#for my hormones to be in the right place

[goddessofroyalty]

I know you've done fics for when Viktor, Claggor and Mylo were born but have you ever done one for Isha?? Poor Silco having a baby in your 40s sounds rough 🤧

It's on the prompt list and I definitively have plans on writing it just need to get around to it.

You can find the aftermath of it here:

But I do definitively plan on writing the birth itself.

[wildsaltair]

Maximus "slayer of men and my ovaries" Meridius

[lynettethemadscientist]

Flashback to when I was having an overwhelmingly miserable day in July and I kept spiraling into despair waiting until I could come home and play Fallout 4 and as soon as I opened up the game I talked to Preston and he told me "You should give yourself credit sometimes. You really are one of the good guys." And I about sobbed.

[cockworms]

so I work two jobs, at an auto parts store and a cafe and I've noticed that people at the parts place think im a dude and the cafe customers assume im a girl its so interesting to see

[tiredtriedfailures]

i hate losing weight and i hate being chubby. i also love being chubby and i love losing weight. this might sound stupidly confusing but all trans people get it

[pochapal]

clocks changed and now it's bright out at 7pm

[meatheadmutt]

why am i having to hold a gun to googles head to show me articles on the long term effects of hormonal birth control on the endocrine system in adult patients who began usage as a teenager

[shadowglens]

+

I went for breakfast with my dad and he hugged me before he left, and now im sitting at home sobbing about it because I miss him so much

[illogicalghost]

.

[kyluxtrashpit]

So I’m having another… let’s call it an internet crisis. A thing that typically happens when I have Big Problems I can’t do fuck all about which means now it’s time to get Really Upset about problems that are comparatively small but do affect my daily routine (sorry again for no cut, I still can’t remember how to do it on mobile and I fucking hate hate hate the desktop post editor as much as someone can hate a piece of code)

It’s… getting harder to use tumblr. This isn’t about the sidebar, I don’t actually hate the sidebar cause we used to have a sidebar on the other side and I’ve missed it every since it left, but it’s about other things. A lot of things, but I won’t get into them all right now. For me, the new post editor is just. Really fucking difficult to use. If you’re just doing an unformatted, unplanned ramble (like this) or a little shitpost, it’s fine, especially if you’re on mobile (somehow the shitty mobile editor is now less shitty than the desktop editor, how tf did that happen), but if you’ve got multiple paragraphs and literally any formatting is needed? Well, you’re fucked, quite frankly, it is the most dense and convoluted post editor I’ve seen in like roughly 2 decades spent online. I’ve never seen anything more counterintuitive and difficult to use

And I’m sitting here with all these twitter posts I want to move. Some are little and would be easy. Others are a lot longer and more complicated and would shove me into that formatting hell I despise so much (and given how much feedback and unanswered asks to wip I’ve sent with no improvements, I’ve given up hope of it ever being made better). Like god I really, really want to save those posts but is it even worth it to do it here? But where else would I do it?

And the secondary layer too is… there’s no fucking posts here. No engagement on posts either most of the time. 90% of my posts come from my archive cause the kylux and Kylo (plus a few others I check less regularly) tags have very few daily posts and there’s hardly anything on my dash anymore. My original posts maybe get 10 notes on average, and these posts are ones that sometimes got near triple digit rts alone on twitter. Just seems there’s exceptionally few people here to enjoy them

And I’m still on twitter. It’s slowly dwindling but it’s still slightly more active than here. I’m on pillowfort and bsky too and they are truly dead (unless you’re a furry, good on the furries for populating every site in existence). There’s just. Nothing anymore. Maybe my fandoms are just dead but it feels like the meme about passing around the same $20 among friends cause capitalism is destroying us except with posts and likes

Idk. I feel like I don’t have an online home anymore. 90% of my socializing is online and 100% of my creativity is expressed through fandom and. I don’t know where to do that anymore. I have friends I chat with on discord and I love them but it’s… it’s not the same as a whole community, you know? And now that our homes are falling apart with every sign pointing towards imminent foreclosure like. What do I do. I know I’ve been through site losses before but. It feels different. Something new and shiny always came along before the end. I fear that’s not coming and we’ll all just be lost

Idk. I don’t have a conclusion. Twitter is doomed. I hate how the new owners are running on tumblr and I’m still posting here more out of a desperate desire to remember what community felt like than any real actual want to do so. The new sites have nothing going on. Idk. I feel lost. And maybe it’s the 15 other problems I have going on right now and hormones and shit but. I just don’t know what to do and I’m scared of what the future looks like for online communities and how alone I’ll be if I lost them (even though in reality I already have lost them aside from a small handful of people)

[andromeda3116]

you know that feeling like a scream building in your chest and you have no clear exact reason for it but a diffuse "everything and nothing" and you want to rip your brain out of your head and throw it in a lake and just unbecome yourself and dissolve into the ocean or the stars?

yeah.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[shittygothbitch]

I feel nasty

[thickest-slimiest-malware]

i think its a coincidence that whenever im like "maybe i could handle sucking it up and being a woman" within 5 minutes im like everything sucks oobh i dont know why im feeling so hopeless all of a sudden

[sollucets]

in anticipation of dlc soon i have reupped my ps4 to play elden ring and am engaging in my favorite pastime (sunbro!) and it does. feel nice. enjoying liking things again

[neverendingford]

.