#eddie screams into the void

[eddieisashifter]

how do you explain to an alloromantic person the desire to have an intense emotional connection with someone, but not romantically?

Like, you're my soulmate, but not in the way where we're lovers. You're my soulmate as in you're like an extension of myself, the person I can't imagine living without. The air in my lungs, the ground beneath my feet. The eye of my storm.

You're my best friend in the greatest definition of the word. My love, but not my lover.

When you're so devoted to someone that the lines of platonic and romantic become completely irrelevant.

[underburningstars]

Everytime reg and james interact in my moonseeker fic my brain goes

this fic isn't about them this fic isn't about them this fic isn't about them this fic isn't about them

[isaacthedruid]

close enough, welcome back dean winchester confessional scene

[lightsabersblue]

Lento by Julieta Venegas but it's Eddie Diaz man extraordinary twirling his hair and ducking his face once he gets his shit together thinking about Buck Buckley wonder boy kissing him and holding him because he's embarrassing like that and I KNOW Eddie would sing at the top of his lungs SEEEEE DELICADO Y ESPERAAAA DAME TIEMPO PARA DARTEEE TODO LO QUE TENGOOOOOOO (be gentle and wait give me time to hand you everything I've got) cuz he's me and also a 15 year old latina girl in the 2010's I've made my case send thoughts

[pangrams-n-palindromes]

If a tree falls in the woods a man realizes he’s queer and in love with his best friend but no one is around to hear it he’s alone in a state 800 miles away, does it make a sound?

[eddieisashifter]

ughh so real. I was so focused on shifting to my youtuber/streamer dr and now I'm not. I feel bad, like I disappointed the people in that reality.

But, I think it's just a sign that's not where I'm supposed to be right now.

slowly changing my main dr is so painful.

i'm grieving a place i never went, love i never had, friends i never met. and it hurts because i was so excited to be there. to be with them. and now im not. i've moved on to something else and i feel sad.

[oliverljones]

8 days a week (E, 6k)

A sweet moment of weakness helps Buck and Eddie get together. While Eddie doesn’t expect much to change about their relationship, Buck slips back into old patterns.

or: eddie notices all the ways buck tries to make himself smaller

this fic means a lot to me and I'm actually proud of how it turned out (what a feeling!). thank you to everyone who reads it and supports me 🥰

read on ao3

tagging @djdangerlove and @cryscabbage because you were so excited for the premise of this fic, it made me want to finish it 💛 I hope you'll like it *shaking like a leaf*

[penny00dreadful]

Friends, moots, strangers.

Anyone know if there's any Downton Abbey Steddie out there?

[warpedpuppeteer]

Alternatively, Tommy keeps hanging out with Eddie and realizes how Eddie is absolutely ass over teakettle in love with Buck and he goes to Buck and says something like "I think you should take a chance with him, maybe it's not so one-sided after all" because Eddie has decided he's not gonna be the one to break whatever it is they have between them and wants Buck to make the move

[i-have-zero-chill]

and when Buck dances with Tommy at the madney wedding and Eddie watches from afar all by himself with a longing look on his face THEN WHAT????

[eddieisashifter]

any other shifters feel a sense of anxiety about talking about their drs online?

not because of cringe, but because you worry that people might judge you for what sides you pick?

like...I know the people I'm shifting for aren't good...I don't care??? Mind your business???

[underburningstars]

The best thing about a post-apocalyptic fic is that you can kill people in the most batshit unhinged way and blame it on the aliens

[solarsunshine]

okay steddie nation™️, i need assistance! do any of y’all have fic recs where steve comes out/is aware of his fruitiness first? i’m trying to deep dive into the fandom and i just can’t conceive eddie being more experienced than steve in that manner, like robin would’ve pulled the truth out of stevie long before eddie would’ve figured his own shit out lmao. any assistance will be rewarded with my everlasting adoration 🫶🏽

[sevensoulmates]

I always make a point to listen very closely to what the lyrics are saying in the music over certain scenes because 911 is ANYTHING but subtle when it comes to their music choices.

The song that's playing during the montage of Eddie trying and failing to make a connection with women while golfing/hiking is interesting.

"I got High hopes, high hopes , That tomorrow's where it all begins , I'll be somebody's daughter , I'll be somebody's friend , I'll be somebody's part-time lover again , Chased by the devil down a one-way street , Made it out alive , Now I'm back on my feet , I got high hopes"

These lyrics are so interesting to me because it's once again placing Eddie only in relation to who he can be to other people. A son, a friend, a father. Never just him.

But what also stood out to me was the lines "somebody's part-time lover again" and "chased by the devil down a one-way street".

I googled both these phrases and didn't really find much "official" meaning.

But to me "somebody's part-time lover" really does encapsulate how all of Eddie's romantic relationships on the show have been. You see bits and pieces of it, flashes, like his romantic relationships are a sideplot in his own life. I also took it to mean feeling half-hearted about a relationship you're in too. Like how with Ana he was going through the motions, like how in this very montage he's forcing himself once again to go through the motions of trying to force a meet-cute, like he will once again with Marisol by the end of the season. Marisol once again feels like something shoehorned, something forced, someone for Eddie to be another "part-time lover" to.

The other line "chased by the devil down a one-way street" to me, indicates running from a supposed "devil" (ie. something you believe to be 'bad'), repressing something 'wrong' about yourself that you refuse to acknowledge. And the "one way street" to me indicates an illusion of only being able to go in one direction, feeling like you can only be able to take one path, and why does he run as fast as he can down this one-way street? Because's he running from the "devil", the thing he's repressing, the thing he won't let himself acknowledge. Because, Eddie, you're running. You're not in a car. You can choose to turn around and walk in the other direction, you just refuse to face this illusionary "devil".

Even the portion of the song that we're supposed to be paying attention to, the "high hopes" part, feels off. Because high hopes usually lead to what? Disappointment. "High Hopes" are expectations, literally. By the end of this montage every one of his "hopes" are dashed. Eddie has these expectations for himself that he wants to live up to, but when he can't, he'll just feel more disappointed. He'll have these high hopes about a relationship with Marisol only to be let down because he thinks he'll develop this deep, amazing connection with her but more than likely he just won't because those kinds of relationships DO NOT (I emphasize again they DO NOT) happen that quickly looking at you Evan "she sees me better than anyone after 1 date" Buckley.

It's just interesting that the song that's supposed to represent Eddie really moving on and being open to love and putting himself out there centers on only who the person is in relation to others, half-hearted romantic relationships, and running from something repressed.

[isaacthedruid]

i love to think about (non sexual) intimacy between buck and eddie and how they aren't together (yet) but how it would probably just happen sometimes. i like to think about buck bathing eddie after the shooting. they are so gentle and tender, and just so appreciative of the other. buck's hands are careful as he washes eddie, even if he's terrified of even washing the gunshot wound. (he will replace the bandages as many times as eddie needs and he will monitor eddie's health.) and he pours all his love and care into eddie by washing him, cleaning parts of him he's never touched before but has wanted to so badly. he adores washing eddie's hair, he's always wanted to card his fingers through it. and suddenly, he is. not in the way he imagined it would happen. yet, there he is and his clothes soaking wet from spraying himself with the shower head while trying to get the rest of the soap out of eddie’s hair. this erupts sleepy chuckles out eddie and makes it all worth it. when he’s done, eddie convinces him that he will be fine to get dressed on his own and that buck should take a quick bath too. so, after his own bath, buck– with a towel wrapped around his waist –eventually finds eddie laying in the bed. he’s still naked with just a towel resting over him. “you didn’t get dressed,” buck teases, there’s such a fondness in his voice that it makes eddie smile. “i didn’t feel like it,” eddie replies, “wanna lay down with me?” and now, if eddie were any healthier or better rested, this probably wouldn’t have ever happened but it’s what he needs right now and he couldn’t deny himself of it. not if it was right in front of him. not if it was buck. “you sure?” buck asks. “i wouldn’t have asked if i didn’t mean it,” eddie says, finally meeting buck’s eyes. that’s all the answer buck needs and he lays in the bed next to eddie, careful with his touches. soaking in eddie’s body heat beneath his palm, buck gently explores him until his hand finds its home on eddie’s waist. eddie’s own on buck’s chest, thumb brushing back and forth just over his heart. there isn’t more they do than this, just warm hands and breaths against the other’s skin. maybe they share a kiss or two, or maybe not. that’s between them. however, this is what they need right now. for eddie, it’s buck’s love and care. for buck, it’s eddie’s warmth and beating heart. maybe he finds eddie’s pulse on his wrist or he rests his head quickly down to hear it thrumming in eddie’s chest. maybe he doesn’t. it’s just them there, where sleep eventually finds them; safe, warm and alive. 

[ultraforgottenwords]

No just you and Eddie, like....????