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heckin BONKIN!!!
here is a preview for my second ryujibonk piece (codename: 🌧️) inspired by @purrpurrazzi00's incredible art!!!
#filed under:#ryujibonk#i love mew's art so much it's really been an honor#wiggling and wiggling do you know ow hard it's been to keep shit under wraps#finally i'm almost free
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the fact that you start the Tabris origin by literally stepping into your mother's shoes. the fact that what you get is a wedding outfit and your mother's worn boots, kept carefully intact for years, tucked away for this exact moment. the fact that you then immediately take the path she never could, leaving behind the alienage and the wedding and following Duncan (who would have recruited Adaia first, if not for baby!Tabris) to what ought to have been death.
And Then!! instead of fighting and falling as she did, cheating death and becoming the fighter she always intended you to be instead??? Reliving and simultaneously subverting the story of her life??
#okay no i'm not done actually#the way it feels like destiny for you to die on the alienage's behalf (soris is still in the dungeons in other origins when you get there)#and not only is that fate averted by duncan's presence#but what feels like the fate laid out for you by adaia's death is shifted too#this makes the ultimate sacrifice ending so much more awful imo#because it almost feels like a final destination-esque reckoning#you thought you escaped? no. this city will eat your bones and spit out a golden savior#who tabris actually *is* was always irrelevant and i am!!!#eating this#excuse me i am just writing baby arianwen and adaia right now and i am Feeling Things#i just!!! her boots!! is anyone listening? is this thing on?? her *boots*!#*buries face in crossed arms and sobs*#dixeram#dao#tabris origin#warden tabris#arianwen tabris#adaia tabris#oh shit oh god i just realized also#you free adaia from the dungeon in leliana's song right#and then in turn escape from the same dungeon#and when imprisoned at drakon's rise you break free from that too?#now it's tastier if you free yourself from the dungeon but#the possibility of leliana freeing you from there as well?? not the same dungeon but the same danger??? ouch. ouch!
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nil + in the flood | Horizon Forbidden West (2022) footage from hfwpc by @kittleskittle
#horizon forbidden west#hfwedit#hfwedits#gamingedit#videogameedit#horizon forbidden west pc#hfw nil#nil hfw#mine*gif#usergif#dailyvideogames#so basically i was an emotional wreck and this version took my breath away#look i know it's a mod (thank you so much for the footage kittleskittle)#but...idk#there's Meaning for Nil leaving these places behind too.#meridan; sunfall; gatelands; shattered kiln; finally arriving upon the daunt.#'is that...him? from the battle of the daunt?' like what was going through nil's mind when he came through there again.#and passed cinnabar sands again.#their journeys are such a parallel of each other thematically#seeing this...especially (almost paint-free) nil...OOF.#wrecked me.#niloy#aloy x nil#aloy/nil#(yes i'm tagging it niloy)
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and I begin to bloom like a lotus flower once again the Agust D trilogy
#agust d#min yoongi#bts#suga#bts suga#bangtan#bangtan sonyeondan#bts gifs#btsedit#my gifs#i've had this concept in my head for a while now#and i've been trying to figure out how i wanted to do it#and i finally figured it out#the font is the pulp fiction font lol#i wanted to use the scarface font but it's paid and all the free versions look weird#and like... i'm not paying $30 for a font i'll only use once#and anyway the color effect wouldn't really work with it#this set right here is the entire reason i decided to learn how to make gifs in photoshop#anyway his eyes man#he has the most beautiful intense eyes i have ever seen#amygdala is very very hard for me to watch actually#and that's part of why this took me so long also#had to keep in mind what he said in the shoot sketch lol#cuz like... y'know really amygdala is faaaaaar from my favorite agust d track#but the sheer emotion in both the song itself and the mv#it's almost suffocating#he's tremendously talented and yeah i'm a lil obsessed tbh lol
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SG-1 TITLE DROPS: 1.01-02 CHILDREN OF THE GODS
#asile gifs#stargateedit#stargatesource#sg1edit#sg1 title drops#jack o'neill#samantha carter#skaara#stargate#stargate sg1#eyyyyy look at me i'm giffing again#when you're completely overwhelmed and don't know what to do :)))))#also thanks to this i finally got an external harddrive because my laptop was almost full#and now it's free again and i can giffff#i plan on doing more#so watch out#(that is a threat to myself)
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does anybody else ever think about how moc weepe sold saskia out by name and with a completely casual tone but also screamed her name for no apparent reason while he was being functionally tortured. anyone else just sort of rotating that around in their mind.
#midst#midst podcast#midst spoilers#midst podcast spoilers#WHAT IS THE DEALLLLLL!!!!!#does he CARE about her at ALL.....#why did he SAY her NAME!!!!!!!!!#the way he says it it almost sounds like he's delirious enough that he thinks imelda IS saskia. which is a nuts possibility.#really crazy implications from that one.#it also sort of sounds like it's 'saskia we're all going to die' almost like he's finally REALIZING that even tho he#sold her out and escaped scot-free himself he HASN'T actually escaped because 'we're all going to die'#THAT possibility is kind of sexy actually. moc weepe i'm begging you to burn it all down......
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Day 15
We are set to arrive on Fendaar in two cycles. As we are currently stuck on the SIIR Noxos, I have concluded that the passages of time that I am free of duties would be best spent continuing to observe the human. The human, on the other hand, seemed to have different plans in that matter, as it took me an unusually long amount of time to locate her.
As I eventually found her, she seemed to be working on one of the control panels in the main control room, so I may excuse her absence with duties she had to attend to. As she saw me, although, she seemed rather…excited (this is obviously mere speculation, as the study of the Terran so far has provided far too little evidence to prove such theories)?
As she rolled out from under the control board and sighted me, her face once again split into a wide opening revealing her horrifying amount of teeth.
"Hey! Dude!", she said, raising to her full height and stepping towards me, still baring her teeth, although I did not recoil, as I did not want to seem impolite. She raised her arms, each pointing into a different direction, away from their connection to the human's body.
"Human Quinn. How are you?"
"Me? I‘m fine, the whole 'wandering around in space' thing just made me throw up, I honestly don‘t know why they insisted on keeping me there for two whole days."
The ends of her fingers, studded with claw-like (rather short and rounded instead of sharp, perhaps they were not meant to function as claws at all, or perhaps the beings on Terra were far different from what I knew, and therefore a shape like this was far more useful to hunt) protuberances, scraped over the back of the connection between her head and her upper body. If I interpreted her facial expression correctly, she seemed to be thinking.
"Maybe I got a light concussion too, I’m not entirely sure. But it's improbable, because I’m fine now."
I decided to focus on one piece of information at a time. "Well, this "throwing up" can certainly not be a healthy nor normal process, otherwise, it would not seem so violently painful and involuntary, would it?"
"Well it‘s not…unnatural, it‘s just something that can happen. And about health, it‘s not unhealthy, it usually helps us to get rid of stuff that is bad for our bodies!", she eludicated, moving one of her arms in a rather random manner.
"The scientists have concluded that this fluid is highly acidic. If this 'stuff' is so harmful to you, wouldn‘t it just dissolve in this fluid before being able to cause any further harm?"
Quinn seemed to think about that.
"Well, just because it gets dissolved, doesn‘t mean it‘s gone, you know? It's still in our bodies, and we have to get rid of it somehow. And if it needs to be fast, we throw up. Honestly, I‘d definitely explain this further to you, but Biology‘s never really been my strongest subject, ya know what I mean?"
I did not, in fact, know what she meant, but I decided against questioning her further.
After a pause the Terran spoke up again: "So, this planet we're landing on..." "Fendaar.", I clarified. "Right. So, this planet that we‘re going to, it‘s a desert, right?" "That is correct." "So, is it a sand, an ice or, I guess you could also count rock desert? 'Cuz on my planet, we‘ve got all of those types."
"Fendaar‘s ecosystem is mostly made up out of sandlike landscapes with rather scarce vegetation and biodiversity. Most of the planets in system 36-54 have rather extreme temperature ranges, and Fendaar is no exception.", I eludicated.
"Alright, cool.", she spoke, rolling back under the underside of the control panel she had been working on previously. She seemed to be sitting, or rather lying, on a piece of metal with four small wheels attached to it, allowing her to move it around.
"Your planet.", I initiated.
"Yeah?", she responded, while continuing her work on the wiring.
"Am I assuming correctly that your planet has a far bigger biodiversity?"
"Oh, yeah.", there was a small spring in her voice, as if she had let out air in the middle of speaking. "Big biodiversity. We‘ve got deserts and rainforests, coral reefs and permafrost - although perhaps not for that long anymore - mountain ranges and all that stuff."
"Interesting.", I supplied, for lack of a better response. If Terra had such differences in temperature and landscapes, it was a logical conclusion that the humans had evolved to survive under such circumstances.
"Yeah."
It was unusually quiet for some time. That was, until Quinn rolled out from the underside of the control panels.
"Alright, I‘m done." She took a deep breath before opening her mouth once again. Then, all of a sudden, the muscles of her face started contracting as if she was plagued by an invisible pain. Her eyes squeezed shut and she let out horrifying noise, holding an arm angled in front of her nose and mouth. The noise itself was not particularly loud or long, but I recoiled either way, as a measure of safety. I could not be certain if this gesture was meant to harm me, after all.
Quinn‘s arm sank down again as her other hand rubbed at her nose. She huffed, a sound far less threatening than the one she had produced a moment ago. One of the hair patches above her visual organs raised itself, prompting the question to arise if human hair was controlled by muscles or if it had a mind of its own, although this was a question that could be further investigated later. One of the corners of her mouth raised, revealing the seemingly sharpest teeth in her mouth.
"I guess dust is an inter-galactic thing, huh?"
I did not respond. Her face muscles contracted, causing the skin above her visual organs to crease.
"Hey, you okay? You‘re looking a little spooked over there."
"Human, I do not wish to cause you discomfort, but, if I may ask, what was the purpose of the noise you just uttered?"
She did not respond for a moment, blinking with both of her eyes as she stared at me. It was quite unsettling, considering her previous explanation, that most humans preferred not being stared at.
"I…sneezed?" The creases in the skin above her eyes deepened.
My front pliers uttered another rattling sound. "What is this 'sneezing'? What purpose does it serve?" I admit, I was quite curious. Terrans seemed much more complex than I had previously assumed.
She paused, seemingly to think of an answer. "Well, it‘s like…if something is bothering us at or in out nose, like dust, for example, it‘s kind of the natural response to that. To keep things out of our bodies that don‘t belong there."
"Human bodies seem to require a lot of defense mechanisms.", I commented.
She raised and lowered the connection of her arms to her upper body, baring her teeth once again while raising herself to her full height, using one of her arms as support.
"Y’know, it’s surprisingly hard to explain something you’re so used to to someone who’s never heard of it. I guess I still have to work on the whole 'awareness that I‘m around aliens' thing. S‘ kind of surreal."
She patted off her clothing, as if to remove non-existent filth once again. I had noticed the past few cycles that most of her clothing seemed to consist of several, usually differently-coloured, pieces of fabric.
Her clothes usually covered her body from the connection between her arms and torso to the connection between her legs and, presumably, her feet. Her feet were usually also covered, although I could not determine the purpose it was supposed to serve in the environment we are currently in, although the theory that the conditions on Earth are vastly different compared to the ones on the SIIR Noxos is gaining more probability, based on the Terran's narrations.
The human seemed to evaluate a question she wanted to ask (this is, of course, a mere speculation based on previous observations: her face muscles were contracted to form a crease over her visual organs, which could so far most likely be interpreted as confusion, thoughtfulness or discomfort; her head was both slightly raised and tilted to one side at the same time, a gesture that was most likely supposed to convey an ongoing thought process).
Although, before she could utter a noise, V-7 informed us of a request from the Vitrichl to gather for a matter of importance.
The purpose of his summoning was to divide the crew into several smaller groups that were to be assigned with different tasks to fulfill once we sucessfully landed on Fendaar.
I was grouped with the Terran, which was unsurprising, as well as Tkzt, a member of the species that is widely known across the galaxies as Ctzas (it is to note that the Ctzas have not evolved any form of written language and communicate exclusively through clicking and chittering sounds. The written forms of, for example, names of this species, are written by other species to produce approximately the same sound as the Ctzas make when recited verbally).
Tkzt, as a member of the unit controlling supply chains and keeping a list of the stock of the SIIR Noxos, would make a helpful addition in our task of seeking out the nearest settlement in order to stock up on supplies.
After all matters of importance were settled, the crew dissipated, continuing their respective tasks. The Terran was ordered to stay and to assist the Vitrichl in another matter, which is the reason I did not cross paths with the human again for the rest of this cycle.
Despite this, I am positive that accompanying the human on an foreign planet will give me a further insight into the species' mannerisms and interaction manners with foreign species, which will prove to be helpful further on in studying the human.
#*does that scene from movies but in reverse*#*a bus passes through your field of vision and suddenly I am standing on the opposite of the street in a trenchcoat & shades hiding my face#*In my hand a new chapter*#So honestly#I'm really immensely sorry that I disappeared for almost two whole months without a word#I had a lot going on#Duties#Deadlines#Having to travel out of the country two different times#But now I'm back!!#And I got a lot more free time so I'll be able to go back to my normal updating schedule of once a day#I spent some time thinking about where I wanted this story to go etc etc#But now I'm really excited to have this chapter finally released bc I was honestly struggling with it and the storyline#But now it's done and I'm back on the track :)))#day 15#nr.15#I wouldn't be surprised if most of you thought I was just dead and never gonna continue this lol#Also obviously thank you for the messages I got asking if I was okay and if I was continuing this#While also staying very polite#You guys are great <3#Thanks for your patience and also for the 300 more followers I got while I was gone#Ok now the actual tags this already almost as long as the actual chapter again#I put it under a read more tho bc the chapter itself is also pretty long#earth is space australia#humans are weird#space australia#humans are space orcs#humans are insane#humans are terrifying#humans in space
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Okay Here Is The Problem: everything costs money and yet money is something that i just literally never have. solution? kill the idea of money so that nothing costs anything Please. i'm so tired
#despite making more money w/ my commissions than ever before this year#i am still. not able to save up literally even one (1) single penny of it bc of bills#i have to make like 600 every month just to break even at like 5 dollars in my acct#please i am so fucking tired#i want to get myself things and do shit#i want to buy things for archie and jack's dog and for the house so that things are better for all of us#i want to be able to afford snacks more than once every three months like if i maybe want a bag of chips#instead of saving up for three months and going 'yeah okay 5 dollars for a normal sized bag of chips is finally worth it' ?????????????????#why the fuck are chips so expensive that is potatoes and spices and like all of it is automated hello?? what are we fucking paying for?????#ANYWAYS.#i am just fucking. Tired#due to recent events I was like#'okay how much are dog treadmills.... oh. i see. i will never be able to afford that even after three years saving. got it'#there are five hundred fundraisers on my dash (BARELY hyperbole) every single day and everybody needs help#so i COMPLETELY get people not having a ton of disposable funds this isn't me complaining about that i'm just.#i wish that i sometimes had money so that i could MAYBE save anything up or y'know. have ANYTHING to show for it#bc right now i am working full time at this job (commission/freelance artist and adopt maker etc) and making like maybe 4 dollars an hour#which is great bc when i started i was only getting about $0.11 an hour but like. that's still not. Good. For all the time i put into it#but due to circumstances and situations this is about all i'm physically and mentally able to do here and i LIKE doing commission but it's#not really. getting me anywhere and i just want to afford things finally.#i'm 27 and everything i own fits in one room and almost all of it was gifted to me for free bc i couldn't afford to get it on my own#delete later i'm just so tired man
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Can you imagine Hunter slowly adapting to being in the demon realm out the emperors coven and finding strange hobbies and pass times.
His personal favourite: Doing things aimed for kids.
Whether it’s watching little childrens shows, reading those silly books aimed for toddlers, sleeping with plush animals.
Usually he’s all big and tough and he does also enjoy doing things aimed for people his age but he can go home from a long day of hanging around parks with his friends to ask either Darius or Eber to read him the very hungry Caterpillar
Awww, yes I love that!!!
I always talk quite a bit about how Darius would probably have a little moment of "shit, I have no idea how to raise a kid, actually" at some point and go raid the local library for a bunch of books on parenting kids of all ages because... yeah, Hunter is a teenager and he acts like one, enjoys age appropriate activities and everything but... on the other hand he had such a limited childhood, not to say he wasn't even allowed to have one because most likely he was "born" and almost immediately started his training as a scout.
So he is a teenager, there's no denying that, but he wasn't allowed to be one with Belos, and all those years before he wasn't allowed to be a kid either. We see he enjoys books, but he probably justified that most of the time as him pusuing some useful knowledge, and we see he has a plushie and some figurines (which, sure, were references but I'm taking them at heart's value) so at some level he did have some things to cling to when it came to him being a child, but how much time did he really have to enjoy those things... not a lot, I would say, considering he doesn't even get enough time to sleep properly most days.
Now I imagine Darius either recovered the plushie from the castle for him before it came down, or gets him another later, if he had knowledge of it, and that gives Hunter enough space to go "oh, maybe it's okay if I like things like this" and since both his family and friends are the type that might not totally get it, but are pretty encouraging when it comes to things like this, he would slowly become more enthusiastic with experimenting with these things: more plushies merely at first, and then everything else.
He watches all kind of shows on the crystal ball, because he's genuinely curious about everything he has been missing and it's not like he doesn't like all kind of genres, but Darius notices at some point that whenever Hunter is having a tough day, he seems to gravitate toward the lighter, child-oriented shows. They seem to soothe him.
The reading is a bit harder for Hunter to come to terms with though, because he used to read theorical books and things like that, so it feels a bit silly that he feels some attachment to children books and it feels a bit like he'll be mocked for that even if he knows it's not true. I can imagine at some point he sneaks some of those from the library, probably loudly proclaiming on the check out that he's getting them for... some kids he totally babysits, haha, yeah, why do you ask??? (nobody asked, he just got nervous and is a bad liar 💔) And at some point Darius or Eber catch him with them and while he panics, thinking they'll be weirded out or so, they offer to read them to him.
Hunter never had the chance to be a kid first before being a soldier, so as far as everyone around him is concerned, there's nothing wrong with him getting to enjoy what he couldn't before. If anyone makes fun of him for that... they're catching several hands.
#hunter deamonne#darius deamonne#eberwolf the huntsman#dadrius#the owl house#toh#don't mind me answering these almost a whole two months later yikes#in my defense i was going through the horrors and i'm finally free. yay!!!
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This is far from my best work, but it's 1:30am, and I needed to get this down before I slept or lost my mind. So here, take a snippet of Rook seeing Zara again for the first time in 3 years.
Trying, and failing, to keep his voice from shaking, [Rook] said “Hello, Captain.” Mouth still open in surprise, [Zara] replied “Well, hello yourself.” The reality of what she was seeing seemed to hit her as she rounded the desk. “Rook, is that really you?” He nodded. “It’s me.” Zara ran towards him, stopping just short of touching him, and said “What did she do to you?” Rook’s heart stuttered and he had to brush his fingers together to confirm Sigmar’s ring was still in place. Could she possibly see through its illusion? But then he remembered what Lanny had said. She knew where you were. His throat clenched and he choked out “Two years.” A wave of grief swept across Zara’s face as she said “I’m so, so sorry.” Rook shook his head vigorously. “It’s not your fault.” Zara ignored him. “It is my fault. I failed you. As your captain, it’s my responsibility to keep you safe, and I failed you.” Rook wanted to say something, to reassure her, but she pushed on. “She sent me letters, told me all the terrible things she was doing to you. I… I let you down.” Those words hit Rook with the force of a dozen cannonballs. Lanny had said that Zara knew Wolf had him, but knowing that Zara had been aware of what Wolf was doing to him… somehow that was more painful than any wound Wolf had ever inflicted. He barely managed to force his next words out around the lump in his throat. “Where were you?” And why didn’t you come? “She said she’d kill you if I came to get you. Or if I hired anyone to get you. You’re standing here because I stopped sailing.”
(honorary one-time tag for @space-writes bc I remember you enjoyed my other bits about Rook and Zara.)
#morrigan.text#my writing#dnd writing#oc: Rook#oc: Zara#btw when I say that what she said was more painful than any wound wolf inflicted I'm not just talking about her not saving him.#it also just hurts him to know that she was hurting too.#she left him with that woman for two years (to save his life yes. but she left him there all the same) and yet half of his thoughts are#''I'm sorry I hurt you.''#ROOK. MY BELOVED BABY BOY. PLEASE.#STOP APOLOGIZING.#also if anyone needs a cheering up after this please know that their conversation got interrupted by a giant snake showing up and zara#immediately asking Rook ''WHAT DID YOU DO???'' bc she knows her boy.#and he's like ''idk I just woke up like an hour ago'' and then he suddenly remembers that he swore like 3 times (town rules say no to that)#and he just goes ''SHIT'' and Zara fucking clamps her hand over his mouth and says ''take that back!''#and through her hand he says ''how the fuck am I supposed to take that back?'' and she just clamps his mouth harder.#oh. and the time he swore earlier was bc he stepped outside and got spit on by a bull and he was like ''is this normal??''#and someone said ''I've never seen that happen but these animals are part of [big snake almost-god]'s menagerie'' and hands Rook a paper#with all the town rules (there are many). And he goes ''what the fuck?'' and then he gets to the rule that reads ''no swearing'' and he goe#''SHIT!'' and then he realizes what he says and goes ''AAAHHHH.'' and I was cackling.#I was doing this on purpose btw. I knew that this would make the snake mad at me and I did it anyway bc I am a chaos gremlin.#however I did NOT know I would get Rook's only friend from before the party killed by doing this. RIP Jay. I loved you so much.#but yeah. my boy swears like a sailor bc he is one. and it did in fact get people killed. But it was funny to me.#ALSO when she met the party the first thing she said was ''thank you for saving my boy'' and I almost sobbed.#like yeah. he is her boy.#I'm going to explode just thinking about it.#okay if you read all these tags I love you forever and please feel free to yell at my idiot boy in the comments/tags/wherever.#maybe if enough of us join in he'll actually listen. (no he won't)#OH RIGHT. And the party is finally staring to realize how much of a capital L Liar this man is.#because they can literally see him catching himself about to say ''I'm fine'' every time they ask how he's doing
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The DEFYant Ones Podcast: Alex Shelley
#DEFY Wrestling#Alex Shelley#my gifs#marie#it's a short lil interview and i watched it last night and it's all very sweet and he's very cute#i love him a lot you know#also defy has almost all of their stuff available for free now? it's kinda insane but i'm so happy!#i spent all of like last summer#trying to find defy's stuff for free but they finally did it!!!
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Kingsgate update~!
elliot has a Giggle.
Newest page: https://kingsgatecomic.com/?pg=19 Chapter start: https://kingsgatecomic.com/
#kingsgate#oc: elliot#oc: kid#comics#webcomics#also wip information: I've got 3 questions to answer but feel free to send me more!#also scene 3 is ALMOST done. I'm halfway through final pass. I might celebrate by doing some 2 page updates but hh#chapter 1 has 4 scenes so I should probably just focus on working on the finale oTL
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when jane's powers return in season four (and because they were regained by her confronting and accepting her past, rather than being retraumatised with it!) they're stronger than they ever were. when she starts getting a handle back on them, she very quickly comes to realise not only have they affected her, but her mother, too. one of the biggest losses that came about with her losing them was the fact that she could no longer visit terry in the void; while there was no real communication there, it did allow jane to sit with her, and gain a little more connection than she could in the real world. when she first visits the void after their return, it takes her three hours to find terry, something that is both unexpected and incredibly worrying. but when she does, it's something of a miracle. jane's increased strength and control over the void actually wakes terry up from her catatonic state, but only in the void. there's no way to help her mother physically, but she does do so (unbeknownst to her) mentally. terry is reborn in jane's newfound control over the vale of shadows; she becomes the woman she once was, and while her body remains frozen in a "good dream", her mind connected to jane's own allows her some freedom. jane is able to speak to her mother in the void, is able to be held by her, and while it's still unfair and jane cannot stay in there forever, it's something. this only lasts for about eight months, as each visit slowly begins deteriorating terry's physical and mental state, and jane's health begins declining after spending hours upon hours in the void each and every day.
when jane finds out these visits are actually killing her mother on the outside, she deems to stop, but terry expresses the importance of them being able to speak, that she'd prefer to die on the outside, if it meant she could have just a few months with her daughter like this. terry and jane's connection was always so strong, which ultimately led to terry "waking up" in the void, but even jane's newfound strength cannot save her from the harsh realities. each visit nearing the end of those eight months, terry fades more and more, becomes weaker in the void, and her real body eventually gives up. jane's in the void when her mother eventually passes on, and physically feels their connection weaken, like some part of her suddenly becomes lost in the shadows, a part she'll never find again. jane falls into a depressive state for weeks after her mother's death, given she's technically lost her a second time, but soon comes to realise she was lucky to have even shared those eight months together. it was better than nothing at all. there is a proper burial and funeral, (and when jane dies, she's buried next to her mother) which allows jane some sense of closure. she never fully recovers from losing terry, nor from the fact that she never had a proper relationship with her, but she does eventually find some peace with it all.
#study‚ in my dreams it's all real and my heart has so much to reveal.#IF U SAW ME POSTING THIS YESTERDAY. no u didn't.#i wanted to change things again (who is surprised!!) and decided to just rewrite it all rip.#me taking a few weeks off from this blog and then coming back with a brand new terry / jane hc? more likely than u think.#purely self indulgent too i might add!#every day i battle with making my terry portrayal canon to jane's timeline so jane can have her mother in every verse not just#selected ones.#but. her not having her mother is ultimately important to my writing of her and sfjasfjas >:( hate myself for it.#so here be a brand new addition to my timeline that gives jane SOME time with her mother!!! bc i need it for my mental health.#i imagine when terry dies her body turns to smoke in the void. almost like what happened to billy when jane was spying on him.#and he stopped her connection and faded in front of her.#and jane also visited terry a lot in the void because it allowed her to see more memories of her mother.#i hc that she had a real grasp on that before s3 when she looks into billy's memories.#terry (even in her catatonic state) WANTED jane to see what happened to her in hawkins lab.#so she'd want her to see the good stuff too. her childhood. andrew. her grandmother that raised her and becky.#all the good memories!#so when terry dies jane loses all that completely.#which leads to jane grappling with the conflict of whether or not she should have kept visiting terry in the void which eventually led to#her death.#because if she hadn't connected to her. she'd at least be able to look back on all those memories.#jane becomes obsessed within those months and barely speaks to anyone else.#in any free time she has. she's in the void with terry.#her own physical body grows very weak after a little while but she pays no attention to it and even gets into heated arguments with becky.#because becky is jane's carer and needs her safe and healthy. needs to look after her.#but jane is so adamant about the fact that this is her MOTHER and she's finally able to speak to her.#UGH i have so much to say abt this actually i sense a brand new addition to my timeline coming on.#ANYWAY. i'm emotional about them that is all.
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I got Faruzan, and I also had elegy, I was going to use elegy on Venti but he has a r3 stringless that has high EM. I feel bad for giving her his bow I was trying to save for him, but the only reason I got her was to make him and Scaramoche stronger!
I hope he isn’t mad at me 🥲
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Mad probably isn't the right word, not like he could ever truly be mad at you of course, but maybe concerned fits better? You're not thinking of investing more into her than him right?
He's a bow user too! He's got wayyy more experience with a bow that she does you know. Ha, someone who claims to be a century old or so? Try 26+
And don't think he's forgotten about our dear Scara there, you're not thinking of switching over to the shiny new anemo user, right? Honestly, it's his element, he shouldn't be one to discard so easily
You're in the clear for now, of course your choices are always absolute and he respect them no matter what, but he might just have to prove how he can perform even better with a simple 4 star bow that that nice pretty decked out limited time 5 star one, you wouldn't bench him then right?
#genshin impact#genshin venti#sagau#venti x reader#genshin x reader#yandere genshin au#yandere genshin x reader#i got both of them too lol#completely out of primos now#i really want yanfei tho so i might still try for her when i save a bit if the banner isn't over by then#I can't express how badly I need a 5 star Bow rn#just one hoyo pls#I haven't even gotten a stupid bow billet to upgrade the one he's using now in an unreasonably long time#I've got like 3-5 of all the other weapon billet it's insane#I really think the game hates me I'll be honest#anyway almost done with finals eyyy#I'll be back in like 24 hours or so for real prob#luckily the finals weren't as strenuous as the midterms#I'm gonna have so much free time on my hands#I won't know what to do with it all
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They call me a parkour master for the way I swiftly avoid Mizuki5 spoilers
#I mean I'm almost done?#Will I be free soon? Can I finally engage with fandom properly?? Puhlease 😫#zondesrambles
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hello friends i am still Alive
#so uh#my memory is still gradually going down the shitter#almost lost my job to it last week#but i've finally got my psychiatrist's appointment tomorrow#and a ct scan scheduled for 2 months from now#so things might. develop?#in any case that's my Doctor's Note Excuse as to why i haven't posted/replenished my queue in so long#aka the stupid explanation#i've literally been forgetting to do it All The Time#but HEY i'm super sick rn (not covid at least)#so my mind is free enough to let me remember to finally feed my poor queue#HUZZAH
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