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trainer-azure · 6 months ago

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Hey, sorry I haven’t posted anything in a bit.

The rest of my trip to Kitikami was kinda hectic and I kinda forgot to post anything. (And tbh I wasn’t really sure if I wanted to post anything) Then after I got back from my trip to Kitikami I was really busy with class work and I didn’t really think about it.

And well to be honest I also kinda needed a break. The rest of the field trip was a lot, like A LOT.

Like a lot of fun stuff happened (like I ran into a cousin of mine) but also some bad stuff as well

Mostly I don’t think Kiri wants to be my friend anymore

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fahbev · 8 months ago

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hey @sillysealll!! Im the anon who sent you this ask. I did in fact end up doing it.

So here’s my… I don’t even know what to call it? It’s not a redraw because I definitely traced it, but it’s also more than just a coloring job. I guess I can call it an edit?

Here’s my edit of the first page of sillysealll’s amazing kid gang au!

and down here is the original ⬇️

soooo… you may have noticed that I changed Jason’s outfit. That was by accident 😔. I misunderstood his clothes and by the time I realized, I was already committed. So then I thought… what if he’s just borrowing Dick’s hoodie? So I colored it red and here he is. Wearing Dicks hoodie.

also, I tried to keep with the original style, but by the time I got to inking that was kind of out the window bc I got super pen-happy.

Oh, also also! Nobody asked but this was my Batmobile ref (I flipped it)

I gotta find a faster way of coloring— I literally traced your art and it still took me 11 hours

#That Batmobile prob took the longest #I copy pasted it so I only drew it twice #but I made a bad decision with my layers so I had to ink it all four times separately #coloring it was confusing as hell and now that I’m zoomed way out I can see how odd it looks #Guys I’m not used to drawing metal that isn’t curved #I didn’t know where to put the highlights so I just shaded it like hair 😭😭#There’s a few other things I changed but all in all I tried to stick close to your vision #also that tire and his shoes took me awhile #Want you to know also that I sketched in bright magenta #fun fact I didn’t even ink the third panel #that one was very closely traced so the sketch was super clean and I didn’t wanna ink all those details #so I just turned it black and moved the layer up #I inked the Batmobile tho #This is probably gonna be the only page I do #Anyway y’all know that hyperfixation state where you draw for four hours straight and then suddenly you realize you’re starving and also —#have to pee super bad and you don’t even know what room to go in first?#Been awhile since I’ve been able to activate that

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iguessitsjustme · 4 months ago

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*takes you by the hand as gently as I can*

You can dislike Maya without turning her into a one dimensional villain that serves no purpose to the story.

You can dislike Maya without disparaging the story and message the show is trying to convey.

You can hate Maya without moralizing your hatred. You can just hate her. It’s okay.

#i hear the sunspot #hidamari ga kikoeru #im just so tired of people shitting all over maya because she’s not perfect #she is complex and nuanced and maybe if given more than. oh i don’t know. one episode? we will see the complexity and nuance that is there #we had 7 episodes to learn about how kohei handles losing his hearing and he was offered grace #and i need you all to understand that i also don’t fucking like maya #she is an unlikable character #but thats kind of the point #but everyone’s reaction to her just proves her incorrect point about how people treat others with disabilities #yall can just say she’s unlikable without saying she’s pointless and why is she even friends with kohei anyway #yall can just say she’s unlikable without questioning the entire show #i’m gonna need everyone to take a minute and just think. think about how young she is. think about what she is actively losing #think about WHY she is behaving this way before jumping down her throat because she isn’t the perfect disabled person #and genuinely i want you to sit with my next question for a minute. just sit with it. i don’t need to know your answer #whether its yes or no that is between you and yourself #but i need you guys to think #would you hate maya this much if her gender was swapped?#would you have the same issues with how she’s acting if she were a boy instead of a girl?#again i don’t need to know your answer #but if you think your answer might be no…i want you to examine that #anyway that’s all. be careful how you approach me in talking about this btw. cause i have had it with the treatment of maya #i don’t want to defend characters i don’t like but some of the takes i’ve seen are just plain wild y’all

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icelogged · 2 months ago

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Psalm 73:26, Psalm 46:10

hey uh i’ve been extremely unwell recently, was at the hospital for 12 hours last wednesday. um i’m genuinely worried about about my body being able to withstand the what is dubbed the “escalation of my symptoms”. so i just want to thank everyone for making this tumblr experience the best yet. thank you for treating me like a person and for your encouraging words.

for all the bodies in the pit for the knees on the floor and in bush that sides rural highways for all those in the lake those frozen by winter or frozen by freezer for those whom cling to the rock the ones burnt and those who never stopped screaming

i love you and it was never your fault. god loves you and it is the free will of man, our greed that has allowed for great evils to brand our backs and infect our lungs. you are meant to be here in this moment so please live. i hope life unfurls like a rose for you. it takes time. don’t let your anxiety or shyness bar you from opportunities. find the divine in simple pleasures.

#evidence of life #i know this is quite glib but don’t know what’s next and if my physical body can make it there #sucks the purpose of this blog my project sea legs never got to be in its live / active phase #anyways again this is not goodbye this is i genuinely don’t know if i’m waking up tomorrow this isn’t 2 scare anyone this is 2 say thank you #what’s a chill way to say that i didn’t go into detail about my illnesses n kinda fading fast like it’s not even ~me it’s my body giving out #this isn’t a suicide letter or my final words or something silly like that it’s that medically and physically idk what’s next #if you pray i’d appreciate prayer or if you’re spiritual in any way or keep people in your thoughts in a special way pls do so for me #it’s the end of our holiday but it isn’t goodbye !!#mwah #yeah i really don’t know how to write this without it sounding like fluttershy i think i’m gonna die soon sorryyyyy

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puppyeared · 2 years ago

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I made a lmk oc

#they’re supposed to be some sort of experiment to see if people could recreate Sun Wukongs stone egg. the goal was to make a more controlled #and tame version using carved wood and cultivation. but eventually they got worried about it becoming too powerful and scrapped it #eventually they come to life and live in the abandoned temple they were built in #their bottom half is made of wood because when they came to life their creator/s left them unfinished when they scrapped the project #they had to carve the rest of their body out of hunger and frustration because they couldn’t eat or move much by crawling on their top half #this is also why they spite their creators and hate irresponsible creation. because of abandonment issues and feeling like they have no #purpose or direction in life #their power is also very limited to due being man made since they were originally a wood carving #meo gave me the idea but one reason would be because they’re half finished. the sculpture was still half stump so it was completely untouche #that half can channel power in its raw form but the other half cannot once it’s been carved by man #so technically they could have the same level or potential for power as the stone but that was dampened #the other thing is how they were created to be a duplicate or recreation of a stone monkey and a celestial looked at that and was like #‘we’re not doing that again’ LMAO #i think the case of them carving their own legs doesn’t take away their power though. that balance was made #before they came to life so carving the legs or not can’t affect it anymore. like making a cake and slicing it #their energy levels are also naturally low because of that so their movements are sluggish and they aren’t very active overall #constantly lying in the sun to charge their batteries and get some stuff done. just like me fr #I actually don’t know what I’m gonna do with this character besides Put Them In Situations with other ppls ocs.. so if you have #a lmk oc you have been warned /lh /j #I wanna make some backstory art for them though.. maybe even the animatic treatment if I can get through dear wormwood which is 25 #SECONDS OUT OF 3 MIN BTW #doodles #Lego Monkie kid #lmk #Monkie kid #lmk oc #monkie kid oc #myart #my art #xin ya

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ahalliance · 1 month ago

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how do i turn qantoine’s spontaneous marriage proposal to qetoiles into evidence of his early-days fear of qfrench drifing away and keeping secrets from one another

#the conversation takes place in antoine’s vod: L’ANNIVERSAIRE DE TALLULAH at 41 mins ish #like . okay . its such a fucking crazy moment to me that still lives in my head bc it’s a a joke . but it’s also not #he asks etoiles directly after spiderbit wedding . ‘don’t you want to get married?’#after it gets mentioned*#etoiles turns him down bc he ‘doesn’t have time to fuck [he] needs to kill everyone’#and antoine says ‘well but— just a marriage’ like it’s the act itself that is the most important to him not anything that could come with it #the confirmation of partnership . of having someone to rely on . something that feels to him maybe more certain and solid than the #friendships antoine had at that point . like if he felt things were slipping and he was being left behind he wanted the certainty of #something like a marriage that is traditionally considered More important and certain .#and i think the end of their conversation is notable in how antoine brings up the notion of betrayal — he getting betrayed by others and how #he’s fed up with it . after etoiles says no to the marriage (though specifying that he’s gonna think about it) antoine brings the whole #betrayal thing up after a pause . he doesn’t necessarily consider etoiles as having betrayed him but it’s that lack of certainty #certainty that etoiles has refused to give him that makes him start to open up about how he’s tired of people promising him things (or #seeming to promise him things) only to leave him out and in the dark . and there’s an insecurity there that really shines if you take this #moment into consideration with the Larger Shifting his character is going through .#like tldr ; qantoine has begun to realise that his friends are starting to form deeper bonds with other people and thus keep secrets with #them which to him means leaving him behind . taking notice of this he brings this up to his friends in . not exactly direct ways . he #talks about how he doesn’t like secret keeping but doesn’t seem to push much further and he also tries to remedy the issue #of feeling left behind by doing shit as discussed above ^ however on account of the InHuman i’m not sure he understands what he’s doing very #well . and as we know antoine doesn’t make much progress and ends up retreating into himself and beginning to keep his own secrets . to do #his own shady shit . to work in the shadows and not be honest with any of his friends either . to hold them at arm’s length despite how much #he still cares . the only person he puts his full trust into anymore is pomme . not ayp who he deems too underhanded . not bagz who he sees #as having started the whole ‘secret keeping’ stuff in the first place . and not etoiles who’s actively going down a path with the codes and #resistance that he cannot follow #that was NOT a short tldr . why the fuck am i writing dissertation length tags about MINECRAFT BLOCKS #god whatever who cares i get joy out of this thats what matters #anw if you read this far holy shit ur insane . thank you #i am going to bed now godbless !#jay rambles #qfrench.posting

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dyketennant · 2 months ago

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oh i can already tell i’m about to have some really unpopular opinions about the edge of sleep tv show

#i remember everyone loving the podcast when it came out #but as someone who was an active fan of audio dramas and podcasts for years at that point the show just. made me frustrated #i realized later after listening to left right game that qcode has this very strange and almost uncanny production behind it #where they get incredibly famous actors to play characters and then bank their marketing on that alone #and the writing is always *almost* good. like sometimes you start to think you might actually be listening to a good show #bc i mean the audio quality and special effects are all stellar #but then the writing and acting is always just a little bit too over-the-top and dramatic for it to feel natural #like the writers don’t know how to portray emotion without visuals so they just make everything Way Too Intense #and each time it feels like they just ask ‘what’s the most insane thing that can happen next?’#’oh ok he’s gonna chop dave’s dick off’#and every time you start to actually like a character they say something misogynistic or just otherwise batshit fucking insane #not to mention that time in left right game where a girl confessed her love to her best friend before LITERALLY DYING FOR HER #only for the best friend in the next scene to be like ‘erm i’m not gay 😐 awkward…’ and she’s NEVER BROUGHT UP AGAIN #qcode productions are kinda like the fast fashion of fiction podcasts i think #they churn out so many so quickly and they always feel just slightly unnatural or superficial #not to mention when i tried looking into them years ago and it’s impossible to find #literally anything about them. like their minimalist ass website was so insanely insanely vague #and yet clearly they’ve gotta have a fuck ton of money backing them to have this absurd amount of a-list talent on board #(which really i think that is all they care about)#anyways yeah some markiplier fans are gonna get pissed at me for not kissing the ground he walks on. but i was one of you. i AM one of you #and i hate that somebody out there is holding the iron lung movie over us like we’re dogs and if we wanna watch it #we gotta watch this show. which BTW they are giving no details about where to watch it #and seemingly no promotion or marketing material for a show that’s been in production for years coming out in less than 3 weeks #just weird as fuck man. and i don’t even think mark has much to do with it

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itzshrike · 8 months ago

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Unpopular opinion but I want wrecker to have an arc/and or get seriously wounded. Because like almost every other bad batcher had episodes revolving around them but wrecker. He’s just the side character, but like just imagine he actually gets an episode solely focused on him. And I know last episode he kind of got to shine with Hunter and fennec but like I need more wrecker content people…

#star wars #the bad batch #tbb wrecker #tbb crosshair #tbb echo #tbb hunter #tbb omega #please let him get more screen time #I love my boy but he gets nothing #I want angst pain tears #the whole nine yards #gimme #if there is such an episode that I’m forgetting let me know!#I love wrecker so he gets to be put through the wringer #like I know realistically if someone’s gonna die or get seriously hurt it’s gonna be Hunter #but I can dream #shhhh we don’t talk about how his chip activated first #I need more than that tiny little episode

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ashmp3 · 2 months ago

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i think when i’m like 30 i either gotta be an extremely rich architect in a foreign country or i’m killing myself no in between i’m sorry

#also you know what i’ve been thinking. No one is going to find this interesting except grace #but it was my second profection year right and i really embodied it #and i’m gonna be 26 soon so third one is activated and it literally sounds so boring like zzzzz i’m ignoring that shiet. And i’m also #thinking how jeonghan will go through his saturn return or is probably already going through it… maybe not he just turned 29 but yeah.#anyway what else yeah i think i just need to drown myself in work and not enjoy life like truly 6H of me but be a machine i was born to be #and i will get lots of money + get satisfaction from work + feel less suicidal #but it’s HARD when all i’ve been thinking is whatever something for therapy but i don’t go so tumblr will hear about it #i think i need to have some off time from tumblr tbh #i did put shit in queue okay whatever this makes no sense it should probably be deleted or not even posted #tt

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great-tusk · 14 days ago

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ughhh I need to stop having mental breakdowns over little things.

#vent in tags #chat sesh with iris #vent #tw vent #I feel like everyone hates me and even you all hope I die and nobody likes my ships bc everyone thinks I’m not good enough for my f/os #and the worst part is that none of it is unfounded!!!#none of my friends are talking to me AT ALL anymore even when I start conversations #(including in text)#while they actively talk to other people WHERE I CAN SEE IT!!!#only one of my friends is and all they do is send me anti bs and go ‘omggg these people are so weird!!!’ about like anyone who ships with-#certain characters (including ones that I SHIP WITH!!! which is why I don’t talk about it other than here)#people are like ‘omggg… I hate it when men like these characters. you don’t get them and they’d never love you.’ about my f/os #which triggers dysphoria and self loathing and fear about my ships #tw suicidal ideation #<- somewhat #I don’t like anything about myself and I don’t deserve anything that I have #man. I don’t even want to be here anymore #also I have severe mental illness that has caused a lack of possibility for happiness that lasts longer than fleeting moments #I have not spoken (like aloud) to anyone other than my parents since THE THIRD!!!#I’m going to ask my psychiatrist for testosterone on Wednesday but idek if I’m gonna make it until then #probably I will because I’m too depressed to gather the energy to do it #also she might even say no or not be able to prescribe it #and this isn’t even why I’m the most upset rn but I REALLY need a win #also my mom was like ‘you haven’t given me another name so I’ll just keep calling you the name I gave you 😊😊😊.’ instead of. idk. asking me?#tw suicide #okay yeah the tag is fully warranted now #I like know how I’d do it and everything #I also had a panic attack because I couldn’t find my quilt hashtag just autism things!!!#not takeover #obviously

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iamanartichoke · 5 months ago

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There’s not enough discourse in the paranormal fandom about those of us who are such space cases that we could walk into the kitchen and find all the chairs stacked on top of the table in a manner that defies physics and either a) not notice, or b) notice and think, huh, I don’t remember doing that - maybe it was the cat?

#that poll reminded me of this #like good luck trying to haunt me with strange noises and shadows and so on #a shadow person could do the Macarena in my living room at 3am and it would just #blend into the background noise of golden girls on the tv #I have long wanted to write a story where a person lives in a haunted house #but they are adhd and also middle aged and tired #so they don’t notice the haunting #and the ghost who had been haunting this place for like hundreds of years #just does not know how to deal with this so they get really invested in the haunting #and the paranormal activity just steadily escalates to the point of absurdity #the main character will walk into a room and see shit like #‘get out!!’ scribbled on the walls in blood and be like #‘… uh. the fuck?’#and the ghost will be like ‘FINALLY JESUS CHRIST IVE BEEN TRYING TO GET YOUR ATTENTION FOR A YEAR AND A HALF’#and the narrator will be like ‘…. so are you gonna clean this or? bc I’m not losing my security deposit’#and the ghost is like ‘oh yeah sorry about that - the economy amirite?’#and the narrator is like ‘you have no idea’ and the ghost is like ‘yeah I do I’ve seen how you live’#anyway #this has been a quality post #paranormal #the Charlotte Lennox diaries #adhd artichoke

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futchmemes · 5 months ago

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when the disability is actually disabling and not just funny jokes

#personal #i haven’t been keeping up with applying for jobs #because i can’t do too many major activities at once #and since i had an internship my brain chose ‘internship and video games’ as the things #now i’m sweating in my parents’ house about to drop at least a week of time on the new ffxiv expansion while my mom has a panic attack #because she thinks i’m having a repeat of my 2018-2019 postgrad depressive episode and won’t apply for jobs #when actually i just couldn’t mentally handle doing three things at once instead of two #i don’t know how to explain this to her without it sounding like an insane lie #like i AM gonna do it. it’s just that i’m looking at my several hundred unread emails and shaking like an abused dog #i need to get out of here but that requires doing the apps and to do the apps i need to finish dawntrail and to finish dawntrail i need to #get her off my back by showing her progress and to do that i need to work on apps #i’m gonna throw up i hate it here (my brain)

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flowercrowngods · 5 months ago

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🕯️ please no sleep paralysis tonight 🕯️

#bitches be deteriorating!!! it’s me i’m bitches #when my friends left just now i had this harrowing haunting feeling of the paranoid fear of Not Being Alone #i’m probably really just tired from today and from not sleeping last night and spending the day in absolute panic mode so #it’s all chill we chill we don’t take our beta blockers tonight so our body can feel its pulse lmao #anyway i love how strong i am just pushing through but also telling my friends about the current state to give them the chance of being #gentle with me and also take care of me. and they dooo.#anyway i’m gonna pass out soon and will probably have to activate the ‘taking care of myself as though i were a little child’ mode and #honestly?? that’s very okay and fine and valid. i know the drill i know i will live and make it out of this alive

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faithfromanewperspective · 2 months ago

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’why is taylor friends with the mahomes when brittany isn’t nice to her and also they support trump’ she knows that. both of these things. she’s just not letting the bully her out of their group of friends that’s also hers and actually existing around people who see politics differently to you is the most effective way to help them soften towards seeing things another way when they realise you’re just as human too

#of course it doesn’t mean you have to put yourself through spending time with shitty people #but I’m seeing people say she doesn’t know what brittany tweets and I highly doubt that #girlie knows how to play the high school social systems and unfortunately when you’re famous being in your 30s is still Like That #and also for a billionaire to support people who don’t build their policies on protecting your privilege? ik we don’t like billionaires but #just think for a moment what it must look like to see if you’re also a billionaire because some of them are gonna think she’s insane for it #either way hanging out in the same circles with someone doesn’t mean you condone everything they do #and in the event where she’s oblivious and thinks they’re genuinely friends or a number of other scenarios?#she’s still a grown woman who can make her own decisions and does have people around her should a backstabbing event occur #but I want to reiterate my last point again. the only reason people are so right wing is because they don’t ever meet normal people #and consider the needs of like. most of the population #so anyone who can stand to break into their bubble and stay themselves is actually doing more good than we realise #and there’s more to be said about *other causes* but just like her post was targeted at potential swing voters #the reason she knows these people so well to be able ro target rhem is that she does have some overlapping circles with them #and weeding that out does more of a disservice to activism. no comment on the impact on her (or your) mental health #but keep that in mind when you don’t know whether the people you hang out with are good people all the time #taylor swift #brittany mahomes #patrick mahomes #usamerican politics #anti purity culture

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supergraphicultramoderngirl · 13 days ago

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aaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#brain is being weird again. i miss the person i thought you were before i found out how truly truly horrible you are #but that person doesn’t exist! i never met them because they aren’t real!#i just wanna meet my person yk. like yeah i don’t want to be in a relationship bc that sounds exhausting but also #it wouldn’t be exhausting if it was my person. i wanna know someone. i wanna learn how someone works.#i wanna take care of someone and be taken care of without asking.#and like the thing is is i definitely have my people in my friends like i already have them in this way #and i appreciate that so so much which is why i won’t settle for anything less ever again and why i’m no longer actively seeking something #but i really do just miss clicking that well with someone right off the bat. and i know most of it was probably 1) me being lied to and 2)#me trying to make myself palatable for him #but i haven’t felt that truly blatantly appreciated in a long time #i just wish that fate would work a little faster at putting my person into my lap is all #i’m not even gonna say that it doesn’t have to be The Person i’ll end up with and can just be One Of the people along the way #because now that feels like settling and if the universe doesn’t want me to settle then i won’t #and i’m not trying to be impatient because i know that it’ll happen when it’s supposed to and i can’t force anything #i just want it to happen so badly. i want to have my cute love story. i want to have it last longer than a week. in a good way this time.#and i know i vent a lot about this in my tags but this time feels different #i just want what is supposed to happen to happen. and i want to feel comforted knowing that it will.#i just need a sign that it’s gonna happen someday so i don’t lose my mind waiting for it #that i’m in the right place. and i’m right where i’m supposed to be #idk. i just know i don’t deserve to feel alone anymore. especially when i know i’m not.#this feels like a prayer. maybe it is. whatever.#mari is irrelevant

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nightmareonpeachstreet · 20 days ago

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Auto-combat games with 15 different microquests that repeat over and over again for the rest of time making the game a never ending tutorial my beloathed

#I try to play these types of games occasionally #because I’m bored and I’ll download anything from the app store if it catches my attention #but god they are truly the fucking worst #why you would make an entire game out of everyone’s least favorite part of a game — though it is necessary — is beyond me #the only one I’ve ever played that I could stand for more than like 3 days was one about being a little mushroom creature #possibly not the one you’re thinking of. not the one about marrying an entire town (which I don’t think I would qualify in this genre)#like. these games aren’t so bad if the quests are progression based #but the really shit ones will endlessly ask you to do miniscule amounts of boring tasks #like doing a 10 pull on a weapon summons despite you having way more tickets for it than that #and then ask you to come back to claim ur quest reward and hand u the next microquest #and all of these are considered separate tasks so instead of tracking how many summons u’ve done and marking your progress so u can just —#— do as many as ur gonna do and then you can turn in for that number of quest rewards #ur just endlessly going back and forth between menus. bored out of your mind and wondering when the game will stop dragging you along thru—#— this goddamn tutorial #but then eventually you realize the whole fucking game is that way #like I don’t know if they’re trying to actively worsen my attention span #or if they’re trying to set up the world’s laziest dopamine farm #(spoiler alert it’s probably both. cause worse attention span will make u more reliant on dopamine)#anyway I fucking hate these games I really need to stop giving them a chance #like I said the ones that are progression based and will track ur progression regardless of where you are in the quest chain —#— not that bad. can actually be fun #turn-in based ones?? actually the devil’s armpit. stinky. bad #ok I’m done ranting

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