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Sirius: reggie? whatre you doing up?
Reg, who was leaving James' room: I needed water. Besides its not that late
Sirius: oh. what time is it?
Reg: i dont know, like 4-
#dont tell me this didnt happen#because it did#i know#i was there#marauders#regulus black#james potter#jegulus#dead gay wizards#james x regulus#sirius black#starchaser#sirius orion black#regulus arcturus black#james fleamont potter#the black brothers#marauders incorrect quotes#the marauders era
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I'm really loving this poster and boy do I have a story behind it
So looking at all the paint splashes on everyone, this is my theory
All the DigiDestined and their Digimons have gathered for an art class for a weekend activity.
Everyone has picked a different canvas and style of art to do with their Digimon.
Everyone is in great spirits and having fun.
Mimi and Hikari are next to each other and are talking, giggling, gossiping and having a blast.
Tai overhears them giggling and wants to know the joke. Mimi and Hikari tease him and have fun. Tai splashes paint on them and the three of them begin to throw paint on each other.
Izzy who was next to Tai and Kari gets splashed and they all quite down because they think he will get angry.
Izzy surprised slowly wipes the paint from his face, while the three of them apologise. Very slowly he dips his paint brush in the can that Tentomon was holding and splashes paint on the three of them.
A full on paint war starts and Mimi goes to splash everyone with all the colours from her paint pallet.
Tai is running behind Agumon as the paint fight continues, because he was teasing Tai that Kari and Mimi got the better off him.
Sora was busy with her work and got splashed by Izzy, Mimi and Kari.
Mimi sees Yamato and Joe working on their art and goes quietly towards them and applies her paint on them.
Yamato starts running behind Mimi, laughing and wanting to splash her for covering him in green, blue and pink from her pallet.
Mimi runs and just as Yamato is about to spray his colour on her, she hides behind Joe, who is now also coloured in Yama's blue. Joe tries to get Yamato with his brush, but Yamato runs away.
Mimi comes later on and applies a green on his face as victory and Yama just smiles and lets her apply the paint.
And of course Takeru happily lets Mimi put paint on him
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#yes i will find mimato crumbs everywhere#dont tell me this didnt happen#you know yamato wont let anyone but mimi apply paint on his face#i love how all of them are having so much fun#Joe and Izzy the usually serious ones are also having a blast#digimon rambling#digimon#mimato#taichi yagami#i love this so much
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sidelong
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk art#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#itafushi#fushiita#itadori yuuji#megumi fushiguro#i havent drawn a dedicated itfs piece in so long im a fraud dont look at me......................#i offer u pining!yuuji content. as Penance.#i feel like its usually fushiguro emotionally repressed megumi who ppl draw/make content of looking Longingly @ yuuji#and like. for good reason i mean look at him#but i feel like hopelessly-in-love-w-his-best-friend yuuji is a comparatively slept on concept#or maybe im not looking in the right places idk man#fleeting glances and longing stares and I Should Tell Him I Can't Tell Him.....OUgh#anyway i like how the pendulum seems to have hard swung back in2 me using a bunch of red#i feel like my values r so much better now tho n like. god help me im having fun painting again what has happened#it never lasts long but for rn this is probably one of my favourite things ive drawn in a minute!!!#i love u contrast i love u random bits of red i love u harsh shadows and dramatic light sources#and it didnt even take me a week this time !!!!
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Princess L
#doodle#bowuigi#Luigi#bowser#HCJSJCJDJG#ok guys LISTEN#DONT TELL ME THUS DIDNT HAPPEN#now we know that bowser is a fuckin theatre kid#he would be the cringe and corny type to do this#and Luigi is cringe and corny enough to be flattered#kajfjsjfjsjfns#comic
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#a doodley#i had to make this blue so tumblr would stop hiding it from the dash#anyway no caption this happened 2 hrs ago#im happy abt my surgery but it and other things this year keep beinging conversations like these up#and i cant handle it at all.#everything my dad tells me just makes me feel worse and not bc its anything bad but bc I Feel Bad#like the conversation then continued to him being like no dont cry im just saying i wpuld have wanted to#quit my job decades ago and set aside money so I wouldnt be struggling as much now but that didnt happen#and i just dont want that to happen to you guys :)#so we have to support u so that your life is what u want it to be#and i cried even more bc what do u mean. thats so sad. ur a person and u were a child and baby once and ur gonna die#and you always almost cry when u talk about your mom who passed away decades ago#and your brothers that passed away#recently and im going to be your age and still sobbing bc i miss my dad. just like i have been prematurely crying about since i was 7#the other day my dad asked my mom if i cried a lot when i was a baby/kid and my mom said no and then my dad#said that when i Did cry it was so severe he thought i would ''drown in my own tears''#bc i could never stop. like. thats still true today. ive been crying on and off since then#i think i mentioned he's just been telling me stories about his life lately and it further fuels this. i get so sad. im sorry your life was#like this. i dont want to die i dont want you to die im sad im sorry im sorry#im scared. im never going to see you again. how horrible. how horrible#i cant enjoy my day today bc every day is a day closer and i get sad
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idk how i want to draw him yet and not ready to make a srs attempt but here's a bad kdj phone doodle lolđśđť
#orv#kim dokja#omniscient reader's viewpoint#my art#oh yeah i didnt have ref for this fkdnfn was going off memory of the last (first) time i drew him#i cant do a serious attempt tho bc i havent read the novel so i dont have a clear image of him in my head yet...#(dont want to just copy the webtoon design hastily... if it matches my image thats fine but... idk yet)#my main opinion on the webtoon design is he's too hot/ikemen tho KFJDKDJ (this is what i thought since the beginning)#its like BONES mp100 anime reigen.... kdj is like manga reigen to me /j#but who knows maybe if i catch kdj brainrot i too will start drawing him like a kpop idol out of affection...đ¤ˇđťââď¸#like the webtoon artist prob draws kdj pretty bc they love him sm#just like how i draw jys pretty bc of my brainrot...#so who knows maybe that will happen to me toođ¤ˇđťââď¸ time will tell#my main opinion on webtoon yjh (no one asked): CUTE BUT WHERES THE T1TTY BEL- *voice muffled as i get dragged away*#(copied most of these tags from twit too lazy to retype the commentary)#EDIT: i call him reigen jokingly bc theyre abt the same age but#kdj is also mob core to me....#in that theyre both protags that dont look flashy and look more like extras/'mob charas'#yet r irrevocably unequivocably the protags of their respective stories#(just as everyone is the protag of your own life! sieze ur narrative! etcetcđ¤)#also. both black haired bowlcut havers KJDJS#kdj is reigen coded (derogatory) and mob coded (POS)#hes also a 'con man like reigen..... yep hes def still reigen coded
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Funniest shit ever has been not liking jujutsu kaisen cause it sucked narratively and aesthetically and everyone else just going duuude this show rules the buildup is crazyyyyy and then it ends and wraps up nothing leaves everyone confused and is hailed as one of the worst fumbles ever and i feel vindicated because i saw the cracks from the start
#this is a certified HATERRRRR post#no beef if you liked jjk its a shame that it happened bc a lot of people were rooting for it#but mannnnn#i dont know why people liked it. i tried watching it and just couldnt finish it cause it felt like it went nowhere#and the characters and humor were meh. maybe i just didnt like it bc i wasnt an edgy teen but the thing is im still edgy i just have standar#i dont even know about the whole thing or detailss either so id u wanna tell me bc ur salty im all ears#i am just making an uninformed hater post <3#thunderclap
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rankin bass bagginshield. as a treat.
#look. it happened and dont tell me it didnt#its a long trek to erebor.. sometimes you gotta kiss a guy#messy situationship kings#the hobbit#bilbo baggins#thorin oakenshield#bagginshield#rankin bass#arts
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traumatized dickweeds turn to torturing each other so they can distract from the fact that they both need therapy
#starscream is terrified that he feels kind of getting for thinking de@ththre#@ts at metalhawk#and bumblebee is terrified that he doesnt feel any guilt at all#and only one other bot knows it so the accomplice must be destroyed any gaslighting distactable means possible#' YOU need THERAPY' ' NO yOU NEED THERAPY. ' ' I DONT NEED THERAPY. I JUST FILMED AN AD FOR MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS'#' fat fuck probably took up 29 cameras to film just you'#' THE TITAN. DIDNT. CHOOSE. YOU'#and then they both say keep yourself safe bcs theyre just so kind#me drawing starscream like an scp : now THIS is secy to me !!!#bee is an scp too they were Made for each other otter#starscream who everyone sees as an scp: everyone screams cries runs away tells to get help#bee: literally just a guy who happens to be a bitch. what happened to having fun and whimsy in this world anymore :\#bee who everyone sees as their lil friend nothing more : uoughhh so cute the smol protecc him omg!!#starscream: he kicked me while i was down & told me he hoped that made me infertile#' hes a fucking little bitch is what he is. im gonna get him pregnant now.' real life starscream quote Real i was maccadam.#maccadam#starscream#bumblebee#tf idw#idw scumbag bee enjoyer#metalhawk#whatever he has like no content anyways ill include him ig#transformers#starbee#the way i made shipart then almost forgot to tag the ship#GUILTY* KIND OF GUILTY* bruh
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ok I have A Lot of thoughts about the staircase confession (well really about Edwin's whole character arc, but all roads lead to rome) but for now I just wanna say that, yes, I was bracing myself for something to go terribly wrong when I first watched it, and yes, part of me was initially worried its placement might be an uncharacteristically foolish choice made in the name of Drama or Pacing or Making a Compelling Episode of Television but at the expense of narrative sense--
But I wanna say that having taken all that into account, and watched it play out, and sat with it - and honestly become rather transfixed by it - I really think it's a beautifully crafted moment and truly the only way that arc could've arrived at such a satisfying conclusion.
And if I had to pinpoint why I not only buy it but also have come to really treasure it, I'd have to put it down to the fact that it genuinely is a confession, and nothing else.
That moment is an announcement of what Edwin has come to understand about himself, but because it takes the form of a character admitting romantic feelings for such a close friend, I think it can be very easy, when writing that kind of thing, to imbue it with other elements like a plea or a request or even the start of a new relationship that, intentionally or not, would change the shape of the moment and can quickly overshadow what a huge deal the telling is all on its own. But that's not the case here. Since it is only a confession, unaccompanied by anything else, and since we see afterward how it was enough, evidently, to fix the strangeness that had grown between him & Charles, we're forced to understand that it was never Edwin's feelings that were actually making things difficult for him - it was not being able to tell Charles about them. 'Terrified' as he's been of this, Edwin learns that his feelings don't need to either disappear completely or be totally reciprocated in order for him to be able to return to the peace, stability, and security of the relationship with which he defines his existence - and the scale of that relief a) tells us a hell of a lot about Edwin as a character and b) totally justifies the way his declaration just bursts out of him at what would otherwise be such a poorly chosen moment, in my opinion.
Whether or not they are or ever could be reciprocated, Edwin's feelings are definitively proven not to be the problem here - only his potential choice to bottle it up - his repression - is. And where that repression had once been mainly involuntary, a product of what he'd been through, now that he's got this new awareness of himself, if he still fails to admit what he's found either to himself or to the one person he's so unambiguously close with, then that repression will be by his own choice and actions.
And he won't do that. Among other things, he's coming into this scene having just (unknowingly) absolved the soul of his own school bully and accidental killer by pointing out a fact that is every bit as central to his self-discovery as anything about his sexuality or his attraction to Charles is: the idea that "If you punish yourself, everywhere becomes Hell"
So narratively speaking, of course it makes sense that Edwin literally cannot get out of Hell until he stops punishing himself - and right now, the thing that's torturing him is something he has control over. It's not who he is or what he feels, but what he chooses to do with those feelings that's hurting him, and he's even already made the conscious choice to tell Charles about them, he was just interrupted. But now that they're back together and he's literally in the middle of an attempt to escape Hell, there is absolutely no way he can so much as stop for breath without telling Charles the truth. Even the stopping for breath is so loaded - because they're ghosts, they don't need to breathe, but also they're in Hell, so the one thing they can feel is pain, however nonsensical. And Edwin certainly is in pain. But whether he knows what he's about to do or not when he says he 'just needs a tick,' a breather is absolutely not what's gonna give him enough relief to keep climbing - it's fixing that other hurt, though, that will.
Like everything else in that scene, there's a lot of layers to him promising Charles "You don't have to feel the same way, I just needed you to know" - but I don't think that means it isn't also true on a surface level. It's the act of telling Charles that matters so much more than whatever follows it, and while that might have gone unnoticed if anything else major had happened in the same conversation, now we're forced to acknowledge its staggering and singular importance for what it is. The moment is well-earned and properly built up to, but until we see it happen in all its wonderful simplicity, and we see the aftermath (or lack thereof, even), we couldn't properly anticipate how much of a weight off Edwin's shoulders merely getting to share the truth with Charles was going to be, why he couldn't wait for a better, safer opportunity before giving in to that desire, or how badly he needed to say it and nothing else - and I really, really love the weight that act of just being honest, seen, and known is given in their story/relationship.
#dead boy detectives#edwin payne#the case of the very long stairway#im sorry this really IS the short version of my thoughts i swear#i didnt want to get long and rambley backing everything up and mentioning everything else this forces me to reconsider#i just feel like i've barely interacted w this fandom and still seen quite a few odd duck takes on this moment imo#i dont think he wouldntve got the nerve to say it otherwise#(he was already going to! & if anything his new experiences in hell only cement that being the right choice)#and as much as i get what fear can do to a person i still definitely dont think he was resigned to staying in hell if charles reacted badly#i truly think he just couldnt keep it to himself any longer#the show is upfront about his escaping hell being a testament to his own strength rather than a lucky break of some sort#so i think even being on the receiving end of a rescue mission getting out still must take a lot of strength in this universe#and telling charles that definitely made him stronger/in less pain#so yeah totally necessary it happened where and when it did in my book#also i hope it doesnt sound like im being dismissive of anything charles says in this scene#but the way i see it those were all things they both already knew#so reaffirming them just adds to the idea that the act of Telling Each Other Things is what's so important here#rather than counting as a truly separate thing this conversation achieves#just my two cents
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Samurai and Ninja in crappy pics because December here is under a constant cloud and I just want y'all to see them all golden and cute without learning how to take aesthetic pictures 𼴠đâ¤ď¸đđĽ°
linktr.ee/Mezzy
#klance#can i tell everyone to look away before i write tags to someone privately lmao no? damn#anyway yes i meant music!! and thank you for sharing something!!#baking seems like a hyperfixation#like i know you said you baked once but then look at me#...i was thinking if i could make salads.... i gotta be medicore at least at one food thing#its a joke its a joke#i will one day get used to focusing on more complicated kitchen work than heating up meat or cooking things in salt and water#anyone else had trouble getting out of bed this december?#once i do i try to pick physical activities that dont require creative thinking because man#at the post office i had small talk with a lady waiting in line she didnt speak polish so u know me it happened#and she recommended light therapy lamp#im very tempted to try it becase i had record bad thoughts sleepless nights and jerking awake this month#it might be rooted in economic instability growing inflation costs of living and shitty working conditions while still trying to buy gifts?#but hey there are things we cant have control over and there are things we can#ive got winter wonderland comic coming though#i will try my best to speed-finish it as a christmas gift aight#i hope its going to be a nice thing!!#wow thats a long set of tags
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green
#my art#free! iwatobi swim club#free! eternal summer#free! dive to the future#free! fanart#free!#makoto tachibana#yamazaki sousuke#hiyori tono#im DONe oh my god i didnt think i could do it#looks at date what do u meAN these only took a week i feel like ive aged 30 years working on these#makoto took the longest by far like th angle the water the FISH shoutout to the blur tool fr i would die without her#also let me tell u a story. the entire time i was working on makoto and hiyori i STILL had no internet#so not only was i fighting the csp offline usage limit i also couldnt download any new brushes so guess who rawdogged the willow and kelp#nothin but a bamboo leaf brush a flat chisel and a dream#these r easily the most in-depth backgrounds ive tackled in a While and i honestly think they turned out rly well all things considered#makoto has 2 b my fav for obvious reasons but as a set i think they r all very strong and cohesive im so !!! pats self on back#sousuke tho is sadly th latest instalment of hina refuses to learn csp perspective tool.. dont look at my diagonals dont LOOK at them >:(((#it's always more apparent w indoor settings sighs gomen sousuke at least u look great in the patient gown :'> resident hospital hottie#ANYWAY ever since tht one free!/colour theory post i have been rotating these three in my head nonstop they make me in sain#so this is my take on them and green this is my love letter to the right hand men of the free cast#and hiyori /j#i jest he's grown on me he has male manipulated his way up from the bottom tier i have been charmed by his petty instigator tendencies#this is what happened to ikuya kirishima hashtag never forget
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something about the fondness in which phil looks at dan and says "this is me trying to play the piano" makes me think about the two of them sitting on the piano bench together while dan tries to teach him
#you cant tell me this didnt happen! phil is sooo certain he's bad at it and thinks dan will just confirm the comparison and it makes me SICK#dont think about them sitting there together and playing some simple duet#or phil fucking up (on purpose or by accident) and dan does his pHILL and theyre both laughing about it#and phil *mostly* makes his way through a c major scale and dan says you're doing great sweetie#sorrY dan playing the piano means so much to me#dnp#c.text#dan and phil
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From: Etho [Hermitcraft]
To: Joel [Empires]
It's been two days, thirteen hours, and forty seven minutes since I got back home. I haven't really done anything since. I've just been thinking about you. And me. Us.
Sorry. That's probably weird to read. I don't even know if you remember me.
Anyways. Hi.
I miss you.
I never realized how lonely I was before I met you.
I don't know what I'll do if you don't remember me.
God, I sound pathetic.
Read on AO3
#nya talks#my fics#trafficblr#smalletho#ethoslab#smallishbeans#joel smallishbeans#boat boys#hermitfic#hermitblr#trafficfic#hermitshipping#trafficshipping#for the double life anniversary!!!!#not very dl centered - takes place the weeks after#but its About what happened in double life#which will have to be good enough considering its ten pm here and i dont feel like starting a whole new fic#anyways enjoy! tell me your thoughts on this one i'm unsure about the writing style#also pls tell me if theres any errors i didnt put this one through grammarly yikes
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can.. can I ask for an affectionate reader with characters who arenât normally like⌠used to the love? like, not just through words but physical affection like hand-holding, kisses, hugs, all that shebang. probably with a few people like yelan, ei, basically any character that is either cut-off from society or seems socially distant or isolated. đ
â affectionate reader with yelan, ei, & furina
[ 4.2 Archon Quest spoilers ]
Ă yelan
Varies between how you display your affection, to be honest. Just like being affectionate with people? She's cool with it as long as you don't pop by while she's working (mostly because she'll end up dragging you into it for a bit of fun). I don't think she's all that touchy feely herself, but she'll absolutely get you gifts insteadâ like pretty knick nacks? She'll make sure to snag any she thinks you might like. Like a good meal? Sure, she'll take you out to one of the restaurants in the city, doesn't matter how expensive. Her treat. If you do prefer physical gifts rather then being taken out, you'll eventually get used to the random unmarked letters and packages showing up where your staying pretty often. It's obvious to know who it came from even if she never signs anything.
Flirty reader, though? Whole nother can of worms and now it's a challenge. The more confident you are the more interested she is. The other acolytes would absolutely seethe at the idea but she has no hesitation at just straight up flirting backâ she's as charismatic as they come and she's got a poker face that's basically impenetrable. She'll probably also make a bet to see who cracks first (she always wins, unsurprisingly). Probably won't get dragged into any of her schemes this way but if you ask politely maybe she'll consider it, anyway.
The smell of freshly brewed tea and the clatter of dice across wood was a common sight at the Yanshang Teahouseâ less common was the woman secluded in the far corner, her lips pulled into a grin that flashed fangs and a look that would scare off the most confident of men.
She'd normally try to scope out any new blood that'd made the mistake of stepping into her teahouse and was equally stupid enough to accept a gamble against her just for the thrill of it, but she was far too absorbed in the warm body at her side, one of her die clasped tightly in their hand as she guided them through the motionsâ they had a knack for it, she had to admit. The thought made her preen, the clatter of the die as it rolled across the table giving her that subtle, familiar rush.
Even if she knew exactly where it'd land.
"Six. Hm, maybe you're just lucky," She muses, plucking the die from the table and holding it up to her eye like a prized jewel, "Or maybe you're not as innocent as you'd have us believe." There's a sharp glint in her eyes at the prospect, but everyone else has the sense to keep their heads down and their words to themselves as she tosses the die herself.
"So why don't we find out and make a bet, just between you and me?"
Ă ei
Varies between Ei and the Shogun, because you'll probably be seeing either as much as the other. Sometimes you gotta really squint to tell who it is sometimes, but you get used to it. Both are fairly similar, though, in that their first instinct (especially in public) is to tense up like you're about to attack them or something. Difference is Ei eventually relaxes after a solid minute of trying to process your sudden affection and, if no one else is around, she might even reciprocate. Just don't tease her for being a little stiff and awkward about it, she's trying. That's what happens when your only company is a robot and uh. Nothing. For like 500 years. She's trying. Raiden, on the other hand, is just about as awkward as you can imagine. She's polite (blunt) about it because Ei is fond of you and also you are. The Creator. But she's not really built to deal with personal relationships and so she doesn't know how to deal with affection.
..Depending on what you do you may or may not blue screen Ei hard enough that she retreats back to PoE
Ei usually isn't fond of sitting still, unless it's to meditate. At least then she goes in with a purpose, something to achieveâ but now, she's just focused on trying not to make a fool of herself. Her muscles are starting to ache from how hard she's tensing, though, in an effort to sit as straight and still as possible as their hands glide through her hair, weaving it into a single braid.
She can just barely hear the subtle lilt of their voice as they humâ and though it is soothing, it is also..very distracting. She can't focus long enough to try and meditate, too lost in the gentle rise and fall of their voice and the care they take to braid her hair. If she'd had a heart, she'd sure it'd be beating so wildly against her ribcage they could hear it.
But then it stopsâ their hands fall back to their sides and their humming falters. She freezes, too, racking her brain for any slights she must have committed. Instead, she is met with a calm, tender touch on the back of her neck, making her inhale sharply.
"Am I making you uncomfortable, Ei? You're so tense.." She has to grit her teeth to stop herself from bowing so low her head presses against the ground, her hands folded in her lap, clenching instinctively. "..No, Divine One." She answers simply, trying to contain the adoration swelling in her chest.
Yet as much as she tries to relax, to ease their worries, she finds that she cannot.
"Hm." That small murmur, a simple sound that nearly made her jump, was the only warning she got before they scooted closer, wrapping their arms around her stomach and resting their chin on her shoulder with a grin she would liken to Miko's, if she dared to make such a comparison. "Really?"
She swears she must've been feverish at the affection, lightheaded and dazed until she thought she might simply perish at the brush of their hands against her own.
Much to her embarrassment, however, she doesn't realize she's instinctively pulled back into Plane of Euthymia until she sees the familiar dull purples engulf her vision once again.
Though only a small solace, it seemed a little..brighter, this time.
Ă furina
Varies between pre 4.2 and post 4.2 archon quests to be honest.
Pre 4.2 she comes off as very vainâ of course the most Divine would see fit to spoil her with affection! She deserves it, and is obviously their favorite! Just don't look too hard because she's terrible at hiding how flustered she actually is. Absolutely goes home right after and screams into her pillow for at least thirty minutes minimum.
Post 4.2 she's a lot more openly bashful and flustered. She's really not used to affection and even the smallest show of it has her folding immediately. Now that she doesn't need to worry about being found out she's a lot more receptive to affection. Cup her cheeks and compliment her and her knees are buckling. Like. Especially weak for compliments and praise (she deserves it. please spoil her).
She swears she must be hallucinatingâ she had been having trouble sleeping recently. But..no. The visage of the Creator was as real as the sweat beading on her brow as she stared at them for a long, awkward moment. Should..she let them in? But then they'd see the pathetic state she was in, and the last thing she wanted to do was make a fool of herself in front of them-!
Her choice was quickly made for her, anyway, as she let out an undignified squeak of surprise when they suddenly tugged her forward into their chest, enclosing her in a hug.
Her first reaction was to freezeâ her second was becoming absolutely flustered, her cheeks flushing a soft pink and her mouth closing and opening as she tried to find her words.
"Iâ ah..um." She stumbled over her words instead, floundering like a fish out of water. Yet she felt a distinct sense of emptiness wash over her when they finally pulled back, looking a touch sheepish. "Sorry, sorryâ you just looked like you needed a hug."
The silence spoke for itself, her shoulders tensing slightly. But the way the concern and affection bled through their voice made her waver, her hands trembling as she let out a shaky breath that almost sounded like a sigh.
"It's..It's fine! Fine, I'm fine." She repeated, trying desperately to ignored the way her voice cracked and how hot her face feltâ though it was more an attempt to affirm herself that she was not thinking about how warm they felt, how much she..actually enjoyed the hug. She wasn't thinking about it all! Absolutely not!
..Maybe a little.
"Just warn me next time, please?"
#asks#sagau#genshin sagau#self aware genshin#genshin impact sagau#self aware genshin impact#fic tag#genshin cult au#genshin impact cult au#yelan#furina#ei#THIS DIDNT SHOW UP IN MY INBOX UNTIL LIKE#NOVEMBERBIM SORRY IM ANSERRING IT SO LATE??????#tumblr working right is a miracle that will never happen#anyway can u tell i have. biases. there r so many characters I wanted to write for this (shenhe.........) but I forced myself to limit it#to 4 for my own sanity and everyones elses#also didnt know if u wanted just yan or sagau so I went for my specialty đ§ââď¸#was gonna include my beloved cryo archon but decided against it#ei the pathetic lesbian that u r....mwah#I'm sorry this took so long it took me 50 yrs to figure out yelan.. đ#i am still not confident abt my characterization of her but shes so good at her job even im confused abt her#reading her lore crying and sobbing in the corner. shaking her like a can of soda#checks note idk uhh cocky doesnt let herself form personal relationships charismatic uhhhhhhhh#idk dont ask me i just started praying and hoping for the best here#i think she'd get a kick out of getting reader into like. fudging rolls and shit. create an absolute menace out of reader#set them loose and see what chaos happens#just kicks back and watches it all unfold internally laughing her ass off#i didnt know whether to just do headcanons in uh. bulleted list or like#full on drabbles
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Bringer of Demise - Chapter 2
[FIRST PART] [AO3]
I'll be honest, I wasn't that confident with the first chapter (probably because it's been a while since I sat down to write something) but I like this one much more. The angst is definitely helping lol
Here's chapter 2: Like a House Fire
âSimon-â Soap jumps as the door slams behind him. Ghost grunts, walking further into his room to sit at the desk, reports now laying forgotten. Not that they need them anymore, with Novikovâs arrival.
Soap takes a sit in front of him, the bed creaking when he leans forward to look in Ghostâs dark eyes. âTalk to me, mo chridhe.â
Ghost slides the mask off his face, and throws it on the desk with so much force some papers fly and land behind it. Soap waits as he stares at the wall for a minute or two, lost in whatever dreadful memory the Doctor brought forward.
âNovikov was the one that tested me. When they brought me back from Mexico.â he starts, voice carefully monotone. âWent through regular shit at first. How long I can use Limbo before I have to stop. What happens if someone shoots at it from the outside. See if sound travels, if comms work.â
Soap holds his tongue, ignores the questions that float to his mind about the process. Itâs more important for him to listen to Simon.
âDidnât really have a problem with those. Expected them, really.â Simon shakes his head, bitterness bleeding into his voice, âit started going wrong when Shepherd came into the picture.â
At the mention of that name, Soapâs jaw clenches. General fucking Shepherd, the man behind Gravesâ leash. Ran like a coward after his dog died, still off grid even after Laswell got the go-ahead from CIA to start a search for him. Soap remembers the few meetings he was in, how Shepherd would address Ghost. Spoke to him as if Limbo wasnât tearing itself apart because of his orders.
Ghost never told him much about the bawbag, Soap never asking. Felt wrong, with how little he willingly gives Ghost about his own past.
âWhat did he do?â he asks, a little hesitant to hear the answer.
âNovikov wasnât pushing me hard enough, according to him. Because he was afraid of what my powers would do to me or to others, or for a different reason, I didnât bother finding out. Donât know if the Doc tried to resist. It doesnât matter.â Simon lets out a mirthless laugh, âyou know the rest.â
Soap nods. âYe think⌠he will do it again? Push ye toâŚâ
âIâm not worried about me, Johnny.â He leans closer to Soap, and it dawns on him that Simonâs not as angry as he is terrified, âthereâs nothing new Novikov can tell me to use Limbo on that would break it like last time. But you⌠they never found your limits, have they?â
â... You know they didnât need to.â
âI donât think that ever satisfied Novikov, or the higher-ups.â Soap frowns, Simonâs voice lowering to an almost whisper, âI think they were just as tied up in red tape as you.â
He doesnât respond to that. He doesnât think he needs to, they both know Simon is right.
Soapâs memories of that time period are⌠muddy at best. And it wasnât because of the shot he received to the head, the day he died.
In the weeks following it, Soap felt like everyone that knew what happened there was walking on eggshells around him. Not many knew, they tried to sweep it under the rug immediately to avoid an international incident, but those that didâŚ
When Soap refused to use his powers on field, his Captain was irritated. Said heâd go to the higher-ups, get him written for insubordination.
The very next day, the Captain took him to the side and asked him to tell him. Fuck the higher-ups when it comes to his own personal curiosity, eh?
Soap refused, obviously. The Captain let it go, eventually, but Soap always wondered if he was trying to send him into impossible situations to see just how much destruction he can survive.
âIâm not going to let him do anything to you, love.â Simonâs voice makes him refocus on the present, âNovikov tells you to jump, you ask me how high.â
Soap scoffs fondly, the anger that has bubbled up in his chest subsiding, âtheyâre gonna write ye up, LT.â
âDonât care. They wonât boot me out anyway.â he answers smugly, scarred lips quirking up in a way that makes Soap want to explode the rest of the world, if only to keep him safe.
He returns the smile, âsound awfully certain of yerself. Should I ask Price if the power went to yer head?â
Simon huffs, âjust the facts, Johnny. Not only Iâm legally dead, they wouldnât want someone like me strolling around civvies in case I go off and send a couple hundred to Limbo.â
âSometimes I forget just how much off yer heid you are, Simon Riley.â
âTakes one to know one, and all that.â Simon moves to get up, when something pulls at his leg.
A few dark hands started petting at their boots, so gently they didnât notice. Soap smiles, leaning down to return the favor with his left hand.
âLook, we made yer friends worried.â the hands wrap around his fingers, chasing the little white flames.
Simon shakes his boot, loosening the residents of the voidâs hands, âyou know thatâs not how that works.â
âWell, they react to our emotions, you never know!â he turns back to the hands, âdonât listen to him, heâs just grouchy âcause Iâm not holdinâ his hand.â
Heâs happy to continue playing with Simonâs âfriendsâ until a shrill sound cuts through the air. Soap watches Simon grab his phone from his pocket.
âItâs Rudy.â he taps his phone and sits down next to Soap, âRodolfo?â
âFantasma. Is Soap with you?â Rudy greets, voice hurried.
Soap takes Simonâs wrist and brings the phone closer, âaye, whatâs wrong?â
âAll of our revenants were woken up by our Reapers, I⌠I assume it happened to yours as well.â
Christ, must be later than midnight in Mexico right now. Getting dragged into your Reaperâs realm in the middle of sleeping⌠canât be fun.
âAffirm.â Ghost says, âI assume yours asked about Fate and Lumity?â
âYes.â thereâs someone talking in the background, and Soap realizes itâs Alejandro, giving out orders, âsome of our revenants chose Fate. Weâre in the process of reprimanding them, but⌠Itâs more important that I tell you what we gathered.â
Simon and Soap share a look. Anything would be helpful at this point.
Rudy continues, âthe ones that chose Fate didnât give us much. Apparently their Reaper just left, only saying they chose right. It is mine that explained the most.â
âYou did say your Reaper was chattyâŚâ Simon mutters.
âIt is.â Rudy sighs, âmy Reaper didnât get mad when I chose you. It said it was expecting it.â
Rudyâs Reaper⌠Reaper of Matter⌠is on Lumityâs side?
âThe Reapers are⌠in a state of disorder.â he pauses, mulling over the words. â... My Reaper said this hasnât happened since before the age of revenants.â
âDid it say whatâs Fateâs goal in all this?â Simon asks.
âNo. I donât think it knows.â Rudy begins talking in Spanish to someone on the other side, far too fast for Soap to understand. â-JabĂłn y Fantasma?â
They can hear some rustling before Alejandroâs voice comes through, âHermanos! You landed us in a real shitshow this time around, eh?â
Soap smiles sheepishly, âgood teh hear ye, Ale. Sorry about the mess.â
âAll good. Well- for now.â Alejandro hums, âI have a feeling that is due to change at any point.â
âYe said itâŚâ
Rudy turns the phone back to him, as he says, âwhatever it is, you can call us. Weâll continue to update you.â
âAppreciated, hermano,â Ghost answers, âsame goes for us.â
âDonât be strangers. Weâll talk later.â Ghost and Soap say their goodbyes as Rudy hangs up.
So the Reapers themselves donât quite know what Fate is planning⌠he didnât think it was possible, but Soap is even more unsettled. Reapers are volatile as it is, though before they couldâve trusted them to not meddle in their âboring human affairsâ.
A Reaper even Reapers canât foresee⌠how can they prepare against something like that?
Soap eventually returned to his own barrack, long after daylight faded. Sleep evaded him for most of the night, burning moths fluttering around his cot as he tosses and turns, flames occasionally charring his blanket.
When morning finally comes, he finds himself in the revenant training grounds along with Ghost. Anxiousness drips down his spine as they wait for the Doctor and his assistants.
Ghost knocks their boots together, and Soap calms. Heâs not going through this alone, unlike any other revenant.
He begins to hope Novikov has simply forgotten about them when the man is late. Unfortunately, he doesnât. Almost 20 minutes after the tests were supposed to start, the man comes hurrying down the training grounds, the papers in his hands miraculously not flying away in the gentle breeze.
âSergeant! Lieutenant! I apologize for the delay.â Novikov calls when he gets close enough, somewhat out of breath, âyesterdayâs incident had us sifting through reports all night, as you can imagine.â
The Doctor pauses to take another deep breath, and flips through the folder he brought, âas Iâm sure you understand, this will not be a standard revenant test. I will not be redoing your basic tests, Lieutenant. As for you, SergeantâŚâ
Novikov turns his bespectacled grey eyes to him, and gives him a small smile, âI understand that I will not be able to test your limits here, but the records of the Verdansk incident are enough.â
Soapâs back straightens, and he canât help but growl, âye know about it?!â
He can count on two hands the amount of living people that know the whole truth behind his Reaping, and about half of them are in the 141.
âLaswell has allowed me access to the files. Iâve known about the incident beforehand, of course, theorized Konchar had-â
âDonât ye dare say that fuckinâ name.â he snarls, flames flickering within his clenched fists. It doesnât stop the stream of blurry memories, of melting skin beneath his fingertips-
Soap forcibly exhales, coercing his flames to die down.
Novikov doesnât seem offended by the interruption. On the contrary, he looks⌠intrigued.
âIâd like to test the difference between your hands, to start. I have only been made aware of the changes in flame color, and the markings, of course.â
Soap glances at Ghost, who gives him a nod.
âWhat do ye need me to do, Doctor?â
âThis is most intriguing⌠the flesh of your left hand is cooler than your right, but the flames are considerably warmerâŚâ
Soap feels the ground between his fingers crumble to ash. So far, The tests are quite⌠boring, if heâs honest.
Heâs had his own morbid fascination with his own powers, for a while. Wondering how it compares to other explosive compounds, trying to run the numbers to find the closest approximate. He thought, if he could find an equation, he could control his powers better.
Soap gave up on it soon after. Didnât have enough data to work with, and generating more meant using his powers, and wellâŚ
Novikov lifts his pen, âvery good, Sergeant.â steaminâ Jesus, heâs not 5, is he gonna give him a sticker next? âNow, Lieutenant, remove any clothing on your right arm, if you will.â
Ghost, who up until now stood motionless in his best imitation of a statue, stares at Novikov for a long moment, before slowly removing his glove and tucking it into his belt. He steps closer to Soap, rolling his sleeve to reveal pale, scarred skin.
âNow, with your left arm of course, I want you to attempt to explode the Lieutenantâs arm.â
Soap notices the assistant with the heat-sensitive camera aim it at Ghost, âitâs not gonna do anything to him, Doc.â
âThen there shouldnât be any problem demonstrating it.â Novikov doesnât look up from his papers. Bawbag.
Ghost offers him his arm silently. Soap knows it wonât do anything to him, they bear marks to prove it.
Soap takes the arm. White flames wrap harmlessly around it. He focuses his powers to his left hand, the air around them distorting.
It feels fundamentally wrong to try and hurt Simon. His breathing picks up, fingers twitching as the flames climb higher and higher.
â-itâs as if theyâre trying to reach equilibrium. The flesh cools the flames, the flames heat it in return-â
Ghost doesnât react, not that Soap can see with his vision tunneling on their joined limbs. The fire burns, searing, scorching, mutilating-
â-You may stop now, Sergeant-â
He canât hurt him, how could he ever dare hurt him? Why isnât anyone stopping this?
Like a bystander watching a house fire, Soap is helpless in front of the flames. He can almost smell the bubbling flesh from here, the melting of everything in the face of unending ruin-
â-ohnny. Enough.â
Soap jumps, the world rushing back to his senses. He turns his head shakily, to see Novikovâs gaze boring into him.
âAhâm not- I canât-â he mumbles, words barely forming on his lips, âGhost-â
âYouâre alright, Johnny.â Ghostâs smooth voice is steady as ever, but his eyes betray him, âitâs over.â
Novikov affirms, âWe got all we needed, Sergeant.â
Ghost lifts his hand towards him, and Soap barely suppresses a flinch as it trails down his bicep. âYouâre alright.â he repeats.
Soap nods, feeling like a bampot all at once. Of course Ghost is fine. They already knew this, he told Novikov as much not 10 minutes ago.
Stupid, stupid, fucking stupid. Soap grits his teeth, âwhatâs next, Doctor?â
Novikov takes a while to answer, and Soap avoids Ghostâs perceptive gaze as they wait, âI have received approval for Limbo, Lieutenant. Iâd like to see the changes it went through first-hand.â
â... Understood. We will need to put some distance between us.â Ghost grunts.
The Doctor waves his hand, ânaturally. Youâre familiar with your limits, Iâll leave it to your judgement.â
Soap feels Ghost urge him to move, and they begin walking.
âJohnny-â
âAye.â Soap huffs, âsorry, LT.â
âWhat for?â Ghost hums, âyou did nothing wrong.â
He doesnât answer to that. If Ghost didnât see his fuck-up, heâd rather not bring it up.
âIf you need to stop at any point-â
Maybe heâs easier to read than he thought, âAhâm solid, Simon.â
âYou froze there. Donât think you can hide it.â or maybe Ghost knows him too well by now.
They come to a stop, facing one another. Soap bites the inside of his cheek, âIâm- Iâll be fine as long as Ah donât have to repeat that.â
âYou wonât.â Ghost assures him, âready for Limbo?â
If thereâs a place to find peace of mind, itâs the void, âaye. Been a while since we paid our friends a visit, hm?â
Ghost chuckles, âonly youâd call them that.â He raises his voice, shouting to Novikov, âLimbo out in five!â
The Doctor gives them a thumbs-up, so Ghost closes his eyes.
Entering Limbo never got less jarring. Soap gets used to it faster if he expects it, but the shift from the colorful, lively world to the still void is an odd one.
Still, once he gets accustomed to it, he canât help but smile. As weird as it is to say, he missed this place.
Limboâs victims are docile, chasing after bright moths with no sense of urgency. Like shooting stars, they paint the dark skies of Limbo with radiant yellows and oranges.
This might be the only good thing Soapâs powers have ever done.
He catches Ghost staring at him, his eyes a glowing white, âwhat?â he asks with a small grin.
âBetter?â
âAye.â
âSergeant!â Novikov shouts, though it sounds muffled as it enters Limbo from the other side, âtry to explode something!â
Soap frowns, âis he talkinâ about yer friends?â
Ghost mutters, clearly unhappy with the disturbance, âdonât know.â
âWhat do you want âim to test it on?!â Ghost shouts back.
âAny material will do! I assume youâre standing on something, correct?â
Soap looks down, at the solid black ground. âWhat is this made of, anyway?â
The way Ghost hums back tells him âfuck if I knowâ. He crouches down, placing both hands on it. The texture is almost like a glass pane, except his fingers canât get a grip on it no matter how much he tries.
Before he can hesitate, Soap flexes his fingers.
Nothing happens.
âHuh.â he tilts his head, âsuppose it makes sense.â
âHow so?â Ghost kneels beside him, sliding a finger over the undamaged surface.
âMy powers have to come into contact with a material to explode.â Soap shrugs, getting back on his feet, âvoidâs made of nothing, no?â
âHm.â Ghost casts another look around Limbo, and blinks.
Soap catches himself before his knees buckle from the rush of color and noise back into the world. Ghost hooks an arm under his shoulder as a precaution, but he assures him heâs stable.
âAbsolutely outstanding! This is the first time you couldnât explode something, is that correct, Sergeant?â Novikov half-jogs to them.
âUh⌠Aye?â
The Doctorâs eyes gleam with wonder, âIncredible! If only there were more Revenants of Destruction in this base, I would be able to test if this is a result of a relation between your Reapers, or a consequence of your powers mixing⌠Alas, this is not the purpose of my visit.âÂ
Novikovâs assistants are absorbed with the testing equipment they brought, some looking like set pieces of a low budget sci-fi movie to Soap. Heâd love to nick one to take apart, but the shiteâs probably so delicate even his fingertips would burn and destroy them.
âNow, for the next test, Iâd like you to-â a shrill noise cuts Novikov off, and Ghost pulls out his phone.
Soap pouts when Ghost answers. Why does no one ever call him?
âAffirm. Weâll be there in fifteen.â Ghost ends the call, âwe need to go to a meeting with Laswell.â
Novikovâs eyes dim, âah, I see⌠I suppose we can continue this afterwards.â
âYouâre invited too, Doctor.â Ghost grunts, making both Soap and Novikov swing around in surprise.
When Laswell finally shows up on screen, she seems different from what Soap remembered.
Dark eye bags, pale, hair more grey in some places. He almost didnât recognize her, and looking around the room tells him the rest of the team thinks the same.
The rest, except Price, âhow are you, Kate?â
Laswell sighs, more hair falling off her tight bun. âLetâs get to work, John.â
As she brings up several images on screen, Price reports in their mind, âsomeone attacked Laswell and her wife in their home two months ago. She got off with minor injuries, but her wife⌠her concussion was severe enough that she barely talks most days.â
âDid they catch the fucker that did it?â Soap thinks back. If they didnât, heâd gladly volunteer to put the bastard six feet under. He owes Laswell that much.
Price stops him from continuing to plan a revenge, âKate killed him, son. Sheâs trained for field work, an everyday burglar doesnât stand a chance against her. Now focus up.â
Soap huffs, âyes sir.â
â-we found signs of Shepherdâs work around Urzikstan. Supposedly, heâs working with one of the resistance groups there.â blurry satellite images pop up on screen, convoys and remote buildings hidden between green hills.
Gaz frowns, âeither he suddenly grew a moral compass, or thereâs a catch.â
Laswell nods, âitâs possible itâs a false lead, but with recent clashes between Urzik forces and the Russians, Iâd like you to personally investigate it.â
âWeâll get it done, Laswell.â Price says, his authoritative voice on full blast.
âNo one I trust more than you.â Laswell smiles, in a way Soap has never seen. âNow, obviously as you all are grounded, I wouldnât just send you on what could potentially lead to nothingâŚâ
She begins talking to Novikov, âweâre working on tracking the missing revenants Graves and Shepherd trafficked.â
The Doctor nods, adjusting the frankly huge glasses on his nose bridge, âmany of them belong to rarer kinds of Reapers. If they were to fall into the wrong handsâŚâ
âWe canât allow that to happen.â Ghost finishes sternly.
âCommander Karim has been working to find them, but thereâs so much she can do while also fending off Russians.â the screen switches to a compilation of names and passport photos, each listing both a date of birth and Reaping. âThis is your official reason to be sent to Urzikstan, boys. Whatever intel Graves has left behind him regarding the revenantsâ location, we need it.â
âWhen are we up?â Price asks.
â1600.â
Gaz whistles, âbrassâ knickers are all twisted up, huh.â
âMiss Laswell, if I may.â Novikov pipes up, âI have yet to finish the renewed revenant test of Sergeant MacTavish and Lieutenant Ghost. I will not be able to give you an accurate recommendation before that.â
The fuckâs he talking about?
âI understand, Doctor, but itâs out of my control.â Laswell exhales, âthis is why I invited you to this meeting. Based on what you do know, what is your verdict?â
The entire room swivels to stare at the Doctor. Novikov scrambles to flip through the papers in his hands, before speaking with an air of defeat.
âConsidering my current understanding of Lumity, and the state of Sergeant MacTavish and Lieutenant Ghost⌠I recommend that until further testing, they should be separated as much as possible on field, if their powers are to be used.â
⌠What?
#call of duty modern warfare 2#cod mw2#cod ghost#cod soap#cod gaz#cod price#john soap mactavish#simon ghost riley#kyle gaz garrick#john price#kate laswell#stanislav novikov#revenant au#call of duty fic#call of duty fanfic#call of duty modern warfare#cod fic#cod fanfic#ghostsoap#soapghost#ghoap#soap love you got so much repressed trauma its unreal <3#you dont know how fun it is to finally write his perspective on what happened in part 1 and before#part 1 didnt really dive into what happened to soap bc it was a mystery most of the fic... but now... >:)#first chapter felt a little slow for me but this pace feels better#part 1's pace was really fast and i have slowed down since but i still like to be quick#which is weird when i think about it bc i can ramble for hours on the lore of this#anyway the last part wouldve been expected if you read novikov's side story but ohh boy how will the boys react to that...#also found out about novikov's self-consistency principle today and its completely unrelated to the fic but its an interesting take on time#-paradoxes and the fact i had to separate this sentence into two tags tells me i need to shut up lol
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