to your poetry, I probably sound so dumb andâwhoa!âÂ
His arms wind around you, and he traps you in a tight embrace.
â(Name)⌠My darling.â
âY-Yes?âÂ
He sounds so serious⌠Wait, wait. Holy shit, holy shit, holy shit! Donât tell me heâs gonna say it? The L word! I donât know if my heartâs ready. It wasnât the first time he said it. Will I be okay? This is fine, right? Itâs normal. Itâs justâŚlove. Aaahhhh!
âIâm pleased weâre so close.â
âUh, yeah. Me too.â
âWithout my glasses, I can scarcely see anything. Youâd be nothing more than an indistinguishable, blurry shape. A beautiful shape, of course, but still impossible to discern!â
âOh.â
Never fucking mind.
Hand in hand, you emerge from your room as more than friends. A couple. Lovers. A pair. So many florid titles you could probably fill the remaining pages in his poetry journal with. Youâre not sure which one you should use to describe you and Skully. Youâre used to temporary affairs. But thisâwhat you have with himâfeels like more than that.
Us. Itâs us, you decide, and itâs the cheesiest thing but youâll be damned if you deny yourself this newfound sweetness.Â
Skullyâs wrapped you up in his cloak. Heâs also still clad in his costume, and he made quite the fuss about yours just moments ago.
âNow that weâre together,â he said with a childish pout, his face burning red-hot, âI donât want others to see you like this. Itâs selfish, but I canât help it. I want to preserve these lovely sights for myself.â
âItâs just Rollo,â you argued.Â
âEspecially Mr. Rollo.â
You find his possessiveness endearing. Maybe youâre crazy for thinking that, but itâs addicting to be wanted so robustly and appreciated in full. Honeymoon phase be damned. You want to giggle and blush over everything Skully says and does, even if itâs complete nonsense. He could tell you the moon is made of cheese and youâd turn gooey like fondue.Â
âGood morning, you two,â Rollo greets, a cup of coffee cradled in his hands. His pale lips quirk up knowingly. âAnd what a good morning it appears to be. Gidel and I are due for a payout.â
You level him with a glare that could wilt lettuce. âI canât believe you. Your greed sickens me. Isnât gambling a sin?â
What happened to being honest examples for the youth, Fellow?!
âWhen itâs a gamble you have every chance of winning, does it truly count as such?â
âIt does if youâre betting money! And even Gidel got in on it? Are you serious?â
âFellow owes him new art supplies. The fancy kind.âÂ
âWell, if it gets the kid his crayonsâŚâ
âMight I ask what the bet was for?â Skully pulls out a barstool for you, ever the winsome gentleman. He seats himself beside you.
âWhether you and (Name) would get together on Halloween or Christmas.â
âIn that case, my sincerest congratulations to you and dear Gidel! Isnât that wonderful, my love?â
âH-How do you know weâre together? You donât even have evidence to confirmâŚâ You trail off. Skully props his elbows on the countertop, a moony look softening his eyes.
âSurely youâre not as blind as you are dense.â Rollo glances between the both of you, as if asking, Are you seeing this shit?
Before you can snap back with defensive vitriol, he sets a paper bag down. A sugary peace offering awaits. It works a little too well because you forget everything heâs ever done at once.
âPastry day! Youâre the best, Rollo.â
âIâm aware.âÂ
âIt looks and smells divine! Thank you graciously, Mr. Rollo.â Skully fishes something from out of the bag. âShall we share this croissant, my dear? In honor of our first meal together as a pair of love-doves.â
Whoa. Thatâs so official. Hearing that isâŚreally nice, actually. Kinda huge and a little scary, but nice.
âSkulls, Iâd say letâs do it, but Iâm way too hungry to go halfsies.â Heâs quick to wither at that, his cuteness a weapon youâre unable to fight. You giggle and lean it to peck his cheek. âHowâs that instead?â
âNot even a dozen sugar cubes could compare to how sweet you are.â He clutches his chest, swooning like a fanboy struck down by Cupid. âAah, I adore you most ardently.â
Rollo fills two mugs with whatâs left in the coffee pot. âThereâs tea if youâd rather that.â
âIt would be rude for me to turn down your hospitality. If itâs not too much trouble, tea would be much appreciated.â
âMore for me.â You take hold of both mugs and are instantly soothed by the warmth bleeding through the ceramic. The caffeine will ward off the rest of whatever hangover symptoms might be encroaching.
While Rollo fills the kettle with water, Skully searches through the bag for a pastry that suits his tastes. Youâre already licking your fingers clean of croissant crumbs.Â
âI must thank you for allowing me to stay here through the night. I apologize if I caused you any trouble.â Skully bows his head. âYou must forgive me. I donât quite remember much of last nightâs escapades.âÂ
âIt was nothing. We werenât gonna leave you in the woods.âÂ
âWe considered it.â Rollo sips idly, unbothered by the now distraught Skully.Â
âDonât listen to him. Rolloâs being morbid on purpose. Weâd never do that to you.â You take Skullyâs hand beneath the counter and squeeze it. âWe almost dropped you off at your house, but we decided against it at the last minute.â
An awkward chuckle rumbles through him. âI owe you more than my gratitude.â
âAs long as youâre safe and comfortable, thatâs all that matters. Make sure you let your parents know if theyâre asking after you.â
âMr. Rollo⌠Your kindness precedes you.â
âRollo has a big heart today,â you tease around a bite of pain au chocolat. âHe bought sweets, he made coffee, and heâs so chatty. Must be a lotta money Fellowâs coughing up if youâre in a good mood.â
He rolls his eyes, quietly amused. âWe all have reasons to be pleased.â
You suppose thatâs true. Itâs a happily ever after for each of you.
âOh, that reminds me!â You turn towards Skully. âGive me your phone. Thereâs something I owe you.â
He relinquishes it without a second thought, which allows you to input the digits for your number. You shouldâve done this a long while agoâback when you first extended your hand in friendshipâbut as they say thereâs no time like the present. You can move forward with this. Itâs a stepping stone in a new direction!
You catch a glimpse of his contacts while you make one for yourself. He doesnât even have ten contacts. Of the few saved, you spot his parentsânamed Mama and Papa separatelyâand then Rollo and Fellow. And then thereâs the latest addition: you. Youâre not sure what to call yourself, so you simply leave it as your name. Youâre certain Skully has plenty of contact names in mind already. You wonât veto any of them because youâre positive theyâll stick.
âThere.â You hand him the device. âMy numberâs saved.â
With a gasp, he stares at the screen with wide, disbelieving eyes. âOh! Oh, how splendid! I will treasure this gift forever.â
âItâs not that special,â you start to say, but the rest of the argument dies in your throat. It is to him. Very special. You donât want to take that away from him. âDonât hesitate to text me. Iâm always down to chat.â
âI shall text you every morning and night without fail. And every hour between then, too.â
âD-Donât overdo it!â
âShe says that, but sheâll enjoy every second of it,â Rollo cuts in, setting a fresh cup of tea down in front of Skully.
You hide in the ruffles of Skullyâs oversized cloak. âI never said I was opposed to itâŚâ
To think I was missing this all along. This warmth⌠Itâs so sweet.
You waste the rest of the morning away with the both of them, laughing about whatever you can remember from last nightâs Halloween.
 âIt may not have been very successful, and it certainly wasnât my ideal Halloween,â Skully explains to Fellow and Gidel hours later, both of them rapt, âbut it didnât end in complete disaster.â
âAllâs well that ends well,â Rollo applauds.
âOf course you would say that,â Fellow grumbles. âTo be loved is to be changed apparently. What a scam.â
âAh, thatâs right. Seeing as our resident lovebirds have taken to the nest, I do recall someone owes me the sum we agreed upon. And Gidel is awaiting his art supplies. Itâs only fair, no?â
Gidel, who is brimming with excitement on Skullyâs behalf, a supportive mirror image of his joy, snaps over to give Fellow puppy eyes. To really sell it, he digs around in his pockets for a few halves of crayon. Your squirming boss is looking everywhere but at the two of them, sweating from head to toe.
âGentlemen, gentlemen!â Fellow lifts his arms in timeout. âWhy must we let our desires lead us? Shouldnât we learn to live as minimalists? Repeat after me! Hi-diddle-dee-dee! A minimalist life for me.â When no one follows suit, he drops to his knees in desperate prostration. âBest two out of three? We can bet on whether theyâll stay together long enough to get married or if theyâll split along the way. How does that sound? Just peachy, yes? If weâre in agreement, just name the terms and then we shall see! Iâll double the payout. Gidel, you can have an easel and oil paints. Isnât that much better than a few measly crayons? And Rolloâmy fair friend, surely youâd rather pay rent for the next five months rather than just one?â
That was fast. He really has mastered the art of begging like a bitch baby, you think, folding your arms over your chest. A few customers glance at the spectacle, curiously attracted to the obnoxious whines of a grown man.
âYou made a bet and you lost. Iâm merely here to collect my promised payment, as is Gidel.â
âHowâs about you get yourself something from the store? Itâs on me!â
Rollo surveys the store and the major half-off sale that has descended over whatâs left of this yearâs stock. âI donât celebrate Halloween.â
Gidel shoves the broken crayons at him. Neither is going to budge. Itâs amusing in the way an old sitcom is, but the way they interact with each other makes them look more like puppets than people.
âAaaaghh! Youâre unrelenting!â
âJust give Rollo his money and Gidel his art supplies.â You prop your feet up on the counter, your back poised against the wall. Skully nods in agreement. âBegging only makes you look worse, Fellow.â
With a growl, he pushes himself up onto his feet. âYes, yes. I suppose you have me cornered.â And then with a woeful sigh: âSkully, my boy, couldnât you have waited until Christmas? The holiday is right around the corner according to every marketing scheme ever. Halloween isnât even remotely romantic!â
Skully gasps, scandalized. âIt is if youâre Lord Jack and Sally! Halloween is the most romantic holiday! Have you never heard of traditional gothic romance?â He huffs and turns his nose up. âYou have much to learn, Mr. Honest.â
âYouâd be ill-advised to argue Halloween with the Phantom of the Opera,â Rollo says, holding a hand out. He scowls behind his handkerchief. âMy money, if you would.â
âAll right, fine. Donât give me any more trouble, you hear?â
âPerhaps next time you should have more faith when placing bets.â
He stuffs a handful of crumpled bills in Rolloâs palm, grumbling all the while. You watch your roommate count each one, double- and triple-checking to ensure itâs the correct amount.
Gidel blinks up at him, hammer raised in threat.
âYes, Gidel, Iâll get you those supplies. You have my word.â Fellow heaves a withered sigh. âYou little devils are so conniving.â
âYou love us. Donât lie.â
âWe cherish you, too, Mr. Honest!â
âI suppose youâre not impossible to tolerate. A semi-sensible boss,â Rollo agrees, pocketing his well-earned cash.
Fellow huffs, face tinged pink, and refuses to look at any of you. âYouâre all nothing but trouble. I canât believe Iâve put up with you kids for another year. How many more can I take?â
Thatâs right. Halloweenâs over. The store closes in a week, you realize with a start. It went by so fast, and so much has changed.
You look at your humble work familyâbecause thatâs exactly what theyâve become in the time youâve known themâand feel a smile stretching. These are your people. Misfits who have struggled to find their footing in the world. You watch a smirking Rollo and Gidel playfully push all of Fellowâs buttons, with Skully occasionally chiming in with a comment of his own, and you canât imagine working minimum wage with anyone else.
If someone told you youâd end this season with love, youâd have laughed in their face. Back then, the mere idea was preposterous! Lust has always been your prerogativeâloveless desire placed on a towering pedestal, far enough from the blooms of romance cluttering at the base, desperate to claw their way up into your heart. Itâs not a joke or an aversion anymore. Itâs real. Your first relationship that isnât built on intermittent sex.
You wonder if youâre still stuck in last nightâs Halloween, drunk off your ass and on the verge of passing out. Maybe you did and this is all a surreal dreamâa fantasy spun from the silky strands of your heartstrings.
Itâs not. Thank the stars itâs not.
Thereâs a lot you donât know about romance and what it takes to maintain a relationship with sentimental stakes. Youâre not an expert and neither is Skully. Perhaps no one is. Perhaps there is no such thing as experts and perfection where love is concerned. Itâs a mysteryâone you wonât be investigating alone.
Glancing at Skully, whoâs still without his glasses and has been squinting at things from afar ever since this morning, you realize he looks different like this. In his Halloween costumeâsomething he wore exclusively for youâand with his autumnal eyes uncovered by his trademark shades.
Heâs cute.
And heâs all yours.
What a magical thing.
The sticky, sweet smell of sugar cookies and gingerbread umbrellas the apartment, cloying like dew on grassy lands in the first rays of sun. A cinnamon-scented candle mixes with the natural scent of the balsam fir positioned in a corner of the sitting room. It reeks of Christmas in hereâof commercialized cheer and festive funâlike Santa Claus crash-landed through the door and spattered against the walls in a smattering of good tidings and seasonâs greetings.
Rollo was against a real tree at first, grousing over the mess and all the work, but even he couldnât remain a grouchy Scrooge for long. He always softens around the holidays, which makes it easier to exploit his tender heart. And so together, while blasting a playlist of Christmas tunes at full volume, you hung ornaments and strung lights and garland along the full, fragrant boughs.
âWe used to do this a lot,â he told you as he placed the star at the very top, and you turned the speaker down to hear him. âBefore my brother⌠Ahem. My father would lift him onto his shoulders and heâd be the one to put the star on the tree.â He smiled at it, his eyes glazed in reminiscence. âAnd what a luminous star it is.â
You pulled him in for a reassuring side hug. âItâs gonna be a good holiday. Your brother would love it. Heâd like that youâre carrying on the star tradition, too.â
Rollo hummed, and for the next few minutes you stood and admired the tree in peace.
Now youâre weeks into December and basking in the break from school. Normally youâd take this time to catch up on lost sleep, wasting the hours away into late afternoon in a comforting cocoon of blankets, aimlessly scrolling through your phone, but today youâre up plenty early. Excitement buzzes through you, even more so when you sniff the air and come away with all kinds of mouthwatering smells. You jump out of bed at the sound of âLast Christmasâ and throw on a slim-fitting white sweater and a red jumper skirt with fur trim. After gliding through your makeup routine, you pucker your ruby-red lips in the mirror and fit a Santa hat on your head. It matches the peppermint patterns on this monthâs set of acrylics.
You find Rollo hunched over the counter, wearing an apron and garnishing the Yule log with red currants and fondant mushrooms. He sprinkles icing sugar over the cake to give the impression of snowfall.
âYouâve outdone yourself.â Whistling, you examine the counters crowded with all kinds of dishesâsome native to Rolloâs hometown and others from your favorite recipes. âSantaâs Little Helper works so hard. I hope you got some sleep.â
He smacks your hand away when you reach to pluck a berry from the cake. âThis is nothing. Besides, Iâm almost certain Skullyâs going to bring snacks.â
âProbably.â Pouting, you cradle your hand and feign hurt. Itâs ineffective against the no-nonsense Rollo Flamme. âYou shouldâve seen the way his parents lit up when he introduced me last month. Youâd think he was telling them about how he won the lottery or somethingâthe way they couldnât stop gawping. I guarantee theyâre sending him over with a tray of something to repay the favor.â
âGood. And I hope that Fellow sticks to his promise of bringing an appetizer.â
âHe will. Gidelâll make sure of it.â You sniff your wrist and frown. âDo I look okay? Am I overdoing it? Too much perfume?â
Rollo glances at you. âItâs Christmas. Everyone overdoes it.â
âI know, I know. But⌠I dunno. Itâs my first major holiday with Skulls and I donât wanna look like Iâm trying too hard.â
Rollo places the glass dome over the cake and sets it off to the side. âIsnât that the whole point?â
âYouâre not helping. Do I look nice, at least?â
âYou look very nice.â And then he ducks down to check the cookies in the oven. âWhy are you so worried? Skully will appreciate you and your efforts regardless.â
âThatâs just it! What if I look just okay? Iâm not saying he has to drool over me, but if he shows up looking like a prince and I look like a bog monsterââ
A sharp rap at the door shakes you out of your spiraling ramble. You and Rollo look between each other and then at the door. He starts for it and you throw yourself into his path to intercept him.Â
âWait! Iâm not ready. Put a different song onâsomething to hype me up. Like Michael BublĂŠâs Christmas album! I need his confidence.â
â(Name), youâll be fine.â
He strides past you, but you race the rest of the way to get to the door before he can. Wrenching it open, your heart sprouts wings like IcarusâŚand then immediately burns away at the sight of Fellow and Gidel. Temporarily relieved, you usher them in with a welcoming grin.
âHappy holidays!â You bend down to Gidelâs height and ruffle his hair. He beams up at you, his face half-hidden in a scarf that seems to swallow him whole. âAre you excited for Santa, Gidel?â
He nods and, digging through his pockets, pulls out a crumpled list. You read through the shaky misspellings (and the added corrections from Fellow) and your heart melts. Itâs so wholesome. He wants art supplies, carrots for the reindeer, a new sewing kit for Fellow, books, a new hatâŚ
âThis is a great list! Iâm sure youâll get everything you want and more.â
âNow why canât there be a Santa for adults?â Fellow huffs. âIâd love for the big man to come down and shovel my walkway or pay my bills. Winter Wonderland, they say, and yet Iâm more frozen than the tundra!â He shakes himself out of his coat, which Rollo gracefully hangs on the nearby rack. He takes Gidelâs winter wear next. âMerry Christmas, both of you. Iâve brought apples.â Looking quite proud, he holds out the bag.
âNice to see you, too, Fellow.â You lean in to embrace him and he returns the gesture merrily. âI hope the winterâs been kind to you and Gidel.â
âYouâre too kind, dearie.â
âYou didnât think to do anything with the apples?â
âNow that, my fine friend, is where your imagination comes in! An apple is a very versatile fruit.â Fellow plucks one from the bag and, after shining it on his sweater, takes a greedy bite. âTo some, itâs just an apple, but to others it could be candied or turned into pie. Limitless possibilities.â
âHmm. Well, thank you for this. Iâll wash them and put them out with the rest.â
âMake yourselves comfy,â you add.
âOh, and by the way⌠Would you assure (Name) she looks the furthest thing from a bog monster?â
âWhatâs this about a monster?â Fellow peers at you, incredulous, while he helps Gidel out of his winter boots.
Embarrassment flashes through you. âN-Not important! Donât listen to Rollo.â
âSheâs fretting over her appearance.â
You bark out a sudden laugh. âWho said anything about that? Me, fretting? No way. Iâm justâŚconscious of today and everything. You know how it is.â You wring the hem of your dress. âIt has nothing to do with fretting.â
The three of themâyes, even Gidelâlook on with mutual disbelief. Fellowâs the first to break the silence.
âYouâve been together forâhow long has it been now?âa month or so, and now youâre afraid of these things?â
âItâs been one month, three weeks, and three days, actually, and Iâm not afraid.â You scoff. âChristmas is a big deal for couples. At least, I think it is. If the movies are to be trustedââ
âMiss (Name), take it from meââ
âIâm not sure I want to.â
âHoliday romance is a scamâack!â Gidel jabs Fellow in the side for that. He clears his throat before carrying on. âBut! But, but, butâIâll be the first to tell you that that boy loves you more than anything, be it during the holidays or on a regular day. Bog monster or not.â
Nodding quickly, Gidel points at you, poses like Skully, and then forms a heart with his hands.Â
âBased on what we saw of his poetry, heâd probably salivate if you became a monster,â Rollo says, and you canât refute his claim. âSo whatâs really plaguing you?â
Sometimes you hate how easily Rollo can read you.
âI havenât told him I love him. Weâve been together all this time and he showers me in itâitâs obviousâbut I havenât been able to say those words myself. I donât know why.â
You miss the way they all facepalm.
âI donât want him to think I donât feel the sameâbecause I do! I love him to bits. JustâŚhow? How to put those three words into a sentence, and how to say that sentence to him?â
ââI love you, Skullyâ. Easy. Wouldnât you agree, Gidel?â
He stalls around a nod.
âIf only.â Rollo sighs. âYou show your appreciation for him in other ways. Iâm sure he understands.â
âBut I think heâd like to hear it. Anyone would.â
âLucky for you, Skully isnât âanyone,ââ Fellow remarks, patting you on the shoulder.
Still⌠Itâd be nice to say it.
Just then, a rhythmic knock resounds. You look to Rollo for help, but he, Fellow, and Gidel have retreated to the oven to pull the cookies out. Why itâs a two-man-plus-spectator job, you donât know.
The door opens to reveal Santa. A much thinner, lankier version, but Santa nonetheless. With a beaming smile and a hearty chortle, Santa Skully announces his arrival.
âMerry Christmas to you, my dear! You look as lovely as always.â He grabs hold of your hands and pulls you in, kissing each of your cheeks in turn. âSimply ravishing.â
Youâre hot down to your toes. The cold air from outside helps regulate your temperature, if only for the moment.
We literally went on a date last week and yet I canât stop myself.
âYou look very handsome, as always.â You tug him down to your height to return his smooches with some of your own, placing one directly on his mouth. You linger long enough to leave him reeling with rekindled cravings. âI hope Iâm on Sandy Clawsâs nice list this year.â
âLetâs see,â he teases in a singsong, pretending to unfurl an imaginary scroll. He scans it for a few seconds and then leans in to whisper, âSandy Claws says youâre just shy of naughty, but we can arrange a solution.â
âIt wonât be an easy fix.â
âThen arenât I lucky to have a wonderful soul such as yourself to call my own? A little naughtiness never hurts.â
Fuuuuck. I love him.
With a giggle, you release him and pat his suit down. âEveryoneâs already here. Letâs get back inside before we freeze.â
âWe wouldnât want you to become Frozen Charlotte. Beautiful as you would be, I quite like you warm and alive.â
âAs do I.â
You step aside to let Skully in. He hauls a red sack through the door. âGood day, wonderful people! Happy holidays and Merry Christmas!â
âSkully, my boy, you made it!â Fellow slinks over to shake his hand. âA very merry one to you as well.â
You shut the door to keep the cold out and watch as he takes his turn greeting everyone.
âIâve brought gifts for everyone, and my parents sent me with a treat for todayâs gathering. They send their well wishes and regards, each one baked into this tantalizing treacle tart.â Carefully, he pulls it from the bag, wrapped delicately in foil, and passes it to Rollo. âItâs my motherâs own recipe. I wish I could take the credit, but unfortunately Iâm still learning how to bake.â
âIâll be sure to send them a card to express my thanks.â
âWhy, Iâm honored, Mr. Rollo! They would love nothing more.â
âOoh, a tart? Now that sounds scrumptious. What say we tear into the food, Gidel?â
Gidel agrees with two thumbs raised.
âIf you fill up on sweets now, youâll never have the appetite for dinner,â Rollo scolds.
âBy the time the foodâs done cooking, weâll be plenty hungry. And we have lots of stuff to do to pass the time.â You make a vague sweeping gesture with your hand. âDecorating cookies, making gingerbread houses, watching movies⌠Itâll be fine.â
No oneâs going to argue with that. And even if they were about to, the delightful Christmas music puts everyone in bright spirits.
While you and Rollo prepare the main courses, Fellow, Skully, and Gidel clear the table to make space for trays of now-cooled cookies and gingerbread. A rainbow of frostings and various toppings are set down next.
âA very smart use of your guestsâ labor,â Fellow comments, but he doesnât have any credibility when heâs clearly putting his soul into crafting a little bow for his gingerbread man. And then he catches Gidelâs arm before his sleeve can drape into one of the bowls. âBe careful! Now what have I told you about rolling up your sleeves when youâre going to be working?â
He sets his cookie down and turns in his chair to help Gidel fold his sleeves back. Heâs given a grateful smile in return.
âWhat do you think of mine so far, dear Gidel? Iâm recreating Lord Jackâs terrifying likeness in cookie form! Ooh, are you decorating yours based on Mr. Honest? How darling!â
Skulls, youâre a delight. I hope you know that.
âWhat is it?â Rollo asks.
âIâm thinking,â you reply absently, gazing at your reflection in the oven. The Christmas ham cooks within.Â
âHow dangerous.â
âI really like him, Rollo. Itâs one thing to show it, but I want to be able to tell him. I want to say it and not feel soâŚinsecure. Yeah, that. That word fits.â
Weâve gone on dates, we kiss, we hold hands, we have sex. He tells me Iâm pretty and I melt. I give him all kinds of things because I like spoiling him. Iâm going to spend Christmas Day with him and his parents. Everything we do is lovey-dovey, so why canât I say it? Itâs not like itâs a forbidden phrase.
It was for most of your life, though, and thatâs the crux of the problem. The phrase has negative connotations. Itâs been weaponized in the past, a verbal dagger meant to carve at your chest. Even now, a month into your relationship, you canât tamp down the surprise whenever Skully lavishes you with that three-word phrase. Over and over, as if itâll imprint itself on your soul if spoken enough. He means everything he saysâeach iteration of fondness. You wish you could be so unfaltering in your approach. You wish you could just scream the words because theyâre trapped inside your ribs and you desperately want them out. You want Skully to know.
âIâm glad everyone can come together like this,â you say instead, and thankfully Rollo doesnât press the matter. âWe should get together to celebrate the New Year, too.â
âSo long as our schedules align.â
âAs if Fellowâs gonna be too busy for a free meal.â
For the rest of the day, you decide it isnât worth it to sweat over the complications of love. You can do that after the holidays. Or later tonight when youâre alone with your thoughts in the shower. Either way, nowâs not the time.
Iâm too pretty to stress over this.
Somehow it works. Youâre beginning to wonder if procrastination (alongside a dusting of delusion) really is the solution to all of lifeâs issues. Maybe not a long-term fix, but it provides temporary relief from the demons haunting your every thought.
Iâll say it once Iâm ready, you catch yourself thinking hours later while Skully feeds you. Mindlessly, you open your mouth to receive another spoonful of whateverâs on his plate. Thereâs not a time limit on stuff like this. Itâs not like I have to say it today or tomorrow or two weeks from now.Â
âI really should capitalize on ChristmasâŚâ Fellow announces, mostly to himself, as he peers out the snow-frosted window. âThis town grows so soft during the holidays. It seems far more profitable than Halloween.â
âWe can dress Lord Jack up as Sandy Claws and have him pose in the very front!â Skully suggests, pausing midway to accept a bite from your fork. âWouldnât that be marvelous?â
âHmm. Thereâs potential.â A flicker of mischief spots Rolloâs green hues. âYou could play mall Santa and listen to everyoneâs Christmas wishes.â
Fellow laughs and cuts into the slab of glazed ham on his plate. âSounds to me like someoneâs offering to stand in as an elf.â
âThatâs what Iâve been saying!â You slam your hand down on the table. âHeâs Santaâs Little Helper! Whoâs with me? Gidel?â
Said boy is looking at Rollo with hope painted across his youthful face. Any initial objection Rollo had promptly vanishes at the sight. He sighs loudly behind his napkin.
âAsk me again next year and then weâll see.â
âI didnât hear a no! Did you, Skulls?â
âWe can all dress up together! How lovely!â
âThen itâs settled. Santaâs Workshop will open for business next holiday season!â Fellow raises his glass in toast, and the rest of you follow suit.
âCheers to that!â
Some time later, while you and Skully exchange gifts with Gidel, Fellow and Rollo slip out of the room. You donât realize theyâre gone until itâs just the three of you, Skullyâs chatter filling the space and tricking you into believing there are more people present. Itâs not like them to scheme so collaboratively, and theyâre not going to pick at the desserts. Suspicion crawls up your back and spins its web in your chest. Those two are up to something. Youâre sure of it.
âThis oneâs for you.â Skullyâs voice draws you back to the present. He hands you a tiny box with a bow. âFrom dear Gidel.â
âFor me? Oh, thatâs very kind of you.â You peel the lid back and lift a beaded necklace with an accompanying drawing from inside. Itâs of you and Gidel holding hands, happy smiles and flowers all around. âThis is beautiful! Did you make this yourself?â
He nods, face flushed with pure happiness. You fasten it around your neck, swelling with pride the whole time.
âIt suits you well. An excellent job, dear Gidel! And your art looks exquisite. Youâve captured my darlingâs radiant smile.â Skully pushes his gift into Gidelâs hands. âHereâopen mine next!â
The packaging remains intact for all of five seconds before itâs shredded to pieces. Inside are an artistâs sketchbook and a how-to art guide. Gidelâs mouth falls open at the sight of them.
âI thought you could use something a little more professional. Notebooks are great to start with, but a real sketchbook suits our budding artist even better!â
He hugs both books to his chest and then, setting them down, throws his arms around Skully.Â
âYouâre very welcome! I await the masterpieces that shall soon grace these pristine pages.â He places his hat on Gidelâs head. âNurture that imaginative spirit of yours and never stop creating.â
âMiss (Name), would you be a dear and come here for a second? Rollo needs you for something,â Fellow calls from just down the hall.
And then Rollo, in a hushed hiss: âFool! Youâre supposed to call Skully first!â
âOh, pish-posh. They may as well be one body, the way those two fawn over each other.â
âJust be quiet!â
These idiots⌠you think and shake your head, amused with their antics.Â
âIâll be right back.â
You kiss Skullyâs cheek and pat Gidelâs head, and then youâre rising to your feet to tromp down the hall towards your bedroom. Youâre not sure what to expect when you round the corner and find the both of them there. And nothingâs amiss. Your suspicion triples, and you cast a dubious glance between them.
âOkay, you two, whatâre you doing? Itâs not like you to planâŚwhateverâs happening here. Hold on. What is happening?â
âCall it a Christmas miracle, dearie.â
âOr a favor. Whichever is sweeter on the tongue.â
You roll your eyes and thatâs when you spot it. The mistletoe hanging from your doorframe. Â
âAll right, Gidel, you can bring Lover Boy over!â
Right on cue, Gidel drags a sputtering Skully along.Â
âWhatâs this about? Dear Gidel? Mr. Honest? Mr. Rollo?â He looks at each of them. âIs this a surprise? Am I meant to cover my eyes?â
Heâs brought in front of you. Gidel grabs both of your hands and forces them together.
âMerry Christmas, you two,â Rollo says as he departs for the sitting room, where a few gifts still linger untouched beneath the tree.
âThree words,â Fellow reminds you with a hum. He mouths them to you as he passes: You got this.
Even Gidel offers you an encouraging thumbs-up before he, too, skips after Fellow.
âIâm not sure I followâŚâ
âLook up, Skulls.â
He turns his bespectacled gaze skyward and gapes at the mistletoe. âOh⌠Ohhh! Did they put this up for us?â
âSeems like it.â
Awkward silence gathers in the hall.
âShould we kiss?â
âWe should kiss.â
âAh, sorry. You first.â You shrink away, but Skully holds firm to your hands.Â
âI would be honored to kiss you.â And then he squeals. âAah, itâs really mistletoe! My first kiss under the mistletoe with my sweetheart!â
He leans in, but youâre not ready. You canât kiss him until youâve told him. Until youâve uttered three magic words.
âSkully, wait!âÂ
He pauses. âIs⌠Is something the matter?â
You steel yourself. âI⌠Thereâs something I want to tell you.â
âIâm listening. You can tell me anything, my dear. Anything.â
âOkay. Cool. Good.â Where the fuck am I going with this? Words. Love. Right. âI know we havenât been together very longâIâm hoping we stay together foreverâand youâve always been so expressive about your feelings. Heart on your sleeve and all that. But I⌠Iâm not the best at this and I know itâs painfully evident, but Iâm really happy to call you mine because you get it. You get me. And I guess Iâm the luckiest girl alive to have someone like you. No, not guess. I know Iâm the luckiest. Wait, thatâs not the point Iâm trying to make. Ugh. This is so rambly. Sorry, sorry. The point Iâm trying to make isâŚâ
I love you. I love you more than Iâve ever loved anyone and I need to say it. I need you to know.
Skullyâs hand grasps your chin and turns your head back to face him. The contactâhis warm palm, soft fingers, gentle, magnetic touchâreminds you of why you feel these things. Tongue-tied, buoyant on a sea of clouds, always strung up in the wonderful web that is romance.
âIâm sorry Iâm so bad at this. I wanted to say it the first day I realized it, but I couldnât. I was scared and maybe I still am, but I want to tell you.â You inhale a deep breath. âSkully, I⌠I really, really⌠Really, really, reallyââ
He sweeps you against him, his lips on yours for but a breath. âI know,â he murmurs, closing his hand around yours. âI love you, too. And until you feel comfortable saying it out loud, Iâll continue to echo the sentiment. Now and onwards.â
You stare at him. The first tear tracks down your cheek and then another. Before you can stop yourself, youâre crying. He smiles in that sweet, sympathetic, Skully way. It sculpts your heart into a candle, and the wax organ weeps all over your ribs. Messy. But you wouldnât have it any other way.
âNo fair⌠Youâre too cool and Iâm a mess.â
Thumbing your tears away, he cradles your face in both hands like a saint. âThe Spider Queen is always cool and so is my darling (Name). I will always think so.â
âEven when Iâm a dreadful mess?â
âEspecially when youâre a dreadful mess because that, too, is beautiful. Dreadfully beautiful.â
âYouâre seriously amazing⌠I adore you, Skulls.â
Glassy-eyed and sniffling, you yank him in for a starved kiss underneath the mistletoe.
You might not be able to say those three words right now, but this comes close.
Itâs love all the same.
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Stupid Cupid
Started this edit almost an entire year ago, right when RWBY Beyond dropped the boba episode. I immediately caught onto the idea of chibi Ruby being a little cherub to use for shipping characters. Of course, I immediately distracted myself with other creative projects and the Ship Wars 8 (which White Knight won in spectacular fashion btw) and life got in the way. But I came back around to it this past month. Perfect timing really, since it means I got it out for Valentineâs Day.
I just think itâs lovely how CRWBY have nurtured this ship subtly in the background, until they finally decided to get right up in our faces about it with Volume 9. Thatâs kind of what I wanted to portray here, with Cruby on a mission to make White Knight a reality, but Jaune and Weiss had already grown close without that final brazen intervention.
Itâs really something special to start this meme essentially right as Rooster Teeth and RWBY closed down, only to come back and finish it with the news that Rooster Teeth was bought by Burnie and RWBYâs now moved on to VIZ. Both of them continuing on in their way. Kind of heartwarming to be honest, like a message of perseverance, keep on trying even if circumstances bring you down.
I can still see a few influences from my early work on the edit, was playing a little Republic Commando at the time, so we get Rubyâs comment about her skills with a bow confusing and frightening CRWBY. Speaking of, I think we can all see why I chose Cruby as Rubyâs cherub name. Perfect for someone tasked with building up White Knight. And, come on, the shipping rock is a perfect replacement for a bow. You may have noticed me sneak in the Golden Oreos or Rooster Teethâs logo to celebrate the recent news (Jauneâs put a little sticker on the pummel of his sword).
With editing, I still run into trouble every now and then as I learn and familiarize myself with my software. Even now after a year of practicing it, and a decent chunk on gimp in particular. On this edit I ran into a weird issue with the color picker tool, where when I sampled a color, the brush would only apply a pastel or grayer version of that color. Wasnât sure how I enabled that, if it was a glitch or I accidentally enabled some key shortcut or something. I worked my way around it though, in the most obtuse manner.
Pretty cool to be learning something new as I go through these edits. Like all the color correcting for my Vacuan Nights meme. Or even small quality of life things like how I decided to start making thicker outlines for the text about halfway through. Thatâs something that helps making the words pop, the outlines were a bit too thin before. And at the end I can really pump out some of the more complicated edits that used to take me a long time a year ago.
Redrawing Jaune for panel 9 was a ton of tedious busywork. The screenshot I pulled that from had bad lighting from the portal behind Jaune, so I needed to fill in colors for proper lighting. I think it came out pretty spectacularly.
And I just really like the premise for this meme. CRWBY helping push White Knight along, but the relationship was already well on its way in the background. That little bag of âcupidâ rocks just seems really cute to me, too. Fun, cheap little drawing.
Chibi Ruby is cute as can be; so happy they gave us this version of her in Beyond. Especially like that devious look I gave her. Yang looks great too, really enjoy Beyondâs style, and the exasperated palm to the face. And, of course, I loved writing and drawing up the cute interaction between Jaune and Weiss. She needs to see those shark pups! :)
Anyway, hope you all enjoy your Valentineâs Day, and this fun little meme I drew up.
#rwby#jaune arc#weiss schnee#rwby white knight#white knight#whiteknight#shipping#yang xiao long#ruby rose#crwby#memes#valentines day#holiday#my edit#comics
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⢠characters â S.Gojo ; R. Sukuna ; T. Fushiguro | GN Reader
⢠synopsis â Love is the greatest curse of all. All-encompassing and blinding, but when the rose-colored glasses slip, what do you see.
⢠tags & warnings â toxic aspects of relationships - mentions of intimacy, but no in-depth descriptions - reader blissfully ignoring the negative aspects of the men - controlling behavior - stonewalling - inklings of verbal abuse.
⢠a/n â I'm back and with my return, I bring JJK headcanons! My requests are open if anyone wants to throw suggestions my way.
Satoru Gojo is a spontaneous lover. One who would shower you with gifts and secretly planned trips. Covering your relationship in a hue of sappy adoration and gentle touches. Spontaneity wasnât just in his actions, but also in his affections, the blooming warmth of tender care shifts suddenly to frigid frost and a cavern of distance.
The world rests heavily on his shoulders. While the burden of the past threatens to drag him to a place heâs unsure if he can return from. Should-haves circulate his mind until no other thoughts can manifest, obsessions on past failures and his own hidden faults.Â
Even when your limbs tangled, skin covered in a sheen of sweat and bodies spent, you could see his mind was elsewhere. Thoughts lingering on something just out of reach. On the worst of days, heâd cast you aside, unwilling to even share space, as if your presence only further strained his fragile mental state.Â
His tear-rimmed eyes begin to sting once again when he hears your broken sobs through the wall. Satoru hesitates, heart, lurching to break the barrier dividing you both physically and mentally, but he canât. Â
Spontaneous as ever the next day Satoru is back to his happy cheerful self. A smile graces his lips and his body displays and forces aloofness to his previous state. Â
Ryomen Sukuna couldnât deny that you were special to him. It was obvious in the way he treated you, gentle and soft, as if you were a delicate flower in bloom. Still, Sukuna was a prideful man and one who even on the best of days remained cruel and unyielding. Â
When his pride was wounded it didnât matter who crossed his path, all would be victims of his unfounded rage. The words he spits are vicious and venomous, poisoning you from the inside out. Sukuna could see it in your eyes, the hurt that began to fester, hidden beneath the glossy sheen of tears, but so apparent.Â
He was rotting you, destroying you, slowly but surely, decaying your pedals, and wilting the beauty that shone so vibrantly from your being. The sight causes him to pause, the words dying on his tongue.Â
Apologies were never something he gave, at least not blatantly, and now would be no different. His fist would clench and heâd watched you flinch, his anger now directed at himself instead of you. He could never hurt you, at least not with anything more than his words. His stupid cruel words and like the innocent flower you were, youâd forgive him. Â
Toji Fushiguro is a passionate man. He feels no shame in his devotion to his partners, happily placing them on a pristine pedestal for all to see. Infatuation that borders on obsession, morphs and twists into an ugly creature when unchecked. Toji wouldnât consider himself a jealous man, he understood his place in the world and made peace with it. That was until you slipped your way into his life. Permeating his mind, body, and soul, until he couldnât distinguish where you ended and he began. You were his everything, so why do you need anyone else?
Reassurance was something he never had growing up, and thus the concept remains foreign in adulthood. Even when you try to whisper declarations of love during your most intimate acts he canât help but think youâre lying. How could someone as perfect as you, look at him and see anything of worth?
Itâs small things at first, him going through your phone while you shower; Making note of numbers and names he doesnât recognize, blocking the ones that seem a little too eager for your attention. Itâs not like youâd miss them. You donât need them after all, you have him.Â
As his doubt festers, he slips up more, outwardly showing his distrust, and constant questions of who you are going out with and why. Draining you until you finally relent, giving up going out to spare yourself from the inevitable argument that is to come. Â
Only when the dust settles and he can see the results of his actions unscathed by the blinding jealousy, does his stomach drop. No matter how much you tell him itâs fine, he knows you are lying, really truly lying, unlike all the times before, and while he promises to do better, you both know that is a lie all of his own.Â
Š 2025 v3nomly do not plagiarize, translate, or repost my writing to any other site.
#gojo x reader#sukuna x reader#toji x reader#satoru gojo x reader#ryomen sukuna x reader#toji fushigro x reader#jjk x reader#x reader#â ⊠ven's writing
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while reading sone c3 meta i realized c3 defenders are as incurious about the world as bells hells. not to say read/watch the lore but they could do some research. the biggest thing rightniw is the calamity is a family scabble on exandria but i never see them acknowledging why the gods are fighting. or that the gods always chose each other which is so wrong. calamity is because the gods dont chose each other, they chose mortals. the entire fight is to save mortals and at the end they saved 1/3 of mortals vs the total wipeout that could have happened. im reminded that in a world with living gods bells hells didnt even know their names or what they were like. i can see why this party resonates with the incurios.
So on the one hand I would say that the Prime vs. Betrayer fight is complicated, because the motivations that lead to it are them torn between what they want and their refusal leave or kill each other. The Schism happens because the Betrayers want to leave, but won't leave without the Primes, and the Primes don't want to leave and want to help mortals against the titans. The Calamity happens at least in part because the Betrayers want to kill the mortals, which in turn is at least in part motivated by the fact that they see the mortals as coming between them and the Primes. The Primes meanwhile do want to prevent the Betrayers from killing the mortals, and as we've seen, make an effort to spare noncombatant mortals (an effort which in Divergence largely succeeds, and Downfall fails), but are unwilling to kill the Betrayers and instead seal them both times.
However, the larger point, both that Bells Hells are exceptionally ignorant of religious knowledge and history in Exandria and make little effort to rectify this or even acknowledge that they don't know much, and that many of their loudest fans are incurious as well, is true. The thing that actually strikes me is that, given that of the Predathos options that did not involve either a simple defeat of those trying to unleash it or a simple unleashing and destruction of the gods, both involved the Luxon, there was a profound not just lack of curiosity, but dismissiveness of Ashton learning about the beacon earlier in the campaign by their alleged fans. Whether or not you liked it, the potion of possibility and beacon in their head, more so than the shard, was the culmination of their arc and absolutely plot crucial - and it was not uncommon earlier in the campaign for people to be like "who CARES, fuck Essek, let's go to the Hishari." When, in the end, the shard served more as an interesting mechanical bonus, an opportunity for some of the best roleplay of the game that was then mostly abandoned, and an excuse to go to the Shattered Teeth; the role of the titans was ultimately only something to bring up in fruitless arguments and justify dickish behavior. Even more so than the ignorance of Exandrian lore that I saw with some frequency, that stands out to me: even within the campaign they purported to love, they didn't care about exploring something that might gently brush up against Campaign 2. It's a real cutting off one's nose to spite one's face, and it made them look stupid, and Bells Hells felt similar: they did not want to find out information that might show them to be wrong, or show people whom they disliked to be right.
This incuriosity is still alive and well:
This is probably a vague of this post by me - but that post, I should note, came from me checking something in the transcript:
The fans of Campaign 3 don't even care enough about the campaign and party they are expending so much energy to defend, to engage with the questions the characters thereof are thinking about. They're willing to throw Dorian under the bus in a failed attempt to win an argument. Dorian cares about this, actually, is the thing, and he's mostly brushed off, and even if Bells Hells had said "oh damn you're right", my point is not "why doesn't Bells Hells care" so much as "framing this as the merciful option is again a very self-centered perspective, rather like how donating your impulse purchase fast fashion clothing still often puts it in a landfill, but there's a middleman that lets you pretend you're doing the more eco-conscious option."
And yes, it is similar to how Bells Hells, as the party of Campaign 3, didn't care enough about the people and world they claimed to speak for to learn about it. Recall how many NPCs told Ashton that the titans were dead? I think a fair interpretation is that party didn't want to talk to people because they might have told them something that challenged their limited worldview and required they change, grow, and empathize with others.
There's a line from I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings: "[My mother] said I must always be intolerant of ignorance but understanding of illiteracy," with the implication that there is a difference between a lack of knowledge that comes from lack of opportunity, vs. lack of knowledge that comes from not caring. And that's the thing. If a fan doesn't know all the lore, or even gets something wrong in good faith? That's fine! There's a lot, and if people don't know every detail of the history of the Calamity that's not a failure on their part, particularly if they acknowledge that they might be missing some information and are still learning. But if someone looks at the story, and looks at the questions within it - in some cases, questions directly stated by the characters within it - and says "who cares?" that's incuriosity. It's not a lack of knowledge; it's a disinterest in gaining it, and a lot of fans of C3 are not just incurious but openly proud of it.
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Randomly Assembled Cosmere Roommates: How Will They Fare?
[Note: This post contains major WAT spoilers!]
@truthwatcherblog created a poll (which should still be going on, if I've gotten my dates right?) wherein you spin a picker wheel to randomly assign yourself three Stormlight roommates. With OP's permission, I'm going to use their picker wheel not to give myself roommates, but to create trios of Stormlight characters who now must room together. Let's see how it goes!
[I faithfully adhered to the picker wheel except for skipping repeats. Lin Davar came up THREE times!]
1. Lopen, the Nightwatcher, Cord
The Nightwatcher would stay holed up in her room all day, leaving mostly just Lopen & Cord, who did travel together during Dawnshard...a story in which we learned that Lopen has a huge crush on Cord. Hopefully they'd sort that out pretty quick so that it doesn't turn into a Wayne/Ranette situation.Â
Cord: And this is my girlfriend, Rysn. Lopen: Well okay, but I'm not gonna stop trying to impress you with my jokes and manly ways! Cord: ...To try to win me over? Lopen: No, I mostly just like making people laugh and and I like being complimented. For my manly ways. Cord: I can live with that. Nightwatcher: [Through the closed door and the ten million blankets that she shrouds herself in] Can someone please bring me ice cream?Â
2. Moash, Lin Davar [Shallan's dad], Syl
[sing-song voice] Someone is getting muuuurdered!
Lin: Are you stupid as well as blind, dark-eyes? I SAID to pour me wine! Moash: [already drawing his sword] Syl: In this house, we stan some extrajudicial killings.Â
3. Lezian, Masha-daughter-Shaliv [Szeth's wife], Maya
This household is never at peace.
Lezian:Â I CAN'T do the dishes, I'm busy STALKING and KILLING people! Maya:Â [arms folded] A good soldier doesn't shy away from unglamorous work. Maya:Â You can be a "killing slut" later. Lezian:Â STOP CALLING ME THAT Masha (busy writing):Â Hey guys, what's a synonym for "bald"?
4. Skar, Rock, Kmakl [Queen Fen's husband]
It all works out great once they set some boundaries.
Skar:Â No more sex with your wife in the living room without warning us first. Kmarkl:Â Fiiiiine. Skar:Â We all love your stew, Rock, but sometimes other people want to use the big pot, too. Rock:Â Fair enough, fair enough! Rock:Â And you, Skar, need to stop throwing our stuff out the window just because we leave them lying around! Kmarkl:Â I couldn't find my lucky socks for two weeks! Skar:Â ... Skar:Â Wow, living together really is about compromise.Â
5. Roshone, Huio, Taravangian
Mostly, I feel sorry for Huio.
Roshone: Can't believe my wife kicked me out. Can't belive I have to have roommates. Taravangian: Nobody go into the basement, okay? I'm using it to store my...stuff. Roshone: Why does your "stuff" require so much sound-proofing, anyway? Taravangian: It's, uh, a playroom for my...noisy grandchildren? Roshone: Sure, that feels right. Huio: [in the kitchen making soup] Huio: (muttering to himself in Herdazian): I'm NEVER telling them I can understand Alethi.Â
6. Szeth, Rlain, Drehy
This is going to be SO good for Szeth's mental health! Drehy's gonna be working overtime helping both of his roommates, though.
Rlain:Â So, uh... Drehy:Â Yes, you may ask me all of your "gay" questions. Rlain:Â I really appreciate that! Szeth:Â Kaladin says that I must "ask other people" if I have a thought that "does not quite seem right." Szeth:Â I pose this to you both: if you burn a dinner you were really looking forward to, is death the answer? Rlain:Â No! Drehy:Â I'll order pizza.
7. Gezamal [Yanagawn's guard], Ishnah [Lightweaver], Testament [dead-eyed cryptic]
Testament is really the glue that holds this household together.
Gezamal: Ishnah, let's have dinner together tonight and talk. Ishnah: What, why? Gezamal: Testament and I share a bond since she is a dead-eye and I am Unoathed. Testament: [gives thumbs-up] Gezamal: You and Testament share a bond because you are a Ligthweaver and she is a Cryptic. Testament: [gives thumbs-up] Gezamal: For household solidarity, you and I should now figure out what we have in common. Ishnah: ...What's that big book you have? Gezamal: I pre-drafted a list of things we might have in common. Gezamal: For example, as a member of the Unseen Court, were you ever punished with lavatory duty? That happened to me once. Ishnah: Oh, this conversation is gonna be rough.
8. Elid [Szeth's sister], Kalak [herald], Wyndle
Kalak, scared as he is of humans, much prefers one of his two roommates...
Wyndle: Oh, I'm so glad you like this! "How It's Made" is one of my FAVORITE shows, but the mistress says it's "boring." Kalak: It's great! I've never felt so calm! Elid: Yo, what are we watching? Kalak: Eep! Elid: ... Elid: The Almighty Herald is hiding behind a cushion again, huh? Wyndle: I-I'm sure he doesn't mean to offend you!
9. Wit, Aladar [highprince], Renarin
It's like Christmas came early for Wit--he likes to make fun of both of them!
Wit: [eyes glinting] Aladar: W-We should make an alliance now, Renarin! Aladar: Together we can stand up even to this man! Renarin: Oh, uh... Renarin: I actually already made an alliance with Wit this morning, when he asked. Aladar: NOOOOO
10. Abidi the Monarch, the Thrill, Tanavast
Okay, I'm sure your mind went immediately to "sheer destruction," but what if...?
Tanavast:Â Abidi! It's YOUR turn to walk the Thrill! The Thrill:Â [bouncing excitedly at the word "walk"] Abidi:Â Not now, you fool! There are people being wrong on the internet, and I must bathe in their blood! [sitcom laugh track] Abidi:Â And I keep telling you to call me Abidi the Monarch! Tanavast (muttering): More like Abidi the Moron. The Thrill:Â Arf! Arft! [sitcom laugh track] [Theme song starts playing, revealing the sitcom title: 3 Old Gods]
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