#ex factor

[onthewurld]

[the-mallorca-files]

THE MALLORCA FILES S01 E10 — Ex Factor

“But when she said that, was her face like...? Or was it more like...?”

[tha-wrecka-stow]

[aprilborn]

It could all be so simple (ba-ba-ba-baby, baby, baby)

But you'd rather make it hard (huh, uh)

Loving you is like a battle (it's like a battle)

And we both end up with scars

Tell me who I have to be (who I have to be)

To get some reciprocity

See, no one loves you more than me (more than me)

And no one ever will (no one ever will, yeah)

Is this just a silly game (silly game)

That forces you to act this way? (to act this way)

Forces you to scream my name

Then pretend that you can't stay (yeah)

Tell me, who I have to be (I know what we gotta do)

To get some reciprocity

See, no one loves you more than me

And no one ever will

No matter how I think we grow

You always seem to let me know

It ain't working (it ain't working, no), it ain't working

And when I try to walk away

You'd hurt yourself to make me stay

This is crazy, this is crazy (oh, this is crazy, uh-huh)

I keep letting you back in (you back in)

How can I explain myself? (I don't understand why)

As painful as this thing has been

I just can't be with no one else

See I know what we've got to do (yeah)

You let go (you let go), and I'll let go too (and I'll let go)

'Cause no one's hurt me more than you

And no one ever will

No matter how I think we grow

You always seem to let me know

It ain't working (it ain't working), it ain't working (it ain't working)

And when I try to walk away

You'd hurt yourself to make me stay

This is crazy (this is crazy), this is crazy (this is crazy)

Care for me, care for me

I know you care for me

(There) There for me, there for me

Said you'd be there for me

(Cry) Cry for me, cry for me

You said you'd die for me

(Give) Give to me, give to me

Why won't you live for me?

(Care) Care for me, care for me

You said you'd care for me

(There) There for me, there for me

Said you'd be there for me

(Cry) Cry for me, cry for me

You said you'd die for me

(Give) Give to me, give to me

Why won't you live for me?

Take it down now

(Cry) Take it down now

(Give) Take it down now

(Care) Take it down now

(There) Take it down now

(Cry) Take it down, take it down for now

(Give)

Ex-Factor~Lauryn Hill

[bueckersstrap]

i love this song plssssss

[yournameimoan]

What I think of when I hear/read/think the word ‘reciprocity’.

And for all the beautiful humans that overflow like abundant rivers: discernment is such an important skill to learn. Look out for reciprocity.

If it’s not there, keep that river to yourself. Only flow where you’re fully received and reciprocated.

[i-will-talk-fish]

Lauryn Hill _ Ex Factor

[djevilninja]

Ms. Lauryn Hill Sings Ex-Factor Over Piano 2018

This is so good. Gives me chills. 

[k-kkaren]

EX FACTOR

LOL sighs ..anddddddd action. When I tell you all this is probably one of my most anticipated blogs ever. I’ve seriously wrote this blog so many times (I’m talking all the way probably back to around when I first started writing blogs) and every time I get ready to publish it, I always back out. For one I know the emotions that come with this song for me. Once a young girl stealing my sisters Miseducation of Lauryn Hill cd to a woman in my late 20s now feeling exactly each word she wrote. Every time I hear the melodic chimes and piano in the beginning it creates such an emotion for me. Then to precede and say “It could all be so simple, but you’d rather make it hard. Loving you is like a battle, and we both end up with scars. Tell me who do I have to be to gain some reciprocity.(S/o to her for truly teaching us what that word means) See no one loves you more than me and no one ever will.”

As a woman, I truly understand how simple love could be. Relationships too. We didn’t say easy because nothings ever easy, we just said simple. But (whatever your preference may be) realistically they make it so hard. A lack of so to say. Lack of communication. Lack of accountability. Ego. Wounds in the way aka trauma. And. Straight up unwillingness. (Sidenote, I know I have a couple of guys who sometimes read these and the same things go for women.. i too have lacked in these areas as well and I’m woman enough to admit that)

“No matter how I think we grow you always seem to let me know,it ain't working…And when I try to walk away you'd hurt yourself to make me stay. This is crazy…I keep letting you back in. How can I explain myself? (I don't understand why) As painful as this thing has been. .. ” i don’t even sing that last part because I know I truly am capable of moving on. I’ve done it quite a time or two. It just takes me a min. But I get it who wants to in some cases.

Being very transparent with you all I don’t think I’ve ever been with someone but not with someone so much in my entire 14 years of being a dater. It’s like I would always be drawn in to stay somewhere where I know didn’t serve me purpose. But I also didn’t want to give up on it bc I always felt like we could grow. I once believed in wrong timing. I felt like too much time had been invested. I felt comfortable. I always tried to find the good(Bc in all honesty when it was good, it was good. My friends never saw that side so I get the stares and all the questions lol. I really do y’all.)

“See I know what we've got to do. You let go and I'll let go too. 'Cause no one's hurt me more than you. And no one ever will..” The hardest part but the part that warms my heart the most. We hate to let things go that mean so much to us, things that were once near and dear to our heart but it’s essential for progressing. I look at hurt like all the lessons of a lifetime that potentially made me into a better woman. A more guarded woman. A more cautious woman for sure, but never the less still a woman, phenomenally. And I try to pride myself on that.

Ex Factor - a tale of three different stages that I’m sure every single one of us have been through or may be currently experiencing.

The Ex Factor - a product of someone or something mattering but not so much anymore. And I’ll drink to that. With another month concluding, into the year that’s moving ever so rapidly so much of me knows that it’s a dire need to go ahead and get this out the way because all in all it has held me back in many ways. It’s crazy like I noted earlier I’ve seriously wrote this blog, tweaked it, deleted stuff from it since about 2020 and each time I felt something new. Today 4/30/2023 is the best I’ve felt about it in all these years. I say all of that to say, “it’s” awaiting.

As always, in all ways — Love and Light 💗

Twitter : _kforkaren

Instagram : kforkarenn

[the-mallorca-files]

Miranda’s comment about Jürgen Kuhl’s house looking like a prison is so apt considering what happens later in the episode

[bueckersstrap]

no matter how i think we grow

you always seem to lmk

it ain’t working !!!!!!!!

[afrotumble]

Ms. Lauryn Hill Sings Ex-Factor Over Piano 2018