#find some sort of normal again!!!

[canongf]

just poking in to say again I LOVE this f/o game, it's so cute and I'm having so much fun seeing everyone's f/is and which monsters you pick! And ofc it's so great to see you on tumblr again, I hope you're doing good and feeling better from your surgery and that you're getting so many Eddie snuggles!!! 💜🌠 - dameronswife

nym!!! i am so happy when you poke in!!!!! 🖤

i am having so much fun and i am feeling so much better!!! eddie has been the best boyfriend, moving in to take care of me after surgery, and for a while all i had the energy to do was lay in bed with him and doze off on his shoulder to scooby-doo reruns!!! but i missed being here!!! so now that i'm feeling a little like a human again, it's nice being back and it's nice seeing my friends and my friends' ships, and it feels right to talk about scooby-doo monsters!!! :) 🖤

[cent-scratchnsniff]

it was just going to be a few warmup doodles but then she infected the rest of the page like the ever eternal and spreading spores. hod!!! hod. hod :)

[puppppppppy]

save me old flipnote studio MVs.......

[sualne]

Just saw your head bonk comic so are you better????? You went to a doc right??

my forehead is fine 👍 ive seen a doctor who actually listen (incredible shit) and im going to have to do another test (😔) and MRIs (😱) cause doc want to see if smth is pressing on my optic nerve (🫣)

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

Ooooookay so not sure im gonna keep going to walmart to get my groceries unless absolutely necessary cuz the one closest to my house is awful

Its fucking massive. The app tells you the wrong aisles for everything. And there were way too many fucking people. Not a fan.

[famewolf]

a shot of whiskey at night has been doing wonders for my nerves. not to sound like I got my prescription from a cowboy-doctor or something, but it's near instant relief

[rolandkaros]

election thoughts

calling trump voters 'dumb' is ignorant. some of these people are dumb but a lot of them are just selfish.

blaming third-party voters is ignoring the issue re: over half the country was willing to vote for trump anyway. likewise, pointing out that trump won the popular vote and that third-party votes wouldn't have made a difference is ignoring the voting system. conversations about third-party voters in general are not fruitful. some people are just going to vote third-party and expecting them to suddenly not do so is naïve. there is no scenario where third-party voters should have been the 'tie-breaker' to begin with.

a lot of people (americans and non-americans) don't understand how the electoral college system works and in general i'd advise you to do some research before you share your take. americans you should know this anyway and don't use the excuse of "i wasn't taught" if you have tumblr then you have the internet so look it up and start reading. i don't expect non-americans to know a foreign country's voting system but if you want to share an opinion please take a bit of time to learn about it before you do. i'm tired of seeing the same dialogues by people who clearly just don't understand the actual structure of the voting system.

pointing fingers at different demographics you think are to blame is useless. if you're going to find a group to blame, then blame the majority, i.e. white men and white women. otherwise your blame is completely unhelpful and misplaced.

saying she only lost because she's a woman or a poc (or both) is also misguided. its not entirely wrong but once again you are misunderstanding some fundamentals of how extremist politicians find success, and likewise are ignoring some obvious issues re: the democratic party and their campaign strategies.

equating education to intelligence to voting preferences in general is ignorant. you are forgetting how many factors go into someone actually receiving formal education. you are forgetting how many factors go into someone's state of residence. i was going to explain this further but i think no one cares so i'm not going to bother because the explanation got too long. also, see point 1. there are plenty of very smart people who vote for trump anyway.

talking about abandoning the south or red states is pointless and if i hear or see anybody suggest such measure i am automatically assuming you are a foul person. equating democratic states to morally or inherently good and republican states to morally or inherently bad is such an unbelievably superficial and foolhardy judgement and goes against all principles of unity and community that we should be fostering at a time like this.

americans ignorant to the effect that us politics has on the world need to wake up.

i don't blame non-americans for their resentment against the sphere of influence of us politics but i wish they would be less dismissive of the genuine effects this election will also have within america.

acting as though anybody doesn't have the right to be scared about the implications of this result is shortsighted at best. my concern goes beyond my own afflictions – how can you say that concern is misplaced?

i have more but i think that's it for now bc its kind of exhausting to talk about. and i guess what's done is done. idk. i'm not hopeless at all. but i'm fearing more and more than the hope i insist on having is childish. but the alternative is complete self-destruction and i have no intention of going down that road again. so childish hope it is.

[snow-and-saltea]

yesterday i spent 45 minutes of my life watching a video essay criticising the use of cheap shock values and crossing of taboos for a video game and i went from "he has a point even if he's explaining it in a really inflammatory way" to "oh umm... i can see how he thinks that way even if i don't agree" to "oh this guy's just straight up using people on tumblr as material for an audience to get mad at like other outdated people on the internet. nvm he's just an asshole"

[navramanan]

I go through these short periods of time feeling very okay and good even only bc i distract myself from what pains me until it catches up again and the cycle repeats itself

[teaboot]

Sometimes I think a lot about my mom's cat

My mom's cat is a common domestic shorthair we found on the side of the road as a kitten

Regular cat, not a maine coon or one of those massive breeds. His mom was smaller than a loaf of bread

But in a sort of a Clifford The Big Red Dog situation, he grew super fast, and really really big, and took a super long time to stop growing

Worried that she was overfeeding him, she eased back his portions, but he stayed a massive round baby

When he started having kidney problems, she took him to the vet.

The vet took a look at him and said, "holy fuck, what are you feeding him", checked the nutritional listings on his chow, and told her "Yeah, maybe he's reacting badly to the amount of grain in this, try a meatier diet"

So my mom wound up special-ordering this specific high-protein prescription cat food made of like. Kangaroo meat or some shit that cost like sixty bucks a bag

And, as typical act two in an episode of House, he somehow got worse on the fancy specialized stuff that was supposed to be Primo Athlete Olympic Feline Blend

Like. WAY worse. His guts were inflamed and his kidneys were shutting down and he was all sore and HE WAS STILL HUGE, just miserable and sad

So shetook him back to the vet, where they had to help him pee (he was apparently close to bursting and had some kind of blockage too) and went "Yeah no this is NOT normal and we don't know what's going on, we're gonna do some tests but in the meantime you should go back to what he was eating before, at least that wasn't actively killing him" so she did

And he still wasn't great, but he also improved

And so they take his blood and do an ultrasound and a couple g's later she gets a call back like "this is gonna sound crazy, but we want you to put him on a low-meat diet. Just the least amount of protein and iron and shit. We need you to find the grainiest, filler-iest dollar tree kibble available and give him some of that bad bad shit"

And my mother is a woman of science. So she did

And he GOT BETTER

His energy picked back up, inflammation went down, he started drinking normally again, got back to pissing like a fuckin champion

And so it turns out that out of all the random ass freeway bonus cats we possibly could have scooped out of a ditch, WE got the one-in-a-million freak of nature with a SPECIFIC genetic defect that means a paleo protein free range diet is essentially poison and he THRIVES on cheap ass garbage

Like. He medically NEEDS junk food

I dont really understand how that works, but i cant argue with results.

If we had four of him, they'd outweigh my mom. And he's FINE

Also blind, but that's unrelated

Im not using him as a symbol or a metaphor or anything. I just keep catching myself thinking about my mom's Big Fucking Cat

[darudedogestorm]

I need to get back into worm brain mode after i'm done with plants vs zombies brain, no clue when that'll happen but i'm sure by this time next year something will be different

[snekdood]

man i wish i did have all this privilege everyone acts like I have for being a trans guy, my life would be way more chill. I wouldnt hafta worry about shit really

[playingonedchess]

are other people like not as nosy as me or something

[abstract-moth]

I've always dismissed the theory that Mel had some sort of secret armor as wishful thinking. But now that we have seen the aftermath of the bombing, I think it may actually be true.

Jayce woke up with Mel hugging him. Before he opened his eyes, the gold was still glowing.

And let's take a look at the council survivors.

Literally only Jayce and Mel are completely uninjured. This is despite the fact that the explosion was directly behind Mel.

Jayce says it himself. Viktor was right next to him. How come Viktor was so severely injured while Jayce was completely unharmed? Mel answered that there's not sense to these things. Which is a valid response, but could also be covering the truth.

And when Ambessa finds Mel after the explosion, the first thing she asks is "are you hurt?" and Mel answered "I'm fine." Ambessa then focuses on ordering her forces. Again, complexly normal conversation, but what if Ambessa was so quick to believe her because she knew about the armor.

The rest of the episodes don't seem to drop any clues, but it is something to keep on eye out for.

[secondbeatsongs]

so some things happened and this campaign went on hiatus, but now we've been back to playing it for a while, and it's still great!

Jessie and the gang are playing homicide detective in a forest city right now, and some Weird Shit is going down re: a god we fought once

and everything was all fun and games until Makerrcat's squirrel incident (don't worry about it), but then after some ominous vibes, everyone got to meet Jessie's patron in person for the first time!

and then the DM, at long last, came to a realization:

Makerr: you have to describe Jessie's girl!

DM: ...

DM: wait.

DM: ...is that the joke this character was based on?

me: :D :D :D

guys. friends. folks. it's been more than three years. that's how long I've been playing this guy. three years is how long it took for someone besides makerr to figure it out.

anyway. in the visible form she took, Jessie's girl was tall and scary with pitch black eyes and knife-sharp features, and Jessie loves her so, so much, but the other party members were understandably unsettled.

but it's okay! Jessie's girl basically showed up to call him out for being an idiot (affectionately) and having idiot friends (re: the squirrel incident mostly), and to give vague hints about some of the evil god shit going on.

and after their chat, Jessie was like, "cool. thank you! :3 is there anything you want to change about our arrangement, while I'm here?"

Jessie's girl thought for a bit, and then said, "...come here. this will hurt."

and Jessie, being who he is, immediately stepped forward (with me grinning like an idiot), at which point Jessie's girl reached out and ripped one of his eyes from his skull with her bare hand, so she could replace it with one of her own solid black ones.

and because of who Jessie is and what he's like, this was just the best. as far as he's concerned this is an act of love, and tbh? he's right.

honestly, when I first made this character I was leaving a lot up to the DM's interpretation - is Jessie's girl actually in love with him, or is he imagining this relationship that they have? is it just a one-sided thing on his part, where she's using him and doesn't actually care about him, or is this actual, mutual affection?

and I was kind of expecting the classic like..."oh no, the warlock made a deal with something Evil, so now he has to realize that it's Evil and get away from it, and find some other way to use magic!"...sort of deal

but my DM is great, and seems to really enjoy the nonsense that we all throw at her, and so she's decided...yeah. to a point, it's mutual - Jessie's girl does have some affection for him, and she cares about what he does.

when I first created Jessie, I put in his backstory that his goal is to show his girl the world in the way that he sees it - the beauty, the weird stuff, everything that he loves about it. he wants to give her these experiences, and maybe change her perspective a bit.

and considering that she now has one of his eyes in her skull, I'd say?? that that's going pretty well for him??

god, I love D&D.

so yeah! update: Jessie is genuinely having a great time right now! he's experiencing actual pure delight because not only did he get to see his girl, but he also has one spooky pure-black eye now that is essentially a symbol of their love, and also looks metal as fuck.

idk how the other characters feel about all of this rn, but Jessie is having a blast

Jessie is a warlock patron

FUNNY YOU SHOULD SAY THAT, because I’ve spent most of this evening creating a 5e character sheet for Jessie, who is indeed a warlock!

I’ve decided that Jessie’s Girl (his patron) is the archfey Queen of Air and Darkness, because:

has no name

chilling eldritch beauty

invisible, but if perceived with magic, has “blood-black eyes”

idk, she just seems cool

after I’m done with Jessie, I’m also going to roll a character sheet for his sad best friend: Rick Springfield. He’s just a simple bard who doesn’t understand how warlocks work, and who can’t figure out his own gay feelings. <3

(my DM is gonna kill me next campaign)