#ed mumbles

[soggypotatoes]

very last minute painting as xmas present for me mum.. it's a mandarine that we stole from a Shinto shrine in Japan.. it was the perfect mandarine yall

[sassypantsjaxon]

While we're on the topic of erasermic having done a haunted house when they were students, it's worth noting that Shinsou did one for his school festival too

Like fathers like son, I guess?

[soupbtch]

I've been sitting on this thought for months and only held onto it because I was considering exploring ed's feelings here further in a fic but I don't think I'll ever write it and today seems like a good day to share. so.

to me, calypso's birthday is all about ed's compounding guilt. we have the scene with ed sensing a storm that he can't see, then facing izzy and his leg, and then stede shoving the last of the treasure into a 'guilt room.' he's back in the crew's good graces, but all of these remaining consequences from the kraken era are bubbling up and ed can't avoid them anymore.

but ed is changing and growing, and he tries to make things better, to make amends and finally get out of his own way and to allow himself things that will make him happy, but ned shows up at the exact moment ed and stede are about to dance because of course he does. he's another consequence of the kraken era. ed isn't even surprised by this point - he's been facing the guilt all day, and he goaded ned on for all those months.

the problem now, though, is that stede and the crew are in danger, and I think (if we were given longer episodes) we would've seen that internal guilt play out in ed's character more here. anyway, the crew get tortured, stede gets burned right in front of ed's eyes when he's helpless to do anything about it, and still he refuses to kill ned at the end of it all because he knows it won't solve anything: it'd only make him feel worse. and he's done torturing himself. he's done standing in the way of his own happiness. and then he watches stede kill ned, and oh no, that's ed's fault, too. if he hadn't spiraled, if he hadn't egged ned on for all those months, none of them would be in this mess, stede wouldn't be upset, stede wouldn't have to face the thing (murder) that made ed feel like he's a monster.

I think that night in the cabin is when all the guilt that had been building all episode would finally come to a head. I made a post about this a long time ago, but I think when stede takes his shirt off, ed would see all the scars on stede's body and it would absolutely wreck him.

[merakiui]

breaking news: my third eye is open again and i'm falling for lilia and his charms.

[annmariethrush]

happy pride from my destiel brain rot

[ratatatastic]

"[My Dad, Brother and I] all got matching Stanley Cup tattoos on our quads!" "Let's see it! Let's see it! Stand up real quick! Let me see you!" "'Let's see it!' Look at that." "It's just a little guy! It's just a little guy!" "I love it!" "It's just a little guy, but yeah, no...Sam Bennett, Anthony Stolarz, Monty, and Steve Lorentz—we all got em like 2 days later. It was fun! We were all—you know, no sleep, straight into the tattoo estab—" "Oh sure! You woke up and you were like, 'Huh, I got something on—" "Oskar Sundqvist did the same thing, man!" "I like it! I'm a fan of it! I really like it! And the fact that we all have the same one is pretty cool!" "Let's see that hair real quick! What do you got going? Let's see what you got going—Oh, God! Andy!" "What?" "Geez, he's got that Swede in you!"

The Cam & Strick Podcast | 7.30.24 (x)

[90ssuperheroes]

[skyburger]

wait i forgot i made this earlier. Congrats on the gender dio

[wherenymphsroam]

can we . stop making commenting on people’s weights. like just in general please

[mumblers-lobby]

Crowley and Ed could be good friends.

[soggypotatoes]

my brain i s2g. can't solve problems like a normal person.

me: *experiencing distress*

brain: self harm tonight queen?

me: no?? I dont have tools for that and also it won't help. and my mum will see

brain: ah. but how will we feel better without pain and blood???

me: do you hear yourself rn

brain: ok ok. take 5 ritalins then

me: it's 6:45pm, I want to sleep, I haven't eaten, if we take ritalin we will be up all night having panic attacks

brain: hm. you make a great point. how about we put ritalin up our--

me: I am not putting ritalin up my butthole.

brain: chew it up then?

me: so it tastes bad??? AND we have all the issues stated above????????

brain:

brain:

brain: FINE. I guess we should find something to eat then.

[freakkofmediciine]

MY DANCE INSTRUCTOR SAID SHE WOULD HELP ME GET READY FOR POINTE AND GET ME INTO NEXT YEARS RECITAL……CHAT IS THIS REAL

🔍 ballerina diet…

[mostlikelyshutup]

the worst part about being a fat woman with an eating disorder is that if you offered a chance for me to be thin, i know i would take it in a second, and i also know that it comes both from a place of insecurity and ed thinking but also very real oppression as a fat woman

[jiraimomo]

starving is easy when i make myself too busy to eat

[couldnt-think-of-a-funny-name]

I saw an article about ed sheeran’s new album coming out and he was talking about how depressed he was when he made it because of death and illness in his family and like all the comments were like ‘this might just be his best album yet’ could you all perhaps shut up

[aromanticannibal]

maybe food fails me but gum never will