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wachtelspinat · 9 months ago
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i can't help but feel like my drawing days are kind of over. not entirely, i'll still be drawing from time to time. and deffo not because i want to. but i'm having this exact same feeling since mid 2022, since i was really struggling with my elective period, i kind of disconnected with art there and never truly found my way back. on top of everything that came after - moving, starting a job and working to be good at it which leaves such little room for other things because i can't handle my life well - there is just so much horrible shit going on. and i'm having a hard time comprehending it.
a part of me also feels very stupid for drawing one thing for almost 4 years now constantly, but another part of me knows "hey, but this makes you happy". it's a constant battle in my head because online spaces are like school grounds, and i don't actually wanna stand in the corner as that one kid that just can't shut up about that one character. but then again all i ever did was drawing fanart so... what does it. who gives a shit. be cringe and be free alright. but it kinda feels so hollow, esp. when you're at it for so long. a lot of mutuals move on. some are not even active anymore anywhere. and i wonder what happened. plus a huge chunk of the tone of the fandom has changed. also with the source material getting butchered so hard (since the release of ow2) it just kills the fun. playing this game used to be fun. playing this game was one thing that helped me getting through the last meters of university. it's like watching the downfall of the simpsons again without making the comparison too set in stone, just... this thing that used to be decent and nice and watching it getting ruined in real time (broken promises about pve, the recent gameplay changes?? the lore was fucked up from the start but they kind of tried, now it's just skins for 20+ dollars) while still having feelings for the characters is shit. anyway...
i recently went through a big folder of stuff i'd drawn at the age of 12-15 and there were so many fucked up but cool monster and cyborgs designs and just silly stupid stuff and all i could think of was that i felt so distanced from it, like i don't even know i think this is normal? because a lot of time has passed and a lot has happened and i knew i've drawn all this but i wasn't able to locate the person who did in my present me now and... it's just so normal that things move constantly forward but i feel like i missed huge chunks and passed a few stops and now i'm kind of lost.
i don't even know what i'm trying to say here anymore. i just feel sad because it feels like sth is slipping out of my grasp or sth has changed tremendously and i don't know how to make damage control.
i keep trying tho, i try to draw once a week at least. it's just like as soon as i take a step back and look at it i don't feel it at all. gonna continue tho, until it makes sense again i hope.
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sabertoothwalrus · 2 months ago
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does science experiments on you (homoerotically)
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hinamie · 2 months ago
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suntails · 1 month ago
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light magic
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stuckinapril · 11 months ago
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friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me
#It’s just so different#even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol#in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps#if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it#esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends#no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr#u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS#meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life#this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation#like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !!#& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers#who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them#and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends#it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me#I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc#like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this#so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works#p
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sasswonfp · 2 years ago
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This joke came to me in a fit of laughter (ALT description provided :3!)
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madamemiz · 1 year ago
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sad: falling out of a hyperfixation
tragic: watching your beloved friends and mutuals fall out of the hyperfixation while you're still in it
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madqueenalanna · 1 year ago
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honestly it was so big brained to have will graham be a fisherman cause like everything else about him is so prey-coded; he's the dog rescuer, he has seventeen mental illnesses, his brain is on fire, he's the lamb in the grip of the lion. but he's also the fisherman. he ties his own flies, he goes out into the river, he baits and waits and sinks his hook in, barbs and all. from the beginning he always has power, even when he seems like he's at hannibal's mercy, at jack's, at his own, he still rolls a cast and waits for the bite
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splash-o-matica · 9 months ago
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“Side order was short” babe youre not done until you unlock all of THESE
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idiotsonlyevent · 9 months ago
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slavic chilchuck moodboard
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lesbians4armand · 2 months ago
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no but really i do think a lot about how assad zaman and bally gill already knew each other for AT LEAST 6 or 7 years prior to iwtv and how much funnier that makes the whole rashid situation. because imagine you audition for a minor character role as a servant in a horror series only to be told that no, actually, you’re playing one of the most major and important characters in it. and then you get to call your friend and go hey i have a role for you and it’s going to be really funny i promise.
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numbuh424 · 8 months ago
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The unstoppable, mighty hurricane and the immovable, cold, hard truth.
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bacchuschucklefuck · 5 months ago
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doing chibi is a good design exercise bc it forces u to think on shapes n essential details, essentially thumbnailing ur designs. its also a terrible design exercise bc it ends up looking cute no matter what
#dimension 20#fantasy high#riz gukgak#very specifically class swap bard!riz#fh class quangle#mm. I may need tags for all the asides Ive been doing lmao#riz's canon design is so coherent and thematically clean that I genuinely struggle to keep up...#bard!riz's whole thing is working out his identity through abject fear so it kiiiinda makes sense that hes got a different thing going#on every year I guess? like lmao the directive I go into each of these designs with changes vastly#freshman bard!riz has to look extremely nonthreatening. and also make you wanna pick him up and chuck him at a wall#annoyingly inoffensive. slides off your memory pretty much immediately. a void of an experience#crucially Does Not Show Teeth While Smiling#sophomore year bard!riz I have been keeping the like. cameraman direction for#I want him to be swimming in clothes a little bit... he kinda lands at like. 80s/90s shlocky horror protag too which I do like#bc what is season 2 to riz if not a horror story lmao#junior year bard!riz I want to be somewhere between clark kent and tintin#the journalist aesthetics is not so clear and easy to build as the detective or spy aesthetics...#but also I just. really like boy journalist lmao this is the BD blood speaking again#and! I actually do draw his hair differently than in my canon junior year riz stuff. its a bit shorter here so it doesn't#obscure as much of his face#its so funny actually going from drawing canon stuff to class swap esp. with riz bc he's smiling SO much here#and it's 100% trained like its crucial for u guys to know he is equally if not more fucked up as a bard#barely anybody can wrangle him in canon it's already been mostly him keeping himself on track. imagine if he actually learned how to act#mmm. I think these designs are still gonna soft change as I draw them. thats fine we have fun#drawing sophomore year bard!riz for those comiclets was fun as hell. I think on this factor alone I call it a success lol
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flwrstqr · 4 months ago
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(花朵) ˖◌ 🖥️ TYPES OF BOYFRIENDS WITH ENHA HYUNG LINE ꒱ 🪽 ⋆ enhypen hyung line x f!reader ♡ fluff, skinship, 𓈃 ◌ CLiCK HERE ◞⠀
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𝐋𝐄𝐄 𝐇𝐄𝐄𝐒𝐄𝐔𝐍𝐆 - gamer bf
heeseung’s arms are wrapped around you, controller in hand as you sit snugly on his lap, leaning back into his chest. “comfortable, baby?” he murmurs, his breath tickling your ear. you nod, feeling the soft rumble of his laugh as he focuses on the game, fingers deftly moving across the buttons. “you’re my lucky charm, you know that?” he teases, pressing a quick kiss to your neck. you smile, your hands on top of his, “maybe i should be the one playing then,” you joke, but he just chuckles, nuzzling into your hair. with each victory, he tilts his head down to kiss you, the game almost forgotten in favor of holding you close. “i think you’re the real game changer here,” he says, voice soft
𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐊 𝐉𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐒𝐄𝐎𝐍𝐆 - rich bf
“surprise, babe,” jay says with a grin, holding out a sleek, gift-wrapped box. you raise an eyebrow, already knowing his tendency to spoil you. “jay, what did you do this time?” you ask, but there’s no stopping the smile tugging at your lips. “just something i thought you’d like,” he shrugs, but the excitement in his eyes gives him away. you carefully unwrap the gift, revealing an necklace. “jay, this is too much,” you whisper. he steps closer, gently taking the necklace and fastening it around your neck. “nothing’s too much for my princess,” he says softly, his fingers brushing against your skin. he admires the necklace on you for a moment before pulling you into his arms. “i just want to see you happy,” he murmurs, pressing a kiss to your forehead
𝐒𝐈𝐌 𝐉𝐀𝐄𝐘𝐔𝐍 - loser bf
“i can’t believe i forgot our anniversary,” jake groans, slumping onto the couch next to you, his face buried in his hands. you chuckle, nudging him playfully. “it’s okay, jake. i’m not mad.” he peeks at you through his fingers, looking like a kicked puppy. “you should be, though. i’m the worst boyfriend ever.” you shake your head, wrapping your arms around him. “no, you’re just a little forgetful,” you tease, kissing his cheek. he sighs dramatically, leaning into your touch. “how did i get so lucky with you? you should’ve dumped me ages ago.” you laugh, shaking your head. “never. you’re my loser, remember?” his lips curl into a small smile as he pulls you closer, resting his head on your shoulder. “i’ll make it up to you, i swear,” he promises, and you can’t help but smile “i know you will, jake. that’s why i love you.”
𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐊 𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐆𝐇��𝐎𝐍 - overprotective bf
“who was that guy?” sunghoon asks, his tone a little too sharp as he watches the waiter walk away after taking your order. you glance at him, noticing the way his jaw is clenched, and you can’t help but smile. “just the waiter, hoon. relax,” you say, reaching across the table to take his hand. he sighs, still glaring at the spot where the waiter stood. “he was flirting with you and checking you out,” he mutters, squeezing your hand a bit tighter. you laugh softly, rubbing your thumb over his knuckles. “he was just being polite. you’re the only one i’m interested in, silly.” he finally looks at you, his expression softening, but there’s still a hint of jealousy in his eyes. “i just don’t like anyone looking at you like that,” he admits, voice low. you lean over the table, brushing a kiss on his lips. “you’ve got nothing to worry about, hoon. i’m all yours.” his lips twitch into a small smile, his grip on your hand relaxing. “yeah, you better be,” he says, a playful glint in his eyes now, and you know he’s back to his usual self.
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care666bear · 3 months ago
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Quick selfie this morning after sleeping in past my alarms ✨
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katabay · 4 months ago
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THERE AIN'T NO ATLAS, KID. NEVER WAS.
if you peel him back far enough, there's nothing but a pile of theater masks
like, it's really fun how fontaine starts spiralling out the closer jack gets to him in the final arc of the game and returns to appropriating the image of family (the fake family in the beginning, the flawed father position later) to try and appeal to jack in some way but it's like. buddy. baby. you already took off your mask. anything you try and put on after this is going to come across as cheap and desperate. the magic is gone! and personally? I'm hooting and hollering
⭐ places I’m at! bsky / pixiv / pillowfort /cohost / cara.app / insta
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