#don't tell me Odin and Loki are the same

[magnusmodig]

||. finally going to bed thinking about lore - keeper asgardians . thinking about how intelligence and wisdom are one of their favored traits. thinking about how thor is the best of every asgardian ideal . thinking about how he is wise . thinking about his street - smarts . thinking about how he is also knowledgeable in legends , lore , and folktale. he is adaptable . he takes this knowledge , adapts to it , and crafts himself into something stronger. he is ever growing , and one of those ways is how he seeks out knowledge , and knows well to keep a sharp mind on the tales told by word of mouth or written on a page.

[vandal-flower]

Great Power Comes with No Responsibilities

Ror men with a powerful but lazy s/o.

Requested by 🦅 anon.

Characters: Qin Shi Huang, Jack the Ripper, Buddha and Loki.

Warnings: A bit of angst in Jack's part. 😶

Notes: Do you think I wrote too much this time?

Scenario:

"Female god reader who is extremely powerful but lazy , lazy in the means she liked to lie down and sleep a lot , if she wants to she could kill zeus and she can be really intimidating but shes soft around them."

Qin Shi Huang

He didn't even notice you were a god.

You looked too exhausted to function, and yet you were ready to fight whomever tried to harm him.

He would take care of any obstacles that would dare present itself to him, but he loves how you sort the situation than he does.

There were times where you offered to lift his curse, but he declined.

According to him, if he as an emperor could not endure this curse, how could he rule a nation.

You haven't heard such wise words from anyone else before. You smile at him, and gently give him a kiss on his head.

No one dares to challenge either of you as they fear the both individually.

In private, he declares his love and loyalty for you, as the two of you embrace each other.

"Even if the Heavens dare to object our love, we'll remain ontop."

Jack the Ripper

He's honestly surprised how someone like you could love a man like him.

He has faced many hardships, threats and much more from people who knew him and those who don't.

However, when it comes to you, he can't help but cry a little at the smallest hint of love and kindness someone has ever given him.

Someone who is even more powerful than Zeus himself. Despite your intimidating nature, he finds it soothing.

Especially when you are so soft around him. He often wonders what he did to be loved and cherished by someone like you.

Many wanted to end his life even before he fought Hercules. He is very thankful that you continue to defend him even with your reputation at stake.

You often don't mind defending him against the other gods, after all he is your lover.

It's unknown how you two got together, but it does not matter as the two of you are head over heels for each other. (Good for you.)

"I don't know what I did to have to have you in my life, but I promise to cherish our time forever my dear."

Buddha

My guy here is taking advantage of the whole situation.

You can't blame him though, he is literally in a relationship with someone who is as strong, if not stronger than a primordial god!

Many wonder how in the world did you end up with someone like him, but seeing how lazy you are, it makes sense.

Often times, when Zeus threatens to punish him, you put Zeus in his place, promising an eternity of pain should he ever hurt your lover.

The smirk on his face says it all. (Me too.)

He is happy at the fact that even though you are powerful enough to defeat Zeus, or any chief god, you don't get arrogant.

Despite how powerful you are, he treats you the same way he treats everyone, just with more affection.

You bet he's telling Jataka about you, and how much he loves you!

"Thanks for taking care of the other gods for me. I'll cuddle you later if you want honeybun."

Loki

Another one on the list of taking advantage of this, however to an even greater degree. (What did you expect?)

Whenever he pranks Thor or Odin, he immediately runs to you. The two can't do anything but give him a death glare.

He's busy giggling his bum off behind your back, as you wake up from your nap and question who woke you up.

He often questions you if Zeus truly is the Grandfather of the Cosmos. To which you reply an exhausted, "No, it's only because he is powerful and looks older than he is."

At first he thought you were a demigod due to how sluggish you were acting. But quickly straightened up after seeing Zeus treat you with more respect than anyone.

He tried pranking you, but you were too tired to notice anything. And when you did notice, it backfired on him, resulting to him being confined in the emergency room.

He definitely thinks you're weird and has voiced this, but knows you won't care either way. He also tries to get a reaction from you.

He likes telling you the latest stories (or gossip) from the Heavens. You sometimes stay awake just to hear them.

"Apparently there was a rumors spreading around about Aphrodite's beauty salon."

I probably wrote too much didn't I.

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[oneofstarkskids]

a mistake

pairings: loki laufeyson x reader

genre: angst, fluffy-ish ending

summary: you're the first person he goes to when trouble finds him. why would this time be any different?

your hands shook as you held your cloak closed. you stood by the bank of the river, waiting. the moon light bounced off of the water, making it sparkle in the most curious way.

a voice spoke your name urgently. you spun around, shocked by its abruptness.

he was pale. paler than usual. with a crazed look in his blue eyes.

you reached for him, "what's happening?"

he grasped onto your arms. not in a forceful way, but to stabilize himself.

"we can't be here anymore," he said with a pained expression.

you shook your head, "what do you mean?"

"please, come with me. we can go anywhere. we can go to midgard or nidavellir. we could hide away on vanaheim. just the two of us," he begged and rambled on, seemingly unaware that you had no context.

of course, it struck you when he mentioned vanaheim. you'd always wanted to visit. he knew that. it was where your mother would've raised you, had she still been alive.

"loki, we can't just run away," you had to be the voice of reason.

"i cannot stay here," he stated.

he furrowed his dark brows and you could tell he'd felt betrayed.

"why not?" you tried.

loki practically shook with frustration, "i just can't!"

you hated to see him like this, but you didn't know how to help, "why not!?"

"you're supposed to be my dearest friend. can't you just trust me?" he paced back and forth.

you walked up to him and took his hands into your own. you inhaled deeply, expecting him to do the same. after a few moments of mirroring your actions and hearing your encouragements, he began to open up.

"they lied. they all lied to me. i was never..." he choked on the words. as if they were too painful to speak. "i was never supposed to be here."

you held his face in your hands, "loki, don't say that."

his eyes stung with tears, "i'm not one of them. i'm a monster, a mistake!" he was losing all of the restraint you'd helped him build.

you hated to hear him talk about himself like that, "no you're not-"

"you don't get it." he turned away from you.

all you could do was whisper his name softly. it became so incredibly quiet. the only sound was the wind ruffled leaves of the forest trees.

you reminded him who he was. an odinson. every bit as much as his brother. as you had done many times before. but this time...it was different.

"i don't belong," he said before turning his face towards you.

it was ice blue with markings carved into his features and his eyes were a shade of blood red.

for a single moment you froze. not because you were afraid, but because you were in complete shock.

"now you see. i'm not an odinson. i'm just a coverup for another one of odin's lies and mistakes," he said softly with a bitter tone.

your heart broke for the boy and you finally understood.

"loki, no. listen to me. you are the same boy that spoke to me that day in the garden when nobody else would. the same boy that would chase me around the palace. you're the same boy who trained with me in the stadium and frolicked beside me in the fields," you reminded him.

"the color of your eyes or of your skin could never change that."

he looked into your eyes and all you saw was a broken boy. never a monster.

you slowly reached your hand up, waiting for him to stop you. when he decided not to move, you placed your hands on either side of his face once more.

fresh, ice cold tears rolled down his cheeks and onto your skin. you rested your forehead against his.

"i followed you into battle for centuries. i will follow you wherever you go now," you promised.

[arpicityandneed]

Imagine being Loki and Thor's sister, very sheltered and destined to one day be sent away from Asgard for a political marriage of some sort. They've both always been a little miffed about this arrangement, but they cope by taking all of your 'firsts' before you go.

18+ Dark Content. big brother!Loki, big brother!Thor. tw incest, creampie, dirty talk, spit roast. Cuckolding.

You grew up to be the most delicate flower the kingdom had ever seen, beautiful, kind, sheltered, and protected by the royal guard and your brothers until you were dependent upon them for everything.

They didn't mind.

Thor would stop mid feast if you needed him to read you a bedtime story, and Loki used every ounce of magic he had to make illusions that made you giggle and laugh.

But the threat of your marriage hung over all over heads like a death sentence. Especially once they learned you'd be leaving Asgard for good once you were married.

"Father, you must reconsider. How is she to exist outside these walls without us, married to a brute?" Thor argued to the AllFather while you slept soundly a few nights before you were to be sent off. Your new husband had made no effort to hide that he only saw you as a way to have heirs from a powerful bloodline.

"Their family has old blood Thor, old enough even our family recognizes it. It is a good allyship and that's final." Odin stared down his son ominously, and Thor felt his blood boil.

"If I may, Father, at least allow us to escort her to her new home. Give her some comfort at least." Loki spoke quickly, knowing if he didn't there would be another eye lost and not from his father's face.

Odin considered, for a moment before nodding tightly.

"But this is the last I am to here of this matter."

~

"I don't want to go. I want to stay with you. I wish I were marrying you and Loki instead." You wailed, fully sobbing as your brothers held you close after telling you what your father had said.

"Don't cry, little one. Please don't cry," Thor begged as he rocked you.

"It'll be alright sister, I have my magic. No one will keep us from you no matter how far apart." Loki tried to convince you but it just made you cry harder, clinging to his hand as Thor cradled you against his broad chest.

"No, b-because he'll own me. I'll be h-his and he'll get to make me b-bear his children..." Thor's jaw clenched and he looked to Loki quietly. It was easy enough for Loki to guess his brother's thoughts after hundreds of years, but for once Loki was in complete agreement.

"What if we put a child in your belly first?" Loki murmured as he brushed his thumb over your knuckles. For the first time since they'd told your about Odin's words your crying died down a little.

"Really? You'd do that for me?" You looked between the two of them with wide hopeful eyes, squeezing Loki's hand tight.

"Of course we would. Your ours, always have been and always will be." Thor's deep voice was gentle but completely serious. You wiped your tears, sitting up a bit taller.

"I'd much rather have your babies than his. I love you both, so very much." It was simply the truth, one the three of you all knew.

"Then let us show you how much we love you, sister."

~

The hours had blurred. What had started with gentle kisses and soft touched had long since devolved in hazy, animalistic sex.

"Another." Thor's massive hand slapped down on the fat of your ass, his cock pounding into your gushing insides relentlessly. Loki was groaning as you practiced deep throating him for the second time that night.

"Good technique. I think dear sister, fuck that's good, we've made you into a whore." Loki sounded pleased, Thor only growled in warning. They'd had this argument several times as the night wore on.

"Am I too lewd brother?" You'd asked when you'd demanded they teach you how to make them cum with your mouth so they could use you at the same time.

"Not at all, I quite like knowing you have some whorishness in you. Just needed to be nurtured." Loki purred as he kissed you, deeper than before. You heard a loud CRACK! and looked up to find Thor breaking the arm of the chair he'd been resting in.

"If that man touches you like we have I'm killing him. Allyship, war, all of it be damned. If he touches you I'm burning his kingdom to the ground." It wasn't a bellow like his normal good natured threats, this was quiet and deadly serious.

"Yes, yes. Only for us. Or Thor will kill your future husband." Loki laughed as he tugged on your hair forcing you down the last few inches until your nose was buried in his pubes. When you merely blinked up at him all pretty and wet eyed he barely got out a warning before he was coming down your throat.

You gasped for air when your brother released you. You'd lost count of how many loads you'd taken from them both, but each one made you feel greedier. You wanted to drown from the inside until you were marked irrevocably and their claim on you was undeniable.

"Breathe love, Thor give her space-" Loki combed your hair away from your face, trying to look in your eyes and check that you're okay.

"No!" You moaned as you fucked yourself back on your brother's girth shamelessly. "M-more, don't want to stop. Not till it t-takes. Please? Please please please," You begged shamelessly as Thor groaned and fucked you through his orgasm, each spurt squelching out around his cock onto the drenched sheets.

"Shh love, you know how Loki worries. We won't stop until you're with child. We promised didn't we?" Thor kissed your shoulder as he reached around to tease your clit, his fingers growing slick the more he played with your nub. "Because the only children you'll be having are ours."

"Even-"

"Even after you're married to that oaf, you'll still be good for us won't you?" Loki placed two fingers under your chin to make you look at him, your eyes glazed over and adoring.

"Yes."

[darknight3904]

The Monster and The Lady

Masterlist / Main Masterlist

Happy Loki Season 2 Finale! As my gift to you here's the chapter a day early! ( The finale was amazing and it ripped my heart out and stomped on it.)

Asgard 2011

Astri was polishing her sword when Loki barged into her chambers. 

   "Remember the conversation we had about knocking, Loki?" She asked without looking up 

His lack of response got Astri to look away from her work. Loki was sitting on one of the large pieces of furniture that decorated her room. All of his attention was on his hands as he stared at them. 

   "If you're upset about what happened to Thor, I'm sure he is fine on Midgard." She said moving to sit next to him. "They love him there."

   "Stay back," Loki said, his deep voice suddenly scaring Astri. It was the same tone he often used when speaking to enemies in battle. It was intimidating, mean, and cold, and Astri hated everything about it.

She crossed so that she was sitting across from him, the small table felt like it was keeping her miles away from him. Loki's eyes looked red and swollen as he kept them focused on his hands. 

   "You've been crying." Astri observed, "What happened?" 

   "Nothing I can't handle." He lied.

   "It doesn't seem that way? Do you want some tea? We can talk about it, I'll send for Drifa." Astri offered gently

   "I didn't come here to talk," Loki said 

   "Then why are you here and not in your chambers?" Astri pushed, she knew he didn't just come here to sit, he had something he wanted to get off his chest. 

   "I don't want to be alone." He said, looking up, "You're the only thing that makes sense in this damn palace." 

Okay...progress. But he definitely had something else he wanted to say, Astri would take that for now. 

   "You don't have to worry. I won't be going anywhere, I'll stay here with you." Astri assured knowing her words were anything but lies.

   "You won't want to once you know though. That's what scares me." Loki said softly 

Astri wanted to reach across the table and hold his shaking hands but his harsh tone from earlier kept her grounded in her seat, hands folded neatly in her lap. The doors opened to her chambers and two guards walked in. 

   "Lady Astri, the queen summons you." The one on the right said. 

Astri wondered what could be amiss as she walked quickly through the halls. Loki was uncharacteristically a few paces behind her and dead silent when the guards directed them to Odin's chambers of all places. Frigga seemed frazzled and uncomposed when Astri saw her next to the Allfather. It was strange seeing her so distressed when she normally seemed to have everything under control. 

   "Astri, Loki." She stood and greeted them both with warm hugs. Loki's stiffened posture didn't go unnoticed by Astri. 

   "What happened?" Astri asked eyeing Odin's sleeping form 

   "He has fallen into the Odinsleep. It was too sudden this time. I fear he might not wake this time." Frigga said sadly 

   "He is strong, Frigga. I'm sure he will wake again soon." Astri said placing a warm hand on her mother figure's shoulder. Was this what Loki wanted to tell her? Did he cause this? The way he was acting made it seem worse than this. Odin had fallen to Odinsleep many times in the past.

The doors opened abruptly to reveal what had to be a full platoon of soldiers on the other side. When Loki turned to them they all bent their knee to him. One came forward and presented Loki with Gungnir, the spear Astri rarely saw Odin without. 

   "My king, Lady Sif, and the Warriors Three request an audience with you." He said once Loki had taken it from him

Astri felt her face pale when she realized what was happening. Loki seemed to have a similar reaction but quickly recovered and nodded to the man. 

   "I'll meet them in the throne room," Loki said, dismissing him and his fellow soldiers. 

   "Loki..." Astri said, reaching out to grab his hand. She didn't know what she was going to say just that she didn't want him to leave her. 

   "Stay here. With my mother." Loki said, pulling his hand away from her reach 

   "But I want to-" 

   "Stay. I'll send Drifa to bring you those cakes." Loki cut her off 

   "Is that an order...my king?" Astri asked, the words felt bitter in her mouth. 

   "Yes." He hissed before turning on his heel and leaving the door. 

   "Come sit with me, darling." Frigga beckoned to her.

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Loki kept his word and sent Drifa with Astri's favorite cakes. They were delicate little lemon-flavored things with soft powdered sugar on top. Beyond the cakes, he had also sent her the book she had been reading for the past week along with tea and a book for his mother. Even when he was upset, he was looking out for them.

   "What's on your mind?" Frigga asked, moving her eyes from Odin's form.

   "Nothing." Astri sighed 

   "Remember when I told you your mother and I were raised by witches?" 

Astri nodded. 

   "That means I can see with more than eyes. Now, why is my son troubling you?" She asked 

How does she always know what's wrong?

   "He seemed very distraught before you summoned me here. I know it could have just been Odin's condition but it seemed to be more than that." Astri confessed, "He kept staring at his hands too, and wouldn't let me sit next to him which you know he always does." 

   "I think it's best if I let him tell you what's wrong," Frigga advised suddenly looking away.

   "But you just asked me to tell you-" 

   "When Odin fell asleep, He and Loki were discussing...matters in the weapons vault. Loki told me what happened." Frigga explained, "But, it is not my place to tell my son's secrets to the world." 

   "But it's not the world. It's just me." Astri reasoned 

Silence passed and Astri could tell Frigga was thinking about something important.

   "Go to him. If he gets upset tell him he can whine about it to me." Frigga smiled

Astri groaned but stood up and went to the door anyway. 

   "You're sure you'll be ok alone?" She asked looking back at Odin. 

   "I have lived for thousands of years, darling. I will be alright." She smiled gently

Astri nodded before quietly slipping out the door. The walk to the throne room was incredibly brief. Perks of being the Allfather, your bedroom is closest to the most important room in the castle. 

Loki's armor was complimented by the large throne. The green he normally donned made him look more regal as his golden helmet shone when the light hit it. 

   "Lady Astri. I thought I ordered you to stay with my mother." 

  "And I thought you weren't an uptight jerk with a stick up your ass," Astri responded 

Loki's sharp gaze snapped to her and she stared up at him defiantly. He might be king now but she knew he'd never do anything to harm her. 

   "Leave us." He ordered the guards in the room 

Astri watched him slowly descend from the throne almost as if it was for dramatic purposes. King of Asgard? More like King of Dramatics.

   "What are you doing?" Loki asked, annoyed

   "I wanted to talk to you," Astri explained 

   "That doesn't mean you can call me names like that in front of others." Loki scolded "I'm acting king now." 

   "The guards do not care what names the king's childhood friend calls him. I bet some of them are old enough that they saw the time you and Thor went running through the castle naked." Astri smiled 

   "Stop it," Loki demanded, looking around to see if anyone had entered the room

   "I'll stop when you talk to me." Astri said, "Do you think any of them remember the time you went crying to Frigga after you had a nightmare from the scary story Thor told at that sleepover we had with Volstagg?" 

Loki snapped his fingers in her face before she could think of another embarrassing childhood moment of his. 

   "Alright. We'll talk. Just stop saying crazy things." He said 

   "Crazy? All those things happened Loki. Just like the time you farted in front of that gorgeous boy, you tried charming who was visiting from Xandar with her family." She laughed 

Loki's face had grown red as he gestured for her to follow him. 

   "Not another word about me as a child," Loki ordered 

   "The fart incident was 200 years ago. You were already fully grown at that point." She pointed out 

   "I'll cut your hair again," Loki said as they reached his chambers

Astri giggled as she sat down on his bed and gestured for him to sit next to her. 

   "I'll say here." Loki declined still several feet from her 

   "I'm not going to bite you you know," Astri said

   "I just...don't want to hurt you." Loki softly said, piddling with his hands, a gesture Astri noticed he had down since they were children.

   "You won't. Just...tell me what's wrong. I'll help you fix it. I promise." She sincerely said 

   "You can't. I can't. No one can." Loki said looking away from her and at his shoes 

   "How do you know? What's even wrong anyway?" Astri asked 

   "If I tell you, you'll be scared of me," Loki said quietly

   "I won't. Nothing you do will ever scare me." Astri swore

A soft beat of silence passed over the room as Astri wished Loki would look up at her. 

   "I am a monster. A relic Odin kept here until he had a purpose for me." Loki said 

   "You're not a monster," Astri assured, standing and crossing the room so she was close to him again. 

   "You don't understand...I'm...one of them. One of those monsters who we've been told frightening stories about since we were children. I am a Frost Giant. The monster who Asgardian parents tell their children to be frightened of when they misbehave. I was nothing but a bargaining chip to Odin. Another object in this castle that represents his conquest over these Nine Realms." Loki said angrily, words cutting across the air like knives, as he finally looking her in the eyes 

   "What do you mean you're a Frost Giant?" Astri asked slowly, surprised at his speech.

Loki led Astri through the castle as he told her the story Odin had told him merely hours before. She stayed silent the whole time, absorbing what came from his mouth. Loki couldn't tell what was worse, her silence or what she might say about who he was. They reached the weapons vault quicker than he would have liked and soon were standing in front of the Joutun's casket. 

   "I will show you." He said, barely trusting his voice 

    "You don't have to. Let's go back to the library and read together." Astri said reaching for him again.

Loki ignored her request and placed his hands on the casket again. An indescribable coldless tingled through his body and he watched his hands turn blue once more. He felt it spread across his body and felt the soft facial lines that all Frost Giants bore rise from his skin. When he was sure he had held it long enough, he turned back to his dear Astri, awaiting her judgment.

   "I understand if you want to leave," Loki said

Astri was silent as her eyes roamed across him. Her light brown eyes we taking in every inch of blue skin that Loki had exposed to her and when she was finally done looking she opened her mouth.

   "I don't care." She said

   "What?" Loki balked, feeling his skin begin to change again

   "I don't care what you are. Tomorrow you could show me you're actually a dragon with wings the size of me and I'd still stay by your side. What matters to me is that you're Loki. I don't care if you're blue." Astri said finally taking his hands when they had gone back to normal.

   "Why?" He asked, closing his eyes and savoring how his hands felt in his. 

   "Because you're important to me," Astri said pressing her forehead to his "No one knows me like you do, and no one ever will." 

No spoilers to the finale but I have never felt more devastated yet fufilled by a Marvel project ever. I don't think I've been this distressed since I watched Infinity War and had to watch Loki die and then 2 hrs later watch Peter "die" in Tony's arms.

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[tyrannuspitch]

Odinson twin manifesto

Part one: EVIDENCE

Look at Thor and Loki as children, imagine you don't know anything about them, and tell me who's older. Can you tell? I'm willing to bet you can't.

No-one in the films ever actually says that there's an age difference. There's no "little brother", no "elder son", no "when I was your age" or "just because you're older". They only ever say "brother", and, once, "firstborn". But of course one of them had to be born first. All siblings have a birth order. That's not the same thing as an age gap.

We do, however, get one (1) implication of an age gap. Infinity War has Thor say that he is 1500, while Thor 1 established (pretty tangentially, through an on-screen time and date for the Jotun war) that Loki is around 1000.

...But Ragnarok explicitly says that there is NOT an age gap. Thor says that the snake anecdote happened "when we were eight". Since Ragnarok comes directly before IW, it seems unlikely that IW is deliberately retconning Ragnarok here, and more likely that the subtle age implications of Thor 1 were just forgotten about. So if IW calls Thor 1500, we're meant to assume that Loki is also roughly 1500.

Proof by contradiction, for the unconvinced: If Loki is 1000 and Thor is 1500, forget being twins - how can they have grown up together? This means that Loki is currently roughly two thirds of Thor's age; what age gap does that translate to?

You could say that Loki is roughly 20 and Thor is roughly 30 - but those kids definitely don't look like, say, a 5-year-old and a 15-year-old. You can play with the numbers as much as you like, but there's just no way to make the ratio work.

You could also say that Jotuns and Asgardians mature at different rates, so the brothers are very different chronological ages but similar relative ages - but wouldn't Loki being so different have been a major giveaway of his heritage? And if they already looked the same age as children, why hasn't Loki overtaken Thor yet?

And you could say that Jotuns and Asgardians mature non-linearly, so they grow rapidly to adulthood and then slow down for a near-eternal youth - but then you have to retcon every single piece of evidence relating to the brothers specifically being children together.

Essentially: These two canon ages are very, very difficult to reconcile. You can take either of them as canon individually, but together, they cause major problems which are much more easily explained by... "someone forgot".

Finally: Why is the succession even in question to begin with? Yes, you can argue that only Loki believes it is, while Thor sees it as fixed - but even then, why does Loki always make it about who Odin favours and who Odin thinks deserves the throne? If the official line were really that Thor was chosen for his age, don't you think Loki would comment on what a terrible qualification that is, and how he would be the obvious choice otherwise?

So. Now that we know twinhood is a distinct possibility, what can we do with it? Stay tuned for part two.

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I have briefly worked with the Kemetic Gods and still respect them.

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Deity communication: deities don't all speak the same language and you need to know a few things about yourself

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AI usage and spirituality

Deity & Devotee consent

Hellenic offerings

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Divine Madness aka Theia Mania

Soul Parent Deities & how to calculate them via Numerology

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Part 1 of Spooky God Squad

Trickster Deity discernment

Egregore Banishment: Know thyself, Heal Thyself

October 2024 update:

My polytheistic practice is currently under revision due to Interpretatio Romana.

Edit:

Further update here.

November 2024 update:

Polytheistic practice under complete overhaul due to the Theoi stepping aside to allow the Netjeru to take over my spiritual evolution.

[pascaloverx]

Forbidden Romance (+18)

Summary: You are in love with Prince Thor. He will soon be King and is hosting a ball between Kingdoms so he can find his future bride. Unfortunately, the Kingdom of Asgard is not ready to accept the Chief of the Royal Guard as the new Queen.

Warnings: inappropriate language, use of violence and adult content in the future of fanfic. some characters belong to the Marvel universe and others were created by the author. This chapter has adult content (smut). Minors do not read or interact with this fanfic.

chapter five chapter seven

Chapter Six

A week after King Odin's illness became public, Asgard was in Thor's hands. What didn't seem like a big problem until power started corrupting the man you love. Thor decided that no marriage would be officialized until he got married. Which now seemed to be the last thing on his mind. Although he was seen with Lady Sif and on another occasion with Princess Jane, no marriage seems to be forthcoming. Odin looks too pale for a King as he murmurs in pain on his large bed. You approach gently, as if afraid of what will come next. And you are afraid of what comes next.

"Your Majesty, I fear for the well-being of our realm. I know your health is fragile, but your eldest son will cause the ruin of Asgard. I can assure you of that," you speak assertively as you approach Odin's bed. He looks at you with weakness. He is too weak.

"Child, do you fear my son's recklessness or that he loves you more than he loves Asgard?" King Odin speaks with great effort. You feel sorry for the King who once embodied the greatness of Asgard, but now symbolizes its potential decline.

"Since when, Your Majesty, have you known?" You ask, ashamed, feeling like a complete idiot for thinking the King didn't suspect your affair with Thor.

"My brave child, since Thor laid eyes on you, I knew. It is the duty of the King to know everything that happens in his realm. Know that by my will, you two would never have been involved, but Thor begged me, swearing to become a successor worthy of Asgard. That's why he will not marry you. Believe me, separately, I hold you both in great esteem. But together, you will be the end of all that is good in Asgard. Therefore, even on my deathbed, I will tell you what you must do, so that my son does not prevent you from marrying Prince Steve." King Odin speaks with a certain superiority. Even in his dying moments, the old man feels superior to you, even though he doesn't seem to hate you.

"You put me where I am today? I'm where I am today because your son couldn't control an erection? Give up this speech of superiority. You've aged poorly like a rotten bag. I'll probably be a Queen who, besides being loved by the people, will be loved by my husband. Whoever he may be. Now choose, do you want me to be the queen of Asgard or of Kyrax? Decide quickly, for by the course of our conversation, you will die before your son decides his bride. Trust me, Allfather, if I don't marry Steve, your son will be the first King of Asgard to have a non-noble wife. You can count on that." You say, approaching the King of Asgard, while he seems almost sickened by your threat. Amidst sideways glances and coughs, Odin finally managed to approach you.

"Have a ceremony under the sacred fire captured in the war against the Starks, you need someone from the nobility to officiate. Loki can help in this situation. That's all you need. I should add that you should consummate this marriage as soon as possible." King Odin looks defeated as he trembles in bed. Not all the royalty in the world can save the soul of a great sinner.

"Any other recommendations, Your Majesty?" You speak with contempt and pity at the same time. Odin looks at him as if he had to deliver bad news.

"I'm sorry to inform you, young lady, but you will have to do me one last favor before this is all over. I want my son engaged to Princess Jane. I beg for your help in this matter." Every word that came out of Odin's mouth seemed to be his last. His breathing is so weakened that you fear he will die before you leave the room.

"Consider done." You say leaving the room quickly, a little upset with what you're about to do. It will be the official end of your story with Asgard. Your story with Thor. You walk with heavy steps to the King Regent's room. Thor is lying in his bed. As soon as you enter his room, he stares at you.

"If you're going to come into my room like this, wouldn't it be better to lie down next to me?" Thor speaks with his eyes half open as you slowly approach his bed.

"I believe this is your future wife's task, no woman who has spent the last few years seeing your dick almost every day, Your Majesty." You respond, standing in front of Thor's bed.he is covered by sheets but visible naked.

"Jealousy looks good on you. I never thought you would feel threatened by anyone in this realm I've been involved with. It seems like it was wrong." Thor says as he slowly crawls onto the bed to standing with his legs open in front of you. All that stopped you from seeing him naked was the sheet. 

"Your father asked me for something. I want to know if there's any logical reasoning left in that brain of yours. He wants his marriage to Jane. He thinks you and her will be a good couple." You say, getting closer and closer to Thor. He doesn't seem to pay attention to what you're saying but at the same time he is paying attention to you. Horny was never a problem in our relationship. 

"What do you think?" Thor asks as his hands roam your body. He gently touches your belly, moving up to your breasts. You know how this will end. After all, that's what you came for. You take off the clothes you're wearing, mentally thanking yourself for not wearing armor. 

"I think you should marry her. You two are a good match, she will be a good queen. You two will probably have beautiful children." You say as you feel Thor's hand grip your ass tightly. An involuntary moan came out of your mouth.

"And you came to have sex with me to convince me that I should marry Jane?" Thor says as he holds your waist, laying you down on his bed. You kiss him, with desire. This is your farewell to him, the end of an era. Your lips felt like they belonged together. Your hands held tight to Thor's hair as your lips took possession of his lips.

"I came to say goodbye. So please, Your Majesty, shut up and enjoy." You say, dragging the sheet that still covered Thor's body and throwing it away. Thor holds your ass, slapping each buttock as he guides you to ride him. When his dick enters you, you feel an impulse to bounce, causing a strangely pleasant sensation. You and Thor look like animals, as he scratches your ass while holding onto it, you bite all over his neck. Sometimes biting Thor's lips and holding tight to his hair, you feel like it's going to overflow. 

"I don't want to say goodbye to you." Thor says as he enters you again, at a slow pace as if he doesn't want to end. However, you don't want to talk about feelings, so you start to sit on the Thor's cock faster, letting out grunts as you felt him inside you. Your hands hold Thor's body tight as you feel your orgasm coming. Thor seemed lost between moans and the desire to take over your entire body. His hands firmly holding your thighs as he pulls you closer as if he wants to tease you. His dick moving in and out of you faster and faster, your bodies getting sweatier and sweatier while your heart feels like it's going to come out of your mouth. Your breasts bump against Thor's chest causing a good sensation, until you feel his hands cupping your breasts. It all felt very carnal and real. The desire between you is very real.Moments later, you and Thor cum. You then allow yourself to give him one last kiss, tasting blood as you ended up causing a slight injury to his mouth while biting it.

"I don't like Jane. She seems like the perfect match for you and that bothers me. But it's very clear that you and I have a destiny to follow and that destiny is not with each other. I hope that one day you see that." You speak while you still feel Thor inside you. You hug him while still sitting on him and get up, picking up your clothes. It's time to put your plan into action. 

"You know all this doesn't change my opinion, your Prince Steve will return to the kingdom of Kyrax. And you will stay here. By my side." Thor says and you almost feel the need to laugh. He really thinks he owns you.

"Obviously, Your Majesty. I will withdraw because there is no place in this room for me and your ego. Make good use of your solitude." You go to the exit, where among Thor's things, you find what you came looking for. The key to the secret hall that holds the sacred fire. Now let's see who will side with whom.

To be continued...

[freyjhasdesiredreality]

The Witch and The Winter Soldier (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

(Credits to GIF owner)

A/N 1: Hey guys! This has been in my drafts for so long. Although it's only 2.1k words, there is so much going on in this story, so I basically thinking about making this a serie. But instead of a complete serie, I'm thinking something like a sitcom. Like it's a world that you are the main character but every part will have a different adventure, I hope I'm clear lmao let me know what you think please!!

A/N 2: These events happen between Civil War and Ragnarok. They pretty much happen at the same time but I changed it a little so it could fit what's in my mind! So basically Ragnarok will happen later after this story. Okay? Okay!

A/N 3: Please bare with my grammar mistakes, English is not my first language!

WC: 2.1k+

Warnings: Mention of trigger words, Bucky being depressed, mention of HYDRA, let me know if I missed any!!

Bucky and Steve landed in Wakanda, relieved to be in a safe haven after their harrowing escape from the US government. Steve had told Bucky that he had a friend in Wakanda who could help him get back on his feet, and now it was time to make good on that promise.

Even though, Shuri ensured them they can help him, it was obvious it was going to take a lot of time. Meanwhile he would need to be put in cryo. Steve didn't want that. He didn't want to see Bucky suffer any more longer.

"No other way? Are you sure about that?" Steve asked Shuri.

Shuri knew Steve was worried about his friend. "I'm sorry Captain Rogers, I'm afraid I can't work as fast as I can with a fully functional brain. It needs to be calm so I don't do any mistake."

While Steve considered his options, Bucky was trying to convince himself everything would be okay. It was not HYDRA, he was in Wakanda and after he was put in cryo, he would wake up as a different man.

"I don't trust myself Steve," he said with a broken tone. "If it's the only way, I accept what it requires."

Steve knew that look. He wasn't sure so he didn't just want to accept and then it hit him. "What if I said I know a friend who could actually help us? She is a powerful witch and extremely experienced. I'm sure she would accept to help you," Steve said, hoping he would accept.

"Why would she want to help me?" Bucky asked, sounding even more hopeless.

"You'll understand when you see her."

-

You, Y/N Odinsdottir Heladottir, were one of the strongest witch in nine realms. You didn't have a father. Your mother Hela, created you from the souls that Asgard lost during battles and Yggdrasil gave you life. You became the goddess of reality. Your powers were raw and unlimited, that's why Hela wanted to train you as fast as possible so you could be a strong warrior among her side for the throne. After Odin banished Hela from Asgard, he took you as his own daughter and Frigga announced you to Thor and Loki as their sister.

Loki adored you immediately. He knew you were special and promised himself, he would do anything to protect this little angel that is his new sister. He could feel your magic. He made a mentally note to train you when you grow up.

-

"I think, she is the goddess of reality, which I don't know what it means, but she was trained to read and control minds. I don't exactly know the limit of her powers but she is a strong one Buck," Steve said hoping he would calm down a little.

"You said she can read minds, I don't want a stranger to see horrible things I've done. What if she saw them and refuse to help me?" Bucky said panicking. He had a chance to get rid of his past but the thought of being rejected made him anxious more than he already was.

"I tell you she's not like that, don't you trust me?" Steve seemed a little heartbroken.

"Don't get me wrong, I knew we were best friends, brothers actually but I don't exactly remember those days Steve. I don't feel that kind of trust just yet," Bucky admitted and just wanted to slap himself. "Why the hell I said that, what is wrong with you? Now he won't help you," he thought.

"Just say yes and she'll be here in no time I promise. I always keep my promise, Buck."

"Okay. I-I want to meet her."

-

"Look I'm not an expert on Asgard but we look like bunch of punks, Steve."

For the last 5 minutes, Steve were yelling your name to the sky, hoping you would hear and come. While he was trying, T'Challa approached to them.

"There is a woman in Shuri's lab, asking for you Captain Rogers. She said you called her," the king said, trying to hide his laugh. "She came from the sky, I thought you brought war to us," he joked.

"I would never do that your highness," Steve laughed. "Come on Buck, let's not keep her waiting, she is a little impatient."

"Is that why we have been yelling to the air last couple of minutes?"

-

"Your technology is impressive comparing to the rest of the world!" you cheered when Shuri showed off her gadgets to you. You both immediately got along well. She spilled the beans about why Steve called you. You suggested to do everything together with Shuri, using your magic and her technology.

"Thank you, thank you princess Y/N. Your magic is quite killer as well," she smiled widely. "Oh, here comes the white boys!" she called.

"I feel like we always meet in extreme circumstances," Steve smiled and hugged you tightly. "How are you, Y/N?"

"I've had better days, unfortunately we lost Loki a while ago, during a war," you said trying to hide your pain.

"We didn't have great memories with him but I know you loved him, I'm sorry for your loss," he patted your back.

You looked behind him and saw a brunette overthinking about everything and a chaos in his mind. You didn't want to just invade his brain but his thoughts were extremely loud so you wanted to help him. "Hi, I'm Y/N," you offered your hand to shake which he gladly took.

"I'm Bucky," he said nervously. He was sure you were the most beautiful woman he had ever laid his eyes on. You blushed lightly and when he realised, he was sure you read his mind. That made him blush too.

There was a thick tension between you, you were sure Shuri and Steve were trying to hide their laughs but you didn't care. "Shuri told me why you needed me, so when do we start?" you cheered, looking at Bucky with big eyes.

"You want to help me?" Bucky said, his eyes filled with hope. "Yes, of course Bucky! I'll do anything I can," you offered him a warm smile. He smiled back, already feeling better.

-

"You are in pain Bucky, I can feel that," you stopped with magic. Last few months have been hard on Bucky. He had to remember every single thing HYDRA had done to him and getting rid of those memories' chains. You didn't even made him remember what he had done to people but even this part were really painful to him.

"I can take it, please continue," Bucky nearly begged you. You were sure he couldn't take it anymore without going crazy so you wanted to stop a little until he feels better again.

"How about I tell you another story of my life in Asgard while you rest? I promise we'll continue then," you offered him a smile, put your hand on his shoulder to ensure him that you are here.

You've been doing this for a long time, whenever he felt overwhelmed, you stopped what you're doing and helped him relax while you told him stories about Asgard. You told him about the palace, the Valkyrie, your mom and dad, your brothers, Thor and Loki and Heimdall. He loved those stories. Every time you tell him, he learned something about you. You were so close with Loki and your mom, Frigga. Odin favoured Thor, that's why you always felt left out. From the colour you loved the most to the planet you loved to be in, he learned every little thing about you.

"That sounds good," he smiled back and laid down.

-

"Loki! Look how fast I am!" You shouted at your brother while riding a horse.

"Be careful my love, you might fall." Loki watched you closely. You were his soft spot. You were sure no one would love you more than he does.

"My children, it's almost time for dinner." Frigga called you both from balcony.

"We're coming mot-" he was interrupted by your scream.

"Loki!" His eyes filled with horror when he saw you crying on the ground, holding your knee. He ran to you so fast and leaned over.

"Hey hey, shh. Calm down pumpkin it's okay. I'm here, you're fine. How did you fall?" He smoothed you.

"S-she saw a snake and scared." You hugged him tight.

"I'll pick you up now and we'll see Eir, alright?"

"O-okay"

-

"And then father forbade him to see me again."

"But you didn't listen," Bucky laughed.

"Of course we didn't," you smirked.

-

"I want to see my brother!" You shouted with your lungs out crying.

"Thor is already here, Y/N."

"I want Loki!" you kept crying as loud as you can. You knew if you did your mother couldn't stand it anymore.

"Enough Y/N! I said you can't see Loki, he's dangerous! He couldn't protect you!" Odin shouted. You were shocked. Tears were flowing from your eyes but no words came out of your mouth.

"That's enough! You scared her enough. I'm taking her to her chambers," Frigga said to Odin, took you in her arms and left.

It didn't matter how much she soothed you, you refused to calm down. She could see you were exhausted but resisting to sleep.

"Oh my little peach, you really want Loki, don't you?"

You nodded your head vigorously, still crying. Frigga gently brushed your hair and wiped away your tears.

"I understand how you feel, my love. You and Loki have a special bond, and it's not fair for Odin to keep you apart. But you must trust me when I say that he's doing it to protect you," she explained softly.

"But why does he think Loki is dangerous?" you asked, sniffling.

"Your father has his reasons, but I believe that Loki is not the monster that Odin sees him as. He's your brother, and he loves you very much. I promise you, we will find a way to make things right."

Frigga held you close until you finally fell asleep. The next day, she called for Thor and told him to bring Loki to her chambers. When he arrived, she sat Loki down and spoke to him.

"My son, I know how much you love each other with your sister, and I can no longer stand to see you separated like this. Y/N is heartbroken without you, and I think it's time that you to understand the gravity of the situation," Frigga said, looking at him sternly.

"Odin believes that you are dangerous, and he's afraid that you might harm Y/N. But I know that you would never hurt your sister. However, you must promise me that you'll never put her in harm's way. Do you understand?"

Loki nodded solemnly, "I would never hurt her, mother. Ever," he felt offended a little. Frigga smiled at him.

"Good. Now go and make up for lost time, and be sure to never let anyone come between your bond as siblings."

You ran towards Loki as soon as he stood up, wrapping your arms around his waist tightly. Loki smiled down at you, and you knew that everything was going to be alright.

"No one is strong enough to break our bond, my little princess."

-

"You really liked Loki then," Bucky asked, feeling a little jealous but covering it with a smile. He knew he shouldn't be jealous, Loki was your brother after all. But he kind of wanted that bond with you, maybe even more. He wanted to keep you on his side, protect you at any cost. Even though he knew, you were perfectly capable of protecting yourself, even more than he can but it didn't matter to him.

"You don't have to be jealous Bucky," you laughed. "Sorry, I didn't mean to read your mind, it's just, you were thinking too loud and I thought there was a chaos going on in your mind," you said blushing.

"It's okay and I-uh," he sighed, trying to collect his words. "I just like to spend time with you, I mean you are so good to me and you know I- I would like to spend more time with you, other than just you helping me with this trigger words. You know, ma-maybe we could go to beach and watch sunset like that," he couldn't believe himself and how he couldn't just shut up. He looked away, he didn't want to see rejection in your eyes.

"I think that would be lovely, maybe you'll tell me your stories in 40's? I shouldn't be the only story teller, should I?" you grinned cheek to cheek. Seeing him relaxed after your answer made you even more happier. "But first, let's get through with this session, shall we?"

"We shall, doll."

A/N: Like and reblogs are appreciated! Let me know if you want more of this series!

[michelleleewise]

Blue Dhalia

Pairing: Avenger Loki x Female jotun reader

Warnings: abduction, memory loss, mild swearing, mild violence (not graphic), angst, feels, self deprecating behavior, self esteem issues, mentions of past trauma, loki needs a hug, y/n needs a hug

Summary: Loki reveals a part of his past as you try to work through your feelings, when Thor brings you a visitor......

A/n- sorry this took me an eternity!!!! My life I tell ya!! Hahaha but here we are again!!! 💙💙😁😁

Part Four -- Part Five-

You couldn't pull your eyes away watching the deep blue color spread across his skin, seeing lines traveling across his cheeks and forehead. "So this...is you?" You asked, studying him "yes, I am of Jotunhiem. I was taken as a child and raised in Asgard." He said shifting in his seat. "But why?" You asked, your eyes tracing the lines across his skin. "My fa...odin, the one that took me." He said clearing his throat "had planned to use me to unite the two realms." He said looking down. "And why do you not stay...like this?" You asked, his eyes shooting to yours "I...have never been comfortable in this form." He said quietly "we were taught on Asgard to believe the Jotun were beasts, monsters who would come in the night to murder us." He said fidgeting with his fingers.

You glanced down seeing the same lines on his forearms, traveling up his bicep "and these...what are they?" You asked pointing to his arm "they are my heritage markings, showing I am the son of Laufey, and rightful king." He said sitting up. "I do not have those.." you trailed off pulling your gloves off looking at your arms "that may be because of your parentage, if you are only half jotun." He explained as you nodded. "You truly do not remember anything before you were taken?" He asked making you sigh "I do not, sometimes i see flashes, dreams of what was, but only truly remember the one that took me, he was blue too." You said looking up into Loki's eyes "but not like you...different." you said seeing him nod.

"Well my brother believes he may have found someone who can help us figure out who you are." He said smiling. "I..hope so." You said looking down. "Why don't you go rest, I have adjusted the temperature in your room, you shouldn't have any more issues." He said standing up "and come find me if you have any more problems." He said setting his cup in the sink "do you..." you started, suddenly unsure of your question "do I what y/n?" He asked leaning on the counter "do you...hate me?" You asked looking up at him seeing his eyes soften "no, I do not." He said straightening up "there are things about me...about my past..." he trailed off looking down, his forehead creasing "Loki.." you whispered reaching out your fingers grazed his sending sparks through your finger tips, jumping as he pulled his hand back as though you had burnt him.

"I..I'm sorry..did I hurt you?" You asked watching him close his eyes, his skin changing back to its other form "no, you did not." He said coldly walking around the counter "I am retiring for the evening, I suggest you do the same." He said not looking at you as he walked down the hall towards his room, sighing when you heard his door close. You wanted to run after him...to apologize...but thought it best to let him be. You grabbed your gloves, walking towards your room you glanced at Loki's door, seeing light coming from underneath "I'm sorry.." you whispered before stepping into your room closing the door. You tried to lie back down but couldn't get comfortable, tossing and turning on the too soft surface. You sat up with a huff, tossing the pillow and blanket on the floor you curled into a ball at the end of the bed, finally able to find some comfort you closed your eyes, hoping for a dreamless sleep.

Walking to the cave entrance looking out at the new fallen snow. "May I go for a walk?" You asked turning around "yes but stay close, do not wander." She said starting the fire for dinner "yes Mother." You said walking out into the snow. You wandered aimlessly down the mountain, looking up at the sky seeing the different colors steaking across it "if only I could be free." You said to yourself, a loud noise behind you making you jump. Turning around seeing two figures walking out of a small opening in the side of a ship. "Hello there, your coming with us." The one said, looking over seeing they were blue too, but not like you.

You turned and started running back to your cave when you felt a sharp pain in your head making your vision blur. You leaned over shaking your head feeling two arms wrap around you dragging you back "no...stop." you tried, your head feeling sluggish as you kicked and flailed, throwing your head back feeling it connect with something. "Aahh shit! She broke my nose!" One yelled, the arms around you dropping you tried to run again when the blue one stepped in front of you "don't make this difficult." They said. You reached out grabbing their arm seeing the sleeve of their coat break away, the skin under turning black as they screamed trying to pull away when you felt a sharp pain in your temple, a white light filling your vision as pain shot through your head before everything went dark.

You shot up gasping for air, feeling your chest tighten you looked around the room, light steaming in making your head throb as you stood up, trying to get your bearings when you heard a knock on the door. You rubbed your eyes, grabbing your gloves you slipped them on walked to the door opening it seeing Thor smiling at you. "Good morning y/n, may I have a word?" He asked "um..sure." you said stepping to the side as he walked in looking around "I have invited one of my friends here to see if we can find out more about your past." He said standing in the middle of the room.

"Oh..ok." you said fidgeting with your gloves. "They are downstairs, would you like to come down? Or I could have them come here if that is better." He asked watching you "umm...i...Is Loki going to come too?" You asked looking out to the hall seeing his door closed "I can ask him if you would like." He said smiling. "Yes...please." You said looking down. "Come, let's wake him." He smiled, walking into the hall you followed, standing to the side as he banged on the door "loki! Brother wake up!" Thor yelled making you jump as the door shot open "Thor, must you be so loud!?" Loki snapped "good morning to you too." Thor said smiling.

You looked at Loki seeing his long dark curls messily brushed to one side, your fingers twitched wanting to run through them. Your eyes traveled down noticing he wasn't wearing a shirt. you watched his muscles flex as he adjusted the hem of his pants, feeling your cheeks heat up wondering if his markings spanned his chest as well when he cleared his throat, your eyes shooting up meeting his deep green ones "and good morning to you too little one." He smirked watching you. "M..morning Loki." You whispered looking to the floor. "The friends I told you of are here." Thor said next to you "and what pray tell does that have to do with me?" Loki asked crossing his arms. "Well, I'm bringing them up here to meet y/n here, and she asked for you to join us." Thor said nudging you with his arm. "I..if you want to." You said looking up at him.

You saw his eyes soften as he looked down at you "very well, give me a moment to compose myself and I'll be right there." Loki said grabbing his door "Thank you." You said quietly seeing him nod as he closed his door "you go have a seat y/n, I'll go bring them up." Thor said patting your shoulder heading down the hall. You walked into the larger room, sitting down in a large chair by the window you looked into the kitchen, remembering the night before when Loki showed you his true self. His bright red eyes mesmerized you, your fingers twitched remembering the lines running along his skin, wanting to trace them with your finger tips.

Your heart sinking remembering how he pulled away when you touched him, looking down at your hands feeling your eyes burn "your touch repulses him" you thought to yourself, hearing someone clear their throat you looked up seeing Loki leaning against the doorway, arms crossed over his chest "are they not here yet?" He asked, his eyes boring into you "n..no, not yet." You said looking back down. "Would you like some tea or anything?" He asked walking into the kitchen "no...thank you." You whispered fidgeting with your gloves "y/n, about last night.." he started when you heard Thor laughing with someone as he walked into the room, a man and woman following behind him.

"Y/n, these are my friends Peter and the one they call Mantis." He said holding his arm out "Hey y/n, nice to meet you." Peter said walking closer holding his hand out. You looked at his hand, glancing to Thor as he patted Peter's shoulder "come sit." He said guiding them to the couch. "So, Thor here told us you were looking for answers." Peter said sitting down. "Um..yes." you said clearing your throat. "W..who is Ego?" You asked as they looked at eachother "He's our father...well was, why?" Peter asked "i...I was taken from my home, by a man who said he was taking me to him, to fulfill a purpose." You said looking at them. They told you of Ego's plan to conquer the universe, how he went from planet to planet hoping to have a child that would have the gift, killing the ones who didn't, a chill ran through you knowing you may not be here if you hadn't escaped.

"So you are my brother?" You asked Peter seeing him smile "yes, and Mantis is your sister." He said as you looked at them both. "Y/n, I think I speak for both of us when I say we would love for you to come with us, so we can get to know eachother." Peter continued. "Go with you...where?" You asked shifting in your seat "on our ship, you can meet our other friends, see the galaxy!" Peter said excitedly as you looked over at Loki, seeing him quickly stand from his seat at the kitchen counter "Brother, where are you going?" Thor asked watching Loki walk to the hall "it seems I am no longer required, Good luck y/n." He said, your eyes meeting his seeing a sadness in them.

"Loki.." you whispered as he walked out of the room "of course he didn't want you to stay, your everything he hates." You thought, feeling a tear slide down your cheek "Peter, I think we need to give her more time...to process everything." Mantis said watching you. "But it would be great! We could all be together and..." he started "Peter! I said she needs more time!" She snapped making Thor and Peter jump "ok, ok...sheesh." Peter said standing up "Listen, we'll be around when your ready ok y/n." Peter said as he and Mantis stood up. "O..ok, thank you." You said standing with them. You watched Peter and Thor walk towards the hallway talking

"does he know?" Mantis whispered next to you. "Does who know what?" You asked looking at her, seeing the little things on her head move slightly "It is quite obvious you like the mean one." She smiled "He isn't mean, he's just..." you trailed off looking down the hall "from what Thor has said he has had a hard life, but he has a large heart. You should speak to him." She said walking towards Peter. "How can i when he hates me." You whispered looking down "He does not.." Mantis said turning around "he is troubled, but he does not hate you." She continued. You nodded watching them walk down hall, leaving you alone to work through your thoughts. How could you tell him how you felt when you didn't even know how you felt.

You walked down to your room, seeing Loki come out in a tight black suit, his hair pushed back behind his ears as he looked up at you nodding before heading towards the elevator "loki.." you said watching him turn around "im going out, if you need anything the others are downstairs, have a nice trip." He said as the doors opened and he walked in "but i.." you started as the doors closed, leaving you alone again. You leaned against the wall, sliding to the floor you let out a sigh "maybe i should leave, no one wants me here." You said to yourself, as you laid down, bringing your knees to your chest you closed your eyes wanting the day to be over.

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[sigyn-foxyposts]

My personal thoughts on "Twilight of the gods season 1"

Before reading I just want to say that these are my opinions alone! By no means am I saying this show can't be your thing, it just wasn't mine when it came to certain parts! Also what I'll be covering can be a bit of a sensitive topic to some. Such as race and sexual topics, I'm here to defend not hate 💚

Art by my darling @sparrowmp4 💚

Pros:

Starting off with the best is the animation and art style! It's smooth and full of movement, absolutely breathtaking! It will truly keep you watching, just to enjoy it. Character design's are pretty good too, though some could've been done better and were in general a bit bland.

It felt boring In a way when you could've done more but I understand it would be hard on the animators. The scenery they chose fits the with the setting of the story they're trying to tell. In all honestly done very well, excellent!

I really appreciate the references to actual mythology and my culture! There wasn't much culture other than how things looked in certain villages but things such as the retellings of the stories we got from written and oral traditions, it made me very happy seeing them here!

I also heavily appreciate the inclusion of Loki's struggles amongst the gods, with himself struggling being "a scapegoat god" and the focus on him trying to save his children from their fate. As well as the portrail on how not even gods are perfect!

They clearly did their research on Loki's character and knew what the fans wanted! I just wish we got even more, but it was rushed and in conclusion a bit shallow. Still, the effort is there & i eat what I get!

I love the representation of minorities in the series. Such as people of color and their different or even mixed heritages! Same goes for different identities and sexualities. They weren't afraid to shy away from bisexuality and transgender representation, which was very common back then and throughout history!

I did enjoy certain characters like the Seid Kona, Egil, Leif and Loki's development throughout the story and how they were written! But again was all bit rushed..

Cons:

They missed out on showing us a lot more gods and how Ragnarok actually went down, even if most of us know by now..where was fumbulvinter for example? And I don't like when people take certain mythology media as fact, it's the biggest issue I have when it comes to modern media taking on mythology and folklore in general.

Do it right, if not then let it be!

While I love the representation we got of POC people, the way it's ONLY set in a norse setting bothers me. Yes, the story is centerd around the norse but like..we could have had more representation of other cultures too just saying! They were traveling so much, even a reference would've been nice.

No what we get instead, which yeah can work since the vanir are magic and nature based is plant people (I get the thought behind it!) They make the representation we want plant people. Where only two vanir members that look human.. are people of color. What was the point of all that seriously!

Where are the other people of color..?

Now don't get me wrong, Tyra makes sense in this case because we don't know where she came from and that leaves thing for interpretation, I absolutely love that! What's very icky was that Freyja who is presented as a black woman here, is Tiwaz's sister (Basically Freyr idk why his name is a rune now..) and called herself a slave when talking about how Odin married her for her magic... Yikes!

I didn't appreciate how Fafnir was slain either and the fact Sigird killed Baldr when Hodr could've been included so easily in the battle. I honestly think Freyr, Hodr, Hoenir and many more deserve justice, especially those who were completely forgotten like Idunn, Nanna, Forseti, Thrud ect.

Oh and dont get me started on Angrboda and Sigyn here, I'm just happy Boda even got an appearance in the first place, but that isn't enough to be honest! Like all she did was be the poor mother who couldn't protect her children, nothing more to her character even though she's from the ironwoods that we saw in this series.. where was she after those events?! Most likely dead, which would add up. Let's hope Sigyn gets a better appearance!

I don't mind original characters but..when it comes to the point in retellings, do it in a way that makes sense please!! Make the original characters for example meet Sigurd, Fafnir's slayer instead of killing him off! What would their interaction be like? While I understand the main plot and focus was on Sigird taking her revenge on Thor.

It felt a bit boring.. Like yeah, girlboss with a tragic backstory and she can't cry. It feels a bit Mary Sue of her, not only that but they're a bit over powered too!

Here comes another part I've been dreading..the "interesting" interpretation of Jormi and Thor's fate to kill each other at Ragnarok. It felt very forced and weird making them have a sexual relationship, like sure it's a creative twist I guess but..the way the prophecy claimed that Ragnarok would end the gods if Jörmungandr would spill Thor's seed. That's not at all the case and just disgusting!

What hurts me the most about this topic is Loki's attempts to take her place, but how the prophecy wasn't meant for him. Killing Thor was the only way to free their family, so even if it meant death, she did what had to be done. Worse, she was only a child when Thor physically beat her when she tried defending her family..i didn't need that!

This plot felt more like an excuse to add in more sex to a show with too many of those scenes already! Than giving the representation that matters, people forced to do these things just to help their family.

I'll admit Thor's portrayal was somewhat accurate, it just wasn't done the way I had expected it! (Take that as you will)

Yes he has flaws and the gods aren't perfect! Yes, he is a brute who murdered many jotuns and drinks lots of mead with an appetite. Yes, he has anger issues.. And yes he cheated on Sif. That doesn't mean he has to abuse his own kid or have his marriage with Sif go that low. What's worse is when you realize Sif knows he is activity cheating and letting herself be insulted by Thor. When she literally wants Thor dead, she admits she also needs him for the sake of her purpose.

Now, toxic relationships are real and this is a great example but keep in mind that in actual mythology he was willing to break every bone in Loki's body for him simplely cutting off her hair! And he has a tendency to be over protective of his family like in the story where Alvis purposes to Thrud, his daughter! His characterization is certainly something and I hope we get more because when he started crying over his issues and actions.

It screamed, toxic masculinity in my face.

I don't know what was happening behind the scenes but the relationships were developing a bit fast and while I don't mind starting a story on a relationship, the way things were going between Leif and Sigird didn't make me feel much for them in the end. Yeah it's not easy to be a perfectly functioning couple after you lost your whole family because you two were getting married. But when he comforts you, saying you're allowed to grieve and follows you on your revenge trip even though he didn't want to but did it for you!

Also I love my poly rep but making Thyra be a part of their already dysfunctional relationship was a bad move. Thanks for the fake hope you gave Leif actually living a better life with just her. It was so obvious she was into women from the start..why??

I had to sympathize with Leif even more when Sigrid physically hurt him, all because he opened up about what he felt and was done with her crap. Sadly that sympathy went away the moment he decided to waste everything on a woman that cared more about revenge then him.

Finally last point, I very much dislike how characters we were supposed to bond with get killed off so suddenly? Not only weren't they fully developed like Ulfr and Anvari but they had to die for what? Do they come back for the plot later on because I'd certainly hope so!

I don't know if they'll make up for all of these plot lines but since it landed on a cliff hanger, it's definitely coming back. Let's cross our fingers for season 2 to be better and clear things up!! Thank you for reading 💚🤞

[lokisprettygirl]

Lose me to Love you (Loki x Female Reader) (AU) (18+)

Read Chapter 16 here / Series Masterlist

Chapter 17

Summary: Loki meets someone from his past.

Warning: 18+, Smut, Mutual Masturbation, Daddy kink, God kink, Dirty talk, degradation, panic attack, Extreme dark themes, Sexual abuse, physical abuse, public sex, Rough violent sex, 18+, Steamy stuff, age difference ,Rough language, mention of suicide, talk of virginity and slut shaming, manipulative behaviour, mention of trauma, smut, toxic relationship between main characters. Dark themes, cult stuff

"Just calm down okay?" You mumbled softly as you caressed his scalp, as soon as Steve informed Loki that he wasn't the one to share Loki's whereabouts with Jolene he was immediately pissed, he wanted to go ask her for information but you knew his anger would only make things worse. 

"Calm down?" He stood up to stand a foot further away from the bed so you crawled to the edge and leaned over to grab his hand. 

"If Odin –" 

"Do not say his name" 

"Lokiiiii" you gave him the eyes and he sighed. Even amidst the seriousness of the situation somehow you found his meltdown adorable "If Odin knew he'd already be here.. I don't think it's him that sent her, I think it's Thor" Loki's eyes widened in realisation, that's why he was at the same restaurant as the one Jolene suggested.

"What the hell does he want from me after all these years?" you pulled him closer to you then you got on your knees so you could wrap your arms around his neck.

"I don't know but you need to keep this information to yourself for now and get to the root of it" you whispered as you pressed a chaste kiss on his neck.

"Don't tell me what to do" he mumbled but he wasn't trying to be rude, he was just trying to be dominating. He always had to be the dominating one, anything other than that made him feel wimpy.

"Sorrryyy daddy" he sighed as you mumbled ,

"Don't be baby" 

"I love you .. I just want to tell you that I'm here for you, with you" 

"I know sweetheart " 

"You don't..you have no idea how much I need you in my life and how much I appreciate you for taking care of me..i know i have been a brat before but–" 

"Where is all this coming from? Are you feeling unsafe?" He asked you as he gripped your hair in his fist and pulled your head back so he could look into your eyes.

"Noooo..not as long as I have you ..but without you..it –" your eyes teared up and lips trembled as you felt overwhelmed "Just the thought of being without you feels like.. hell" his eyes moistened too as he heard your shaky voice. He truly wished he could have kept you safe and happy but he wasn't really sure if he was capable of giving you both at once.

"What is making you feel this way?" 

"Nothing..I just..there was this girl in my orphanage..she wasn't my friend or anything but we talked sometimes..found her on a pornsite today..she was around the wrong man in her life, alone and lost..that could have been me.. without you" as your tears dripped down he wiped them with his thumbs and then you felt his lips on yours. He kissed you as tenderly as he could, as softly as his physical self could provide.

"That would never be you, I was always here and I'll be here forever darling, we met for a reason, I was supposed to take care of you all my life" Maybe it was the fact that he tried to hurt himself was what got to you finally, you imagined your life without him after you turned 18 and everything seemed like hell, it gave you the same feeling you got at the center, it wouldn't have been hard to spiral down and get into wrong company like that girl did.

But he never allowed you to get yourself in deep trouble, he could have exploited you in the worst possible ways, as fucked up as he claimed to be he had all the reasons to pick the wrong side, he could have made you do anything he wanted and you were so obsessed with him you would have obliged to make him happy and keep his attention, he knew everything and he still chose to keep you guarded, safe and protected from everything bad out there. 

"Don't ever think about leaving me again..I can't take it..I won't be able to move on" you sniffled as the emotions felt too much.

"I know..I'm not going anywhere I promise..i promise sweetheart…shhhh now..stop crying " his voice was so soft and whispery, his thumb kept wiping your tears, he kissed you in between his words and he just wanted you to feel better even if he didn't know how to do it that well.

You pulled him on the bed and snuggled him closely, momentarily he forgot about everything else and the warmth of your body kept him calm, your voice on his ears made him feel safe, your fingers caressing all over his back felt lovely but as soon as you fell asleep the fears creeped in again. Odin was nowhere to be found and now he had an intruder in his own house, his own ex wife came here with an agenda, not knowing what her intentions were was killing him. You wanted him to be calm but it was nearly impossible. 

Next morning you found him in the kitchen making breakfast, thankfully Jolene wasn't there so you went behind him and hugged him 

"One of these days I'm going to be really upset that you never wake me up when you do" he chuckled as you said that 

"You like to sleep in..why would I wake you?" He asked you so you sighed "By the way what were you watching on the pornsite?" Your face flushed as he questioned.

"I wasn't watching porn.. someone sent me the link on facebook" he turned around and picked you up so he could make you sit down on the countertop.

"That better be true..you're not allowed to watch porn from now on..I'll give you a show whenever you are feeling naughty" you kissed him as soon as he finished his words

"You're the naughty one" he chuckled and pulled away from you.

"Mmmm okay let me finish this up, i have to drop you to the set" 

"Drop me? Where are you going?"

"Just something I have to do" He was glad you didn't remember the date, the first year of living together he brought it up and you passed out right in front of his eyes, he freaked out and vowed to never remind you again. 

"Leaving me alone?" 

"You're not alone baby, you'd be working, you'd be safe there.. nobody can get in without an ID and I promise I'd be back in two hours max" you hugged him tightly as he said that, you didn't ask further questions, if he wanted to tell you he would have shared it. You trusted him blindly, one thing you knew was the fact that he'd never hurt you in a way you didn't want him to hurt you.

"What about the traitorous bitch wife of yours?"

"I'm going to take care of that" 

Jolene was shocked to know that Loki didn't want to take her with you two today, after the supposed attack she was hoping that he'd be ridden with guilt and will crawl back to her slowly but nothing like that happened. He told her where he was going after dropping you to the set and she informed Thor almost immediately, that's exactly what Loki wanted. 

"Just keep it on the shelf dear" he smiled as he heard her voice, your mother wasn't that much older than him, not even a decade of difference, she was delusional in her faith but her heart was pure, ever since you all came to the center he had formed an emotional attachment to both mother and daughter, everytime she was hurt by your father she came to him to talk and he always welcomed her with an open arms, the relationship remained pure, she felt like an elder sister he never had. 

"How are you today?" He asked her after he stacked the books on the shelf. The bruise on her cheeks didn't go unnoticed, her husband disappeared two days ago, courtesy of Odin, another blessing he offered to your mother to trap her emotionally and she fell for it.

"I'm good..yeah" her eyes contradicted her words so he walked over to her and hugged her. 

"Lolooo come play scrabbles with me..it's not fun playing alone" he smiled as he looked at you. You were busy with the game and his heart clenched as he looked at you. Things were getting worse at the center, Thor told him that father was getting close to fulfilling his mission, he had to do something to get you away from this monstrosity. 

"Loki can you promise me something" he nodded as she asked him that "If something happens to me–" 

"Don't say that–" 

"Just make sure she's taken care of, my y/n just promise me you'll take care of her" His eyes teared up as she said that

"She needs you, she'll always need her mama, just say a word and I ...I'm thinking of something to stop all of this–" 

"Stop this? What are you talking about? This place is heaven Loki" 

"You don't know the lies you have been fed by my father"

"Enough loki ..I won't hear a word against him..just promise me..you'll take care of her" he sighed as she said that. She was too blinded by her faith to reason with him.

"I promise..i promise I'll never leave her alone" 

He placed the bouquet down on her grave, the memories surfaced over and it hurt to think of your mother, out of all the people that became the victim of his father she was the one who trusted him blindly, she was also the one he wanted to save with all his might but he was so weak at the time, he couldn't do anything, he could barely protect you. He felt a presence around him so he wiped his tears, 

"I know you're there Thor" he turned around to face his brother and Thor finally came out of hiding. Loki's jaw clenched as he looked at him, a part of him wanted to run to him and hug his older brother but knowing the tainted shared history their relationship seemed like a sin now, children of such an evil man, he wouldn't be surprised if Thor was still bidding for Odin.

"Cat is out of the bag I see" his demeanor still as boastful as he remembered his brother to be and that only made him angrier "You know we fucked right..me and her mother? Now you're fucking the daughter..we truly are fucked up brother" As soon as Thor finished his words Loki walked up to him and punched him which only made him laugh in response "You have gotten stronger I like that" 

"Why the fuck are you here again?" Loki asked him as he grabbed the collar of his shirt, 

"Not the question I expected after like what ..12 years of not seeing each other?" 

"Don't do this Thor, i fucking saved your life" 

"You abandoned me and mother to run off with your little starling" Thor snapped at him and that earned him another punch.

"I made a decision, I wanted to do something right for once, what did you do? What did mother do to protect us? She allowed us to be abused over and over again..right in front of her eyes" 

"And you think her life was easy? You think she didn't suffer?" Thor's eyes teared up so Loki took a step back.

"Why are you here?" 

"For your little starling " 

"Don't you even think of hurting her" 

"I am going to..i have to. Mother said she's going to ruin everything" 

When Loki returned to you after a few hours, he was badly bruised and bleeding. 

"What the hell happened" you asked him as you looked at him.

"Nothing..just got into a fight" 

"With whom" 

"Get in the car and seal your lips shut for sometimes" you sighed as he said that. When you both reached the apartment, he grabbed Jolene by the arms and threw her out of the apartment with no explanation offered whatsoever, she cried and yelled, blaming him for ruining her life but he shut the door, that made you feel slightly better. He grabbed your hand and took you to his bedroom

"Just stay here, I'm going to take a bath..don't go anywhere..you hear me?" You nodded as he said that, his voice remained harsh but you could tell he was hurting, he was probably relishing all the pain though. Did he meet Thor? He must have, what did he want?" 

As he came out naked as the day he was born, you noticed how bad he was beaten up, his chest had a gnarly black bruise ..so did his ribs, his right cheekbone had a cut and his face seemed messed up. He put on a brief and stormed out of the room, he was careful to not shut the door loudly, he was trying his best even though he knew he was failing you every second. He was lost in his thoughts when he felt you sitting on his lap, you had a first aid box that you placed next to him on the couch. 

"You met Thor" you mumbled as you used the disinfectant solution to wipe the cuts on his face. He winced as the solution burned but there was a hint of gratification in his moan, your eyes teared up as you looked at him, his need to feel pain just so his mind would stop screaming at him for a moment broke your heart. He grabbed your hand and placed it on his chest right where he was hurt, 

"Hurt me" he looked at you and his eyes were burning red with tears.

"Noooo" you shook your head and moved your head down to place a soft kiss on the mark giving him the opposite of what he asked for. He let out a small moan, almost sounded like a whimper. 

"Hurt meee please..I need it..I need to stop thinking" your arms wrapped around his neck as he said that, his voice sounded broken.

 "Think about me then..I'm all yours to think about" you kissed him as tenderly as you could, avoiding the cut that went past his jawline. His arms wrapped around your waist, face hidden between your neck then he took a bite, not harsh enough to break the skin but enough to sting, it only turned you on though. Your hips moved mindlessly over his crotch then you pulled back so you could take him out of the confinement and play with him, anything to distract him, you'd give your whole life just to have him stop feeling so tormented "I love you Loki..so much..you're so so so goddamn beautiful to me" you whispered in his ear and he shook his head, shattered little moans escaped his throat as you moved your hand up and down slowly.

"I'm a monster..I have always been one" his teeth greeted as he spoke,

"Nooooo.. that's not you..that was your father..you could never ever be one ..you're my angel, you saved my life, gave me a better one and that makes you my god" 

"Don't say that..fuckk"  he put his head down on the couch as your words melted in his ears. Your god? Just the thought of his sweet precious girl considering him as one made him painfully hard. Your strokes remained slow, your thumb wiped the precum from the top and you used it to aid your movements. "Keep talking baby" 

He mumbled softly and it made you smile.

"The day you came for me..one of the thoughts I had was that I was utterly blessed" you whispered in his ear and he hummed, he always loved it when you stroked his ego..that combined with you stroking his cock was too much to bear

"And the other thoughts?" He asked you

"Mmmmm just wanted you to take me home.. and fuck me..my body under yours, rubbing against each other.. I have fantasized about doing this with you for as long as I remember" he gripped your hips and gave it a squeeze as you kept mumbling sinful words in his ear, the sensations increased in the pit of his stomach as your movement got faster, the sound filled the room and it made your cheeks feel warm, you were dripping but this wasn't about you at the moment, it was all about him as it should be. "Without you I'm nothing my god..just want to serve you, pleasure you and worship you all my life" his breath came out in shuddering waves as you whispered in his ear, 

"Mmmhmm..that's right baby..I own you my darling, I own your whole existence" 

"You do..cum for me please..need your cum" you begged him and he obliged, he was tipped off the edge as soon as you decided to play to his ego. He moaned your name as he let go, your hips continued to move on his thighs as you watched him fall apart with such intensity. You scooped his cum on your fingers and for a moment he thought you'd lick it but you had something filthier in mind, he underestimated your Virgin self at times, you lifted your hips up and your fingers sneaked inside your panties, you rubbed his cum all over your lips and the lewd action made you both moan simultaneously. 

"Touch me daddy please" you placed your head down on his shoulder as you whined, you felt so close already that you didn't need much stimulation, he took your night dress off and then pulled your underwear down, your wet dripping cunt seemed inviting. He scooped the rest of the cum from his torso and rubbed it over your clit then his thumb rolled in circles over the swollen nubs, your juices soaked his hand almost immediately.

"You're such a pretty girl you know that? So breathtaking" He grabbed the back of your neck with the free hand and kissed you tenderly "Cum for daddy my little girl" 

That was enough to make you fall apart, your world spinned as the orgasm washed over you. You both fed into each other's kink today and it was a liberating experience, you also managed to get him off again without giving into his need to extremely hurt himself. He grabbed you in his arms like a baby and you both showered, after dinner as you both got in bed you asked him about Thor but he didn't say much. 

He couldn't have told you that Thor wanted to hurt you, he didn't want to scare you, his brother thought he was doing the right thing finally but it wasn't right, not for him, anything that harmed you could never be right in his eyes and he'd protect you even if if meant that he'd have to hurt his whole family.

"Please don't hurt me ..i always did whatever you asked me to" Natasha told him. She was scared, she had a child now and now she understood the pain she had put those kids through at the center. The man in front of her terrified her, the fact that he found her even after she changed everything about herself shocked her. She didn't know how he got inside her apartment even when there were cops outside her building on the patrol. 

"Hurt you? Oh no my sweet disciple I'm not here to hurt you, I'm here to take you away with me...this time I'll fulfill the ritual. Blood of a virgin, she's still a virgin..that little girl is still pure and I know where to find her" 

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[nevraeldarya]

In chapter 73, Rhea describes the aura the Gods have. She describes Loki’s, Thor’s, Odin’s, Apollo’s, Artemis’, Hermes’, Ares’, Hephaestus’, Aidoneus’ and Poseidonas’. She didn’t give a description of PJOPoseidon, PJOHades and PJOZeus’ auras. Hera and Athena and Dionysus and Aphrodite and Demeter too (she saw all of them in the Winter Solstice Council so..). What do you think she’ll describe their aura as?

Here they are :

Zeus : thunderous and buzzing, his aura cracks like lightning, doesn't give a feeling of safety, quite disgusting in a way that is hard to describe, not to mention it had an annoying habit at poking other people like it's trying to find something just to lash out ! His aura is electric blue.

Hera : her aura stretches around as if trying to keep everyone together, but the aura has a feeling of disgust as if it doesn't want to do whatever it's doing, she feels like a home you are not welcome into. Her aura is green and brown.

Athena : her aura gives the same feeling as going into a library, you just know you need to be quiet in her presence, it's not reassuring also her aura promise you a painful ending, its quiet but volatile at the same time ... maybe because despite being the Goddess of Wisdom she isn't all that wise, the aura is grey.

Poseidon : feels like the sea in summers day but at the same time and depend on his mood his aura becomes agitated and rises like a tsunami, gives a feeling of home that Rhea is not very fond off, radiate sadness because of her rejection, his aura is ashen-blue.

Dionysus : his aura feels like a bar, when you step in you tell yourself "Imma go crazy tonight !", it gives a weird sense of freedom and craziness, radiate boredom because wine is nowhere to be seen. His aura is purple with green vines moving around.

Demeter : her aura is actually very nice and Rhea welcomes it the most out of all the Olympians, it reminds her of the beauty and the freedom one feels in a field, the aura moves as if plant are growing in a very fast rate specifically cereal. The color is golden.

Aphrodite : everything about her is a lie, exactly what you'll expect from a Goddess with thousands faces, her aura changes depend on who looks at her to lure them in, Rhea hates every bit about it, her aura doesn't stop changing and never will as it adapts to what other sees as beautiful, her aura radiate love to give security, but it radiate lust the most. The aura is fushia.

Hades : his aura is cold, distrusting and coils around itself, radiate death and cold, doesn't like to be seen, literally screams "I don't want to be here get me out !" But at the same time it says "I will wait and see what happens next" unlike ROR Hades, PJO Hades aura doesn't sooth or give a soothing feeling, it promises a very painful death. His aura is weird blend between black and red.

[tyrannuspitch]

another thing that's really uncomfortable about the comics backstory is that it's very often like. 1. loki was adopted as a ~10 year old, not a baby, and therefore 2. his heritage was never even remotely a secret. and in this circumstance i feel like thor being abusive (esp from the start) is... so much worse?

like, in the mcu with its secrecy and early adoption, you can say that if thor mistreats loki, it's at least partly because he's semi-consciously picking up on their parents not treating loki as equal, but he doesn't know why, so it's just How Things Are (and always have been, literally as long as he can remember!). like, loki being abused is normalised at a fundamental level for thor. and if odin and frigga don't intervene, well, they've already proven their willingness to treat loki as inferior by lying to him his whole life. the mcu is definitely its own kind of horrifying, but it's a quiet and insidious kind, and you can see how the characters could be gradually led into worse and worse actions over time.

whereas in comics canon, where everything is out in the open from the start... thor mistreating loki just looks like straightforward, conscious prejudice. even if he claims otherwise, it's really hard to believe that space racism ISN'T a factor. sure, you just decided your adopted-brother-from-a-completely-dehumanised-enemy-species is your inferior for... no reason. convincing! and the parents not intervening is like... they don't even have anything to hide??? why would you even be hands-off about this unless you literally, consciously want it to happen? it's literally just like. "hey 'dad' you know the boy you told to treat me like a brother last week? well he isn't doing that. he's using me as a punchbag instead" "oh. how sad, my son." "are you going to tell him to stop???" "no."

like, when mcu thor calls loki his brother i believe him. i really do think that mcu thor truly and deeply sees loki as his brother, and himself and loki as fundamentally tied together (to a potentially unhealthy extent), etc etc. but sometimes when comics thor calls loki his brother it's like... okay, but you've never treated him like a brother. you have spent your whole life punishing him for being different at every opportunity. but now that you want to scold him, you're brothers? this is not love! this is an excuse!!!

like. i may not be being entirely fair to the comics here; there may be far better and more complex versions i haven't found yet. but just based on my experience so far... in the mcu, "they hurt you but they're your family" is this elaborate manipulative mind game where everyone involved really does love each but finds ways to justify the abuse anyway, so love and abuse are inseparable and often expressed by the exact same act, and this causes fundamental damage to the sons' concept of what love even is, whether love without abuse is *possible*, whether ceasing to love "family" is *possible*, etc etc... whereas in many of the comics, "they hurt you but they're your family" is like. those are literally the only two things they do. they hurt you, and then they SAY you're their family to stake ownership while doing absolutely nothing to prove their alleged love, not even the barest scraps of affection, ever. like come on??? i would cause the apocalypse over and over too!!!

(and as i said before - the situation being bad doesn't make the writing bad. but this continuous hand-wringing and pretending that thor's part in it is more complicated and more sympathetic than they ever actually show... does.)

[hinatastinygiant]

4 | 𝓕𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓘𝓷 𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮

Pairing: Loki x Fem!Reader

The Author

That night, as you lay in your bed while still on Asgard, you pull out the small remote that Loki had given you. It couldn't have been just to escape, could it? Things are never that simple with him, you know that.

You shut your eyes and think back to what he had told you before he left. Something about finding another version of himself hiding in... Your eyes shoot open when you realize. Immediately, you burst out of your room and rush down the stairs toward the library.

"Princess?" a guard asks as you pass by. "What are you doing?"

"I need a book," you state, pushing the doors open.

"At this hour?" he frowns.

"Yes, at this hour. I'm unable to sleep, is that a crime now?"

"Well, no, but-"

"Goodnight," you nod, slamming the door shut and locking it behind you.

After a few moments of searching, you're able to find the section of the library dedicated to Earth and the findings Thor and Loki had previously brought back. You comb through every page, searching for every natural disaster since the beginning of time. And one by one, you start your search. Figuring out the remote isn't too hard once you use it a couple of times. You're able to visit each disaster, one after the other, calling out for Loki in the hopes that he'll be waiting for you at one of them.

Although you spend so much time traveling from place to place, you always end up back in the same night on Asgard, digging through the books. Eventually, you come to the end and nothing. You haven't managed to find a trace of Loki at any of them.

"Shit!" you curse, slamming the last text onto the desk and knocking over a stack of others. You run your hands through your hair and lean forward, letting the frustration take hold of you. "What am I supposed to do?"

Suddenly, you hear the sound of the front door unlocking. You don't wish to look up until curiosity gets the better of you. "Balder," you groan as his large body manages to get past the grande library doors. "What do you want?"

"Couldn't sleep," he smirks. "Is that a crime now?"

"You heard me?" you sit up a bit straighter. It's never your wish to come off as impolite towards King Odin or anyone in his family. "I-I'm sorry if I woke you."

"It's fine," he chuckles, walking over to the desk. "I was just walking by. I apologize for startling you."

"It's alright," you nod, accepting his apology.

"What are you doing?" he then asks, causing you to stiffen your body. You don't want him to call you crazy, too. Not after the queen already had once.

"Nothing," you shake your head, closing the remainder of the books still on the desk.

"You're not doing some sort of dark magic are you?" he half-jokes.

"No," you laugh, though you know the joke is partly true. Loki has shown you things before, dark things. "Just couldn't sleep."

"What is keeping you awake?" he asks, placing his hands on his hips.

"I was worried about him. I know he's on Earth somewhere. I just don't know-"

"Why?" he questions you.

"Why what?" you roll your eyes. You're really not in the mood for more jokes or games.

"Why does he have to be on Earth? Was that the last place you saw him?" he clarifies.

"Well, no," you admit, feeling stupid. You hadn't even thought about that. You've just assumed it was where Mobius wanted to take him. "But I figured."

Balder shakes his head as he leans against the doorframe. "Don't be ridiculous," he tells you. "You can't assume anything with that man."

"You're right," you huff, remembering the countless times he had tested your patience.

"You know my brother. He's probably already found a way to get himself deeper in a load of shit," he shrugs. "Just don't count your chickens before they hatch."

"What does that-" you begin just as Balder rolls off of the doorframe and steps out of the library. "What do chickens have to do with anything?"

But then, it hits you. He's right. Who's to say that Loki is on Earth at all? Immediately, you stand to your feet and rush across the library to find all the texts on natural disasters you can possibly find.

One by one you cross off disasters on your mental checklist. You travel from Aladna to Xandar hoping to spot him, but still nothing. Just as you're about to give up, the last disaster comes into view. A moon on the brink of collapse from a neighboring planet. Lamentis-1.

Once you travel there, you hop from home to home, looking for any sign of Loki. All the locals ignore you, however, and instead, all rush towards a large train pulling into the station. You begin to walk over, hoping to King Odin that you'll find even a shred of evidence that he was here.

However, as you get closer to the train, you are grabbed by a guard and pulled onto the platform. "Excuse me," you gasp as he handles you rather roughly.

"Miss, if you don't get on the train right now, you will die," the guard tells you before ushering you right onto the train.

"Okay," you breathe heavily, not expecting the sudden shift. As you try to find a seat, the train begins to move and your body nearly tumbles into the aisle. "Shit," you hiss, grabbing ahold of the pole beside you and holding on for dear life.

It's then that you're finally able to look around the train with your fingers crossed for good luck. You travel from lavish cart to cart, searching for that familiar head of raven-colored hair. Though, as you reach the end of the train, your hope starts to diminish.

You're just about to give up when suddenly, you hear a voice ring out from the cart you've just entered. And it's coming from a man that isn't too far ahead of you. He's tall and thin, and his dark hair falls across his shoulders in perfect curls. There's no mistaking that silky, deep voice. But just as you're about to rush forward, you spot a woman sitting across from him with a smile on her lips.

"How about you? You're a prince," she grins at him. "Must've been would-be princesses... Or perhaps another prince."

"A bit of both," you hear him say. "I suspect the same as you. But nothing ever..."

"Real."

The word hits you hard.

"Mmm," he nods in response.

Your heart turns to glass in your chest before shattering to pieces.

"Oh," he then comments softly. You watch as he looks down at the watch he's wearing. "Seems as though my brother is back home."

"Yeah? Are you going to see him?" the woman asks.

Loki shakes his head. "His wedding is tomorrow. I wouldn't want to ruin that."

"You're not interested in going?" the woman then questions, her curiosity obviously piqued.

"I don't want to talk about it," he sighs before downing the alcohol before him.

Unable to take another step, you sink into a nearby table and stare blankly into space. You're not sure how much time goes by, but the next thing you know, Loki is causing a scene at the bar in the middle of the room.

"Love," he hiccups, talking to absolutely no one. "Is like a dagger."

Well, he's not wrong, you tell yourself. It shouldn't be as hard as it is to move.

"And when it's in you," he continues, taking a deep breath. "It's so hard to pull out."

He pauses, taking another swig of his drink.

"So," he sighs, leaning back a little. "Why put it in?"

The man beside him laughs wildly at his word choice. "There are a lot of daggers," he adds. "You could try the other ones."

"But the sharpest is always the most intriguing, is it not?" he whispers just loud enough for you to hear.

You shake your head, forcing the tears back. As soon as the train comes to a halt, you force yourself to grab hold of the small remote and remove yourself from this scene.

When you get back to the palace, it is no longer the same night of meeting Balder in the library. In fact, it's the following evening. You quickly change your clothes and rush outside, only to bump into the same man you had last seen in Asgard.

"There you are," he grumbles as he looks down at you.

"What do you mean? What's going on?" you pant.

"My parents have been looking for you everywhere!" he snaps.

"Crap, what've you told them? I wasn't supposed to leave Asgard by order of-"

"I know," he shakes his head. "Which is why I've given you the only wedding present I intend on giving."

"Huh?" you narrow your eyes.

"You have no idea what's going on, do you?"

"I've been trying to tell you. I've been-"

"I know. Not here. Don't worry, I told my parents that you had been up all night in the library because you couldn't sleep. Cold feet since you heard the news," he explains. "If anyone asks, you've been asleep in your room the whole time."

"Thank you, Balder," you sigh. "You've really saved me."

"Just get inside already so I don't have to keep this up any longer," he shakes his head.

"Right," you nod, fixing your dress slightly before stepping into the grand ballroom. Inside, you spot Thor right away. He walks up to you and kisses your hand before escorting you across the room to his parents.

"Where have you been?" he questions as you make your way past the guests.

"Sleeping," you tell him just as Balder had instructed.

"You're such a bad liar, you know," he sighs. "But I suppose it doesn't matter now. Y/N, our wedding is in the morning. Your parents should be here soon. Please, do your best not to wander off again."

"Of course, your highness," you nod.

"Please," he shakes his head. "Don't be like that."

When you approach his parents, you bow down to the king. "It's wonderful to see you again, Your Majesty," you smile, standing straight.

"Ah, Princess Y/N," the king hums. "It is good to have you awake. Balder told us you were feeling unwell."

"I can assure you I'm feeling much better now," you nod.

"I'm glad. The wedding is tomorrow. Will you be prepared?" he asks.

"Yes, of course, your majesty," you bow.

"Then you shall join us for the feast tonight. Thor is looking forward to having his wife by his side."

"Right," you mutter, glancing up at the man who has yet to let go of your hand.

"Come," he smiles, tugging on you. "Let's dance."

You grumble as he pulls you to the center of the room. "You know, since you're always pulling me out here the least you could do is actually teach me the steps so I don't look like an idiot," you mutter.

"What does it matter?" he smirks down at you. "Nobody can see your feet anyway. You look beautiful, that's all they notice."

You roll your eyes. "So, then you're not going to teach me?" you ask, lowering your voice.

"Not right now, Y/N," he shakes his head. "My father is watching. Just dance."

"But I don't know how!" you exclaim.

"Y/N, please," he sighs. "Just move with the music."

"Fine," you hiss, taking a deep breath. "But only if I get to lead."

Thor laughs. "What makes you think you'd be able to do that?"

"I can't even follow. I'll trip you if I try."

"I'd love to see you try," he teases.

"You simply want me to trip," you reply, narrowing your eyes at him.

"Perhaps I do, or perhaps I just like seeing you struggle. Now come, dance," he orders, placing his hands on your waist and pulling you in.

"That's not fair," you complain.

"All's fair in love and war," he smirks. "Dance."

Together, the two of you glide across the dance floor. You can feel every eye in the room watching you, but you manage to stay focused on the man before you.

"You're doing well," Thor compliments. "Are you sure you need lessons?"

"You're being too nice. I've stepped on your foot a hundred times by now."

"I can't even feel them anymore," he shrugs. "So it doesn't count."

"Whatever," you sigh, allowing your eyes to wander across the room. They land on your parents for only a moment as they watch the two of you with smiles on their faces.

"Do you think he'll come?" you then whisper in a voice just barely audible to yourself. You already know the answer. You heard it from Loki himself, but part of you still wants to hold onto a shred of home.

"Do you want me to be honest? Or do you want me to tell you what you want to hear?" Thor replies.

"The truth, I suppose," you mumble.

"Well, then, no. I doubt he'll come. I don't think he plans on seeing either of us anytime soon," he sighs.

"Did something happen? With you and Loki?"

"Not exactly. But, Y/N, it's alright. You're doing the right thing. You'll make your parents proud," he reminds you.

You nod as you pull away from him. Guests are beginning to leave and you can already see the four kings and queens make their exit from the room. "Where do you go?" you decide to then ask him.

"What do you mean?" he hums, knitting his eyebrows together. "I'm right here, aren't I?"

"No, I mean after the parties. You and the other princes always go somewhere after the parties. Where do you go?" you clarify.

"Y/N, it's not a place for princesses. Why are you asking me this?"

"I'm just curious," you shrug. "We're about to be married and you're keeping secrets from me."

"Secrets, huh?"

"Yes, I want to know what kind of trouble you and the others are getting into," you grin up at him. "Show me. Please."

"Fine," he sighs. "But you're going to have to change. You'll be ruined in more ways than one if you go looking like that."

"What do you-"

"Just do as I say and meet me by the gates in ten."

The Author

[hail-brod]

A Chance and Beyond (4)

Previous chapter: (Chapter 3)

Next chapter: (Chapter 5)

Masterlist

Series Masterlist

Loki x FReader

Warning/s: Light angst?, patronizing treatments/mentions, nothing else probably (please tell me if I missed something!)

WC: 3.6k

The Norns must be taunting you for making you feel hopeless. But a little sorcery bonding is nice. Until it leads you somewhere else.

You remember the day when you and Loki exchanged Betrothal rings.

It was a formal celebration to announce your engagement with the prince. In Asgard, it was tradition to publicly officialize the bind of two people, especially when it ought to be an arranged one. It was a way to let people know that, it is a merry day for Asgard's future and for any suitors planning to court you, to lay off. The same is said for the young prince, Loki. Assuming that he does have a flock of maidens eager to get his attention.

He is a prince after all.

As the people of Asgard cheered for your affiance to the god, you and Loki intertwined hands. Just where your rings are. A gesture that contented the All-father more than ever. Even the All-mother glowed with smiles at your courtly showmanship.

And you remember yourself sneaking glances at the older prince.

Thor.

You we're so smitten when you first saw him the day you arrived in Asgard.

But as you stood there beside Loki, you realized it's no more than just a little puppy love at the man. You decided. He was still handsome and charmingly brave in your eyes but you only savored the limited moment you had with such feelings. It was better for you to let go lest you ruin the honor of your family's name.

Everybody knew the crown prince had no eyes for anyone in particular. He was a youthful god with so many choices of fine young maidens to behold. So you just settled for quick glances and far admiration, even more so that you've been chosen to wed his brother.

You didn't mind the deal. Nor did Loki.

He once told you that marriage was just a part of his duty as a royal prince, to heed his father's wishes. Nothing more than just that. It was all in favor for Odin All-father himself. And you don't think you had the right to oppose his wishes.

You're just a simple daughter of a noble from his court, a mere subject of his.

In fact, you we're quite satisfied at the arrangement. It brought prosperity to your household and a high recognition amongst the nobles. And you know your father deserved the title to be a king's in-law. He has done so much for Asgard and your family, as a wise lord and a kind father.

You never thought of marriage before, that's why you never felt bothered to be robbed off of such freedom to choose a husband. You had older brothers that would inherit your father's legacy, so you weren't as much as fussed about by your parents to set off and be a trophy to some entitled lord.

You enjoyed your position. Especially when you're fortunate enough to travel to Vanaheim and learn the ways of sorcery.

That kept you occupied so much for many years.

But to be asked to marry Loki was never much a disappointment to you. A well-trained sorcerer for a husband and a powerful sorceress-witch for a mother-in-law?

I mean, what's there to refuse?

Other people may not have understood it, but the practice of magic in Asgard isn't as well known as compared to the other realms like Alfheim and Vanaheim. So to have these two people within your reach is quite exhilarating to you.

You thought as much.

The celebrative air in the royal hall was far from dying down when you finally landed your eyes to Loki. Who was, at that moment, already grinning teasingly at you. You had to stop your growing irritation from showing in your eyes as you feigned a smile at him. You hated it when he always catches you swooning at a particular prince.

"Are you seriously mooning over Thor rather than me?" he lowly said to you with a tease. "You must really like torturing yourself after saying that you're done with my brother's charm."

"Pardon me," you faintly rolled your eyes and replied equally with playfulness. "but your eyes must be tricking you, my prince."

He huffed. "We'll see about that."

When the banquet hall feast came, he didn't waste a second and brought his dear brother to you, forcing you to an inescapable rounding chat.

Which was quite a surprise on your part. You thought he would have planned something far more despicable under his sleeves, but it seemed like he was feeling humble. Suppose you quietly swooned at the crown prince while the three of you flowed the conversation. But after that, you didn't pass the chance to cast a simple magic trick at Loki while he entertained his lady guests.

Just a silly parlor trick right up his nostrils.

When he felt magic was at hand, probably nose itching to sneeze a thousand times, you provocatively avoided his hidden glares right at your peripheral view as you only smiled at your new chatty guest, intentionally dismissing him.

But you didn't miss the other guests' condescending stares, boring at your fiancé's form, going as far as distancing themselves away from him. Even hearing someone mutter to themselves the words 'immature second son'.

You recognized their ploys. These we're the other half of the Asgardians that didn't favor Loki well, and deemed him as a—rambunctious troublemaker.

They're not wrong, but they do act as if he'd personally wronged them—which he didn't.

As far as you'd known.

But you still also knew that Loki had done some inexcusable things at court—or even as a person.

You had witnessed him betray someone before, even experienced it yourself. Hel, even the first time you met he almost stabbed you. You had fought and insulted each other, but the storm calmed after awhile. Because you had one thing in common: sorcery.

Through sorcery, you picked at each other's abilities. But also through sorcery, you gave each other respect.

Followed by more common grounds, one after another. Until you crossed the border and saw why he acted the way he is. At first, you understood why his people separated themselves from him, despised him—and you still did—but the fact that, all that time, Loki was also trying not to be who they saw him to be. And then still twisted his intentions into something far more malignant.

That's also part of what you despised in their royal court and amongst the people of Asgard. As much as you ogle at the older prince, they make it a point to give all their praises to Thor, and then push back Loki into his brother's shadow. You didn't find the idea sensible at all even before meeting Loki, but you definitely knew courts can never have a time without taunts.

And it bothered you so that it just became natural for them to ridicule and antagonize Loki, even when after he did his best to satisfy their screwed morals.

Ultimately, he can be just a simple prince with so much naught for petty parlor tricks and a clever silver-tongue, ready to pierce one's own. He became bearable to you overtime. And you guess to him, you we're too.

But he's still remarkably good at concealing anything he feels. There's no wonder why he's a master of persuasion and has an adequate amount of patience.

Well, you? Not quite.

You clearly remembered what you did after you felt yourself increasingly get annoyed by the group of snob noblemen, who in fact, was clearly mocking Loki in their heads.

Next moment, one of the man's drink was spluttering out from his own mouth as his disgust was evident on his face. The magic you casted had altered his mead's taste. Though the worst part is, King Odin was standing mere inches in front of him. The man had spat at the king's face, that was enough to get all of the guests' attention.

You knew you we're responsible for it. So you paled.

Even more so when you spot the queen's eyes on you as she lifted her chin up. You saw the glint in her eyes that made you stand up straight.

By Mimir's head, you thought. the queen will behead me.

You know she wouldn't.

You could say she looked amused, but there's no possible way in Urd's well you're excused to be that unrestrained. That was her husband for Bor's sake! You discreetly flew your eyes away from the scene and the All-mother's face, to which then landed on Loki who clearly saw the mishap.

Now both master sorcerers felt what you did and you have never felt so cornered in your whole life.

But you certainly didn't miss the odd look Loki gave you before it contorted into a delighted one. Almost as if he is proud.

"Looks like you'll be given a scolding later by my dear mother." Loki tauntingly whispered to your ear as he neared.

All you can give him was a pleading look and a hesitant, "She wouldn't."

"She would." he said, and lightly laughed. "But she'll probably realize that that sod deserved it."

You only huffed. "Well, he definitely did."

When you glanced back at him, he was already giving you yet again the same odd look. But it quickly disappeared once he met your eyes as he looks away with a faint jovial smile.

You've never seen him so genuinely pleased more than ever.

When you woke up, your heart was heavy.

You sat there on the bed, your breathing lightly quickening as you tried to process something in your mind.

While you stilled, you dryly swallowed and blinked the sleep away, trying to calm yourself down. As soon as you opened your eyes from your slumber, then sat up to orient yourself better, everything you dreamt just started to fade into missing parts of images.

Panic rises up to you.

No...no, don't....

And as your chest kept closing in, you realized you wanted to go back and force yourself to sleep. You felt like you just ended up in a different reality or in an another nightmare that you've lost in, so you desperately grasped for the dream that's slowly slipping away from your fingertips. You pulled your thighs to your chest and buried your head above.

You crumbled. This is a different reality.

You heaved out a shaky breath as you closed your eyes, only then did you found yourself weeping as the tears welled out from your closed lids. Your nails dug onto your arms while you leaned there.

In that moment, you know you've given up.

You know you're gradually waking up to a reality that's only existed within your mind, and heart. You know there's no way to go back. You know it's gone.

You know you want that life back.

It hurts because you never truly did got tell how much you love him.

Taking your time to sulk and let the weight from your chest disappear, you tried to count to ten. The pace of your hitched breathing begins to slow down until you lastly take a deep breathe, then exhaled.

You dryly swallowed. Early in the morning and you're already having a crisis with yourself.

Hvergelmir could just drown me for all I care.

Alas, you don't really wish that right now. You think that a cold bath would be nice. Your eyes are swollen and cheeks are soaked, and it seems like the brightly lit sun peeking through your window feels too warm on your skin.

But you also take a moment to look around the room, orienting yourself once again. Until you did remember something clearly the night prior.

You heard Loki.

You know his voice anywhere, and it was loud enough to hear and to hear your name at that. Of course, you could not explain how that would be possible. Once there and then just disappear? If it was the Loki from TVA, then he would have had opened a time door, then off you had gone with him. But apparently no. Your mind must have been just too desperate with so many things so you guess you're starting to hear voices now.

It's either that or it was also just a dream.

Yeah.. you thought. just a trick of the mind.

Though, you know in your heart that you wish it wasn't.

When you headed out from your bedroom, with clothes now changed into Midgardian ones that you've scoured about in your given wardrobe, the hall that greeted you was empty. Yet, at the end of it, there we're voices talking. You sneakily walked towards it to see who. And you see two people.

You just realized now why the blond woman with the Avengers was familiar to you. All that's different from her appearance is her hair, which is according to what you remembered was red.

Natasha Romanoff.

And next to her was Steve Rogers.

You slowly let yourself be visible, urging yourself to step out louder to get their attention.

Though, never mind that. They already felt you before you could even take a few steps. Their heads immediately turn not a moment from your spot. You freeze.

Ah, you thought. that's terrifyingly great instincts.

"Oh," Natasha was the first one to speak. "it's you." she looked at you with nothing much but curiosity as she regarded you with a tug from the corners of her lips.

"Hello.." you hesitantly greeted with a small smile.

"Good morning to you." Steve says with a polite nod and a gentle smile. There's that firmness in his eyes mixed with a softness that balances his authoritative and kind nature. But then he struggled to say his next words. "You, uh...We actually didn't got your name."

You raised a brow. Did they not joined to watch your interrogation?

Oh.

You suppressed a laugh and slowly nodded your head. "Yes, I- I know...." you said with a pause as they quirked up. "I know you watched my interrogation. You don't have to lie no more." your eyes went to Natasha who looked quite awestruck, but gathered herself in an instant.

Steve lightly raised his brows and his eyes lowered down in shame as he exchanged quick glances with his fellow Avenger. "Of course."

Natasha turns to you with an apologizing look. "Sorry about that. Tony is just hard to deal with and...we just had to see for ourselves if you can be an ally."

You lightly shook your head. "That's fine now. After all, it is the reason why I'm out of that cell."

Steve lightly chuckled. "You're right. You have to thank Thor for that. He's been very insistent on convincing us to free you. Saying that you're still one of his people even if from a different reality."

You softened at that. "So I heard." you said. You try to recall what Bruce said to you last night, and thought about what else he told you. "What about Loki?"

Steve thinks for a moment before he gave you a faint serious look. "You should keep an eye on him."

Beside him, Natasha huffs with a roll of her eyes. "I don't see it that way." she raised a brow at Steve. "Have you seen how that rascal acted when he heard her name?"

Your ears perk at that.

"I did." he turns to her with a look of neutral assurance. "And he could be plotting something because of it."

The blond woman tilts her head, eyes challenging him. "I'm pretty sure everybody in this building thinks the same."

"Exactly." Steve answers back.

"Why? What did Loki say?" you ask with eagerness. Their eyes turn to you, though Natasha just gives you a smile.

"You'll see for yourself." she says, while she receives a frown from Steve, seemingly lost at what she's saying.

You're no different though. Confusion strikes you, but before you could even crease your bows harder than Captain America, Natasha followed through with her next words. "By the way, dining area's over there." she points towards the place. "You should eat first before the wizard portals next to you."

"What about you two?" you questioned.

"Don't worry about us." Steve replies with a nod. "We already had our fill. You should go eat...You earned it."

You revel at his soft tone and friendliness. Something in his eyes looks like understanding. A look that knows your hardship and the feeling of being lost somewhere. Being lost to time.

There's a wonder at the back of your mind but you just settled for a genuine smile.

When they left as soon as an aircraft landed outside the compound's fields, which you can see now in the light of the day, you ventured forth into the dining space and ate your fill. The meal just sat there and probably prepared by someone. Or something? But you didn't think much of it as you regarded the spacious dining area.

Before you could even feel the loneliness sink in at the sight of the empty seats, you had the feeling of being watched. Maybe even heard.

Perhaps, it's the thing about what Stark said. You are being watched.

You don't know by what but you don't really want to know either, so you just ate.

Sanctum Sanctorum.

That's where you are right now.

And while you are, magic courses through your veins as you kept trying to conjure, absorb, harness, control, anything that you can do to the little pebble of green that doesn't seem to open up to you.

And by you mean open up, trying to find its core of command and borrow its power to somehow lead you to where time is managed. One thing you know about magic, is that it can tell you secrets and commands. It's like an immediate breakthrough of knowledge that you can try to cast until you can be able to familiarize yourself with it.

But with the Time stone, its like there's nothing there. No core.

It's not like any other magic embedded crystals that you've tried to harness or absorb. But you also considered the fact that, this must also be what makes an infinity stone special.

"Nothing?" behind you, Strange stands while the Time stone is placed in front of you as it rests on a crystal holder beneath an antique table.

You turn, breath pacing. "Nothing...I- I don't get it. The stone itself, it's like- it's empty."

Strange's frown before only deepened and he sighs. Both of you had tried it several times. He didn't allowed you to do it in the first place since he had firmly told you before that he should be the only one to use it. But he eventually gave up and lend you a chance to try for yourself.

And now you both found yourselves still unsuccessful.

"How about we harness it both at the same time?" he steps beside you, eyeing the stone.

You look at him for a moment, eyes narrowed. "The stone will be overloaded and probably be destroyed."

He laughs and turns to you with a daring look. "Not if we put little amount of magic."

"Now, hold on." you halt him. "Acquiring the core command would be impossible with little magic—even if you and I combined."

Just when he's about to harness it himself, he lowers his arms down and looks at you. "Any suggestions then?" he says, almost irritatingly.

You think.

How can crystals be used in other ways? You know how to harness the core but what about the outside of the item? It's surface where the strings of magic can be accessed to cast its main level use. The simplest function of a crystal or any other magic stones. What else can it be used for?

You widened your eyes.

Of course!

"Compatibility." you mutter, turning to an increasingly confused Strange as you continued. "We might need to perform a forbidden spell."

"No."

You inhale, getting ready to explain yourself. "I swear to my own life that I will be cautious and perform it carefully."

He gives you a dead look. "And what exactly are you proposing?"

"I have no idea." you honestly say. You see Strange preparing to retort to that but you hurriedly added. "But, there's a grimoire in Asgard that contains the spell and we can use that as a guide."

You've never been really allowed to read that same book since it was prohibited for anyone to learn and use. It has lists of forbidden magics like dark magic and such, but you're clearly in dire need of a solution. And that's all you have left. There's one particular spell that can help you tear through space and time and its no wonder why it is forbidden. But with the Time stone and its ability to rewind events, its doable.

"Asgard?" he surprisingly asks.

"Yes." you nodded. "Your Asgard here should have it."

He only looks at you with a sudden change of his expression. His irritation had dissipated as he sadly frowned at your form.

What...

"Come with me." he finally says, walking past you. "Your fellow Asgardians might be able to help you know more." he then opens a portal to somewhere you don't quite recognize, but you do see a lot of greenery and expansive fields of grasslands.

"Is that...Asgard?"

He almost avoids your gaze and shakes his head. You looked at him in confusion, wanting more answers. He eventually gestured his head towards the portal, urging you to follow, so you did. Stepping out of the circular entrance, you took in the lands as you came to finally see the visible ocean. Along the fields we're houses being built and people scurrying to help—men, women and children.

"Why are we here?"

"To see Thor...and an another asgardian sorcerer who might be able to help us." Strange replies.

"Welcome to Norway."

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