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uh despite the unfortunate publishing timing on my part, this isn't a christmas fic and the only mention of like winter is in association to the time neil tries to kill himself so don't expect any holly jolly christmas-y vibes BUT it is just a silly little feel good fic

wrote a quick anderperry drabble, blacked out, woke up to this fic

summary:

Soon, Neil would stop checking, and Todd would fade into the background. This didn’t bother him. Generally, Todd preferred the background; it was quieter, with fewer expectations. It was almost nice. So, he wasn’t expecting anything with dread. It was a quiet sort of understanding that he carried himself with. / or: moments during todds first year at welton where he learned that the poets were here to stay

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very anderperry focused; its like 'neil and the poets' in todds head becuz gay ig

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wrote a quick anderperry drabble, blacked out, woke up to this fic

summary:

Soon, Neil would stop checking, and Todd would fade into the background. This didn’t bother him. Generally, Todd preferred the background; it was quieter, with fewer expectations. It was almost nice. So, he wasn’t expecting anything with dread. It was a quiet sort of understanding that he carried himself with. / or: moments during todds first year at welton where he learned that the poets were here to stay

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very anderperry focused; its like 'neil and the poets' in todds head becuz gay ig

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they shouldve allowed todd to punch someone

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dps where right before neil and todd meet for the first time, there's a scene where neil spots todd, pauses, blanks, and then wide eye stares until the poets, not yet called the poets, notice and approach him and they have a quick 'making sure neil looks handsome for his crush' moment in the middle of the hallway, with pitts and knox covering him so todd doesn't notice, charlie fixing his hair, meeks pulling out the breath spray, and them fixing his suit and then after he's all fixed up, watching him approach todd

todd would nto notice if an elephant started stomping around becuz of how caught up in his thoughts he is

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fic where neil lives and the andersons go away for a week for a business trip during the summer, leaving the house to their youngest son todd

they just quickly leave, not really hearing as todd asks if he can have a friend over, just nodding and leaving

todd calls neil and asks if he has a week

neil either makes some excuse about having a week long college-prep sleepover or the perrys r a little better after their son trying to kill himself idk

anyway logic aside; for the week, neil stays over

they cuddle on todd's giant bed; neil spends his time poking through todd's things and it would be so annoying if it wasn't neil

they cook together, like if they were already living together

they try baking; it ends with the entire kitchen covered in ingredients and them covered in frosting and there, messy, cake covered, they kiss, until they pull away to take a breath and neil realizes todd's frosting covered hands were all over his hair and the look in todd's eyes show that he knew

after getting cleaned up, and cleaning the kitchen, they invite the poets becuz they made so much cake and the 7 eat it all until they get sick

anyway

its just a week of todd and neil being domestic and silly and happy, featuring the poets

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allelon ruggiero and james waterston do not get enough credit for how well they portrayed meeks and pitts being best friends despite their characters only exchanging like four words to one another. seriously they just stand near one another and dance to the radio but we all know they're the closest pair of all

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LIKED IT? THIS IS AMAZING OMG

"“I know Charlie wants you to,” he debated.

“That's not what he was..” the boy sighed once more."

i am INTRIGUED??? WHAT WAS CHARLIE ACTUALLY TALKING ABOUT

there should be an anderperry fic/dps fic where after shooting himself neil doesn't die but gets amnesia and now he's back at welton and the poets have to help him adjust

featuring cute moments like neil realizing charlie is still his friend!!!!

and the cute blond thinks he's cute too?????? and this is an established fact both are aware of????????

he got to act in a play???????????????????

and sad moments like what happened after the play; the poets only know from guesswork and then from when they were told that neil was admitted to the hospital

anyway i think itd be very fun

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there should be an anderperry fic/dps fic where after shooting himself neil doesn't die but gets amnesia and now he's back at welton and the poets have to help him adjust

featuring cute moments like neil realizing charlie is still his friend!!!!

and the cute blond thinks he's cute too?????? and this is an established fact both are aware of????????

he got to act in a play???????????????????

and sad moments like what happened after the play; the poets only know from guesswork and then from when they were told that neil was admitted to the hospital

anyway i think itd be very fun

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wahts the socially accepted way to change the topic of convo from death to ur good news

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soulmate au but the soulmate finding system is idk american thought becuz it sucks ASS anywho

what was i saying

right

soulmate au where u get vague glimpses of who ur soulmate is around ur 16th birthday;;; and the thing is they're insanely vague; like u don't get a name, or anything -- at least not directly

u just get like a glimpse of whats around them; so maybe if ur lucky ull get a glimpse of their desk and they have homework on it and u see their name on it, like that could be it; but generally its just glimpses of what they're around

see the thing is

neil's glimpses r so vague and so specific -- vague becuz he initially doesn't notice anything interesting about them (other than a bookshelf w/ his soulmates sexy literature interest); specific becuz he overheard jeffrey anderson talking to his friends and the things he was referencing about his house.... are insanely familiar

and the thing is jeff anderson is like the golden boy of welton; well likes and smart and all that;;; so neil should be happy, but neil doesn't want it to be him, and he feels like a dick but there's just something about him

or maybe it has nothing to do with jeff and everything to do with the cute blond he keeps on running into when he goes to town; the one who goes to their rival school at balincrest, who stuttered out a quiet 'todd' when neil asked for his name, the one who's smiles, shy and hesitant as they are, fill neil's veins with fire; and yet the fire doesn't burn just warms him

maybe he really secretly wants it to be todd; so he's sad that jeff's house looks so much like his soulmate's and that the things neil saw in his glimpses are things jeff knows about

he wishes todd knew about them instead

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this is about u @gldnstrngs

following both my accounts... talk about being obsessed w me

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following both my accounts... talk about being obsessed w me

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ALSO

'never forget me' was a song lyric; feel free to forget me; in fact stop perceiving me

AND chaos personified was becuz i had slept in 24+ hours when i made this account for the first time

yearly reminder that my ao3 being wordless_writer isnt becuz of some deep notes app tumblr esc shit its just becuz i call myself a writer but dont fucking write

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neil: don't be stupid neil; don't blurt out anything crazy. don't tell him he's cute; don't tell him the sparkle in his eyes outshine the stars; don't tell him his smile could light up the whole world; don't tell him he's the loveliest person in the world--

neil: okay, i got this

neil: hi todd

todd, bright red:

neil:

todd:

charlie:

knox:

meeks:

cameron:

pitts:

stick:

hopkins:

charlie: neil, buddy, you know you said that out loud

neil: yeah im-im starting to realize

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out of all the posts i have THIS is my top dps post????????????????????????????????????

dead poets society but the poets all gather to meet neil’s new boyfriend and it turns out to be all of their individual friend todd, who none of them knew the others knew, and who didn’t know that most of them knew each other

neil: guys this is my boyfriend toddy

meeks: wait- wait ur dating anderson???? anderson from the planetarium ???? my star gazing buddy ????

pitts: ur stargazing buddy ???? todd’s my bestie from the cafe ??? he’s the only one who makes my hot chocolate right ???????/

charlie: um exCUSE YOU ??? TODDSTER IS MY BEST FRIEND WHO I MET IN THE ER???? WHO IVE BEEN TRYING TO GET TO MEET NEIL ????????? 

cameron: wait guys i know todd anderson too. we sit together at the library to study

knox: neil i cant believe you’ve been dating chris’ potential boyfriend that ive been beefing with for about 3 months becuz i thought he was with chris and was spiting me-

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cant believe neil wouldnt know what ketamine was

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breaking my silence: i think a lot of anderperry angst mischaracterizes them so badly it’s impossible to take seriously or enjoy. neil in particular is almost always made into some raging asshole for… some reason? and it makes him so unrecognizable it’s almost insulting to his character