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been busy bc of school but bc of school i keep drawing these characters in school??? so take this collection of sketches with stupid words around them bc they’re stupid (the one that’s actually properly-ish colored is dazai but with my haircut minus the bangs since irl bangs cant be parted in three ways or whatever) ok time to disappear again for months also idfk what this below is but ill put it here
as usual click things for resolution if interested
#wazzup w quality nerfing i hate you tum b#im getting 1 note on this tops lolbut like no time for real drawing which sucks bc i just wanna improve but wheres the time#cmmmmon ):#n then when i have time i have homework#semesters over i cant wanit to have times#imagine knowing grammar and spelling (stem major#not english major teehee woman/theyperson in stem but there isnt a single brainstem in me im actually a bunch of leaves and stems intertwin#ed in the shape of a person#bsd#dazai osamu#him...#bungo stray dogs#bsd dazai#tagging names sucks#kunikida doppo#chuuya nakahara#gin akutagawa#bsd higuchi#wait why is that what comes up#higuchi ichiyo#there#who else did i dra#ranpo edogawa#bsd ranpo#not the ship tags oml#oki byeeeeeeeeeeee muah muah muah to ppl who observe my things#wait#nikolai gogol#bungou stray dogs fyodor#T tT the nasty tags im seeingmohmtgof
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Anyone else think Ed and Ling should've been a little more. I dunno. Drenched in blood during this arc? :)c (for the sake of the blood showing up on their dark clothing let's just say there's So Much Of It)
I didn't draw this for October 3rd btw, but now's as good a day to post as any!
Bonus, by the time they emerge:
dramatic reveal ruined, more at 11
#fullmetal alchemist#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood#fma#fmab#edward elric#ling yao#alphonse elric#i looove drawing blood personally it's just really fun idk#shrimp art#comic#as it were#actually started this months ago but there were a few details i needed to fix before posting#but i procrastinated on them and. forgot. this piece existed for a while lol#i would have added al hugging ed and getting a vaguely ed-shaped bloodprint all over his armor#but i'm kinda sick and i don't feel like drawing him#sorry al you're just very complex#cw blood
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Josie Pinup for @thedeafprophet ;) (full nudity below the cut)
i think october wants her cloak back josie 🤭
(based on this:)
#(yes i can draw legs properly HOWEVER josie has EDS so i wanted to have her hyper-extending the one knee because. she deserves to be#seen as pretty Including her bendy joints damnit!!!!!!!)#anyways#phantom of the opera moments much josie? my my#you guys would not BELIEVE how my phone has SLAUGHTERED this piece in particular!!! i can't even do my normal little photo app editing trick#(telling my phone to use the 'enhance' or 'contrast' settings :( )#like. in person josie is super super smeared and washed out in her reflection! but october is actually only a tiny bit smeared and not#washed out at all! so she Sticks Out a lot!!! because she's a parabolan ghost with a lot of parabolan power mastery and i wanted her to seem#... Disturbingly Tangible#but my phone picks up on fucking NONE of that#and yet somehow it's picking up and EMPHASIZING all this white texture and spotting that is legitimately Barely Visible in person#and like. her stretch marks are nowhere near as bright!! they're nice and natural looking i prommy#and it's over-emphasizing the lightness of her palms too aaaaaaaa#anyways. I'm crying over how my phone just. murders my art for funsies. waugh#please please please i promise it looks a thousand times better in person 😭😭😭#her face too :(#alas alas.#dye stained art#suggestive#also tmblr don't kill me this is a fuckung pinup. artistic nudity. aaa#sometimes i will just draw ocs naked for stress relief!!! because i like how bodies are shaped#hnnnnnng gold ink <3#mirrors#ask to tag#others ocs#josie
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you ever think about james gunn's king shark
#me personally? at least twice a day#imagine putting this guy in your big summer billion dollar hero movie. looking like this#i could not believe how far they pushed the friend-shaped-edness here. obscene. scandalous#i know jack shit about nanaue but this rendition of him. simply unparalleled#cant explain why I am bringing him up now sorry. truly just remembering the character design of all time#i am not playing the new game or anything. i am not even sure if he's anything like this in there#all in all. too marks. blorbolicious#my art
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me, every time i step outside these days: *through clenched teeth* i don't owe the world to be pretty, i have a right to exist and be seen even when i'm ugly, i don't owe the world to be pretty
#no matter what i do in terms of makeup/styling/clothes the current state of my weight makes it impossible for me to look good#and also my mental health is in such bad shape that i don't really have the energy to keep up with makeup and styling like i used to#tw ed#sorry for the negative weight talk hopefully an ed tw filters it out for those of you who don't want to see it#personal
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Ed and Izzy: Cleaning up the mess
As of the end of Ep7, Ed has left Stede and his whole life behind because "he doesn't even know who he is". And I'd like to suggest in this rambling essay that Ed's journey to self-knowledge and self-love can't properly begin before he's come to terms with what happened with Izzy.
Although Ed has steadily been trying to make amends, at the start of Ep6 he's still feeling unsettled and guilty as hell about the terrible things he did (was capable of!): killing his dad, condemning his whole crew to certain death, Izzy's toe, shooting Izzy, being "killed" by Jim and the crew with Izzy looking on...
There's a surprising amount of Izzy in Ed's flashback (I was honestly surprised the toe cutting made it in - somehow the whole discussion around "Izzy deserving it" made me think Ed thought so as well? But of course he doesn't think that. Izzy does.)
And while Ed's central conflict is his underlying self-hatred and self-doubt, there still is a daily reminder of all of his worst tendencies and (still very recent) acts right under his nose.
I think I got all the poison out of my system...
...or not. The indestructible fucker's still here.
Izzy is Ed’s walking and talking guilt room and no amount of deflecting, story-telling or sugarcoating can turn that poison into positivity.
Stede, I love you for your sometimes naive, sweet outlook on life (and Ed does too), but Ed and Izzy, that’s years and years of love and devotion, resentment and hate, building each other up and tearing each other down. They’ve just come out of the absolute worst breakup in history, with so many things unsaid and unknown they’d need the whole of S3 to talk it through.
Stede applying his motivational poster line to Izzy of all people is a little bit tone deaf, especially because it happens right while Izzy’s singing a bittersweet love song about/to Ed.
Which he continues, in French, while Ed and Stede are having sex for the first time so that's definitely not helping. I wonder how good Ed's French is, but it is honestly almost comical to imagine Ed cheating on Iz making love to his new boyfriend while his ex is singing his heart out about „It's only him for me, and me for him, for life - he told me, he swore to me, for life“.
So Izzy's still here. Izzy is still visibly hurting, physically (your fault!!) and mentally (your fault as well in so many ways). And you're already over it and having fun with your new boyfriend? Of course not.
Whatever they were/are to each other specifically, Ed and Izzy were as good as married. They spent almost every day together for decades. Izzy let himself be maimed and hurt over and over again out of love and loyalty. And Ed feels very, very guilty about it. Even if this guilt is not the first thing constantly on Ed's mind, it's certainly there in the background, simmering.
On the other hand, Izzy is the one who kept Ed stationary - they had a good, secure (for pirates anyway) life together, why risk change? I don't think Izzy had noticed (or wanted to notice) how bad it'd gotten for Ed for a long time. So there's also a lot of resentment there from Ed's side, all tied up with Izzy.
It's a very complicated mess and I think that all this is at least part of the reason for Ed's confusion and need to... just go.
But that's not all, by far.
History repeating itself...
...maybe this seems a bit familiar?
We don't know a lot of Ed&Izzy's backstory (apart from: it's a long one!), but I think it's (almost) canon that it is Izzy's job to make sure Ed is content and safe and, most importantly, to kill for Ed.
And even though their relationship (whatever it was) probably didn't start out as tender and sweet as Ed/Stede, I think they started out much more carefree and happy, possibly excited and adventurous. Until their lifestyle took a toll on both of them - Izzy as Ed's killer and constant protector and Ed as Blackbeard, who Ed started to resent more and more. In the end, all that was left were two broken people in a codependent relationship.
Now it seems like gentle, sweet Stede is slowly turning into Izzy 2.0 - swearing (as far as I remember, Stede almost never said fuck in S1), becoming a "real pirate", and worst of all, killing for Ed even though Ed almost begged him not to (seems familiar?).
Plus, this is happening when Ed, still freshly traumatized from his stint as pirate extreme wants nothing to do with violence in general and piracy specifically. Least of all he wants Stede damaged (or izzyfied).
Stede seemed like a way out of pirating, a chance for a loving, fulfilling relationship. Maybe even a way out of his relationship with Izzy, who I think Ed (subconsciously?) blames for the destructive path his life had taken.
Now he isn't so sure anymore if Stede actually wants this.
Talk it through...
...eventually, maybe. Hopefully.
Of course, not every obstacle Ed has to face, every step on the road to self-love and happiness is about Izzy. Vice versa, Izzy is much more than his relationship with Ed, and he has his own problems independent from him.
But this "marriage" with Izzy was Ed’s longest and most important relationship, and also the last relationship before Stede. The way their relationship became restrictive, damaging and unescapable in the end was both their faults. It'd be quite natural if Ed was a bit cautious with that kind of history. Am I a person who always ends up like this? How did we fuck up this badly? Is there a way out?
Most importantly though, a lot of Ed’s guilt and self-doubt is wrapped up in Izzy - if you're capable of doing that (and that, and that) to the person you love - what else are you capable of?
In conclusion, Ed and Izzy need real closure, one way or the other. Before that happens, Ed won't be happy on any way he chooses, and certainly not in his relationship with Stede.
At the moment, they're not talking, really. It's incredibly sweet though, the way they make these little concessions towards the other (Izzy doing much more than Ed, as per usual). They're almost shy, asking for advice, giving reassurance and understanding, and sharing bottles, smiles and looks.
Will they get a long heart-to-heart in the finale? Of course not, there's not enough time. I think we might get a symbolic moment though.
Ed already knows Izzy loves him. Izzy really doesn't know (on top of everything else, poor kid). The only thing he got from Ed was the "Sorry 'bout your leg", even the latch got a bit more.
Izzy needs to hear that too. "It's not your fault you're broken. You didn't break you. Just trying to do your job, weren't you?"
(btw, I love that Ed is softly blowing onto the latch here, while Izzy is doing the same to his little shark <3)
It's also possible Izzy will get his "I loved you, best I could" in person. Hopefully not exactly in those words. But, for both of them, this will be a start to open proper communication (which might happen offscreen between seasons).
And when we get S3, Ed will be (more) prepared to embark on his journey to happiness, with or without Izzy by his side.
#ofmd#ofmd s2 spoilers#edward teach#izzy hands#ofmd meta#Ed's got this Izzy-shaped rucksack on his back#it's not all about Izzy as a person it's what Izzy stands for#this was just from Ed's perspective - Izzy's also in dire need of something more#TALK boys
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top 5 blazblue character designs
YIPPEE BLAZBLUE
I feel like my tastes are known but I still will take this chance to gush a bit about the characters and design philosophy of em that Ive always been real fond of :)
No particular order here or else I'll be here all night formatting on mobile. More under the cut!
HAKUMEN it goes without saying I LOVE HAKUMEN'S DESIGN SO MUCH. The taloned tabi, the silhouette of wide pants and closefitted shinguards/torso. The faces/eyes scattered across his armour while the face is totally blank—made more unreadable and inhuman by the slats of neck guard. Fox-ears built into the helm shape to feel both animal and mechanical like antennae...and obviously the longass hair to sell the "tailed" look.
I remember reading really early on into liking BlazBlue—I can't remember the source, come maul me if I'm wrong—I read that Hakumen as a character and design was made when Mori was in middle or highschool, the idea of "what is really cool," and much of those ideas stayed. I not only really respect that and think its charming as someone who still likes MY own designs from that time, but, as it turns out, middle schoolers are still right. Hakumen is very cool. Augh. Fucking? Time travelling fox-robot samurai who's here to kill his brother to save him and also himself because his old self wanted to do the same thing for the wrong reason and thay thought disgusts him. Also him and Tsubaki in general make me start to choke (positive). God ok I have four more guys to discuss. Yes i also like Susanoo but I feel like thats a copout, I like that he's both animalistic and brutal martial arts as the God of War. Anyways CONTINUING
VALKENHAYN R HELLSING I will admit that he is an old man in a suit and that speaks to me but that he's one of the strongest beings alive as a old man in a suit ohh. And he's a werewolf ohhhh. Shifting just his body parts to kick and rip with his claws, quickly leaping back and forth between a normal bone-breaking jab or knee or biting and snarling—the dance between raw force and refined precision and a brutal tear's always been sooo cool to see and think about. I also think his ribbon in his hair moving to his wolfy tail is very cute. A man of sharp extremes from refined to flashing his fangs, human and wolf, cool and very cute. I like him :)
TSUBAKI YAYOI her uniform is so nice uruururururugh. Big cape and the way it drapes around her in combat like wings... Her sword and buckler/Izayoi looking so unique for being a "basic sword and shield for the hero"-type of deal! The eye on her hat's always been really striking too—the only "cold" colours being her and her uniforms eyes.....................Sparing a glance at Hakumen's recurring red eyes for no reason here. Knightly angel women and her flower-like "tassets" hanging off her clothes. Its a uniform which plausibly feels like it could be a uniform—she doesn't have anything uniquely "hers" or "for this female character" while still being really standout and clean. Her design's just really good guys. You can do so much.
Really want to mention her masked look too at least really quick here. my girllllll...
RAGNA THE BLOODEDGE well of course I really like his design. Yeah him being here is partially obligation because I love his character a lot but both things inform each other in the end. Mr Grim Reaper, Enemy of the World, red-and-black with a demon's arm on one side and a rebuilt one on the other. His big red coat and the oversize shoulders! The massive baggy pants—I love the silhouette he has. Blood Scythe/Aramasa/His sword transforming and able to clack around and shift's just. Always been such a cool design. Seithr-powered man, devil-smoke powered man, ashes of your own old dead self-powered man. Ragna is fucking cool auauauuuaghrhg.
And it DOES only make it more charming that he has a good heart, has a bit of a Kicked Puppy charm about him if you can pardon uhh that implication. He is just some fucking guy and he likes barbecues. He is sweet and cares for stray cats. His dad is a cat. He blows up the government regularly. He's a rebel who visually looks really clean if "intentionally trying to look like someone you should think is cool", which is both dork-charming and cute and also actually yeah cool because it's not a visual mess.
I like that his arm underneath is all belts and bandaged—Bloodedge only wearing half his coat for example is such a good look and it shows his clean black shirt underneath, which feels a lot like... Under that big eyecatching rebel coat of his (personality), Ragna's... Ragna, I don't know. I hope that makes sense. Knowing his personality makes me like his design a lot more than if I didn't I think.
As mentionned in Hakumen's block of text however: I already really like chuuni-ass designs, so combined in Ragna he makes me unwell entirely.
And last (I am running out of images allowed per post :((((( )
Kitty peepaw. I am cheating slightly here. I like the Kaka Kittens' big hoods too and think they're very cute and very eyecatching and I adore them always—the kittens especially being stompy little things that travel in packs are really cute. I love that Jubei, actual strongest thing in the world, has the oversized paw sleeves too. There's cat claws bigger than his body stored in what looks like emo kids' oversize hoodie sleeves. He's so simple and still the imagery of that coat gets reused several times over and it looks good every time. Orange kitty peepaw. AND he has an eyepatch, how can I not like eyepatches.
There are my 5 favourite BlazBlue designs :> Sorry if them all being C series or smth is boring wauh. I can spend as long as I want thinkinh about it but I do always seem to come back to these guys, give or take one change depending on the mood. Unchanging faves are Hakumen and Tsubaki for sure and forever though.
#LONG POST#REALLY FUCKING LONG POST#IF MY READMORE BREAKS I AM SO SORRY EVERYONE. I AM PUTTING A BUNCH OF TAGS TO HOPEFULLY DISSUADE SHOWING UP IN MAINTAGS#JUUUUST IN CASE..... ANYWAYS#smellpelt#BB designs have an important place in my heart but these guys especially have a special place in my Brain#To the extent they're a sort of inspiration I jiggle around in there for fun in shapes and clothing and pushing it around/reusing/etc#I dont have much to say about them but I like to think about their design choice: Azrael Kagura and aforementioned Susanoo#Azrael's coat kick esp and the sort of. i guess wrestler aura around him. I can't pick it apart but like it. the pant leg sleeve is neat#Kagura I like holding him up to Jin comparatively. You can read his personality off the difference with the open shirt+I prefer#How Kagura's mantle+loose flappy sleeves look to Jin's. Is it the detail? It feels there's more to 'read' there. I like his ed. of uniform#And while Kag is wearing tight fitted pants I like them more than how thin Jin's legwear makes it look. just personal pref idk#Susanoo (MUST DIE starts playing loudly) it is known.#blazblue#Thank u for your prompt i lov and mis blazblue so bad forever mwah mwah I love you BlazBlue#My asks
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i think deadfire's little animations for the companions should be the standard in crpgs tbh
#aloth slouching on his book ed*r smoking xoti waving around her lamp#and ofc tekehu dancing with his water shapes and waving his hair jskdkansk he has so much personality#chef's kiss 10/10 beautiful just beautiful
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i'm so combustible today
#boink#jsyk i made this post and then dropped and shattered my favorite mug#actually not a big deal at all but#fuck#yeah#it is stupid how important that dumb little cup was to me#it is stupid how attached i get to physical objects and things#there is no emotional significance of that random mug#other than i use it all the time#and it was perfectly shaped and designed and sized to fit just the right amount of milk and coffee#and it made me happy to look at and hold and use#i mean i use it every day#it's my mug#it's a part of my routine#it's as important as the coffee#which is just fucking ridiculous if i really think about it#but i've always been weirdly touchy abt the uses of things#i had my tea mug and then it got un tea mug-ed bc my sibling kept using it even though i asked them not to#i have my spoons and forks and butter knives and plates and my special bowl for different purposes#and i /know/ it's all completely redundant#and it's always vaguely upsetting when ppl take my stuff and use it for other purposes#but now my probably most important cup is completely broken and there is no amount of washing and storing that can rejuvenate it#so#:)#i think i might be the worst person ever
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favorite albums/albums that have shaped you
I was tagged by @little-miss-scare-all666 ! Danke Liebling! 🖤✨️
I decided to go for a mix of faves and ones that shaped me since childhood (can you guess which are which?? :P):
I shall tag: @melancholic--soull @hymnsandhearses @drum-cu-naluci @seraphinesaintclair @wernerherzoghaircut @amarantoo @welcome-home-nyx and anyone else who would like to do this! ^.^ No pressure for anyone tagged ofc
#i realise i barely put any classic rock on here even tho that definitely shaped me as a person ahaha#but tbf it was always tracks and not full albums#but now i do enjoy albums more#but anyway that's why there's a lack of rock on here#as you can see i listen(ed) to pretty much anything :P#there's a movie version of this too omg I'm totally doing that too#tag games#music
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it's rlly fun how my parents just straight up. do not care. about the disordered eating. we had all this talk back when i went through a big suicidal crisis a couple months ago, i explained what was really difficult for me, eating socially, restaurants, not choosing my food, etc, and now it's like. okay it didn't exist actually.
mother i am not going to order you around, either you accept that i'm gonna have difficulty dealing with "normal people behavior" or whatnot and you stop looking at me like :/ anytime i am anything but ecstatic at the idea of eating anything anytime anyhow, or you adapt your behavior to avoid the results you don't like to see. i'm only doing my best to handle things from my side, and i am certainly not going to try measuring for you how important family social eating occurences are to you.
#''we should talk abt it uwu'' WE TALKED ABOUT IT. STOP COMPLAINING THAT DOING STUFF THAT I CAN'T EASILY HANDLE MAKES ME WEIRD.#EITHER YOU ASSUME IT'S GOING TO MAKE ME WEIRD BECAUSE YOU KNOW EXACTLY HOW AND WHY#OR YOU STOP DOING IT IF IT'S SO UWU HEARTBREAKING UWU FOR YOU TO WATCH#i'm not happy about how guilty i am too of that specific brand of ''oh this is so sad *continues doing nothing*'' form of ''compassion''#they just want me to perform anorexia recovery for them#so they can feel okay we're doing a good job at raising a normal child#they don't give a shit as long as the compusive eating is my mom's meal at the dinner table#just like they didnt care when i had roughly the same problems but not as bad before i had a restrictive phase#i cannot compromise because then WHAT im just hurting my parents for a situation that doesnt make me any happier either?#i do not want to live with them. i do not want to go place or do activities with them.#i dont want to talk to them most of the time and im perfectly willing to handle the times it could be cool to.#but it's really hard to start developping a life of your own when you first of all need like two weeks of total life-reset#quiet at home#and ''at home'' there's your parents who will simply not stop trying to pull you into going random bullshit places#and i can't say no. because the places ARE interesting and time-limited. and it makes them happy. and what am i gonna do anyway?#keep doing nothing on the computer and wait for them to come back to keep doing only the shittiest parts of this unsatisfactory routine?#try to do some work in the house or go out. for them to see that something happened?#i dont know how to live like a normal person#literally not once in my life have i been able to think ''oh i need to do X'' and then just. do X. prepare what's necessary for doing X.#go out and do X. i have to keep stuck at this computer or in this room or with this book.#because there is a million different obstacles to every single thing i'm trying to achieve and half of them are parents-shaped.#everything hurts holy shit#broadcasting my misery#vent#ed tw
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tonight i couldn't brush my teeth, so i used mouthwash instead, and that's enough.
tonight i couldn't wash my face, but i took off my makeup, and that's enough.
today i couldn't clean my room, but i moved most of my clothes out of my way, and that's enough.
today i couldn't mask all day, so i only masked for customers, and that was MORE than enough. (side note, you don't owe masking to anyone, if you feel safe then unmasking is GOOD. i work customer service and often mask reflexively, if i know i don't have the energy, i avoid situations where i would need to mask. ie i avoid looking at customers as i pass them so i don't reflexively smile.)
today i couldn't cook, so i ate some ingredients, and that's enough.
today it was hard for me to do things, but it didn't feel like a bad day because i didn't make myself do those things. i only did what i was able to do to not let it be a problem. i know i can't just not care for my teeth or my skin. i know i shouldn't just let my space be a mess. i know I can't just not eat. but that doesnt mean i need to do those things perfectly.
eating some reheated noodles and sliced cheese isn't as good for me as a full, nutritious meal, but it's better than not eating at all.
putting my clean clothes that were on the floor into a hamper (of all clean clothes) isn't as good as putting them away, but it's better than leaving them where i'll trip on them
i know I can't half-do everything every day. but i have to half-do something most days. very rarely can i fully do everything for a whole day. i brush my teeth twice a day most days (but even then most of the time i can't do the full two minutes). i wash my face twice a day most days. i cook at least one meal for myself most days (at work i typically buy a meal i don't have to cook myself) it's okay that some days, i can't do those things.
you Do Not Ever owe Anyone perfection.
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start pt. (side note, you don't owe masking to anyone, if you feel safe then unmasking is GOOD. i work customer service and often mask reflexively, if i know i don't have the energy, i avoid situations where i would need to mask. ie i avoid looking at customers as i pass them so i don't reflexively smile.) end pt.
i just didn't want to take up too much space on that segment
#autism#actually autistic#disability#chronic disability#this blog primarily documents my ed recovery but it IS my personal mental health blog so i get to post this here. so there.#(<<Fake angry/defensive. in jest)#this ended up way longer than i planned#if you are disabled in any way shape or form you deserve to lessen the quality of your performance to improve the quality of your life.#i'd rather have less than perfect teeth than kill myself because life is too hard.
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dropping out and becoming a sims youtuber. i don't want to write papers anymore
#okay if i get through this semester and my writing-heave classes everything will get so much better#i'm going to school to learn about shapes and colors i don't want to write MLA formatted papers... alas. but i must#don't get it twisted i'm not one of those 'ugh gen eds are so useless why do i have to take these & not only classes for my major' people#personally i love taking astronomy. does it have anything to do with graphic design? FOOL. yes. everything has to do with design.#who's out there making those fancy charts and diagrams?
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literally I don't care if you think plastic surgery is dumb when it saves and improves so many lives 'oh so you're justifying x celebrity's seventh nose job' no you idiot there's nuance im protecting the sixteen year old with a deformed spine & ribs from having breasts too large for her frame im defending skin grafts & replacements for people with injuries and congenital deformities im protecting gender affirming care im defending peoples right to have teeth that don't abscess and kill them im protecting the mom who's painfully tucking her nipples into her jeans waistband because she didn't know she had eds before having children im defending the grandpa that went functionally blind in one eye because a mole got too large im protecting the people who can't breathe properly out of their noses and literally everyone else whose lives could even marginally be improved by plastic surgery. there's a difference between being influenced to that extent by rampantly enforced western beauty standards and fucking caring for people
#sick of having to explain the difference between ppl being pressured to 'slim their noses down' and like. actual care. you cannot ban or#bash one without banning or bashing sorry#*both not sorry#you either think people deserve some control over their bodies or you don't full fucking stop#'but wah I don't like people changing their eye shapes or lip shapes wah it's disingenuous wah' cry harder baby#I saw a video of people tattooing their stretch marks to be their 'normal skin tone' and it was labeled 'cosmetic surgery' sorry it's not in#the same category for me. that falls both under body mods (tattoos & piercings & inserts & splits) AND the type of cosmetic surgery that I'm#not referencing. even as someone with EXCESSIVE stretchmarks from eds that still falls under 'warped by beauty standards' for me sorry you#have to have skin that acts like skin?????#still not mad enough to BAN it tho or SAY IT MAKES YOU A BAD PERSON TO DO. if it makes you happier good for you but please dear god address#whatever issue that's driving it (whether it's fatphobia or antisemitism or racism or whatever)
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Me: I am having a really bad brain day. Like all it takes is one little push and I'm gonna fall apart.
Tumblr: Do yoy want BPD memes??? Constantly tagged 'Actual BPD' and 'Borderline Personality Disorder' and 'BPD Mood'???
Me: Ah shit, why are those relatable wtf??
Tumblr: How about self harm posts that type like tw cvts and s3lf ha//rm and censor d3press10n
Me: Wow I magically don't feel like I'm spralling into insanity.
PSA don't censor your goddamned fucking tags. If you're gonna post about cutting and self harm and smoking and replasing and you fucking type it out like #cvts s3lf #ha//rm #d3press10n go back to fucking Twitter and TikTok or learn to properly tag your goddamned shit.
Stop censoring your fucking trigger tags, you assholes. No one is going to learn fifty different fucking ways that you want to spell legitamate fucking triggers because you are typing in The TikTokified Fucking L33T sp34k.
If you're fucking tagging a goddamned trigger, type out the whole fucking word. People blocking out #pro ed and #self harm (like me!! who has both of those tags blocked!!) STILL sees your fucking vent posts because y0y typ3 l!k3 th1s so no 0ne s//ees y0ur posts while you romanticize being a direct danger to yourself.
#like no offense to people that cut#I get it I get the urges#and like everything I understand the urge/desire/need to validate your issues by posting them#but also I don't wanna see that shit#it's also creepy that any semblance of an alorgithm will go 'oh you feel like shit? here's more like that'#to begin with it's a garbage system#but the fact that it specifically escalates from 'depression' and 'vent' to 'self harm' and 'ed'#is absolutely disgusting#and I will wholly say anyone who tagged their tr1gg3r p0sts l!ke th//is: fuck you#I thought that was a fucking myth and a joke when it started circling around#I have so many feelings about the pro self harm/pro ed blogs. shit like 'I'm nothing without my cuts' bitch not with that fucking attitude#I was THERE I GET it but holy shit dude you can be shaped by your mental illness and not brag about it#and the more that you FEED into these circles and the more you MAKE 'self harm' your ONLY PERSONALITY TRAIT...#it's a self fufilling cycle honey#yeah you're nothing without self harm and hating yourself because YOU made yourself that way#YOU made it your only personality trait and now YOU feel consumed by it and YOU are LETTING IT CONSUME YOU MORE#but it's not my place to step in either you grow up and realize you were young and stupid or you never make it to adulthood#but still either way#I don't want to see that shit#so properly tag your fucking posts#there should not be THREE different fucking suicide tags with exclamation marks#there are already so many variants to fucking block
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I appreciate the sentiment but for many of us, it's really, really not.
PE fucked me up as a kid/teen. I don't dislike exercise but I do dislike my entire class being punished for exercises that I'm unable to do (we had to run extra lines if even one student in the class took too long to complete them). I dislike almost passing out and throwing up on the gymnasium floor because I pushed myself too hard trying not to let my classmates down and my teacher wouldn't let me go drink water or slow down to work within my own limits until an activity was finished.
The first panic attacks I ever had developed just after I turned 13 and they were about going to PE, to the extent where my mom got me some (pseudo-therapy) help specifically to work through my anxiety over it.
I wasn't even out of shape. I was a relatively active kid and did some team sports. In hindsight it turns out I have tachycardia which creates exercise intolerance (in my case basically an inability to run/jog), but instead of acknowledging my limits or helping me, I was shamed by PE teachers and by my peers in that class for failing to perform to a standard that I was physically incapable of ever meeting.
In adulthood, I can work within my own limits. I can determine which exercises I can do and which ones make me lightheaded, and when I do feel unwell, other adults around me check in and respect those limits and issues, even without having any idea I might have a heart/autonomic basis for them. No one restricts my access to getting a drink of water nor punishes me or my peers for my shortcomings.
PE isn't awful because it's exercise. It's awful when/because the educators involved don't respect the children in their care, especially those who aren't able to perform to a certain standard. The punitive nature of it is the problem, not the activity itself.
just remember it could always be worse. we could still have PE.
#PE class#others have said it elsewhere and better#pe teachers often penalize people who are neurodivergent or disabled or overweight or or or -#it's great that this seems(?) to be changing and that it doesn't happen to everyone#but about 12-14 years ago when i had disordered eating issues and atypical purge behaviour through exercise#it was my PE teacher's voice in the back of my head telling me to suck it up and how he hates complainers#and the feeling of shame that maybe i am just weak and out of shape that stopped me from looking into my heart issues#sorry i feel really really strongly about this#phys ed class and exercise are hemispheres apart in my personal experience
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