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i swear if they don't make one of those cute kit plushies once twp comes out i'm sueing
#like i NEED that in my room u don’t understand#i need little mini kit to stare at me from my bed and judge whatever i’m doing (rereading the chapter a million times probably)#BHT FUCK I WANT HIM#kit herondale#cassandra clare#the dark artifices#the wicked powers#tda#twp#tsc
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i hope arlecchino is actually evil and not fake evil “oh no it was all a misunderstanding actually” i need actually wicked female antagonists that have no redemption arcs bc they never thought they were wrong.
#don’t say kafka bc she isn’t doing it for me#honestly she’s more like just doing whatever she wants#than actually antagonistic#in honkai star rail that is#i need playable characters that have done grievous harm and are NOT sorry about it#genshin impact#arlecchino#i also hope the guy that seems to be the judge in court is those really black and white type of characters#i hope genshin finally gets creative with their character building and not the same old#everyone is good yada yada#it’s so plain#WHERES THE RANGE ???
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this is suuuch a stretch but now that the wonderland sekai has a confirmed ocean and islands i ALMOST want them to accidentally sail into the empty sekai’s body of water and freak out.
if that’s even possible in the lore. idk i haven’t read a good portion of the vsinger events where they talk about the lore soooo
but like… think about it. after they finish the first round of world link events for all the units i have NO idea what they’re going to do with that event type. coincidentally the vsinger wl (estimated for august) is in line with the 4th anni, and it sort of makes sense that the sekais could potentially connect and lots of stuff happens before 5th anni (usually a good milestone if i’m going off bandori). the only good scenario i have in mind is yk… GROUP SHUFFLES! SEKAI COLLISIONS OR SOME SHIT!! MULTI GROUP COVERS which i know they said they weren’t going to do unless for special occasions but like??
and also im aware that pjsk as it is is actually doing pretty well without doing group shuffle covers and stuff like bandori (by this i mean like the general election special songs like catastrophe banquet) and each of the groups don’t actually NEED that connection with the other groups… but come on. it’d be neat.
*noclips through the floor*
#project sekai#karamell yells#very big yell but like. mainly focus on my first sentence okay its been bothering me#GHGGG sorry i’ve been in a huge bandori re-phase recently#and i freaking LOVE the concept of the girls band party and d4fes and love live and enstars’ ss contest#so its. weird? that sekai doesn’t have a huge group event to look forward to yet??#like even starira has the arcana arcadia thing?#don’t you find it?? so strange??#likee the only thing that could potentially suffice is if vivid bad squad manages to do their huge event with ALL OF THE GROUPS#AND WITHIN THE GAME TIMELINE preferably before 6th anni if we judge by bandori’s timing#and that’s not even considering how they’d incorporate/explain the multiple sekai thing???#and!! niigo doesn’t perform live anyway… YET 👀👀👀👀#but i think it’d start with the sekai connecting first since that’s the whole game’s gimmick#WHATEVER#wxs sails into the empty sekai by accident. that was my point.
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there r fics that make u insane (so amazingly good it’s removed ur sanity) and then there’s fics that make u insane (you need to fistfight the author for how they did a specific thing that caused u to rant for hours)
#i know i just posted that other thing but ffs that is NOT how u handle someone in that situation everyone involved made everything 10x worse#yet it’s being treated like the right thing to do (which again ofc they’re cops they don’t understand harm reduction but still) like#seriously everything’s so forceful like u seriously think forcing ur friend to talk to u or forcing a patient to talk to a therapist under#the threat of being admitted to a psychiatric hospital is gonna make her feel comfortable talking to u? or anyone? she’s just gonna trust u#less and get better at hiding it and speaking of which the taking away all sharp objects thing makes sense in theory but like think abt it#for a minute she confirmed she isn’t suicidal and this is her only way of coping so do not just forcibly take away all her coping mechanism#like yes she is hurting herself but it’s a COPING MECHANISM. she’s coping with something. help her with that don’t just take away her penci#sharpers or whatever (which btw since she’s an adult she could easily buy more stuff and yk learn to hide it better) which again has to be#voluntary it isn’t gonna work if u force someone to do smthn they don’t want to like as ur friend u could’ve made it clear u care abt her#and wouldn’t judge her for anything and r here if she wants to talk don’t just say “you have to talk to me” and casually threaten#hospitalisation when she isn’t ready in the moment like seriously if this wasn’t a badly written fanfic she would completely stop trusting#bcz given that this wasn’t even done out of panic i would like ffs u are NOT doing any of this right#oops sorry ranted abt the bad fic in my tags-#it’s not where the author’ll see it and know it’s about them i don’t feel bad abt it#this was my first time even looking at stuff for this fandom so#cw self harm in tags#idk if i need to tag anything else for that 😭#fanfic#ao3#ryan shut the fuck up
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got the posting anxiety bad tonight
#click clack#ok a peak into my thought process and anxiety here we go#ok so the art is almost done and up to standard I would post onto my art blog#BUT for some reason the thought of posting art of my ocs there scares me#because even tho it’s my art blog in my mind it’s the equivalent to a art gallery that demands being detached????? from the art#like once I share it there it’s no longer ‘mine’ but to the public#and my ocs (plus the stories that go with them) are like the closest to my heart and relinquishing them feels like a lot#a part of my imagination that I spent so much time with developing over the years to be placed up for judgement…#so then the solution could be to put it here on my personal! the online space cozy enough and filled with other posts that could easily bury#the original posts I put here#but there goes my other dilemma. i don’t want them too associated with my personal for if one day i do muster up something for publication#my big fear is that ppl will find this space and go thru everything. the fear of being perceived and judged 😵💫#all the hypotheticals and anxiety for something that may not even happen#dumb mind problems my head made up 🙄#anyway writing it out helped lol I’m posting it to my art blog I decided 👍#I have to work on getting that blog to be comfortable space to post… i should lower that silly self imposed standard I set for myself#and be whatever about ppl being aware of my online presences#maybe… [grinding my teeth] I should post my messy sketches onto my art blog…#I should take my friends suggestion and make a website to feature my ocs…🤔#idk my only other solution that doesn’t feel viable to mitigate the anxiety is to slowly introduce my ocs in the background of setting art#just a slow drip until they are in the forefront#bleghhh whatever much ado about nothing it’s like I never posted my ocs ever when I have indeed posted them before on both places ( º_º )#I’m realizing it happens too when I post too much fanart in a row… I have curator disease??? 🫨#or something I used to be very particular about what order I reblog stuff like it used to be by color and content balanced out#I still do to a lesser degree… but it used to be pretty bad#post order compulsion????#the fear of being abrupt and incohesive in between posts…#if you read this far thanks you can now see how much this consumes me 🙃
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“omg people are putting pressure on my favorite celebs to show support for Palestine 😔” good????
#if bullying internet celebrities is what it takes to raise thousands of dollars in charity drives then I see zero issue with that.#I often lurk on Dan and Phil twt (don’t judge me this is a safe space) and Phil just announced that they’re doing a charity fundraiser#for pcrf in a few days#and their fans are criticizing the people who were pressuring them to speak out#like??? they are massively influential with a young-ish audience. they SHOULD be speaking out#maybe they were originally planning on doing that maybe they weren’t and just wanted to get people off their backs#either way it’s a net good and I don’t see the issue with pestering people who have a large platform#it’s also kind of out of touch of them to post during strike week and also have an audible sponsorship but. whatever
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You know, if this conflict was a movie you would easily figure out who the protagonist is. These nations slap on a few labels ‘religious conflict’ ‘terror*sm’ ‘antisem*tism’ ‘self defense’ and suddenly we can’t see what’s right in front of us.
Open your eyes people. Do your own personal research. Don’t just believe what you see. This is your chance to actually dig up the issue from both sides and figure out what’s going on.
#don’t judge a book by its cover#friends open the book pls. find out for yourself#if you were a colonizer in this day and age and the people whose resources you control and limit started fighting against you#I guarantee you 3000% you will easily stick a label on them to rationalize your behavior#you will find what scares people the most (barbarians/terrorists/communists)#and you will stick that label on those people fighting your oppression#because people are simple. one label is enough to blind them#don’t be blinded pls open your eyes#and whatever stance you take afterwards is your decision#but seeing people using these labels to defend actions. friend you need to peel back the label and find the truth#it’s there I promise the label has been hastily slapped onto it#we are intelligent beings we can do our own research. we are in the age of technology#please#unrebloggable because it’s just for people who follow me#If you follow me then please do this for me. look up the issue. see both sides. just this once while this conflict is everywhere#do the normal civilians dying in the conflict your due diligence. because we’re just normal people. we can’t put an end to it immediately#but we owe the people. as fellow human beings#to at least learn their story#Palestine genocide
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#hello everyone how are you?#I hope everything is doing alright! from my part I can say life is treating me well lately#and I feel very light and okay#I am here mainly to get things straight#I saw an anon going around some other blogs talking about me#saying I am an hater and I shouldn’t be writing larry fics#I think this is the same anon that I blocked some weeks ago#because they told me I should not use Harry for clout (????)#and I want to say only one thing because I don’t care of defending myself on this website anymore and that is#it’s not clout and it’s not easy#being a (new) writer here is not easy because people don’t care what you do and there is definitely not clout around me#im not using harry to gain anything#if anything I am constantly questioning whether I am somehow good at writing silly stories and putting myself out there for people’s judg#*judgement. and I promise you it’s not always nice#especially when this place doesn’t like people who you don’t always agree with#especially when you are blocked by half of this side of fandom (larries because I had said something in the past that they didn’t like)#louies because im a larrie ergo I hate louis (???) and harries because i dont care about Harry as much as they do#so no I am not ashamed of writing and I am not ashamed of writing giving my characters#(that rarely have anything to do with H/L irl) thei#their names and physical features#and honestly people like you anon should definitely stop to play this stupid game of fandom police#deciding who can read what and who can write what#because this actions only affect new writers in the way that#they will be alienated. they will feel alienated#and this whatever this fandom is shouldn’t be about that#ever. you don’t know what people go through every fucking day#you definetely dont know how this sort of silencing mission you have going on#will affect people on the internet and their mental health#stop defending the imaginary people you think H/L are and start treating people in this fandom as actual human beings#and since you probably would like to know this: I am not currently working on any project because i am fucking scared of reaction like this
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oh my god just saw a truly horrible post. save me competent corner of the dc fandom
#shooting myself btw.#previously on: people who are legitimately proud of not having read comics and think criticizing fanon for being wildly out of character#is like. being negative or whatever#‘i don’t care that it’s out of character I can do whatever i like the best ’#YOU DONT CARE THAT ITS OUT OF CHARACTER?? HUH??????#SO YOU AGREE. THATS NOT THE SAME CHARACTER.#wtf are you all onnnnnn#shut the FUCK up. YOU DONT KNOW THOSE GUYS!#THOSE ARE NOT THE REAL GUYS!#YOU DONT KNOW THEM LIKE I KNOW THEM!! RAHHHHH#I’ve been living in our blissful little comic loving corner for so long that i lost tolerance for bad takes#‘i don’t judge people who do read the source material BUT’ <- an argument i just saw with my own two eyes#PLEASE.#‘there’s no wrong way to be a fan this is just the way that works for me’#i mean sure but. why#you. you do know you are not an authority in those characters if you have never read the source material right#you do know you arent somehow better than people who actually read the comics right.#you do know the characters are extremely different basically unrecognizable and way more compelling in canon. right#ASJKENWKDKWKFJSLDJ. anyway
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#probably have to change meds 🙃#idk i think i’m just a pessimist bc i always just assume that trying another med is a dead end#and that the side effects will probably be worse than whatever i’m experiencing now#but i’m also such a terrible judge of these things bc i’ve spent my whole life suffering bc of incurable disabilities#hard to stay hopeful with all that#just a month ago i was trying to address my anxiety :(#and my gastritis wasn’t an issue#and my other things weren’t issues#now my anxiety is at an all time high i have a bunch of side effects from the epilepsy meds#and i think my gastritis is flaring up#like god i can’t keep doing this i feel!!!! i keep trying to hope for better and dreaming of better#but i hate this suffering and i feel like no one has confidence that i can achieve my dreams#i love my parents and they love me but i don’t think they really think i can do it. be successful as a screenwriter#and i know that it’s the mood swings but how many times can i watch my life is murder how many times.#how long will popping on an episode every time i get anxious work? how long until i get better#rambling#anyways. sigh. life sucks rn for me what’s new
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declared my minor 😌🫡
#bro apparently they like . email you the congratulations on declaring ur minor or whatever and fucking cc profs for it LMAO#the advisor asked me if i particularly wanted any profs i took classes with or anything to receive it and i was like 😀 how bout none LOL#like not bc i don’t like them or anything bc the profs for my minor have been the coolest profs#but i don’t talk in class that much bro lmaooo like why do they care that i declared the minor 😭#it’s also like being perceived and judged even tho i know that’s only in my mind XD#bc i’m declaring this hella late LOL couldve just done it at the end of the semester and then it would’ve been just a like#congrats on finishing the minor kinda thing XD#i have alr taken one more class in the minor than i thought i did so im done w the minor after this sem 🤩#also it’s like a little embarrassing to me bc i have class w two profs who they cc’ed later today LOL#so like ik it’s not late to declare a minor and i could have declared later and it doesn’t matter bc i’m finishing it#but i’m just like omg everyone knows i’m sooo late in declaring my minor lol idk ANYWAY#jeanne talks#anyway gotta do my readings for that class i have later today that’s for my minor LOL
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Dude sexuality is so crazy like. I’m absolutely 100% bi and I consider myself bi and tell everyone im bi because I AM bi. It’s just how I feel! However I’m definitely (by the definitions of the terms) pan by technicality because it’s like, don’t care as much about the gender just ✨ people ✨ but I don’t consider myself pan in any means. It’s ALSO crazier because I don’t like the bi flag (not a fan of cool toned colors) and adore the pan flag but like. I’m not pan lmao ITS SO CONTRADICTORY I LOVE IT
#I think actually wait while writing this I’ve had a breakthrough#obviously labels are made up and you can do whatever#but I feel like (going by vibes) bi people (me) DO view attraction with regards to gender#like they can obviously be attracted to and ARE attracted to people who do not go by binary#I feel like that in my case I definitely view gender as a way to judge my attractiveness if that makes sense#but the pan vibes are more ‘attraction REGARDLESS of gender’#which I don’t have those vibes so I feel more bi#I’m probably just making shit up but I’m a logical person and my logic brain likes this explanation so honestly just ignore me#I am 100% not an expert and if you consider me one I’m so sorry for your loss go read a book#(talking to you bestie)#anyways don’t even get me STARTED on gender
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I’m really gonna try to go to my writing group tomorrow even tho my brain has decided everyone there hates me!
#I have two friends there that I know like me but they’re both out of town#and the rest of the group I feel like is too cool for me or is just too different from me#like a lot of them are yoga meditation rock climbing hippies and I support that or whatever but it’s not my scene#and they all bond over their hippiness and I feel like I just don’t fit#and they’re the kinda ppl who I feel like judge me for being introverted and spending a lot of time at home#like they’re always doing stuff and going out and going to classes and trying new things#and I wanna be home before dark to watch a show that will rot my brain and do a puzzle yknow?#anyways I’m gonna go and try to convince myself they don’t hate me and try to remind myself of the things we DO have in common#wish me luck
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ok hi. not to be stupid about this publicly once again but it’s 5:34 am [update it is now 5:53 am] and i have gotten absolutely HORRIBLE sleep tonight. first bc i was so stressed that i couldn’t fall asleep until 1:30am. then because my sister is sleeping in our room again (long story) which is good for her bc she’s making progress w her ocd but it means that she comes in with h the flashlight on after 2am and has to check the room and she leaves the bedroom door wide open which distorts the white noise from the sojnd machine which is right in front of my bed. and she’s like laughing at stuff on her phone too so all the subtleties of sound and light disrupt me and wake me up and throw me off. and also it’s freakishly hot so i woke up a couple times bc of that. and now im awake at 5:30ish after barely sleeping for 4 hours bc im stressed bc it’s Passover and my moms bday and im leaving work early today and tomorrow for the “””””Seder””””” (which again literally is not a seder it’s just dinner w my grandpa) and barely have time to get anything done at work and haven’t done anything for my mom and have to clean the house for my grandpa to come over and we literally don’t even have a dinner table yet likr idkw aht the fuck we’re going to do.. and also im fucking STARVING. because guess what!!!! we have to stop eating bread!!!! and i usually have 4 slices with avocado / guac on them before i go to sleep but there were only 4 slices left in the whole house so i had 2 so my brother will get to have the other 2 during the day. and my stomach is howling rn. and we have other things to eat like fruit and stuff but nothing that’s not going to throw me off.. like im not about to eat an orange at 5:30am it’s going to set my throat on fire with the acid this early in the morning. and we don’t have any snack foods in this house or like anything that can be made without having to prepare it for a while bc of our diet (lol). and we don’t have any flatbread or tortillas or whatever yet. so im going fucking crazy and feeling resentful abt passover again and wondering what the hell im going to do going into work and not being able to eat bagels for breakfast after not being able to eat my bedtime snack and being this hungry and stressed and miserable for a week on top of everything else. lol
#purrs#food#religion tw#(sorry lol)#delete later#ive had a lot of conversations in the last few days (some of them w other jewe) and everyone’s assuring me it’s fine if i keep eating bread#if it’s for health reasons and im not going to experience kareth for that. esp bc i already do things on the kareth list and also gay sex is#on there too and there’s a lot of stuff on there abt ppl being impure for having their periods too so.. just my two sent’s but i think thats#all fucking insane and a clear sign that those rules were not made by god and that they were made by prejudiced human beings. bc i believe#in spinozas god i think. and spinozas god would not punish humans for being humans. and would not want humans to suffer and suppress#themselves out of worship. though im not saying that you shouldn’t suffer or suppress yourself or whatever or find meaning in that if you#want to like im thinking abt Yom Kippur and stuff. but idk. im so conflicted. i stirred up this whole big crisis for myself about being#jewish and it’s very embarrassing and i don’t want to die or doom my future children or go to hell or whatever but apparently that’s already#gonna happen to me for like.. not observing shabbat and almost certainly cutting fruit during Shabbat so. whatever. but continuing to eat#bread during Passover feels like a totally different thing to me. but also i know actual jewish ppl who do not observe passover and i don’t#judge them for that or think they’re doomed to kareth. so idk. it’s all so fucked up. i want to be full and i want to go back to sleep and i#want to stop worrying about religion and constantly being afraid im invoking cosmic consequences for living my life and wanting to make#choices that feel good for me. bc it s already so fucking hard to make choices when im worried abt my moms judgment and trying to not hurt#my family ang more than i already do by existing and feeling my way. bringing god into it too is a whole other level of distress and misery
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i feel like i need a good cry. like just absolutely sobbing my eyes out, unable to catch my breath, headache inducing cry. (goes on about my day as normal)
#(venting in the tags haaaa)#average emotion in my head for meeeeee#like i’m worrying about my future again. normal atp.#but i’m also starting to feel shame about myself specifically my sexuality again bc. idk.#it just makes me feel really lonely.#my family is like. weird about it ig. but it’s like valid concerns.#‘be proud but not too proud!’ yknow. like yeah don’t be ashamed of who you are but also don’t be open to anyone about it ever or else#they might hate you or not wanna hire you (big one) but don’t let anyone judge you!!!!#mainly it’s my mom w/ this me and my dad just don’t. talk about it.#last time we did it was during an argument and it was like ‘you have time to figure out you’re a lesbian but not about your future’#type thing. like mind u i didn’t even wanna come out to him.#but their concerns are valid like obviously. i gotta focus on my future. wtf i’m gonna do. and ik my sexuality is gonna. but idk#like i’m black and a woman you think that’s not gonna hinder my job opportunities also?? whatever who cares#anyway. ENOUGH VENTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?!?! THE WEEKEND IS ALMOST HEREEEE#my text
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mom is bitching at me how i need to wear short sleeves TOMORROW, and just get over it
#‘you NEED to wear them tomorrow’ or what.#youre gonna take my phone away? im just AnXioUs and need to get the fuck over it?#woman youre lucky i dont fucking take my car and leave. youre lucky i don’t disappear without a trace.#‘we love you and dont care and dont judge!’ i understand that. i do.#but sometimes that just doesnt matter. you can say that to me all you want and ill always have a voice saying otherwise!#i cant just get over this hump. i dont know how to explain it to you but i just cant. its not that simple.#i cant just.. get up and get moving like you want me to. i dont know how to tell you that im absolutely fucking exhausted.#‘youve been taking a break for 6 weeks now’ and? i worked my ASS OFF. FOR 5 FUCKING YEARS STRAIGHT. I DESERVE A BREAK!#IVE EARNED A GODDAMN BREAK. IVE EARNED A FUCKING SUMMER OFF. THIS IS MY FIRST SUMMER OFF IN 5 GODDAMN YEARS WOMAN#i dont care if you think im being lazy. im sorry i dont work the same fucking way you do! but thats a you issue!#‘you need to get your life together’ WELL I DONT WANT TO! I DONT WANT TO RIGHT NOW! I WANNA BE A STUPID COUCH BUM!#i basically just learned that EVERYTHING. I WORKED FOR! IS USELESS! i pushed myself to the edge a constant amount of times over the past 5-#years for NOTHING. because i am incapable of doing anything without someone telling me to or holding my hand.#how do you expect me to know what to do with my fucking life when the life i thought i always had was just shattered?#ive trailed off my planned path! i didnt plan for this! i never thought it could happen! i thought id be PERFECT!#imagine being told your entire life how smart and capable you are only to fail right as someone isnt holding your hand anymore.#just#whatever man. if i dont wanna wear short sleeves i wont. if i dont wanna go outside i wont.#i didnt want to interact with the world anyways. especially after finding out that i dont fit in whatsoever.
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