#except I still. can cough. can cough myself into puking actually 😭 I hate this so much | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

shatterthefragments · 3 months ago

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I’m being overdramatic I know, but maybe I’m just meant to be miserable.

(“Well maybe you shouldn’t do these sailing trips if you get so sick after” IM TOO OLD NOW ANYWAY. IM DONE WHETHER I WANT TO BE OR NOT. IVE SPENT A MONTH AT SEA TOTAL NOW. AND I REALLY FUCKING HOPED THAT I WOULDNT GET SICK THIS TIME. and I didn’t the first time (you know when Everyone still was asked to mask and we tested before boarding)) and I booked the rest of the week off to recover. That I have to call in sick for at least a little bit now too. Yeah. That sucks for all of us. Nothing I can do but not die or whatever)

#for fucks sake I need TO SLEEP #I need to get better #I need to be able to go back to work #I need to FUCKING SLEEP #but I need to brush my teeth #and you’re in there AS FUCKING ALWAYS #and I said to go first so it can ventilate after in case I do have Covid #but FUCKING SHIT ITS BEEN HALF AN HOIR AND IM SO TORED I COULD CRY #which isn’t going to help my breathing bc my nose is starting to get involved #and my body is so fucking exhausted from coughing #like shit I’m going to need a second dinner if I’m awake much longer #get OUT please #and I had my vitamin packet so it can absorb better as I go to bed #BUT I CANT FUCKING GO TO BED CAN I???#have taken the risk to cry out asking her to hurry it up #(I can’t hear her in return over my air purifier and fan but anyway)#like my half coughs sound more like sobs all day if I can’t do a full cough right now #and I think it’s so fucking fitting #too exhausted and miserable. can’t even cough properly just cough sobbing without the tears #except I still. can cough. can cough myself into puking actually 😭 I hate this so much #shattered fragments #sick posting #I just want to sleep #somebody just put me down and let me sleep UNINTERRUPTED for a full night please #if it wouldn’t hurt my throat so much more I would be sobbing right now #god I feel like crying #I just want to be well again #FUCK #haven’t even played Stardew bc I have to use two hands for it #and my shoulder still hurts (a little less after laying on the wand but not a ton less)

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