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iftitah · 1 year ago

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august '2023 im so glad this month is over

#the sunsets the breakdowns the sleepless nights and mornings the headaches the grind the worst exams ive ever given #the im going insane so im taking a walk from my room to mess the looking worst the getting pimples the hairfall #the ignoring people the becoming introvert i always hatedv #him and his silly jokes the wearing literally my brother's tshirt and him telling i look hot the sobs on call and the kisses and him #4/9 #im not posting my gallery only and only filled with assignments and notes and graphs and dissection videos and diagrams and organs #even though that what august really was

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shroomerr · 8 days ago

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HAPPY NEW YEAR !!! here's some of my fave/most popular art I did in 2024 <3

#shroomer talks !#the last one is blurred because its spoilers #i wanted to finish it so badly before the end of the year but alas... i have a job #hopefully will be able to finish it tomorrow or the day after #anyways!! what a good run this year has been!!#its so funny most of these pieces were done in the last few months lol i did not like any of my drawings or even had any finished pre-augus #and then boom. south park happened.#and suddenly i was rejuvenated. like a fish in water #if ill be honest with you guys ive had some of the worst art block for last few years/been so incredibly unsatisfied with my art #and its only been since august where ive finally started becoming a bit more ok with the work ive produced #i dont necessarily think ive made anything that could be a magnum opus or whatever. i dont even think i can really go:#“yea. i did that. hell yea. this is amazing”#its more like a “yea. im starting to see growth. im going somewhere. i think.”#but thats way better than what it was before where i just straight up hated my art lol #i still kinda do hate it though but its starting to be less #or at the very least its in a more positive direction where im thinking “ok i hate it but im gonna try and learn from this”#anyways thanks all of you for sticking around with little old me <3 #MORE SOUTH PARK CONTENT TO COME IN 2025!!#youre not getting rid of me that easily #south park #splatoon

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meowsticmarvels · 6 days ago

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the concept of delta engineering the decision game so he and phi can be born is kinda funny he's like ok so i have to worsen my parents' existing ptsd so me and my Stupid ass sister I Guess will be born witj magic powers and shes also gonna have worsened ptsd as a result. this is a Necessary evil Life is Simply Unfair :/

#zero escape #ztd #zero time dilemma #ztd spoilers #zero escape delta #zero escape phi #this is a draft i had from like. august i need to post more of my drafts i kinda cooked?#but fucking help me. its so funny #like i know he has to do it but based on how he and phi interact i know he does not give a shit about her #in the last few minutes of ztd they HAAATE eachother in response to phi being pissed about being used for this whole thing he literally is #like 'does that make you angry #in the most condescending tone ever #like Are you mad? Are you seething? You have fallen into my trap dear sister #being real + unrelated to post: i kinda wish they had more of an actual dynamic/some interaction. or like delta had more of An Opinion on #phi rather than just He dgaf. like bestie she's patient zero for YOUR virus. and he's also the guy who started a cult with clones of his #dead adoptive brother out of grief. you would think that guy would care a little more about having a secret long lost twin sister #even if he just fucking hated her and had beef with her i think that would be more interesting. and really funny. or maybe he pities her #but no his characterization is just Evil Complex Motives Old Guy. whereee is the moral greyness of zero like sigma or akane.....#on the topic of him singling out phi though for the line i mentioned i wanna say towards everyone else he responds normally to her he's jus #Interesting. Does that make you angry? Are you upset with how your life has been toyed with? Are you? and shes just like . what #anyways. sorry for rambling in the tags i just think delta and phis sibling dynamic could have been interesting but also REALLY funny #trevor.txt

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housederiva · 6 months ago

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You know my life loves to orbit around inconveniences and I think it would be so funny if Veilguard was released on September 13th because that’s my brother’s wedding which I’m being forced to go to (I don’t like my brother and have no desire to go)

#I’m in the middle of my 20s my mother is still forcing me to do shit wow that’s kind of sad of me #ugh I just wanna know when it comes out #I also don’t want it on the third of September because that’s when I have to fly back to the states never to return to where I am now #September still count as summer doesn’t it???#Ideally for me it’s August 21st but that’s a month away and there’s no way they’re doing that #The 21st is also the 10 year anniversary of Inquisition #Which would be fun #ugh this sucks I wanted it to be before I have to move back in with other people #Selfishly I wanted after October 24th because that’s what my Visa expires #Even though I’ll already be in the states for several months at that point #it would make the move hurt less #sorry guys I’m rambling I’m sad right now #I really don’t want move back #Like it was rainy all day here and it was wonderful #You know what the weather was like in California? Over 100 fucking degrees fahrenheit #I’m going to be miserable #sorry sorry!! thank you if you read these tags

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shizukais · 2 years ago

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#anime #manga #vanitas no carte #vnc #the case study of vanitas #lord ruthven #august ruthven #hear me out ! ruthven is one of the most intriguing characters to me #despite being portrayed as an antagonist i can't really see him completely fitting into that role / ruthven's actions are ambiguous #yea yeah he's a manipulative mf and is doing bad things now but i don't think that's what it's all about #i believe ruthven is being controlled by something (?) through his right eye and has no much choice in that matter #in the scene where ruthven tried to put a curse on chloe he looks almost shocked when he realizes what he was doing #he also spoke to someone who wasn't there and it seemed to be an act of desperation / even though the war was already over (?) by that time #the eye shows him terrible things ever since the war (and the betrayal that i'm not sure if really happened or was staged to trick him)#i think the continuous trauma the eye causes on him shaped him to be a colder and more cruel person #the opposite of what his original self showed to be (someone more like noe in beliefs and world view)#i guess he truly believes he's doing this for the sake of vampires / that idea of “sacrifices will be necessary for the greater good”#this could explain the alliance w charlatan who seeks to find a way to create more vampires (moreau's research) & rewrite the world formula #also it's clear that ruthven has a distorted view of vampire's malnomen (what caused that? what he saw in the war?)#both for his speech referring to luca's brother “salvation takes many forms (...)” and for the way he uses his own curse on others #until now we know he cursed queen faustina / jeanne / noe (i doubt he would betray the queen without a reason)#maybe his right eye is a malnomen he considers now as a form of freedom / or maybe that allowed him to finally see the “truth”#and yet i think his character is constantly questioning himself about it (in a very sutil way)#(e.g. when he listens noe talk about his ideals / when he sees jeanne dressed like a normal girl after her date)#in these moments we can see him falter a little bit and his expression changes to something more soft and genuine / introspective and sad #the curse he put on noe i think it has more than 1 purpose: 1)trump card against teacher 2)to not kill noe as monsieur spider had demanded #at first i thought it might be for naenia get noe's true name but if that were the case she would have done it by now #and in that moment naenia regained her form for a brief moment in d'apchier mansion and everyone felt her presence #ruthven looked equally surprised so he must not know naenia's true identity either (is he being used?)#lol i could write an essay about vnc... so many tags... lol sry i got carried away!

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netherdevil · 5 months ago

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unnormal vivilly dweller thoughts in my head

#“I'm right next to you” are we about to kiss. are you trying to kiss me right neow #i hate the chase sequence part (corny and unoriginal) but everything else is so perfect #hEeEeLP MEeEeEE #i fuckign love vivilly anyway but i think the vivilly dweller is what Really did it fr me #SERIOUSLY THOUGJ WHAT THE FUCK #i would make a palpers dweller but i dont think my computer can with how shit it is rn #like i definitely will at some point (unless someone beats me to it) but i just can't rn 😭#i csnt wait for august viv face reveal guys!!!! YAY!!!! idc what he looks like he will always be so splinkoid #plus whatever characteristics he has i can kinda just add on to my design to him behind his mask #i color his skin as dark grey just for his mc skin but seeing his snapchat n stuff makes me wanna show him off as rhe eyeblinding man he is #or not! who knows . i have a tendency to do whatever #okay speakijg of his face reveal #i have something i want to explain to the wall #a part of me is hoping he isnt generic conventionally attractive guy 38495839488 #the rest of me is neutral because idrc #the reason why is most likely because i would feel a deeper connection to him if we shared similar facial features #it's a good reason i think? but still weird to have because i shouldnt really care what he looks like at all #idk what to expect really but i guess i should be open minded abt it #I JUST. a lot of how i perceive him is through his mc character #that played a big part in how i grew to like him so much #but he ISN'T emo hoodie minecraft shyguy!!!#however i can still enjoy the 'persona' he has online. chill sarcastic insane funny blocky shyguy who does a little (A LOT OF) trolling #anyway back to what i was saying #hope bro isn't majestic as fuck irl #IF IT'S ANYTHING LIKE DREAM I'M GOING TO CRY #DREAM IS MAJESTIC AS FUCK I CANT EVEN WITH THAT MAN #i will be supportive anyway ofc because 1) i dont care even though i just proved that i do 2) i can separate persona from irl person 3)...U #IM SO NORMAL #also we're not goijg toctalkcabou t the dream thing. if youre my irl yoy didnt aee this (PLEASE DONT UNFRIEND ME OELASE #DONT LEAVE JUST FORGER Iなはoops didnt mean to type thatSAID THAT OKAY

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quietlyblooms · 4 days ago

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so i'm definitely going to work on that headcanon meme bc it's time to yap about chiyo, and after that i might start writing out chiyo's a.rcane verse? at least a rough outline if not a lil blurb to give a feel for the verse as i tend to do. i'm also gonna casually rewatch a.rcane to see which characters really jump out at me, but if anyone has a preference for who they'd like to see me write, pls let me know!! i'm gonna add anyone i decide to pick up to @tvrningout as test muses and go from there. so altogether!! i have three tasks i wanna work on tonight, and hopefully i can actually get them all done!

#i'm confident that i can though the rewatch will take more time #really it's the first two tasks that i wanna get done and then hopefully move on to replies and other owed asks #maybe purging my inbox bc uhhhhh you don't wanna know what i got in there ( stuff all the way from august yikessss )#but yeah if i'm really into arcane rn i might as well lean into it instead of resisting it bc honestly!! i need to stop holding back #just bc i'm scared of getting into fandoms #yeah i've had some bad experiences but i've had good ones too and even if it's a small group of people who write with my oc #i would much rather have that than a huge group who don't actually care about her you know?#like it truly is about finding that circle of people who want to hear all your headcanons and share their ideas with you too #anyway asdfg i didn't mean to ramble this much in the tags :' ))#but yeah <3 i'll be around and focused on getting a few things done <3 #i keep forgetting to check on messages but i'll do that either tonight or tomorrow depending on how things go!#get ready to ramble | ooc

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viktortittiforov · 15 days ago

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i don't have TV but i am so dedicated to watching pelíšky at christmas that i'm just gonna go ahead and fire up netflix so i can watch it on there

#please watch it it's really good lmfao #it's called cosy dens in english #iconic christmas movie even though it's barely christmassy. like the only christmassy thing abt it is that #the plot begins at christmas. lol #anyways i am also critical of it as it's kinda one of those films that's like 'look how HORRIBLE communism was'#as are most films where august 1968 is a big plot point....... looking at you rebelové #but like yeah august 1968 is a collective trauma event so i can understand why these films take that approach to the old regime #even if i don't think the approach is entirely accurate and influences the collective memory of the regime quite significantly #anyway the film is also pretty good in some aspects. idk i think it'd a good critique of certain flavors of masculinity #even though that's most likely not what the film intended to do #anyway rant over pls watch pelíšky but do it with a critical eye #neptalks

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straylaughs · 4 months ago

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also sorry for disappearing so much i think i ended up losing all my interests all at once so im in this weird limbo state of trying to keep them while trying desperately to find something new to keep me from spiralling

#august was a weird month #trying to get used to the fact that im working 10am to 6pm everyday #and just so much else going on #im trying to keep up with genshin but i just can't enjoy natlan wholeheartedly #dorman port and the next dain quest wont be released for months so.#i also just get so tired when i get home so i barely feel like watching anything ;;#i Will finish nana before this year ends though #i also think my happiness will increase tenfold whenever skz decide to drop their second skz replay album #not being able to add volcano wsb 12345 maybe and 13 into my regular playlists has been detrimental #i also just feel too tired to even open up any app lmao #like instagram just sucks to use and not even tumblr's doing it for me now #so it'd be the perfect time to start drawing again but i cant even get myself to do anything #even though i have things that are still unfinished #i can't tell if im getting depressed again or what but man i really dont want to go through a repeat of march/april #anyways thats enough of oversharing

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mitamicah · 7 months ago

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#I have thoughts about the new tour yet I am not sure if I should share (given why I do so in tags)#I am not surprised to see denmark is absent #I am a bit surprised to see no scandinavian country AT ALL #not surprised to see germany and the uk have most dates (that's sadly something I've seen a lot from bands/artists I like)#a little befundled with the route he has scheduled for both germany and the uk dates #glad to see other countries like switzerland france and the netherlands get their debut #not surprised it is in october since that seems to be around the same time for his europe antics last year as well #all this said I am a bit conflicted what to do myself #I'd like to go to gigs on this tour #yet I've already run out of the country four times these past upcoming five months (three times to finland)#since it is quite expensive and maybe not something I will have time for given I hopefully get an internship in august #with that in mind I feel like I should probably go for only a few dates #and yet last time I felt very much like I was missing out and overlooked because I didn't go to “more than two shows”#and here is where I feel like my thoughts are probably not great #i was thinking about maybe going for hamburg as first priority since it is the closest (4 hours in train)#then have frankfurt and munich as second priorities making it a little mini tour #I am not sure if I'd physically and mentally be able to do more than three gigs in a row #yet if I am I sort of want to go to zurich too because I've never been there #two days to decide is not very long #I feel very stressed tbh #and I hope noone will take this in any wrong way #please I really dont want to feel shit again #I know my last concert related take was on the fence #(even though as it turned out the venue did worse than me in that regard)#but this one is really just me thinking about what would be the smartest plan #other possible options would be to go for zurich since it is in a weekend (sunday) and then - depending on whether or not I have work #either go home or follow jere to amsterdam (then maybe paris and brussels)#another option is berlin then hamburg and then to home from there (so two shows)#or london and bristol since its the weekend (maybe manchester as well if it is not far - so up to three shows)#the latter I am a bit concerned about since being trans in the uk is not great atm

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supercantaloupe · 1 year ago

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genuinely except for maybe a passing interest in seeing camelot (which is closing too soon for me to do anything about anyway) i haven't wanted to actually Go To New York to see smth on broadway since the music man. i am going to do everything in my power however to go see this cabaret tho

#i still think it would be most at home in the cits but it's at the august wilson. oh well i'm gonna salivate over it anyway #OMG and it'll be almost exactly ten years since i first saw it on broadway with the last revival too. meant to be #sasha speaks #anyway i don't even think camelot is a great show but that's mostly from a book side of things #and i'm still very curious what changes they made to the book with this production #plus i just really like what bartlett sher and lincoln center theater are doing in general with these classic revivals #never got to see it though. alas...#maybe it'll tour...the cast won't be as star studded but if i can see it then i'll see it #and yeah 1776 and sweeney both looked interesting too but those weren't anything i couldn't wait to see #1776 i just caught on tour anyway and sweeney will tour within the next two uears so whatever #i guess parade looks interesting but honestly i think i'd only go if i was already in the city. i wouldn't plan a whole trip around it #the last show i caught in nyc was fiddler in yiddish which was great but also It's Fiddler and that was off broadway #actual proper broadway i haven't been interested in since the music man lol #(i did also see six but that was more for my mom than anything else. i thought it was Fine.)

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fierykitten2 · 1 year ago

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Apparently Help Wanted 2 comes out on the 14th. Now if only there had been some actual promotion for The Indigo Disk, I would’ve suggested a Barbenheimer-style fandom crossover thing

Instead, can I turn your attention to the fact that F-Zero 99 was shadowdropped the day after The Teal Mask released?

#ooh using Game Freak’s absence of promotion to justify my preferred crossover being better than the one where the release is identical #even though I’ve just been generally more excited for The Indigo Disk from the start and still am #that was mean #but seriously it’s less than 2 weeks away and we haven’t heard any new information since early August #Pokémon x FNaF x F-Zero #yes okay I seem to have forgotten about the demo version thing that happened #but that only really confirmed that the area is pretty #what I want to know is what do Dino Entei and Robo Terrakion look like?#also you should know whatever I want to have as a Pokémon x F-Zero crossover isn’t even directly Teal Mask-related #it’s literally just the Future Paradox Pokémon up to and including Iron Leaves racing in the F-Zero Grand Prix #(Iron Crown and Robo Terrakion are from The Indigo Disk so they’re automatically excluded)

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dadbots · 1 year ago

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August… time to get spooky.

#dadbots.txt #this has been in my draft for... almost a month. Yikes.#I’ve been dissociating hella hard these past months or something. swear I don’t remember time moving this fast. maybe it’s just me tbh.#idk what to say about July other than… boring? not much happened and I don’t really remember it if I’m honest. just. mm. shrugs.#best way to describe it LOL #been sleeping a LOT lately and I think it’s fatigue again. was it like anything before? no. not at that rate (yet) but just.#where you wanna sleep and sleep and sleep type of fatigue. you never feel rested and just gotta sleep it off kinda.#just one of those moments yknow.#it sucks. all I’m doing is letting the days pass me by and ‘missing out’ on living life when I could be enjoying it. but I lost interest -#- in doing so for months - years now due to personal health matters. And whaddya know - it came back again. after months of healing.#I'm pretty pissed as it does feel like a slap in the face. but you win some - you lose some. Gonna try and fight through it.#I wrote something at the beginning of august but that got deleted. Had a breakdown and thought huh. what a great way to start the month -#and now it's almost september. Just like that. What a month it's been. Stuck on what else to say but that really.#don't want to keep talking about depressing stuff as that's what i used to do and realized hey. maybe you should stop doing that so often #and not use it so casually in humor and/or stuff. Even though I reblog vents here n' all. but yknow.#maybe it is hypocritical. but that's not the point. Just want to reflect and see if i've changed since coming back to the web after a year.#not like it's going bad. just wished this year was a bit more optimistic. Last year was rough & i'm afraid this year will be another repeat #though I did come out to a family member this month and that was like a punch to the gut. Considering my status with them and all.#won't get into that. for now let's just say i'm not too close with them. An impulsive choice on my end but hey. it went well.#and that's what matters tbh. My younger self would've thought i was actually insane. like to even DO that? really?#shocking. I'm still not over that moment. Probably one of my biggest achievements this year.#I'll update this if anything else comes to mind. none of this make sense and that's ok. clearing my mind right now.#let's see what september has in store for me. Hopefully it'll get better as things slow down w/ winter on its way.#hope y'all enjoyed your summer. 🖤🤘🏽

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pepprs · 2 years ago

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#to translate this post: someone liked this post i made (on the upper left) on AUGUST 28 having a moment of self awareness that i was running #away from my whole life and not moving or learni ng to drive or anything. it is now march 8. it has been almost 7 months. and i have made #basically zero progress. and there is nothing stopping me but me. i could read the drivers manual and whatever whenever i want. but i am not #doing anything. and i don’t know how to get myself to start.#purrs #i know it’s a cop out excuse but i truly do think it’s covid. i think being in lockdown for a year and a half made me just let go of any #sense of progress. made me scared to take steps forward. and i mean i did bc i lived on campus for a while after that but it’s like.. EVERY #part of my life is stagnant rn it seems. and it’s not just me it’s my siblings too. we’re all getting older but none of us is trying to move #out or gain our independence in any way and my brother isn’t even looking for jobs even though he needs one. we’re all just getting older #but we’ve lost (or maybe had knocked out of us by covid and our mom being so strict) any sense of moving ipward and spreading our wings.#forgotten we have wings at all. and ive done important things like going on a house tour or traveling with my besties (<3). but i have only #made it to page 8 of the drivers manual and i truly do not want to read the rest of it. i have only been on one house tour and im longing to #move out but how much am i really because i can’t bring myself to schedule another tour and start searching for a new home in earnest.#i just come home every day UTTERLY exhausted and spend all my free time trying to process or rest. and im not making room for myself to use #my wings. and it’s truly terrible. why are we all okay with living like this. my younger self would be HORRIFIED if she saw how much i had a #atrophied since graduating and moving back home. my brighton self would be HORRIFIED. i told myself i wouldn’t and then it’s exactly what i #did. and ik im being harsh and ive spread my wings in some important ways during this time but… these are so obvious. such low hanging #fruit in some ways. bc any 16 year old can take this test and pass it so why can’t i at 24? why won’t i let myself? dont i want a nice cozy #home i make my own where i can eat what i want and sleep when i want and have control over sounds? then why am i not running for it?#delete later #i am wasting my youth i am wasting my youth i am wasting my youth 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 my one precious life 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃#also LMFAOOOOO the next tag on that aug 28 post was that i need to get a new campus id card… guess who hasn’t done that either ♥️

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variantoutcast · 2 years ago

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Not sure how to insert a read more on mobile so this post about my personal experiences with transphobia and ableisn will be in the tags only 👍

#there was this teacher in middle school who I had for two days due to like a station rotation activity with my actual teacher #and when i was in middle school i mostly passed as a boy #but im afab and was just using she her pronouns. essentially presenting myself to the world as a gender nonconforming cis girl.#i was aware and comfortable with the fact that my gender was more fucked up than that but i wasnt out for a variety of reasons anyways #i digress #this teacher refused to call me by my name (the name my parents gave me. on my birth certificate) or use she/her pronouns for me #she called me he and it and told me i wasn't fooling anyone with this nonsense #multiple students - one of which consistently bullied me - corrected her on my gender and pronouns and she wouldn't listen #she even complained to my actual teacher in front of me and referred to me as 'that thing'#and this was humiliating and it was scary but more than anything it was exhausting bc by this point I was very accustomed #to being misgendered and dehumanized by my peers it didnt even strike me as particularly concerning that this person in authority was #so blatantly bent on this path #and to be fair i was dehumanized by other people in authority but usually for my autism not my gender. that was more my peers #anyways. i just found she died last August #and I'm like really struggling with feelings of guilt because I'm honestly a little glad she's dear #dead*#even though I only had those few interactions with her #anyways #i was in the same year as her grandaughter. and i know what its like to lose a family member you love #who is deeply flawed #and i know she was important to a lot of disadvantaged kids #whatever. it doesn't matter really how I feel. it's not like I have to talk to anybody who knew her ever again #tw ableism #tw transphobia #if you read all that you deserve some kind of award

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ay-miphae · 1 month ago

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Oh yeah it definitely felt drier than usual this year, this doesn't surprise me. @enbymetalhead and @lightineventide found that the "microgenres" were picked from user playlists, ie if a lot of your songs are found on user playlists with the words "pink" "pilates" "princess" well... that's where it comes from. Still AI to an extent, and it definitely would have been much better if there were more curators who cared about music.

Also I've been keeping up with my last.fm and a lot of the songs in my top 100 are just ...not accurate?? They're all songs I like at least, but having looked at my stats I have absolutely no idea what it counts as being "most played" (there's lots that didn't show up at all that should have been well within my top 50 and vice versa)

im genuinely convinced that they used ai for the monthly thing on spotify wrapped. what do you mean may was my "coastal grandmother ukulele oldies" phase. august was "pink pilates princess strut pop??" no one would say that september was my "sweater weather permanent wave indie" moment. no way we waited so long for this. multiple people and i also noticed that it took a few seconds longer than usual to load, maybe im just impatient but i wouldnt be surprised if that was ai preparing like all of it as i clicked through. spotify has been using a lot of ai lately with the playlist making, dj, playlist cover designer and now whatever this ai podcast thing is.

#but yeah the gen ai on spotify is getting really annoying :(#i will complain about the forced shuffle on free spotify forever THAT'S NOT HOW YOU'RE MEANT TO LISTEN TO MUSIC!!!!!!#i will listen to full albums as arjen intended and not what the magical algorithm wants me to listen to <3 #thinking about investing in something other than a streaming service bc spotify has kind of lost its charm #also last.fm does a yearly recap and i found it super interesting last year - they collect data up through the end of december too #complaining aside wrapped day is still fun and i love pointless data of all kinds #idk though “time travel rhythm game progressive metal” is objectively pretty funny still #lastfmstats.com and several discord bots are great if you can't get enough of pointless stats (me)#oh also funny is how i got kpop as my august “genre” even though that was an extremely metal-dominated month as always #didn't mind that as much though lmao bc it's my friend's favorite and our month genres were in antiparallel alksfdj

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