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anonymouscheeses · 4 months

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They are everything to me.

#hyperixating on THESE two is kinda painful. like wdym half the fandom doesnt like them. they are so awesome??? sickos...#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel charlie #charlie hazbin hotel #hazbin charlie #vaggie #hazbin hotel vaggie #vaggatha #hazbin vaggie #charlie x vaggie #vaggie x charlie #hazbin #chaggie #rainbowmoth #varlie #fallenstar #its always the wlw ships too. like wdym yall d ride mlm??? it be the 12 yr old girls too 😒 /hj #charlie ass? yes pls. also yes i gave charlie a tail. i always give random characters tails if i think they deserve it #i think..... i think im getting better at anatomy guys 😨 (im delulu)#definitely better than my first chaggie posts if yall remember that 😭 oh how i have improved for real... maybe ill make a improvement post #i jst wanted to draw ass bro. i know thats not how psnts work #i want tjem both to be so in love eith eachother that it makes me sick. genuinely please let them be such freaks rhat it makes ne bleed #also can i jst saw how annoying those shoulder pads are?? WHY DO ALL THE MEN + CHARLIE HAVE THEM. MAKE HER DIFFERENG SHES THE MC???#omg i just noticed it looks like shes grinding on her knee. ignore that. but maybe she is who knows?? 😝#dynamic pose test. i think its alroght but i still have stuff to improve... im practing 😈#ugh i just want more charlie being madly in love with Vaggie. not you guys. you guys are doing great mwa mwa /p but i mean the show! like #wheres charlie being lovey to vaggie?? shes literally the embodiment of love why cant she show idk... MORE to vaggie? i 💜 chaggie but... ☹️#gay people make me sick /j #yes. charlie IS lovey to Vaggie.. but.... idk its not to the life sacrificing extent like vaggie does? idk maybe i want fan service like 🤨#OH like charlie going demon mode for vaggie. FINALE DONT COUNT. she already was demon mode. i need vaggie almost DEAD and char swoops in id

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naamahdarling · 2 months

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#sid still isn't doing well #he improved briefly but isn't eating again #and i don't know how much more can even be done #im so afraid we will lose him too #im not sure what to do besides hope the vet has some new ideas because I sure don't #he's just a weird little guy #a gay little cryptid #a handsy little freak #he's never done anything bad #he doesn't deserve this at all #i mean no cat does but like...come the fuck on #i can't handle going from 4 to 1 so fast #where are my fucking boys?#where's my guys?#my dudes?#it's so quiet in here why did everyone leave?#i hate everything about this

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chiquilines · 10 months

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Miryumi uni au!! Its been ages since ive drawn them and uni aus are so dear to my heart

#theyre the cutest #jock x nerd is peak relationship dynamic #except rumi is kind of a nerd too since she does medicine #she just doesnt show it as much #fuyumi on the other hand is totally glasses-wearing-book loving-muttering-tripping over her feet nerdy #she is the stereotype #and because i project onto her every so slightly although shes doing psych she still has a strong love for math #on a theoretical level #she does psych because she wants to be the therapist her and her family needed #btw #and rumi i mean obviously rugby captain #rugby fits her so well #and medicine makes sense to me because of how she improved a tourniquet when she was beating up the nomus #shed probably specialize in sport injuries #im kinda wishing id given her a prosthetic now #for backstory purposes #making my own headcanons about my AUs😭 bitch i am the canon #anyways #them<3 #fuyumi todoroki #rumi usagiyama #mirko #miryumi #mha #bnha #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #wlw #chiquilines draws

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mellotronmkll · 11 days

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Once again just find it really rich that people claim this is like the autistic website meanwhile everyone is mean as fuck about people actually having autistic traits

#but it does come from a fundamental misunderstanding of what autism actually is like like #im not sure why but people on this site seem to think autism just means youre normal but like smart and have intense interests and thats al #it means or something . and then are like if you find socializing painful and have trouble maintaining friendships have you considered that #youre just a pathetic person?????#its frustrating too cos i really am trying to improve all these aspects of my life but im also trying to stop judging myself for strugglin #with them in the first place!!!!!! because thats literally just something i have no control over i can only control how i choose to cope #and like deal with it #but idk this idea of like well im autistic but not like those annoying gross autistic people who like lame baby suff and dont go outside .#its just like Rolls my eyes i dont know like .... sure whatever

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kkoct-ik · 3 months

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im so normal (went to the gym for the first time yaaay. did high intensity yoga with lots of middle aged women yaaay. booked my doctors appointment for my painkiller refill yaaay. gonna do grocery shopping with flatmate yaaay. will probably go home and draw soushin before im back at the gym this evening and then conk out)

#kostik speaks #i booked a bunch of gym shit this week just so i can try out all the classes and see which ones i want to commit to #but it does mean it looks like im maxxing out my membership like nobodys business #my membership pays for itself if you have one class a week. i have one class a Day this week #my brains a bit frazzled because im mentally ill but im committing. its ok #im in my cool adult arc even if im a very mentally ill adult #also thank god i can get my painkillers refilled i am Literally on my last one #this is what improvement looks like #body improvement. fight on. fight on. fight on

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britneyshakespeare · 1 month

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i know i've been very culty on here about period underwear and reusable period products in general whenever i've brought up the topic in the last year or so but i mean it sincerely. i have never spent my money on a product that just simply improved my life so much. game-changing isn't even the beginning of it. i look forward to how much better my periods are now since i no longer have to depend on gross disposables. period underwear is the shit

#the best thing is it doesn't even feel wet. it doesn't even feel wet #like when you're a kid and you're new at it and all you can think about is how much you dont wanna be on your period anymore #and how much you wanna go back to just wearing your underwear like a normal day #with period underwear. you're just wearing underwear. and it DOES feel like a normal day #menstruation cw #other than y'know you're continuously bleeding and maybe you have cramps or whatever #other than having a kinda swimsuity texture (cant think of a better way to describe it) it just feels like underwear #it's JUST underwear #tales from diana #i mean im not even on my period rn although i am getting closer to it #i just bought ordered some new stuff and once this comes in. i'll be disposable-pad free forever #like i could cry about that #including some cloth pads (ive never tried them before)#i figured i could keep one or two of those in my purse or whatever for emergencies #the ONLY (and i mean only) inconvenient thing about period underwear is that it's much less convenient to just change or put on in public #on light or moderate days for me at least they can last the whole day. on heavy days it's good to change every 12 hours #and i can typically depend on doing that at home #but if i have a cloth pad for emergencies then i never have to rely on a disposable EVEN IN THE CASE that my period comes unexpectedly.#i mean it like i'm genuinely excited about this #i have only mentioned it a handful of times to friends in the year-plus that i bought that first pair of thinx #but i would literally buy any of my friends who menstruate a pair or a pack if they asked #like im very passionate about what a life improvement it has been #why do you think i'm always vag-angelizing about it these days?

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eorzeashan · 5 months

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I find it incredibly hilarious that Eight not only was forcibly retired from being Outlander because he got too murder-y with it, but was relegated to trying out assistant work for Theron because everyone deemed him to have at least a moral backbone with which to allow Eight to get a second opinion off of (and hopefully grow his own). Which results in situations like either Theron getting in trouble and his ever-capable assistant whom was assumed to be a pencil pusher suddenly being revealed to be the former Outlander who disappeared from the role, or Eight himself being targeted as a liability to Theron and then said attackers finding out, unfortunately, that Theron's assistant is a much better fighter than him and why does the Alliance have someone like this doing secretary work.

Zakuul learns to be wary of anyone they assume to only be administrative personnel, lest they be secret assassins and former Ciphers, of all people.

#swtor #ooc #eight is the battle maid of secretary work #idk why im sharing this but it does make me snicker.#but yeah the alliance decides that Eight has done enough damage as outlander and lana entrusts theron with directing him #since she fails at doing so with bloodier consequences due to their bad combination of pragmatism and means to an end justification #eight himself gets to rest and do menial intelligence work which is largely just helping without being in the field as much #and his mental health does improve because they take him aside and go hey. you don't need our acceptance. but if you'd like to start over #and be someone else that isn't our weapon we'd like to try again. because the alliance is more than this and we were wrong #and i think lana trusts theron of all people to oversee it this time *bc* of what happened in rishi #that where her pragmatism fails and costs her friends dearly he can take up the helm #but more than that it's also eight's choice to put down the sword. to clean off the blood. to try again. this time next to people

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piplupod · 3 months

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feels like the isolation is a gushing wound and going to the centre is just a small bandage. i think perhaps i am not really ever going to feel okay unless something miraculous happens. i am retaining some semblance of sanity now that I'm leaving the house and socializing with non-family more than once a week, but i am still hurting more than I can really tolerate and I don't know what to do about it. there doesn't seem to be a fix for this that I can enact.

#part of me wonders if going to the centre is helping or hurting more #but i think it's definitely helping more. however it is definitely also hurting/making some things worse #i just wish I could be operating at the same level as most of society #and i feel so egotistical when I talk abt this #but like. why am i always so fucking aware of every single thing going on #and everyone else is just painfully oblivious #I AM USING HYPERBOLE. ITS NOT EVERYONE. i know im not the only person ever lmao #when i got my autism diagnosis i thought oh good okay so THIS is why im such a freak #and now I've met so many other autistic ppl irl and um. no. no thats definitely not it still.#yes its probably part of it but im also just. so fucking traumatized i guess idk. i hate this so much #i just want to be the same and fit in and not be analyzing everything and be able to actually speak my mind #and not be so kind and polite and respectful all the time and be able to say shitty stupid things without thinking anything of it #im so tired of being the only one who seems to care so much about everyone else's comfort and feelings #but also at the same time i would hate if i acted like everyone else bc i know how shitty it makes people feel #and people are always so happy to see me because I am useful and make them feel good and comfortable and heard #and that matters. that means a lot to people i think. but also I am not a person. i am a tool.#and I'd really like to be a person #i somehow feel like im operating at a higher level/awareness than almost everyone irl and also way below everyone at the same time #like im so hyperaware of everyone else more than most ppl but im also so socially inept sometimes. and just... idk how to be a person.#i dont know i just want to not be like this. its so lonely and tiring and i want to matter to people #i want them to like me for more than just what I'm able to do for them. I want to be liked for Me i guess. but Me isnt likeable maybe #Me is uncomfortable for people. Me is a trembling cornered prey animal with a longing to tell stories but is too afraid to do anything #and so Me just exists in a hollow shell made out of people-pleasing and fawning and mirroring everyone around them #and then i get lonelier and more isolated and nothing really changes. but every time i try to crack open the shell a little it goes badly #like i genuinely dont think its my paranoia. i think it is not Safe for Me to exist properly.#i am too sensitive probably! but it does very much feel like a raw wound that peope jab aggressively at when i open up a little!#boy howdy i sound like such a wuss. i mean i probably am one fjfkdl #i just feel like I keep trying to fix things and improve and try new things and nothing ever really works well #my counsellors have always commented on how impressed they are at my willingness to try things #and its like ?? yeah ! ofc i am going to try things! maybe that will be smth that finally helps!

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stardust-vi · 5 months

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Dumb ramble but I hate that you can't critique The Thing you love within a fandom space without some dude breathing down your neck like "Well actually that means you hate The Author and The Thing! And what about all the times The Author did this Good Thing? Checkmate, liberal." as if you can't be critical of something because you love it and want it to be better.

#just. i'm in a rush rn so i'm probably not articulating myself well and i could go more in-depth with my thoughts #at the risk of someone spinning my words into “cringe blue hair pronoun wants to cancel araki!” which... will happen inevitably #even though i don't know how many times i can repeat “i do not hate araki #this is specifcally about jjba btw because like.#look i love it and araki has done some good things (or at least had good intentions in most cases)#but i'm so over the fact he constantly has to reach for some form of traumatizing women in his writing #and I already hear “well it shows they're a villain!”#but does he HAVE to use assault? why does he have to use that instead of demonstrating their villainy in other ways #that don't need to use it as a crutch #i'm not even saying you can't ever write about assault #that's not my argument either.#I'm not even accusing him of being a bad writer or person but just. Can we please retire the overusage of assault for shock value?#i obviously don't hate people who enjoy the series regardless #i'd be a massive fucking hypocrite #i mean i've literally been in this damn fandom for 6 years and just now decided to post my art.#but i'm tired of any time someone brings up legit criticisms of the misogyny in his writing #it's met with “but araki did this-” like it changes anything.#i'm glad he did somewhat improve writing women over time compared to the earlier parts #that said. that doesn't cancel out the blunders he did make or will make in the future #even if he has good intent.#or really any criticism of the writing being hit with “but its not supposed to make sense #anyways rant over. probably going to delete later bc im tired.#tw assault #assault tw

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aemiron-main · 4 months

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Thinking about baby patty 20 dead 40 wounded

#stranger things #patty newby #(through tears) noo ahah dont think about how patty had no friends in hawkins growing up #and how the closest thing to a friend wouldve been bob vs rhe way bob’s annoyed w her initially re: his radio stuff/the whole fucked up #newby damily dynamic as a whole/the emotional distance that Does exist between bob and patty as a result of mr newbys favouritism #towards bob. do NOT think about how patty is the same age as s4 el vs how el’s had friends since s1 #like imagine if el didnt meet max or the party until season 4…. and the fact that patty’s first opening scene/one of the very first things #we’re told about her (and henry) is that she’s lonely… stop stop im already dead #:((((((((#patty i would been your friend its ok #(through tears): when do you guys think baby patty stopped trying to play with bob/when do you guys think that the whole family dynamic #really started to squash any like. proper close bonding yk like they dont hate eachother in tfs by any means but its like #there’s definitely a Distance there in a lot of ways & definitely resent etc you can feel under the surface (although in the end that def #improves) but i just. dont look at me im thinking about baby patty trying to ppay with bob but then going off to sit alone #(through tears and comically loud sobbing sounds) do you guys think that bob blamed patty for his mom leaving the same way mr newby blamed #her for his wife leaving? do you guys think that’s why bob didnt protect/defend her until the end of the play? and even then he didnt DO it #so much as say that he SHOULD have…..#(through even more tears) do NOT think about how quickly patty accepted mr newbys apology and even insisted initially that he has nothing to #apologize for despite the way hes treated her vs the fact that patty so clearly just wants to be loved #do not think about patty’s dad being the principal vs her still getting bullied all the time and then getting in trouble for defending #herself/mocking walter… mr newby when i fucking catch you!!!!!!!#pattyposting

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catilinas · 5 months

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this book is um. not very well written. i hope marcus livius drusus has a narratively satisfying character arc and then dies

#sulla and silo #mr athano you have to characterise your characters you can’t just assume the reader has read masters of rome #like ok. i have read it. but hhtghhhhhhjhvvv #imo one of the best things colleen does in masters of rome is just. fully committing to it being insanely long and detailed and covering a #period of like 100 years #because it means you do get a sense of what the ‘normal’ (as normal as it gets) political functioning of rome is like Before it all goes to #shit #throwing a reader into the events of drusus’ tribunate with no context about drusus’ character #and even. only mentioning that he’s caepio’s brother in law After he has barely reacted to caepio trying to have him assassinated is like #??????#on the other hand this book is so niche that maybe he Can rely on his audience to have read masters of rome #ALSO im still right at the start of the book so maybe it does improve #also also drusus is probably not a main character. unlike sulla who Is getting more distinct characterisation #maybe there’s still time for drusus to be sacrificed to the cause of italian citizenship…………#beeps

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dwtdog · 7 months

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george could have a backbone and acknowledge his actions and apologise and not try to get out of it and then i’d see some redeem-ability for him

i’ll never be able to fully hate them but fandom won’t forgive and i can’t blame them at all. best case scenario they accept the death of “fandom” and continue yt for casual fans

yep my thoughts exactly. i find it very hard to see ANYONE as irredeemable, although i do think people who are abusive don't deserve audiences where they have access to vulnerable fans

#at the moment i find it hard to condemn drm or sap #with everything out in the open it still feels like their worst crimes r being grgs friends #to me. it seems like he made a terrible terrible mistake #and theres nothign he can do to fix it except improve himself and do all he can to help the women he affected #it really does come down to him owning up to it and consciously changing #and before i get called a hypocrite #id say the same thing about ccs like wilbur- they can improve #but that doesnt mean they should have an #audience #idk im still trying to sort out all my thoughts honestly #open to discussion just pls be kind this is a sensitive subject for me #cw abuse #cq.asks

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moonscape · 7 days

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it would be really cool to have another chronicles-esque series