#figuringitout

[honeyblogstheworld]

aN iNtroDucTioN, i GUeSs

hi! i’m honey, and if i’m being completely honest, i forgot that I’d created this blog, but i never forgot why, to in some way, inspire myself. to challenge my own means of coping, and funnel these thoughts into something worth writing and reading about. 

everyone needs some outlet of expression, right? i happen to have many, i’m a freelance photographer, a graphic designer, a painter, a musician, a vocalist, a history buff, an avid reader, and writer. i like poetry, classic romance novels, crocheting, dancing alone in my room, and randomly yelling out whatever phase the moon is in. i like plants, appreciating beauty, classical pieces, musical theatre, classic rock, singer/songwriter tunes, and playing the sims.

 i live by the quote that says “you didn’t get this far, to only get this far.” well that, and “you can have my oxford comma when you pry it from my cold, dead, and lifeless hands.”

i know who i am, and the things i want to achieve, and young adulthood in generation z is perhaps the largest whirlwind to have existed on the pinpoint of the human mind. 

so, here we are.

and whether anyone gets the opportunity to read this or not, whether it falls across your feed, or you have fallen into a million tumblr rabbit holes to get here.

i’m glad that you are, and i hope that, even beyond your own belief, you appreciate the value you that provide in this very dark world. be it, through your love and compassion, or the way that you pour yourself into your craft, the world will never have another just like you. you are valuable, you are loved, and you are seen. and i can only hope you made it far enough into this blog post to hear that even if no one told you today, you matter.

talk soon, honey. 

[alvinmarktan]

Tying in #oneweek100people with these life drawings. 5 mins on newsprint. . . . . . . . . . . . #alvinmark #figuringitout #peoplesketching #sketchingpeople #lineofaction #gesture #drawingfromlife #livemodel #sketch #sketchbook #sketchbookskool #art #illustration #urbansketcher #shortpose #figuringitout #art #sketching #livemodel #lineofaction #gesture #drawingfromlife #anatomy #croquis #humanfigure #figuredrawing #artmodels #artistsg #sgartist (at LASALLE College of the Arts) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cpjb2vyPBGm/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[jenniferlinderman]

Whoo-whee…now that’s what I call “abstract”! 😃 I am calling this piece “All In” because it captures and includes a deeper sense of me on a level which is…well…abstract! 😂 It has the colors, the shapes, the patterns, the paint strokes, the textures I Love! If is sanded, sealed, primed, and varnished on a cradled 16x20” wood panel. Um, yeah, it’s for sale, too so DM me if interested. The outside edges are painted a cool grey, kind of like Paynes grey. I will upload a timelapse video of the process to my YouTube channel soon. . . . #art #abstractart #contemporarypainting #abstractexpressionism #markmakingart #patterns #mixedmediaartist #oaklandartist #jenniferlindermanart #selfie #figuringitout #painteveryday #create (at Oakland, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CpBqVAVPGQV/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[estoesalgotemporaneo]

overwhelm.

I've thought about creating this blog for a while now bc I feel like a lot of people could be in the same boat that I am but maybe I'm too afraid to come to the conclusion that I'm losing it a tiny bit. Learning how to live in your early twenties is challenging on a regular basis. Not that its hard to live but it's hard to grasp what or where you're supposed to be rn. I struggle w it daily, I have days when I feel soooo negative but I also have days when I realize how much life I have to live and how maybe I can start changing my life around now. Bc it is how it works right?... But an overwhelming amount of thoughts rush to my head as to why it is such a big task to complete/perform in a way that is exemplary. I feel incomplete yet satisfied. WHERE DO U GO FROM HERE???? what does one do? I've tried the whole clean girl aesthetic and the whole eating books things bc I do love both but I'm not complete. I'm not whole yet. Going back to school might help me soon but I don't see that being the answer more of a booster for my career. A career I'm not sure I'm good in any way. I mean I am, my boss says it, and everyone around me says the same thing but I don't FEEL it yk? & I say that w anger bc how am I still not enough? & the whole bf & friends thing, let's not even get into it bc HOW?? I struggle to have both bc I don't even know who I fully am yet, I wanna be the best I can be in every aspect of my life but even when I am doing the most I don't feel like it's sufficient. I'm not doing my best and I know that but how do I get out of it? In my head im very self aware but do I act on it? negative. Weird gal, i know. anyways, I always said I'd write a blog so here I am but even though im not providing any answers to these questions I hope someone sees it and says 'hey that sounds just like me' bc I need to feel less alone in this. It is a 1st world problem I'm very aware but who knows, maybe somebody will read this n help me out.

[twistedcatmeow]

Do you know what’s truly important to you? Do you base your budget, your plans, and your actions around those priorities?

If you are having financial issues, if living within your means is difficult for you, it might be time to take a long, hard look at your priorities and really decide what you can’t live without. You might be surprised at what your true priorities are.

 

Simplifying your life means figuring out what your priorities are, much like simplifying your closet means getting rid of those things you no longer wear and can no longer find a real reason for keeping. Those social engagements that do not bring you joy? Decline them. Those things in your home you are keeping because they might be useful someday? Get rid of them. Those people in your life who do not contribute to your growth? You might want to consider spending less time with them.

The more simple your life is, the easier it becomes.

 #Simplify #Priorities #FiguringItOut #PracticalSpirituality #PersonalGrowth #SelfImprovement #DailyMessage #Ayamanatara #365DaysToEnlightenment #Sunset #HistoricLahaina #MauiStrong

[posuaaz2]

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[mentallyherede]

💜💚#mentallyhere #mentallyherede #mentalegesundheit #itsokaynottobeokay #recovery #traumarecovery #childhoodtrauma #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthcommunity #mentalhealthquotes ##beingaworkofartinprogress #workofartinprogress #endthestigmaofmentalhealth #endthestigmaofmentalillness #feelinglost #scared #mentalhealthshop #veganproductsinmyshop #vegan #newbiginnings #takingtimeforwhatmatters #slowprogressisstillprogress #figuringitout #eatingdisorderawareness #essstörungrecovery #mentalegesundheitzählt #feelingburnout https://www.instagram.com/p/CpgH-w7jug6/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[nameofjones]

🎵They hung out...

But you came home around 3.

If 6 of y'all went out,

Then 4 of you were really cheap.

'Cause only 2 of you had dinner🎶

[megpie]

"She was brave, and strong, and broken all at once." – Anna Funder. . I can be everything, and nothing, at the same time. So many things that the weight is exhausting. So empty that my hollow bones might shatter to dust with just one more hit. . But I don't need your sword, I don't need your saving, I don't need you to tell me what to do or who to be, and I refuse to exist as only a moon orbiting you. What I wish for is a home, a shelter from storms, big strong arms that gather up my strong, tired pieces and say it's ok, I got you, and you got this, and it'll be ok, and make me believe it, because they're a man who means what they say, every time. . That's all. Otherwise, get tf out of my way. . #makelifebeautiful #makeyourownmagic #findingmyself #figuringitout #trustingtheuniverse #shesmagic #shesawitch #loveherwild #wildchild #strongwomen #lifeiswhatyoumakeit #datingover40 #relationshipsarehard #loveanyway #lovingyourself #datinglife #quoteslover https://www.instagram.com/p/CVVVsn8l6db/?utm_medium=tumblr

[oneyearbolder]

Following Passions

I know the kind of career I want. I know exactly what I wanna do so instead of moping around I have decided to do something about it. 

I saw this job posting last night and I just knew it was something I wanted to do in the future. 

I am going to finish my law and business degree but pursue a minor in News studies. My university offers this major and I can take courses that will better lead me into what I want to do. 

I am going to take some Linkedin learning courses, get an internship next year as well, purchase a camera and start producing some content and working with my creativity. I am also gonna network the living hell out of myself. 

I do not know where this journey will take me. But I do know it will take me somewhere & for that I am so excited. 

I’m ready to do what I love. I refuse to let my doubts let me feel like I can’t do what I put my mind too. 

love u guys 🌻it’s time i start making these dreams a reality 

[alvinmarktan]

Back at La Salle Animation and finding bits of moments to fill up my sketch pad. Thanks Ruby for posing!! . . . . . . . . . . . #alvinmark #figuringitout #peoplesketching #sketchingpeople #lineofaction #gesture #drawingfromlife #livemodel #sketch #sketchbook #sketchbookskool #art #illustration #urbansketcher #shortpose #figuringitout #art #sketching #livemodel #lineofaction #gesture #drawingfromlife #anatomy #croquis #humanfigure #figuredrawing #artmodels #artistsg #sgartist (at LASALLE College of the Arts) https://www.instagram.com/p/CpS2sOOvJ4R/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[akwardkisses]

Soooo, I did a thing. Well, actually, I made a thing. I have no idea what to call the thing so I'll tell you what its for instead. Sometimes a chicken will get it into her adorable little head that she needs to lay her egg in some crazy out-of-the-way spot surrounded by poop instead of in the convenient and clean nesting boxes provided to her. This usually requires somebody (me usually) to fold themselves into a pretzel and crawl through the poop in order to retrieve the egg. I don't like being that somebody. I'd like to avoid the poop and the crazy bending if I can. So this is for retrieving eggs. I got the ugly plastic spaghetti thingy at a yard sale last year. I found the pole in my garage behind a bunch of other crap and I thought it would be perfect. It is. (Of course it is) Admittedly it took me a few weeks to get around to putting them together but now they are and it works beautifully. It's very high tech, I used duct tape. Sometimes you just have to make your own tools. Have a beautiful Friday my friends. Stay safe, stay well. #poverty_hill #homestead #tools #eggretreival #makeityourself #figuringitout #ducttapeinnovations #ihandledit #farmlife #countryliving #slowliving #simplelife #stayinghome #frugalliving #ruralpa #farmher #farmherfriday #howwedoit #pretzelnomore #myhappyplace #myhappylife (at Pennsylvania) https://www.instagram.com/p/CCwKrEEAgOK/?igshid=1fb95wwrezmd3

[salvadorolagueofficial]

Sometimes it’s ok not to be ok But to stay like that for 5 minutes, 10 minutes, much longer.... is no bueno You should understand by now what you feel you attract and if you feel SAD You will attract a bunch of SAD If you feel happy... You will attract HAPPINESS! It’s so simple you won’t be surprised reading this but you sure as heck will be AWARE even more of it then you were yesterday! So moral of this post: BEING #selfaware is key to #figuringitout ⚠️ #salvadorolague out #happythursday😊 (at Laguna Beach, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CLKaggIDbH-/?igshid=11yazhb7oev5j

[joyfuldeepend]

COVID Chronicles

 As some of you know that I contracted COVID in early August. I was released from isolation (thanks MD dept of Health) after about 16 days and received a negative test result around the 20 day mark. If you read my last post, you know that I’m still dealing with the residual marks of COVID 2 months later. COVID has been an experience for sure and has taught me many things, including the following.

Rest: Covid forced me to rest and listen to my body like never before. Actually I would say it allowed me to give myself permission to rest, to force me to slow down in many areas of my life. Some days I miss the ability to fill my days full of projects, people and presence. I now find myself living an introvert’s dream of watching movies, journaling and living alone with my thoughts, tears and whatever else comes up.

Fear: Covid has so many stigma and fear points attached to it without enough research or knowledge to know how to respond to them. I’ve had many people tell me “It’s going to be ok, don’t worry about it.” But I’m not promised tomorrow and walking through the fear is a necessity to get on the other side to faith and belief. The truth is, I could die from COVID or the complications from what it might do to my internal organs. The truth is also, that I could die in a car accident. The truth is also, that I could live from both of those things and finding  peace with all of the outcomes is where I want to be. Not to ignore the fear, but also not to stay in the fear. 

People: Let’s just say the people part has been ever challenging for me...which is not unusual for an Enneagram 2 (that’s me).....

Stress: At my last appointment my doctor asked me if I was feeling stressed, and I almost choked at the surprise of the question. Can any of us say we’re not  stressed these days? I told her yes....but that stress isn’t new...though stress in a pandemic is new to all of us, so I can’t tell if my heart/health issues are related. I don’t know about you but this season has such peaks and valleys for me. The stress seems like it’s fine until it feels like the anchor holding me under the water. The joy seems deep and yet as if the water is draining out of the tub too quickly to grasp appropriately. And today I’m reminded to keep going on....just one step after the other keep going on. We’re all figuring this out together and there are no experts to tell us how we can go through it, because they’re figuring it out. 

Enjoy this “Keep Going” video, if you haven’t seen it yet. This encouraged me today.

 I’m ever learning and growing and I hope that you will continue to take a dive into the joyful deep end of life. It can feel scary but swimming in the deep end is where the depth of life is!!

[livingasasunflower]

I Realized Something...

Dear Friend,

Two months before I turned 21 years old, I learned something about myself. Honestly, I have known for a very long time; since middle school or high school maybe. I am gay. Wow, that is so great to say. HEY, PEOPLE, I AM GAY! Check that out, look at that! One year difference from mistake after mistake and hating myself. I realized that I was never truly comfortable around guys. I HATED public display of affection (PDA). I hated holding hands with a man in public. I hated hugging or kissing or even just walking with a man. I used to be embarrassed to be seated in a restaurant with a man on a date. I thought everyone was staring at me. Yup, you heard me. Sitting in a restaurant was AWKWARD for me. How could that be? 

I thought. A lot. 

I never knew why I was like this. But now, especially now being out for three and a half years, it makes complete sense. 

How did I figure this out you ask? 

In high school, I had small, teeny-tiny crushes. I didn’t see them back then as crushes. Now I do. Damn, I was obsessed with some of my friends... makes sense. But as for college, as for 21, well, I met a girl. She was in my classes in college and we connected on another level than just friends. She flirted. I flirted back. And I didn’t even realize that I was doing it and I wasn’t embarrassed and quite frankly, if I am being honest, it wasn’t even hard to do. We hung out together. I would walk past her dorm room and pick her up for class. She kissed me. . . . 

HOLD ON.

let's talk about this for a sec. 

I have never been intimate with a girl. I would sometimes drunk kiss girls but it never meant anything, sorta. This, this was VERY different. This had meaning. Full-blown, “I like you and I hope you like me too” type of kissing. The “hi, I want to rip your clothes off now” type of kissing. And I was OKAY with this! Actually, better than okay. I, C, for the first time in my life, FELT NORMAL! 

Yup, remember in the paragraph before when I was talking about kissing men and hating PDA? Not with her. We went on a date for the first time after that and I didn’t feel awkward at all. I didn’t feel like I was being stared at and I didn’t feel pressured. I felt free. 

The lesson from almost 21: It is OKAY if it takes a while to figure out who you are. It is completely normal to branch out and figure out what makes you truly happy. When you find that person, or type of person that makes you, you; it’s such a powerful feeling. Hold onto that feeling and always feel that! When figuring out your life it is OKAY not to know yet. But one day, you will! 

-C

[thegreyninja]

#SolCityInk figuring out what it means to be a tattoo artist in this world.. getting there. . . . #ink #inktober #inktober2019 #characterdesign #drawing #tattoo #comics #figuringitout https://www.instagram.com/p/B4L7qhOl_AG/?igshid=17lxnc0mj03ii