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Tonight at dinner I found myself giving a genealogy of why my family is the way it is and I am once again sad that I don't speak creole or have a stronger connection with Guadeloupean culture
I dunno that this is ever going away tbh
#Matt has a life#Shit from home#unless I finally find a Guadeloupe créole tutor and learn it#even if I never speak it with anybody
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I’m still so mentally ill over the whole Luffy refusing to eat unless it’s Sanji’s food thing. Like. We KNOW how fucking feral over food Luffy is. He loves food and loves eating so much that he steals it off other people’s plates and out of their hands and is so impatient when it comes to meals that he’ll literally try and sneak into the kitchen to mooch before it’s ready. Or he’ll try to break into the refrigerator. I know Sanji mentioned putting a lock on it at some point bc Luffy literally wiped it clean. He will not hesitate to eat other people’s portions or literally an entire meal meant for a whole ship of people! He’s unbelievably selfish when it comes to food and that’s just SUCH a central part of his character that it’s become almost endearing. Even in Totto Land Luffy didn’t think for a second before devouring everything in sight, including an entire fucking HOUSE, regardless of the consequences or the people it might affect. Homie did not care!! He’s food driven first and foremost!!!
Until Sanji leaves him. Until he decides that eating—something that he loves and brings him comfort—isn’t WORTH it unless it’s Sanji’s food he’s eating. It’s been shown that Luffy has zero self restraint when it comes to food so the fact that he was SURROUNDED by food on all sides on a food themed island and utterly refused to partake in any of that? Even though he hates being hungry and will always make eating a priority over pretty much anything else?? The amount of willpower it must have taken for him to sit there and purposefully let himself starve, for SANJI. Even when food was offered to him conveniently (in the form of syrup rain) he stubbornly rejected that. Because it wasn’t Sanji’s food. Because it wasn’t Sanji who made it, who always puts so much thought and care into the food he makes, who always indulges Luffy and prepares extra because he knows how much Luffy eats and how much he loves to eat. Luffy literally took one of the most defining traits he has and tossed it out the window. For Sanji. I’m going to fucking blow up
#RAGHHH. RAGHHHHHH#One Piece#Sanlu#Lusan#Sanji#Luffy#WCI#Whole Cake Island#Shima speaks#I just can’t get over it. I’ll never get over it actually.#Luffy refusing food. Bc he wants Sanji more. Bc he CARES about Sanji more#HE REALLY SAID ‘Guess I’ll die ¯\_(ツ)_/¯’#This isn’t even half of it. This doesn’t even tie into the whole ‘I can’t become King of the Pirates without you’ line#Luffy really looked at his utmost goal (becoming Pirate King) and his favorite thing in the world (food) and said#’Without Sanji it’s not worth it. I don’t want it’#SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP#He’s never done that for anybody else. I am just SAYING. JUST SAYING!!!!!!#Usopp jokingly: What do you want more the One Piece or Sanji#Luffy without a moment of hesitation: Sanji#Usopp: Haha see I—oh. Oh???#Usopp: Was NOT expecting that tbh.#Luffy: I’ll pick Sanji over food or the One Piece every time :)#Sanji: 😳😳😳😭😭😭#GIGGLING INSANELY. I CANNOT BELIEVE THEM
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✨ Star Friends ✨
When I found out that @chessman-protocol boy Crit liked Astronomy, let’s just say I was beyond estatic and immediately planned this little comic. Here’s to my boy Vincent doing his best to make friends with folks who share similar interests 😅💙
Funny enough, I didn’t realize I put this in Vincent character’s until I looked at the whole thing, but Vincent very much shares the lack of stranger danger the way I did/ I do to this day. To quote one of my past managers I’m “abnormally friendly” or whatever
I can’t tell you how many times even as a small child (drove my parents nuts) that I saw a cool person with whatever connecting factor and I just straight up walked to them and was like “Ok cool. We’re friends now.” And nobody’s really stopped me? So apparently I have friends now. 😆
Vincent however is just a wholesome baby boy who doesn’t realize he’s actually an intimidating hunk of a turtle and randomly walking up to strangers and not saying anything can be taken the wrong way.
Like I said, he’s trying his best. He wasn’t exactly the most socialized if you can’t tell, but he does love dearly and is certainly a boone of a friend to have once you get past the inevitable social awkwardness. He’s loyal to put because he really doesn’t know better, and I adore him for that. Anyway, dunno if Crit knows any ASL or not, but either way Vincent is just excited to meet somebody else who likes space ✨🌌 💙
#just being jayus#doing this ugly and scared#my boy <3#Vincent my beloved#rottmnt original character#rottmnt oc#original comic#rottmnt#save rottmnt#unpause rise of the tmnt#time to go feral in the comments again; please ignore the ramblings of an insane person#Fun fact: Vincent is mute (late mutation and didn’t fully develop vocal chords) and so he only speaks turtle and partial ASL#Morrocoy Tortoise AKA Yellow or Red Footed Tortoise bop their head to assert dominance and show emotions#Head hopping and headbutting is Vincent’s tic and you can tell how he’s feeling by how fast or slow he goes because it’s a VIBE#Working on this comic was like the preverbal attempt of taking a horse to water#except this horse is a pony (anything under 14 hands is of the devil) and would not even spare it a glance unless it was perfection#Alas mockery and spite is unfortunately my demise and I could not handle the blank page any longer#Can you see how my style changed when the focus and subject changed?😅#Forgive me my son#for I have not learned to draw you from all angles yet.#Why did I make you so pretty and detailed in my head and yet have my hand betray you?!#The true tragedy is when your idea level is not at your skill level bECaUsE I KnOw wHaT hEs SuPpOsEd To LoOk LiKe BuT I CaNt DrAw HiM yEt#So here we are and I am accutely aware of how much work there is to be done. I’m looking at you flippin turtle anatomy#But hey we all have to start somewhere#so here I am#I tried and by golly I will keep trying. Vincent deserves that much 😅🧡🫡#I just looked back at this and realized I MISSED A STINKING PANEL. And Vincent’s shirt.#Flips a table in my mind#Also I’ve never made a mute character before so if anybody has notes especially about ASL PLEASE PLEASE P L E A S E lemme know.#Wanna make sure I represent the peoples correctly 🫡🧡
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finished veilguard. i enjoyed it but it was also real bad. the highs were really high the lows extremely low. the only people they really made this game for was solavellans and it should've stayed as an ao3 fic
#sigh. anyway#to the fix its i go#honestly i think i wouldnt have had as much of a problem as i did if i was obsessed with some other faction that wasnt the crows#but they absolutely butchered them#lukas kristjanson.... why do u poison everything u touch.....#still LOVED lucanis and teia and viago tho and their potential will forever keep me up at night#+ i got lucky because i went into veilguard wanting to make a really purple rook so their characterization was real good to me#i will give the game a couple more runs probably#esp because. davrin's romance. duh.#AND i need to play as elio's twin to see what emmrich's romance is like#++ that ''secret ending''........................... what is it. it intrigues me#has anyone actually seen it?? the gaming guides i saw for getting it refuse to speak of it and i think it might be the achievement on steam#0% of players have gotten#sigh. whatever. im gonna go read eight little talons and the wigmakers job. maybe even replay origins to remember exactly what zevran#says abt the crows so i can make up my own thing from that#AND i will def be replaying inquisition. i better never hear anybody disrespect my girl like that ever again after this
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violentine literally has everything. tension to friends to lovers. i wall myself off from people to keep myself safe but theres something about you. we understand each other. going against your group to stand up for this person and what you believe is right. "i saw that you were in danger and i just acted without thinking". battle team. co leaders. "ive lost so many people and i cant lose you too i wont". struggling single parent finding someone who supports her And her kid. not-so-ex-girlfriend one of the main villains. go to war together. captured together. escape together but lost in the chaos and later reuniting. twice. fighting ex together. twice. making it back (mostly) safe and sound and building a real home worth fighting for together
BUT theyre in a choice game so you can also have: betrayal. manipulated by not-so-ex-girlfriend in a moment of severe weakness into agreeing with the wrong side. fighting against each other (and later apologizing). severe injury? DEATH?? no matter what a sacrifice is Made???
#clem looking for a home and finding one at ericsons. vi never seeing ericsons as a home and even wanting to leave until clem showed up 😭#clem wouldnt have even been ALLOWED to stay at ericsons post ep1 if not for violet sticking up for her throughout ep2#violets act of standing up for clem being the catalyst for her stepping into a leadership position. seeing her self confidence grow sm#clem already knowing how to lead. helping take some weight off violets shoulders. balancing the work of keeping everyone going#THEY ARE EACH OTHERS ROCKS!!!!!! AAAAHHH#star watching date making up their own constellations.......slow dancing.............#calling each other girlfriends....#4 kisses 🥺#3 way girlfriend smackdown sdfgsdg TWICE#they feed me so well#their ship name is also S tier what can i say but thats just bonus points#holds the mic out anybody got anything to add did i miss anything#these two inflict so many emotions upon me every time i replay they are everything 2 me#it speaks#twdg#violentine
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i feel a slight weirdness about the huge presence of maned wolves in furry spaces.. as in maned wolves are awesome and one of my favorites animals ever, and they look cool it makes sense why furries like them. but the same way maned wolves and also capybaras are so popular in english internet spaces in art and memes n shit i still feel weirdly defensive about them and somewhat sad that south american animals native from my home country are very appreciated but also it seems like the fact theyre south american is just glossed over and ignored. like does that make sense. that i feel kinda heart broken at seeing a white usamerican furry have a maned wolf fursona and see this animal im familiar with be turned into an American. does it make any sense that for some reason i gatekeep animals
#im not saying its problematic or i hate anybody who ever posted about maned wolves or capybaras ever#im more trying to understand my own feelings and why it upsets me even though its not a big deal#i mean i probably do the same i post about grey wolves and lions and lots of animals from other places im not familiar with#so it sounds hypocrite im defensive of ''my'' animals for some reason#guess i just generally feel very lonely in english speaking mostly usamerican internet spaces as always#a part of me gets represented but never really acknowledged. man i need to talk to more brazilians#🧃.txt
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havent been online much but i wanted to talk about a specific character that has been extremely mischaracterized and in my opinion deserves better
This guy
I think Volo is an unique character, pretty much misunderstood, but his personality/character is what makes him one of the best characters, i wouldnt count him as a villain even if he summoned Giratina, his pokemon team says otherwise as they require friendship and specific items in order to evolve them, i think this guy loves his pokemon, hell he would die for them.
What upsets me is how the fandom views him, he's portrayed as an evil creep who still wants to take over the world by defeating Arceus WHICH BY THE WAY is not true, he wanted a world with no pain and suffering, you cannot tell me he is just like Cyrus, those two have different goals and ideals, One wants to create a world with no pain, and the other wants to make a world in their own liking and vision, giving an example of the Distortion World as this is what Cyrus wanted exactly.
The other view of the fandom is portraying Volo as a p#dophile, shipping him with literal kids (Akari/Rei, Akari mostly) and treating it as if its nothing bad, we may not know the protagonists canonical age but can only accept/speculate that they are 15 from the PLA dialogues, but if the protagonists actually were adults then their models wouldnt look like they were still teenagers/kids, this is literal pedophilia right there and i dont think Volo would be interested in romance with kids (i headcanoned him as aroace/asexual cuz theres no way this guy would want to be with anybody)
Aside from Volo being the main antagonist/villain in PLA, i think it was stupid to make HIM of all people a villain, Hisui takes place hundreds years past where it was very difficult to survive, i dont knoe much about Japanese history so correct me on that one thank you. with these kinds of conditions i wouldnt even THINK about making this guy a villain, i bet he had a very rough past, how the hell can you make this guy a literal enemy, i may not be a professional writer but i do think it would be better to make Volo rather a good guy and actually want to help people not suffer, afterall the Ginkgo guild is all about selling things/helping people in need with resources they found (may be wrong on that but shut). Also i would portray Volo as an isolated guy, since he (POSSIBLY) had a traumatic past and he was all alone (we have no idea where his parents are/what happend to them), he might have been more distant with people but thanks to the Ginkgo Guild he was able to connect with other people bit by bit and socialize with them and stay positive to not make them feel bad.
(sometimes im wondering what kinda bullsh#t im writing but hey thats just my vision of this guy who i think deserves a lot better than just "haha im evil fear me and my gigantic worm")
#volo#pokemon volo#merchant volo#pokemon wielder volo#wielder volo#pokemon#theories and headcanons#how mischaracterization can ruin a character#welcome to “i hate the pokemon fandom pt. 48375838473773”#to be fair he would have been a better protagonist than Rei/Akari#if anything Rei and Akari would be like those silly siblings that would annoy anyone they like#INSTEAD of Giratina and Volo working together what if Giratina possessed Volo to gain revenge or smth#afterall Giratina is the opposite of Arceus. who knows maybe it can possess people#Listen listen. what if Volo was the one who collected the plates instead of Rei/Akari#Even though yes that will completely mess up the entire lore. i think that fits better#just so you know this is what I think of VOLO. yes i like to speak on my own behalf#i will defend this blonde looking single mom with his egg daughter no matter what#Cogita would be like a mentor/foster parent to Volo. their relationship is mixed but they get along#Never in my life will i think this guy will get in a relationship with anybody (we do not include my au)#WE ARE TALKING ABOUT THE CANON UNIVERSR RRA#I made this only because i love Volo and i will defend him 24/7#imma be honest but some of yall are disgusting when making art of him like fym he likes kids fym
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god help me i have made up a childhood friend and eventual boyfriend for a relatively minor character in a show nobody watches but SPECIFICALLY for that version of the character in my insane au. Exactly five of you will read the fic if I write it but oughhhhhhhhhhh i am tempted to write it
#ramblings#thought too hard about the aftermath of temporary (but long-term) curses in the foxtrap au and exploded a little bit#what if you got cursed when you were a little kid#but then it wore off#and you had to pretend like you were happy that suddenly everything you've ever known about yourself is different#you were *the same* as someone else#and now you're not#and you can't even understand it when he speaks in the language that was just for the two of you#and you drifted apart because being around him reminded you of everything you lost#because he's never going to lose it. he was made like this. you only got to taste it#when you look at him you miss yourself#and you can't get it back#so you stop talking to him. you say goodbye and you act like you're happy to have had your body stolen from you#and a decade later fate brings you back together#if literally anybody is interested in hearing about a bonkers oc drop me an inbox i need to talk about him more 👀
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one major difference i have found between service industry work (in my case food service but this is widely applicable to similar jobs) and other public-facing positions is that the job itself is often very similar because people is the same, it's just in service everyone approaches you already thinking they're right and you're a fucking idiot and its their god given right to disrespect you, where in other positions even if they are not nice to you they usually acknowledge that you know more than them on issues pertaining to your job. like the difference in behaviour from people who see you as serving them vs helping them is unreal. i am doing literally the exact same things. customer is always right mentality did irreparable damage to the fabric of society
#good idea generator#i loveee the library front desk everyone is polite and people will just ask you anything#they assume so much knowledge and access to data#ill be like 'just one moment let me look that up in the system' [googles name of school + upcoming events]#also not in a mean way but i never realized until i worked here how little anybody is googling anything#i think its funny and i also love to google things for people so i am perfectly suited to this#and some questions even though they are googleable the issue is more that the person isnt totally sure what theyre asking#but like. the library hours are visible on the home page. and outside the building that you just walked into on a sign#PPL DO NOT READ SIGNS. i knew that from other jobs but good lord people do NOT even GLANCE at signs#ppl would fully walk past like 4 signs about a specific thing and proceed to ask me a q about the thing. after waiting in a line#constantly CONSTANTLY ppl are trying to enter or exit through locked doors. clambering over closed signs to do so#its someones job when the library closes specifically to point out the signs and direct ppl to an open exit#and still often people will get up to the automatic doors and be baffled and confused as to why they dont open#but like even this i dealt w/this at my food service job and it was so frustrating#bc when you had to confront these people they would get MAD AT YOU. furious that they didnt read a sign telling them where to line up#but at the library people are polite and apologetic so you know it's not malice or entitlement ppl are just kind of inattentive#monumental difference tbh i actually love front counter so much people are so fun#and i like it when nobody is actively trying to kill me with their mind while we speak
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I still think the FUNNIEST thing I could do if I ever managed to write the stories in my brain, publish them, and get any kind of decent following would be to destroy the shipping gatekeepers by revealing that EVERY single one of the characters are aroace-spec. Every last one. In fact most of them are 100% hard-core aroace with no attraction to anyone else. That the ones who are into each other are each other's sole exceptions and they would never canonically be interested in any other person.
And, further, that outside of those sole exceptions they're all sex and romance repulsed.
I just think it would be hilarious to watch the "noooooo, you can't headcanon that character as aspec because they're TOTALLY [other identity that they headcanon instead regardless of actual canonical proof, including a lot of times where it's just subtext they interpreted as "totally proof of this one identity" but is actually a more general "Not Het" vibe that is shared across multiple identities]" crowd have a meltdown realizing that they either need to abandon all their shipping outside of those specific ships in order to avoid being hypocrites or that they can accept that people can have different headcanons at times and that shipping doesn't have to respect the source material.
(For the record, as a creator I wouldn't actually tell people they're not allowed to ship things because of canonical identities--shipping is for the fans, not the creator, and it wouldn't be my business. I just think it would be funny payback for all the aphobia that gets tossed at aspec folks over their personal headcanons from shippers who feel threatened for some reason by somebody with an aspec headcanon)
#i mean at this point I've accepted that my brain will not wrangle enough to actually#turn all these ideas and all the worldbuilding into cohesive novels so i just write blurbs and have fun with it#but if i somehow COULD i think that as an aroace-spec creator that would be the funniest move i could make#i mean like canonically speaking they wouldn't show any interest outside of the handful of characters into each other#so honestly very few of them would even have a way to show disinterest because it wouldn't be the focus or come up#i think i only have like 2 characters it would even make sense for#to have them outright say they aren't into anybody ever and never will be#BY THE WAY HAPPY ARO WEEK
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definitely feeling overdramatic right now, but i am SO overwhelmed from the stress of that trip and everything that happened before it and everything i have going on between now and the end of the year, that i would like to not interact with a single nother person for two weeks minimum.
#irl… online… anything#i honestly think that would fix me#i just don’t wanna see ANYone#i am soooooooo unhappy#like. not to be a huge baby but i really need support rn and instead i’m supporting everybody else#i am completely at the end of my rope though#i didn’t know it was possible to be THIS done#just completely burnt out… i finally got there!#but instead i have to do fucking Thanksgiving tomorrow#and then work and do TWO programs on Friday#and then drive to North Carolina for the concert. and drive back#and it’s just like. Man.#i REALLY can’t live like this#and do you KNOW how much i still need to get done before the end of the year?????#and i’m going to another concert next Thursday#and then i have a bird walk on Friday#and a Christmas party on Saturday#and ANOTHER bird walk on Sunday#just AHHHHHH. UGH UGH UGH#and that’s not even discussing regular work and SCHOOLWORK and volunteer shit#just fuck#i’m so done#don’t wanna do anything… don’t wanna see anybody#i just want to move away and never speak to anyone again#fuck
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warren they could NEVER make me like you
#hes weird hes a creep and i dont care what anybody says about him just being a boy in highschool with a crush 🥺#i just recently had an experience with a guy like that and trust me i do not GAF if hes just some young boy with a crush#like can we get serious honestly because even if that’s how this Young Man is processing his crush#it doesn’t change the girl’s discomfort (me being that girl and also max in the game)#max shows discomfort. she reluctantly agrees to plans with him. when she agrees she wishes she hadn’t#she’s always thinking of chloe in those moments#trust me that girl doesn’t want warren and warren’s making her sincerely uncomfortable#she’s just a good sport about it and i get Why#it’s hard to speak out or to stand your ground it’s easier to just play it off#but even when you do you try and avoid the guy (which she did!!!!!)#so warren? OVER. g/rahamfield? NEVER HAPPENING thank you#🧸#also double exposure when i get my HANDS ON YOU#them dumbing down p-ricefield to hs sweethearts just made those stalker freak’s fans 20x more annoying#even though the phrase doesn’t necessarily mean they didn’t love each other / weren’t soulmates#people just… are weird… and annoying…#i will survive sorry I just needed to get this one out esp since it’s TOO real now after that one guy i dealt w 😭
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Just checked out Red Peafowl's instagram, I think they are going to release characters and/or ships videos until the 25.
I need some official translation so much.
It's so frustrating that their marketing is one working for me, and two working for me without me having an official translation.
#red peafowl#red peafowl the series#I hate that this is my new hyperfixation#does anybody that follow me know any bloggers on here that speak thai#i know there are some but i don't remember their user name#and do you think these blogs could translate the charcters and plot bios#the chart is pretty much just the names and job/quick description i think#how do you even ask something like that#help#my social anxiety would never let me do that#ahhhhhhhhhhh#ITA Original
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"how do you handle conflict with people you love" well that's very simple. i just very specifically pick people that i know i will never have any conflicts with ever and then if i do i either avoid it as if it didn't exist or end the relationship in my head entirely. no conflict to handle. very simple
#yes this is healthy. i prommy [ actively destroying relationships as we speak ]#is it really toxic if you just let a relationship fester in your mind while putting no emotional weight into it so it peters out 🙄#not even ghosting just like. i no longer initiate conversation. i no longer say i love you a thousand times.#i no longer put that emotional labor into our interactions.#if you had enough of an issue with losing that relationship with me you would try to fix it. and nobody has so far#^^^^^ hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate#anyway all of my dear beloved close people are people that i do not argue with because we're just good for each other. case closed#in my heart i believe i will never ever have something to argue over with miffy we're just too perfect for each other 👍#realistically we would resolve issues before they even started i can't see us arguing#realistically or emotionally. that shit would break my heart.#need more bitches with an anxious preoccupied attachment style in my life those mfers are the only ones that get me ‼️#(other people who are also scared to death of losing people and dislike conflict)#realistically i could work out any problems annelise and i have. but anytime we have an actual Issue to resolve#which is always SUPER minute honestly not even worth mentioning#it fucks me up for Days. and lives with me after.#not uh. not healthy but. dgjkfh that's what we're rocking wit#is anybody out there is anybody listening is anybody perceiving me#valentine notes#relationship posting
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Both Robin and Sunday would be the type to gift their significant other smth they could keep on their person at all times. For possessive reasons, but also bc they totally put a tracker in it-
#✮┆ ( .ooc. );#//I love Rob sharing certain tendencies with Sun to an extent#//Like this#//Both do it mostly bc they wanna make sure they can always keep track of their treasured one#//So if they need help; they know where to go at moment’s notice and save them#//They will NOT lose anybody else. not EVER again#//Tho Rob would actively go out of her way to tell them that it’s ok to have a tracker on HER#//Bc she thinks it’s cute; always being in the know of each other’s locations#//Like sharing yer location with yer s/o nowadays#//Sun might not be so eager for that to be reciprocated tho#//Bc he has his secrets and things to do he wants them to be unawares of#//Both feel much reassured as long as they can keep track of their s/o’s location#//The moment they can’t they will PANIC#//Rob might play it cool and shoot off a few subtle texts to see what’s up; try and gleam the answer of them without saying it#//Sun would just#//SPAM TEXT IF THEY ARE OKAY ANS WHAT THEY ARE DOINGf then play it cool and say he got a sudden bad feeling#//Both would have Very distinct reactions to being found out#//Rob would actually be apologetic and explain herself calmly; that she constantly worrieS#//That its Exactly why she welcomes them having her location too; bc it’s Reassuring#//She doesn’t even really make an effort to HIDE it hide; more just never SAYS it—if they asked; she’d spill the beans p quick#//Sun might actually dig himself a deeper hole & give a fucken sermon on his life than say how anxious & worried being apart makes him#//But can be encouraged to speak his mind if his partner keeps a cool head; otherwise it could go Bad for them both real fast#//Both are willing to negotiate alternatives; tho Sun might have to agree kicking and screaming#//But they are willing nonetheless
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The weirdest take I've seen on Reddit is that the show made John Winchester a worse father in the later seasons than he was initially. That the worst he did early on was being a bit distant and training his sons from a young age. And of course, that stuff wasn't that bad because it was necessary to keep them safe.
Just off the top of my head here's what we get from season 1 alone. Dean being traumatized by John's treatment of him following the shtriga attack. John disowning Sam for going to college. John refusing to pick up his phone when Dean is literally dying. John physically intimidating Sam during an argument - one that started simply because Sam refused to go along with whatever John said to do without asking questions. Dean having to physically get between the two of them and having to physically pull them apart before they attacked each other.
There's a load of other stuff from the first 3 seasons as well. If anything, the show took a stronger stance regarding John's terrible parenting in those seasons than any of the later ones. The longer John was dead, the fonder the boys became of him.
#john was shown as controlling and emotionally abusive#he created a cult like family environment and isolated his children far beyond what was warranted for their lifestyle#he turned dean against sam to further isolate sam when he wanted to do something else with his life as a way to control him#ellen and bobby act as foils to refute the argument that what john did was necessary or unavoidable due to his trauma#both were hunters with similar backstories to john who managed to be better parents#dean himself had some choice words to say about john's parenting in season 3#and tbh i don't know how anybody can say john ever hitting his kids is unthinkable#after the fight between him and sam in dead man's blood#john is VERY quick to use physical intimidation against sam and neither boys seem at all surprised by the reaction#and i'm sorry but that is very much not an acceptable way for a father to approach his son - no matter how old the son is#yeah their childhood wasn't full of them cowering from their dad who beats them daily for kicks#but i don't know how anybody can watch s1 and firmly say that john would never even dreamt of decking one of his boys for mouthing off#the way sam and dean speak about their father is incredibly similar to all the men i've known who were hit by their dads#but who don't see it as abuse but as something that made them behave properly#the spn reddit is weirdly huge on minimizing john's abuse and it's soo uncomfy#because the emotional abuse was pretty severe and clearly traumatic to both boys#and the way fans who interpret physical abuse as having occurred are put down as just having read to much fanfic#or wanting to make john a monster with zero textual support#is fucked to me#like look at the show#look at the way john interacts with sam when they argue#look at the way the boys argue with each other#look at the way dean argues with other people#spn#anti john winchester#john winchester's a+ parenting
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