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guys my lips are so cold if only i had if only there was if only my boy to kiss them
#no but genuinely finn my lips get so cold#i love you#t4t mlm#mlm#t4t#mlm love#t4t sfw#achillean#mlm sfw#ftm mlm#mlm yearning#like whenever i go outside#cold#even when i'm inside#soso cold#i just miss your lips
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hiii im sure you’ve answered this before but in regards to your twst x Pokémon, how do you choose which Pokémon go give to the cast?? really curious since your choices are unique :O
unique in a good way, I hope? 😅 (jk jk I haven't come across too many pokemon AUs, so I was going in without preconceptions, I guess!) I was sorta aiming somewhere between doing, like, a full AU with internal consistency and everything, and just picking entirely based on theme/character, so maybe that's why! basically I just set some arbitrary rules (no legendaries/no repeats/evo stages based on year) and then went on ~vibes~. a couple were also suggestions (thank you guys!) and last-minute decisions, so it was a bit of a delightful mess of ideas!
my one regret is that I should have given Riddle a Togedemaru after all. ...you know what, he can have one now, why not
#art#twisted wonderland#pokemon#poketwst#okay i have one other correction to make#which is that i think vil should also have a garbodor#NO LISTEN#i have thought about it a lot but i just do not want to give him a milotic#and this is because -- now hear me out#neige would actually be the one with a milotic#(it fits his personality more and it's even in his colors!)#when they were kids vil had a trubbish and neige had a feebas and vil felt superior until the whole milotic thing happened#and he's secretly kind of bitter about it#but he also secretly loves his garbodor a lot and gets mad when people make fun of it#IS HE NOT BEAUTIFUL ENOUGH FOR BOTH OF THEM#also garbodor ferments poison inside of it! it would be the perfect alchemy assistant!#I'M RIGHT OKAY#(i am also a big fan of trubbish/garbodor and i don't personally think they're ugly anyway)#anyway enjoy this drawing because it completely exploded my computer#(it was not the drawing's fault it was just unfortunate timing)#i've mostly got things working again but oof. it's been. a day. 🙃
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late morning
#fairy tail#nalu#lucy heartfilia#natsu dragneel#killamonart#could've held back just a lil... lol#tho don't think he really has self restraint like that#mf always doing as he please LOL#also is this a controversial thing to say but like i think that mashima lowkey ships gray and lucy just a bit...#bc of the amount of times he got them paired off and he's taking care of her-- AND I KNOW IT COULD BE JUST HIM BEING A FRIEND#but his actions at times are so... strangely intimate...#even tho he got that whole thing w juvia but sometimes i just think he ended up w her bc.......... she's there#ALSKDFJASL THAT'S A CONTROVERSIAL STATEMENT ISN'T IT...#but like WHY WAS GRAY CHECKING THE INSIDE OF LUCY'S MOUTH WHILE HOLDING HER CHIN LIKE THAT--#you gonna see him do that shit w erza?? no way LOL#anyway ya i'm watching the 100 year quest rn#always catching her when she falls or you see him also shield her...#then again this is also just me enjoying the drama of it all so don't mind me#this aint about him!! this is a nalu post! LMFAOOO#art#fanart#natsu#lucy
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THE ROOKIE- 6.03 ➦ Trouble In Paradise
#chenford#chenfordedit#the rookie#therookieedit#tim x lucy#tim and lucy#jesuis-assez edits: chenford#jesuis-assez edits: the rookie#He really took care of her in this episode. [like always]#From giving her advice -> distraction -> keeping an eye on her -> letting her sleep in -> the trophy -> reassurance.#Just doing everything he could to be there for her and support her#to keep her from burning out. If she was ever to crash this episode... or to have her hopes dashed. He would be there to catch her.#and he did. “I'm sorry for disappointing you.” “You could never disappoint me.” Giving her the words she needed to hear in that moment.#He gave her what she needed in this episode and more.#More importantly... He knew what she needed and he knew how to be there for her. He is in tune with her.#His understanding of her runs deep and flows through his actions just how devoted he is to her.#Perhaps Lucy wore the necklace he gave her to the oral exam... Not just because it's from someone she loves but#So she could feel him there with her for support. As he has supported her from the moment he found out she was working towards this.#Even when it was killing him inside to do so because of his related trauma.#I don't always communicate through the tags... but when I do--- you can't shut me up 🙃 [and they become quite lengthy]
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maybe my most controversial headcanon is that I see dean as a straight man and sam is his only exception
#when in fics he's written as an openly bisexual dude who has slept with men before I'm like...#it's not like that would make me dislike the fic or anything. I see the vision I get it. but it doesn't ring true#to the dean that lives inside my head yk?#the only bi!dean I genuinely enjoy is the repressed one who has never even been with a dude and genuinely thinks he's straight#why the fuck did I end up writing so much more in the tags than in the original post lmao
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1x04 - What We | The Ones Who Live
#i am utterly feral#like i cannot be introduced into society or an indoor environment rn#Rick Grimes#towl spoilers#The Ones Who Live#*#rg#HOW DOES HE KEEP GETTING MORE HANDSOME STOP IT#F U Z Z I E S#CHEST FUZZIES DO YOU SEE THEM#NECK FUZZIES#SCARS#THESE ARE A FEW OF MY FAVORITE THINGS#I AM WINNING#even his adams apple is nice#i hate myself#the slope of his shoulders 🗣#if i could just rest my face on his chest for a few i think it could solve a lot of problems i have tbh#put me in traction#until i walk like i'm about to duel at the OK Corral#[redacted] inside me#hello welcome to the tour#on your left you will see A MAN™#i have a very hectic week ahead i need to go to bed#would give a kidney to draw idle patterns in his chest hair#*rabid whale noises*#i don't think whales can get rabies but if they could that's what i sound like rn#that man would look like an ancient capri sun pouch when i was done#go to bed lacey
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I love that no matter how many fucking times alison gestures to exactly where the ghosts are mike will still look up in the air for them. the fact that he makes an attempt to interact directly with them instead of just always looking to alison is so charming. but also adhd king.
#mike cooper my bestie mike cooper#when julian records him talking about the house and he looks up and goes 'thanks julian'#like... he knows that means he's there and he believes enough to interact with them even when alison isnt there#like. he means so much to me#it would be so easy for him as a character to just always be the straight man#and be going along with it for alisons sake but then roll his eyes#but he doesnt!!! he trusts that they're there! he tries to talk to them when she's not there~!!#yeah maybe he's a little bit scared of them at first but then those are his wife's family!#that's his wife's group of friends and he wants to be included!!#he wants to know their inside jokes. he pays attention. he knows which one is which.#when alison says mary is gone he says#'the one that smells like toast and spies on me in the toilet' like. yeah she had more personality than that#but he remembers who she is!!!!!!!!!!#and acknowledges that alison needs to mourn!#i'm gonna sobBB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#bbc ghosts#i cant watch ghosts high i get so emotional
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ok there's delulu, and then there's thinking that buddie going canon is going to bring in 20 million viewers.
this isn't even about a ship war, this is about living in reality. NCIS hasn't brought those numbers in in almost a decade, and that's like the number one scripted show. if they had said 10 million, I'd still be scoffing and calling them delusional, but at least that would be somewhat in the realm of possibility. but 20 million? I don't think anything but sports events even gets those numbers nowadays
fandom is simply not that big. there are not 15 million people just waiting for 2 guys to kiss before watching. would viewership go up if buddie went canon? possibly. possibly not. you have to balance the new viewers it would bring in with the current viewers it would lose by making another main character queer. cause unfortunately the general audience, even if they're fine with queer people and characters, still thinks there can be "too many" queer characters. abc took a risk with bucktommy and it appears to have paid off: viewership stayed steady, the majority of reviews and responses were positive, but they were ready to pull back if the backlash was too strong, that's why lou was originally only contracted for 4 eps. if the GA didn't respond favourably, they could quietly get rid of tommy, and yeah buck is bi now but that doesn't mean it needs to be mentioned like ever and he can continue to date women.
making another main character queer AND putting him together with another main isn't something that can be basically retconned if it isn't received well.
and even if the network does think it will be received well, it is not going to be to the tune of 20 million viewers. we've been saying it for months, years now some of us, but the expectations are too high and will never match reality, and as soon as it doesn't go exactly the way they've "theorized" they will lash out at the show, which the network will take only as negativity towards the ship itself, and make them that much less likely to greenlight another such story.
#bucktommy#911#911 critical#anti buddie#sorry for the long post#but i saw that and just#not even anger or anything just like idk pity#one says something and they all jist repeat it in their echo chamber until it's fact#and no one on the inside will say ''hey that's just not realistic''#and then they all lose their mind when this thing that was never actually a possibility doesn't happen#i know i'm not saying anything with these tags that hasn't been said before#but usually what i hear them say just makes me angry and my gut response is fuck you#this tho#i read that and yeah it was just pity
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*me immediately after going through a terrifying and traumatic experience* haha yeah I guess it was rough but I'm fine now like I'm totally chill. It was kinda funny actually if you think about it
#GUESS WHO GOT A PIERCING INFECTION SO BAD OVERNIGHT SHE HAD TO RUSH TO THE HOSPITAL#AND GET SURGERY TO REMOVE IT BC THE METAL WAS BURROWING ITSELF INSIDE HER LIP#yep that was meee :3#man. it sounds so silly now. like that probably shouldn't have made me panic nearly as much as it did#but you have to understand at the time it was terrifying#I noticed my lip was a bit swollen earlier in the night but I was like ok it's probably nothing serious#I put some ice on it hoping it would be back to normal after I got some sleep#then I woke up at like 5:30 AM with my lip super swollen and my lip piercing literally burying itself inside my flesh#I tried pushing it back out a bit and blood and pus started coming out so yk I started panicking#so I went upstairs and I asked my mom to drive me to the hospital#luckily we have free healthcare in brazil and the hospital was basically empty(this was on sunday)#but when I got there they told me the doctor wouldn't arrive until 8AM and it was like 6:45 at that point#so I REALLY started panicking 🫠 bc I could feel like the piercing kept burying itself more deeply like#I felt like the skin inside my lip was going to close around it and I was terrified bc I had no idea what to do#and I was scared it might make things worse#but all I could do was sit there and wait and so I started having a panic attack#luckily my mom was there with me the whole time so at least I didn't feel alone#and then I just. waited for it to end. and then tried to keep myself distracted until the doctor got there#I got treated by military doctors! sjdjcjck the army has been giving additional support for hospitals in my city#bc of the floods some health units are currently closed and demand got higher so they needed extra support there#so an army doctor performed my surgery(inside an army tent no less ajfjjfkf maybe not ideal but. functional)#he was so nice?? like probably the calmest most careful doctor I've ever been treated by#I still had a bit of a nervous breakdown again after the surgery but that was bc I'd never been through something like that before#I got anesthesia obvs but I still felt the tug when he cut into my skin to remove the piercing and did my stitches#so my mind started cooking up all these horrible scenarios of how everything could go wrong and I was gonna die#cried on the doctor's table. 👍🏻 awesome#but he and his assistant were super nice about it she even offered me a hug#but anyway in the end I finally calmed down and got some medication#now I'm all stitched up with my little bloated lip eating soup out of a straw 👍🏻 but I'm ALIVE and I'm just glad it's all over fjjvjkf#sleep.txt
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every now and then i get folks asking me "puff do you have any opinions on hazbin hotel"
and i know why they're asking because if there's any fandom that puts LO to shame, it's hazbin hotel / helluva boss and surely i must have some Very Strong Opinions(tm) about the show
but i seriously have never watched a single episode of that show and despite all the controversy and drama i've seen come from the discussion of both the show and its creator, the only thing that really bugs me out of the blue when i'm reminded HH exists are those exclusive playbills that people pre-ordered months ago and still haven't arrived
that is it, that is literally the extent of my engagement with the HH fandom, there will be no further questions about what i think regarding HH because i literally have no idea, they are best asked to whoever comes close to being the generic-puff equivalent of the HH fandom
#i'm not even gonna use the HH tags here because i don't want to invite the ire of anyone from that fandom#that's not an insult or anything i'm just not at all interested in the show so i'm subsequently not interested in the extended discourse#this is just me admitting that every couple months i remember the playbill thing#and then i google “hazbin hotel playbills” to see if the playbill saga has concluded#it apparently still hasn't and the longer it goes on the funnier it gets#but i'm also not anyone with money and wasted time on the line so i don't want to be a dick about it lmao#like this is a very sucky situation and i'm sorry to those who are involved in it#this is very similar to the Fallout76 rum bottle debacle#where the developers promised a Fallout-brand bottle of rum that was clearly going to be made of glass#and then when people finally got it it was just a bottle of shitty rum stored inside a cheap plastic shell case#i hope the wait is worth it for ppl who pre-ordered the playbill but also who the fuck keeps fans waiting MONTHS for a PAMPHLET ??? 😆#it's so funny i'm sorry lmaooo
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#fucks me up that there are two whole new animals in the house that i barely know#who depend on me for everything#barely recognize me as a friend or helper#and are so incredibly incredibly fragile#i got worried for junie today because her spay incision had some swelling#and it's normal to have some and i have seen it before#but after what we just wemt through i got upset and rushed her to the vet#who said it was fine and thankfully we have free office visits#but i was so upset even though i knew it was probably normal#i look at them and i see adorable cuddly sweet TEMPORARY things and i feel like something inside me got broken somehow#and i was right all along that after it was all over i would come back but not quite as myself#i just hadn't fully understood the extent#we are keeping them and it sort of had to happen when it did but i think it was too early for me#they are so cute and when they do cuddle it's so sweet and obviously i would fight for them as hard as i would for Fancy#because that's just how the deal works and it isn't about you at all it's about how they each carry a little world inside them just as we d#and that deserves equal respect and care regardless of my personal affections#but i look at them and i see little creatures that don't belong here and are foreign in some fundamental way#and that they will be gone in just a little while and things will go back to how they were#which is impossible#we will settle in and i doubt anything i am feeling is abnormal but I'm really struggling and i feel so bad about that#i don't know#it's just a lot to deal with#and i feel very lonely and sad about it#and under it all the sick feeling of having JUST held all three lads as they passed and the VISCERAL reality of it#and knowing one day if everything goes just right i will be holding them too#dear god life is so fragile and every living thing is just as mortal as any other
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The hardest thing for me as a writer is being my own boss.
I need to set my own deadlines, arrange my schedule, scold myself if I fail to follow the schedule, all while writing and planning a story that I'm terrified I'll never finish.
#there's also the fear that I'll never be a good enough writer#because I'm a slow writer#I have plenty of stories trapped inside my head#But this lifetime is not enough to write them all#original fiction writers#writblr#writers on tumblr#writer stuff#writing#writerscommunity#writer problems#writerblr#writers#writeblr#book writing#who needs therapy when you can write#except I can't even do that ugh
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cold fruit in a hot kitchen (so i had this great watermelon last weekend)
#so I had this great watermelon last weekend. and the thing is it probably wasn't even that great of a watermelon#but I was four hours into an eight hour shift and we had thrown out all the watermelon salad because no one was eating it#and then our manager ran in and yelled that the client really fucking wanted watermelon salad.#so like six of us servers started frantically chopping watermelon. and the kitchen got really hot#in the way it does when everyone inside it is really stressed because there's no fucking watermelon salad#and after we chopped all the watermelon and the client got their fucking watermelon we all had a moment#where we looked at the remaining watermelon and we were so hot and cocktail hour was almost over anyway and the salads were all plated#and we all went for the watermelon and we ate it with the kind of rabid intensity you only get while eating cold watermelon in a hot kitche#and it was the best watermelon I have ever tasted and several days later i am still chasing the high of that fucking watermelon#and the thing is i know it isn't even the watermelon i'm actually missing#it's the feeling of cool liquid on hot skin and the feeling of a crisis averted and the feeling of camaraderie#that comes with devouring a watermelon in a hot kitchen with six other people who you have nothing in common with except that watermelon.#i don't dream of labor but i am dreaming now of being 4 hours into an eight hour shift eating watermelon in a hot kitchen.#i dream of laughing around the cold fruit in my mouth. I crave that watermelon like i'll die without it.#< honest to god this is real and that watermelon left such an impact on me that i had to draw it and write this. having a normal one#maybe this is insane but working in a team of people you truly like to do something you actually enjoy is so underrated#if only they fucking paid me i could work as a server for the rest of my life. unironically#skribbles
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Btw I loved krypto the superdog animation and the hyenas with bathound where, unsurprisingly, my favorites
#batman#dc#ace the bathound#bud and lou#dc joker#super pets#the concept of the animal companions having a paralel adventure to their humans is something i really loved when a kid. barbie movies like#bruce 🤝 joker (having to walk the pets late evening bc it's easy to recognize them at broad daylight)#me battling inside to decide if bud & lou are albino like my beloved 2004 version or just 'standart' hyena colors#i would find funny if right after this joker and bruce make a silent pact to pretend they didn't recognise each other driving the hyenas an#dog insane to the tension of. wanting to bite each others to try and be civil to not 'blow cover'#btw THERE IS A SUPERPETS MOVIE AND FUCKING LEX LUTHOR EQUIVALET IS A TEST GUINEA PIG THAT WAS DELUSIONAL WITH HER AND HIS RELATION#HELLO I'M GONNA HUNT IT DOWN IT LOOKS SO STYLIZED TOO#DC comics
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Really fucked up that two ppl can care about each other and make their best efforts to communicate and still end up hurting each other so badly they cannot stand to be in the same room.
#my stuff#i feel soooo bad talking to my therapist about the same topics over multiple weeks#like i feel like they're sooo sick of it like damn can this bitch get Over It alreadyyyy#hi yes actually can we talk about the near catastrophic sense of betrayal and loss that has haunted my soul for over a month?#can we talk about how I overcompensate for other's possible feelings and emotions to desperately mask my terror at feeling out of control#can we talk about how even when I know ppl acted with logical reasons necessary for their situation it still hurt me?#and that this pain fills me up with so much anger and frustration that I'm powerless to put anywhere that won't hurt someone#so it just cooks me inside and makes me grind my teeth constantly for weeks#im so angry i did not deserve to be treated like this it's not fair and I have no capacity to fix it or control when it feels better#i just have to survive and wait until i forget about it and hope they don't decide to reach out and fuck it all up#cause i can see that happening#i'll finally be free of thinking about them and generally going about my day unbothered and they'll ask to get coffee or something#and I have no idea what I should do in that scenario. because I don't think we can be friends.#and you have not treated me with the compassion and warmth I treated you#i would want to say mean things. hurtful things. I would want to bite back for once.#and that's not me. that's not who I want to be.#i don't wanna see you. go away. don't talk to me if you're not going to make the pain go away.
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regrettably, neither is them being even a little bit ironic
#star wars#jango fett#zam wesell#there are many possible interpretations of their canon relationship and i'm fond of several of them#recently i've been gravitating towards the idea that like. this is all basically an inside joke to them. a bit.#bc like. listen. the banter follows a certain pattern. zam will almost always be the one to initiate flirting/innuendo#and then jango will sometimes play along for a bit but always ultimately rejects her. often with hilarious verbal brutality#and zam is always completely unbothered and often amused#your honor they are Doing A Bit#sometimes though i figure they forget what it looks like to other people#and they are genuinely surprised and weirded out when someone sees their outrageous flirting and assumes they're an item#they're like ''you didn't even let us get to the part where he compares me to a bothawui stinkweed and i swoon away dead in his arms. GOD!!#syn's art
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