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Many others have pointed out the similarities between the tunnel and the church scene but I wanted to put some portions side by side. You can see Louis preemptively offering the question ("ask me for it") and going straight to inviting Armand in. And then Armand having to ask a question (though not one of true permission, we see earlier in the episode he can come and go as he pleases) and Louis leveling him with ofc. "Are you gonna kill me?" Which Armand doesn't answer, simply follows him into his apartment.
Both scenes also have Lestat and Armand revealing some level of vulnerability to Louis before his acceptance of his impending "death" (obv Armand does not kill Louis here, but I think this can easily be read as a threshold being passed in many aspects, fates being sealed (Claudia's especially.) etc. Which I would argue are deaths in motion). While it's Armand's reveal of his former relationship with Lestat and that he's been hurt in the past that's right before him and Louis kissing I think his question of those with the most power being often the weakest that's a better parallel here. Combined with how Armand recounted Lestat's destruction of his coven we have a lot of building up to "I could not prevent it" levels here, and more context for how power functions between Louis and Armand in Dubai.
#louis#armand#loumand#lestat#vampterview#meta#2.3#there's also a ton to be said about how Louis reacts to the threat of being killed and his suicidality#and also how leading up to both scenes Louis either believes he is going through a psychotic episode (tho lestat is literally in his head)#or literally had one earlier. I want more eps to come in especially that table scene but I think we're gearing up for some more parallels#between Paul and Claudia as well. If only comparing what it means to be a younger sibling of Louis vs his daughter#iwtv spoilers
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sometimes I forget that my experience has been. um. not 'your experiences are not universal' vibes but more like 'your experiences are EXTREMELY atypical'
#red said#recent events have reminded me that my life has involved like. a LOT of other people's psychosis#like not in a way where i have been Beset By Terrifying Crazies bc that's not like. a thing.#but a lot of people in my life have had a lot of really severe psychotic episodes#and i FORGET sometimes. that actually that is an Unusual Amount Of Experience With Psychosis for someone who's not#for somebody who has not really personally ever had psychotic episodes (unless severe PTSD flashbacks count)#actually i tell a lie i have maybe had One psychotic episode but because it was very situational and i knew what was happening#i was able to ride it out. because i am literally only psychotic Inside Hospitals and so that's all fine#as long as i LITERALLY NEVER HAVE TO HAVE INPATIENT CARE. Very important to me to never ever ever require surgery i think.#i can handle the amount of psychosis i get from a 1-4 hour stopoff in hospital#as long as i know I'm leaving soon then i can just Cope with the fact that the walls are moving and reality is thin#ANYWAY that's not the point the point is i forget! that most ppl i know have experience of at most a handful of severe psychotic episodes#some people i know have experienced more for sure. especially if the episodes were mostly theirs.#but people really seem to expect me to be more freaked out by their symptoms of psychosis than i am#bc i don't think i really register it as frightening unless they're in actual danger or Currently Aggressing Actually At Me#like i WORRY about them bc it can super suck but it's not SHOCKING or WEIRD#there have definitely been times ive been frightened. one time i woke up in the night and my friend was standing over me with a knife#but also like he was still HIM he was just having a moment. and as soon as i got the knife off him he just came back and broke down.#and we were fine and he was safe and i learnt the valuable lesson that even when people seem like they wanna kill you they probably don't#tbf now I'm thinking about it it's honestly a tossup whether he was there to threaten or because he felt a need to guard us#like to be clear probably don't try and take a knife off someone having a psychotic break. i was 17 and it was 3am and i knew him very well#i probably did not make the smartest call but nobody got hurt is the point#anyway you know there's that kind of psychotic episode and my granny got very violently angry a few times. buuuut you know there's also#been plenty of other times I've been with somebody having an episode and it's been chill as hell.#my ex saw and heard monsters so much that eventually she just got sick of being scared. we used to watch TV with them#i would sometimes have to sit on a bit of sofa that wasn't haunted and we might not be able to watch certain things bc they didn't like it#most of the time she was hallucinating there was absolutely nothing to worry about we just had a few extra variables#honestly of everyone i know who's had psychotic episodes or schizophrenia the amount of times it's been a material risk#is like. low single figures? maybe low double if you include self harm but idk what the cause and effect is there.#idk why you would need to be frightened like 99.99% of the time it truly is usually just Oh No That Seems Distressing For You I'm Sorry
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Sometimes I think to myself "actually maybe I'm exaggerating the terror I felt from being stalked", but then I remember that the person in question followed me and waited for me outside my school every day, tracked me down on every website I'd spent even the slightest time on, left physical letters in my mailbox, sent creepy as hell novel length messages on a near daily basis on FB. And then when I was living abroad and I answered the phone I told the caller to text me cause I couldn't hear, after which I had to read "I was saying that you would probably be VERY scared if you knew who's calling... hehe" with my own damn fucking eyes...
And then I'm like yknow what nevermind!!!! the fact that I'm still terrified of being perceived and seen in public not just IRL but also FFXIV might be understandable actually!!!
#im not saying its what caused my psychotic breakdown cause there were many factors#but needless to say it played a HUGE part especially surrounding the debilitating paranoia i was left with for years#i should mention that i only learned LAST YEAR that this person supposedly gave up according to them#by an old mutual classmate (the only one im still in contact with sadly because this person destroyed all the connections i held dear)#(we were classmates for years and this fucked me up cause we were friends for years before it all went down)#but yeah so last year they gave up apparently and it started 2012.#id managed to evade their notice online since 2019 when they last contacted me on facebook and i assumed id simply shook them off#given the habits i developed as a result of it that still affect me in ways i hate#but yeah its only been about a year of feeling relatively safe for the first time since 2012... and even then only relatively#cause i have no idea how permanent that is. and i dont dare to fully relax knowing what the person is capable of in terms of violence#hysterically tumblr is one of the very places online where they never found me it seems#but yeah. apparently they can just move on and here i am meanwhile still feeling the effects#such as feeling like im drenched in ice even in fucking *ffxiv* just because someones targeting or emoting at me#even though its never actually a problem! its a normal thing! and yet that brief moment of dread and fear seems to stick#IDK WHY IM RANTING ABOUT THIS I WAS JUST REMINDED AND. AURGH#awful. horrible. hopefully itll be fine forevermore and that ill be able to relax one day#silvi talks
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Do you think in the "Out of Tears" video the cameras just happened to be rolling when Charlie went in the telephone booth to call Shirley and ask her to come pick him up from this bloody music video set and then captured his disappointment when he realized it was just a prop? I do.
#watching the old music videos#especially from 1990-7#really makes you realize how far they’ve fallen in that department#they’re so much fun and so interesting to watch b/c they manage to incorporate interesting cinematography and motifs/plots#with having the band themselves participate#some of them are completely psychotic (looking at you ‘Sex Drive’ and ‘I Go Wild’)#but none of them are boring or lacking something creative and worth seeing#and they used genuinely talented and recognized film people on the projects#I’m not saying it’s a completely Hackney Diamonds era issue#b/c most of the music videos for A Bigger Bang and the handful of singles that came out after it#aren’t that great or special either#but the two HD music videos are particularly boring and atrocious#one naked (no pun intended) appeal to the male gaze and one boring misogynistic 4 minute trope#it’s crazy that the videos they were making 30 years ago were edgier and more subversive than what they do now#yet also on track for what a piece of corporate mechanized mall music garbage that album is#the rolling stones#charlie watts#ask response#anonymous#gifset#gif set
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That's so funny how people think Azula is a psychopathic, evil and has no empathy just bc as a child she acted as a typical pre-teen child (especially considering their situation and the way they were raised). Ig, if they ever saw my siblings, causins and me as children, they would assume we are some kinds of serial killers, maniacs, terrorists and abusers lmao. Comparing to us, Azula would be saint and a dream sister, really
#Like we litterally beat each other up every day insulted each other were saying the worst things possible to each other especially that no#One loves us and we should kos and etc hated each other tried to frame each other beat and bite each other and etc#My sis also litterally pushed me on metal sticks once lmao#But the thing is that kids are kids they usually to behave awful to each other when they're at the same age#It's not smth that makes them insane and psychotic#Azula#Atla#shit posting#azula deserved better#zuko and azula#Sorry Zuko but I had it worse and still love my siblings and causins
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maybe this is just my experience as a system but how can you be extremely proship but also vioently anti-endo
isnt the whole proship thing to just. let people do what they want. why cant you apply that to endo systems and just like. Not go out of your way to harass them and tell them to kill themselves. isnt that what half the proship community complains about antis doing. youre acting like an anti when you do that.
a lot of system terminology and resources (the term "plural" being a nonmedicalized term, pluralkit, simply plural...) were coined by, made by, or at least made in solidarity with endogenic systems.
im not trying to encroach on peoples spaces, but ive seen a lot of anti endos encroaching on originally endogenic spaces. so. shrug.
#one of very few syscourse posts on this blog lmao#it bugs me when i see “proship” next to “endos kys”#if this blows up im actually killing something /dramatic. i wont kill. ill just mute the post lol#this is why we curate our experiences <3#before you come for me all “but youre a filthy endo” or whatever the fuck. im deadass a diagnosed traumagenic system. suck a lemon.#as a disordered system- endos aren't ableist youre just grasping straws. stop fighting within your own community or go make a separate space#especially dont fight each other NOW of all times. go fight against trump instead or we're ALL fucked.#i dont think weve said before but i think its pretty obvious now - we are very pro endo.#throwback to a post on our other blog about how we saw a post saying fictives are psychotic if they have exomems. what the fuck.
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crazy how the age of madness characters being more human, more grounded, and more realistically flawed is used as a reason to like them less than the characters from the rest of the series. almost 3 years since i've finished first law and i still don't get it at all
#i definitely think a LOT of people prefer more realistic characters in fantasy#instead of characters like the warrior with a psychotic alter ego or the evil wizard lol#especially nowadays but. maybe not on the first law subreddit#and i mean i've seen many other reasons for disliking them that i also disagree with but this one is especially 🤨
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looking at the Gabbie Hannah situation and remembering a friend I had when I was a teen who went into the psych ward an alternative transmasc pagan and came out a modest cis christian who completely ghosted and never reconnected with their old friends
or the friend recently who came out of social housing, met someone she found attractive and that person was christian -- a week later she was born again christian and ghosted or alienated all of her pre-existing friends
or the fact that there was some kind of fundraising thing in town recently for vulnerable people and it was entirely christian, right down to several street pastor stalls
the way these branches of christianity prey on vulnerable, mentally ill people is fucking sick and you will never, ever convince me to respect something that builds its entire foundations on that
#not saying gabbie hannah is a good person by any means#but she was having a clear manic psychotic episode and now she's gone almost full tradwife christian#that's not a coincidence#this is a pattern and it's sickening how normalised it is#NO religion is a substitute for real mental healthcare#but especially not one built entirely on fear and shame#vent
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It turns out that most of the documents they examine in the Presidential podcast are available on the Library of Congress website. Including this letter between Ulysses S. Grant and his wife Julia.
The letter (which is addressed "The President" "Immediate" on the other side) was left on Grant's desk.
Julia writes:
Dear Ulys, How many years ago today is that we were engaged? Just such a day as this too was it not? Julia
In Grant's handwriting is his response:
Thirty-one years ago. I was so frightened however that I do not remember whether it was warm or snowing. Ulys.
Anyway, that's so cute that I just had to show you.
#history is awesome#presidential talk#someone decided to be a psychotic jerk on the tr post#so i decided to cheer myself up about the project by showing you this thing i found last week#grant's a general who lived through one of the most horrendous wars in history#and he'll still admit that proposing to a girl terrified him#(it's especially cute if you take note of the date)#(it was may i'm pretty sure it wasn't snowing)
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could people not just use delirious instead of delulu?
like could they not just substitute all schizophrenia/psychosis rooted jokes with delirium???
like unless im missing something, no specific group of people is harmed by that
#like honestly just tired of psychotic ppl being the butt of the joke#especially when i have an opinion that someone else doesn’t personally agree with or understand#and they joke that its schizophrenia or call me a schizo#like number one way to make me not want to talk to you and stop feeling comfortable voicing my opinions for a decade thanks
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like idk if someone starts acting out in unusual ways and saying/doing things they would never normally do i think thats a sign that they need help and not that they should be publicly put on blast while theyre actively having a mental health crisis but idk thats just my opinion
#vanilla talks#so many so called leftists on here r so awful toward delusional/psychotic ppl its honestly vile#learn the difference between calling someone OUT (publicly shaming them) vs calling IN (privately reaching out to get them help) i beg you#ESPECIALLY if its a loved one. obvs dont call in w total strangers if its not your place#if youre concerned about someones behavior maybe bring it up privately w them first instead of painting them as a horrible person idk
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[image #1 id: A tweet by @/esdin (Ted DiNola | Virtual Realist) that reads,
“Regulatory Bodies: "ADHD medication is highly addictive"
ADHD Folks: "Wait... did I take my pills?"”
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[image #2 id: Tumblr tags that read, “‘the struggle’; ‘drug seeking behaviour: I’m seeking where I put the goddamn bottle’”. end id]
#okay but wait this is actually a very real problem with the narrative happening in the mental health world#so some context I’m a research psych student (I care about the ways we can fix the problems I’m not interested in the individual problems#(that’s what therapists do)). and one of the things I do as a postgrad is tutor on psychology courses at the university . which means I end#up marking a lot of the course content that undergrad students submit. and something we see a lot (especially with the first years) is this#idea that the mental illness and the things you do or would need to do in order to manage it aren’t being grasped as LIFELONG.#which means when they get asked questions like ‘what is the disadvantage of psychotic medication’ I get to read fun answers like ‘it could#highly addictive’ and I have to be like ‘okay if someone has to take this medication in order to function it is not an addiction it’s a#necessity to their lives’.#and I’m entirely unsure how to go about changing this narrative#but like medication to keep you functioning is not an addiction. metal illness is not (as far as we know) curable. currently it’s onl#only manageable. which is what makes it so difficult to research and intervene and prevent.#anyway. ANYWAY. I’m done now. change the narrative. start with you.
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Aunt: you're an empath like me-
Ma'am I am clinically incapable of experiencing empathy what the fuck are you talking about
#i think a lot of like woo bullshit hippie types#think empath = good#and therefore obviously anyone they like must be an empath because thats the good thing!!1!#when actually ones ability or lackthereof to experience empathy is morally neutral#then again this is the woman who refuses to losten whenever we've repeatedly tried telling her#the actual meaning of ocd and psychotic#and just uses them to mean... honestly i dont even know#she thinks 'having a hyperfixation' = 'obsessive compulsive'#i guess because the word obsessive???#and she just uses 'psychotic' to mean like. an asshole.#she despite the fact that her *actually OCD and psychotic relative* (and their friends) have tried explaining to her#MULTIPLE times#what words mean#she just. refuses to listen.#i get why Claude hates her honestly#i don't hate her but i do get extremely frustrated a lot#especially when it comes to health related stuff#slutprince.info
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insane to me when ppl talk about brain fog bcause half of me still doesnt really kno what it means cos the definition is way too loose & half of me is like. huh i think ive just been experiencing this almost my whole life
#99.txt#impossible to know which part was from covid bcause i was already mentally ill :(#ptsdish episodes are much worse post covid tho ✌#when i say my whole life obv i dont mean 24/7 just like. its always been a THING.#realised i should have been treated for psychotic symptoms at like. 9.. -_-#instead of 20 or whatever#im better than ive been before but damn. i think im just one of those ppl whose problem doesnt fit neatly into one diagnosis#diagnoses are just labels anyway. at least (especially) for mental health#but it makes it hard to know what to do :p#im just quirky :p ^_^ xP#i got quirky boy disorder !!! so they put me on antipsychotics.
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this summer has been brutally hot. while you're trying to stay cool, please consider giving cups or bottles of water to any homeless people you see. i honestly don't care what your stance on homelessness is: just do it. if you've never had heat exhaustion or heat stroke, you have no idea how utterly miserable overheating is, and it gets worse when you're dehydrated. now consider how much worse it gets when you don't have a consistent source of shade to lower your body temperature. nobody "Deserves" heat exhaustion or heat stroke, leave your "they have to earn shelter" shit at the door. no one's listening.
i live in what's regarded as the worst part of town, dubbed "the war zone". i have countless homeless people walking by my apartment daily, and whenever i'm on the porch, I do my best to offer what I can. some folks turn me down for food, not every person who comes across my block needs narcan, but water is always gratefully accepted. please try to give water instead of sugary drinks if possible and avoid caffeine, as that is a diuretic and can cause people to dehydrate faster. if all you have is juice or soda, go ahead, but please give water when and where possible.
i have never had anyone get belligerent with me even despite the awful nickname this part of town has gained. if someone seems like they are in the middle of a psychotic episode (speaking to someone you can't see, irritable outbursts, confusion, reacting to cues you can't see, and so on) and are visibly agitated or angry, give them space and don't force them into anything. DO NOT CALL THE COPS ON THEM. don't call the cops on ANY homeless people. when a psychotic person is in the middle of an episode, what they are seeing, hearing and feeling are real to them, and can be perceived as life-threatening. sometimes someone in the middle of a psychotic episode cannot parse that you are not a threat, especially if they are in the middle of a particularly paranoid episode, which happens extremely easily when you have nowhere safe to rest your head at night. constantly having to watch over your own shoulder can easily lead to someone feeling constantly persecuted.
my neighbors have been handing out food, water, and cigarettes too, without any provocation from me. now that I've moved in, we have someone to hand out narcan, too. we can build a more compassionate world. if everyone on my block wordlessly helps the homeless folk who walk past without any provocation from someone else, the whole world can be this kind. i promise it can. you can possibly save a life just by reaching out. we all have the power to make a change for the better. a simple glass of water can literally save a life. your unsheltered neighbors are still your neighbors.
#anticapitalist#anticapitalism#anti capitalism#anticap#trans punx#trans punks#punk#queer punks#queer punx#homelessness#homeless#humanitarianism#humanitarian#our writing
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I saw a comment on your blog that says 'the way you eat does not cause diabetes'...are you able to expand on that or provide a source I could read? I've been told by doctors that my pre-diabetes was due to weight gain because I get more hungry on my anti psychotics and I'd like to fact check what they've told me! Thank you so much!
Pre-diabetes was rejected as a diagnosis by the World Health Organization (although it is used by the US and UK) - the correct term for the condition is impaired glucose tolerance. Approximately 2% of people with "pre-diabetes" go on to develop diabetes per year. You heard that right - TWO PERCENT. Most diabetics actually skip the pre-diabetic phase.
There are currently no treatments for pre-diabetes besides intentional weight loss. (Hmm, that's convenient, right?) There has yet to be evidence that losing weight prevents progression from pre-diabetes to T2DM beyond a year. Interestingly, drug companies are trying to persuade the medical world to start treating patients earlier and earlier. They are using the term “pre-diabetes” to sell their drugs (including Wegovy, a weight-loss drug). Surgeons are using it to sell weight loss surgery. Everyone’s a winner, right? Not patients. Especially fat patients.
Check out these articles:
Prediabetes: The epidemic that never was, and shouldn’t be
The war on ‘prediabetes' could be a boon for pharma—but is it good medicine?
Also - I love what Dr. Asher Larmie @fatdoctorUK has to say about T2DM and insulin resistance, so here's one of their threads I pulled from Twitter:
1️⃣ You can't prevent insulin resistance. It's coded in your DNA. It may be impacted by your environment. Studies have shown it has nothing to do with your BMI.
2️⃣ The term "pre-diabetes" is a PR stunt. The correct term is impaired glucose tolerance (or impaired fasting glucose) which is sometimes referred to as intermittent hyperglycemia. It does not predict T2DM. It is best ignored and tested for every 3-5yrs.
3️⃣ there is no evidence that losing weight prevents diabetes. That's because you can't reverse insulin resistance. You can possibly postpone it by 2yrs? Furthermore there is evidence that those who are fat at the time of diagnosis fair much better than those who are thin.
4️⃣ Weight loss does not reverse diabetes in the VAST majority of people. Those that do reverse it are usually thinner with recent onset T2DM and a low A1c. Only a tiny minority can sustain that over 2yrs. Weight loss does not improve A1c levels beyond 2 yrs either.
5️⃣ Weight loss in T2DM does not improve macrovascular or microvascular health outcomes beyond 2 years. In fact, weight loss in diabetics is associated with increased mortality and morbidity (although it is not clear why). Weight cycling is known to impacts A1c levels.
6️⃣ Weight GAIN does NOT increase the risk of cardiovascular OR all causes mortality in diabetics. In fact, one might even go so far as to say that it's better to be fat and diabetic than to be thin and diabetic.
Dr. Larmie cites 18 peer reviewed journal articles (most from the last decade) that are included in their webinar on the subject, linked below.
#diabetes#t2dm#type 2 diabetes#prediabetes#weight science#weight stigma#fat liberation#fat acceptance#inbox
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