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It’s the only word that comes to mind, that comes close to describing, what he feels upon Huaisang’s little outburst—and really, it’s nothing but, isn’t it? Not while he’s here, not while he’s in Ruohan’s presence. With the way he flounders almost immediately, as well, it’s enough to make him laugh (the image of a child crosses his thoughts again, makes him laugh all the more).
“Come now, don’t tell me you lose your spirit so quick?” He asks, false confusion colouring his tone, as he leans forward on a knee. “A man’s ire should never leave him so quick, you know.”
Not that it wholly matters whether it does or not—the moment Ruohan finds the rebellion tasteless, finds it boring, it’ll be as if Huaisang was never in Nightless City to begin with.
(He might grant Mingjue the mercy of sending a body part back, if the entertainment prior is suitable.)
There was much he could do—much he wanted to do—but he hasn’t much of a clue on where he wants to start. To lose Huaisang too quickly would do nothing to sate him, but keeping him too long would be its own burden. And there’s still the matter of the insurgence with Chao’er, in which every other Sect was part...
“It is truly unfortunate that it was you, of all of the disciples, to have stayed behind.” In another life, this might mean something to either of them; for now, it’s just wordplay. “Your brother won’t break easy, and that fact is to your detriment.”
It’s a mercy in its own right to be telling Huaisang anything, but Ruohan does it mostly because he wants to see the young man react. Any will do, at this point. He’ll be here long enough that he can afford to take his time.
“I fear I get ahead of myself, however; your first stay in our Scorching Sun Palace is deserving of an introductory tour, isn’t it?”
Not that he has a choice; not that the tour will really happen.
“Come along, now, after me.”
His father? No one had ever said he looked like his father and he really didn't. Nie Shuangnao had been a bear of a man, even taller and bulkier than Mingjue. Huaisang, even once he is fully grown, would look like a little weasel next to him. Not that any of that matters. The fact that Wen Ruohan even dares to mention his father makes anger rise up inside him. "I wouldn't know. I don't remember much of how he looked anymore, considering you murdered him when I was eight." The words leaves his lips before he can fully think it through, probably due to a mix of anger and exhaustion, making him think much slower than usual.
Once his mind catches along, a flash of fear appears in his eyes. Huaisang is not his brother. He is not good with pain or threats, he is soft and cowardly. Like most people, he doesn't want to die, but he also doesn't want to roll over for Ruohan. To be honest, he's not sure what to do, besides trying to be brave and stay alive until his brother can barge into Nightless City and save him. Part of him, a part he currently hates, wants to kowtow and grovel, plead to the Wen Sect Leader to not kill him. Why does he feel so many contrasting things?
Unsure of how to proceed, Huaisang ends up lowering his gaze, bowing his head slightly, behaving somewhere between rebellious and subdued. He can't help but feel like this will all end badly.
#❌❌❌#c : nie huaisang#b : cuckoo-among-beasts#☀ ( ic )#Swallowed by the Sun : Hostage#if i look at this any more i'll cry but draft 1 💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼 done and in the bag#but man . the wiki calling the torture chambers the inferno palace vs the manhua calling them the fire palace : fight#not that that's important yet but laskdmlsd#also ik this verse had a lot to do with physical torture but#i think wrh would have a lot to do with psychological too . though ofc he doesn't have to#for rn they're just on the move
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so here's my honest thoughts on dragon age: the veilguard, after ~40 hours of playing. i finished the main quest after having finished all companion quests and major faction quests. just to clear up what content i saw, i played as an elven transmasc rook who is a member of the lords of fortune. he romanced lucanis (although after finishing the game i'm now leaning towards taash). i don't know what's happening in playthroughs that have a different race, gender identity, romance or faction going on.
full spoilers ahead, i mean it. don't read further if you want to avoid them. i don't want complaining about it in my asks.
oh and also, if you're worried because of a few negative reviews online i can comfort you by saying don't give a fuck about a certain big name youtuber who is very much tied to bethesda franchises giving this a negative review. i'll explain why.
i'm starting off with the things i liked
the game looks really pretty. i was worried it wouldn't feel like thedas anymore (with them trying to "focus on northern thedas only" i thought they'd make a clear cut in environmental design. they do and they don't. it's complicated. i'll elaborate on it when talking about the negative stuff). anyway it does. minrathous feels like kirkwall. treviso enchanted me like the winter palace did. the hossberg wetlands reminded me of the hinterlands and a couple other inquisition maps. arlathan looked like... arlathan. the crossroads were different, but familiar. overall i like the way it looks and feels. it's thedas, with a twist. it's a good one, and gives everything a solid but unique feel.
combat is top tier. if you're a hardcore dragon age player you WILL miss the tactical aspect of it for a bit, but i promise you, once you're used to the way the combat works, you will be lapping that shit up. and once you get to ability combos you'll mourn the control you used to have over your companions in battle a bit less
the MAIN quest and its story. i expected worse, way worse. and for a while the game even had me tricked (harr harr you'll get it in a second) it is Really That Much Worse. but holy shit was it good. i walked away satisfied ngl.
your choices have SOLID weight. there's consequences, good AND bad. i got minrathous blighted, ruled over by venatori, and the leader of the shadow dragons ultimately died because of my decisions. i made those at the beginning and throughout the game. he died at the end. DAVRIN died because i didn't expect what i was saying to have that much weight. i thought i was in the clear. he had hero status. well turns out, your choices can still get your companions killed even if you do everything right. i fucking love him. he shouldn't have made that sacrifice just because i told him to do everything it takes once.
the inquisitor, morrigan and dorian being there, surprisingly. there's also negatives to this though, see below.
speaking of companions dying and the inquisitor playing a bigger role: the final quest feels like me2's suicide mission. i was blown away by it and the fact that i got to see the results of all my efforts playing out in front of me.
bioware are NOT trying to redeem solas. they love him as a character yes, but i wasn't forced to see any good in him. he betrays you. he fucked my rook over twice. he fucked him over right back, for good this time (the veil wasn't torn down, i anchored it by binding him to it, he's doomed to uphold it). but solas really lives up to his name as the trickster elven god. rip to all the people who grew really attached to him over the years.
varric died. if you like him that's probably as hard reading it as it was watching it. varric died and the game lies about it until the very end. when the realisation hits, it hurts. but in the very best way.
the amount of care they put into gender expression and trans identities this time around. (i'll add onto this with negative points as well too).
rook feels very much ingrained in the world of thedas. he doesn't ask questions that expose the player to lore through dialogue as if he's stepped foot into thedas for the first time. those conversations feel very solid and good. i hope other faction players got as much joy out of this as i did.
and the things i didn't like and boy there's a lot unfortunately
the music. let's just get that out of the way holy shit. it doesn't feel like it belongs in this universe. it gets so incredibly sci-fi-y at times you'd think it's taken straight from mass effect andromeda. there's not a single song unique to veilguard that i really enjoyed. it broke my immersion, real bad. hearing a busker play the tavern songs from inquisition on a lute right after i killed some venatori with wobbly bass songs playing in the background is just odd. weird tonal shift. don't like it. it's made for people who like flashy light-weight cinema.
tevinter nights is required reading. the podcasts are required listening exercises. the game is so fast paced, especially at the start, that there's no time to introduce you to characters and how much weight their names carry in-game. i would not have known who half these people are if i hadn't skimmed over tevinter nights. i'd care even less about them than i already did. there is no time to get properly attached to them. people will act as if you're talking to a legend personified and you'll be thinking man goddamn which chapter of tevinter night were they in again and what did they do???
there's a weird mismatch with the animations. you'll have beautifully fluid ones, like emmrich casting spells. and then you'll have rook's face animating in the most unnatural manner that's sorta reminiscent of mass effect andromeda's "my face is tired" addison, when their emotions SHOULD be landing with the player rn instead.
i'm not vibing with the art style. sometimes it works. most of the time it doesn't. at points i felt like i was watching tangled.
that also brings me to some of the dialogue. same issue. i am watching frozen. i am watching tangled. someone on the writer's team really likes the adorkable trope. bellara is its victim.
for all the talk about identity, bioware sure doesn't like theirs. the grey warden armor got a redesign again and it just makes them look like a generic army. i hate it lol
in general, i don't like the armor design. the wardrobe/appearances system is fine, but it's just not helping if all the armors are just... kinda bland or downight bad looking? and don't get me started on the lords of fortune armor. that is orientalism personified.
the world states should have been carried over, full stop. i know they said they didn't because they want to separate what happens in the north from what happens in the south, which... i could have lived with that. but the inquisitor sends you letters that keep you up to date on... the south of thedas. you learn that there's a blight again, that people are standing strong but it's difficult, denerim's fallen, the rulers are taking care of it, orlais is fighting and they're successful for a while, etc etc. what's good bioware. i thought we don't care about the south this time around. why are you feeding me so much boring generic information. if you're not gonna show any of it and just write letters, then carrying the world state over should not have been an issue. i have a game dev background. those few lines of code would not have broken your budget or pushed your engine's limits. fuck right off.
this gripe of mine carries over to all the cameos. as a lord of fortune you have to deal with isabela a lot. it's fun. i missed her. you get to go drinking with her and taash and bellara! also my hawke romanced her. she's not mentioned once. they had the opportunity to put a sentence or two about her in there with not a lot of effort, trust me.
when varric dies, all she has is a single line about it. for gold, for fortune, for varric. she only says it if you interact with her on your way to the final push. that's not mandatory.
morrigan is there. kieran isn't. the old god soul that mythal and then solas absorbed? who cares at this point, the gods are dead now and solas is locked away for eternity. i suppose? why is morrigan there. she feels unneeded. i wish they'd just left her down south, at least that way i wouldn't have had to witness her god awful redesign.
dorian at least feels as if he belongs in this story. the shadow dragons are a crucial part to protecting minrathous. he's also weirdly underutilised. isabela and morrigan had more lines than him in my playthrough.
on the topic of romance: bro that was underwhelming. no, genuinely. you know when romance picked up a bit? after the point of no return. i heard maybe two lines of companion banter about it before that. maybe i missed something which i honestly doubt, but romance did not play much of a role in lucanis's storyline. i saved his grandmother as he wished me to (and if you read tevinter nights you know she was rather abusive and their relationship not the healthiest) and told him to focus on his family. a reunified family my rook wasn't even introduced to as a partner at the end of all that.
really, do not buy this game if you're only in it for the romances. others might be better, lucanis's basically gave me nothing. except for an outing (the second coffee date i had with him, it was getting repetitive) all of it played out once i committed to the final quest. the sex scene was a fade to black. annoyingly right after davrin died. if you're looking for well paced and good spice, pick up something else. the sweet talk and the final goodbye were nice though.
for all the good the ever-presence of gender identity does, it is brought up in such a disruptive manner too. it doesn't even play out naturally if you CHOOSE the lines that are meant to be said. hearing the words trans and non-binary in this setting doesn't feel right, and i'm saying this as a trans guy. i think it could have been handled more gracefully. the amount of times my rook went "i'm a MAN" as if he's about to start drumming on his chest and roaring any second now got super nerve-grating. "i'm so glad you're into me... the me who is trans. remember?" just. tell me one trans person who'd talk like that to a person they've grown close with and are trying to romance. this game doesn't handle sexuality well, so all this hey my body might not look like the way you're expecting it to look talk amounts to nothing anyway. i feel about this the way i feel about krem: this is partial exposition to trans experiences... packaged up for cis consumption. the ONLY exception to that is interacting with taash. holy shit was all of that heartwarming and bro did it feel good and natural to talk to them about theirs and rook's gender.
rivain and nevarra are new locations added by veilguard. they're also incredibly underwhelming, small and constricted maps. rivain is a coastline with a few ruins. the hall of valor is a partial ruin nestled into a cave on a beach, with a fighting pit. isabela is there in her skimpy outfit commentating your pit fights. that's it. i'm sorry if you were looking for a bustling pirate cove or whatever. you're not gonna get it. the nevarran crypts btw are a long ass dungeon crawl. that's it.
speaking of maps. i thought people were being dramatic when they said you're gonna be fighting the same enemies on them again and again. i thought they were figure of speeching it. they're not. you WILL fight the same amount of enemies. in the same spot. every time you reload the map. best to stay on a map and clear out the enemies and do as much questing on that map as you can before leaving, because you WILL have to do it all over again once you return.
the three choices i made for my inquisitor didn't matter lol she didn't have to face solas and therefore couldn't stop him at any cost as she had sworn (maybe because my rook tricked solas into binding himself to the veil, there was also an option to fight him. would she have stepped in? who knows). blackwall wasn't mentioned. and either her using a small amount of her forces in the final fight was the reason the civilians of minrathous fared so well..... or it just didn't matter. ultimately i think she had very little impact on anything
#datv#datv spoilers#dragon age: the veilguard#oh wow i hit a limit typing this#anyway to tie this up a bit: the good and bad to the environmental design being that well-known architecture like minrathous and dwarven#ruins look fire and remind me a lot of the previous games#but newly added locations are very... generic... very bland#i was very excited for rivain. i thought we'd get to see ships. not a bunch of ruins and a fighting pit and that's it#and why did i say to ignore a certain guy's review? bro because he was complaining about taash being ace and that taking up their screentim#and them being too up in your face about their identity. he did all this while she/her'ing them constantly#but my man they're trans. nb. not ace.#y'all need to be careful about bad reviews. they're coming from people who are upset about gender identity being handled as a topic in this#game. meanwhile they have no clue what they're even talking about. i don't think matty knows the difference between ace and trans#and neither do the hundreds of people who are one star rating this game currently#i liked this game. it's not top tier. it's not something i'll sink hours and hours and hours of my life into#it has tonal issues and it's moving away from what made dragon age stand out for me#but i do think that it's a genuinely fun play and people who are very invested in dragon age will squeeze joy out of it wherever they can#i had a hard time warming up to the new characters (taash and lucanis being the exception because they have an older bioware air about them#but solas's and varric's story (and don't get me wrong that's what veilguard is about) is GOOD. that is how bioware used to be.#and i wish they'd given us that energy all over the game. that direness. that grit. serious and mature writing.#that consistency is lacking#and whether you're gonna enjoy this game or not is entirely dependant on what you came here for and how well the game delivers on it#i think their weakest points are ironically the thing they advertised the most: the new companions and their writing#you won't find nuanced and good enemies here (i already reblogged something about this. you can go scroll around a bit and catch up on that#really the only thing that had me super invested and emotional was the main quest.#so make of that what you will. ultimately i was more frustrated with the game than i got enjoyment out of it. i was close to just put it#aside for now... until i went to minrathous to end ghila'nain's and elgar'nan's ritual. that all blew me away. still on a high off of it.#anyway yeah that review got cut short by the character limit maybe i'll add more to it tomorrow but rn... i am heading to bed#thanks for coming to my ted talk. also i'm sorry. zevran REALLY isn't in this.#dragon age
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btw i'm working on some halloween YCHs but i'm not sure when they'll be done. hopefully before halloween lmao
#listen#i been real slow about art lately#i got some decent progress last night so hopefully that's a sign i can get moving more fkgbjn#didderd talks#some time after these YCHs i wanna try doing some with a few of my guys#rn they'r just general fandom characters#bc not a lot of people know my guys/know much about them so not many simps to cater to with those#but if yall r interested. at some point i would love to do YCHs with my sanses
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Oughhhh okay first of all, I am SO happy to see Bucktommy back on our screens and I WILL be mass reblogging things about them soon, fair warning! I took a bit after the ep to stop jumping up and down about how good it was, but then I came across the subject of this post and so first, to get it out of my system: a rant! It's not about the episode, probably not of any interest to most people, especially Bucktommy fans trying to protect their peace, so feel absolutely free to ignore this, I'll put it under a cut, I just have to get it out. I've been holding my tongue where bobs are concerned for the most part because I don't want to be mean/have a bunch of negativity on my blog/have any of them find and come after me like they're known to do, but idc rn.
So, there's this author I follow on insta, have followed for years, have read a few of her books and had the rest on my tbr. The ones I've read weren't mind-blowing or anything tbh, but for contemporary romances (not my usual genre) I had fun with them. What I really liked about her was that she is so outspoken about all of her books having bi characters: f/f and m/f. Bi4bi m/f, bi woman x straight man, bi woman x lesbian etc. I love to see bi rep and her efforts to make bi characters visible are great, I respected her for it and I found out last season, she's also a 911 fan! A Buck fan! Cool! She ships B*ddi3 but usually idc ship and let ship, I didn't think she was a Bucktommy hater.
That is, until tonight when I went on insta and saw her post. Bee cupcakes as the first pic, I went oh cute, for 911!! But then I scroll through the post and find this bingo card, the more I looked at it, the more I was like 😬 oh so she's a bob, huh? She only cares about Buck and his bisexuality if he's with E**ie? I didn't want to jump to conclusions, but then there's this in her stories (edits by me to highlight what I'm on about):
And I've blocked a LOT of blogs to try and avoid Tommy/Bucktommy hate so getting blindsided by this when I was in such a good mood enjoying our favorite guy's scene sucked. I literally felt sick about it for a while afterwards and I've decided to unfollow her and unhaul the books I own without reading more. It's not the first time I've stopped supporting an artist I was a fan of, granted this reasoning may seem dumb or petty to other people but I just can't get over it, I mean-
You're a romance author with 5 books published, I didn't think it was a stretch to assume you at least had some decent media literacy and appreciation for a good story/a sweet, queer, rom-com inspired ship. But you hate Tommy just because he's in the way of your ship? You champion bi characters, but will hate on the gay boyfriend of one who is breaking stereotypes and making people feel represented because you think his straight best friend would be a better match? Seriously?
And it's not only these two things, I looked her up on tw*tter, which I'm never usually on, but had logged into today to look at Lou's posts, and I found that she follows multiple people who I know to be particularly nasty Tommy haters/bobs. So. Yeah. I'm out of there, I just can't look at her the same anymore, not to be parasocial or whatever but she always seemed cool, I liked her, I wanted to support her work, I HAVE supported her work personally and as someone who works as a bookseller, I've pointed people to her books and sold them.
But now I just have a bad taste in my mouth. There has been SO much hate towards Tommy, Bucktommy, and worse, the real people who ship them, Lou, and even Oliver over the last few months, because it's constantly being stirred up by this kind of B*ddi3 shipper. I would feel sorry for them for how desperate and bitter they are if not for the fact that I simply cannot stand them anymore. They are miserable and determined to make Bucktommy shippers miserable, too.
I just don't get why people can't stay in their fandom lane and leave others alone?? Like, getting mad that Buck's ESTABLISHED BOYFRIEND and E**ie's FRIEND, WHO HE LIKES, was in one (1) scene, when it narratively made sense for him to be there to remind the ga of him, is pathetic. Tommy came to support E at the virtual birthday party of his estranged teenager, and make a heavy scene lighter and you're acting like he's some kind of monster. I can't even, I'm done!
I hope all the bestie boos will start to leave the fandom soon, when Tommy sticks around, because tbh they only care about one thing that's never going to happen and they don't even seem to have fun on their side of the "ship war". They're too busy being nasty all the time, can't talk about their ship without dragging ours down.
Anyway this rant is becoming more generalized than what I planned to say about that person and has already gotten sooo long, so I'm just going to post it to throw all my anger and frustration out there with it and then bury it with happy Bucktommy posts!! If any Bucktommy fan for some reason actually reads this 1. Oof. Sorry! 2. I 💙 you, Bucktommy fans are the best and I'm so glad to be in this fandom despite everything!!
#911 spoilers#911 discourse#anti tommy kinard#anti bucktommy#<-tagging those to keep this away from poor Bucktommy fans who don't want to see any negative posts rn#anti buddie#<-that one I'm just going to go ahead and say for me. Idc I'm Tired of seeing bestie boo bob BS everywhere!!#some B*ddies might be decent but they're a rare breed as far as I can tell. multi shippers who don't bash Tommy or treat him like a stepping#stone this isn't about you#I was just long overdue for a rant about *gestures to the state of the fandom* well you know everything#btw I didn't name the person who inspired this but I guess if you happened to be curious I would say who in a message#I just didn't want to put it out there to start anything unlike the bobs I don't jump down people's throats on their own socmed when I don't#agree with them. I didn't interact with her just like I never do when I block anyone. she can do whatever I'm sure I wouldn't change her#mind anyway so no point announcing my departure to her. I can just talk to myself about it then move on!
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THE EYHM COLLECTION GROWS!!!! managed to make some space without having to move too much so they can all be together!!
(i made the smaller ones into stickers bc i'm running out of picture frames!! hope that's ok!)
THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYONE WHO'S GIFTED THESE TO ME THOUGH!!! I'M CALLING ALL OF YOU OUT HERE BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!! ❤❤❤❤❤
*sharp inhale* @eskariolis-con-salsa @oddpizza @woobab @the-little-knight @moon9931 @misdreavusplush @noodletime @witch-tower-au !!!!!!!
hope you all have a good holiday season!! love you all! *MWAH*
#don't worry about the fish tanks they'll keep the kitties company! there's literally almost nowhere else good to put these lmao#but!! i think they look good there at least!! AND IN GENERAL THEY ALL LOOK SO GOOD THANK YOU#BUT NOW AFTER THIS I REALLY NEED TO FIND MORE SPOTS IF I GET MORE EYHMS BECAUSE THERE'S NO SPACE LEFT THERE!#....maybe i can move some of the pokemon posters i have by my bed lol. they're just kinda. there rn.#but yeah!! i never expected people to like this cat this much and i'm kinda freaking out!!! but thank you again so much!!#i'll say it 1000 times if i have to!!!!!!#eyhm stuff#gift eyhms#basically ALL of the gift eyhms i've gotten lmao. there's a couple that're in progress but they'll hopefully join the others soon-ish!#quick side ramble! i've got a couple more drawing things planned this year but they might take a couple days because Chrimbo and all!#but there's a couple pizza tower things/gifts and. maybe finally my About Me post? gotta figure out how i'm gonna make that heh#OK I'VE BEEN TALKING TOO LONG SORRY BUT I'M JUST SO HAPPY ABOUT THESE AAAHHHHHHH
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bc its hot out im thinking about Laughingstock (two fluffy boys) being too warm to sleep in the same bed. so they start arguing over who gets the bed - trying to give it to each other of course - and Howdy. Howdy starts making a sales pitch about how great the bed is, wouldnt Barnaby like to try it? its right up his alley! perfectly suited to him! so Barns is like "oh hm well sure ill give it a go". he lays down. blinks. "heyyyyy wait a minute" but Howdy is already camped on the living room couch, smug as a bug
#and thus begins several months of them moving each others stuff around#to try and switch who's taking the couch#howdy is sprinting home after work to try to move back onto the couch before barnaby can beat him to it#one day poppy says 'why dont you just buy two beds?#they look at her for a long moment before continuing the Fighting Over The Couch bit as if no suggestion was made#bro if they hug or just touch during summer#i bet it sounds like velcro when they try to separate#cue them gazing sadly and longingly at each other from arm's length bc They Cant Have Contact During These Hellish Months#they're both too fuzzy!!! its unbearable#absolutely unprompted#laughingstock#no yeah and okay the Set doesn't experience real seasons but rn im living in an imaginary world where theirs is real#and during summer poppy/howdy/barnaby must be miserable#especially poppy#like they must be in lethargic 'lay in front of a fan and die slowly' mode#no wait howdy's store probably has Killer ac... catch the whole neighborhood hanging out in there#popsicle party lets gooooo
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Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 [END]
The second shackle comes off
Get adopted and feel loved, mangey cat
We're gonna pretend I didn't give Heket the wrong shaped crown aight? aught 👍
(explanation beneath the cut bc I didn't want dialogue)
The harvest comes. Narinder can't help but notice how sad the wheat fields are, the wheat growing small and patchy at best. He remembers how Heket would make the wheat fields flourish just by walking between the stalks. The memory of the fields she would create early in their godhood makes him feel somber, realizing now what the cost of being a godless land is; their entire lives are left to the limitations of the earth, without any god to help them thrive. These people are making the best of what they have, and they're happy even though it's not a lot.
Narinder notices some are harvesting wheat while others till the earth once it's been harvested, and the old dog explains that once this wheat is harvested they plant "winter wheat", which can be harvested in the spring before they plant their summer wheat. They till and fertilize the earth before planting the winter wheat, of course. Narinder tries his hand at harvesting the wheat, and the old dog begins to teach him how to use the sickle. Time passes.
Over the late summer, autumn and winter, Narinder learns how to live this provincial, modest life. He tills the fields with the other villagers, he sees feral beasts for the first time in over a thousand years, learns to collect eggs from said feral beasts, learns how and decides he doesn't like to collect milk (the godless lands have more feral beasts than the Lands of the Old Faith ever did), has finally regained enough strength to draw water from the village well without help, learns to bake bread (with great amounts of help so as to not waste the precious resources with the inevitable first fifty failures), and attends his first lantern festival. All in all, this marks his approach to his second year here, most of his first year spent indoors recovering. (His fur is also getting long, something something new me new hair something (totally not an excuse for me to draw hair))
At his first lantern festival, Narinder decides to partake in what is usually a coming of age tradition for the village; he gets an ear piercing, choosing a symbol that will essentially act as his written name. He chooses a symbol that is a crescent moon inside of a sun, thinking of Aym and Baal when he sees it. (Note: He is not scared/nervous about the ear piercing, he isn't bothered by a literal pinprick of pain, but the fact that someone he barely knows is this close with a needle is what worries him)
Later on, days or even weeks later, the old dog gives him a chain with their individual symbols on it, with a loose chain hanging from the other side of Narinder's sun-and-moon charm. Narinder questions this and the old dog explains the symbolism behind the charms; two charms with a chain extending between them indicates marriage/partnership, and two charms with another charm on the chain between them indicates that couple's child/children. The one Narinder has is the latter, with the second parent's charm missing, indicating that the old dog views Narinder as his own son, now. It takes a moment, but Narinder realizes all at once that this is the old dog's way of extending an invitation to become family- and it's been so long since Narinder had a family... (And yes, the old dog is fully aware that this cat is thousands of years old (Narinder was very vocal about this in the first weeks before he eventually stopped bringing it up), but that won't stop him from deciding he's gonna be this abandoned, fallen god's new family)
Narinder goes to sleep, and finds that despite everything- despite how simple and quaint and, frankly, not easy life in this little godless village is, he's happy. He has none of the luxuries that he had as a Bishop; no worship, no reverence, no servants, no silks or satins or veils or anything of the sort. Here he's just... one of the people. Just another face in the crowd. And he's happy. Happier than he's been in a long time. Unfortunately for Narinder, he is failing to realize that this godless village is a little less godless every day he's there. But that's not necessarily a bad thing.
The village wakes up to their fields flourishing like they never have before. The wheat is taller than the tallest villager, and no one is really sure what to do about this, but there is excitement throughout the village. Narinder thinks of Heket again, reminded once more how she would make the fields come alive. The shackle on his left hand opens up before dispersing into light, and he remembers the way she looked at him in the days leading up to his imprisonment, the quiet and somber warnings she would give him. He takes a moment to grieve before turning his attention back to the present, back to the family he's creating now.
#cult of the lamb#justa arts#sketch#cotl au#God in a Godless Land AU#Narinder#cotl ocs#I'll name that old dog one day I love him#wip#<- technically#if only bc once I finish all the... 'prequel' parts ig I want to digitize it#still have Kallamar's shackle and then Narinder coming to peace with Shamura (tho there is no shackle for them)#so at least two more parts#but I want to draw more for this AU even after the prequel/prologue is done ehehe#I just like the idea of Narinder finding peace in a simple life#and not even realizing that he's essentially becoming the village's resident god and accidentally blessing stuff#just the idea of Narinder coming to love something that once upon a time he'd have looked at with scorn and probably destroy....#the strength and power that once would have been used to crusade now being used to protect.....#new lease on life babeyyy he's gonna become so gosh darn protective of this village y'all it won't be funny (but will be wholesome)#also just to clarify Heket is NOT actually here even as a ghost as she is in superhe- I mean purgatory rn#they are echoes of a memory (just like Leshy was) that Narinder is recalling#he has no idea that they're in Purgatory and assumes they've moved onto the Afterlife by now
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life pro tip: buy miniature cookware. it saves space and a lot of mini appliances come with little recipe books as well. if it's too small to cook a filling meal in one go, simply prep your ingredients so you can make more servings more quickly. i.e. mini waffle maker makes too-tiny waffles?? you will have excess batter just make more. tiny skillet makes too-small portions?? set your chicken and spices or whatever you have aside and make more servings. plus your next serving is freshly cooked oooo. mini baking stuff?? make another batch babyyyy that's half of baking anyway
*DISCLAIMER: this user keeps buying mini cookware because its cute and is also currently fantasizing about living independently and is Coping. life pro tip may not be effective for all readers.
#ramblings with major#i just needed to get this out of my system lol#i bought a mini breadpan springpan and rolling pin set from the halloween section of my local grocery store. the pin is orange with bats.#i love it and i still need to make tiny bread with it#i also have. mini skillet. a separate mini cast iron skillet in the shape of a heart. and mini waffle maker#y'all don't understand those waffle makers come in so many colors and shapes of waffles#they have YELLOW HONEYCOMB. i NEED IT.#AND THEY'RE ALL LESS THAN $20. SOMETIMES CHEAPER.#i also have too many cookie cutters but that's unrelated#im gonna be so set on cookware when i move out#i hope my parents still have that cute microwave we had for a while....#i say as if i'm planning to move out anytime soon#ANYWAY mini cookware we love mini cookware in this household#im watching. so many renter friendly diy decor videos rn.
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Saw some of the grossest parenting today in the bus
#this dad was on his phone the whole bus ride ok#and his two kids were screaming arguing#at most he would periodically tell them to lower their voice while still on his phone#one time he told them to stop the one sitting next to him hit him 😭 and he went back to look at his phone with no reaction#my guy something is seriously wrong with you#your kids are screaming at each other doesn't even matter all that much that we are in the bus rn#theyre not just being loud kids you need to do smt!!!!!! its too early for this!!! i could hear them even with my noise cancelling headphone#anyways#ive never seen smt like this#and i work in a mall i see lots of parents and kids#idk smt really disgusting about a parent just not even interested in engaging with their kids#dude no wonder they're loud they probably want ur attention#also this one lady once who came in wjth a big stroller#and the store where i work has little moving rooms between the aisle so this woman decided TO LEAVE THE STROLLER WITH A KID INSIDE AT THE#FRONT OF THE STORE#the kids started crying and his hrother (toddler not in the stroller but not following the mom for some reason) started exploring and i#i had to watch them until the mom came back but like the woman just left them there???#i just stepped in but what if i hadnt??? lady?????????#i see lots of cute interactions of course#like this little girl who came with who i think is her grandpa and he asked me to help her chose her next manga read 😭💖#i basically work in a book/toy store#theres a lot of candy as well the kids love it#idk i like seeing kids being happy ok it is healing#like all the kids sitting on the floors deep in their books while the parents shop 😭😭😭 makes me smile every time top tier behavior
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girl you got called out once and the rpf left your soul fast asf
is this a compliment? an insult? a congratulation? a warning?
#also bold of you to say when i'm scrolling rn through the 20+ asks i got about charlando last night and cackling#IS THIS ABOUT THE charles is objectively obsessed as being seen as max verstappen's true rival??? STUFF ARE YOU THE SAME ANON SCREAMING#bc if so let me lay this to rest: i just took offence at someone taking one look at my blog and thinking i didn't rate charles#i will continue to rpf especially if it's over something as silly as grid dynamics#i will ESPECIALLY continue to lestappen rpf especially if it has truth in it#like there is a reason beyond “omg they're weird” that charles keeps pushing lestappen....#the reason being yeah it benefits him as being seen as equal to a 4x wdc! that's just a fact#it's why he's desperate to mention his and max's history so much....no rpf conspiracy there just charles pr moves
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You know what really kills me about kizuna, particularly the ending?
Agumon and Gabumon ask Tai and Matt respectively what they'll do tomorrow. In Butter-fly, THE Digimon song, one of the lines translates to 'I don't even know what my plans are for tomorrow', and Tai and Matt don't even get to respond to Agumon and Gabumon before they disappear
( 。゚Д゚。)
#digimon adventure kizuna#kizuna spoilers#i don't like where adventure went with tri and kizuna#like 'here is your best friend for life tailor-made just for you'#then 'oops you're a grown up ctrl+alt+del digimon'#i get what they're saying#you gotta let go of your childhood and move forward#but you don't have to completely ABANDON your childhood#i don like it >:[#giv them back rn >:'[
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do u guys ever think about how the 'better safe than sorry/trust your gut' mindset when it comes to evaluating how dangerous people (especially strangers) are is mostly just willfully letting your knee-jerk biases against certain people take precedent over fair and rational risk analysis? i think about that a lot.
#like i hate to break it to some of you but your intuition is just as fallible as the rest of your brain 😭#moreso even‚ because subconscious processes can't be paused and checked for accuracy#intuition is just subconscious pattern recognition. peoples 'vibes' are just the way that you personally feel around them#we all see the AI thing rn. we all know how inaccurate to current reality and biased pattern recognition can be#if you're accurately identifying that someone is a risk to you#there should be at least one specific thing they're doing that suggests possible intent to hurt you#if there's none and you just think that the way they look or move or smell or talk to themselves is creepy or threatening#you're just projecting racism or classism or ableism onto strangers.
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#sorry let me rant real quick in the tags#cw personal#once again hitting an insurance pothole bc the psych says she accepts my OHP plan HOWEVER the therapy group she is contacted with says#THEY don't#they only accept the insurance if it's through my employer but NOT through the government??????????????#so there's still some kind of payment???#anyway I want to scream why is this so complicated#like will she take my insurance or not who's right here#anyway called her back directly and went to voicemail so now I've done all I can for now#why the hell is this so hard man#the person on the phone didn't know really how to explain#once again no one knows what they're talking about#like can y'all not communicate and figure this out?#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#i need to get an ADHD eval before my next PCP appointment in june so that they will continue giving me my meds#and the psychiatry through the hospital has a limited number of visits that insurance will cover#*contracted#not retyping all of that#and once again the only reason this is so stressful is because the psychiatry group at the hospital fumbled the communication ball last tim#and the psychiatrist I was with never put the ADHD on the chart#and now somehow it's MY responsibility to fix that>#UGH#like I am grateful to have some kind of coverage but holy shit is the US healthcare system in shambles#the bureaucracy is INSANE#i had to just sit down and put my head in my hands for a second#and then go 'right okay nothing i can do about that rn moving on'#uGH#literally said 'what the FUCK' out loud a couple times#like not on the phone after I hung up obvs
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Doodles!
What if we're just a couple of insurance agents and girlfriends and we are enjoying some watermelon with our guy friends... 🥺
#tbh this is not modern au just a slice of life au where they're ordinary people living in the 90s in japan or sth#i wanna draw merilly throughout the seasons but im working on sth else rn rngggghg my brain gonna explode w ideas#btw merilly had a consensual workplace relationship before moving in together#their neighbours are vash and ww who both have a major crush on each other but are oblivious about the other's feeling#vw are roomates and the pining is so unbearable the insurance girlfriends have to step in and help them#giggling kicking my feet at their silly plans#trigun#meryl stryfe#milly thompson#merilly#merylmilly#insurance wives#muyuus_art
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Some 4 hours in and a summary of my thoughts while playing is a mix of Grump It and frequently chanting 'leave me alone'.
Anyway, I would thoroughly recommend ISAT.
#in stars and time#like I don't suck at fighting#I just hoard items then become allergic to actually using them#maybe it's because everyone is L45/46 rn but damn those sadnesses hit harder than I'd like them to even when they're resistant moves#one thing I need to get used to is the fact the enemies respawn so easily#and man those change god blessings don't seem to have any noticeable effect on me at the moment#I can get as frustrated as I want about my health worries though#the interactions between characters when we discover new stuff together makes it all worth it#like god I love them especially Siffrin and Isabeau's friendship
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overstated sentiment perhaps. but the point of it all is sitting in a bar with your friends
#literally whenever im just sitting in a bar with friends i'm like i think this is it. i don't think there's really much beyond this#everyone's a mess rn it's everyone's worst week one friend's moving in 4 days one friend's stretched SO fucking thin#all of us have like a 0 per cent shot at academic success and all of our phd contracts are running out#but like. when i a certified weirdo freak am like can we please toast to my dead wife izzy hands. they're like girl absolutely#maybe it's all not so dire#breisgau hochschwarzwald gothic
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