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“When I first heard it, from a dog trainer who knew her behavioral science, it was a stunning moment. I remember where I was standing, what block of Brooklyn’s streets. It was like holding a piece of polished obsidian in the hand, feeling its weight and irreducibility. And its fathomless blackness. Punishment is reinforcing to the punisher. Of course. It fit the science, and it also fit the hidden memories stored in a deeply buried, rusty lockbox inside me. The people who walked down the street arbitrarily compressing their dogs’ tracheas, to which the poor beasts could only submit in uncomprehending misery; the parents who slapped their crying toddlers for the crime of being tired or hungry: These were not aberrantly malevolent villains. They were not doing what they did because they thought it was right, or even because it worked very well. They were simply caught in the same feedback loop in which all behavior is made. Their spasms of delivering small torments relieved their frustration and gave the impression of momentum toward a solution. Most potently, it immediately stopped the behavior. No matter that the effect probably won’t last: the reinforcer—the silence or the cessation of the annoyance—was exquisitely timed. Now. Boy does that feel good.”
— Melissa Holbrook Pierson, The Secret History of Kindness (2015)
#dog books#this chapter was very sad reading#when you become aware of punishment#and its use and its prevalence#it's hard not to despair#again this is why positive reinforcement feels like absolution#maybe now my eyes are open I can make up for what I did#what I did because it's what everyone does#because it's more acceptable to punish than to do anything else#I've been having so many thoughts about punishment and society and justice#this book was very validating#another great validating moment in my jumbled thoughts#was listening to the You're Wrong About episode on justice#with Amanda Knox#it helped to ease the despair a little
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(Accidentally mis-clicked enter on my last ask. Here's the full "ask")
What he says...
VS What I read...
("us" as in him and WWX, not the spider just to be clear)
They should make an adaptation called 'The Unfiltered', where Lan Wangji says exactly what's on his mind.
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#lan wangji#wei wuxian#ask#So glad you came back and resent the ask with the completed joke. Thank you; the punchline is fantastic.#A fairly significant part of LWJ's character is that he *does not* say what he truly wants to.#Frankly he spends a significant part of his life not having the words to describe his feelings and wants.#And when he finally does know what he wants...it is too late to say anything at all.#He is a character that struggles to read between the lines who also needs to be read between the lines.#What a great trait to apply to a character in a series about the harms of taking the world at face value.#Lan Wangji you have my sincerest apologies. In the past I considered you mid. You were the olive of my character charcuterie.#My palate has expanded to appreciate the complexities and necessity of your traits.#Go get 'em. You salty and bitter (+ fruity) king. Those flavours rule. People love you enough to get very mad on polls on your behalf.
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Can you draw something with Doom Patrol!Edwin and Netflix!Edwin?
Maybe something about Dp!Edwin talking about his feelings for Charles with N!Edwin?
It's just something I've been thinking of, make it a little angsty?<3
Glad you asked
ko-fi
#ask ask ask#dead boy detectives#dbda#payneland#edwin x charles#doom patrol#dead patrol#cw homophobia#i know there are a couple of people who enjoy my rambly tags so these are for u#first of all anon i'm sorry i used your request to continue my story lol#most of my comics are meant to be standalones BUT#the doom patrol and dead girl detectives are all happening in the same universe#and there is indeed series of events here!#this particular one is happening after dp!edwin's feelings were exposed but before they met the girls#with that out of the way#i know this is not as funny as most of my stuff#but dp!edwin's internalized homophobia is an important thign that can't just go away because his charles loves him back#and he does love him back! in this verse#dp!charles is the only one not struggling with his feelings for his partner#dbd!charles and charlotte still have ways to go#also dbd!edwin is in no way an expert in self-acceptance but he has learned some things#i considered having him mention simon but i decided it wasn't his place to out him#(even though he's dead u know)#so yeah what he says here isn't... great#he's still putting himself down and he's still not sure if his feelings for charles are actually a good thing#but he knows HE is glad he feels this way#because fuck it it's not like he'll go to hell for it#and even if he did... he would crawl his way out
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reunion 🌸
#persona 3#persona 3 spoilers#minato arisato#makoto yuki#ryoji mochizuki#aigis#ryomina#lizzy does art#HELLO EVERYONE!!! march 5th is upon us again so i bring... my contribution for this year. my third year drawing for it!#i made the thumbnail for this a few weeks after last year's graduation day#i thought it would be fun to lean into the ryominaigis angle of graduation day (you could read this as minato/aigis if you like-#but i feel like most people would read it as ryoji/minato)#IN ANY CASE working on this made me very emotional over this game :') (specifically minato)#i really enjoy how p3 ends it's such a nice way of wrapping up the narrative's messages and themes#working on this. minato's kindness was at the forefront of my mind throughout the piece#and i really wanted to capture how. ultimately it was his decision to sacrifice himself- to do the great seal#while to an outsider's perspective it is. sad that minato passes. i think becoming the seal is something that minato-#actively welcomes. in the same way that death (ryoji) is a comfort to him because death was housed in him for Ten YearsTM#AND I ALSO GOT REALLY SAD OVER AIGIS TOO. i still get fucked up over how in fes's animated cutscene for 3/5 they portray-#her as human and not drawing the robot parts so i wanted to do something smilar here...#but also i am very sad on aigis's behalf because she discovers her humanity through minato and realizes what she-#wants to do and then. well. minato is like. he's ready to pass on (even if he's scared) and im like. OH MY GOD THIS TRIO GETS ME MESSED UP#this was more coherent in my head LOL BUT ough i like drawing p3 and working through my feelings about it...#anyway! happy (in quotations) march 5th. i love this game to bits. it's so fun to draw for this day every year and see how i've improved#if you've read all this thank you :) lizzy appreciates you all very much. mwah! <3
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POV you’ve informed the Queen and the Court’s Sorcerer of something and they very clearly know something that they’re not letting on
#hehe just a silly doodle#Gwen’s great at subtlety so would this even happen? debatable#just feel like they’d definitely get up to magical shenanigans post-canon#plus there were enough things in the show that could make a reappearance#Lady Vivian is visiting? Oh no is she still under the curse??? D: *cue mutual looks of alarm*#(it’s okay she’s not. justiceforvivian2024)#but anyway STILL they’d definitely go sneaking around in the vaults or library to find answers to the latest Situation tm#like yeah magic is legal and Guinevere is literally the queen#but that doesn’t stop them from shiftilly snooping!! shiftilly snooping just Happens when ur friends with Merlin#it’s like enrichment for them#ANYWAY yet again I have NO idea what proper anatomy is and I did not use a reference for Merlin and only glanced at one for Gwen so#sorry I cannot do u justice merlin + guinevere </3#my mom once glanced at one of my doodles when I was home and she was like why does Merlin look like a monkey#WHICH WAS KINDA OUT OF POCKET TBH 😭😭#but maybe one of these days I’ll actually learn drawing-related things so I can better spread my beloved post canon Merlin agenda#Merlin#Gwen#merlin fanart#bbc merlin#my art#art#merwen#EDIT: fixed up the colouring bc it was bothering meee rip
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These damn queer the cyclone
#art#fanart#my art#ride the cyclone#rtc#ride the cyclone fanart#rtc fanart#mischa bachinski#noel gruber#jane doe#jane doe rtc#ricky potts#constance blackwood#ocean o'connell rosenberg#nischa#passionfruit#frenchaccent rtc#spacedolls#i feel like that one rtc post of mine tricked ppl into thinking that im better at art than i actually am#just rewatched it on tiktok cus someone reuploaded it lmao life is great#i miss them..#kissy kissy
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I just downloaded the most scrumptious square brush Hmm Hm delicious.
Spoiler:
Science is always worth it.
Hehe I can draw them from memory 🥴
#bill cipher#ford pines#billford#pyramid steve#gravity falls#why does it feels like insta improvement#I claim this as my top 1 brush#perfect for sketch#great for painting#my art
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I hc that after Bruce’s infamous spine-breaking fight with Bane, all the Batkids pitch in and get Bruce one of those super bougie gamer chairs for the Bat-Computer. Like this thing is all leather, it’s got cup holders and LED lights, and that bad boy swivels smoother than butter.
It’s also bright fucking red. Robin red.
#Bruce hates it but it has great back back support and after he broke his spine he NEEDS to be comfy in that chair#he pouts for an entire week abt it#all his kids cackle#I bet they also put a bunch of stickers on the back that say I love Gotham and stuff like that#Barbra feels bad and gets him a file cabinet as an actual glad-you-aren’t-dead present and Bruce loves that infinitely more#I love silly grumpy dad bruce Wayne#dc#dc comics#bruce wayne#batman#batfamily#dick grayson#batfamily headcannons#tim drake#jason todd#damian wayne#barbra gordon#stephanie brown#Duke Thomas#cassandra cain#bruce wayne headcanon#batdad#batman family#black bat#batfam#batman comics#OH and bruce does the signature dad groan whenever he sits down
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how i imagine Minecraft Alex's personality to be like vs how i imagine Minecraft Steve's personality. duality of minecraft
#pinyatart#minecraft#minecraft steve#minecraft alex#im pretty rusty with drawing humans rn hhhhdhhhhsss..........#how i see it........#alex represents survival mode. she's more serious rational and focused on getting the resources needed to survive in an endless overworld#while steve represents creative mode. he's laid back chill and doesn't give a fuck and makes whatever stupid shit he feels like making#much to the annoyance of alex. he takes things way sillier than she does. they still kiss tho lmao#she sees an undescribable beauty and horror to the great twisting wilderness around her. he sees somewhere to fuck around and have fun in.#alex is a pro at survival and fighting while steve despite seeming pretty lazy is actually really fucking good at programming redstone tech#which kinda outstands alex cuz she always found it very difficult for her to wrap her head around with all those moving parts to it n such#alex is just pretty good at crafting weapons and survival gear. steve crafts the silly dumb shit for entertainment#anyways end of tag rambling seeya
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If you’re still taking requests could you please draw some more art for The Disabled Tyrant’s Beloved Pet Fish? I finished the first book and am starting the second one. I really love your art!💖
thank you (❁´◡`❁) i need to go and get the second book myself...
anyway, I really respect Li Yu's unrelenting willingness to risk his entire identity on the opportunity to get a good snack. the number of times this guy's stomach nearly gave him away in a single book...
#disabled tyrant's beloved pet fish#dtbpf#dtppf#li yu#prince jing#mu tianchi#wang xi#does wang xi have anything approaching a canon appearance? i can't find anything so he just got a silly lil hat and i called it a day#i have no idea what a personal servant in ye olde fantasy china would look like#i feel like wang xi has got to be watching the pure insanity that's going on with this pet fish and be continuously like#well???? it is somehow not actively killing the fish and they both seem happy so????? great??????? not gonna question that actually#i really never expected that i would be drawing a fish character with any regularity i don't know how to draw fish...#but that's fair because li yu doesn't know how to act like a fish either#my art
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Homegrown
Thistle and Delgal - Dungeon Meshi, Ryoko Kui
^ Fernando Pessoa / Killing Flies, Michael Dickman / A Brother Named Gethsemane, Natalie Diaz / Antigonick, Anne Carson v Oats We Sow, Gregory and the Hawk
#Dungeon meshi#spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#thistle#sissel#thistle dungeon meshi#web weaving#web weave#Just in case for sake of transparency: in the ‘what a relief everyone’s safe’ panel I erased a bit of dialogue he originally said#‘What a relief everyone’s BODY IS safe’#But yk. Delusions angst. Dinner table Thistle imagery you are famous to me#delicious in dungeon#Umm go check out my Thistle & Falin fic on ao3 called Slivers maybe idk#Sometimes it does feel like Thistle has an age regression through the manga it’s interesting. Kui what were you cooking#I am a firm believer that Thistle’s an adult and that that doesn’t take anything away from his narrative tho.#He’s the older brother here & that’s the whole point. God dunmeshi family narratives I love youuu#Thistles are a weed… Idk the garden theme for him works great imo. Make that dungeoneum manage that kingdom like an ecosystem
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Ohhh, I'm rereading Mystra's entry in the Sword Coast Adventurer's Guide... and this detail:
This means Gale was punished for trying to restore and preserve what he thought was a lost piece of Mystra's magic. Gale being Mystra's ex-lover put aside. He as her follower, she his goddess, was punished for attempting to do the one foundational rule of her faith.
I'm seething and so sad at the same time.
Edit: I used the word punish loosely, as in, toxic/abusive people will take any small mistake or action and twist it into something they can take advantage of. This post was also largely from the stand point of a toxic deity rather than a toxic partner, but both takes are valid here. Especially with the, “you didn’t stay compliant so now I’m giving you the silent treatment” part of it—from a god and a partner perspective.
#bg3 spoilers#rambles#bg3#bg3 gale#gale bg3#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep#gale baldurs gate 3#baldurs gate gale#baldur's gate 3#baldurs gate 3#baldurs gate#I understand different versions of Mystra exist#but the bg3 version of her makes me seethe#all the time#TAGS PAST HERE ARE UPDATES#this post was most about comments on the religious trauma aspect#character flaws make character great so I know Gale isn’t perfect#but yeah I do read Mystra as a groomer with the comments minsc gave#like I hate her as a person#her character contribution makes the story interesting but I just objectively can’t excuse anything she does#she makes me feel enraged because they literally had to hide weave gifted boys from her#hello??? I’m sorry but you can’t make me like her or excuse her treatment towards gale after that knowledge#sorry I’m getting heated but goodness I have to say it or it’s going to make me implode
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I'm a doctor, not a miracle worker.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wen ning#wei wuxian#wen qing#jiang cheng#Truly Massive disclaimer here: I am a Jiang Cheng enjoyer. I like his character. I enjoy that he is very flawed and volatile.#This episode of the audio drama has a lot of great breakdown scenes featuring JC - and they all deserve a feature.#But underlying this comic is a small meta comment of 'ah man I have too many comics of JC just wailing sadly'#My goal is to draw 6-8 comics per episode - I sometimes have to truncate and cut good scenes out.#Especially when a large majority is just different flavours of trauma and toxic relationships to your self-worth.#I would also like to make a note here that just because you lose the ability to do something that is very tied to your core identity-#-does not mean your life is over. It will feel like the end of the world. It will send you into a spiral of grief. It will hurt so badly.#Sometimes we do not realize how tied up our identities can be in certain things until we are cut loose.#You don't lose yourself. I promise the pain will fade in time. I promise you will find other things to tether you. I promise you will be ok#Life moves forwards. Time moves forwards. You move forwards.#Ego death just means an opportunity for ego rebirth. You are never committed to being the same person forever.#To wrap this around to JC: Yeah I love the twist with the core transfer but man I would have loved to see JC accept the loss.#Obviously it happens for a reason (story) but I can have my AUs. I can have these 'what-ifs'.#described in alt text#I'm trying it out! *please* give me feedback - I want to eventually Add image ID to all of these comics one day
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i really like how canonically yuu is genuinely supportive of grim wanting to be a great mage. if i recall correctly, even character voice lines point this out. and it seems like yuu dotes on grim a lot and defends him too??? yuu even encourages grim's ambitions whenever he declares wanting to be a great mage. and also when he does that boss-henchhuman dynamic. i mean yeah you can interpret it as yuu saying that being condescending and sarcastic as if they're talking to a child saying "when i grow up i want to be famous!" but like. i really think they're genuine when mc loves grim in their own way.
even if grim is usually a menace, he's become like family to yuu.
and i'm pretty sure grim feels the same way.
think about it this way. despite all the mess, all the unpredictability, the danger, and all the drama being in nrc. what's always the constant? yuu goes home at the end of the day to the ramshackle dorm (basically their home at this point considering they slowly but surely fix it up over time) and with who? “the great mage” grim. as the sole outcasts in that academy, they both sleep soundly knowing they will always have each other at the end of the day.
#2nd anniversary event got me feeling things#and honestly just thinking about that grim overblot theory#if that's true i believe grim's breaking point would be yuu finally beginning to leave through the dark mirror#and then overblotting leaving the dark mirror room in ruins like we see in the beginning of the game#he does not want them to leave#they WILL stay there#the great grim refuses to be alone in that “ramshackle” dorm#[—✦-#-✧ twst rambles#twisted wonderland#twst#twst grim#twst yuu#twst ramshackle#-✦—]#god at first grim was REALLY made to be unlikeable#then overtime (personally) grim had just really grown on you#i will defend grim with my life now >:(
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Why dis 🪄 look so mad
#how are we feeling stf girlies#sofia the first#why dis look so mad meme#princess sofia#sofia the fandom#cedric the sorcerer#cedric the sensational#cedric the great#why does he have so many names#stf#sofia the first cedric#stf fanart#fanart#sofia the first fanart#c*dfia dni#myart.png
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sunstone..? perhaps???
anon ur so real for this... they're my faves since i first played rw
havent drawn them in a loong time though so i doodled these real quick :^)
#rain world#five pebbles#seven red suns#rw sunstone#my art#also to clarify because im annoying and love overexplaining things ☝️🤓#the quote on the second pic is supposed to summarize their feelings towards the great task#and each other too of course#in that theyre kinda right to feel isolated because a lot of other iterators dont talk about this feeling of pointlessness#but theyre still being a tad pretentious here#just because people dont talk about their struggles doesnt mean theyre not struggling!#suns does understand this to a degree#but still#so much of their dialogue reads like a “you're the only one who gets me” kinda thing#okay ill stop rambling#ill never get over these two
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