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tiktaalic · 1 year ago

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tortured poets review. by song

fortnight: fine. sounds like a song. one of the lana drag ones. the actual lyrical content is nothing special. i would not have made this track one. 6/10

tortured poets department: kind of exactly what you would expect from a taylor swift album called tortured poets department. it's silly. it's got references. it makes you go. girl? already less distinct musically. 3/10

my boy only breaks his favorite toys: the consequence of doing lana drag is that you listen to songs and go this would be a lot better if lana got her chords on it. fundamentally not a song that i can enjoy from taylor allison swift. a song i would respect in lana of video games fame catalogue once she strips it down. not like head turningly strange like tpd just plain and simple middle of the road. 4/10

down bad: this one is unlistenable for me. cant explain why. probably the chorus of down bad. i think it's tooooooo silly too silly by far when taylor swift does how do you do fellow teens vocabulary. 2/10

so long london: i can see the place that this takes on my spotify wrapped. lyrics are fine. good even. this + backing + doing something even the littlest bit different from soft monotone talk singing makes it one of the most memorable on this album by miles. probably not near the top of most memorable in her hundreds deep bench though. can't think of anything to dock it for but it's no belter. 8/10.

but daddy i love him: yeah okay. i love when she does a silly one. i think the instrumentals are nice. i'm having his baby. no i'm not! but you should see your face. easily i would listen to an album that was full of songs to this theme / musicality. points docked because i dont think she knows it's as silly as it is. 7/10.

fresh out the slammer: bored. i just looked at the lyrics and they're passable but they're performed in the most boring possible manner. stupidest name imaginable. i actually might bump it a point or two if the name was different. 4/10

florida: makes me go yaaaaaay florence every time i hear it. taylor's part halsey 2014 core. could have been worse! if i was in charge of cutting tracks i would keep this one. 6/10

guilty as sin: started it went oh i'm docking this one for boring. read the first quarter of lyrics and went oh this is fine? got to second half and went oh i don't care for this. can imagine a world where it's a better song with different backing and emphasis. 5/10

whose afraid of little old me: i dont think it's good necessarily but i love every song where shes like im craaaazy im insane. i think for the concept it's going for it could have been put together differently. 6/10

i can fix him: i like the way it sounds. but could use more oomph. it's so nice to hear guitars though. don't care for the subject matter. 5/10

loml: snooze. boring lyrics. boring performance. 4/10

i can do it with a broken heart: BAFFLING. easily the me / karma of the album. the tonal mismatch is the point but . well. it is what it is. i would like this more if it WAS a barbie soundtrack release i think. then it would have an extra layer of silly. i think this might make my wrapped. unfortunately. 5/10.

smallest man who ever lived: who gives a shit about matty healy. 4/10

the alchemy: head in my hands. head in my hands. football song. it's so over. and we are never going to be so back. 3/10

clara bow: i like the intro. i can't see myself ever doing more than half humming this. lyrics are whatever. fine, passable. 6/10

the black dog: yeah it's fine. no complaints. guitar 👍. 6/10

getyouback: why would you EVER tee yourself up perfectly to be compared to a better song. 3/10

albatross: oh i liked this one on first listen. 7/10.

chloe sam sophia marcus: outing song ‼️‼️‼️divorce music‼️‼️‼️. nothing too exciting or groundbreaking musically. 5.5?

how did it end: um. it gets points for being #real but not much else. 5/10.

so high school: i think i would like it if it was even a TOUCH less heterosexual. i would cut 3 lines that would turn it into a 6. i can see this song in someone else's hands dominating the radio and me loving that. in taylor's hands i'm giving it a 5/10.

i hate it here: not interesting. next. 4/10

thank you aimee: out of respect for taylor swift's struggles i will withhold comment and rating. -_-

look in people's windows: lyrics aren't bad but it's another one that's not really. doing anything. 4/10

the prophecy: yeah i'll give this one a 7/10. i would have one (1) greige complaint if this was on folkevermore but that's pretty damn solid.

cassandra: passing it and moving on. that's as much as it deserves. 5/10

peter: lyrics get a thumbs up. another 5.5? i could be talked into a six.

the bolter: yes girl commitment issues. 6/10. actually. 7/10.

robin: jesus god this album is too long. i have listened to too much taylor swift tpd to give this any kind of rating.

the manuscript: 5/10. like if woulda coulda shoulda had no beat

thank you for sharing this journey. with me and also taylor swift

#etxt #t swift

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kali-lamb · 8 months ago

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im 100% late for this but OH WELL (kali is the goddess of life btw) BLOG RULES!!!! ---------------------------------------------------- Mod things [Talks like this] pronouns: She/They (demi-girl) names for mod: Mod, Green, Coi, Azai Be patient with me, i dont understand things well -------------------------------------------------- 1. one the -8% possibility PLEASEEEE don't get thirsty (I will cry violently) 2. Remember, none of my Lambsona is canon 3. because of my situation i often answer at night 4. remember this is an art blog too, i will random drop in lore, or me fighting Kallie again 5. This happened on my Sozo account, PLEASE dont put "go.fund.me asks" as questions. or any thing asking for help, i will only delete them because they do not belong on my Acc's and i CANNOT PAY, i am BROKE, please stop tagging me in these aswell 5. remember, we say some crazy stuff here. Swearing, Adult jokes and Cananblistic things are all said here. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

I don't think I have more to say lol, ask and have fun!!! Kali talks like this <<Kali's Actions>> [Mod talks like this] ----------------------------------------------------OTHER BLOGS [that dont belong to me] The one who waits "Narinder"- @ask-theredcrown House cat Narinder "Narinder" - @follower-nari-blog The Bishop of chaos "Leshy" - @ask-thegreencrown The Bishop of Famine "Heket" - @askthe-yellowcrown Another heket, Yarnors mother figure @ask-theyellowcrown The bishop of pestilence "Kallamar" -@ask-thebluecrown The bishop of War and Knowledge "Shamura" -@ask-thepurplecrown The lamb before all the nightmares take hold @lambpregame the cult leader "the Lamb" - @askacultleader Ascended lamb "Lamb" @no-less-than-a-lambgod ---------------------------------------------------- Other friends and foes [I own the Sozo one] She of sleep @the-sleepydragon The little Poet - @askthe-littlepoet The mushroom addict "Sozo" - @ask-sozo-the-ant The cannibalistic spider "Helob" - @helob-the-spiderMy brother "Sean" - @pbamoney Techinclly my Nephew!! "Tug" @tug6056 Our little brother "Yarnor" - @yarnor-the-timid-raccoon (new acc cuz old one was hacked) An Insane version of my little brother. a monstrous version indeed @the-insane-raccoon-creator First dude i revived as goddess of life(?) "?" @spellcaster-dude The TV guy whos no longer in a tv...? "scanny" @scannys-back The nebula anon! "neb" @thenebulaanon Nebs Aunt "Andromida" @forgottenaunt-andromeda Cult Of The Alpaca "denny" @askdennycotl My baby Slugcats!!!! "Salt And Sura" @saltandsura-slugcats What remains of the Anon Inc @whatremains-of-anoninc The taloring spider "alina" @spider-anons-tailor-shop My brothers partner "Darkwood Hunter" @ask-darkwood-hunter THE FOG??? @the-foggy-remnants The followers of the old faith @the-followers-of-the-old-faith Neb AUS @intothecosmos-neb-aus New sister!!! "ellie" oh and a vessel i guess @ask-ellie-and-navi My goat counterpart and god of sleep "somnus" @mangoorou She of Purgatory @sheofpurgatory The clicking hunter @cold-and-hardened-insect Do not threaten me again, 'Angel' @death-angel-01 The Fox, The Owl, and the Alien @bruno-thebloodthirstyanon The Cakeine "Sprinklezz" @sprinklezztheanon ------------------------------------------------- The blogs I own Kali - @kali-lamb (where you are right now) Azai(or Coi) - @azai-coi (mod acc) ----------------------------------------------------Information about the Lambsona AU i use

[so basically shes the lamb from a different dimension, like the goat. she somehow dimension hopped though and everything back home for her is gone now, so she stays. in her world they burned the lambs instead of beheading them. and her bishops/chained god are different] [Leshy = Soren (Snail)]

[Heket = linkino (lizard)]

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ipostwhatiwant1202 · 1 year ago

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Reaction Text pt 2: You break up for the day to appreciate The Tortured Poets Department

note: all the swifties, how are we feeling? the album is a whole ass BOP and i feel emotionally attacked. my favs are who's afraid of little old me, loml, down bad, the manuscript, and the title track

Leo:

Leo: hi hun! is it safe to come over to your apartment? 💙

You: i'm so mad at you

Leo: for what!?

You: I DONT KNOW 😓

Leo: okay that's it, you're grounded from taylor until further notice. 🤦‍♂️

You: IM SORRY HAVE YOU LISTENED TO IT

You: LISTEN TO LOML AND THEN TELL ME I CANT BE MAD AT YOU. 😡

Leo: i will be doing no such thing.

You: listen to it or i wont talk to you for the entire weekend.

Leo: FINE. 🙄

Leo: so um...you're allowed to be mad at me for the next 24 hours.

You: that's what i thought.

Raph:

You: RAPHAEL.

Raph: oh hey babe! 🥰

You: DONT HEY BABE ME

You: HOW DARE YOU. 😡

Raph: how dare i what!?

You: HOW DARE YOU BE IN LOVE WITH ME.

Raph: um....i'm sorry that i'm in love with you...? how dare i do that..?

You: AND YOU TREAT ME SO NICELY. 😤

Raph: let me guess. you listened to the alchemy and so high school back to back? 😐

You: maybe.

Raph: i love you and i adore you and you're the best thing in my life 😘

Raph: but good god your well being concerns me.

Donnie:

Donnie: sweetie? do i need to come do a hearing test?

You: LEAVE ME ALONE

Donnie: that bad, huh?

You: i hate you and i dont know why. 🥲

Donnie: okay well i love you so you hating me is not gonna change that 💜

You: i cant relate her songs to our break up and its making me mad

You: be mean to me for once, will you? i need to bask in the smallest man who ever lived

Donnie: yeah that's not going to happen

You: but why 😑

Donnie: i could never be mean to someone so sweet

Donnie: and you scare me a lot so if i am ever mean to you, i'll fear for my life 😬

You: that's so sweet of you 😭

Mikey:

You: it sucks that my boyfriend is a nice guy 😞

Mikey: why do you say that?

You: CAUSE TAYLOR

You: YOURE NICE AND HER EXES ARE DOUCHEBAGS.

Mikey: i can be a douchebag

You: to me? 🥺

Mikey: no! never to you my sweet little angel bug 🧡

You: THEN HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO ENJOY THIS ALBUM AND SONG THE PROPHECY 😡

Mikey: i just think of all my other failed attempts at love and that's worked 🤷

You:......are you okay?

Mikey: totally!

Mikey: just never ask any of my bros about the modeling phase and we'll be fine

#rise of the tmnt #tmnt 2012 #tmnt ask blog #tmnt bayverse #tmnt donatello #tmnt leonardo #tmnt michelangelo #tmnt raphael #ask blog #tmnt 2003 #tmnt headcanons #tmnt imagine

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 8 months ago

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Hi hello I watched all of carmilla in a weekend when I was 17 because a student teacher who in retrospect I had a bit of a crush on mentioned that she knew one of the actresses. also I am pretty invested in all your recent vampire stuff because I watched iwtv in 2 days last week because your edit intrigued me

oh hiiii 🫶 thank you for indulging me. thats so cool that you watched iwtv! did it live up to the expectation?

i also watched carmilla at 17! or like, 17-19. i found it when s2 had just started and followed it to the end. did something permanent to my brain but i think it was a good thing. on rewatch now im like, i was right to like this. like it's a solid show, it's good. it has its flaws obviously but it's well written, the emotional moments still get me, i can see why i liked it and i still like it now even when it's not anymore, you know, meeting every need that baby gay me didnt even know they had

what it doesnt reaallyy do though - i dont remember if i posted abt this or if i left it in my drafts but - is explore vampirism as a concept. their subject matter is more lesbianism than vampirism. which is great! thats what they wanted to do and they did it and it's very good. but reading interview with the vampire the book rn im realising how much potential vampires have to be metaphors for like so many things and i started wondering like 'wait, did carmilla just not really engage with it or did it all go over my head'. but it just didnt really engage with it all that much. which again is fine bc that wasnt what they were doing. im glad they were more about the lesbianism than the vampirism

but there's this interesting difference in framing, because in iwtv they keep calling armand 'ancient' right? and emphasising how old he is. and he's like 500? and i was like 'wait isnt carmilla like 400?'. she isnt, shes 340, but still, thats getting there, you know? and we know quite a lot about her history, but kind of just the Big Events. when she was turned, the events of the novella, coffin of blood, silas. thats sort of what we know. but none of the long lonely slog of history day to day you know? with armand i feel like we can really feel how much time everything takes. how every one of those years is made up of single days. with carmilla i dont feel that as much. i keep kind of thinking about daniel, when louis calls him a boy in the first episode, saying "im an old man, with all the triggers that come with it"

because carmilla might look 18 (or mid twenties at this point) but she has lived all that time. shes also seen her native land be claimed by like a succession of ruling powers, right? like armand. shes been buried alive, like louis. when lestat is born, shes already 80 years old, shes lived a whole human lifetime, and the entire adult part of it shes been a vampire. shes lived through 1680-1870 being a lure. i compared her to abigail hobbs in some tags on a post, i dont know if youre familiar with hannibal the tv show, but i do also kinda keep thinking about that comparison

if youre not familiar, in the first episode of hannibal the murderer of the week is this guy garrett jacob hobbs who kills and cannibalises girls who resemble his daughter. and later on it turns out she was made to be his lure. like they'd go places and he'd sent her to the victims to make friends and maybe get them back to their home or smth. not sure if they specified all the details. but that's what carmilla did for mother. and in s2 we hear from mattie that while every couple of decades carmilla had to lure victims for the fish god, she also seemed to just enjoy humans between those times, right? like the doctor, gets lonely, gets a new companion. but we've only sort of got mattie's mocking word for it ("dont eat him, hes a poet! or her, shes got such a wonderful voice. or that one, shes just too pretty to ruin"), we don't know exactly from carmilla's point of view what she was doing or why. if mattie's talking about stuff that happened after the blood coffin, 1950-now, then i think it's a fair assumption based on what carmilla says in the s1 sock puppet show that after she'd figured out what the real situation was and what her role in it was, when she'd started trying to save girls from being sacrificed, that she mightve been doing the same trying to save people from becoming mattie's victims. it's probably more likely that she was just trying to find excuses to stop mattie from sucking someone dry rather than actually having like an aesthetic based morality. but it might be a bit of both. im still trying to figure out what her philosophy actually is, like i dont know what existentialism actually means ghkfjghkj but i will

i also found it pretty striking in the movie when shes turning back into a vampire she says like "this was supposed to be done, you know? the blood lust, the self-loathing, the sleeping tied to a chair in my own bedroom". thats what defines her vampirism, wanting blood and hating yourself for it (the third part is a joke/reference to s1 but also i think meaningful for how she sees her relationship with laura when she IS a vampire. little bit of that 'she will reject me for my monstrousness' shining through). and thats what defines vampirism for lots of vampires across the genre obviously, but i dont know, it struck me. we dont get a lot from carmilla's pov, we know a fair amount about her, but the story is always told through laura. we get laura's diaries, but just snippets here and there from carmilla, what shes thinking, how shes feeling

and i love that shes a philosopher. i love that thats how she seems to try and find something to hold onto, in a world that kind of moves around her, having been murdered, kidnapped, turned and groomed to be a lure on the cusp of adulthood, never having been properly loved (the relationship with her father wasnt good she says in s3, and her mortal mother i dont think has ever been mentioned (like laura's)). the only good relationship she seems to have had for the better part of 3 centuries seems to have been mattie, and mattie seems to love being a vampire. i can imagine carmilla just sort of going along with anything mattie wants to do just because shes so desperate for that friendship. not like, against her will necessarily really. but more like, she hasnt even had the space to develop her own will, you know? and philosophy lets you do that. philosophy gives you frameworks to understand the world and to develop your own opinions on it. and by the 21st century she seems to have developed those opinions, she has a sense of her own values, but shes also still stuck in that same situation. shes jaded and cynical in the face of laura's optimism and strong moral code a lot of the time in s1 because she feels probably pretty powerless. like she does what she can to save some girls but at the end of the day shes scared of her mother and she has nowhere else to go really, right?

i like how she grapples with that over the course of the series, in tandem with laura grappling with her black and white morality. she sort of jumps ship from her mother to laura bc theyve fallen in love, but then laura still stuck in her hero thinking refuses to see her monstrous side. not literally bc i think the biological vampirism never seemed to be a problem for laura, but morally. the having murdered. carmilla needs laura to see that and love her while seeing it bc the last girl she loved rejected her for being a vampire.

but you see her kind of swing back and forth in s2. she softens first with laura but then they break up and she leans back hard into the sarcastic cynic defense mechanisms, leans hard into "im a monster, dont expect heroism from me". but thats like, it's sort of learned helplessness i think. it's powerlessness, resignation. bc morally shes not a monster. maybe she doesnt have as strong a drive to help other people as laura does and is a little more selfishly hedonistic in that she just wants to enjoy her/their life, but she doesnt hurt people for fun, she never has. she just sort of didnt have another option for a Really long time. so she pretends she doesnt care. "im a vampire, this is what i do, this is who i am". but clearly from the way she talks about it when she turns back into one, she doesnt enjoy it

and i like how she goes even further in s3, where she starts swinging even more to the heroic side, bc she sees hope. shes like "wow if we kill my mother, i'd be free". theres hope and she becomes like a lot more active. and shes like that at the start of the movie too, a lot happier, a lot more relaxed, and then vampirism is back and bam depression gfhgkjh like shes immediately more gloomy, ashamed of her past and her self, retreats into herself

sorry i just took this as an opportunity to dump all the carmilla thoughts floating in my head on you. you didnt ask fhkghgjh consider this an open invitation to you or anyone else to come talk to me about carmilla

#just finished watching the movie and i had actually forgotten but at the end shes a vampire again!#they totally gave us a super great opening for more conflict to explore hollstein's relationship #bc carmilla sort of puts closure to her past by taking responsibility for her part in it and it makes her a vampire again #and laura is like 'dont give up on our life together' and shes like 'im not giving up on anything!'#and laura is like 'we're supposed to live and get old and have grandkids how are we gonna do that if you dont age'#so thats a great set up #im putting the fic im writing i think another 5 years in the future #bc the movie is 5 years from the end of the series and im doing another 5 years so it's 2024 #but theres so much opportunity to play there. theres conflict. tehres problems to solve. but theyre in a good place #i dont think they ever specify how vampires are made in this universe #therees some posts on carmillas blog where she responds to asks abt why she doesnt turn laura or if she would #and she just says 'you have no idea how this works'#but that was still during the series and the writers obviously wanted to keep their options open and their writing cards a bit closer to #the chest #but at this point you could make laura a vampire #you could explore that. see how they both feel abt that. would bea difficult decision #theyre also not married yet in the movie #they celebrate carmilla's 'rebirthday' where she turned human again #you could do a thing where they turn laura on that same day. sort of make that their wedding #not an easy decision i think. i think it would take a lot of discussion to get them there but not impossible #and would be fun to explore. both their feelings abt all that. and like anotehr 5 years in the future where they are in their lives #idk idk. brainstorming #thanks for giving me an opportunity to infodump a little :)#carmillaposting

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just-some-random-blogger · 2 years ago

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hello, can I request an image of Morpheus in love with a stronger being that, in most of Morpheus's relationships he was the strongest because he was perpetual as would be the dynamics of the reader being the primordial chaos with Morpheus

Holy

Dream of the Endless x Angel!Reader

Summary: Dream does not appreciate the fact he is unable to help you with your problem. Being powerless blows.

Word Count: 1k+

Warnings: fem!reader, stupidly insecure!dream, jealous!dream, incredibly petty!dream, angst, typos, etc.

A/N: ??? who's stronger than the endless edit: i know now HAHHA im basing it off the comics where *spoiler* dream says he is scared of lucifer and i think he does at a point say morningstar is stronger that him idk i dont remember HAHAHH this is related to this other angel!reader fic i did, but they can both be read on their own Tagging: @pinksirensong @aralezinspace @deniixlovezelda @shadow-pancake9 @sloanexx

There not be a single speck of my body that does not yearn to see the light of your beauty; Your holy cloak of darkness that comforts my dreaming heart is all my mind beholds in weariness and joviality. Oh Star of the Night, my nightmares do I offer to grasp in your tender palm. And golden starlight do I adorn your brow, oh Harbinger of the Dusk. I implore you, strike true; pierce my ribs with your sacred blade. Claim that which is your belonging, my pulsing heart, which bleeds for you. Translated excerpt from The Bringer of Darkness & Dreams by Rasui the Poet (cir. 1600s)

Dream could only do so much for an angel of the most high. He could offer you the most solemn praises, the most gracious reverence, but then what was his worship against a desperate human, praying to their god for deliverance, and to see you as an answer?

Dream lacked the apt wherein his voice would tremble at the mere idea of you. He had seen death and destruction, they were quite literally related. Desire and delight were of his blood as well, and so a response that which would be of his siblings' manner was impossible. And so the mortal awe that would have been there at the sight of you was not.

He could offer you dreams. And Dream of Dreams did he offer for you.

Epics, mythos, odes, hymns, poems, paintings, frescos, dreams, he offered them all to you.

Yet it was not enough to comfort you during the fall of your half, your beloved twin Morningstar, who descended from grace and was banished into hell. Yet it was not enough during the battle with your Lucifer, that caused ripples and of light and dark to break into the fabrics of reality. It was not enough after the holy wars, nor after the resolution of your sibling's fate to become the ruler of hell.

For what was he to you in those moments? Beyond a spectator, beyond a Dream that could speak only so much words of comfort, for comfort was not in his nature, not really.

And even after all these eons, after loving each other during the early dawns of existence, as you walked with him, hand in hand, in Valhalla, he felt so far away, so infinitesimal against your being. He was a speck amidst the immense adoration your winged she-cousins were crying out to you with.

Dream watched as the Valkyries offered you flowers and honey and music and kisses. He watched as you, his love, was loved so tenderly.

It was most usual of them to do so, it was the natural order of things, it was only right, and yet his dark cloak seeped through the threshold of Valhalla and cut the merrymaking of the heavenly hosts almost instantly. Your smile too fades away as you turn to him.

Good.

And so you took in his darkness kindly, and bid farewell to your cousins, allowing Dream to take you into his own realm, to keep all for himself.

"Why does darkness weep from you, lover?" you ask as Dream drags you into the Dreaming, a flurry of glittering black powdering the ground in which he walked.

He decides to lead you into the throne room, where therein he allows himself to let his dark clouds pour.

Dream takes you into his hold and nuzzles his face into your neck. Readily, you wrap your arms and massive dark wings around him, muttering sweet words in the tongue of angels as comfort.

Momentarily there was comfort, but then he remembers the songs of the Valkyrie and feels spite bubble beneath him once more.

You were naturally high and mighty in stature, and he, well, his form was not bound to a body. So he decidedly makes his form smaller against you, his face no longer high enough to reach your neck. He shrinks until he can perfectly presses his face in between your soft breasts.

You look down upon him and brush his hair back, "will you not respond?"

Dream scowls, and though you could not see it, you can imagine it. "You are my lover," he mutters against you, "I do not appreciate the competition."

You furrow your brows and pull away to look at him.

He does not relent and crushes himself closer into you, "do not disrespect me in my own domain by pushing me."

"My Dream."

"Yes, yes. I am your dream, so do not wallow in the sweet figments of others," he mutters as he tightens his hold against your torso, "I am not kind or pure like you, I am me. And I am as much a Nightmare as I am Dream."

And so you do not push him away and you stand there, embracing him for a long time.

"There is no competition, as you imagine it, dearest," you say as you cradle his form, "the Valkyrie were only greeting me the way they ought to."

"I know this," he mutters, ".... I don't care."

You press your lips together as you sigh.

"Do not sigh so tragically. I am king in this realm. I shan't be offended," he says as he presses his cheek firmer into your chest.

You raise a brow and decidedly pull both your arms and wings back.

"No! No- Do not-"

"Enough!" you blurt as you separate the two of you.

Dream looks up at you, feeling his insides burn and his face harden. He feels wronged, especially with the expression you give him. His form begins to morph into shadows and inflates around the room. Your form is soon overcome with darkness, but it does not phase you. Why would it? It was matter which the creator granted you dominion.

And so you grab him by the hems of his lightlessness and rip his entity off the surface of the throne room, allowing his form to manifest and dangle in your clutch. You raise your arm and he looks back at you from where he hangs.

"I do not appreciate your outburst, my love," you say firmly, to a point where your term of endearment makes him shake.

Dream drips from your grip and clumps before you as his normal build again, though his face dredged with despair, and his eyes are unable to gaze upon yours.

"It cannot be helped, my star," he says.

A flimsy excuse.

"I could hear their dreams come into completion as they beheld you in their realm. I could not bear it."

You make it a point to contain your sigh. "Then what am I to do with you?" you take his face in your hands, "shall I retreat at every moment you allow your jealousy to cloud your better judgement?"

Dream looks at you as you raise your brows at his glimmering eyes.

He parts his lips and inhales, "yes."

"Dream--"

"If you truly love me, then-"

"If you truly love me, understand that the praise I receive from others, no matter how overwhelming, does not compare still to that which I receive from you."

Dream is motionless as he takes in your glory. He draws in a deep breath then amplifies his form. He grows in size, up until you are craning your neck up at him. Only then does he places his lips on yours and wraps his arms around you and your wings.

You revel in his touch, body nearly melting at his devotion, at his affection in one of the most intimate forms he is capable.

When you pull away, you lean into Dream's touch as he brushes your cheek, "my love... you honor me with your ceaseless patience."

You smile at him and shake your head, "I honor you with my love, you foolish spirit."

Dream lovingly examines you for a while then purses his lips into a pout as he leans into you, pressing your foreheads together, "was your visit to Valkyries truly necessary though?"

#dream of the endless x reader #dream of the endless x you #sandman fanfic #morpheus x reader #the sandman fanfic #the sandman fluff #morpheus fanfic #dream fanfic #dream x reader #dream x you #dream of the endless fanfic #the sandman x reader #the sandman x you #morpheus x you #dream of the endless #dream of the endless angst

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minhosimthings · 1 year ago

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Since you already assigned a bf/gf to your moots , how about giving your moots a trope with the idol you ship them with?

Ooh alrighty! This is fun damn

@astraystayyh: Hyunjin || Art classmates to lovers

Both Sahar and Hyun are such poets in their respective arts and I feel like they'd really bond over that a lot, but never actually admit their feelings and communicate via their art works SO CUTE

@frenchkisstheabyss: Seonghwa || Cafe strangers to lovers

Just because both of them are so bubbly and they're really likely to start up a conversation like they'd look at each other go oh hey pretty person and YAY I love them so much they can destroy me

@lovestay-channie: Jeongin || oblivious best friends to lovers.

Both of them are such genuine cutie pies so I think it would be like a oh we're the bestest of friends to why does my heart beat so fast around this pretty person DONT ASK ME WHY

@jaylaxies : Jake || roommates to lovers

Moving in with each other because it the last option, realising they share some similar interests, comforting each other over some bad breakups, providing comfort when one is sick, realising that they're idiots in love and then never going away? Oh look it's Aria and Jake.

@junnieverse : Beomgyu || Project partners to lovers

I just wanna see the bickering between both of them on what to do for the assigned project like it would be so cute and then later they'd apologize, maybe take each other out for coffee and then oh look is that a cupid

@sumaneun-stars - Sunghoon || Arranged marriage to lovers

I know Skye goes mental for this and it's such a cute trope for both of them like I can imagine them being cold towards each other, ignoring each other, but one day some shit happens, they realise they like each other and then BAM they're smooching in the corridors 😊

@yunabi436 - Jay || Traumatised × I will love you regardless

YUNA KNOWS EXACTLY WHY I CHOSE THIS I DONT NEED TO GIVE AN EXPLANATION

@sjyluv - Jake || Barista × Regular Customer

this would suit Mia so well, I genuinely believe she's the kind of person to strike up a conversation everyday with the cute barista not knowing he likes her too and then one day he writes down his number on her cup ODNSJSUIDKCN SO CUTE

@chlorinecake : Han || Fwb to lovers

Look, it's just something in me which is like hmm yes Chloe and Han rejecting their feelings for each other but then realising that they're actually idiots and love and not just doing it for pleasure she's mine tho

@angel1kisses : Niki || bad boi × good girl

*Sigh* just imagine, Vampie tutoring Niki, and he pretends not to care but he actually does and one day when Vampie doesn't tutor him he realises he can't actually live without her because she's the very oxygen she breathes now excuse me while I sob

@candewlsy : Jungwon || Athlete × Athlete, but it's enemies to lovers

I crave this so much, just because I think mizu would like if won taught her how to play some sport and they just bond over their love for their respective sport and it would be so cute like AGHHH imagine the bickering (out of love)

@haecien : Jun || Old friends to lovers

Idk why but I like the thought of Harua and Jun being childhood bffs but they went to different colleges and then met up with each other years later and then ooh love blossoming and all that crap

@amazzwon : Dokyeom || Boss × Secretary

It's not like I'm projecting my own feelings for my babygirl hahaha This would be so HAWT imagine the OFFICE SMUT imagine the SIR KINK imagine the- ok I'll just stop here

@jaeyunluvr : Mark Lee || Idol × Producer

First of all my baby Kayz is so talented and im 100% sure Mark would fall for her talent (and her gorgeous self) and I can just see him flirting with her every chance he gets and then he finally gets the courage to take her out on a date!!!!!!

@minhypen : Sunoo || Speed dating

Them, being the extremely friendly people they are would be instantly attracted to each other at some speed dating event and they'd probably get each other's numbers at the end to have a proper date 😚

@mnwrld: Minho || Babysitter × single dad

I feel like my darling Kana knows why I chose this for her....

#mona's sessions #moots!#moot games #damn i like doing these games #also i ate a rum pudding today

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desire-mona · 9 months ago

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DESIRE-MONA TAG GUIDE:

tag directory for all my posts

(tagged reblogs began 07/09/24,(almost) all reblogs before then are not tagged)

italics - you can scroll through these to learn about me

bold - i think this stuff is cool and you should check it out

red - this is important

all posts tagged with a song are what im listening to at time of posting

as i do not wanna type out all that shit, here is my airbuds

text posts

#desire mona - all of my original posts

#media - all posts with photos, videos, links, music, etc

#thoughtsing - posts that dont have to do with a specific fandom or i dont want to fill up a fandom tag for (lore)

#ask - all of my asks

#blows up procreate headquarters - my art

#mona internet factoids - my posts about internet history and the like

#chaos dreaming - dreams (may use this for rbs as well)

#get desired - i turn ppls pfps into my pfp

#imagine - desire-mona rpf, directly ripped from @house-md-imagines

#gloamposting - reblogs and posts that i dont want to take up the main gloaming tag but also its a good contender for a hypothetical fandom tag?

#danny gloaming - posts specifically about the boy

#certified creeker - posting about nickel creek without taking up the nickel creek tag but so ppl can still go thru and read all my posts abt them

#tv glow - i saw the tv glow ^ same situation

#on the clock - most employed user on tumblr

#banger - my favourite posts

!!!ALL FANDOM RELATED TEXT POSTS ARE TAGGED WITH THE RESPECTIVE FANDOM'S MAIN TAG, SAME GOES WITH CHARACTERS!!!

reblogs

#mona rb - reblogging my own posts

#answer - my asks i send other ppl

#what the fuck (car) - memento

#dps - dead poets society

#spider - spiderverse

#glow - i saw the tv glow

#inconceivable! - the princess bride

#house rb - house md

#reasons i should stay - community

#remember damage - station eleven

#its pink and yellow - smiling friends

#flunk - dropout tv

#rtc - ride the cyclone

#despite everything - undertale / deltatune / toby fox

#space amazon - mouthwashing

#rsl - robert sean leonard (not all posts about characters he plays are included)

#roan - chappell roan

#ay oh - queen

#bot - nickel creek lyric bot

#dnp - dan and phil

#the ska - tomska

#films - jacksfilms

#chris fleming mentioned - self explanatory

#dont go here - fandoms im not part of

#misc - textposts

#libposting - stuff about economics and politics (I AM NOT A LIBERAL)

#artistry - fanart, original art, art

#look - cool stuff

#musing - writing/poetry

#shes in fashion - clothes

#language - linguistics

#home - pinterest board

#posts that make me look at zeth - they would know

#palestine - news about palestine/ fundraisers

#attention - important text posts/ signal boosting/ etc

#animalia - animals

#posts that remind me of my sista - mice

#poll rb - polls

#tag prompt - "reblog with xyz"

#ha(i)te - posts about how shitty ai is

#muskification - posts abt elon hate or faulty tech or whatever. the like

#bean soup - reading comprehension

#nice - good news

#gender moodboard - self explanatory

#shut up - save tag

#luv my mutuals - general tag for mutual appreciation

SPECIFIC MUTUALS HAVE TAGS AS WELL, LOOK FOR THEM ON POSTS THAT INCLUDE THEM. MUTUAL TAGS INCLUDE MY TEXTPOSTS IN REFERENCE TO THEM, MY TEXTPOSTS IN RESPONSE TO THEM/ REBLOGGING THEM, OR POSTS THAT REMIND ME OF THEM.

#desire mona

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davidlikebowie-noturaccountant · 8 months ago

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that reblog on tbe tlp and dps post i made had me pondering over it for 10 minutes and im about to explode PLEASE SHARE MORE OF YOUR THOUGHTS BECAUSE THEY ARE SO TRUE AAAA

oh my GOD happily i love yapping about this??????

okay first my credentials: i have watched dead poets society 200+ times (i stopped counting, but i have it completely memorised beat for beat), i’ve read the novelisation, i’ve watched the little prince 50+ times and it’s one of my comfort movies, watched it on the plane like two days ago, and i own eight copies of the book in five different languages <3 so

more thoughts below the cut

NOW

i will say there are more obvious parallels to draw between dps and the tlp movie BUT the book has the same innate messaging in a way that is very very special to me. gonna start off with the more obvious things and then get more niche and specific and i will TRY TO MAKE SENSE.

so movie-wise, the aviator serves as the keating figure without a doubt (i would argue this is true in the book as well, but as the book lacks the mother/daughter-little prince all grown up/weird silly second dimension plot line, this parallel is more nuanced and i need to explain it more deeply) and the little girl is neil (though. in the book. undoubtedly the little prince) and her mom is mr perry etc. TODD IS THE FOX IN BOTH THE MOVIE AND THE BOOK AND I WILL ELABORATE but for convenience sake im splitting this up into movie thoughts and book thoughts so they dont get muddled

movie:

one of my favourite things about the little prince movie even though it adds like a whole plot that is not in the children’s book is that it conveys the message of the book VERY well, and a message with THAT MUCH NUANCE is really hard to put through, especially in an animated children’s movie. that being said, i feel like a lot of people don’t really THINK about it, just in the sense of knowing there’s a vague message but not really dissecting it, especially not in the same way that people dissect dead poets society. which i think is really interesting because their messages are fundamentally REALLY similar, with the little prince talking a lot about keeping your mind from getting closed with age and never forgetting wonder and creativity and interest. letting yourself be propelled by knowledge but not in a way that prioritises practicality over pure joy, and then dead poets society specifically preaching (though i’m loathe to use that word) to OPEN your mind THROUGH wonder and creativity and interest, to actively prioritise the joy over practicality at any moment you CAN.

(emphasis on when you CAN, though, because as keating says, there’s a time to be cautious and a time to be daring. sucking the marrow out of life does not mean choking on the bone. which, incidentally, is very similar to something that the aviator mentions in the book, i’ll come back to that)

as such, both movies center a child who is bearing the burden of these undue expectations that for most of their lives up until the point in the movie, they’ve happily pushed themselves to meet in order to keep the peace in their lives. they were perfectly happy (to an extent) being the child they were being asked to be. that is, until someone ACTIVELY shows them there’s more to it than that.

in fact, while one of these is an animated face in which there is not a clear view of much but the eyes and the other is an actual person, these are screen grabs of both movies in the first moments in which they are exposed to that which is going to show them there’s more than that, and i’d be inclined to argue they’re very similar. mild shock overtaken by awe, fixed stare on what they’re consuming (as far as the first page of the little prince vs keating quoting whitman)

this is when they’re starting to realise that they are more than a machine to please the adults in their lives (who are also written very similarly, with, of course, one notable exception: the mother is the one who ultimately realises she was not being fair to her kid, whereas mr perry doubles down and… well. you know.)

this awe-riddled inspiration, the epiphany of the Creative World being real and something they’re allowed to explore and enjoy is facilitated by both the one who did the introduction (the aviator/keating) and support and camaraderie with someone else (the fox/the poets) (yes i know the fox does not technically talk, however, it is clearly a sentient creature in the movie that provides comfort and companionship to the little girl and therefore i will in fact argue that it counts)

NOW i know i said todd is the fox in both iterations but in the movie i dont think the fox is limited to parallels SOLELY with todd, for instance, it very much encourages the little girl to continue with the story, with the aviator, and while it is occasionally like, covering its eyes out of fright, it’s largely serving to push her out of her comfort zone. as such. the fox is both todd and charlie. (the other poets as well but less so in the sense that i can NAME them and draw specific parallels, so mostly todd and charlie)

it is absolutely no secret to us that charlie and todd are the ones closest to neil in the movie, and that charlie and neil’s closeness definitely pre-dates neil and todd’s, and charlie takes neil’s idea of doing the dead poets society and RUNS with it, (lovingly) bullies everyone into coming, gets it to happen and sort of yells over any doubt that neil could have had that he was doing something he wasn’t supposed to do. todd is supportive but wary, and while the fox in the movie is not in the same capacity as todd in this sense i think there are certainly scenes where we see it just sort of become overwhelmed with what’s going on (like the first time they mess with the plane)

i could go into depth about the whole grown up world thing but that would make this much much longer

the rest of my thoughts are very much related to both the book and the movie and thus i will continue but centre them on the book

book:

i mentioned the messages of the little prince compared to dead poets society above and i just think that’s such a big thing for me because they really do mirror each other and showcase similar thoughts, this idea of the aviator sort of being forced to pursue “practical” things (i think specifically the book cites arithmetic and geography? i can’t remember right this second but i know arithmetic is one of them) and how even though he WAS forced to sort of let go of his personality that was creative, he never really did. he just was careful with who he let see it. which is very keating coded tbh like let’s be real if nolan knew what he was like he NEVER would have gotten that job. but i think specifically because he knew this already and was sort of reminded of it by the little prince LEARNING it it’s very much neil and mr keating. this is why i really think todd is the fox, you have the whole conversation in the book about taming (which i know is kind of in the movie but the book centres it in a way that is slightly different)

to tame people is to change. i will be unique in all the world. to me you will be unique in all the world. you are responsible forever for what you have tamed. when you leave i will cry. etc etc etc

todd and neil tame EACH OTHER. obviously todd is not neil’s first friend, but they have a relationship clearly different from neil’s with the other poets (romantic headcanon or not) because they really have TAMED each other.

also. i think mr perry views neil as his rose. that’s a whole other dissertation.

but. i think the reality is that the movies/book both centre creativity and seeking to understand pure thought in a way that is like two sides of the same coin, but there’s such little overlap that maybe it doesn’t feel obvious?

at the end of the day, there’s really no convincing me that

“what is essential is invisible to the eye, it is only with the heart that one can see rightly”

is not in fact another iteration of

“we don’t read and write poetry because it’s cute…. medicine law business engineering…. poetry beauty romance love, these are what we stay alive for”

because they’re so similar at their hearts.

tldr: the little prince and dead poets society actually carry similar characterisation and messages and i think that speaks a lot about both pieces of media, especially considering that one is literally meant to be for children. it’s almost like tlp is a precursor to dps. a warning to which dps is the result of ignoring. if that makes sense. i’m not sure any of this made sense but THANK YOU FOR ASKING

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fionajames · 1 year ago

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my OCs

Sorry this took so long guys! It was long to type out and I also have a good excuse: I was at basketball and cut my big-toe-nail in half horizontally so had to clean and bandage and what not.

My puppy says hi, btw! (She sat on my lap as I typed this. She was for once not hyper and when she's like that I cuddle her as close as possible.)

@skellymom you asked to be tagged when I posted this so here you go! :D

I rlly hope y'all like this: I've had these guys for a while but never typed up all this stuff.

ALSO IF SOMEONE WANTS TO DRAW THESE GUYS (IDK WHY YOU WOULD CAUSE IM LIKE, IDK, I JUST DONT THINK PEOPLE CARE ABOUT ME AND MY STUFF) THEN GO AHEAD I WOULD LITERALLY CRY OF APPRECIATION

Enjoy!

Request things please!!!

STUFF BELOW THE CUT ITS JUST SUPER LONG!!!!!

OCs included:

Dhole

Vector

Menace

Dice

Bloodshot

Mit

Vick

Meerrt

Dhole (CT-8019)

Dhole is a member of the Coruscant Guard and has curly black hair with the ends dyed the same red as the red armour. His helmet is designed with striking resemblance to both Wolffe and Fox’s.

He has the trademark tan skin as the rest of the clones as well as dark brown eyes and two obvious scars; one on his chest and the other covering his entire left arm.

Dhole is a literal ray of sunshine and when he was a cadet, he constantly followed Wolffe and Fox around - which gave him his name. My idea is that Dholes do exist in Star Wars but they are rare and only live on one planet. Dholes look like a combination of a fox and wolf.

Everyone in the Coruscant Guard is super protective of Dhole because he’s so sweet and literally cheers up everyone. The 104th thought Wolffe was like the scariest person ever and wasn’t soft to anyone until one day they got back from a mission and their Commander was barrelled over by an energetic ray of sunshine and the entire 104th gasped when Wolffe smiled. Their reaction was priceless.

Dhole makes friends with basically everyone, even Senators he’s in charge of watching over. One time, he befriended and saved Bail Organa who then told Fox if Fox didn’t promote Dhole, Bail would join the Separatists. Fox gladly gave Dhole the rank of ARC Trooper.

Dhole befriended Ahsoka once and when he heard about how Tarkin was being sexist and racist he grabbed his pistols to go kill him without a moments hesitation. It took Fox, Thorn and Vector holding him back to stop him.

He did the same thing when he heard Palpatine denying Fox time off work, but overall loves his job. Dhole is very sweet, but also protective in a strange way. He won’t hesitate to hurt/kill someone if they’ve hurt his friends or brothers and most likely will get away with whatever he’s done.

He’s the sunshine of the Coruscant Guard and you hurt him, you die.

Vector (CT-8124)

Vector is a member of the Coruscant Guard and best buds with Dhole. They are quite similar as they are both kind and sweet except Vector is a lot shier. Vector got his name from a little boy he saved as a shiny. The boy asked what his name was and Vector had to explain he didn’t have a name. The boy almost cried before telling Vector that they could share a name - and dubbed him Vector as that was also the boy’s name.

He is the definition of ‘the poet’ from ‘soldier, poet, king’ by the oh hellos. His smart and quiet, but when he speaks up, everyone listens. No one but Dhole really knows his opinion on his work - but he really isn’t bothered by it. The only thing Vector hates doing is paperwork because whilst he’s the best out of the Guard in getting it done fast and well, he finds it boring and time-consuming.

Vector has the same tan skin as the rest of the clones and honey gold eyes. He has brown hair that's dyed blonde on the ends. He has a scar that goes from his right eye, over his nose and then down to the base of his neck. He got the scar from a piece of shrapnel during the First Battle of Geonosis - as all clones (apart from those still on Kamino) participated in the battle.

Everyone in the Guard loves Vector - although in a different way to the way they adore Dhole - and it’s well-known that wherever Dhole is, Vector will be hiding behind him quietly in the shadows.

Vector’s helmet is the same as the regular Corrie helmet except he has a little sun emblem on the forehead - whether it's a nod to Dhole’s sunny nature or not, no one really knows.

Because Vector is so quiet and introverted, he mostly just hangs around with Dhole - and their inseparable - but he also loves Cody, as his Ori’vod respects his silence and is the only other person to figure out a type of communication Vector is okay with.

Menace (CT-7874)

Menace is like Hardcase combined with Fives as a Coruscant Guard member. He’s caff addicted because he loves the energy hit and would probs do drugs if Fox didn’t yell at him so much every time he thought out-loud what it would be like to take them. He’s done deathsticks several times but isn’t addicted cause he’s smart in how he takes them.

Menace got his name because that's what he is - a menace. He’s moody and smart, daring and proud but overall he causes enough chaos that he should be a 501st trooper. He’s best friends with Dice and Bloodshot, and is the bad influence of everyone. He’s got the classic look of a clone trooper except dark brown hair instead of black hair. Menace has a scar covering his left eyebrow from being attacked by an assassin who was trying to kill a senator. Although Menace is chaotic and stupid and fun, he’s devoted to his work and does work very well. He’s kind of like the Jake Peralta (Brooklyn Nine Nine) of the Coruscant Guard. Menace is the ‘soldier’ again from ‘soldier, poet, king’ by the oh hellos. He’s strong and dedicated, and too determined to be knocked down.

Him, Hardcase and Fives get along like a house on fire and have collectively taken days of sleep from Rex and Fox. His helmet is the classic Corrie helmet although the top left side is completely painted black with licking ginger flames around it - to symbolise Menace’s first helmet which got destroyed in a bombing.

Dice (CT-6346)

Dice has short black hair, tan skin and brown eyes - like the classic clone look. He’s never bothered to change his hair or anything. He has a burn scar that covers his right eye and eyebrow, and a torso scar from his left ankle all the way up his leg and back that ends at his collarbone. Dice is also a member of the Coruscant Guard. He’s the definition of the moon personality - very private about his anxieties and such.

Captain Rex met Dice when he was a shiny and gave him his name upon witnessing the clone bargain his way out of a situation. Dice is a legend and board/card games and is incredibly smart. When dealing with a particularly hard case, Fox always turns to Dice for help. He’s smart, thoughtful and calculating, but he’s a really nice person too. He’s not introverted or extroverted and is just happy to help. Dice loves his work because he loves the challenges different cases provide and finds them interesting to explore.

Dice has the classic Corrie clone trooper helmet except a red dice simple in the middle of the forehead.

Whilst Dice is best friends with Menace and Bloodshot, he’s really close with Rex because he’s the one who gave him his name. Dice can be a little chaotic but he’s usually pretty chill - but always chill with Rex. They get along so well because Rex seems him as a combination of Fives and Echo - smart, funny, kind and everything else.

Bloodshot (CT-3496)

Bloodshot is the ‘king’ of ‘soldier, poet, king’ by the oh hellos, and he’s the most serious of the group. He and Fox get along like a house on fire because their both so tired of the Guard’s antics. He’s a sweet and kind guy and quiet but not in a shy way. Quiet in a menacing way.

Bloodshot has short light brown hair, tan skin and brown eyes, and he’s extremely fit. He has a going from his stomach up his chest, over his neck that hooks around his right ear. He got the scar when he was attacked by an assassin - crazy similar to Menace. He’s dedicated to his work because its his work and no one really knows his other thoughts on the topic.

Bloodshot’s helmet is a regular Corrie helmet with splotches of red over the eyes and a red ‘blood-drop’ on the forehead.

Bloodshot got his name because he drinks a lot of caff - religiously, like man must drink caff - and that causes his eyes to go bloodshot quite a lot. He’s humble about how talented he is as a fighter and extremely quick-witted. When Bloodshot yells ‘Shut up!’ everyone freezes. He’s not the eagerest to do things, but isn’t lazy in the slightest.

If someone is upset you can count on Bloodshot and Dhole going to hunt down and kill whoever hurt their Vod.

No one really understands why Menace, Dice and Bloodshot are so close but they click in a way that you can tell means their platonic soulmates and the truest of brothers.

Bloodshot managed to gain Plo Koon’s love when he rescued a stray-runaway-Youngling and returned her to the Kel Dor. He’s the Ori’vod of the group and is the only possible (apart from Dhole) who can convince Fox to sleep, and takes his responsibility with pride. Although, he probably needs sleep just as much as the Commander.

Xi (CT-5113)

Xi is a member of the 501st and has wavy black hair that falls to just below his ears, brown eyes, tan skin and a small Republic symbol tattooed on his nose. He also has a scar from the tip of his middle finger on his right hand that travels up to his elbow that he got from a crash-landing.

Xi is sort of a combination between the soldier and king from (yet again) ‘soldier, poet, king’ by the oh hellos. He’s funny and kind yet courageous and loyal. Rex is extremely proud of Xi because he’s done many things that have rightfully earned him his ARC Trooper status. Although many people don’t believe it at first, Xi is a strangely good mechanic - and is often the one to fix things in time-ticking situations.

He’s best friends with Mit and is absolutely obsessed with music. Like, most listen to music.

Other than Rex and Mit, Xi gets on with Jesse and Fives amazingly as they share several similar personality traits. They once had a bit too much to drink and got lost on Coruscant but that's a story for another time.

Ahsoka and Xi also get along because Xi is always by her side - no matter what. He would be crushed if anything happened to her. Like his Padawan, Anakin and Xi are friends because of their loyalty, but also love for mechanics. It’s not rare to find them ranting about mechanics together.

Xi’s helmet is similar to Fives except he has painted a blue ‘scar’ over the right eye to match Anakin’s and the left half of the face has Ahsoka’s face markings except in blue. There are two ‘teardrops’ underneath the right eye - which Tup later copied.

Xi is slightly more extroverted then he is introverted but he hides his emotions a lot because he fears that he is being weak and that others have bigger problems than him so he shouldn’t complain. One time, he bottled his emotions up for so long he eventually shattered and Rex spent hours with him calming him down.

Mit (CT-5114)

Mit has a black buzzcut, tan skin and gold eyes with several small scars but none extremely big or noticeable. He’s a member of the 501st and was promoted to ARC Trooper at the same time as Xi for an amazing mission they completed all by themselves. His helmet is the ARC Trooper helmet - like Fives’ - but he has the visor outlined in blue - like Rex’s - and two matching teardrops to Xi’s under the right eye. He has a star personality as he is fun to be around and focuses on enjoying life. Mit’s funny, soft, gentle and brave and contrasts Xi in several ways. Mit is more of a rules-follower than Xi and gets along with Echo well because of it. He and Kix also get along for reasons they don’t really understand.

Mit’s a bit more introverted than extroverted, which contrasts well with Xi, who’s the opposite. Whilst Xi bottles up his emotions, Mit is a lot calmer than that, and very in control of his negative emotions. If he really needs to vent, he will go to Xi or Kix.

Mit really loves reading, and will basically read anything he can get his hands on. It’s not rare to find him dangling from his bed with a datapad scrolling through a book too deeply fixated to hear anything anyone else is saying.

Because he loves to read so much, Mit is the resident clone-translator, and together he and Obi-Wan have translated many things for the others. Sometimes, the two will have conversations in front of others in a different language just to annoy them, and that's where their friendship formed. Mit once saved a small Nautolan boy who only spoke Nautila and managed to get him home. Whilst Xi is good at mechanics, Mit is smart in languages and random knowledge, and the pair use those skills to help the 501st get out of a lot of difficult situations.

Vick (CT-2323)

Vick has neatly cut black hair, tan skin and brown eyes - the classic clone look, just like Dice. He has three triangular scars on his right arm and a scar covering his stomach that he earned when he was attacked by a beast during a mission. He’s a member of the 212th. Vick is the soul/heart as he is very upfront with his beliefs and heart-strong instead of head-strong. He’s sarcastic, brave and kind with everything he does and Cody adores him for it.

Vick’s helmet is the classic 212th clone trooper helmet with two yellow triangles - points facing down - on the cheeks. He’s best friends with Meerrt as they balance each other out extremely well.

Vick is close with Cody as they share the same stupid recklessness but love for the others of their troops and their General. Obi-Wan and Vick get along very well after Vick, Cody, Meerrt and Obi-Wan once got stranded together on a mission and they all discovered Vick’s strange talent in tea-brewing. Now, when they want tea, they hunt down Vick and beg him to make them the drink.

Vick hates drugs and deathsticks but likes to drink on the occasion, as it helps numb the constant reminder of the war. Cody and him sometimes barricade themselves in the barracks and drink till they can’t remember their names in sorrow, side by side for comfort.

When the 212th were on Ryloth, Vick befriended a Twi’lek boy who he constantly denies having a crush on - but most of the 212th don’t believe him. They manage to catch up occasionally and Vick always comes back grinning.

Vick absolutely adores learning about new and different cultures - not the food, as Meerrt has asked several times, no, he loves learning about their non-food-culture. Upon going to new planets, he sticks with Obi-Wan if they don’t speak the same language and asks for translations, which the General happily does.

Meerrt (CT-2361)

Meerrt looks the same as Vick although his hair is slightly longer and scruffier. There is a burn scar covering his left ear and as a result the hair around it was singed slightly so he buzzed it and also has weaker hearing in that ear.

When Vick, Obi-Wan, Cody and him were stranded and they discovered Vick’s tea-making skills, Meerrt got burned in the crash that led to his scar.

He has the classic 212th helmet with a yellow sun emblem on the forehead - similar to Vector’s - and yellow stars on the sides.

Meerrt loves astronomy deeply and endlessly, and spends hours researching it. He has a sun personality meaning he’s slightly more extroverted and bubbly, all smiles for days. He’s encouraging, sweet and funny and the kinda guy you go to for a hug.

Meerrt gets on with Cody because he can cuddle up to the Commander and not get reprimanded or teased for it. Sometimes a clone needs sleep and affection. He also gets along well with Waxer as they both met little kids they sheltered and protected for a bit.

Meerrt met a little Togrutan boy whilst on a mission - who later turned out to be Force-sensitive and was taken to the Temple - who he immediately bonded with. Meerrt had a breakdown when they were separated and stayed gloomy for weeks.

Meerrt doesn’t really like alcohol, deathsticks or anything of the sort but juice like its water. Whenever he can, Meerrt buys as much juice as possible to keep and savour.

Meerrt is a really heavy sleeper and - like most other clones - often has night terrors. He’s mostly silent during these - unlike Vick who screams and thrashes like he’s being attacked and makes everyone pity him - but often seeks comfort from either Vick or Cody afterwards and have a cup of hot chocolate.

Meerrt’s favourite planet they’ve been to is Naboo - where he first participated in the Blue Shadow Virus mission - and he’s visited several times. He once met Padme who showed him around her planet and they built a sweet friendship because of it.

*sighs* that was VERY long and I apologise to anyone who read all of that.

Thoughts on my ocs, please share?!

If anyone wants oneshots/headcanons with these guys (or not!) please please please pleasseeeee tell me!!!!!!

Have a lovely day/night/whatever your time is!!!

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acelestialorca · 2 months ago

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Who am I, and What am I meant to do?

Why is Salted Caramel so good?

Hello! My name is Sky, and I have no idea whats going on

TW//brief mentions of alluding to suicide and death later

Script to read along below

Wow well done Sky, very profound and new idea you’ve had there, oh whats this? ancient Greece called they want their obvious philosophical statements back. But it is and like most people on this rock I can't help but think about it, talking more than my woke transgender identity too here buckaroo, we gonna be talking about the whole shebang, who am I, why am i here, why is salted caramel so good (not identity related I just want to know), all important questions im gonnaaaa uhh have a good think about for sure I’ve always kind of struggled with grasping hold of a rigid sense of identity, I’ve never been too sure of who I am y’know, obvious things come to mind like how I’ve still not settled on a specific gender, more just vaguely ointing in a direction and saying “yea its over there”, but also weird stuff like aesthetics, I have a whole identity crisis anytime I need to design something to represent me, website styles, tumblr layouts, fucking minecraft skins. I never know what is ‘right’, everytime I’d try something it wouldn’t be me, I can easily list things that aren’t, but what is? So how does anyone find out their deep personal sense of identity? Online quizzes of course! So I took a bunch: -My MBTI type is INFP-T -I’m a Pisces moon capricorn rising…I don’t know what that means -If I was any Doctor Who character I’d be checks notes The Doctor (really out of all of them? ok?) -My warrior cats name would be Medic AppleFace…. What? -The big 5 called and said im 73% openness, 25% conscientiousness, 69% extraversion, 54% agreeableness and 60% neuroticism -If i were a clown or mime i’d be a Pierrot mime -I’d be a psychic type pokemon -and a random quiz defined my entire personality as ‘The Poet’

So there we go, essay over, we know who I am and we can all leave, sit back down, we're not done here at all.

These things aren’t me, if i pointed to them and said to someone “look do you get it, do you understand” they wouldn't, because the bit of ourselves that these reveal are basically just pin badges to stick on your backpack so people can start conversations from common ground. “Omg you’d be a Psychic type pokemon? Me too! Lets get dinner Medic AppleFace”. They’re nice ways to connect to people because we as a species fucking love labels and little boxes we can fit into with other people.

So what is identity if not that, why do we care. It probably differs for everyone but the general sense of identity is made up of what we like, How we act, what we think of things, what we think of and how we got here, the thing is none of these are stable or set in stone, they all change over time and yet I’m still me, I think? But to what degree? If we consult the ship of theseus (My 1 year of Philosophy undergraduate coming in clutch) there's a few different answers to this, I could still be me, just no doubts about it it’s all me, this usually comes from a temporal continuity standpoint, you can trace a path in both space and time from the moment I was born to now without either line breaking (I dont know what would happen if I had time travelled or…fallen into the fucking backrooms but thats besides the point), this means that as long as that line remains intact the being at the start and end are the same, no matter how much of me has changed, my likes, dislikes, personality, its still me! Another possibility is that I’m not the same person, ever, every second we are changing so every second a new me is destroyed and born from the ashes, a constant cycle of changing forever, never truly able to settle on a rigid sense of self, quantum beings always in infinite states, only standing still for a moment when observed by another, their limited views of who you are, that limit allowing for an image of you to last longer than when viewed in a mirror

I think it's a mix of the two (I know very brave of me, oh sky how do you sit so well on that fence without tumbling into the field on either side, but shhhh). While I think it is true that technically because we are always changing in minute ways we are never the same person for more than a fraction of a second, I dont think it's helpful to this conversation because at the end of the day I am still me, my memories are all there, my continuity, and I am aware of how I have changed overtime, you can trace the lines over and over again and you wont find a breakage because from birth to now, i am me.

But what about other people? We are all so unique and different, is everyone feeling this way? If someone asked me to describe my sense of identity I truly wouldn't know what to say, so I did just that. I asked people to describe their sense of identity, whatever that meant to them. What I immediately found upon saying actual words to real human beings rather than talking to myself outloud in my room, parroting a cycle of identity themed questions until I happen upon the answer like it's the goddamn one piece, is that everyone's interpretation of personal identity is very different, and I don't mean their identities are, i mean what they consider to be the important parts. When I asked people to describe their personal identity the themes that popped up were vastly different, one friend went into detail on her traits and ideals, the type of person she sees herself as and what she aims to accomplish as well as her drive to work hard and how punishing that can be, whereas another brought up a topic that I, the very white british girl, didn’t even think about cause its so far from being an important part of my identity, culture! They went into great detail about their sense of culture based on their heritage and its links to family names with such excitement to talk about it that it clearly is a core part of their identity, mix that with 60’s and 70’s era of music spiritualism and a religious/spiritual upbringing and these key parts of their identity all made sense knowing who they are. So I wonder how it is that so far of the people I’ve asked, most of them had a grasp on their identity that I cannot seem to comprehend, when they all look inwards they see a marble, its center swirling with these different parts of them that they all hold dear, ready to point to and show off to the world. “This! This here, this is me! You understand right?” and I feel like I do as much as an outsider can, and with this realisation further into the spiraling rabbit hole I went to find the center of myself, if there even is one. When someone asks who are you I look inside to try and present my marble, its cracked exterior from which the contents leaked out reflecting the light of their expecting gaze “No no there’s something there, look closer I promise” But maybe there isn’t At least not that I can see What about them? What do they all see?

I find thinking about how people see me as both deeply interesting and deeply terrifying, of course the idea of people seeing me and thinking about me when i’m not around is quite endearing (Wonder what it says about me that just knowing people think about me is enough to make me blush) but their perspective of me is scary to think about. Not in a “oooh i'm scared of what people think about me, what if they think im cringe” way because i luckily started to shed that recently and i don't really care if people think i'm odd, no i mean their limited view of who I am, their reductive sense of me and if it's wrong, or the scarier reality. What if its right?

Sometimes a friend will say to me or about me while i'm around “Sky seems like the type to do so and so” and honestly a lot of the time they are way off, I think at one point a friend said I was the type to have personal beef with a specific squirrel??? Like I don’t think that's accurate to me at all and yet people agreed, it could be that we are beings that cannot be self reflective because the truest version of ourselves is the one in the minds of those we love, our internal sense of selfhood is all well and good but your actions speak a lot louder about who you are, you can't be a kind person because you think you are, you need to be kind, and that comes naturally to some and is worked on by others. How right are our own ideas of who we are anyway? Sometimes I do and say things that are the complete opposite of who I imagine myself to be, mirrors are flipped and photos are two dimensional, is the only way to truly know ourselves to ask those around us? I also asked people how they view me to see what the image in their head of me looks like, and I got responses I was not expecting, one described me as bounding joy shifting and changing with spiritual vibrato, 90s bus seat mixed with LSD, I thanked them for this because it sounded like a compliment, that seemed like an energy that I would be happy to be imagined like, but is it actually me? How could people know who I am when they only see glimpses, sick masked performances designed to wow people and inspire feelings of “she is so funny and well put together”, while I hide the truth of my reality behind the closed doors and turned off lights, lest they illuminate that I don’t have a clue who I am or what I’m doing. The difference in rigidity also stood out to me, when asked about ourselves people come up with their own interpretations of what the question means but still seem to grasp and link to more tangible concepts to represent themselves, culture, religion, ideals, goals, traits. All things you can observe and comment on, but when asked about other people we lean abstract, compare to old friends, 8-bit kirby theme songs, and terrible 90s design choices, maybe because thats all these little windows into our souls we show people can be, i said our sense of selves are akin to being quantum, that seems to be more true than I originally thought, not only are we ever changing and only stopping for moments in the eyes of those we hold dear, but when we are observed we are not the same, our identity is altered by the simple act of being around people (see the observer effect). So can it be trusted? If you ask people what you are like in their eyes and you get conflicting answers, is anyone involved lying? They’re not that's just how they see you, so is it us? Am I lying to people, grabbing anything I can find to jam into the marble anytime someone is around, oil and water to bound around each other the way a soul should in order to feign identity, to pretend to be a real person. Am I a real person?

I can’t talk about and explore my sense of identity without mentioning the wooly mammoth of an elephant in the room that is gender. So I’m trans, if you’re new here and that's news to you hiya! I’m very open about this and would basically tell anyone, I don't hide it, its something I’m proud of and more importantly its something I feel I need to be open about, when I first came out to myself every trans person I saw living unapologetically as themselves spurred me to keep going, and thats partly why despite the years of thinking about not being alive anymore, whether I wanted to see to that myself or the majority of times where I just thought of all the ways it could happen to me instead, smiling as I think of the car, Swerve smash gone. Or the late night walks home gone right, despite all of that I’m still here and so I owe it to the world to pay that back. So is being transgender part of my identity? As I’ve been writing this introspective piece the main wall I keep hitting is I cannot define identity for myself, I don’t think being trans is part of what I would consider my identity, I wish I did cause then it would be much easier to get the answer to it all but its not. It’s just something I am, being Bisexual isn’t a part, my love of doctor who isn’t, salted caramel being a damn good flavour isn’t either, maybe this whole problem is that I just need to learn to define it differently than I unclearly do, but if I do that then nothing would feel right ever again, those things aren’t my identity because if at the gates of oblivion I bare my soul and death looks inside and sees it stuffed full of pieces that we both know don’t belong, who am I then? Could I go gentle into that goodnight when the marble I take with me is patched with tape and bluetack

“Everyone wants somebody to understand their personality, and their childhood, and what each of those things have done to the other one” -Savannah Brown, Closer Baby Closer. And I do, that’s what all this comes down to, the need to be known. My pull towards understanding my identity lies further than just a desire to better understand myself, its a desire to be better understood by others. I want there to be someone who truly knows me and understands what it’s like to be me, how I feel when I’m happy, when I cry, how my love feels. When I leave this place I want to have had some kind of impact, and I dont mean a great, long standing legacy for the history books, I just need someone to have known what it was like, and until I know myself, I can’t get that.

So why write and record all of this, what's the point, am I doomed, are we all doomed? Did everyone just listen to me rant this whole time for the ending to be hopeless and sad? No of course not I wouldn’t just leave things there, here’s your answer: It’s really good because despite it just being caramel and salt, theres a new sense of identity within it once you begin to combine in the right quantities that goes beyond the physical, the image and idea of salted caramel’s identity is what matters, and it’s never the same each time. Sorry, actually though, what’s the point of it all? Well what I left out earlier in order to bring this whole thing back around onto a kind of lighter ending, is that when I asked people about their identity, for every person who gave me a well thought out essay of who they were, there was another who didn’t even know what I meant or where to start, like me to them the question is too vast and complicated to even begin to write down what could be the “correct” answer. The ocean is oh so full of fish to reel in and proclaim as your prize but half of us don’t even have a rod, nevermind the fact we’ve never seen a fish. If you, reading or listening, also have no idea who you might be or where to begin the definition of you, then let me tell you based on what all of this thinking and writing has shown me, with or without a clear structure of identity you can translate to others. You are enough.

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