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I feel this as well. I'm 33. I've had so much fear and anxiety and anger for as long as I can remember. I've had crippling depression for years. My mother, who I used to be really close to has been sucked into right wing politics, particularly regarding trans issues and it breaks my heart and makes me so angry.
I have so much grief for everyone who's being pushed down, people who need things like abortions or trans healthcare who might soon not be able to access safe forms of that help... I'm scared for myself, as a gay, disabled, hispanic person. I depend on my disability support to get the help I need, and I know I could lose that now and I'm barely scraping by financially as it is.
I'm angry for everyone who couldn't be bothered to actually be objective and intelligent about who they put their support behind. Who took the word of an extremely unreliable person at face value. Who believed that the leopards would never come to eat their face.
It all really sucks... But I think all we can do is just try to have hope for the future. We need to stand for what we believe in and show people that we're not just going to go away because they hate us. I'm hanging on, and I hope the rest of you can as well. We can get through this. It will get better, but we need to do all we can to help get it there.
I don’t know how to explain this well…but I’m 30 years old and I feel like I’ve had to ‘sacrifice’ my entire adult life to unprecedented times, the pandemic and daily anxiety over hateful politicians and whatever rights they want to take away on any given day and I’m just so fucking tired
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The hardest lesson you will learn if you are interested in learning about Nazi Germany: so may people posting content about it are actual Nazis
No seriously if anyone is starting to get into WWII/Third Reich history, it is so easy to be indoctrinated because the main message a lot of Nazis spit now is that Hitler was bad and the SS were bad, but everyone else was chill.
And it’s hard to realize the narrative they’re spitting is wrong unless you know a lot going into it.
I have been watching a dude called “TIKhistory” the last few days on youtube and something felt off about his takes, but a lot of them had at least some plausible deniability and enough factual information that I thought it was still worthwhile.
I just start watching another video from this dude with the title “The REAL Reason why Hitler HAD to start WW2” which is an insane title and caught my attention. And then my answer was given by the first five mins of his video when I realized this dude was, at the least, a wehraboo, and at most, an actual Nazi.
Pretty much any non-Nazi historian agrees that Hitler started WWII because 1) he wanted to conquer Europe 2) he wanted “Lebensraum,” aka living space for “Aryans.” Where German people, with no Jewish or Roma people present, can have ample space to live.
You know why most non-Nazi historians agree on this? Because Hitler fucking said this. In his literal book. That everyone read.
WWII was declared by the Allies when Germany invaded Poland for LeBeNsRaUm. Yes, Germany never wanted to fight Britain. You know why? 1) they were white enough 2) a fucking ocean kept them apart. They wanted all of Europe + Soviet Union. That is why WWII started.
See how quick it was to get to that point? Fucking TIKhistory’s video is forty five minutes long. That’ll happen when your point is horeshit and also not true.
Hitler started WWII. All of the generals and higher ups at least knew of the Holocaust and most perpetrated their own massacres for shits and giggles. The Nazi army wasn’t really that great, they just knew how to play the cards in the circumstances they were in (they used horses a fuck ton. You don’t see it because a lot of documentaries use footage from Nazi propaganda in which they weren’t recorded). These are all basic facts for non-Nazis. So warning that if anyone you meet challenges those three facts, they probably are a Nazi
#I know no one cares but I was just gobsmacked when I watched the video#there’s a substantial amount of dislikes but a lot more likes#and it’s because those who aren’t familiar with Nazi history#which I know I got a lot of my own education from higher education#and to those who know only basic facts about WWII#a white balding guy speaking confidently in a polo seems quite trustworthy#nazism nowadays is less obvious than it used to be#lying or downplaying nazi history is such a big red flag#a lot of western education#specifically american#has been tainted because the USA hired a lot of Nazis after WWII to help fight the Soviets so a lot of#white lies#to put it lightly#were made up#that’s where popular beliefs like that it was just Hitler’s fault they lost or that generals were just following orders come from#so claims like that are more justifiable as it’s usually the education system that taught them wrong#but to claim that Hitler and his comrades started WWII for anything other than hatred and a need to kill Jews and Roma especially and also#disabled people gay trans people and so on#and modern Nazis justify this because it sounds bad#which you know#it is#so they need to justify it to themselves#all Nazis are liars it’s in the description#that’s the nicest word I can use to describe them btw#I feel like this shouldn’t be new news but fuck off if you’re a Nazi or a Nazi apologist#rae’s rambles#tw Nazism
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if you're a white person taking pleasure in the idea that Trump voters of colour are experiencing racist violence from white trumpers because "they got what's coming to them" I don't think you're anti-racist at all, I think you were just waiting for an acceptable target, and you're also fucking weird.
Bad Person Deserves Punishment For Their Sins give me a fucking break and get yourself out of the fucking catholic church. you're all prison abolitionists until you see someone you don't like.
#assholes still do not deserve to be victims of bigotry#people will crow this up and down until they find someone they think is a big enough asshole to really deserve it#watch your cognitive dissonance kids#i really am only speaking to white people here. as a white person.#POC can feel however they feel.#though i still don't think it's an appropriate sentiment to turn into Political Praxis there is of course a need to vent#like idk i don't find any marginalised suffering under fascism funny. i think it's fucking sad.#i think it is sad when right wing gay people experience homophobia and i think it is sad when right wing trans people experience transphobia#and when right wing disabled people experience ableism and when right wing women experience misogyny#leopards eating faces is funny when it's about like. rich people or misogynists or whatever it's.#do you understand that this is punching down?#why are we wasting our energy hoping for the victimisation of specific marginalised people#this would be a great time to do some outreach but instead everyone is just fucking MOCKING THEM#you're so fucking stupid you don't care about The Cause you care about Winning#this shit makes me furious.#have some compassion#the system speaks#USpol#Trump#racism#politics
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Regarding the whole "Fandom Is An Escape, so why should I have to care this much about misogyny/racism/ableism/transphobia/etc." thing. Idk about the rest of you, but it gets kind of hard for me to "escape" when I keep seeing people say the same vile things about characters who share aspects of my identity that I hear all the time in real life.
#gotta say: it doesn't make me feel any better getting ignored/disparaged on account of my gender irl and then seeing every fictional woman#also get ignored/disparaged when there is no material difference between her and popular male characters other than her gender#how do I escape from irl misogyny if y'all keep willfully ignoring and flinging gendered insults at 99% (<-lowball estimate) of#female characters? how do I put aside the ableism I face in real life when y'all discuss disabled/mentally ill characters in the most#absolutely out-of-pocket way? how do I forget about biphobia when the 'arguments' you make 'for fun' about bisexual characters#in fiction sound EXACTLY the same as the things people say about my bisexuality outside of the internet/fan culture?#and then obviously this gets compounded if you are trying to even simply EXIST in fandom as a poc or a trans person or an intersection of#any or all these varying identities/life experiences#like yes caring about fictional characters is not the same as caring about real people OBVIOUSLY I can't BELIEVE I have to keep clarifying#that. and at the same time!! because multiple things can be true at the same time!!!! engaging in behavior that enforces pre-ingrained#societal biases and prejudices!!!!!!!! does not help dismantle those biases and prejudices!!!!!!!!!!!!!! in a real-world way that DOES#involve caring about actual people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#it's also. interesting. when people go on & on about how some newest show about thin cis white (male) gays is So Important & Revolutionary#So We Must Do Everything To Keep It Relevant And Visible and then act this way about women/poc/trans people/disabled people/fat people#in media. so like. you DO agree that seeing a variety of life experiences represented in fiction is beneficial. you DO believe in the#value of depicting marginalized people. interesting that that only seems to apply to a VERY narrow and specific category of marginalization#(ugh remember when I talked about this and someone called me a straight person good times)
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so fucking sick of the constant misgendering. it's exhausting. even from fellow queer people??????? who know me?????????? HELLO?????????????
#sorry i don't fit ur idea of queer but can u still show some basic respect & decency#pre-covering my hair i was constantly seen as non-binary or as a man or as intersex#and now??????? no matter what#i get referred to as a woman#by the same fucking people!!!!!! preaching “clothing has no gender”#ARE U SURE?????? CAUSE UR SURE AS HELL NOT TREATING ME LIKE I EXIST OUTSIDE MY CLOTHING CJOICES#most days i try to make myself not care but lately i've been realizing just how much i want to die because of how people perceive me#i don't want to change myself#but it's suffocating me#nobody sees me for who i really am except for spouse#and i am so so grateful for them#but when every single other interaction is just#so fucking transphobic and intersexist#i just want to curl up and die#changing the way i dress makes me want to die#getting misgendered for the way i dress makes me want to die#not having a place in the queer community makes me want to die#do u know how hard it is to be disabled intersex queer with DID which means constantly shifting identity#i'm lesbian im gay im trans both ways im ace im hypersexual im aromatic im poly it's EVRRUTHING#and so i fit nowhere#because i don't fit the mold :/#when i say queer in every way i mean it#and there's no real solution outside of finding community that accepts me and i cant even manage to get far enough into one#to even consider bringing up DID & the complexities it adds#cause y'all see someone in a modest dress & head scarf and go WOMAN#or see wheelchair and look the other way or continue booking in inaccessible places or not wearing a fucking mask#or don't want to be seen with someone visibly mentally ill#like..... i cant win. the only way i can get respect from my OWN FUXKJNG COMMUNITY is to change everything about myself#i'm so fucking over it#happy pride month ig
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I think everyone got a little bit too comfortable after lady gaga sang about 'being born this way,' and now we're discarding agency in ways old school eugenicists would salivate at.
#queer#lgbt#psychology#psychoanalyst#ableism#transphobia#trans women#trans men#transgender#its definitely done some good for gay folks but seeing it cross applied to mental health disability and every other form of queerness it's#really starting to sound like 'there is something you can never ever change no matter how much you want to' and i simply do not think thats#real. like obviously some people wont change but some folks will and denying that capacity seems regressive#i just dont like the idea of only ever being one thing when we could be so much more
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Wrote out a big long phone call rant to have with my mother later because as much as I hate it she is my closest irl spiritual confidant 👍 here’s hoping her response to ‘hey I’ve been spiritually depressed and disconnected for like 8 months and for some reason these last two weeks advocating for Palestine has me feeling alive and burning with divine passion and love in a way I’ve never felt before in my life’ isn’t like. ‘Talk to your psyche abt your meds hun’
#ra speaks#personal#religion#oh god these tags got out of hand. look away I’m rambly today.#outing myself as deeply spiritual and devout on main oops#‘aren’t you gay and trans and -‘ listen Israel the person received that name after literally wrestling with gd in the desert#I’m allowed to put my faith leaders in a spiritual headlock for past and present crimes while I live my joyful life#maybe a physical headlock too. I’m down to body slam some wueerphobic racist pos who claim to be faithful while never exercising such faith#also lmao of the idea of a queer leftist being deeply spiritual makes you uncomfortable…bro everything about me makes ppl uncomfortable#I’m bi gender I consider myself a trans gay man and a nonbinary dyke at the same time. I’m disabled and ugly and autistic. im not palatable#accept the inherent apparent contradictory nature of the varied human experience and move on.#sorry thought about that post complaining abt observant jews being excluded from the conversations about queer jews like#you don’t have to get it. you don’t have to think it’s real! but it’s real to me! it’s important to me!#so are you gonna be my transphobic uncle and call me sick and deluded the same way he talks about trans people?#or are you gonna keep your mouth shut accept that you don’t have to understand someone to respect them and move on with your life.#anyways uh. here’s hoping I don’t lose my voice or start crying like I did while typing the script up.#vocational woes
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am i thankful for racially competent and culturally aware schooling, of course! but do i wish it was less..........normie
like i wish there was more i guess, talking about disabled and chronically ill birthing people, actual inclusive language surrounding birth and postpartum, talks about gay and trans births. I just feel drained everyday that i have to read about "the mother and father" when Im nb with a wife
its also like i have been a CH (certified herbalist) for 2 years and traditional herbalist for 12 so the herbal remedies portion of our textbook worries me!!!!! Its not that any of the information is going to kill or harm a pregnant person its that its not accurate enough!!! All of dosing I do is custom to 1 person, their weight, metabolism, their cultural beliefs/practice and unique to their needs! I dont even feel comfortable sharing herbal information on my personal bc i know how so many people run with the first thing they hear and never look into it again. Like i ALMOST have given a lot of people advice esp on how not to get pregnant and induce youre period to be unpregnant bc i know people NEED that information and I feel seeing people needing abortions but i feel so wrong publishing it. While i know how to go about making herbal medicine, taking it at high doses for a length of time, but not everyone has my training and experiences. So I find it off putting that my teachers would include any herbalist anything without instructions for prepping the herbs, dosages, risks/warnings and just basic herbal education esp when we are talking about keeping a pregnancy. Maybe im just younger, more "new school" but i fully believe we can have traditional healing modalities with science and inclusiveness
#me#personal#vent#its like the information is good but im like where are the disabled ppl and the gay n trans peoples!?!?#and why are you telling other ppl to use these herbs without any real herbal training to back it up#that gives me anxiety#like if we had a week and not 2 days in the course to study fertility birth and postpartum herbalism then id be less concerned#but i already know this my classmates dont and i dont think even half of them saw my book rec so they can get some better solid info
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god i am trying so hard to be kind but the brain worms in this woman’s head are fucking endless.
#she was upset over how corporatized pride is / young people don't know gay history about aids etc.#but then she turned it around and blamed trans people for that ????#freedom trucker convoy ass people are literally so fucking afraid of their own shadow it's pathetic#i would have stopped talking to them entirely if they were not family and understood this is a psychological response#to years of raising a disabled child alone with extremely little support from the govt in a world actively hostile to autistic people
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Never get tired of blocking fascists but claiming that trans genocide is good because it stops gay genocide isn't the serve you think it is
#actual gay men will tell you that your transphobia influences their own transphobia#anyways. claiming that trans kids having dysphoria and attempting to get help for it is mutilation#and comparing doctors to nazis#is WILD#transphobia tw#genocide tw#nazi tw#idiot tw#like ik theyre only a pond in a ocean but seeing so many people agree is what influences hate#claiming that doctors are a regime bc they attempt to give kids help is leading you to the right and closer to the nazis you compare us to#and saying the left is a disease bc you dont like that adults And children is what gets us to where we are now#bc the radfems are leaning more right everyday and ik you hate the people youre claiming to care about by saying its for our own good#but trying to make it less obvious by claiming its 'for the disabled children' is obviously working or else their wouldnt be so many#in agreement#i worry for the state of the world if they think that kids killing themselves is better than them going on hormone blockers#just for the chance they might be cis#like. you and the anti trans doctors your supporting#are making it more and more obvious you never interracted with any of the groups your claiming to want to 'help'#and the fact they always have the 'im SUPER RELIGIOUS YOULL NEVER MEET SOMEONE CLOSER TO GOD THAN ME' in their bios. yeah.
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my dad gave me a journal for Xmas and i just opened it to use it for the first time and he left a lettter in it ;_; i obv won’t say all the details (very personal) but the part that got me most was he said “im proud of your strength to accept who you are” like whoaaa oh my god
#people don’t say it often but yeah it does take a lot of strength to be yourself unapologetically…#the acknowledgement of it from my own dad though…#sometimes i feel like he could never have a clue the pain i go through and have gone through being trans/gay/disabled#but this is proof he pays attention and#sees it not as me being sensitive when hateful people get to me but seeing me as strong for existing anyway#my dad has messed up a lot of things in my life but im so grateful that he’s getting better and i know he loves me#even if he wasn’t a good dad for most of my childhood#what happens when kids have kids. I’ve moved on from being angry at him for the most part
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living in florida rn as a disabled lgbt person rlly has me muting notifications to my news app so i can microdose despair on my time
#florida#ron desantis#trans#gay#lgbt#chronic illness#chronic pain#send help#he cancelled the diversity initiatives in the disney district#if i want work that will accommodate for me existing#i will likely have to travel 40+ minutes on the interstate#if i cannot handle that stress#i can instead do a 1.5 hr commute 1 way to work#sounds great. doesnt it.#disrespectfully i hate it here#like im grateful for what i have but what i have isnt enough to live#what do we do from here#how do we as disabled people live in a place that is choosing to be hostile to us#because we cant just leave#we cant afford it for so many reasons from healthcare to the fact we cant get jobs that pay well#what are we even supposed to do
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Alright guys, sit down, I have to tell you all something very important. It's something you already know, but you NEED to hear this again.
You only get ONE life.
You only get one shot at this. You only get one lifetime to live it to your definition of the fullest, be that skydiving, entrepreneurship, or a quiet marriage. You only get one shot to tell people the things you need to tell them. You only get ONE shot to make yourself happy.
Yes, we have many, many, MANY years and many, MANY, MANY opportunities to start any of these! But... do you really want to do that on your deathbed? After you can look back and decide if you were happy with your life or not? When it's too late to change it?
I phrased this as doom and gloom on purpose, so allow me to elaborate and bring this back down a notch.
This post is about love. Straight-up. You only get ONE life, and I want you to take a moment right now and ask yourself if you're satisfied with how you view the world. Forget your living situation or your mental state for just a moment! How do you like your view of the world?
Is it a dark, disgusting thing, filled with smog, hatred, and fire? Is it a bright, beautiful thing filled with Good Vibes™ and sunshine? Or is it somewhere in the middle? Don't take these words literally. If you were to tell me if you think Earth is a good place to live, what would your honest answer be?
Now, let's go smaller. What is your honest opinion of your own world. Not fictional, real. Your circle of friends. the news you see. You personally. Now, how do you view the world? Did your answer change?
Now, let's ask this: what can you do to improve your opinion of the world?
Your personal sphere is the more important example, here, but this does apply to overall as well. If you're not happy in your own sphere, then you NEED to make a change. Stop reading bad news. Take a breath and leave arguments. Go watch that show you've been putting off. Your Steam library needs dusting.
You only get to live one life. So why are you letting yourself be miserable?
Dogs are real. Cats are real. Music is real. Soft, huggable plushies are real. The sun, fluffy clouds, your friends, potential friends you've never met yet, and you. You are real.
Take a breath. Breathe it in. You are real.
You have the capability to make your own choices.
You have the capability to choose when to hold on or let go of a thing or person.
You have the capability to say no to someone.
You have the capability to do the things you want to do, no matter how bleak your situation looks right now.
And doesn't that sound amazing?
Why do we hold on to hatred? Is hating someone really making you happy, or is it putting words in your mouth?
You don't have to like everyone. Far from it. If you don't like someone, we live in a day and age where avoiding them has never been easier. Block, report, drive away, walk. Anything works.
But you don't have to hate, either.
I'm almost done, I promise, but I want to tell you one more important thing. You probably already know this one, too, but you need to hear it anyway.
Hatred comes from love.
That seems really weird, right? Contradictory? Well, it is!
Hatred of a person could start because someone you love got hurt, or someone you love said bad things about someone else. Hatred could come from witnessing someone you love get hurt by an entire group, or one person. Or, it could come from watching a clip on the news. It could come from listening to your family talk about how much they hate a group, and then you'll hate that group, too, because you love your family.
That's all it is.
Any form of hatred can be broken down in this way. We hate because we feel that something or someone we love is violated, and we want to protect them. This can be from things like lions, tigers, plagues, and oceans, but it could also be from race, sexuality, bodily autonomy, countries, or your very own neighbors
But... is that hatred justifiable?
Can you really hate the entire ocean because your friend almost drowned there? Can you really hate a lion for needing to eat? Can you really hate someone who just wants to feel right in this world?
Cuz guess what?
You only have ONE SHOT at life.
But so do they.
Every creature needs to eat, no matter what your relationship with their prey is. The ocean isn't even alive, your fellow man was just unprepared to face it, and that's no one's fault. And that trans person wants to live their life to the fullest, too, whatever their definition of fullest is.
Now that I have the transphobes' attention, is hating this group making you happy?
I'd bet the majority of you say yes, right? But stop and think about this. Really, really think about this. What is something you've always wanted to do? Paint? Fly? Study? It can be anything.
Now, is hating a group of people in any way getting you closer to that dream?
...
No, right?
So why are you wasting the energy?
This goes about any group, too. Jewish people, people of color, gay people, muslims, disabled people, ect. Is hating this group of people who also only get ONE shot really making you happy? Helping you achieve your dreams?
No, right?
So why are you wasting the energy?
Now, if a group IS getting in the way (or trying to get in the way) of you trying to achieve those dreams? Great! I hate fascism, too! But now you know why.
You only get ONE shot at life. The choices you're making now are building up to a grander whole, a tapestry you will see as you lay on your death bed. Did you live a good life?
Yes, we struggle. There are times when it's fucking unfair. The world seems out to get us sometimes, but that's not your fault. Your responsibility then becomes what you choose to do with those struggles. Crumple under them, or push through? It's easy to fall apart, but so, so worth it in the end to get that 1st place ribbon you've always wanted.
So, how can you improve your worldview today?
#sorry this is so long i've been thinking about this a lot#call me an optimist all you want (and you're right) but things DO suck right now#hi hello i'm trans and gay and disabled#so i get it life fucking sucks#but we only get ONE.#i want to do the best with my time here. maybe impact a few lives.#living life to the fullest for me is much more down to earth than a lot of people's definition of that is#but i dont care#i want to make people happy and then go out with a bang#i dont want to hate people#unless they're actively hurting those around them (fascism) and doing it on purpose then we can arm ourselves here#fighting back against hatred- things like cops or jk rowling- doesnt happen with more hatred#it happens via community#it happens via a stronger love#love that brings people together for more reasons than hatred#because a love formed on hatred isn't love at all#it's just more hatred#anyway thank you for coming to my ted talk. i gotta eat something before work#dimond speaks#ask to tag
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goys need to start checking calenders 💀 what’s wrong with yall
#bae. pesach starts may 5th i cant go to required rehearsals 💖silly silly#it just really pisses me off bc this teacher in particular#uses she/they is a black woman w adhd and is just awesome and chill and great#she's inclusive for disability for neurdivergency for queer people for all poc#but time and time again she is not inclusive for jews. it's genuinely ridiculous how much of a constrast there is#in how she addresses issues like gay and trans and womans and poc rights.#and consistently skips over religious minorities#include jews and religious minorities in yur fucking activism my girlie. i love you forever but get your entire act together#and like i know she'll excuse me and it'll be fine bc omg she's so accomadating!!!!!!#maybe dont schedule it then in the first place#in a world where picture day count day and district-wide test dates fall on rosh hashanah#where ap tests are all saturday mornings#where i get marked tardy for yom kippur#it fucking sucks that i am expected to set aside the passover seder for fucking choir.#summer rambles#venting in tags
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oh yeah addendum in also the other day seeing someone autistic talking in that context abt what they want from genuine relationships in that they said they don't want to be Admired Or Desired. that one time someone was like, you're one of the best people i know, like well neat compliment sure i'll take it lmao, but also, that's somewhat confusing and even disheartening when it's like, i have no way of knowing this; we don't really interact? or times i have to ""unilaterally"" assess that i don't feel Friends with someone b/c i don't feel like, for one thing, i can just up & message them even lol; the feeling that to whatever capacity there's a relationship, it's been continual "don't mess this up" masking / efforts to "do things Right" from me....whilest also times it's been like, oh someone's apparently choosing to be around me? enjoying interactions? while still kind of confused about it. and then it's like oh it was Romantic Interest apparently lol :( like even if i wasn't aromantic which i so am....where was the [there is anything to feel is genuine] like again we never even got to any part where i wasn't masking and [do things Right] and on edge and certainly not at whatever point i apparently had whatever appeal. much less "when cishet men are just sprinting straight at you" but that's all the more, like, [you as a Person are certainly irrelevant] but not like it doesn't still feel ultimately mostly irrelevant even if people have more discretion / a more considerate approach in general. also that again there would not be a Right way lmfao. it just sure could be a totally neutral expereince rather, please. how i've had too many situations having to try to fling myself out a window figuratively, even w/those theoretically more considerate approaches
or even when people will be talking about what makes someone Deserving outside of the most conservative(tm) approaches like. this person isn't someone who just waits for things to happen :) like well hell yeah for them lol, meanwhile, i sure kinda am. being aware that in any given way i may not impress anyone / may be negatively assessed; only turns into "there go my power levels increasing again. shrugmoji" when correspondingly it's like, and i don't have to care, or certainly then blame myself about it if like oh boy, society when you have to be "objectively" judged as Worthy by randos, whatever their perspectives lol....or when like, the concept of social support is like, get a romantic partner, primarily, an ounce of backup from friends, the Real backup being family, or friends "as good as" family....or the ongoing journey of realizing like; it was never Just gonna be managing to leave [abusive childhood/family house]. the ways that other experiences outside that were Consistent, really, when being around peers means an immediate sense of doing something wrong / not being as good as them; authority figure adults sometimes acting just like an abusive parent does; no ways to regularly exist flexibly and/or less supervised/monitored, e.g. couldn't walk from [home] to [anywhere]....catching on like, ah, outside of That Situation? i'm still not inherently more valued by randos, still not Not liable to be regarded/treated with disdain / expressions of authoritarianism....Aren't We All; for real. but truly like oh hey, i didn't even realize i was getting all this Political experience in that [when you have a one on one personal abuser and You're Responsible For How They Treat You and Their Own Power Is The Whole Thing and You'll Never "Earn" Better But It'll Always Be Your Fault You Haven't] and all those kinds of logics and realities it's like of course this resonates crystal clear with logics and realities re: [political enemies] lmao. ofc they can be as "hypocritical" as they want b/c [you can just say whatever while you do w/e you want and other people have to deal] is an expression of power. of course "for [xyz]'s own good; individually or as a group" is really about ensuring the power to control their existences as property by shrinking the space in which someone can enact autonomous choices: anything For Children is about (conservative) parents controlling children as things they own and can do whatever they want with; like making sure kids Can't be gay or sm shit, it Is about children, just keeping them from being able to exist outside the sphere of control of an isolated Family life. hell yeah when they do anyways / tragically it always turns out people are actually people despite your wanting to disbelieve this / always have the power to ignore it..........but then yknow, the truth is we out here, and ofc it's like [police protect Property; enforce these property/owner relations] but what's Normal yet obviously harmful is also so borne by regular ordinary """harmless""" interpersonal interactions / people who feel supposedly well-intended but that's more superficial than in essence....even merely the Exhaustion in knowing interactions as Just chitchat w/supposedly amicable parties is like, a scrutinizing test that can only go wrong and lead to antagonism / animosity that can easily accumulate &/or compound. much less existence In Public and shit going wrong out of nowhere, and potential stakes....being like Lol at, again, years back thinking like "a horror short should be like, the premise that you might just be at a grocery or some ordinary asf situation but at any given moment, doing Nothing extraordinary, some rando suddenly goes Deeply Hostile Mode for a second. where even then suddenly disengaging from that mode is not a relief in that the [this could happen at any time] is emphasized" like lmfao that's [being in an abusive situation], that's [being autistic], isn't it so Zany that there's so much overlap / resonance.
Not At All being Lol abt how much actual discrete examples of produced horror is just like "what if there was disabled people." this is its own line b/c of the characters per block limit. but also disdainful emphasis
anyways lol wuh oh in conclusion, antifascism....isn't it always
#celebrating the true meaning of that autism acceptance month...and every other thing#gather round the disability justice [holiday tradition] children; who are people to be supported & not property granted to parents....#just excising things lol been marinating on [more nonspeaking than i thought; even more nonverbal probably] & [more ''uh oh an autistic#person doesn't want friends? proves they bring it upon themselves'' than i thought] all based on All Life Experience#explaining like; more like Ultraromantic but in the way that [prefix Ultra] means Beyond rather than Superlative Of / Extremely X lol#ultraviolet light is not [as violet as you could get]....don't think it'd catch on. and: when it isn't not political lol#thinking of ''hell yes though for straightup Object/Concept names'' tendencies & like dramatic words for last names? v gay v trans#even [milo] was just a name i always knew i loved so that's been very simple & straightforward. but beyond that? how about Beyond that#thinking of ''what if a word that sounds cool and is a neat meaning'' like middle name kilopascal?? why not. but not set on that one lol#been testing out / placeholding Burrows for a last name cuz a milo burrows is mentioned in lotr. doesn't promptly answer letters lol.#me neither. but hmm B for Beyond. beyond what? it's flexible#testing it out in my mind. i'd be lastnameless fine as well but sometimes; it's convenient. specifying which milo in broader contexts#Public Universal Friend; Thou Sayest It shit#anyways Everything's Political let's get you some fruit#breathing's political as they say; for real. being in public. being in private. exchanges w/a rando. exchanges w/a nonrando.
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Honestly, finding out someone you thought you could trust is a bigot is such a harrowing experience.
I will literally wake up in the morning feeling awful and having a minor panic like “everything is bad now is it because I got upset did I ruin everything by being upset?”
And then I wake myself up, clear my head, and realize “Wow, no actually. I got insulted by someone who called me something blatantly offensive and bigoted and now they’re avoiding me after I got rightfully upset as if they’re the victim in this somehow.”
Like. Why are you running away like you didn’t prove your bigoted opinions of me? Why am I the one feeling bad when all I did was get negatively profiled by you and made it clear that I didn’t like that? Do you always harm people and then run away like a scared animal?
Cuz all I see is an asshole that feels superior because they can say something blatantly cruel and then roll over like a dog and expect forgiveness.
#Calico Chats#Privileged people can act like such a disease with no prompting its so absurd#Also intentionally said 'bigoted' because I feel like we've all experienced this from being gay in a straight room or trans in a cis room#Disabled in a room of ableists#Also because I've noticed that every time I say the 'R word' relating to the bigotry I'm facing y'all tune out like you don't know this#Keeping it real though people always do this shit when they're not in your face because face to face they can get punched lmfao#Pussy behavior tbh
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