#stop blaming yourself

[schimmelspore]

Fuck productivity and hustle culture. I spend the last few days doing stuff for just as long as i had energy and headspace for it. Read a book for just a few sentences, played a game for 20 minutes, studied for 10, got rid of something but left the Chaos it brought for later and went to lay down for a bit instead of pressing on.

And i dont feel bad for leaving things unfinished, ill pick it up later. Or tomorrow. Feeling bad about it just makes me not do anything.

Fuck all this hard discipline bullshit, you can do it however, as long at it gets done in time.

Its honestly the most effective way i found to deal with executive Dysfunktion.

[marlenemckinnonsrealwife]

sometimes it’s nobody’s fault.

sometimes things just happen.

[hhi-its-me-haniel]

Well, they should. It is my fault after all

They're so sweet and awesome and pretty-... i don't deserve them...

Trust me, they'll be happier without me...

*hey, silly rainbow voice, are you still alive? (and by alive i mean are you still here, because you're obviously dead lmaooo, loser)*

*im boredddd*

- @hhi-its-me-haniel

*im not talking to you*

[s0fter-sin]

soap's whole deal being sniper and demolitions gets me going bc on the surface they sound so different but when you get into it, you realise it's bc soap's smart

sniping is all math; calculating distances and wind interference and bullet drop. something i think people overlook is he was listed as a sniper first so it can be implied that he's better at it than demolitions. he does more sniping in both campaigns than demolitions work; in capture or kill, ghost specifically calls on him to take down the aq snipers

and demolitions is math with a hit of chemistry; knowing what mixes with what, knowing how much to use, recognising environmental factors and adjusting accordingly. it's not just about the boom; so much work goes into contained/ planned explosions. especially when having enough power for a breacher charge and not bringing down the whole building is the difference between mission success and failure

the chemical bombs he makes in alone can't just be any old cleaners, they have to have the correct reaction to each other; he just knew off the top of his head what would mix with what to create what reaction. he would also potentially have to recognise them by sight/smell bc they would’ve been written in spanish

soap would also have to know architecture; recognising structural integrity and weak points so he knows exactly where to plant a charge to bring it down and how it'll come down

he has an incredible soldier's mind people just forget that bc he's sociable which itself is a skill

we know he tends to buck against orders he doesn't agree with like when he pushes back against ghost in capture or kill and shepherd when he tells them to release hassan

he gets closer to people and sees if he can trust them and that's when he follows them without question. really think about how he talks to alejandro and rudy; he asks about their home and alejandro's family and rudy's relationship with him. those aren't questions you ask a stranger after a few hours of knowing them. that's not even touching on his relationship with ghost

he also deliberately brings people of higher ranks down to his level; talking informally with ghost and giving him a shoulder punch, addressing alejandro (a colonel!!) by his first name and rudy by his nickname despite literally just meeting them. he personalises all of them and it’s in direct opposition to the reason most characters do that; it’s not due to insubordination or lack of respect, the more he respects and trusts someone, the more casual he is with them

he digs into people; he wants to know what makes them tick and that determines if he can one, trust them and two, follow their orders. once he decides that, he's the ultimate soldier; he bleeds loyalty which makes him vicious when that loyalty is taken for granted

he isn't naive or bubbly or insecure; he's an incredibly smart and aware soldier. he's aggressive and bloodthirsty and loyal and intuitive and i love him so much

[vingler-mirror]

So... we all know that Chapter 6 draws parallels between its characters and the casts of the opera "Tosca": Isolde is Tosca, Marcus is Angelotti, and Kakania, as lovingly said by Isolde, is Cavaradossi

Fun fact: Cavaradossi actually dies in the story. Granted, every major characters dies because it's a tragedy... but what's particularly interesting is the way he dies

Remember that Scarpia forces Tosca to give herself to him in exchange for Cavaradossi's survival? He promises to fake Cavaradossi's execution by making the guns shoot blanks. But just like Tosca, he doesn't play with his part of the deal. The bullets turn out to be real, and Cavaradossi dies for real

So. Dying because of a trick involving a gun... sounds familiar?

Yeah. I'm afraid that Kakania plays too well to the character parallel and almost meets the same fate as Cavaradossi. Props to our girl Marcus for preventing that from happening

[welcometothelairofthebitchking]

"I didn't vote/voted third party because Democrats support Genocide uwu" fucking IDIOT do you think Trump doesn't???????? Do you think he will end the war??? No the only thing that piece of shit will do is support Israel even more and bring war to more middle eastern/arab countries while also fucking over a lot of other minorities and lgbtq people. before you run your fucking mouth I AM from one of those middle eastern countries that Trump will fuck over and I am telling you; In your attempt to stay morally pure and 'not be invovled in genocide' you have fucked over a lot of people and this is absolutely your fault for being fucking stupid. You aren't a good person, just ignorant.

[xfilesinamajor]

Um....what?

Just like that? He unties himself? I always assumed that, realizing he'd majorly screwed up, Eurylochus or one of the men cut him loose.

Ody, if you could untie yourself that whole time, why the f*ck didn't you do it before they killed the cow?

[friskafriskito]

I wanted to say, regardless whether you are American or not, I know a lot of you are feeling hopeless and frustrated right now, between everything that's going on in the world and this is apparently being past the last straw on the camel's back, but please remember to take care of yourselves

there is a lot of suffering in the world between wars, genocide and famine, and leaders that refuse to do anything about it or even actively encourage it

It's not wrong to want to take a break and find something to smile about, nor does any of it invalidate your own suffering

Help where you are able to, and when you can of course, and remember to reach out to your loved ones when things start to get too much

I know some people feel bad for using resources or for trying to find ways to cheer up because "It's a luxury some people can't afford" but I am telling you they are not luxuries, they are necessities. The tragedy of these events isn't people not being able to access luxuries, it's being denied necessities

so as sort of harsh as this sounds, do not deny yourself your necessities because it helps no one in this situation; it's just one more person suffering in this entire mess. you cannot be expected to help or care for anyone if you're too burned out to do so.

Please take care of yourselves.

[ceasarslegion]

Well that's my last night shift done. I'm back on days as of this week.

I also have an exam for a job opportunity on Monday and an interview on Wednesday if I pass the exam. So wish me luck for that and maybe I won't have to be stuck at the most thankless job in the world for much longer

[cybersteal]

camo punk

[sysig]

Didn’t know you had it in you, did you (Patreon)

[lqndo]

me rocking up to mclaren hq tonight

[sotvtaughtmehowtofeel]

What's currently fucking me up: Joel probably regrets not sending Ellie to the university with Tommy. Because Tommy wouldn't have gotten stabbed. Tommy wouldn't have left her alone.

If she'd been with Tommy, David wouldn't have gotten a hold of her.

[im-literally-so-dun]

going feral over Oli Sykes' voice, brb

[hawkzeyes]

Some of you are being really fucking weird about Baby Reindeer like this isn’t based off an actual person’s life story. Can we be fucking normal for once??

[bentnotbroken1fanfiction]

Joke blaming himself for everything that is happening like Boss isn't the whole ass fucking problem.