#do I warn my irl friends?

[schmope-is-dead]

it’s about time, don’t you think?

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

it is a lie.

there is the promise, of course, every single time. that this time it will help, this time you'll be able to quit for good after just - once - more -

and then you look up and realise it's 1am and your hands are covered with blood. you've used up all the tissues and it's still bleeding. of course you grab something and stanch it, it's not going to kill you, but it's sure as hell going to make living unfun.

it's a lie. you can be clinical about it - you can measure depth and size and analyse if this needs medical attention or not. and then once you're absolutely sure it could do with it (curse the moment you figured out the technique that allows you to go deeper), you can ignore it and pretend it's fine.

it's not fine, of course. but even now, there's pain. of course there's pain. it's gaping, you idiot, and if you went to the emergency department they'd suture it just like they would have the previous one you ignored that got infected, but improved before you absolutely had to seek medical attention. they are not going to heal quickly; they're going to look pretty bad even if they manage to heal before you've got to wear short sleeves for placement. never mind the fact that summer's coming on. search up summer cardigans and hope they're not too expensive.

but there's pain. why would you do it? why would you keep chasing the high you will not get from this? why are you still thinking, if I just go fully to the muscle layer now, this will fix everything? it won't. you fool. is it muscle pain you're feeling right now, or nerve? how would you know?

cry about it, you bitch. you did it to yourself. you know, what you really want is someone to hug you real good, someone who knows what you've done and why you did it. but last time you showed someone it made you go deeper because what you showed them wasn't enough. you better hope they don't ask to see how that one's healing, because you can't show them the healing process without showing this newest one they don't know you've got. they said they weren't happy with you keeping the implement you used last time. you said it was a once-off, a mad impulse born of a specific, high stress trigger. you might even have believed it.

why would you do it? why are you going so deep, deep enough that after every action to make it deeper, you do all the basic checks to make sure you haven't permanently damaged something? don't mess around with this. your hands are your livelihood. if you hit a nerve, there ain't no coming back from that. you know what you're doing.

arms are dangerous. surely you knew that was almost the exact place someone you knew went, had to get fourteen stitches emergently because they hit something real bad. if you're tired, get sleep. if you're tired of life, get help. don't destroy yourself like this.

it is a lie. it will not make you feel better. it will simply add to your problems. why don't you care? the promise of relief is a lie. if you're sad about it, if you're crying, then do something. tell someone. reach out, and someone will reach back to you. they want to help. let them help. people want to love you; let them love you.

[sunjoys]

for my birthday next year im gonna force my friends to marathon watch french musicals with me

[certified-anakinfucker]

ok this is unprompted but if you pride yourself on being the reason people leave a space for something they genuinely love and have done no objective wrong - youre a piece of shit btw. like full send youre horrible.

[elliesbelle]

lol

[torchickentacos]

anyways. having fun with the album project thing I mentioned. Using the flat small brush from here for krita. One brush only, no undo button, all done on 1/54th of a 1.5k x 1k canvas. it's actually pretty therapeutic, I listen to the album I'm drawing while I draw it. This does mean that for AM I got to like. track 2 though and most of that was bc of formatting issues lol.

[funkylittlebats]

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[duskerot]

MY PARTS SHIPPED

[ectonurites]

wearing something i haven't worn since i was probably 12 years old for trivia tonight

[toxicrevolver]

Hi Obsidian!!!

I really hope you’re doing well. I’m here for a water check, make sure to take care of yourself!

Hi Minie!!!

I’m doing decently well given it’s the holiday season (not a fan). This was a super cute message to get!! I will definitely make sure to take care of myself! And water checks are good here! I get distracted and forget to drink water a lot. Buying a water bottle with a straw has helped a lot with that.

[diabolicjoy]

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[badolmen]

Actually I think I’ll die mad at my bros high school girlfriend. I hope she gets stuck in stop-and-go traffic for an hour every time she travels for more than 20 minutes.

[noxtivagus]

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[iscopeeee]

kindaaa not looking forward to my birthday at all and I'm pretty bummed about it Loolllllll

[undergiants]

Lord, I hate the amount of attention fandom spaces give to problematic/harmful content. Like look I hate a lot of that content as much as most people would, but as a survivor of stuff like CSA and incest I don't want to be continuously reminded of that stuff! Or god forbid out right shown it! I get some of these people get their jimmies off to publicly shaming these types of content creators and ironically sharing the horrible content so everyone can see because... Christ I don't even know. But as a survivor I need them to realize just how harmful putting a lot of attention on that content can also be.

Simply state why the person's content is problematic/harmful in simple (non-viscerally descriptive) terms to those who should know and then block them (report them legally if the content qualifies) and leave it at that. It's as simply as that!

[turigirl]

hfff