#dont blame yourself

[dear-oizys]

I am so so so done with this show. I literally just watched the sneak peeks and I am DYING??????????????!!!!!!!

The only thing holding her up is rage????? Ma'am. Angela Bassett ma'am. How. How are you so good. Like what????

What do you want me to do?? What you do always?????

What the hell is that. Goddamn. What the fuck. Co parenting at its peak.

Also Ryan Guzman's acting is literally so good in this scene?? You can see Eddie's desperation to fix things!!!?

I absolutely know that this episode is going to destroy me tomorrow. I just know.

[immapsychoclown]

I just keep feeling the need to advise anyone with mental issues to avoid telling anyone except maybe your therapist about your intrusive thoughts. Intrusive thoughts are often violent and/or sexual in nature and I've seen too many instances where people confide in someone they're close to only for it to later be used against them.

Intrusive thoughts are just that, INTRUSIVE. Having them does not make anyone a bad person and often the reason people feel the need to share is over the guilt these thoughts bring them even though they know they'd never act on it. I just despise the people who have weaponized that kind of information against anyone who dared trust them enough to seek reassurance. Sometimes it is unfortunately just enough to push someone over the edge.

Seek a professional, Don't let others turn your fears against you. It IS NOT your fault.

[camembri]

you wanted zoro to be on whole cake island to fulfil your weird desire to see zoro punish sanji. I wanted zoro on whole cake island because I think he's stupid enough to right place wrong time the plan and accidentally marry Sanji in full view of the whole wedding party in what becomes the most elaborately constructed comedy of errors ever written. we are NOT the same.

[s0fter-sin]

soap's whole deal being sniper and demolitions gets me going bc on the surface they sound so different but when you get into it, you realise it's bc soap's smart

sniping is all math; calculating distances and wind interference and bullet drop. something i think people overlook is he was listed as a sniper first so it can be implied that he's better at it than demolitions. he does more sniping in both campaigns than demolitions work; in capture or kill, ghost specifically calls on him to take down the aq snipers

and demolitions is math with a hit of chemistry; knowing what mixes with what, knowing how much to use, recognising environmental factors and adjusting accordingly. it's not just about the boom; so much work goes into contained/ planned explosions. especially when having enough power for a breacher charge and not bringing down the whole building is the difference between mission success and failure

the chemical bombs he makes in alone can't just be any old cleaners, they have to have the correct reaction to each other; he just knew off the top of his head what would mix with what to create what reaction. he would also potentially have to recognise them by sight/smell bc they would’ve been written in spanish

soap would also have to know architecture; recognising structural integrity and weak points so he knows exactly where to plant a charge to bring it down and how it'll come down

he has an incredible soldier's mind people just forget that bc he's sociable which itself is a skill

we know he tends to buck against orders he doesn't agree with like when he pushes back against ghost in capture or kill and shepherd when he tells them to release hassan

he gets closer to people and sees if he can trust them and that's when he follows them without question. really think about how he talks to alejandro and rudy; he asks about their home and alejandro's family and rudy's relationship with him. those aren't questions you ask a stranger after a few hours of knowing them. that's not even touching on his relationship with ghost

he also deliberately brings people of higher ranks down to his level; talking informally with ghost and giving him a shoulder punch, addressing alejandro (a colonel!!) by his first name and rudy by his nickname despite literally just meeting them. he personalises all of them and it’s in direct opposition to the reason most characters do that; it’s not due to insubordination or lack of respect, the more he respects and trusts someone, the more casual he is with them

he digs into people; he wants to know what makes them tick and that determines if he can one, trust them and two, follow their orders. once he decides that, he's the ultimate soldier; he bleeds loyalty which makes him vicious when that loyalty is taken for granted

he isn't naive or bubbly or insecure; he's an incredibly smart and aware soldier. he's aggressive and bloodthirsty and loyal and intuitive and i love him so much

[grumpyghostdoodles]

The unexpected continuation of this post! And just like that one, I had to stop multiple times bc I was laughing too hard at Chara's first face

Based on these glorious dogs

[jaarijani]

hi bojan???

[alicentlesbian]

rhaenicent - triple dog dare by lucy dacus

[gooboogy]

The problem is they both make sense.

John lacks any agency, and as his abilities start "failing" he loses more of what little he has. The only things he can do is perceive the world through Arthur's eyes and talk to him in his head. That's it. He has no material effect on the world around them. He is solely 100% reliant on Arthur for his continued existence and influence on the world. He can't ignore Arthur whatsoever (unlike Arthur who can ignore John easy peasy) he can't Do anything but talk and observe (and also experience the deaths of people Arthur touches but ultimately that does nothing). Of course he is going to be distrustful of other people and possessive over Arthur.

Arthur feels like suddenly he can't rely on this very reliable thing that has been keeping him alive this whole time. It would shake anyone up. Especially with the shit they have to deal with? If he can't rely on directions he will be sliced to ribbons or shot without a chance of fighting back. They may as well be dead already. And for all of John's lack of agency, it's Arthur who has to actually deal with the consequences. He's the one who's getting wounded and torn to bits and has to fight all that. Plus it's HIS body. If someone's existence relies on your body, you have the right to refuse, bodily autonomy is a human right.

The problem is they've gone through this cycle before (cycle of learning and forgetting and learning that they are One Unit and need to work Together vs The Problems and forgetting) but never has it shaken Arthur so much. Even when they've argued before he would still listen to John's directions. But now? Everything is in question (as is probably the intent behind John's "failing" abilities.) They DO need other people to help and they DO need to be careful and include John. They cannot truly trust someone else while keeping John a secret or without his input. Arthur has the most control over the situation and the onus is on him to make the compromises. Yeah it's his body but 1) countless times he promised to John that they were in this together and 2) at this point separating them would be so traumatic that they may as well be One.

All of this is to say, curious that Arthur is so willing to tell Oscar about literally everything EXCEPT John. What happens if he does? What if there's someone else to assert for John in a way Arthur can't ignore so easily? Would that legitimize the shared ownership of Arthur's body? What does it mean for John to gain agency by the loss of Arthur's autonomy?

[transsexualcoriolanus]

This is how season 3 episode 1 went right

[i-spilled-my-soup]

post ttc nico thinking bianca might have lived if he was only smarter and stronger and better, and bianca being the only role model he'd had for all the life he'd remembered he absolutely overcompensates becoming a caricature of distrust and seclusion. but he isnt used to it like bianca was and his desire to help (to prove his worth? to prove that he has a right to live when his sister didn't?) manifests in clinging to any opportunity of progress, anything that could earn him graditute or at the very least repentance

[canonkiller]

I have a tendency to write posts worded in a way that has a pleasing word flow rather than being direct which is unfortunate on the site where posts so easily leave one's immediate sphere of influence. Like the clearest way to make an informational post for an unknown group size is to type like you are talking to children* and I do not do that conversationally even a little bit. I am smashing words together until the sentence evokes the right pentameter. I'm an author for bugs.

* direct and factual with little embellishment or room for confusion, simple and direct phrasing that isn't obliterated by translation software, using the definition of complicated terms rather than the term itself without context, etc. it is not intended as a condemnation of intellect it's simply a more accessible style of writing

[skunkes]

[altschmerzes]

i've never understood the rising attitude i've seen since the invention of the ability to turn off reblogs that anyone who previously asked people not to reblog posts was somehow fundamentally misapprehending the nature of this website or acting in some kind of naive or ridiculous way that flies in the face of internet safety and common sense and is deserving of mockery.

like, yeah, it was always gonna be possible for people to reblog your posts no matter what, before the ability to turn reblogs off. no, a tag that says 'don't reblog' or 'dnr' or 'donut rebagel' (or any other iteration given people would SEARCH for posts tagged dont reblog specifically to reblog them) was not going to stop that. yes the internet is public and it's good to be aware of that.

however, that doesn't mean you should inherently know better than and refrain from ever saying anything on an online platform that you're not Totally Cool With potentially being spread around by people you don't know? a lot of people here use their blogs as personal blogs. which is like... fine. it's part of the function of the platform. and just because it is possible for someone online to do something doesn't mean it's normal and fine for them to do and anyone asking them NOT to do anything they want forever is being a naive idiot who doesn't understand internet safety.

obviously asking someone not to do something mean and shitty is not a guarantee they won't do it but i do not understand the attitude of "well what did you expect, the mean and shitty thing was POSSIBLE. why the fuck would you put yourself in a position to have that thing done to you in the first place. that's on you for just asking people not to be an asshole. this is the INTERNET."

[pkmoth]

having swap au thoughts. *slaps roof of claus* there's so much mental illness in this guy. im gonna blow up everyone in the room and then myself

[autisticlee]

no one knows just how hard I work at things. how I have to work 1000000x more than the average person to compensate for being autistic and adhd and probably other things i'm working out with therapist, and having a sort of physical disability i've not received any help or treatment for. everyone assumes I don't try or give up too soon. they think I just started, need more practice. they think I expect everything handed to me immediately with no work or effort and don't acknowledge the multiple years i've put into things. they think I have no right to be upset about still failing to get where I want even after working my entire life to get there, while watching people around me surpass even my meager goals within a fraction of the time and work i've out into the same thing. constantly getting surpassed by everyone around me who seem to barely do any work to get there compared to me. it's all handed to them and falls into their lap so easily. all because they don't have the extra obstacles to overcome and work around that I do. while they go from point A to Z immediately with no major stops in between, I have to go through every single letter and then some, often getting sent back to the start. but it's always *my* fault, according to everyone. it's not the fault of those around me who ignore me, don't support me, don't help me, don't believe in me, etc. it's my fault they don't do those things. because doing the work of 10 people in one isn't enough, just because it's me. and not reaching Z as fast as everyone else means I don't deserve any of the support or help or anything else and means i'm not trying hard enough. it doesn't matter that I *need* to work harder than 100 "normal" people combined to get even half the result! Just because I can't reach what they do means i'm not trying hard enough! ugh.

[sangfielle]

the amell/hawke family makes me kind of ill. i wish dragon age 2 was a better game bc the horrible fucking family that its about is so interesting