#for fucks sake I need TO SLEEP
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I’m being overdramatic I know, but maybe I’m just meant to be miserable.
(“Well maybe you shouldn’t do these sailing trips if you get so sick after” IM TOO OLD NOW ANYWAY. IM DONE WHETHER I WANT TO BE OR NOT. IVE SPENT A MONTH AT SEA TOTAL NOW. AND I REALLY FUCKING HOPED THAT I WOULDNT GET SICK THIS TIME. and I didn’t the first time (you know when Everyone still was asked to mask and we tested before boarding)) and I booked the rest of the week off to recover. That I have to call in sick for at least a little bit now too. Yeah. That sucks for all of us. Nothing I can do but not die or whatever)
#for fucks sake I need TO SLEEP#I need to get better#I need to be able to go back to work#I need to FUCKING SLEEP#but I need to brush my teeth#and you’re in there AS FUCKING ALWAYS#and I said to go first so it can ventilate after in case I do have Covid#but FUCKING SHIT ITS BEEN HALF AN HOIR AND IM SO TORED I COULD CRY#which isn’t going to help my breathing bc my nose is starting to get involved#and my body is so fucking exhausted from coughing#like shit I’m going to need a second dinner if I’m awake much longer#get OUT please#and I had my vitamin packet so it can absorb better as I go to bed#BUT I CANT FUCKING GO TO BED CAN I???#have taken the risk to cry out asking her to hurry it up#(I can’t hear her in return over my air purifier and fan but anyway)#like my half coughs sound more like sobs all day if I can’t do a full cough right now#and I think it’s so fucking fitting#too exhausted and miserable. can’t even cough properly just cough sobbing without the tears#except I still. can cough. can cough myself into puking actually 😭 I hate this so much#shattered fragments#sick posting#I just want to sleep#somebody just put me down and let me sleep UNINTERRUPTED for a full night please#if it wouldn’t hurt my throat so much more I would be sobbing right now#god I feel like crying#I just want to be well again#FUCK#haven’t even played Stardew bc I have to use two hands for it#and my shoulder still hurts (a little less after laying on the wand but not a ton less)
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Alexander the great and hephaestion are so patrochilles coded it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach like how the fuck did they make the iliad in real life what the actual hell this is so fucked up
#THE WAY HEPHAESTION DIED A YEAR BEFORE ALEXANDER????? HELLO????????#honestly mad respect to alexander tho he saw the blorbo from his book and went ‘I am going to be him’#AND FUCKING DID IT!!!! HE IS ACHILLES IF HE WAS REAL!!!!!!!!#no one can reach the degree of ‘he’s just like me fr’ than alexander did with achilles#both their names start with A for fucks sake#and their stories have been straight washed and their partners forgotten#EVEN THEIR HORSES ARE FAMOUS!!!!!!!! THAT’S INSANE!!!!!!!#at war with a powerhouse enemy for an extended amount of time… (though he did conquer like A LOT so…)#both are young as hell and are destined for greatness#god…#it’s 12am I need to go to sleep#alexander the great#hephaestion#history#alexander x hephaestion#achilles#patroclus#the iliad#patrochilles
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Husk: *pointing to a high shelf* Can you reach that for me?
Angel: Awww, Whiskers! You need me in your life after all.
Husk: I could replace you with a step ladder.
#husk: fuck why am I even thinking about this I HAVE WINGS#Husk: …#husk: Vaggie- would you#Vaggie: nope#Husk: ladder it is *turns to see Angel getting the jar down* ???#Angel: *embarrassed* Well I was already standing and it’s not like it’s that high and I didn’t have anything BETTER to do#husk: thanks Legs 😉#Angel: 😳#Cherri: *from another room* JUST FUCK ALREADY FOR SATAN’S SAKE#*they’re already dating they just like to mess with everyone*#huskerdust#husk: fuck this shit i’m going to sleep in angel’s room#Angel: me too#they’re in love your honor#they’re chaotic together#loser baby#hazbin angel dust#hazbin husk#husk/angel#angel hazbin hotel#husker hazbin hotel#Hazbin hotel#incorrect hazbin hotel#angel dust needs a hug#consensually#preferably from husk#incorrect quotes#they’re both losers#and call each other pet names FIGHT ME#Angel: You’re not my real ladder!
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Sam: "Look at me. Hey- look at me a second. I know. I know you're tough. I know how strong you are. You have every right to be proud of that. But being able to handle somethin' doesn't mean you should have to. Least of all when I'm right here trying to help. Please let me help. If not for you then for me, because I don't like knowin' you're hurtin', especially when there's somethin' I can do about it."
Me, shaking my head, fighting back literal tears: "B-but it's gonna give you another headache!"
#redacted sam#redacted audio#redacted asmr#redactedverse#redacted fandom#[Sam's name doubles as a link to the specific lines i quoted btw. just for full credit/transparency & for anyone who wants to (re)listen]#Sam's deep-seated need to heal vs my inability to accept help would be a battle for the ages. unstoppable force vs immovable object#wait Sam already mentioned the force vs object thing to David during the inversion didn't he lmao 'they call /me/ Immovable Object'#he does suit Immovable a little more than Unstoppable i guess. i mean he can def be both imo but ykwim. anyways i digress#listen. i'm not a Marriage kinda guy. but good god the way some of Sam's lines make me wanna take a fucking knee and propose#i'm love him ur honor. he is comfort incarnate#can't believe i waited so long to listen to the Valentines Vampire Attack audio. it's got so much of that sweet sweet hurt/comfort#very reminiscent of their 2nd audio given all the healing he does for them & the consent checks before moving clothing and whatnot#which makes it a top favorite for me bc that's probably my most replayed Sam audio. and the one that initially hooked me#i didn't put off listening to it bc i thought i Wouldn't like it btw i just procrastinate everything for no real reason#listening to it now tho actually worked out well bc i could uh. definitely use it. so maybe i was subconsciously saving it for hard times#this post isn't a joke btw it really does hurt to hear him put himself in pain for the sake of healing Darlin' :(((#anD PAINKILLERS DON'T EVEN WORK ON HIM!!! ough man i would struggle so hard to accept his healing if i were in Darlin's shoes#like yeah there's other reasons i'd struggle to accept it too but him being in pain as a result would be one of 'em. the Guilt bro i can't#rp audio stuff#Seven.txt#(Seven blorbo-posting at 2am when they should either be doing something productive or sleeping?? more likely than you might think)
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superhero mike and merc fit are arch enemies pac is mike’s civilian sidekick and he told mike he’s been seeing this guy for months mike couldn’t give less shit and when pac finally introduced his boyfriend to him over a dinner both mike and fit are both shocked and are fighting every time pac turns around
#i’m like so sleep deprived idk what the fuck is this i just need to get this out of my head i have midterm to more for christ’s sakes#good bye i’m going to bed#jrrtxt
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And for no particular reason other than to be an asshole😑, my brain has decided to torture me with fantasizing about werewolf!Price! He's so pent up for years of not having a mate that during a rut, in werewolf form of course, he's whining in pain and along comes this pretty little thing that smells so sweet and offers to help him out. Proceeds to get railed within an inch of her life on the forest floor.
I should be asleep! I have work early tomorrow and yet here I am! Fantasizing about this🫠!
#~Harley things ✨#FOR FUCK SAKE#PLEASE I NEED SLEEP😭#I can't even man#werewolf!price#john price#captain price#captain john price#werewolf!John Price#tw monsterfucking#werewolves#call of duty#cod x reader#werewolf!price x reader
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every now and then i get really in my own head about like, the Content on this blog, this worry that i don't make my own gifs often enough or consistently enough or when i do it's not the right stuff, that my content is repetitive or too simple or etc etc etc. and then i remember that the invisible metrics i hold myself to mean literally nothing to anyone else, and that even if other people did give a shit it's my blog and i can post whatever i want to whenever i want to. i'm not a Content Maker im just some silly billy with a blog where i post stims i like
#i gotta kill the capitalist in my brain that starts to think i need to maintain any amount of consistency for other ppl's sake#im nebulous as fuck dude im out here postin#introspective posts at 4am. i should get back to sleep LOL#ghost speaks
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*Screams in horror*
ISTFG AO3 NO! BABY HUNNY DARLING LIGHT OF MY LIFE I NEED YOU. I WAS SETTLING DOWN INTO MY BED SNUGGLED UP READY TO READ SOME FANFICS MY BEAUTIFUL GORGEOUS DARLING AO3 *WHY*
fucking sobbing what the hell am i supposed to do with my life now
#ao3#ao3 down#why would you do this to me#how the fuck am i supposed to sleep now#where are my bedtime stories#i need my serotonin?? hello??#wtf am i supposed to do help for fuck's sake please
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i'm now in the part of the autoimmune cycle where i stop being distracted by newfound knowledge and simply become annoyed that my symptoms are still present. what do you MEAN the """immeasurable antibodies wreaking havoc in every part of my body""" haven't taken a vacation just because i have proof they're there now and also that i haven't been cured of all ailments because i'm """not on medication yet""" come onnnn. we're in the getting better phase who cares that we have zero meds that actually stop autoimmune disease rn. cmon body yip yip!
#autoimmune tag#i havent slept well the past few nights and my body is Fucked this morning lads#like not dangerously. i'm just whining. but for fuck's sake#anyway. i'm waiting for calls from doctor and mechanic and i need to respond to some nextdoor messages and i have a social thing tonight#so i cant sleep all day. even if i could get back to sleep. but CMAAAHHHHNNNNNNNN
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Ok so I was wondering like
Top 0.005% of listeners. That's Pretty Damn Small. But I was wondering Just how small...
357.1k monthly listeners
0.005% of 357.1k is... just under 18...
Guys. I'm within the top 20 listeners for IAMX. Period. 🫣
#speculation nation#16K MINUTES OF MY 59K TOTAL MINUTES FOR THE YEAR...#A LITERAL 27% OF ***ALL*** MUSIC I LISTENED TO THIS YEAR........#cant help gettin emo i guess#like i knew he'd be indisputably my top artist but. holy fuck.#THIS ALSO ISNT INCLUDING THE SNEAKER PIMPS ALBUM... which ive listened to obsessively too#as an extension of the obsession with his music. bc he sings in it.#SOMETIMES AN ARTIST HITS U LIKE A FREIGHT TRAIN and ur left like. yeah. yeah .#helps that hes got so many albums so i spent Months slowly making my way through them all.#but then i just kept listening to him bc his music just... scratches an itch in my brain idk.#in part it's the grief. Metanoia was a crutch of an album after my uncle died.#and also with my cat... it was just. nonstop IAMX. for Months.#ive been branching out more again recently bc i do like some variety in the music i listen to#but if i want music but dont know what to play it just always ends up going back to IAMX#because it's dependable. it's enjoyable. it's Comfortable.#his music feels like a reset button for me. like returning to a dark room to sleep at night.#it's not dark for the sake of darkness. but for the comfort of it. existing honestly. existing without fear of judgement.#and bringing the analogy together i really have listened to his music to help me sleep a few times#not often just bc i usually dont listen to music as i sleep. im a light sleeper so i need white noise.#but there were a few times i found myself without a working fan. so i turned to his music to act as white noise instead.#not actual white noise of course. but the function of it. the Comfort. the familiarity.#pick one of his lowkey albums and just let it keep going. and it works. it does.#so like. it makes sense. it does. i understand entirely why i rank so high in his monthly listeners.#it's just a bit mind boggling to actually see the tangible numerical value hfkshdjd bc. man. man...
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me: *existing*
my brain: hey heres another fic idea!!! and another!!!! oh wouldn't it be so cool if you wrote this??? wouldn't you LOVE to plan this fic out??? you should definitely plan this one, i promise you don't even have to write it ;) [<- is lying, knows that i'll want to write it even more if i plan it]
#and naturally bc i reread capri and have been reading capri fics that all the ideas im having are capri ideas#apparently my brain has decided there are not nearly enough canon divergent capri fics too bc thats all its throwing at me#mostly marlas-centered which makes sense since that's like#the most common point to diverge from canon in this fandom#though it did also provide me with 2 divergences at the start of the first book#anyway i don't need it to be providing me with ANY NEW IDEAS#we have GOT fics to write!!! we have WIPS!!!!! they need our ATTENTION FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!#but no#no#instead i get 'what if it was theomedes and kastor who died at marlas instead of aleron and auguste?'#a king for a king and a brother for a brother#how would damen react? ;)#an end to the fighting for sure bc if he dies now then akielos will certainly fall#but akielos would also definitely NOT be getting delfeur in this#since they'd be the 'losing' side#and also 'what if damen got amnesia due to the head trauma on the ship to arles?'#'what if damen didn't remember who he was??? what if he had the vague knowledge of his culture and his life but not that he was a prince??'#i should. put my laptop up and try and sleep.#shh ac
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Welp.
Officially so fucking tired I forgot the word for 'stopped having a blog' and said
"They're, uh... you know- when someone's?? unblogged?"
Wife, kind but incredulous: "...deactivated? "
#fucking. 'UNBLOGGED' smdh#ffs#cheese aNd RICE#deactivated#DONE#I need to sleep. I need to sleep for 1000 years#I wonder if Miette's Mom would let me take her spot#fuck's sake
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crazy eyes bc i got sick of having this ITYSL summer lovin’ skit painting on my floor. didn’t really finish it so much as i gave up but thats okay i think. happy new year more details in the tags :]
#my art#ok to rb#:d#used the ‘fuck an1sh kap00r vanta blk 3.0’ paint for the background#(its on a wood surface#i started this at the end of July (i think) right after the new season came out#id been really yearning to get back into acrylic painting again so i thought If i can finish this then that means im capable and also it#will get the scaries out by refamiliarizing myself w the medium#but basically it sat half finished on my floor until dec 27 when i was like you know what im sick of this i need it gone#anyway theres a lot of things i wish id finished on this but i think i just need to move on for my own sake perhaps ill revist it in the#future. I dont think ive ever shared a painting on here but i guess you could call this my style? i think it’s informed by doing mostly#digital painting and not really knowing how to blend. i like acrylics because they dry quickly. i like for my layers to be pretty visible#and shapey.#i think you should leave#itysl#i put it right next to my bed the two tims watch over my sleeping body now
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fuuuuuuck my lifeeeee
#man i DID NOT need this now#idk if i should laugh or cry#that man will be the death of me now i have no choice but tu wait and get on with that delulu stupid idea#i was going to sleep for fucks sake#x
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christ-like
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My need to create is actually killing me, I write nonstop for hours, my ideas flow from my head to my lungs, making me out of breath, I'm drowning in art and i love being wet and I'm also afraid of water and I love to create but I hate to feel so much, my fingers keep aching every single moment of my days, I'm tired of it, im tired of having so much to say
#i wonder if there will be a day where i can just think instead of having to make every thought into something useful#i want to just bleed instead of making more red paint out of my wounds#i literally get physically sick thinking about all of them#i love my characters and i also hate how much i need yhem#maybe this is motherhood after all#writing this instead of studying for my final exams#itmighthavebeen rants#actually autistic#audhd#actually audhd#writers on tumblr#writerscommunity#writing#mentally tired#the other day i wasnt able to sleep until i wrote down my story updates for fucks sake
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