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fogerist · 5 hours ago

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I’m alive y’all, just been focusing on my mental health and escaping from this world via Minecraft lol

Hope y’all are doing ok with everything happening, sending love to y’all ❤️❤️❤️

#don’t know how often I’ll be on #probably just sporadically #just focusing on myself and building community with people around me to get through these next 4 years #life update #gay #me

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the-woman-upstairs · 6 months ago

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It’s just…so painful to watch Armand readily submit in order to obtain the love he so desperately craves. And while it’s most assuredly a manipulative tactic, it’s still one borne out of fear and desperation. He cannot lose this person he’s come to love and so will become whatever they want, do whatever they want just so they’ll stay with him. But it won’t be enough. No matter how much he acquiesces or seeks to control (himself, others, the environment), he won’t be able to make Louis stay with him in the perfect life, perfect self he built in the hopes of finally being loved. It will all crumble with Armand left alone in the rubble of what he created, the author of his own abandonment.

#this unfortunately hits way too close to home for me #let’s not even get into Claudia’s anger at never being enough #iwtv spoilers #interview with the vampire #armand #this is just me speaking from personal experience…but there is definite manipulation at play here from Armand #and I don’t necessarily mean that pejoratively- when you’re desperate for people to like/love you you’ll become whatever they want #or whatever you think they’d want and you give it to them so they’ll want to keep you around #I’ve done it so often with the people in my life- and make no mistake it’s also a survival tactic #you give someone what they want they won’t hurt you #and when that’s how you survive for years and years it becomes the default method of interacting with others #even with normal people who genuinely mean you no harm you revert to that people pleasing mode #as a means of control both external and internal #this is what i see armand doing- his way of surviving that he’s never truly broken out of #armand ceding coven control to Louis and curating the Dubai penthouse for Louis are part of the same pattern of behavior #and even tho it’s ultimately harmful and will only end badly for armand and Louis’ relationship #idk if armand knows how to not exist that way with someone he loves/desires #all of this also ties into louis and daniel #because of course Armand will lose it over Louis finding connection and interest with someone else aside from him #someone HUMAN no less #and I can see Armand taking out his anger on Daniel as a way of expressing his own frustration at still not being enough for Louis #breaking daniel’s mind in a desperate attempt to understand why this human could reach Louis in ways he couldn’t #not saying any of this to excuse Armand and his behavior obviously (I’m very upset and worried over the trial looming on the horizon)#but I do understand this impulse and how you’ll throw ANYONE under the bus in order to preserve your place with loved ones #it’s all horrifying but unfortunately I empathize #like even if Louis is right to walk out on him when he learns/remembers the truth of what happened to Claudia #I’ll probably still find myself saddened by Armand’s fate because I’ve absolutely been there myself #it’s a tragedy of his own making- his fear and desperation birthing manipulative and controlling behaviors #that ultimately result in your own abandonment #god this fucking show

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francixoxoxo · 3 months ago

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Hey, so I think I’m gonna take a break from writing for a week or so, I’m just not feeling that great all around and I think a break might jog my creativity and help me feel better. Love love you all and I’ll be back soon 🫶🫶

#idk how often I’ll be on the app #like reading and replying to my mutuals stuff #but I’ll try to #my mental health is just plummeting #really worryingly fast #and i don’t know why #so I think a break is due #love love you all 🫶🫶🫶#and appreciate ALL OF YOU #idk how many people this will reach #but it’s ok #tom blyth #fic writer

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warriors-ideas · 8 months ago

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au where instead of ivypool and hawkfrost, its dovewing and mapleshade who take their place

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#warriors #warrior cats #wc #mapleshade #dovewing #ivypool #hawkfrost #warriors au #warrior cats au #wc au #au ideas #other’s ideas #ideas #i really like this idea because i feel like you could make a connection with mapleshade and dovewing since they both #get into crossclan relationships #give birth to three kits and then they have to leave their birth clans #except one turned into a tragedy and the other turned into a much happier ending #also hi folks i’m back! i don’t know how often i’ll post but here’s some in the meantime!

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butter1knife · 6 months ago

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DAY 5: FURRY AU

@alt-zadr-b1tch3z

Not sorry for how late I post this, I was party rocking!!

Um I am NOT used in drawing furries at ALL so this was a good challenge, DIB IS A BEAR AND ZIM IS A PRAYING MANTIS BTW, UM, I LIKE THE ANIMALS I PAIR THEM AS

#I like how Dib seems head over heels over Zim he’s so cute #his awkward smile is everything to me he’s a dork #AND ZIM LOOKING AWAY CAUSE HE DOESNT KNOW HOW TO REACT TO DIBS CHEESINESS AWH #I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again #ZaDr is so comforting for me any trope! they are just everything to me #ZADR 😈🔥🔥🔥#I HOPE WHEN I WAKE UP I WONT REGRET DRAWING THIS #i don’t often draw furry’s other than my fursona so drawing dib was AAAAAA #but I did it! yaaay #either way I personally love how it turned out #zadr #alt zadr 2024 #zim x dib #invader zim #iz fanart #dib membrane #day 5: furry au

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neongulls · 1 year ago

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Screenshot redraw woo! I’m so excited for the new season!!

#my art #art #digital art #illustration #screenshot redraw #fanart #sonic the hedgehog #sonic the hedgehog fanart #shadow the hedgehog #sonic prime #sonic prime fanart #Heeyyyyyy what’s uppp #I haven’t posted art on here in quite a while!! (I just started posting art on insta again too I’ve been on a bit of a break #a very. long break #I don’t know how often I’ll be posting art on here currently thou since I reserve my tumblr for fanart only #and I’ve been on a mostly oc kick lately 🤷‍♀️#I follow my silly little art whims and after watching that teaser clip the whim told me screenshot redraw lol

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eggwishing · 5 months ago

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All i really seem to draw nowadays is anatomy practice… i feel like i’ve lost my way with art. I want to tell stories, that’s the whole reason i’m doing this! i don’t just want to make shit that looks nice! but i don’t know how to put myself in a headspace where i care enough about things that were important to me before Or the way they made me feel

#Augh!#I guess if you keep your yap trapped for long enough even you yourself start to lose interest #But i know i still want this #I don’t know how to make me like myself enough to want to express myself. But dont get it twisted #Im good w me im not like being a hater or anything But sometimes i feel like i’m just living in my own head with a stranger whose existence #I am indifferent to #Anyone have any advice? Or relate ? Im not looking for comfort or anything. i’m gonna see my doc in late july and that’s kinda a while away #I think the amount of time i spend online plays a part in this #too much stimulation too often taking up all my thoughtspace and making me become more distant with myself #I’ll have to make a change #I rely on outside sources to fend off boredom instead of my own imagination

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raiiny-bay · 16 days ago

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kiddos!

(used this old render as a ref)

#myart #marky #bow #kelly #dhestyn #gaston #sue #stella #i had a lil bit of fun w this one #this might be the first time i’ve ever fully finished a piece. like. in my life.#color & background & all #i like how it turned out!!#in total it took me ~18 hours but i admit that at least some of that time was literally just me trying to learn how procreate works #i figured it out. mostly. kind of.#idk what i’m gonna do now #maybe i’ll finish the mbz character lineup i started #i might just like… redo that whole thing though actually #mm. don’t know. n e way.#going left is the title of the canon story btw. i know that’s on my blog in few places but. yea #post-canon which is what i post abt most often (when the kids are… no longer kids. adults.) is called going right #i… thought it was funny #going left was supposed to be a placeholder but it has been 10 years atp so. doubt it’s gonna change #rainyrambles

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puppuddart · 8 months ago

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(2/2) rwd digisketch dump pt 2 this time from today!! my art has improved a whole lot since i started drawing fanart for these guys and i can’t wait to see how much more it develops from here on out

#dandy art #sketch #rolling with difficulty #rwd spoilers #crew of the per aspera #i know i only drew kyana once #and vrla like 20 times #but i promise i’ll draw more kyana separately #surprisingly i don’t draw dani all that often despite how much brain space she takes up #more to come!!!

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lightblueminecraftorchid · 2 months ago

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the 14 year old edgelord in me keeps trying to compose deep poetry about coming to after dissociating. calm down babes. we’re all good here.

#blue chatter #just. the experience of blinking into existence becoming associated with ice in my mouth #and how it’s becoming a pattern that the first visual thing I process is a hand in front of my face #At least that I remember. I’m sure other stuff happens but my memory is unsurprisingly v blurry after #I feel bad for making my roommate take care of me so often #but I super cannot control when I dissociate #and I do genuinely need the help #bc today I was home alone and it took a loooooot longer to break out of the blurry stage #I somehow didn’t think to get ice about it until I was in the middle of the grocery store an hour after the episode had ended #I want to be more independent about this so people don’t have to take care of me all the time #it is relieving to know that I can live with friends after grad school #so *someone* can be around usually if something goes wrong and I’m not cognizant enough to help myself #but I don’t wanna make them feel like they have to help me or put that on them #or like. freak out their kids. their kids are not raised remotely like I was and they’re rly young so they don’t rly understand this.#how do you explain trauma to a three year old whose parents are incredibly good at gentle parenting #idk. I’ll figure it out. hopefully with time and therapy I’ll be able to process my trauma enough that I won’t be like this forever.#I don’t wanna be like this forever.#I want to go to grad school and start practicing in clinical psychology and help people #and be independent and be able to support my friends instead of the other way around

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cheekblush · 13 days ago

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just had a REALIZATION while dancing to old school rnb music in my room: i am beautiful, i am intelligent, i am funny, thoughtful, kindhearted and witty, i am capable of anything i put my mind to and i can’t believe i let some stupid bitches at work make me feel anything less than that!

#fuck them for real!!!!#like absolutely don’t deserve they way i’ve been treated at work but i need to come to terms with the fact that i’ll never get an apology #or some kind of justice i just need to make peace with the fact that i would never stoop to such a low level and i would never treat others #like that no matter how much i dislike them #i know in my heart that i didn’t do anything to warrant such mistreatment and that my conscience is clear #i wish i wouldn’t have let this whole ordeal affect me so much in the first place bc it really caused me so much hurt and sorrow #but i JUST realized i’m a good person who deserves good things and i can’t let they way others treat me define how i see and treat myself!#them being who they are is already their biggest punishment i don’t need closure from them i just need to move on and focus on myself and #my life #it’s just disheartening to know that it’s often fake disingenuous and vile people like that who get ahead in life #but again: i need to focus on myself! i have nothing to blame myself for i always tried my best and i did not badmouth to my boss!#gonna have lunch now and watch shopping queen <3 #just had to write this rare moment of clarity and self assurance down bc i know the self doubt and loathing will creep in sooner or later #again #☁️

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umemiyan · 4 days ago

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oh btw since i didn’t get to add him in the post earlier because i literally ran out of room: kaiser’s stability levels noticeably decrease even further when he misses me. he’s exponentially cuntier but also has moments where he’s so silent that people are like... afraid lmfao

he tries to throw himself into plays so extra hard until he’s overdoing it and/or having a meltdown because he screwed up until noa or someone calls me like “how quickly can we arrange to get you here???”

#ss: michael #i feel like this happens so often that he’s eventually just not allowed to be away from me for more than a specific amount of time #like i HAVE to be there. even if i’m not even totally near him or able to speak to him #everyone’s afraid he might actually kill someone. or himself.#it’s a progressive mental spiral of having every shitty thought about himself #because not only is he competing against everyone to be the best at soccer #but he also feels like he’s constantly competing against the entire world for ME. to be the one i see as no. 1 #and if he’s not there to try and prove himself for like every waking moment then he’s eventually going to lose. and i won’t love him anymore #(this is false. but he literally doesn’t know how to do or think anything else)#it’s the deeply ingrained self-worth and abandonment issues <3 we’re working on it #he’s my little anxious cheetah. and i’m his emotional support golden retriever. lover. mother. thing #like i don’t even really have to say or do anything he can just look at me and be like ‘ah. yes. i am Normal.’#(as normal as possible for him)#anyways. if you need me i’ll be jumping off a cliff

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grayintogreen · 24 days ago

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Having your two big fanfic series as your hyperfixations is an exercise in pain.

#y’all don’t know how often I censor myself #like if you think I’m annoying trust me you are only getting 10% of what I want to say at any given time #one day I’ll stop being too scared to just live my truth #but oh my god i forgot why listening to music at work is just an excuse to hyperfixate #and this is why I usually listen to podcasts #i’m gnawing at the bars of my enclosure #my writing #red roses and dead things #life in the margins of redemption

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itsahotminuteinbetween · 1 month ago

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