#especially when youve been neglected

[huellitaa]

why people don't like you ₊˚⊹ 💬🎀

okay this is not as harsh as the title suggests but i wanted to put it literally bcuz this is a problem i've struggled with for the longest time. im gonna be brutally honest here. there are so many reasons why ur not of the social status you want to be or don't have as many friends as you like yadda yadda yadda. SO ,, here's my thoughts on why that's the case , and how to help! 🫶🏻🎀💬

──★ ˙ ̟🎀you're fake

whether its cuz ur trying to "fit in" or because you have a completely different personality stored in the back for everyone you meet, ur fake. its very simple. its not necessarily a bad thing, it just means ur insecure.

🧁𓂃 ࣪˖ how do you deal with this?

stop trying so hard girl. it's not that deep. there are 8 billion people on this earth and counting, u really think this person's gonna matter when ur living ur dreams and thriving even more than you ever imagined you could? no. move on. next please!

find out who the fuck you genuinely are. you're never gonna live your life if YOU aren't the one living it. once you get a start on finding who YOU are it's gonna make you more authentic -> more magnetic -> more attractive in every single way, including social.

u arent obligated to fit in. think about the type of people that you see in the street and you stare a while at, the type of people who stand out from a crowd for whatever reason, the people u look up to, ur idols who you could never imagine to meet in a thousand years; do you think they fit in? do you think merging with a crowd is what made them appeal to you so much? no. think abt that.

wake the fuck up and realise u deserve better. why are you neglecting yourself by hiding yourself from the world? would u do that to anyone else? would u get anyone else to change themselves just so they can fit in? girl get a hold of urself!!! you've been through so much and youve made it so far and yet you're still pretending to be someone you aren't?? you deserve SO much better. people who truly deserve you will always love you for you, no one else.

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 ur too awkward / anxious

i want to preface this by saying theres nothing wrong w this at all and i completely understand but ur gonna face some problems of people interacting with you. or you interacting w them. or both. i was diagnosed w generalised anxiety disorder when i was 11, so i understand how much this can impact ur life not just socially but in all areas.

⭐𓂃 ࣪˖ how do you deal with this?

first thing im gonna mention to preface is this can be a symptom of an underlying condition u may need to get checked out. if its impacting ur everyday life please seek therapy, i am not a professional and cannot help u w this, even if i'd like to. i love u ♡

find what is making u anxious. what about social interaction is scary to you, and why? why does interacting w others make u nervous? is there a specific thing ur worried about or u find nervewracking? always. find. the root!

have compassion and empathy and patience w yourself. its perfectly okay and normal to some extent to feel like this and of course we're all gonna feel like this sometimes but its important to treat urself with care, especially in these times.

treat urself as u would a child. i recommend treating urself like a friend a lot but when ur in a delicate and emotional state like this its better to treat urself like ur ur own child. take care of urself with the same love and attentiveness as you would your own children and give yourself time and take care of yourself to work through the issue. ♡

break things down and take it slow and simple. break it into steps and PUT. YOURSELF. FIRST until u feel able to go back out into the public again and be That Girl ♡

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 ur straight up mean

this can be anywhere from just being generally disinterested in people, being constantly negative all of the time to being just really shitty and rude. we all have the same potentials and possibilities but sometimes we can fall into the trap of negative patterns when interacting with others, which is okay. everyone messes up sometimes. but the important thing is is that we fall back out of that and become even better for it!

💬𓂃 ࣪˖ how do you deal with this?

try ur best to put ur ego aside and think about yourself from an outside perspective. would you wanna be friends with you? if you were another person, how would you think people feel around you?

(🗒🎀 note: if that's too difficult, create someone in ur head or mentally assign ur traits, the good and bad, to someone you dont really know, and think ab how youd feel around them. insecure? jealous? confident? excited? nervous? think about it.)

i know it sounds weird but literally just sit down and talk to people close to u when you get the chance or the opportunity comes up and ask if anything you do comes off rude or blunt or abrupt or any sort of negative trait you think might be the issue here. or just subtly (or directly, either one works) try and find out their opinions on you so u can figure out if that aligns w what and how u wanna be, and then how you can change that.

just be generally more sweet and polite. people are easily gonna like you more if ur not a total dick. stop being mean to people, say please and thank you, compliment strangers, smile at everyone, put ur ego aside cuz its really not that deep girl.

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 ur too nice / people pleaser

okay being nice is not a bad thing. there is a fine line between being THE nice girl and being A nice girl. there is a fine line between being kind and being a pushover. you don't have to sacrifice urself to be nice to people. being nice should go both ways!

🧁𓂃 ࣪˖ how do you deal with this?

first things first, like all things and like i've said a billion times before, you need to address the root of what is causing you to act like this. this should always be the first thing you do when addressing any problem, esp w urself. why are you acting like this? what is causing you to endlessly seek approval like this and sacrifice urself in the process? think.

start saying no to people, even to the littlest things. if you want to do it then sure, but start saying no so much more often. it gives you a sense of control and shows you only you have a choice in the things you do in ur life, no one else.

define kindness. is what ur getting in return to this unconditional self sacrifice genuine kindness, or friendship, or respect, or attention, or whatever else you assume you're receiving from all of this? only you can answer that. ask urself what the genuine meaning of all the things ur trying to gain from this are and then see if that aligns w what ur receiving. (🗒🎀 note: also read this post of mine for more on this! ♡)

again, therapy is gonna help a lot w this. if this is making an impact on ur life, social or otherwise, then i am not a professional and cannot help u w this (as much as id like to). ily and i believe in u ♡

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 you seem "unapproachable / intimidating"

people are threatened by talent. people are threatened by beauty. people are threatened by what they aren't. so, congrats! you've achieved your goal! 🩷💭

🫶🏻𓂃 ࣪˖ how do you deal with this?

i told my therapist once that people have told me i seem rude, unapproachable, intimidating, etc. and i felt really upset about it because i dont wanna come off that way. i wanna be nice and approachable and someone people can talk to. and she asked me what i would do if my favourite celebrity or famous person or whatever was my age and was walking through my school. i told her i'd think they were really cool and want to be friends with them, but wouldn't be sure how to go about it bcuz they'd be super intimidating. think about that.

🗒️🎀 note: but if you do find that people say this or act like this around you a lot, then you might need to do some introspection and ask urself if anything ur doing makes people feel like that rather than their own insecurities and mindset. ♡

i just want to quickly add that not everybody is going to like you. everyone feels a general sense of dislike from time to time and this post is what i mean by that, NOT how to make everyone like you bcuz that's literally impossible and something you shouldn't waste ur time and energy on. as harsh as i may have been in this post ur amazing and i love u no matter how much improvement you have to do ♡ i love you and am proud of you and you should be proud of yourself too!

all my love... 💬🎀🫶🏻💗

[artdcnaldson]

UGH terrible, i just knew tumblr ate it. i had a feeling. deeply upsetting. but i will try to rewrite and remember what i was thinking.

prodigy au thoughts:

okey so i think he contains himself through dinner and brings you back to your hotel. he manages to keep himself from making a move, despite the fact that your eyes are BEGGING him to kiss you. he doesnt give in. the next day youre playing another match, but you remember what he was telling you about improving your backhand, youre following his advice. he can tell from his seat in the stands, he can see how much better it is when youre doing as he told you to. youre such a fast learner, he didnt even have to show you, you figured it out just from his instructions. he feels so proud of you. he also feels very turned on over how eagerly you follow his lead. makes his mind wander to what else you would do, if he asked you to...

you win the match, naturally. he knew you would, especially with your new and improved technique. it almost feels like deja vu, the way he's being lead backstage to congratulate you, still semi-hard from watching you the whole match. he swears your skirt is even shorter than the one yesterday. but this time you come running up to him and jump into him arms. you're spurting praise and thank yous at him, he's so amazing, and he was so right, and did you see how good i was? he barely has a chance to get a word in. even then he wouldnt be able to think straight enough to know what to say. youre still hanging on him, arms and legs wrapped around him like a koala to a tree, his hand on your ass to keep you from falling. he has to hold you up higher on his waist so you wont feel his hard-on pressing against you. so he wont cum in his pants from just feeling your pussy against him.

he invites you to dinner again, wanting to spend as much time with you as possible before the tournament is over. you spend the whole evening raving about him, talking about his career as if he wasnt there for the entirety of it. he thinks its very cute, how you look at him like hes a god. hes getting off on it way too much, he insists that you stay for dessert, exclusively because his boner is just far too obvious for him to be standing up right now.

he knows youre going to ask before you even get the first syllable out, and hes fully ready to shoot you down and tell you that hes just not ready to get back into a game he only just left behind. your eyes are already pleading him to say yes before the question is even out, all big and round and adoring. he cant help but imagine that it must be how youd look begging for his cock... he almost gives in before you even have the chance to beg him, before youve even asked. god he really is a weak man, but he's never had someone look at him, worship him, like this before, he would do anything to keep you like this. so he only puts up a little fight when you ask him to coach you. he knows he'll give in, but he cant help but make you feel like hes doing you a huge favor. its wrong of him, to further the, already huge, power imbalance between you. but he cant help himself, and he knows you dont mind. he agrees to coach you until wimbledon (a few months away), he's well aware that he'll gladly keep coaching you after as well, but its more fun this way to pretend you owe him a big thanks.

and you do feel like you owe him everything, before your sessions you were a great player. but after just a few sessions your game isnt just great anymore, its effortless. he's quick to teach you not just the physical technique but the mental work that truly separates your game from the one in the past. the professional facade you two had been putting up is over the second you start training on his person courts at his house. the second he invites you over to his house you know exactly how you want it to end. you show up in your usual short tennis skirt, but neglect to bring your usual shorts to wear under, and instead you opt for a brightly colored pair of lacy panties and a clear agenda. art gets hard as soon as hes helping you stretch and he catches the first of many glances of those bright pink panties. he nearly cums in his shorts when you call him coach with that sickly sweet smile, pretending you dont know exactly what youre doing. you dont even make it to any type of practice that day, because as soon as hes stretching your leg, his cock bruses against your pussy, and youre moaning obscenely. his resolve snaps that instant and he cant hold himself back from pushing you panties to the side and eating your cunt right there on the court...and then fuck your face against the back his couch...and then fuck you silly in his bed... all day long. he just cant get enough of you.

i think when he fucks her he really gets off on the power imbalance, on being the one in control after lacking control for so much of his life. he revels in being the better knowing, the one who holds the answers and is being looked up to. the way you hang on to his every word like its your gospel, the way you look to him like he's your god, begging him to answer your prayers. it makes him dizzy with lust, it makes him fuck in a way he never has before. with tashi she was the one in control, she knew what she wanted and expected him to fulfill her wishes. and he did. but you, you would do anything to make him happy, you disregard your own pleasure to ensure his. he never lets you go without, but even if he did you wouldnt care. you get off on his pleasure in a way he didnt know was possible. he swears one time you came just from him fucking your face, true devotion.

i think when he's fucking her, hes really bullying his cock into her pussy. shes so tight around him, he almost wants to ask if shes sure shes not a virgin, even though hes fucked her at least 100 times and she wasnt one when they met. he loves to talk during sex, how tight her young little pussy is (shes like 20-something, but hes thirty-five and tashi hasnt fucked him in years, so her pussy feels like heaven on earth), how good she is for him, how shes a little groupie slut, how lucky she is to be fucked by him. her attention had truly grown his ego to an unhealthy size, but they both love it. she brings out a side of him that's almost more like patrick... at least sexually.

took me a hot minute to recraft this lol, and its probably way too long (being concise is not a skill of mine, clearly), hope you like it pookie!!!

-🐞

YUMMMMMM all of this has me rubbing my dirty little hands together

Because your devotion is so sweet, so earnest. Art Donaldson has been at the center of your vision boards since you were sixteen, for a myriad of reasons. And now there he is— across from you on the court, making you run for drop shot after drop shot. A weak point he’d noticed at your last match.

You’re dripping sweat— soaked in it so it’s sheering your practice clothes. Your skin glistens in the unrelenting sun, your hair sticks damp to the back of your neck.

You know you’re a little pathetic around him, how your heart races whenever he gives you a pointer, how you live bouncing on your toes waiting for him to compliment you. But you ache for that validation, for your hero to shine a bit of that light on you.

He’s making you better— he’s making you perfect. Your ranking has shot up steadily, they’ve been saying you’re a contender for wimbledon on the tennis channel.

You wanted it. Of course you did. But you wanted it for Art too.

His skin is tinged pink after the day in the sun, and you watch him intently as he runs through more places you can improve. Your gaze softens as you listen, until he realizes you’re distracted by him. It makes a tiny smile twitch at his lips as you walk back to the house.

“How’re you feeling? Sore?”

You shrug. “My hips feel a little tight,” you reply, your gaze all soft. “Can you help me stretch?”

That’s how you wind up on your back on his massage table, the one that was collecting dust until you moved into the guest house.

One of his hands warm on your thigh holding it down, the other on your knee, bending you slowly until your knee touches your chest.

He’s so strong above you, so domineering. You exhale a shaky little breath, eyes locked on his.

“C’mon, hold it a little longer,” he says, his voice more like a coo. “Feels good?”

You nod, try to ignore the rush of arousal in your core at how close you are. He brings your leg back down, pats the side of your thigh affectionately.

He’s holding you closer as he stretches out your other leg. His hand higher up on your thigh to hold you down as he presses your knee up to your chest. A desperate little whimper escapes you when you feel him— hard and pressing against your cunt.

“Hold it,” he says, and you exhale shaky and nervous. Your tongue darts out to wet your lips, and he presses harder against you. “That’s it. Good girl.”

You’re wearing the cutest little panties— pale blue cotton with a frilly lace edge. He’d caught tiny glimpses of them on the court, wondered where the usual shorts you wore with your tennis skirts were.

But he understands now, up close. His thumb brushes against the wet spot at your core, where your juices had saturated the fabric. You whine on the table. Embarrassment makes you itch to close your legs, but aching hot desire makes you keep them open for him.

“Art—“ you gasp. He can feel your cunt pulsing, twitching for him beneath the thin fabric. His thumb brushes against your clit and you moan softly. “I’m all— so sweaty—“

He pulls you to the edge of the table by your ankles, sinks to his knees. “Gonna take care of you. How can you focus on the court if you’re so needy, huh?”

Your panties are pulled down your legs, tossed somewhere to be forgotten about until they’re found by his cleaning staff, laundered, and returned to you.

His tongue is on you in an instant, lapping at your slick cunt. He puts your legs over his shoulders, nuzzles as close as he can get. He moans at the taste— of salty, sweaty skin, of tangy arousal. He could lose himself in you— I mean, god, you’re already writhing and moaning like a pornstar just from his tongue. Getting off on him as much as you’re getting off on what he’s doing.

And god, you’d jerked off to fantasies like this since he agreed to coach you. Thoughts of Art’s mouth, of him wanting you so desperately. Your fingers are in his hair, mussing up his sweaty hair.

His lips seal around your clit, suckling until your breaths turn into fucked-out sobs. Until you’re reduced to whines of Art and oh fuck and god, yes and please please please.

He’s so good at everything— so perfect— you should’ve known he’d be good at pleasing you. It would’ve been impossible for him not to be. Barely any effort, and you’re already right on the edge.

He draws out your orgasm like it belongs to him. And it does, really, everything you are belongs to him. He kisses your thigh, gently.

You sit up on your elbows, your entire body running hot with lust. “Let me,” you say, sweetly, obediently.

He swallows, shakes his head. He came in his pants like a fucking teenager, high off of the unfettered need you held for him. But he wasn’t going to let you know that. “Not this time,” he said, so you didn’t take it as an outright rejection. “Maybe after you get your serves to 110.”

You nod, eager like an obedient puppy— a dog with a bone. He knows you’d do anything he asks just to please him when he hears you on the courts, slamming balls across the net, desperate to improve.

[darrellenjoyer]

people (especially online) are so focused on the ways that hamsters and other small rodents can die and be mistreated by humans that it kind of overshadows everything else. hamsters are cute and cool and intelligent and they have the potential to be very affectionate, and can live a full happy life if you arent neglectful & don't do anything stupid

its crazy how the petco-ification of the small pets industry (it feels wrong even calling it an industry tbh) has become a sort of collective traumatic experience for a lot of kids. so many people have had shocking and horrific experiences with small pets at a young age because of the improper, abusive care products and incomplete (and sometimes flat out incorrect or missing altogether) care sheets that are pushed by these pet stores. not just hamsters, fish too, and even reptiles and birds - it bothers me how so many people see anything that lives in a tank or cage as beginner pets before you're ready for a "real pet", when more often than not they require more intricate and involved care than the average cat or dog.

if youve been mislead about the care of an animal by people trying to sell you a product or told incorrect information from someone you thought you could trust, its not your fault. especially if you were a child at the time. i just wish people would do more research before committing to something that depends on you for survival

[onlyplatonicirl]

boom explosion. guess what its been 2 years since i came into your ask box to bother you about blogverse!!! as usual its the roleplayer behind the first lorelcest kid Oleander, Mercury, and most importantly to me, Bv!Shandyo

genuine apologies if you dont enjoy these! thats pretty fair and i get that it didnt affect everyone else as strongly as it did me, i just feel like its important that you know how much youve affected my life positively.

so, i was a bullied, neglected kid with unsupervised internet acess when blogverse happened (still a kid just less, woo!) and blogverse, especially your blog was probably the only part of the internet that i genuinely believed changed me for the better.

the sense of belonging, escapism, and the opportunity to create a character and show them to others like me was incredibly beneficial for me as a person and an artist in the long run, and to this day making OCs, writing, and especially drawing are passions that i consider deeply important to me- passions that blogverse and its community didnt exactly start, but they played a big role in fostering it. i know you just accidentally one day made an entire community that lasted two months but i cannot stress to you enough that it changed my life and i cant thank you & queenie (unsure if they still go by that, sorry) enough for it.

I also majorly admired you (and many others in a lot of the communities you associated with, but especially you) greatly as a person, artist & writer!!! you were my art goal and while that's changed as ive grown, striving towards this goal nurtured a hobby that i now know was/is a special interest to me.

while probably seeming like minor interactions with some kid who didnt know how to write a consistent character to you, to me your patience, kindness & continual creation of art genuinely helped me retreat from my abusive home life, gain a sense of belonging as a bullied autistic child, get better at art n writing, & grow as a person. i still lurk in communities like blogverse, but bv was my first and forever will be cherished in my memory.

so yeah. the things you do affect people whether you think so or not, and while i dont majorly interact with your content anymore, i hope youre well n you keep being great. :)

I want you to know that I’m at a friend’s house right now and she’s cooking herself dinner. I’m reading this paragraph and I literally start tearing up in front of her and she asks me what’s wrong 😭😭😭

Legitimately I feel like I have somehow won at life, like I won a lottery, because I don’t possibly know what I did to deserve messages like this and it makes me feel so amazing to know that I have positively effected the life of another person. That’s all I can hope for in life, and I can feel how much heart went into this letter so I’m trying to respond in turn

Even though at the time of all of this I had just around turned 18 years old, I was still very much a kid who was also trying to escape from a less-than-ideal home life. I never expected an audience when writing tcoti, it was purely my own self-indulgent passion project with my own hyper-specific headcanons. The fact that other people resonated with it so much and it created so many other inspirations as completely unexpected and absolutely baffling to me. I could have never seen it coming in a million years. It changed MY life for the better to know a my own silly utmv ideas literally inspired like. Countless others

I’m also going to share this post with Queenie, because they NEED to see this. Blogverse was her passionate project and I think to know you were as touched by it as she was and loved the writing is amazing. Also I’m showing Slime. @cosmic-chronologer look at this post with your eyes. I didn’t contribute with the writing as much as I should have because of how busy I was, and the real masterminds behind the project go to Slime Queenie and Achro. I hope they see this message!!!!

Thank you for telling me about the positive impact me and the others have had on you, it genuinely makes me so happy to hear. I’m SO happy you’re still continuing to create!! Most of my utmv friends back from then have left the fandom obv but I’m still in contact with most of them :) it means so much to me that you told me, because otherwise I would have never known how you feel!!!!!

I wish you have been well all these years. I loved all the ship kids you made :))))))

[mad-doodle-disease]

//content warning: starvation, neglect, cannibalistic(?, it's toon on cog) ideations byrd cage

timmy riddle leaned back in his cell, gazing over at the sellbot in the large cell desperately attempting to break the bars of their cage.

timmy riddle: youve been at this for days, winston. those bars are not gonna break. winston byrd: t-t-they have to-o-o! i need... fr-freeeee...dom... timmy riddle: nobodys gonna come, winston. they haven't fed me or haven't come to beat you up in WEEKS. i dont think you've noticed, but i've been surviving off rats that scurry near or inside my cell.

timmy jostled his cells bars for emphasis, making the cobblestone around it shake a bit.

timmy riddle: RATS. do you understand how LITTLE a rat is, winston!? how little meat you can pick from them, how rancid that meat is... especially raw!? i am STARVING.

winston whimpered a bit, scratching at their exposed teeth anxiously.

winston byrd: this-th-this... isn't like yo-o-ou, tim-tim-timmy... timmy riddle: oh, cry me a river, winston! i think i've earned the right to be a little snappy, your captors... MY elders ABANDONED US for some... stupid unknown reason!?

timmy chuckles, a bit of desperation in his eyes as he stares winston down from across the dungeon.

timmy riddle: if one of our cell bars do end up breaking, you better oik-ing hope its yours that breaks first. that or you better hope you're powered off when mine breaks. i've always wondered what cog metal tasted like... i'd rather eat your gears than suffer through another RAT-

right as timmy was beginning to yell, the both of them went silent as they heard the faint sound of a wooden door being busted off it's hinges. the wooden door... the wooden door leading inside dungeon! the two of them slowly moved their stares from eachother, and gazed over at the cobblestone staircase leading upwards to the outside world.

a moment of shocked silenced passed, someone was actually coming!? timmy and winston began to shake and bang on their cell bars, yelling and trying to make as much noise as possible. to their ecstasy, they heard the echoed sounds of slow, heavy footsteps making it down the staircase.

a mysterious lawbot walked through the stairwell, immediately locking eyes with winston from across the room. timmy stumbled backwards in shock at the fact it was a COG, but still attempted to get his attention anyway. the lawbot made fast strides across the room before reaching winston's cell, completely disregarding timmy's existence as if he didn't even notice him.

???: i knew you would be here, right where those picaroons left you.

after around a minute of trying to manually unlock the cell with no success, the lawbot sighed and took a couple steps backwards, readying his hand.

???: stand back unless you wish to be immolated.

winston byrd stood still for a moment, trying to figure out what "immolated" meant, but as soon as they saw the embers begin to form at the lawbot's fingertips they got the hint at stepped backwards. as soon as winston was a safe distance away, the bars of their cell was engulfed in flames, making them glow brightly from the heat coursing through the metal. a few quick strikes of the burning metal malformed it enough for winston to squeeze through.

despite the words forming in his throat, the lawbot didn't even need to order winston to squeeze through the burning metal. winston did so almost immediately, all too eager to be free from their cage even if it meant burning their already damaged steel bones.

???: my name is prester virgi-

immediately once freed, winston practically tackled the lawbot to the floor, wrapping their entire body around them while almost crying. timmy watched, laughing his head off.

winston byrd: THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU... (cont.) prester virgil: i did not give you permission to touch me you... you... DEVIANT! timmy riddle: get a room, haha! ew! winston byrd: c-can we bring tim-tim-timmy with us? prester virgil: what

winston motioned their head over to timmy's cage, who was still laughing at the prospect of cog intimacy like a madman.

timmy riddle: diddly-doo, diddly dee! you are now enchanted to free me! prester virgil: absolutely not. winston byrd: b-b-but why-y-y!? he's my fun-fun-funny fri-iend! prester virgil: i would rather die by the maws of those amalgamations outside than allow a fiendish toon my mercy. winston byrd: bu-but he's ni-ice! timmy riddle: come on man it's my birthday just let me out of my cage ple- did you say amalgamations what do you mean by that.

they ended up taking timmy riddle.

NEXT

[the-s1lly-corner]

Ragatha, Jax, Kinger, Zooble x reader but one of them cant cook (real world au)

something something the tycoon im playing on roblox keeps adding more stuff and the progress bar is at 75% and i wanna see the end of it so we're still on that grind... still writing in between so!!! yeah!! i guess this is also kind of make up stuff for neglecting this blog a bit these past few weeks, since it feels like i havent been writing as much as i used to due to other stuff... sobs ran this idea through the wheel since i dont feel like writing for everyone rn

RAGATHA:

youre the one who cant cook.... you just wanted to make something nice for her but yet here you are; trying to settle down a small fire in the oil you've just started while trying to cook dinner.. of course, your loud panicking causes ragatha to rush right in while youre panicking and trying to search for the pans lid to smother the flame... but hey look at it this way, your partner has come to your rescue, snuffing out the fire before you could.. i think ragatha would lightly scold you... she knows you were trying to do something nice for her, but if this is the outcome for things... oh but dont think shes going to ban you from the kitchen! no actually i think she might offer to teach you, or maybe you guys sign up for cooking classes together, perhaps both of you will learn something new! generally a positive thing once the emotions and adrenaline die down... though youre still temporarily banned from cooking when shes not home....

JAX:

jax is the one who cant cook. like yeah sure he can read a recipe and follow it.... okay... but i think its less of him being a bad cook and more so him wanting to do his own thing in the kitchen... which leads to him going off course and making... something alright...! usually he doesnt start a fire or make something unsafe for human consumption, but boy.... he really can make..! not FOOD but he can make! i dont think cooking classes or trying to teach him are going to do much... though, cooking WITH him might be nice... even if you have to keep an eye on him to make sure hes not doing anything diabolical... i mean, hey, bonus time and interaction with your partner, plus im always soft for scenarios of both partners cooking or baking together...!

KINGER:

honestly its a coin toss to see whos the bad cook, i think it depends on whats being cooked.... like i think kinger can make a good steak. its just the dad in him... panics if you start a fire, and remains tense about it for a long while. i think he might ban you from cooking simply because hes so scared of you getting hurt (call it him hanging on to his habits from being stuck in the circus, or him simply not wanting to have the house burn down). i dont think he would purposefully make you feel bad or baby you, but you can tell he tenses up when you offer to cook dinner that night.. i think kinger, when hes the one cooking, has a few recipes he rotates through, so theres little to no risk of messing something up.. plus routine makes him feel secure

ZOOBLE:

i can honestly see zooble being a pretty good cook! and as a quick aside i think they would be a god at making snacks, and perhaps making new and unique snacks... maybe its their looks but they look like theyd make combos that sound weird in theory but work well in practice..! i think they would be really firm in keeping you from cooking, especially if youve started a fire at least once.. just that one time is enough for zooble to put their foot down... but hey, at least youre still their little taste tester for their snacks...! probably bars you from the kitchen entirely when anything flammable is involved

[kits-ships]

hiii kit! hope youre doin well, i think this is the proper first time i send an ask? i wound myself at my crappy memory… but i speculate your birthday is around tomorrow or so…maybe or maybe not…but happy birthday!! early or late!! been seeing here and there some stuff youve been up to, and you can totally use this ask if you wish as a update on your pokemon stuff if u wish or anythin else!

love joy and peace ur way -nat

hi nat!!! i think its the first time, mostly because ive been so bad at answering asks lately hjkfgg... and ty!! my birthday was over the weekend so i had lots of fun opening pokemon cards :3 (idk how to play tcg i just like the pretty pictures <3) my most expensive card rn is apparently like 11 dollars so.... im kind of a collector 😎 /j

ive been really neglecting this blog as of late, especially on the selfship aspect! the end of the year is always so stressful so i just nose-dived into pokemon for some silly little escapism. i want an irl buizel so bad. water friend.

i still havent drawn mana properly either!! i have a basic idea for her design but since shes a seer/oracle i dont wanna take anything from stereotypes or closed practices. i just know shes a sleepy stoner that stares at the moon and has dry eyes. and i still need to add adaman to the f/o list / rearrange my carrd. :,( no worries! i shall just procrastinate more

as for lunette im fighting for my life to not ship her with 500 pokeguys. obviously theres nothing wrong with that but idk if my attention-span can handle it. theres a certain gym leader from sinnoh, a gym leader from johto, and a character from alola that ive liked since i was little <3 :3

pokemon is like. the longest lasting reoccurring special interest ive had other than cats, so its always cute looking through media and going "omg i loved this guy when i was 8!" "i remember that!!" for example: double trouble from pikachus jukebox is SO funny. i used to listen to it on repeat

ok. thats all my autism can think of rn. i love pokemon and i love sinnoh. shoutout to my beloved electric rat and shoutout to pokemon puzzle league.

[bidokja]

re: orv is good but not great - i agree w most of the major beats of the post but i dont think you can say one way or another whether orvs writing style and vocab etc. are intricate or poetic when reading an english fan-translation. to be clear im not arguing that its amazingly worded in korean, just that if youve only read the english version i dont know that its fair to draw conclusions on the quality of the prose when its been translated out of its original language by 2 different translators as a personal project. on a similar note, i wonder if orv is as long in comparison to other korean novels? i know translation can often make things end up longer or shorter than in their original language, especially in languages written in characters like korean or mandarin, although coming in at a million or so words im sure orv is still on the long end, i just wonder if its as insanely long comparatively in korean

that's entirely fair and a very important point that i neglected to fully consider. that is 100% on me and i thank you dearly for pointing it out.

i'm mostly going based off of the e-pub, and some second-hand accounts of people i know who HAVE read it in krn, so my assessment of that aspect is going to reflect that specific experience, which means i'm unable to directly comment on the Original "quality" of orv's writing. my commentary is only meant to reflect my experience, which is unfortunately not comprehensive of the original text.

i Would like to clarify that i don't think orv is Never intricate or poetic, that's definitely Not the point i was making and i hope it didn't come across that way. it definitely has some extremely beautifully written passages in it. i also think it's important for me to say i'm of the belief that it is actually fairly important for written mediums to NOT be poetic and intricate the Entire Time (or even the majority of the time, in some cases) especially if theyre longer. it's important - for pacing and variety and all that jazz - that you have some less intensive writing in between the more intensive bits, in order to highlight said intensive bits. and i think orv does that well, even in the translations.

anyways! additions and clarifications aside, those are by No means meant to be an excuse, tbc. as i said, it's on me for not fully considering and addressing the whole "i can only ever speak from the angle of the translations, Not the original language, which is definitely conveyed in a more clear and intricate way than a translation can hope to achieve" thing. and again, thank you for pointing that out to me! i appreciate it.

as for the second part of your ask, i think orv is prrrobably a lil shorter in krn? but like, marginally so, as far as Word Count is concerned. (not character count, since krn is Definitely more compact in that department)

[siover]

In regards to the notes in your last post about Travis-- yes, while he isn't really my favorite character (just comes off as a bit... boring?) I think he is deeply sympathetic, and obviously just a kid-- a teenage boy grappling with grief and emotions and unfortunately being a bit of a jerk about it.

That said... It really rubs me the wrong way about how he treated Javi in season one. I know the death scare made him do a complete 180 (and I actually think their bond is super sweet and one of the most redeeming things about Travis as a character), but Javi was mourning his father too in the first season, and Travis acted completely distant and cold in a situation where Javi was the youngest one and clearly vulnerable. Also, I think his reasons for being mad at Nat are currently completely justified and understandable (though I see it from Nat's perspective too.)... but the slutshaming in the first season? Yikes. I get that he's a teenage boy, and he was socialized that way and was making up for being insecure about being a virgin, but that doesn't justify his misogyny that she sort of just... put up with? In short-- season 1 travis << season 2 travis, but I still need more from him to be fully won over. he's just kind of a guy? who's a dude?

hi hello i typed out like three paragraphs to this and tumblr deleted them......but the gist was. yr not wrong at all !

i think part of what finding travis unsympathetic about in s1 is how, like w the girls, we get a set up of a character archetype that is then subverted by showing us the unsustainability of the performance that demands it.

travis in s1 is broken w grief and (from the pov of his assigned duties as they fall to his narrative role) he fails his brother. the thing is javi does start forming bonds w the girls but natalie is the only person travis gets close to in s1, and the implosion of that + his misguided misogyny imo serves an equal and opposite function to jackie's loneliness, in that we see how being estranged from society doesn't remove the tensions inherent to these social dynamics but rather warps them. jackie's repression is physically incompatible with surroundings that require your blood in exchange for survival. it's also shown most obviously in how jackie and travis have sex with neither of them really enjoying or wanting it, but the alternative would be to lose whats kept them sane so far.

thats the branching path here, i think. the horrifying scene at the doomcoming with the girls assaulting travis, and jackie not participating but having had sex with him earlier, both serve to display the hunger of the narrative for the dregs of what holds power in "society." its why travis goes from being in love with natalie and too immersed in his grief to look at javi to worshipping lottie and not only making up for his earlier neglect of javi but also going out of his way in the acknowledgement of javi's potential connection to The Thing Out There when he comes back different.

and this is only one (messily-worded) interpretation among what is imo a nesting doll of character motivations and arcs as pertaining to travis alone. obviously there are other factors in this change that coexist with and comment on The Horrors, not all of which i agree with, but i don't want to make this any longer than it already is especially given its been a while since i watched s1 and i'll have to rewatch to fully get into what the show's exploration of themes says in ways im barely scratching the surface of here

all this is like. far more speculative than what youve talked about and its not to say i disagree with anything you've mentioned !! im marginally interested in travis primarily for what his relationship with natalie does for his survival out in the woods but hes very much a tertiary character!

my post was more abt how ppl managing to hate travis and like jeff at the same time is in such poor taste bc like......ive seen the jokeposts ive seen the reasoning for why jeff understands shauna but he really doesnt lol. he does see her, and thats bc he read her diaries w/o her consent. propping up jeff as some pinnacle of spousal support when he cowers from who shauna is at every turn, while failing to understand why travis acts the way he does and disliking him bc his (past) misogyny was more overt than jeff's is, is very shortsighted. caveat that ppl are free to dislike whoever they want, i disliked travis in s1 too, etc etc

ok lastly. im very interested in the seeds of lottie/travis and lottienat in the cadence of prophet/worshipper and prophetskeptic respectively in that they're all performances akin to how they had to play a part outside. and it wasnt any less about desperate survival outside than it is now, its just that the transparency of the stakes has changed. so travis' role has my attention for now

[fiestylittlebeetle]

Weird take

But one of the main reasons I made malware be alloromantic and allosexual in the context of the recovery arch is there's something very specifically torturous about constantly being socially neglected, and ostracized while still being capable of experiencing attraction.

Like I think he largely didn't pay attention to those kinds of feelings during his years long rampage (but still had inklings of feelings towards khyber that bled into his post coma self that made it hurt more when he got ditched)

Now in his new life he has to actually confront his attraction, and desire to be with someone. It annoys him too cause like, sometimes having to confront a romantic inclination is terrifying especially if you don't know how to properly express it.

[stigmatvm]

[ MULTI ]   & [ MUN ]

[ MULTI ]:     for the mun to talk about a multi-muse blog who they really love, the canons or original characters that they particularly like, the mun’s way of writing and exploring their characters, the relationships and themes explored throughout, etc.

this is unfair you guys cant keep sending me questions where the answer is You im shy

but the answer is you. firstly, your organization of muses is commendable, especially given the volume. secondly, i like that you can slide into every muse with ease, and you seem to always be ready to have a little something in your back pocket. it's easy running a mumu to neglect certain muses [stares at my roster. looks away] but i never get the impression youve lost interest in the ones you play.

[ MUN ]:     for the mun to talk about another mun whom they admire or have become close friends with through the rpc.

double dipping on this one @knifelizard and @amplifyingtrace

eros is someone i consider to be immensely reliable and levelheaded, and i just enjoy speaking to them. i want to channel their passion for deep analysis and in general i just admire them in different areas of life

kit is the embodiment of persevering kindness. ive never known her to be cruel to anybody, and ive at least been acquainted with her for years at this point, having first been introduced back when we hung with hd and soda most of the time. leia is her beautiful little brainchild, and the love she pours into drawing and weaving the world around her is just something i enjoy seeing, even if im a very different person

[nothing-more-than-hot-leaf-juice]

i have a question and im posting it here bc i know youve got quite a following so i would get a good answer- we were discussing halloween costumes (early i know) and would it be acceptable for me, a white person, to go as suki or zuko for halloween? bc I know everyone in atla is poc coded but i really love the show so i'd like to do something from it

I’m white, so I do not have this answer. All I can say on my end is that when I ask the question ‘should I, as a white person, do this cosplay of an Asian-inspired character?’ I settle on no. Especially considering that Kyoshi warrior makeup is specifically inspired by Chinese opera makeup (according to the atla wiki). As much as I love ATLA, I wouldn’t feel personally comfortable doing cosplay as a white person. But I don’t have the answer to this. 

And we could discuss how the show itself is majorly appropriative as it was made by white people and most of the voice actors are white, but I’m not the person who should be the voice of that. Many people of color in and outside of this fandom have rightfully criticized racist aspects of ATLA, from its appropriation of Hindu themes while neglecting to positively portray East Asian-inspired characters to whitewashed character designs in LOK. This series has racist elements and people of color have been discussing them for years. It’s irresponsible to pretend like they don’t exist and it’s irresponsible to not listen to people of color in regards to these issues, not just within the show itself but within the fandom. Whitewashed fanart of Katara and Sokka isn’t a minor issue. It’s harmful and unacceptable and we’re better than that. 

It’s our responsibility as a fandom to listen to POC about these concerns. Again, I’m white. I am in no way the authority on this topic. I’m not going to pretend like I’m any kind of authority on any of this. All I can emphasize is the importance of listening to POC with regards to how we conduct ourselves as a fandom and how we consume media. 

[meaningfulsuggestion]

How have you been? Seems like youve been away for a little while

Hope all is well!

🌿🌿🌿

Hi my lovely friend!

You are absolutely right and I'm so, so sorry about that! I know I have two messages of yours to respond to -- I even started one the other day and then my computer randomly restarted so I lost what I wrote *facepalm*

The past few weeks have been crazy busy for me at work! I have two big projects in October, and someone on my team just left so her projects and intern recently came to me as well and it's been a lot all at once 😅

I'm finally getting a small break next week because I'm going to Arizona with my mom for her birthday! And shortly after that, I'll be visiting my boyfriend and staying with him for a few weeks 🥰

Those are my main updates! But I feel so bad for neglecting this blog and definitely want to dedicate more time to it, especially answering my recent asks. I promise I will prioritize that again and get to it soon!

Sending you and anyone else reading this so much love, always. Thank you for supporting me and this blog even when I'm busy -- it truly means a lot :')

[megashadowdragon]

summer.

i really don’t agree with a lot of fndm interpretation that makes her a ruby 1.0, i.e traits like being a wallflower, being socially anxious, etc. following on from that, i dislike her canon design. it’s very obviously just an older recolour of ruby much like the one in poser era & it’s just so lazy. they didn’t want to put anything more into summer than have her be an older ruby with a different coloured cape & dress. it’s just disappointing tbh.  —  owl.

raven.

A lot of people are very willing to ignore that she’s killed a lot of people and she’s responsible for countless people. She killed the spring maiden, implied to be a child, she destroyed an entire village. She used Vernal as a scapegoat and got her killed all while saving her own skin, knowing Vernal would be in danger. I don’t see half as many people defending other villain’s bad actions as they do with Raven.  —  luke.

i think that a lot of people are trying very hard to slap some form of disorder or sympathetic reasoning on raven to excuse why she left when canon has already spelt it out quite clearly, she left because her tribe meant more to her than her husband, child, brother or friend. a lot of people can’t deal with motherly characters that’re abusive & neglectful but raven is the perfect example of an abusive, neglectful daughter & the effect she’s left on yang shouldn’t be ignored or downplayed.  —  owl.

willow.

The DC comics did her so dirty. They took what was a compelling character, a neglectful alcoholic who still had very sympathetic traits and obviously cared for her children despite not being able to do very much to protect them and made her the stereotypical Stepford Wife trope who owns a literal zoo and is far more blatant and dramatizized in her abuse of Weiss, to the point of it not being realistic or redeemable to what we see her as in the show. The two iterations of Willow just don’t mesh together.  —  luke.

ironically for mine, i think the fndm plays down a lot of willow’s abuse, especially concerning her neglect of her kids. i get that she’s a victim of jacques abuse, but she had an inherent responsibility as the schneeblings mother to ensure their safety from their father, not just retreat into herself & leave them out in the cold. i wish that had been adressed more in the show.  —  owl.

kali.

I don’t find her that funny.  —  luke.

a lot of my dislike for kali stems from the fact that her’s and ghira’s inclusion in the story prompted a lot of problems for blake’s story, more than it’s worth & they were in the end, really a detriment. there were no meaningful scenes with blake & kali & when it was tried to be remedied in the comics, that was completely bollocksed up. also her design is again lazy, it’s older blake with a more japanese spin & her supposed allusion makes no fucking sense.  —  owl.

pyrrha’s mum.

I just wish that they confirmed that this woman was Pyrrha’s mum or not, I don’t get the need for there to be any mystery or secrecy around the topic.  —  luke.

ditto.  —  owl.

an.

The fact that her last name is REN, because of how they changed Ren’s name. His name was introduced in the typical way for asian men and Ren itself is a Japanese first name. The fact that this was changed so now all of Ren’s friends are calling him by his Last Name, including Nora who’s known him for years, is aggravating and nonsensical.  —  luke.

i don’t have any complaints about an that hasn’t been said, she was done very well for the small role that she needed to serve.  —  owl.

terra & saphron.

I wish the fndm would stop ignoring the actual wlw ships like saphron & terra while crying for rep like, they’re Right There.  —  luke.

again, nothing to do with the actual canon but more the fndm jumping on two unspecified wlw to paint them as lesbians & only that, being rude or aggressive to others when the allusion for saphron, sappho, was bi. her bisexuality was erased & it’s annoying to see that continued in a fandom space.  —  owl.

salem.

No one has said anything about Salem being abusive to her children. Ignore Ozma for a moment, take him out of the equation ; this woman murdered her children. She also wanted to use them to repopulate remnant, probably ignoring  any of their own autonomy or wishes and it’s weirdly … not addressed.  —  luke.

the idea that salem’s endgame is her getting reunited with the souls of her husband & children, who she murdered via magic & burning alive, is honestly disgusting to me & i hate that this idea even exists in the fndm lmao. salem is going the way abusers do in rt, to her own death & ozma will finally be free of her.  —  owl.

atlesianic said: can i just personally say, as someone’s who’s been eternally uncomfortable when raven’s on screen because she mirrors one of my abusers, i agree that the fandom doesn’t take her abuse seriously. she’s not a good person, she hurt her family and abandoned her daughter, but people see her as just another hot anime MILF and that doesn’t matter anymore

fyrecrackeruwu said: I’ve had an abusive father (emotionally, verbally and mentally) and Ravens actions mirror alot of what he did Walking out on my mother and I for no reason. Manipulating me into thinking my Mother, family and friends were the ‘crazy’ or 'stupid’ ones and that he was the only one I could trust Any bad traits/traits he didn’t like of mine were 'from my Mother’, and any 'good’ traits I had came from him

fyrecrackeruwu said: Never being able to admit he was wrong, sorry or that he did wrong and because of that he would blame someone else or make out like he was the victim The ‘I’m strong’ complex It scares me how much Raven mirrors these traits and I don’t get why people sweep don’t acknowledge this.

[btsqualityy]

i know you used to be against too angsty of topics but as youve been diversifying i think it might be cool to see the parents argue over something. like maybe the stress of two (three) kids getting to them or reader feeling neglected especially since theres more to do and sometimes its like being a single mom when the boys are away or something like that. of course they'd make up in the end but aside from bad prank, we havent really seen any couple issues

So this is the thing with the angsty topics, I’ve never been against doing them. I just don’t like angst for the sake of angst and I feel like if I do it, it needs to be done right.

I’ve actually had argument imagines drafted up for the members since I wrote bad prank and I wrote Jin’s and Namjoon’s when I wrote Yoongi’s. I just started other things so I left them alone for a while.

[baddiewiththesaddies]

HOLIDAZE......

so its been awhile since my last entry and well i guess this is were im coming to bitch and complain.... yes i am naturally agressive... anger and aggression is what ive known all my life. my anger and explosive temper are some of my worst qualities..... i dont enjoy this fucking anger that sits inside me like lava in a volcano waiting to erupt.... being the only famale in a texmex home in the late 90s early 2000s wasnt the coolest lol.... while my parents essentially were strict, along with "spankings" being a VEERY COMMON thing in my home. yk spare the rod and spoil the child.... along with my birth father being abusive to my mom and basically neglected the fact that he had a daughter. all made me have this low bs tolerator, i am blunt yes i come off as harsh.. mostly bc i say the shit no one wants to say bc yk i cant give constructive criticism unless its wrapped in bows surgar coated in easy to swallow bs water.... and i dont have the care to want to wrap a pig in makeup and a bow... its still a pig w/o wig the right??? i mean.... thats what i think feel free to lmk if im wrong .... sooooooo the point of this is that i get tired of shit like "omg girl this song makes me wanna unblock him" after the fact of they broke up due to cheating... and they broke up over 5 months ago.... like ugh im sorry but not soory stop bringing up old shit and if you want to go do it with someone who gives af enough to swallow the bs sandwich youve served by saying shit like that when yall basically got physical... plus a bunch of other toxic shit... like i cant just sit here and tolerate bs when im trying to cut it outta my life... i mean i could be wrong theres no denying sometimes i go too hard on things especially when i care about someone. i hate the ppl i love being hurt or done wrong. ive been in my share of toxic relationships, i hate the fact that ppl have had the audacity to misused my loved ones and i. i just want to keep them hurting the ways i have wondering why me what did i do to deserve to hurt like that.... bc thats a shitty efeffin way to feel.... so im oming from a place of love but idk... how do i rid my life of bs if i allow those around me to serve it to me daily....

welp other then this... going bsck to wwork has helped me channel my energy to no want to fight but i havevbeen trying to talk thngs out but even then im labeled as the angry latina..... one stereotype thatll take 10x as long to lose as it was to gain.....

till next time..... wish me luck on this so called life thing....

btw happy holidays and a happy new year if youve made it this far in my rant of thnking tooooo mf much.....