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#personal#delete later#remembering evil ex#remembering the shit he said#remembering how i was fine with it#remembering how i let it happen#remembering#rememberign#fuck#fuckfuckfuck#i hate it#i hate him#i hate what he put in my head#i hate that hes in there forever now#burned into my frontal lobe#fingers under my skin#kill me kill me fuck#got fucking triggered on the train#im frozen im stuck i wanna scream#i need to stop#stop nrrating#bye
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A hc/theory of mine is that in pjo ambrosia and nectar work kind of like steroids, and people who take ambrosia repeatedly for a long time get a boost to their growth and also muscle growth.
Which is why my personal headcannon is that Clarrise and some of her brothers are way too tall for their age, sex and physique.
This is also why I believe Clarrise literally towers over Percy who is 6,0ft(185cm)(sort of cannon), while her mother was 5,00(headcannon). And while Percy isn’t short or anything, he never actually got that ambrosia boost because of the regeneration powers he has, so while Clarrise was consuming ambrosia daily at the limit of the ‘demigod safe’ Percy was just going for a swim.
Any serious, violent-less argument that they have from afar looks like Percy is 8 and is arguing with his older sibling about who gets a bigger bowl of ice-cream, despite them actually having a convo about what strategy they’re going to use for capture the flag because the hunters came and those two want to beat them.
Just imagine the comedic and chaotic outcome of this…
#also. imagine Will having very long fingers and strong hands bc he handles a lot of ambrosia so it somehow makes it’s way under his skin#pjo clarrise#clarisse my beloved#pjo clarisse#clarrise pjo#clarisse pjo#ares cabin#pjo ares#ares pjo#cabin 5#percy jackson show#percy jackson spoilers#percy series#percy jackson#percy jackon and the olympians#pjo#pjo hoo toa#pjo headcanon#pjo tv adaptation#pjo tv show#pjo theory#ambrosia#pjo thoughts#pjo universe#rick riordan#riordan universe#riordanverse#pjoverse#pjo disney+#pjo fandom
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built from the ground up.
#best movie of 2024 TO ME#theyre literally butchfemme. she literally gives him a phalloplasty.#she should have put her fingers under his skin#forcebutch#forcemasc#forced masculinity#forced masculinization#forced masc#forced butch#femme4butch#femme4masc#my post
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hand. just hand. 🥰🥰
#pedro pascal#his hands 😫😫#scenarios in my head#hands under my shirt#hands skimming fingers ghosting over my skin#hands around my throat#hands inside of me#jeez someone please put me down#kingsman#kingsman the golden circle#myedit#agent jack whiskey daniels#agent whiskey#jack daniels#agent jack daniels
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season 2!!!
#under the skin season 2#so happy they’re both back#and no actor changes#shame about the writers#hopefully it’s still going to be good#keeping my fingers crossed#tan jianci#jin shijia
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Then saith he to Thomas, Reach hither thy finger, and behold my hands; and reach hither thy hand, and thrust it into my side
#web weaving#webweaving#doubting thomas#quotes#the last days of judas iscariot#fucking that priest surely can’t make anything better what’s the worst that can happen#what happens: ^#what if to prove to you i was alive you had to slide your fingers under my skin and feel me bleed#and your punishment is never being able to touch anyone like that for the rest of your days#and have your name tied to the time you had to prove your belief with someone else’s blood#what then?
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I really like that their eyes light up when they use a lot of power :)
#Jay ninjago#ninjago Jay#ninjago fanart#Lego ninjago#Jay walker#I love him more than anything giys#also obsessed with the idea that their elements are connected to their emotions#Jays element is lightning#so there’s a storm constantly bubbling under his skin#Clouds gather in the sky above him when he’s upset#his fingers pulse with electricity when he’s angry and his hair stands on end#idk I just think he’s neat#my blorbo fr
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i don't know if you answer asks but you're one of the few blogs still consistently posting pjo tv crit and it's been such a relief. with the amount of praise it's gotten i feel so gaslit like am i just being a baseless hater?? but no there's a reason a lot of the people criticizing the show are writers. it's a poorly written show and the more i think about it the more problems i find
like i was thinking about the way the kids in the show just know everything and how boring it is to watch, especially the casino scene, and something hit me
the lotus casino functions perfectly as a metaphor for traits associated with adhd--the need for stimulation and time blindness. anyone would fall for the casino's lure, but especially adhd kids. the fact that the show takes that away is REALLY weird to me, to put it kindly
if i were being less kind? i would say there's grounds to argue that having these characters, who are children with adhd, be impervious to something that is designed to trap people exactly like them is, on some level, erasure of their disabilities. especially since the one character who does get affected by it is the one who doesn't have the same neurodivergencies as the two who don't. the explanation for why percy and annabeth didn't start to forget themselves was such a lazy cop out and i can't believe people ate it up
i don't know what that writers' room has against literal adhd children falling for traps that are designed to trap people, but it's embarrassing for them tbh
i’m so glad to hear it anon!! i’m a little surprised to hear it too tbh, i wasn’t sure if anyone else was still. interested in discussing it? it seems like the pjo/atla fanbase overlap means most people have moved onto to the live action atla show. and while i am an atla fan, i didn’t grow up with the show the same way i grew up with the pjo books, so based on what we’d already seen/heard of the natla show before it even released + my utter disappointment and heartbreak regarding the pjo show, i decided to spare myself the watch. i would rather keep my memories of the original show untainted; what i have seen of the show resonates with people’s criticisms of the writing (and as someone who has done costuming work. one look is all you need to understand THAT criticism lmfao).
but i’m honestly… surprised? the pjo show did not get the same level of criticism as the natla show? it’s not like pjo is not also very popular with that same generation, sure, atla being a show perhaps made it more appealing and accessible to more kids, etc etc, sure. but from the fan bases themselves, size aside? proportionately? the pjo fandom is FULL of show defenders just blatantly ignoring the show’s major foundational issues if not just outright parading them around as successes, meanwhile the critics are in the minority. compare that with what i’ve seen where the complete opposite is true of the atla fandom, it’s weird!! and especially jarring to me bc it seemed pretty clear to everyone in the atla fandom the show had Issues, meanwhile the pjo fandom heard the promise from rick riordan’s very own mouth this show is going to be faithful to the series’ spirit. it’s so weird to see the wildly different responses to what i think are prolly equally bad reboot shows, with a fandom of similar demographics (clearly not the SAME demographics or the response would prolly be more aligned but you get my point). so i agree anon, i do feel a little gaslit by the pjo fandom, and watching the atla fandom’s very reasonable response to the natla show is like. whiplash. another sign you and i are not losing it lmao
as for the lotus casino, this is an excellent point! i don’t even think it can be called unkind to point out how this episode is a symptom of the show’s overall disability erasure. i would say it’s unkind of the show to erase adhd and dyslexia representation. in fact, because of the explicit promise by its creator to see that representation, i would go as far as to call it cruel to then erase it. if anything, based on rick’s promises to add more representation, i was hoping for elements like autistic annabeth confirmation, since when pjo was first written, it was based off rick’s son and his friends who were all ND, and at the time it wasn’t thought to be possible to be AuDHD, but likely some of those kids probably were (and that then made its way into the books in characters like annabeth!). that would have been the perfect opportunity to add something with the foresight of modern times, but instead we got… absolutely no disability rep from the show aside from a few short lines of dialogue as a lame-ass bone-toss to the book fans.
the pjo show’s biggest crime is its lack of spirit of the original book series, and that book series cradled myself and every other ND child or child in an abusive situation who read it. it offered us a mother who never got angry with us when we showed “difficult” symptoms. it offered us camp half-blood, the idea of a place, a home, where people like us were not just accepted, but thrived. it offered us a new world. it offered us a friend in percy jackson. i do not feel the show truly offers anything substantial. it only takes.
#anon going ‘i’m so glad you’re still posting pjo show crit’ had me whipping my head around like ‘YOU ARE?’#so thank you anon lmao#i’m still like. marinating in the idea of making a pjo discord server (where crit is welcome)#i don’t know if anyone would still be interested now the like. hype/reverse hype for the show is dying down#and truly excellent point i had not been able to put my finger on why that scene got under my skin so bad#pjo show crit#pjo tv crit#ris raves
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To most this is probably going to sound weird and stupid and "cringe" but please remember I am ficto and my feelings are real and serious and I'd like them to be acknowledged that way, I'm not used to talking here as if they're actually real(the way they feel real to me irl) I got inspired to be more open about posting about them like this so here goes:
So, maybe things got a little real. Maybe he is helping me a lot recently... maybe...maybe I am getting extremely attached to him-
sure, he can be a dick at times, yes he's done some pretty rotten things in the past and hurt people for his own selfish gains, do I condone his past behavior? Absolutely not but it doesn't stop the feelings that keep bubbling up and spilling over inside me when I'm with him.
I won't say I love him or anything but I do feel a pull towards him that is hard to describe. Both times he's helped me in terms of my mental illness....both times I felt a little better.
I'm not 100% but thanks to him, his support and reassurances, just to hear someone else say I'm not a terrible human, I'm not a monster or I'm not "crazy" "insane" unfit etc and to have him tell me that despite what I go through he won't abandon me....not like other people in my life have over this....it's nice..
I act all tough and act like I hate that he makes me feel things but in reality.... I don't. I like the banter, the push and pull, it's fun but a part of me just wants to be open and honest about how I feel for him.
Will I stop that push and pull type of behavior? Not fully, as stated its fun and Jamie loves it too but there will be moments like these where I will just talk from the heart.
This guy side swiped me. I was fully intent on hating him from the start as I read from others that Jamie is a prick and I felt if maybe I keep it up and keep it up it turns into a crush that fizzles out and he just is kinda here (?) Someone I go to when I want some silly fun...nothing more nothing less.
I never expected the late night talks, the reassurances, the support, it's different with him. He sees the sides im terrified to show people and seemingly out of nowhere, he knows what to do to make me feel calmer, a little more at peace. Its strange only two other f/o (in different ways) have managed to actually reach into my soul like that and you know them both well...
I won't say I am in love but I will say that I think I'm starting to fall—
This was absolutely terrifying to post I don't like truly being vulnerable so much like this, definitely wouldn't be surprised if I wake up tomorrow morning to anons being jerks about this or making fun of me. My feelings are real and they're the truth I just hope y'all won't laugh at me or tell me that my feelings aren't valid because I have more than one f/o, I guess...I have multiple f/o yes but my feelings aren't any lesser than someone who only has one f/o what i feel is genuine and very very real to me. I'm rambling... just gonna hit schedule
#everyones asleep time to queue the vulnerable and terrifying post.#no one will see it#Digital Dialogues; #🎶 i've got queue under my skin 🎶#gush.png#also a little thing...I'm thinking...placing a little kiss to his heart tattoo on his finger 👉👈
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#dealing with my chronic skin conditions been so tough even tho i'm used to but it still gets tiring#i really won the skin/genetics lottery - rosacea AD SD contact dermatitis KP & food allergies AND lactose intolerance too bruh 😭🥲#thankfully they are not all manifesting at the same time and i have them more or less under control-ish?..#but really.. typing this all out i realized how MANY skin conditions i actually have jfc 😳#sorry i just needed to rant i'm having a cd/ad flare up on my fingers and it hurts so bad and i'm not sure what's the culprit this time :/#tbd
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talking to mil today about iwtywmm jeggy i've come to the conclusion that not only they're that kind of couple who's very annoying about pda but they also have to be touching at All Times
#and i mean touching skin on skin#nothing over the clothes that's not close enough#james will have his hand under reg's shirt while they wait in line#not even trying anything he just Wants to feel him#reg will be wearing ripped jeans and james is immediately slipping his fingers through the holes#grabbing on his thigh while they're seated at a table#he'd make the tears so much bigger without noticing#reg can never wear the same ripped jeans more than twice bc james ruins them#and yes he's the one who does most of the touching but reg can and will get pouty if james doesn't put at least one of his hands on him lik#all the time#it goes both ways really#they're just . obsessed with each other#jegulus my beloveds#fic: i will touch you with my mind
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they can see right through me / of course they can...
[collaboration with @dxppercxdxver again.]
#em draws stuff#flintlock fortress#team fortress 2#blood#gore#Surgery With Your Whole Polycule. As One Does.#one might think this is outside my artistic niche but do you remember that time I drew stephen maturin with all his skin peeled off...#'no I won't discuss the context' I say as I trip and a thousand-odd words of context fall out of my pockets#'y'know the thing where you stick your finger in the bullet wound to check the depth' I say like that's a nice monday morning statement#em cupola normal image time :]#(pretty proud of my normal image actually)#not fantastically on model face-wise (the up-the-nose angle is Hard) but I think I've got good hand recognizability going on here#the proportions are a little iffy but Hey I am not working with the most realistically-proportioned source material under the sun#you can kinda tell where I was really using myself as a reference and where I Wasn't. hmmm.#oh and lyrics on the drawing / in the caption are from the mountain goats' song of the same title
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adding onto what venus said abt endo by letting you know there's another one (this is takiishi) and they're both freaks
ohhhh my god… ANOTHER REASON TO WATCH WINDBREAKER?! now don’t get me blushin n twirlin n gigglin n cummin n squirtin.
#☠︎︎. 💌#☠︎︎. angels#i’m abt to google these men’s zodiac signs and charts and whatever’s under their underwear el o el!#y’all i bit my finger so hard i almost tore the skin apart#i’m an animal#don’t show me these photos while i’m ovulating.#tmi? sawry..
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my armpits are peeling what do i do
#like theres just very excessive dry skin under there like when you dont moisturize for weeks on end and suddenly you can rub the skin off#your hand with your finger or a towel. yknow?#might just be my deodorant#might be my lack of showering#idk
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::incoherent whimpering::
Why can we not have??? 😭😭😭😭😭
I mean like… 🥵🥵🥵 give me it all PUHLEASE!
FULL BODY EXPERIENCE! I SAID WHAT I SAID!
But it’s not even just his hands on you… to be able to touch him and run your fingers through his hair— literally would ignite all the senses!
But then this is the aftermath. Him all relaxed and ready for another round of…. 😮💨😮💨😮💨
#all the incoherent whimpering#javier peña#kiss me now dammit#I want his sweaty skin under my finger tips!#i’ll stop now#like 🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵
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AH I REMEMBERED WHAT I WAS GONNA SAY EARLIER but it's kind of stupid, lmao.
So my partner is getting into brewing beer and I got them a Tilt, which is a Bluetooth hydrometer. It measures specific gravity and temperature, which are things you want to know so that you don't kill your yeast or whatever. Except the sensor's Bluetooth range is super short, and it basically runs via a phone app, and the temperature we're logging currently is the crawlspace, accessible via the staircase closet. So they were like, wait, what do we do about this, because I can't leave my phone in the closet, that's my alarm clock.
In a kind of ridiculous turn of life imitating art, I was like, hold up, I got just the thing right at my desk. Bam. Old phone. We just needed to scrounge up a charger because the battery is so dead that after charging just enough to power on it claimed it was at 53% (to be fair to it, there is a very real chance that it's correct, and it just holds no charge at this point so the capacity is just THAT low) and now it lives in the closet logging sensor data.
And I was like, you know...didn't I just solve a major story detail with a much larger version of this...yeah, no, this is all vaguely familiar somehow, power supply issues and all. Kind of cool that the concept works though. Kind of weird that it came up at all?
We are not gonna talk about the fact that I still have at least two more ancient-ass phones in a drawer where that came from because look, man, sometimes you just need a camera/mic/mini computer with Bluetooth and wifi that fits in a pocket, and people just get rid of these things, but not me. I actually could build a shitty security system out of them if I was reaaaally inclined. I mean. I'm not. But it's technically possible.
For real though, If I pick up any stupid maker projects I still high-key am thinking about slapping Bluetooth into a necomimi headset and running that through an Arduino and learning to code just enough to let me skip songs/change the volume on Spotify with my brain, because it's entirely doable, and I mean yeah I could do that on my phone remotely too, but that's not funny, now, is it. I'm just not sure it's $350+ of parts funny. Kind of a big investment just to prove the point that haha look I am the extremely ADHD type of lazy where I would rather solve a problem via the most convoluted and complicated Rube-Goldberg type ass machine way possible rather than just perform a single simple action.
YEAH I'VE BEEN THIS SCATTERED ALL DAY AND I REALLY SHOULD GO TO BED SHOULDN'T I. I started playing Satisfactory. Mistakes were made. I'm going to dream about conveyor belts again and I did it to myself...
#you know I used to mostly blog about witchcraft and paganism#and now I'm like. you know what I want to do? chain an EEG sensor to the Spotify API and skip songs with my brain.#it's kind of like magic when you put it like that. maybe things haven't actually changed that much after all#the headset idea actually came about bc I'd gotten so far into the writing zone that I literally just. tried to skip a song with my brain.#because I had so much reploid characters on my mind that it just sounded like a normal course of action I should be able to take#obviously it didn't work and cue me sitting there for a full 3 seconds going 'why didn't it. wait. why did I think it would?'#followed immediately after by 'YEAH BUT I PROBABLY COULD DO THAT ACTUALLY'#because you just Cannot write a character like Glitch without it rubbing off on you a little bit and WWGD kicked in real hard lmao#well obviously he'd [ridiculous chain of ideas ending in 'anyway I installed some shit and now I can control Spotify with my mind']#and I gotta say I do not like the idea of sticking a sensor on the *inside* of my skull. sounds very bad.#but it doesn't have to be on the inside to work soooo there's that!#I have a friend who for quite a long time had a rare earth magnet in one finger so he could find live wires by touch#he ended up removing it for work eventually but when I say I was jelly. man. but also kinda squeamish about it.#I do not like sharp things and I am Very funny about my fingers as an artist/writer/used to be musician.#but man that sounds cool. I want the magnet senses. I don't think I want them enough to have a magnet under my skin though#I think I wouldn't use them enough for that to be helpful actually lmao#anyway do I even need more senses? probably not. mine are already unfiltered and loud as shit.#'boy I wish I could sense magnetic fields' says idiot guy who can hear the mains hum even with no electronics currently turned on#like when the power goes out I can FEEL the fucking difference in the air and it's unnaturally quiet and kinda spooky#I do not think I need help on this front actually. I think I got it handled pretty okay lol
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