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You are allowed to exist alone in public btw. You're allowed to go to the movies alone and go out to eat alone and hang out in a park alone and go for a walk alone and whatever else. It isn't weird or creepy, it doesn't make you lonely or a loser or whatever. You are allowed to just exist as yourself.
#this was prompted by the trend of taking videos and photos of people who are alone in public#especially when they're in restaurants#like i'm sorry but maybe some of us just like our solitude#and we still deserve to exist in public without some asshole taking videos of us to post on tiktok
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Maaaan, she shouldn't have been SUPER honest, but she should have been honest she knew him. Like, "yeah, I knew you but we didn't get along." I mean, sure, it wouldn't have protected her forever. But I think her spitting out his name really made it worse. Cause now he knows she knew him, and had a reason for hiding it. Which means that mofo gotta figure it out. (Doesn't help him thinking he knew her, cause then he gotta figure out who she reminds him of thats taking up his mind if he doesn't actually know her.
If you KNOW you have a loose mouth, don't lie, just omit all the facts đ especially with a yandererere Joon. Cause he is gonna be more pissed you lied skfjfkfkfit
As always, freaking amazing. But like??? GURL WHYYYY!!! DID YOU REALLY THINK YOU COULD FOOL NAMJOON????
can we get amnesia trope with namjoon pleaseee?
Never Forget You
Pairing: Mafia!Kim Namjoon x Reader
Warnings: Soft Yandere, Obsessiveness, Possessiveness, Manipulative behavior, If youâre not 18+ please, PLEASE, do not interact. Be mindful of the warnings. Let me know if I miss anything.
3000 celebration
âDo I know you?â
You visibly stiffened when you heard his deep voice. You tried to calm your heart that was beating too fast, tried to breathe slowly. But how could you pretend like nothing was happening when Kim Namjoon was literally standing in front of you? When it had been almost a year since you last saw him?
When it had been eight months since you left him?
When it had been eight months since you last saw him bruised and bloodied?
You heard him chuckled softly when a moment passed and you still didnât acknowledge him. You were terrified. You knew nothing was simple with him. You knew nothing was uncomplicated when it came to you and him⌠and Namjoon suddenly appearing in front of you made you lose all the progress you made.
You thought you had escaped him. Yet now, he was standing in front of you.
Suddenly, you were back to being that naive girl who loved him too much.
âIâm sorry if I scared you. Itâs just thatâŚyou looked familiar,â Namjoon trailed off when you finally looked up at his tall form. The first thing you noticed was the scar on the side of his forehead, a clear and bitter reminder of how the two of you ended on what seemed like lives ago. The second thing you noticed was the color of his hair. The old Namjoon would never dare color his hair, but the man in front of you was spontaneous enough to do so.
The last thing you noticed about him was his eyes- they were no longer angry. His eyes looked as angelic as the first time you met him. Kim Namjoon looked at peace.
And so, you lied.
You lied because he deserved the peace and you were terrified.
âIâm sorry. I donât know you.â
The second time you crossed paths with him again was after two months. You decided to move again the very next day that you saw him. You were certain you werenât safe, that you needed distance from him for your sanity and his peace. However, destiny seemed to laugh at your efforts.
You were walking, your eyes focused on the scenery on your way to work when you felt someone crashed into you, cold liquid poured on your white shirt. The dark contrast of coffee against your shirt was enough to make you lose your composure. You were about to unleash hell on the assailant when you saw who it was.
However, his face shut you up. Of course it was him. Again.
âIâm so sorry!â Kim Namjoon exclaimed in a horrified voice, his mouth focused on your wet shirt and the see-through brassiere that you snapped your fingers in front of him.
âEyes up here, Namjoon!â
He looked at you sheepishly, rubbing the back of his neck when he realized what you saidâŚwhen he realized what you called him. Suddenly, he lost the apologetic look on his face, his eyes widened with curiosity and suspicion.
âWhat did you just call me?â He asked in a deep voice. He tilted his head to the side, his mannerism even before the accident. You hated how you still knew about this. You so badly wanted to erase him from your thoughts.
In fact, it should have been you who lost the memories. In that way, you would be able to escape his memories: the good and the bad.
You stepped back when he walked closer to you. You were glad that this happened in public. You wouldnât be this glad, though, if this happened eight months ago. If this happened eight months ago, Namjoon would just simply take what he wanted regardless of the consequences.
âYou called me Namjoon,â he stated, his eyes taking you in. He looked lethal despite the changes in him. For heavenâs sake, the old him wouldnât be caught wearing a tote bag like he did now. The old him wouldnât even dare wear whatever he color of clothes he was wearing right now.
You opted to look at his chest rather than his eyes, which he found rather unacceptable. You gulped when you felt his finger tilting your chin up to meet his eyes. âDo you know me, sweetheart?â
Sweetheart. The one he used to call you so lovinglyâŚyet sometimes he did so mockingly. You were shaking when you met his curious eyes.
He chuckled without any emotions when moment passed and you didnât confirm nor deny. âWas I a bad person that you would lie to me about knowing me?â
He wasnât. Until love or rather, until obsession swallowed him whole.
For the second time, and what probably was the last time, Kim Namjoon let you go. The tears that were pooling in your eyes were enough for him to gently let you walked away from him.
âAre you going to be honest now?â He asked his father who was sitting in front of him as though he was the king himself. In a way, he was. They sat on top of the hierarchy in the underworld, and Kim Namjoon before the accident was the King when his father stepped down. He was the king, yet he couldnât lead right now because of his memories.
They said he was chasing after someone when it happened.
They said the person wasnât important and that the person was now gone.
The doctor was confident that he would remember everything in due time, which was fine to him. Really. It was fine. However, he felt a constant stabbing pain in his heart. He felt incomplete. He felt as though his world lost its balance.
Something was missing.
Someone was missing.
Because if not, how could he explain the dreams that both haunted and enchanted him each night? How could he explain the scenes similar to that of a movie whenever he closed his eyes of a girl who loved him?
Someone loved him.
And he was desperate to remember her, to get her back in his arms where she obviously belonged. He was simply restless.
âWhat are you talking about, son?â
Gently, he laid his palm on the wooden table. He leaned in, his calmness a mask to his insanity. Namjoon was always calm, yet his calmness was lethal. His father knew about this. Most especially, you knew about this. âDonât lie to me,â he whispered in his deep voice. âWho was I chasing that night, father?â
His father thought he deserved the truth, yet he didnât want to him to know. His son had always been levelheaded, yet when it came to you, his ever-loving sanity vanished. Personally, he thought it was a blessing in disguise when he forgot about you.
He shouldâve known, Namjoon would never just let go. His obsession was stronger than the clean state of his memories. He recognized that obsession because he too was once obsessed with Namjoonâs mother. And it was his love that drove her away.
He didnât want it to happen to Namjoon.
Yet, it still did. He drove you away.
âAnd this time, please donât lie to me.â
He regarded him with his eyes, âYou were chasing your fiancĂŠ that night.â
Three months passed, and you hadnât seen him since then. You moved once again, living peacefully. Or so you thought.
It had been thirteen months since you escaped from him. The car chase was something you would never want to relive, yet you could remember it clear as day. His love suffocated you. What was once a sweet relationship turned sour when he let the darkness won. He terrified you. His love was obsessive, his embrace became tighter, his kisses became more desperate the more he felt you pulling away. But didnât he realize you pulled away because he stopped being the Namjoon you fell in love with?
And when you finally discovered how deep his obsession was, how people suddenly disappeared when he felt they were a threat, you had the courage to leave him. But he didnât take it easy. Of course, he didnât. When he found your ring on his bedside table, he lost it.
And that was how the car chase happened. That was how he lost you.
You turned your head to look in front of you when you heard someone sat. You thought that finally, your date your coworker set you up with finally arrived. But instead of him, Kim Namjoon was there.
He sat down comfortably, his eyes focused on the menu. And you knew, you just knew that he was back. His hair was dark once again. Gone was the tote bag and simplicity in his clothes. Now, he was sporting the usual suit you knew he favored.
It scared you that he hadnât once looked up at you. He only did so when he placed his order, and you noticed he ordered for two. He ordered your favorite.
He remembered now.
âW-what are you doing here?â Your voice trembled as you took him in.
âYouâre here, sweetheart. Where else would I be?â He asked in a mocking voice, his eyes finally on yours as he took you in.
Thirteen months you ran.
Thirteen months he lived without you.
He had enough.
âWhat did you do to himâŚâ
He leaned in, his head tilted to the side. âDonât worry, sweetheart. We onlyâŚtalked.â
âDonât lie to me!â You hissed, anger getting the best of you. âWhat. Did. You. Do?â
Suddenly, the restaurant was emptied by men wearing dark suits. And then they dragged the bloodied man inside. You were crying, you didnât realize until Namjoon wiped your tears. He hated seeing you cry. It was his weakness.
Perhaps, he loved you too much.
âShh,â he comforted you, standing up to kneel beside you. He looked into your eyes with overflowing love, with too much love that it drowned you. âNothing will happen to him. I promise you.â
He kept his promises, always.
After all, he promised you that he would never leave you. And beyond his memory loss, he never left you. Namjoon kept on coming back.
âIf you marry me now, nothing would happen to him.â
You looked at his sincere eyes. He looked worried over your state. âDo you promise?â
âYes, sweetheart. I promise.â
That night, he slipped back the ring you left. That night, Kim Namjoon promised that he would love you forever.
That night, he promised to himself that he would never let you escape againâŚand that he would never forget you again.
#3000 celebration#kim namjoon fic#yandere kim namjoon#yandere namjoon#bts fic#bts yandere#kim namjoon x you#kim namjoon x reader#kim namjoon x y/n#yandere kim namjoon x you#bts fanfic#kpop#bangtan boys#yandere bts#I seriously loved this#the fear of if he did remember or not???#OOOOOF#especially at the restaurant#like#that instant panic#IS IT ALL OVER FOR HER???#thats a YES#rip FL
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Someone needs to do an analysis on the way the Kung Fu Panda movies use old-fashioned vs. modern language ("Panda we meet at last"/"Hey how's it going") and old-fashioned vs. modern settings (forbidden-city-esque palaces/modern-ish Chinese restaurant) to indicate class differences in their characters, and how those class differences create underlying tensions and misunderstandings.
#This is neither a criticism nor a compliment of that artistic choice#I just think it's really interesting#Like even looking at the Five:#Tigress talks in an older style than the others because she was mainly raised at the Jade Palace#While Mantis talks like Joe-schmo off the street because he *was* a streetfighter and an ordinary guy#Shifu and even Tai Lung talk like they're from an old-fashioned novel or kung fu movie#Po talks like a modern guy you'd meet working in a twenty-first century family restaurant#Part of Tigress's initial disdain for him in the first movie is clearly because she considers him to be low-class/a commoner#(And therefore an intruder into the world of the Jade Palace and the rest of the Kung Fu masters which appears to be semi-noble).#Shen looks genuinely off-put and disgusted when he has to respond to Po's greeting with a â...hey.â#And when Po wants to appear more legitimate as a warrior he adopts a more âlegendaryâ/old-fashioned way of speaking.#In the aesthetic language of KFP old fashioned=noble/upper class and modern=common/lower class.#This translates entirely naturallyâI think especially to an American audienceâbut it is wild once you notice it#Because you realize: âHang onâshouldn't *all* these characters be talking like they're living in the medieval era?â#âAnd what does it mean that they're not? What is the movie attempting to convey with thisâprobably entirely subconsciousâartistic choice?â#kung fu panda
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Social Battery
Kingfisher Psychology
#social battery#socializing#I struggle with these so much#especially if thereâs a lot of people#I canât stand the loud talking everywhere#but I still go out to restaurants#neurodiversity#actually neurodivergent#social guide for neurodivergents#feel free to share/reblog#KingFisher Psychology (Facebook)
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On average, what is the total MONTHLY amount that you spend on dining out*?
*(This doesn't only count going out to restaurants, but also stuff like picking up fast food to bring home, getting a coffee on the way to work, getting a premade sandwich from a grocery store deli during lunch, buying a quick snack from a convenience store or food cart whilst walking somewhere, ordering a pizza or any other food to be delivered to your home, etc.)
*(If you often dine out in groups/as a household: calculate and divide the costs so that you get a Per Person average. This is for YOU individually, NOT the total household/group costs)
(I'm sure polls similar to this have been made before (very common topic), I just haven't personally seen one that I can remember, so, I was curious to do my own! I was discussing this with a group of people today and it was very interesting to see how widely the number varied between individuals. :0c )
(Reblog for bigger sample size if you can, and feel free to explain your answer in tags if there's anything extra to add!)
#polls#tumblr polls#I'm mostly in the 0/1 - 25$ category. Maybe the rare month is a bit over $25 if there's something specific going on like birthday.#Which I'm NEVER eating in an actual restaurant (erm... covid... plus I just hate restaurant environments. i would rather pickup#the food and bring it home to a peaceful quiet environment that I control lol). But more typically like stopping by a grocery store deli#section or something. I don't have coffee that much. And I can't eat fast food much due to my health issues/diet restriction stuff#so if I'm out like coming back from an appointment and I start feeling really sick and weak. I know that a hamburger will just#blow up my system and cause nausea or something. So I try to pick the breadiest most#neutral looking turkey sandwich at the safeway deli to eat during the hour ride home or whatever lol#I actually kind of wish I could do stuff like get food more often vecause it would take the burden of cooking everything off of me#but.. alas... Money... and Health Things... T o T#I still wouldn't do it ALL the time but like... once a week instead of once a month or something.. or maybe turning into a coffee#person.. I do love drinks A LOT .. i am a drink person who will have 5 different drinks sipping on at all times#But i just have to make them all myself mostly lol#And I cant really have too much coffee since it will make me sick. so like.. teas and juice mostly#When I inevitably become a millionaire by never using social media never networking and only finishing one#sculpture every 5 months which I dont even post about or sell - then I shall... get more drinks..#I will somehow wean my body onto coffee and drink one a day solely for the ritual of it#Though even then... I would still probably just like.. buy the mateirals to make it at home or something#Like if you had a million dollars you could just buy a kitchen grade ice cream machine and other stuff to make your own milkshakes and#coffees and smoothies and bubble teas. Genuinely I think even if I were a BILLIONAIRE I would still look at playing likr $8 for a single#coffee and go .. uh.... I could just buy the equipment to make this and then save that money. PLUS. its in my house now so no need to#have to leave. I can make my own drinks in the comfort of home. .. ideal..#Like no matter how rich I ever got I would still have the lingering scroogey stinginess. like i am NOT paying for that. I will jus#make it myself. Especially if it was an Everyday thing. Anythign thats part of my routine I try to optimize and make as efficient as#possible... ANYWAY.. In an IDEAL world I would get treats. but probably not that much. as on a daily basis it would start to get#to me and I would just save up to buy kitchen machinery if I was rich lol
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One of the funny twst headcanons thatâs been stuck in my head lately is the appetite of diasomnia and how it might differ from the humans in their lives.
We all know about Sebekâs appetite. Itâs mentioned over and over again and heâs always surprised at how little MC eats. Added with the fact heâs training to be a knight.
But I also like to think that the other three eats more than the average do too.
Malleus and his constant use of magic and any training he might need to go through would need the nutrients. He is magic itself so I imagine his consumption of food especially sugar related items are high.
Thereâs Lilia whoâs always keeping in tip top shape and training the boys. Who does push ups everyday. Whoâs able to keep up with Malleus even now. Who might have had food insecurity before but doesnât now is able to eat more.
Silver, while a human, is stupidly strong. The constant being squished mentions in book 7 clearly emphasizes that. Along with the fact that heâs also a knight in training.
So I can imagine them all having at least 3-4 plates of food on the table for each.
And then we have our very normal human Papa Zigvolt and our MC eating their meals. Maybe 1 or 2 plates at most while all the fae around them eats enough for a crowd.
I just find the idea very endearing and cute ����đ
#âŚI just realized this reminded me of DBZ where the third party would watch goku and vegeta especially eat out the entire restaurant lmaoooo#did my mind go to the gutter a bit and think of other *appetities* yes yes it did lmaoo and it still implies!!#lilia vanrouge#malleus draconia#twst silver#sebek zigvolt#twst headcanons#silver vanrouge#twst#diasomnia#twst x reader#twst mc#twst Yuu#twst lilia#twst malleus#twst sebek#papa zigvolt
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Voice Cast: Donnie Osmond
some of you may have already seen a preview of this guy, but here he is!
this is Eddie! my Eclipse OC, who i've been brainrotting about lately
Eddie used to be a performer, singing and dancing on stage as part of a touring show. He fell in love with another performer, who shared his dream of having a big family some day. but as a robot and a human, they didn't believe it was possible for them. His love eventually left the show to elope with another manâa human man. Years later, they reunite, but she is alone and pregnant. Due to complications during childbirth, his love passes away, leaving behind her twin infants, whom she named Solomon and Lunete. After that, Eddie decides to retire from the stage to raise the twins.
While he misses the stage, he tries his best to be the best father he can be for his kids.
#fnaf eclipse#dca fandom#dca oc#fnaf oc#my oc Eddie#crab art#digital art#bright colours#i'll add the ID later i don't have the spoons for it right now#anyways i love Eddie#i don't have an exact AU or story for him but i love him#legitimately husband material#i've had this drawing as a wip for months#cuz i started it JUST before i got sick#and then i never got back to it#but since it's starrie's birthday#i thought it's time to brush off the dust and finish him up#especially his date outfit#ough i love it#i love him did i mention?#i love him#like yknow my restaurant Eclipse?#Eddie is like the wiser matured version of Eclipse
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"We never do anything small, do we? Why can't we for once have a meeting in a Starbucks?" Butler complains about meeting Kong in Taipei 101, conveniently forgetting that the last time he and Artemis had a business meeting in a restaurant, he got shot in the heart and died.
#artemis fowl#domovoi butler#anyways i'm having a blast rereading the AF series i should do this more often#oh! and then the NEXT time Artemis arranges a meeting in a restaurant in book 7#shit goes sideways there too with space probes and morphbots trying to kill him#granted butler wasn't there for that but like. butler buddy. maybe restaurants just aren't for you and your charge#especially since the quote above is just before a hostage swap in the restaurant at the top of the tower#like i get why colfer has so many things happen in restaurants - public place easy to get to used to lots of foot traffic etc -#but you gotta admit. it would be funny if Things Went Down in like a museum. where artemis gets pissy about the artifacts getting damaged#and butler gets pissy about artemis getting damaged#now debating doing a close read of the series as i go and finding all the restaurant scenes and what happens in/ at/ because of them
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dug up some old Nightmare art from 2 years ago
#nearly 3 years actually for the first couple... damn#i still love a lot of these#especially the ones on the bottom??? younger me was cooking#also was into Nightkiller and Errormare for a while lmao#i am not above bringing that restaurant au back that plot has stuck with me for ages i just never wrote the fic#also been putting nightmare in dresses since i started drawing him#not much but its honest work#my art#<- from a while back lmao#now he's paler and got eyelashes because fuck the rules we make him pretty here
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Look at those house sparrows I've met inside a bakery! Never before I had wild birds approach me so close on their own, I was dying over them
The male on the left was particularly massive and bold, I named him Bigfoot because of the weird shape of his toes :]
#bird#house sparrow#birds#i love restaurants that allow birds inside#especially bc it was cold outside it was comfy for them
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There's this interconnected web of Walten Files Information that keeps coming back into my mind which I meant to make a post about a while ago. Which is as follows:
-We know from the Richie audios in Findjackwalten/caretakerlibrary that Rosemary had already been banned from (or at least highly discouraged from entering) Bon's Burgers by the 1st of July, which is quite a ways away from when she disappeared on the 19th. I definitely wouldn't put it past her to sneak into the restaurant during its off-hours, but we know at least that her being there wasn't formally sanctioned.
-From the way he talks to and interacts with Susan in TWF4, it seems that Bon's 'Selection Process' for who he 'beautifies' is not arbitrary, nor is it necessarily opportunistic. Which is to say that he's not picking people at random, and he's not picking people only because they would be an easy target. He watches them, and chooses them based on criteria they exhibit which appeal to him. In essence, he picks people he likes, who he thinks belong in his Wonderland.
-There's a near-undeniable but Implicit fixation that Bon has on Rosemary, which we only learn through many, many small things. The 'shrine' we see him create for her in Souvenir is relatively elaborate, (in that it seems to contain more than one object that is associated with her,) and he put her in Sha, which is the companion animatronic to his Bon. Rose's death scene in TWF2 also makes it seem like he spoke to her, as the Bon animatronic, before killing her. What he says exactly is notable, too. "Rose broken. Will fix you. You will beautiful." It's, one, an explanation of what he's doing. Bon did this for Susan too, but not in the 'physical world,' before he actually hurt her. Also, it's comfort. A soothing reassurance. I'll fix you. You'll be beautiful. Then also, of course, he calls her Rosie. "I know where he is, Rosie," is a line that haunts me forever, thinking of it coming from him.
This all paints a specific sort of picture in my mind. I like to think that Bon likes Rosemary a lot, and that she's a favorite of his, because she designed The Showstoppers. I think he likes Susan quite a lot for a similar reason, she was the woman who gave him his flesh and his bone. Who forged the vessel that he now lives for. But Rosemary is the artist who made it what he loves. She was the visionary who made him Beautiful.
So I think that Bon had his heart set on Rosemary for Wonderland. And it makes me wonder if the contentions between her and Felix that kept him away from her really pissed him off. But the core of my 'theory' here is just that Bon wanted her in the restaurant, that night. That she maybe wouldn't have been there at all, if someone hadn't asked her to be.
#chirps#I have a small addition to this theory/observation#which is just that I think Rosemary's death was very violent and slapdash because Bon was very excited#and he was maybe being very indulgent. He was enjoying himself#Which I say because Rose's death led to the shutdown of the restaurant. And I definitely don't think Bon wanted that#especially not before his project was complete.#I've seen some people question why Rosemary would be in the serial disappearances restaurant in the middle of the night to begin with#and risk leaving her daughter behind#which frankly isn't the most unreasonable criticism#and this is the answer which makes the most sense to me
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finally scanned those drawings (plus 2 more)
#august draws#did the blue knight yesterday and im REALLY pleased with it!!#and the last drawing is pretty much the only thing i drew in italy#its the view from the top of the hill on a restaurants balcony#tbh the drawing doesnt do it justice. it was breathtaking#especially at sunset
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chinamatsu old image dump (If the style changes drastically within these, its because theyre from a long span of time)
^Not the finished version of this comic. I lost the finished version. Which seems to have happened more often than not with comics specifically.
Also, I often used their Chinese names, but I guess for this comic I had decided not to...?
#chinamatsu is one of my favorite aus ive been crazy about it for years....... i will do so many things with it its crazy#sub aus of aus. so fun#but i do especially love modern age au chinamatsu. because i love modern china and i work with kids.#osomatsu-san#osomatsu san#mr osomatsu#osomatsu#karamatsu#choromatsu#ichimatsu#jyushimatsu#todomatsu#my art#chinamatsu#sorry about long post. ill tag that too.#long post#im really fond of this stuff........#simultaneously im a little shy.#also one of these images has yokais in it. funny.#i also have another version of the apartment where theyre wearing the modern clothes instead of the hkw clothes but this post is long enoug#anyway duansongs favorite game at the ripe age of 2 or whatever is 'get away from jiejie and go back in the restaurant and san gege gets#angry and puts her back outside. and you repeat. its very fun for her
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I've come to a conclusion:
Antisydcarmies love to say that Sydney represents the restaurant industry, so they can't be together.
It was also argued that the reason Carmy's panic attack stopped when he thought about Sydney is because she simply reminds him of work and believes in him. So, thinking about work is what calmed him.
It's suggested twice by Camy that he admits to Richie and Claire that, even though work is gnarly and gross and not always fun and requires hardwork, at the end of the day, he loves and chooses the job over anything else.
Carmy Loves work = Carmy Loves Sydney
Now, about the gnarly and gross parts, it can be at times challenging in a partnership to love each other. Love can only be feelings at first and is led heavily by that at the beginning. The hormones are going off- and the heart is beating fast because of attraction. A teenage love.
But when love is no longer a feeling - or when the feeling can't be the only thing that holds it together. Love then becomes a choice. A choice to prioritize the relationship and choose to keep working on intimacy and growth on both sides, to choose to lead each day with love, the relationship deepens.
From what I recall, Chris Storer wanted to make a show where love can be shown to sometimes be kind but also ugly and complicated - which makes sense given his life story dealing with trauma and the complicated dynamics of family.
Anyway, despite it being gnarly and gross and 200 hours on and off. Requires his complete focus and nothing else. Carmy still chooses to love Sydney since she was the only one he got to choose to love in the first place. She was someone his family didn't choose for him. She's part of his found family.
Now, repurposing trauma makes sense. He loves his work and what he does, but there's trauma attached to it. Similarly, he wants to love someone and be loved, but there's trauma associated with loving someone and being loved. Therefore, he has to repurpose his trauma related to both work and relationships with Sydney, and make it beautiful and kind rather than just challenging. If he repurposes his trauma, he can start to heal and find joy and purpose in what and who he loves.
#he loves her#he loves her like a lot.#or something like that#sydcarmy#why are you opening this restaurant carm?#why are you doing this because its not fun at times#because you love her buddy#it would be easier to love claire...#because someone else chose her#but he choose to prioritize loving sydney at the end of the day#theyre just in a rough patch in their marriage#he had an affair with claire after all#he told her when he is fucking up just let him know because he's trying#that's a marriage. love is hard work sometimes. especially when choosing to love different.
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freenoodles request!! Tang smoochin his husband on the snout and Pigsy getting extremely flustered!! (I love these old gays so much they are my fathers actually) ((real)).
he caught him off guard
Here are your dads, thank you for your request!! Very cute concept to draw out thank you very very much :D !
Small bonus! heeheehoo :3c
#heehee them <3#Threw a small hc into this!!:#Even if they do live together they very rarely get to the restaurant at the same time#Be it because Tang has to go to work somewhere else or because he refuses to wake up at 8 am with pigsy every day to open shop- either work#They've worked out a schedule/times that Tang comes in and Pigsy keeps a close eye on the clock every day waiting for him#He also probably prepares a spare bowl of noodles just for him a few minutes before he should get there#Got to make sure husband is safe!! and well fed!!!!#Also the hc that they both get kind of flustered by sudden unexpected affection from the other especially in public#They are very husbands your honor this is my testimony#lmk pigsy#lmk tang#lego monkie kid#monkie kid#freenoodleshipping#lmk freenoodles#It is 2 am and my brain is refusing to word smart sorry if any of these tags are worded weird auaghh#He was late in the first place because he was brainstorming ways to fluster his husband just for funnsies#snout kiss proved to be very effective!!#Zaacoy artđŤ
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cursed modern human garashir au where ds9 is an old ruined resort that was built by some evil rich motherfuckers years ago and was recently seized back by the native people whose land and economy it had destroyed. it's since been converted into an affordable apartment complex sort of situation (just... with a pool, bar, restaraunts, spa and tennis court built into it lol) and is run by sisko and kira. since it is rundown, odo gets hired back on to keep kids from further vandalizing it and o'brien's team gets hired on from the nonprofit organization sisko works for to fix the place up best he can. dukat is the old overseer of the property who drops by sometimes to remind them he and his hospitality business still exist, and my, what a fine job theyâve done renovating the place! itâs actually nice again. sure would be a shame if someone bought the property out from under them (lmao jk kardasi hospitality and starfleet are friends! no hard feelings. they should collaborate on some future projects, actually).
garak's a sad bitch who just lost his amazing morally dubious nepotism career at obsidian corp. (which absorbed kardasi hospitality) and moved into the complex just for the comfortingly familiar architecture. even tho he's not on the payroll for his (secret) dad's evil exploitative company anymore he's still vital to its continued efficiency and is an absolute sucker who still does unpaid shady work for them from time to time. so no one in the complex likes him, but also he's a very pleasant and fastidious queer man who pays his rent on time and has completely taken over the laundry room, to the benefit of everyone, because all the machines actually work now, it's always tidy, and there's a variety of forever-stocked detergents and soaps available, plus an iron?? there was not an iron before garak moved in. which is how it eventually becomes public knowledge that garak has an online tailoring and fashion design business, and he's actually pretty good at restoring clothes that get fucked by the washing machine or eaten by rats, soooo. yeah. they let him stick around.
meanwhile julian's a hot doctor who works at the local hospital and is absolutely buried in student debt that he refuses to let his moderately-wealthy family help him with because they're awful people who had him on illegal drugs without his knowledge since he was a little kid. they were afraid he had something wrong with him, apparently. he was too far behind in his class or w/e. they couldn't handle having a kid with special needs, so they pumped him full of dangerous experimental stimulants. only reason he found out is because he snuck off somewhere to start transitioning and had some tests done that revealed all the crazy shit in his system. he's insanely lucky he didn't end up in the hospital with seizures or fall into a coma or worse. not to mention his parents still dead-name him left and right over a decade later. it's a whole mess and a huge secret, because he technically has a history with illegal drug abuse, and it's a partially ongoing history because going cold turkey off drugs he's been on since he was six is Not A Good Idea, so??? fuck his life, actually. he lives in the apartment just down the hall from garak's.Â
garak hates the country his dad's company expanded into and would like nothing better than to move back home, but it's not really logistically possible. especially since everyone there hates him cuz his (secret) dad's company is a mega-corporation that's completely taken over everything p much and is a complete monopoly nightmare, and he did... kinda... work there for decades. no one would hire him if he went back. it would be an extreme conflict of interest, since everyone wants to stay on tain's good side, including garak. but starfleet is interested in him, so he does some begrudging contract work for them sometimes, but he really has no desire to join them. he just wants to resume his old career and reclaim his assets.
julian's hospital is owned by starfleet, tho. his scholarship into medical school was also from starfleet, in fact--they're the only reason he was able to (sort of) afford becoming a doctor at all. so he's a big fan, even tho they are pretty hardcore anti-drugs in a way that's made him have to forge medical records and risk serious legal charges and prison time. julian comes across as a squeaky clean medical professional and an adorable idiot, but he's intimately familiar with back-alley dealings. which is kind of how he ends up helping garak with his drug addiction, and keeps said addiction off the record.
but basically, how it begins is julian likes to support the local restaurants in the complex and garak finds him there and thinks he's gorgeous, and it proceeds as expected. they fuck nasty and become codependent. ten years later, julian lives in a modest house with garak in his home country and garak irons all his old university hoodies.
#julian's addicted to trashy romance novels with mysterious ceo love interests with fancy high rise apartments and private jets#if they have an accent Even Better and garak has a thick one#so when he meets garak he's immediately drooling#but he later finds out garak was never especially wealthy he was the bastard son of the housekeeper in his (secret) dad's mansion#and as an adult he was Not paid well so he lived pretty much like a normal person#he does not drive an italian sports car it's just a kia#but garak Was on his way to taking over his dad's company and becoming filthy rich and he Is familiar with that lifestyle#so he plays it up to impress julian in the beginning of their relationship#saving up to take him to fancy hotels and restaurants in exotic locations for business purposes and doing weird sex stuff#this eventually peters out into them just loving each other for who and what they really are#but julian can't deny finding garak particularly irresistible when he's in a suit and talking about the stock market#garashir#my posts
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