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[feeisamarshmallow]

Chapters: 3/3 Fandom: Veronica Mars (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Cindy "Mac" Mackenzie & Eli "Weevil" Navarro Characters: Cindy "Mac" Mackenzie (Veronica Mars), Eli "Weevil" Navarro Additional Tags: Friendship, Road Trips, Grief & Trauma, unlikely connection, Desert Landscapes as a Mechanism for Bonding, Family History

Summary: Maybe she should’ve felt uneasy about embarking on a two-day road trip with someone she barely knew. But she was so done with this school year, done living in a town where every corner reminded her of past trauma, done worrying about how she’d possibly survive next year without Veronica. So instead of giving Weevil an excuse and climbing back in her uncomfortable dormitory bed, she gave him a small wave, opened the passenger door, and climbed in.

Or, Mac and Weevil take an impromptu road trip together after learning that Veronica will not be returning to Hearst the next year.

[midnight--sadness]

ong i need to lock in and learn how to write smut but it scares me so much 😭😭😭

[severevoiddragon]

I feel like I see you in my notifs a lot less :(

Did I do something? Or is it just Life happening?

(Also I’m going to have a Director Chimera picture for you tomorrow :3)

Nonononnonoo DW you did absolutely nothing !!!!!

I have been. Very Busy. If it makes it better: my queue has gone from nearly 900 to 750 in the last few days-

But DW you have done nothing <3 i still love you /p

[sunnyupsidedown]

One day there’s going to be an investigative journalist obsessed with exy who decides to lookup the net worth of all the top exy players and discover they’re lower than expected.

Initially, they think, maybe they don’t buy a lot and keep most of their money liquid so it’s harder to track their net worth, but then they find out that nearly all of the exy players are generous philanthropists. Donating what they think is well over fifty percent of their income to various charities.

That’s their article, they think. Exy, One of the Most Charitable Sports in Modern History!

But then they start looking into it further and things start to look… suspicious.

Every single Edgar Allen exy alum donates to a mixture of the same ten or so charities. They are all lesser know charities that range from bringing exy to underprivileged communities to children with rare forms of cancer to environmental activism organizations.

Even the power trio from PSU, Day, Josten, and Minyard, have donated to a few on that list and their contributions significant. The difference between them and Edgar Allen alum though is that they also donate to causes not on the list and related to their pasts.

So they look into the charities more, looking at the mission statements, finding their financials, even volunteering at some of them. And they discover that things don’t quite match up. Yes the charities work toward the goals laid out in their mission statement, but the money they receive from the exy donations should vastly change their day-to-day operations.

And that’s how they find out that all those charities are a part of an elaborate money laundering scheme involving the top exy players in the world.

Shortly after figuring that out and shortly after connecting exactly who is doing the money laundering, they disappear without a trace.

[byanyan]

brain is flitting from reply to reply like a drunk bumblebee so i'm gonna just. reply to whatever tickles its fancy at any given moment i think lmao

[skierisa]

The thing I hate the most about making a comic is 100% the colouring stage. I'm not skilled enough for this shit, black and white or coloured (even simple colouring). I just takes SUCH A LONG TIME TO MAKE! Now I get why my favourite webtoons need a year to come back

[ask-icedouma]

lil update + irl stuffs ヽ(´□｀。)ﾉ

Sorry that mod hasn't been active as of late, I have been kinda in a slum lately. I have no guarantee when I'll answer questions consistently but mod really appreciates that you guys still enjoy this blog.

I haven't been doing well irl as of late because of my long time depression (ongoing for +15ish years wild) and because of this I've been failing my studies a lot. As of late I'm finally getting a little help as of going to my very first official therapy session.

I said official because most of the time I've only gone to temples. My family has been believing that I've been possessed by evil spirits my whole life and its pretty annoying. Tho I'm also sure that this is something common with our religious believes so I don't fully blame them. I've been trying and begging them to bring me to one for the longest time and it's finally happening! I don't know if it will help this time but it's some progress I'm willing to take.

Also! I feel sorry somehow for not interacting much. I've been wishing to talk to some of you/mutuals to get stuff of my mind or just talk about silly stuff but because most of you are writers I'm too intimidated sadgfhj if only I was literate *fist clenching and sulking*

Lastly here's some pictures of derpy Douma for reaching the end of this post.

[acepandemi]

You wanna know something that I think sucks?

There are things I love doing, that I would like to do frequently, even every day if I could. But, for various reasons, I actually can't do these things more than occassionally, and sometimes with nasty consequences.

For instance: I'd love to be able to write more. I love making up stories, I have so many ideas that I want to put on paper so bad. But for whatever reason, actually writing (well, you know, typing) is one of the most energy-draining activities in existence for me. I don't know why, just like I don't know why yardwork is so much more draining for me than housework (which is draining enough but yardwork is worse) other than "It's an Autism thing". But if I write even a short chapter I am so tired afterwards, and it sucks. (writing essays was even worse, there's a reason I regularly have nightmares about having to write essays)

Cooking is another example. I like to cook, and bake, and try out new recipes, and I'm actually quite good at it. I'd love nothing more than to be able to cook every day. In reality? I manage to cook maybe once a week, and it completely exhausts me. It's one of the reasons I struggle with eating healthy. (Yes, I am familiar with batch cooking, that's what I usually do when I do manage to cook, so at least I'll benefit from it for several days.)

The one I'm maybe most salty about though, is swimming. I hate sports, like really really badly. I have a lot of sports-related trauma (long story, combination of pushy adults and undiagnosed disabilities, both of the physical and mental variety), and there really isn't any sport or form of exercise that I actually enjoy. Except swimming. I love swimming, I love the feeling of being in water, and how weightless and free swimming makes me feel, and that I can move around in the water without pain. I wish I could swim a few laps every day.

I'm allergic to chlorine. No, really. If I go to a chlorine pool, I get sick for at least a week, maybe two. Proper, lie-in-bed-to-miserable-to-move sick. Swimming lessons as a kid were fun. I was sick for an entire year, to the point I'd forgotten it is possible to breathe through your nose. The only pool around these parts that doesn't have chlorinated water (saline instead), is a fancy spa pool on the other side of the border, too expensive and not easily accessible enough for me to regularly go to. As for swimming in natural water, there's two local "swimming holes" but of course that would only be an option if the weather is nice enough (which it usually isn't, especially with my specific physical limitations [I have, in fact, gotten sick before after going swimming in these waters]), at which point it immediately gets ridiculously crowded, which, yeah, no thanks.

Sometimes people get sceptical about me being disabled, saying things like: "Oh, so you can't work but you can do fun stuff? Sounds suspicious!" (Like when I tell people I like hiking. It's decompression for me.) And I tell them: "Ehm, no, actually I can't." (I can't go hiking as often as I'd like either, I have plenty of days where I'm not even able to leave the house.)

Yeah, being disabled sucks. I've accepted it, but I don't like it.

[corcnaiism]

AN INSIDE LOOK ON PANDORA: THE NATURAL ORDER

The Natural Order: The existence of everything came from The Natural Order. No one knows where it came from or how it manifested itself out of nothing. Its physical form is similar to that of an axolotl, an immensely large void living everywhere at once. It is an idea, a concept, and it coexists within every being it split its power with, known as the gods of the universe. These godly entities have their separate roles to play depending on what The Natural Order granted them and should only be focused on their assigned “jobs”. The Natural Order gifted these gods immense power to create and twist dimensions and reality as they see fit as long as they follow through the “rules” set by The Natural Order. 

These “rules” consist of: 

never abusing their power to overcome other gods

only keep the extent of their power within their realms and limiting their powers when interacting with other realms not their own, ex. the human realm

moderate their own influence upon other realms to where there isn’t a drastic shift in balance of power between all gods input 

if they are to personally interact with other realms, they are only allowed to remain within that realm for a short while at a time. otherwise, their presence will be too great and that realm will start to fall apart the longer they stay, potentially leading to the erasure of said realm.

never trying to overpower The Natural Order

If any of these “rules” are to be broken, the perpetrator will be completely wiped from existence, and everything they left behind will also be removed. Shortly, they would get replaced by a new god, and the balance would be restored. 

There have been several gods who have tried to overrule The Natural Order by either confronting it straight on or breaking the rules, but none have been able to so much as lay a single finger on it. Despite its immense, terrifying power, The Natural Order is benevolent and would give warnings and second chances to allow its creations to learn from their mistakes and redeem themselves. However, the second they perform misdemeanors again, The Natural Order will not hesitate to remove the culprits. Because of this, most gods fear upsetting The Natural Order. They all do their best to follow the rules and maintain the balance it wants.

This all connects back to Pandora explaining her limitations within the human realm whenever Ford would ask her why she hasn’t just brought upon chaos and world destruction if she was that powerful. It also explains how Bill Cypher, a creation from Pandora’s own hand, is capable of demonstrating a dangerously amount of power that makes it seem like he is stronger than her due to the fact that he is HER responsibility to keep under control, and if she doesn’t, she will get punished. Unlike Pandora, Bill is not directly tied to The Natural Order ( he is a god but not one with powers granted to him personally by The Natural Order ), hence he does not have the same consequences as Pandora if he goes above and beyond breaking the standard rules, meaning he can bring about the end of the world without suffering punishment directly from The Natural Order. It’ll have to go through Pandora first.

Pandora can easily overpower Bill and has done so countless times in the past whenever he would go overboard by putting him in “time-out”, sealing him away in a void for hundreds of years before releasing him back into the wild. Luckily, she has been very precise and reactful when it comes to controlling Bill, thus the realm she is to watch over never got severely altered nor had she been given a warning by The Natural Order once since her creation ( she is one of the few gods that remained in power since day one ). But there is heavy tension between Pandora and Bill, mostly due to the fact that Bill hates her for restraining him just as soon as he’s close to bringing destruction and for being afraid of something as “stupid” as The Natural Order whenever she would explain herself to him her reasoning behind his “time-outs.” Bill does not understand just how powerful The Natural Order truly is and has tried to convince Pandora to team up with him to take it down and become the new Natural Order but to no avail. 

More information over Pandora’s and Bill’s history to be continued.

[queenerdloser]

literally hyperfocused so much i spent about seven hours getting a semi-polished draft of my statement of purpose completed. jesus christ??? weeks of farting around with it and one day of actual work that got it to a state that's shareable and like 85% completed... yes that IS so typical of my work habits lmao.

[sketchesandnonesense]

None of my usual treasured besties are annoy-able rn so im stuck Painfully Awake at 1:00am with nothing to do because my brain refuses to Work

Like

I try n form thoughts but its like in cartoons where they open their wallet n a lil moth flies out

Thas why i need Interaction i need someone to ignite Something in me so I can get thoughts going and put this energy SOMEWHERE

But

The hour is late

N my usual people i Annoy sleep

So i am Die

[feeisamarshmallow]

winter/holiday fics by me!

if you want some winter and/or holiday vibes (mostly christmas but there's a little bit of hanukkah in there too), i humbly present my fics

Going out tonight (it will never change me and you) / G / Brooklyn Nine Nine / Charles x Jake "Charles wants his first date with Jake to be perfect." Featuring ice skating and winter vibes.

My voice a beacon in the night (my words will be your light) / G / One Direction / Gen "Since returning, the boys make an effort to meet up once a year at Christmastime. This year it doesn't quite go to plan." A Christmas sequel to my 1D multi-dimension fic.

Murder at the Rink / T / Brooklyn Nine Nine / Jake x Amy "A murder shakes a small hockey town in Canada just as the Under 18 hockey team is advancing to the provincial finals. Many people know what happened, but only two teens might be brave enough to expose the truth. And if they don’t let the corruption of their town get the better of them, they just might fall in love, too. Or, Amy is a studious high school student. Jake is a local teenage hockey star. They team up to solve a crime, as they do."

Christmas Cheer / T / Veronica Mars / Veronica x Weevil "Christmas Eve 2006. Veronica shows up at Eli's apartment door with cookies."

miracles in the mortal city / G / Brooklyn Nine Nine / Jake x Amy "A winter storm blacks out New York City and illuminates the things that really matter. Jake and Amy find their way to each other."

We'll gather later, but it never feels the same / G / Brooklyn Nine Nine / ensemble "The squad, celebration, family & tradition. A holiday fic."

[avpdgirlfriend]

no that helped me that was really helping me eh nee ways (still in pain) i want to practice writing moree.....

[nnayomaise]

I AM OVERDRAFTED ON MY BANK ACCOUNT

i have $3 in my wallet and have bank fees due

so my $5 doodle comms are open!!!!!!

additionally my writing comms are open, $5 for 500 words

I usually write for magi but i can branch out for...cash 😳

i actually know a bunch of fandoms i could write for but i’ve just got brainworms for magi rn

if you want to comm me for anything else, dm me and we can set something up yeah?

https://ko-fi.com/wolfsgravestone/commissions

[liathgray]

Hey! I just wanted to say I just finished Capra for the first time and I LOVED IT. I can't wait to read the sequel, which I've got queued up as we speak! I hope you're not offended but I'd like to offer myself as a proof reader for Capra/followng stories? I noticed a number of minor grammar/spelling errors and I'd love to fix them up for you! Again, no offense meant, feel free to tell me to fuck off :) I also had a maybe stupid question. I still don't understand what happened on the boat? Is that something that is yet to be fully explained, and I just haven't read it yet in Marelle? Or am I missing something? I adored your work and the effort you put into it really showed through!

Hi!!! Gosh I’m so glad you enjoyed it aaaHhhhH thank you! I hope Marelle has been treating you well

I appreciate the offer, but will pass. A chunk of what has been kindly pointed out by readers grammar-wise is intentional misusing things for the sake of structure or impact. Also occasionally because I use Canadian spelling so sometimes what is incorrect to readers isnt incorrect to me and i REFUSE TO CONFORM!!!!

Im hesitant to revisit a work a few years old like Capra because I came out of it happy with how I’d written, and am a highly critical person. If i reread it now, theres a pretty high chance i’ll get frustrated and want to revise or restart. I don’t wanna ruin it for myself

All that is to say: no thank u ❤️

Im assuming you mean the segment when Ed’s talking to that woman? The long and short of it was she couldnt afford to be on the boat monetary-wise. She lied to get herself and her kid and now owes a debt, and is running low on physical things she can sell (ex: clothing, jewelry, hair, etc) so shes offered to pay the toll with a tooth, which is worth enough to cover the debt. Her hands shake, so she asked Ed to do it.

[foxcassius]

wait also my tags on that post were about people i knew in freshman and sophomore year of college specifically. i mean some of them i knew after that and most of them i knew from high school but damn some people really made everything about themselves when i was being emotionally manipulated in my freshman year