#dont blame yourself

[orv-random-quotes]

day 48

Kim Dokja: Were you hoping I would be killed?

Yoo Joonghyuk: I thought it would be good.

This rotten companion. I became angrier when I saw that cheeky face. I wanted to run over and strike him in the jaw, but I couldn't.

[immapsychoclown]

I just keep feeling the need to advise anyone with mental issues to avoid telling anyone except maybe your therapist about your intrusive thoughts. Intrusive thoughts are often violent and/or sexual in nature and I've seen too many instances where people confide in someone they're close to only for it to later be used against them.

Intrusive thoughts are just that, INTRUSIVE. Having them does not make anyone a bad person and often the reason people feel the need to share is over the guilt these thoughts bring them even though they know they'd never act on it. I just despise the people who have weaponized that kind of information against anyone who dared trust them enough to seek reassurance. Sometimes it is unfortunately just enough to push someone over the edge.

Seek a professional, Don't let others turn your fears against you. It IS NOT your fault.

[dear-oizys]

I am so so so done with this show. I literally just watched the sneak peeks and I am DYING??????????????!!!!!!!

The only thing holding her up is rage????? Ma'am. Angela Bassett ma'am. How. How are you so good. Like what????

What do you want me to do?? What you do always?????

What the hell is that. Goddamn. What the fuck. Co parenting at its peak.

Also Ryan Guzman's acting is literally so good in this scene?? You can see Eddie's desperation to fix things!!!?

I absolutely know that this episode is going to destroy me tomorrow. I just know.

[camembri]

you wanted zoro to be on whole cake island to fulfil your weird desire to see zoro punish sanji. I wanted zoro on whole cake island because I think he's stupid enough to right place wrong time the plan and accidentally marry Sanji in full view of the whole wedding party in what becomes the most elaborately constructed comedy of errors ever written. we are NOT the same.

[mythalism]

hmmm. thinking about how veilguard seems to subscribe more to the more traditional "video game as personal power fulfillment fantasy of heroism" than any other dragon age game, except perhaps origins, though origins does it more artfully.

[waxn-wane]

I know I keep dissing anime!Ciel for not being able to dress himself, like everytime dress up doll scenes come up I keep heckling at the screen, "YOURE 13!!! DRESS YOURSELF" being unable to tie his shoelaces and button his coat and brush his hair properly, sir please

(although I'm heckling to stop myself from delighting in the obvious sebaciel scene pff)

But then at a closer look at his clothes in Yana's art, goddamn I would NOT be able to put all that shit on in under an hour. I'm more empathetic to his plight, alla that needs 2 pairs of hands and an hour at most.

Although his everyday clothes are simpler. I raise my eyebrow at this, watching the video now, Ciel could put on his socks and coat by himself. I like to think Ciel actually knows how to dress himself in his everyday clothes but just indulges Sebastian.

On the more elaborate sets, thank goodness for Sebastian, to be able to do that everyday (I still think Seb just likes dressing Ciel because that coat is too simple). I mean, he can do all that at superhuman speeds but it feeds my heart that he's taking his time to make his master beautiful

He could just do this ☝️ But he doesnt

[gigamuffin]

i get so irrationally frustrated when i see a jack aubrey that doesn't meet my standards of thickness its stupid

[grumpyghostdoodles]

The unexpected continuation of this post! And just like that one, I had to stop multiple times bc I was laughing too hard at Chara's first face

Based on these glorious dogs

[jaarijani]

hi bojan???

[alicentlesbian]

rhaenicent - triple dog dare by lucy dacus

[brrdhouse]

i think about characters relationships to religion a normal amount

[xxplastic-cubexx]

Rewatching 97 because I just need to get on with it but GAWDDD at this point I'm literally not watching all the rogueneto scenes IT'S SO UNCOOL 💀💀💀💀 ERIK WOULD NOT DO THAT WTF DISNEY

its just really funny in regards to 97 specifically because they never even interact in 92 (or if they do its incredibly sparring) so it's just the most out of nowhere thing possible. like oh we're doing this now ok

[gooboogy]

The problem is they both make sense.

John lacks any agency, and as his abilities start "failing" he loses more of what little he has. The only things he can do is perceive the world through Arthur's eyes and talk to him in his head. That's it. He has no material effect on the world around them. He is solely 100% reliant on Arthur for his continued existence and influence on the world. He can't ignore Arthur whatsoever (unlike Arthur who can ignore John easy peasy) he can't Do anything but talk and observe (and also experience the deaths of people Arthur touches but ultimately that does nothing). Of course he is going to be distrustful of other people and possessive over Arthur.

Arthur feels like suddenly he can't rely on this very reliable thing that has been keeping him alive this whole time. It would shake anyone up. Especially with the shit they have to deal with? If he can't rely on directions he will be sliced to ribbons or shot without a chance of fighting back. They may as well be dead already. And for all of John's lack of agency, it's Arthur who has to actually deal with the consequences. He's the one who's getting wounded and torn to bits and has to fight all that. Plus it's HIS body. If someone's existence relies on your body, you have the right to refuse, bodily autonomy is a human right.

The problem is they've gone through this cycle before (cycle of learning and forgetting and learning that they are One Unit and need to work Together vs The Problems and forgetting) but never has it shaken Arthur so much. Even when they've argued before he would still listen to John's directions. But now? Everything is in question (as is probably the intent behind John's "failing" abilities.) They DO need other people to help and they DO need to be careful and include John. They cannot truly trust someone else while keeping John a secret or without his input. Arthur has the most control over the situation and the onus is on him to make the compromises. Yeah it's his body but 1) countless times he promised to John that they were in this together and 2) at this point separating them would be so traumatic that they may as well be One.

All of this is to say, curious that Arthur is so willing to tell Oscar about literally everything EXCEPT John. What happens if he does? What if there's someone else to assert for John in a way Arthur can't ignore so easily? Would that legitimize the shared ownership of Arthur's body? What does it mean for John to gain agency by the loss of Arthur's autonomy?

[ceasarslegion]

Well that's my last night shift done. I'm back on days as of this week.

I also have an exam for a job opportunity on Monday and an interview on Wednesday if I pass the exam. So wish me luck for that and maybe I won't have to be stuck at the most thankless job in the world for much longer

[i-spilled-my-soup]

post ttc nico thinking bianca might have lived if he was only smarter and stronger and better, and bianca being the only role model he'd had for all the life he'd remembered he absolutely overcompensates becoming a caricature of distrust and seclusion. but he isnt used to it like bianca was and his desire to help (to prove his worth? to prove that he has a right to live when his sister didn't?) manifests in clinging to any opportunity of progress, anything that could earn him graditute or at the very least repentance

[skunkes]