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tw rlly triggering vent in tags
#tw self harm#tw blood#tw vent#vent#i feel sick to my stomach again#everytime i cut i do smth worse#did smth really bad this time didnt i#theres so much blood#ok not toooo much not like in movies amount but jeeeessusssss#i thought i was gonna die for a sec lol#theres spit and blood everywhere cuz i drool when im very upset or anxious#my breathing is again kind of shallow#blood . all over my leg#god this leg is so upsettting#i dont even care if i cut over scars#ah well if anything bad happens i have bandages ig#im so scared lol
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Awhile ago @vanillaverses asked for some summer themed Pure Vanilla costume so... I tried to make a more beach themed one!
Sprite doodle + og humanized concepts under cut!
i started with the humanized doodles as I had a general idea before settling on an idea! Also his staff's base back is a sea shell! I really tried to concept a kinda beach vibe so!!
#✁ | freshly decorated | ✃#cookie run#cookie run kingdom#pure vanilla cookie#This was my first time trying to make smth more cookie + inspired by the costume illusts so I hope this cool 😭#THIS TOOK ME LIKE MORE THAN A MONTH MY GOODNESS#I did the original concepts and then had artist block because I didnt like it + couldnt draw cookie forms that well#so I practiced cookie forms + changed things around in my concepts to see if I liked other things more#added him his staff because... how will he see without it (proceeds to draw him without his staff in the illust)#ITS SO FUNNY TO ME CUZ LIKE#I have only really designed more like villains#edgy... darkness... idk whatever the Cookies of Darkness have going on#working on my like villain vanilla au and making designs for the other characters and its all like ohohoh villains#and with this i was like time to make smth lighthearted!#this was HARD because it had to be simple cuz cookie and also free of all things bad 🥹🙏#wholesome vibes ONLY#originally he had like a more ice cream vibe but then CN cookie run released the new pv costume and i was like time to redesign!! 😭😭#sorry for the ramble in the tags I have A LOT TO SAY APPARENTLY
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i'm kind of amazed how most of the stardew marriage candidates just want you to be their manic pixie dream whatever by agreeing with everything they like and plying them with compliments or praise or whatever (which is fine but a bit. Much) but for shane his romance is just you being there for him while he figures his own shit out... dunno why i never wanted to romance him before he's so good
#i'm usually a sebastian kinda guy but i do think it's silly you have to say you like scifi to gain friendship points w him like cmon man#i will say though that. my bestie's baby daddy being named shane kinda does make it hard to like him 😭 unfortunate but not his fault#ik a lot of ppl are weird abt his recovery and his messy ass room bc they play stardew to make things look pretty or whatever#but i'm actually kind of glad he's a realistic depiction of addiction... the problem is his dependence on indulging in alcohol when he's#depressed not the fact that he drinks period... i think that a lot of ppl are unrealistic abt alcoholism (including me abt my dad's)#but concernedape did really good w him imo. anyways all this to say that i'm really glad shane never expects someone to be a certain way#i know most of the candidates are like. archetypes or whatever and i think that's fine they are very sweet and cute regardless but#i think maybe i didnt romance him before bc i related to him so badly that it hurt seeing myself reflected LMAO dead end life and being#suicidal about it like. i've never had a drug dependence but i'm not really in a position where i can ever make my own decisions anyways#but regardless. there is smth to someone who slowly warms up to you when they can't ignore your kindness any longer and have no reason to#act like an abused dog anymore which. does make me sad just to say but that is how he acts beforehand#idkkkkk idk i think people are always too caught up with his addiction and his messy room to actually see him without realizing that#getting better is a lot harder than it appears and that having a dirty room doesn't mean you aren't trying to be better. sigh#besides it's not like. the end of the world that he has a beer sometimes. have you tried going thru life completely sober? it sucks#ok im done LMAO but yeah i've found myself gravitating towards him this time around when i've romanced sebastian literally every playthru#til now. hmm!#ACTUALLY ONE MORE THING. i like how he's basically a twist on the classic useless husband trope in media where they love sports and drinking#but he's not a bad person and the only reason he's mean to you at first is because he hates himself and his own life and he makes an effort#the more you get close to him instead of the opposite. i like that a lot. ok now i'm done
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for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........
#MOTHER FFFFUCKER#to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants#im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night#at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn#to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS#the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori#but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey#consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!!#just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick#outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to#animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better#at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH#i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc#im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over#where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands#there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE#ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles#but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your#health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!!#im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves#also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet#im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to#have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to#to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up#their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ#yapping
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dating an art student was so crazy I'm just thinking abt that one birthday I had where my ex got me stickers from the etsy of the person they were cheating on me with....
#they made them address the thank you note to me and everything ajskfjfkfb. i didnt know they were cheating at the time but wow...#every time i break out my sticker collection and see them im reminded of it. but i cant throw out the stickers theyre deltarune ones 😭#like they were a rly cool artist.... just unfortunate that happened 💀#the drama was insane. my ex only wanted to sleep with them but they (other person) wanted them to break up with me so they could date#but my ex dumped them rly harshly for suggesting that i guess 'romantic' cheating was a step too far even for them lmaooo#i heard abt their breakup secondhand and god could they be cruel sometimes. they made fun of the sex theyd had w them#to all their mutual friends n everything i actually felt so bad for the other person when i found out. at least our breakup wasnt that bad#i only finally got that cruel side of them directed towards me like a year after when they wanted us to stop being friends#but yeah. its also funny in a way bc my ex only suggested i had adhd bc the other person did too + struggled a lot with rsd#which i guess they found out when they broke up with them. and then looked at that and thought huh my gf is kind of similar...#and this was like. 2 years before i even considered i had adhd myself and sought diagnosis ahdkfidjcjdjfjfjfkdbfnf#this made me go look the other persons art page up on instagram + then i recognised some of their friends/flatmates art pages and i found#their (my exs that is) grad year film which is still being shown at animation festivals... good for them good for them#i dont think they have an art page themselves tho cuz they were always v shy and weird abt sharing art on social media#like everyone else except them is tagged on things... shame i wouldve liked to see what they were making now. even if we're not friends#also one of their old roommates made some REALLY similar squid game fanart to mine like a month after i posted it huh..#not mad abt it or anything i think its cool i just didnt realise they showed my art to their friends. thats cute#ah this was years ago anyway. getting my head out of the rabbit hole#im gonna go play some elden ring and then maybe do smth fun in my sketchbook we shall seeee#.diaries
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crazy that some people can not tell when you are being doing a bad faith argument just for the fuck of it
#personal#its just really funny to me i was talking to my mom earlier#and she was chattin abt facebook and all the halloween parents who were like mad it rained last night lmao and asking if ppl#would do halloween again tonight (LMAO. ROFL EVEN)#which is like whatever lmao like its just rain. get an umbrella. it wasnt a thunderstorm chill omg its okay#but then she was talkin abt some ppl who had bowls out on the porch who had the bowls get stolen and i was like obviously. ofc#100% bad faith like who cares its a bowl! oh no my two dollar halloween candy bowl from target! whatever will i do without it!#some drunk kid took it! some parent took it! oh my god the humanity! lol who cares. its a bowl. get over it. whatever#partly cuz i didnt care for this conversation and partly cuz its kinda funny and i just cant imagine caring about an empty bowl#getting nicked by some 40 yr old in a bee costume with their toddler#but she was so appalled she was like but thats not right! its your property! what if someone took my lawn decorations!#like mom for the record someone DID try to take your flamingo lawn decorations once and dad nearly shot them over it so like. that#clearly this is a sensitive topic for you. but like OBVIOUSLY THATS NOT RIGHT. OBVIOUSLY. WE ALL KNOW THAT#taking a candy bowl is unjust and cruel behavior we can all agree. how is it that you can not read the animated expressions and tone#of your daughter arguing in clearly bad faith she even threw in the ''thats the difference btwn generations i guess ...'' like MOM. OMG#it was so funny im still chuckling over it like mom whats happening to the reading comprehension you used to do this#with me ALL THE TIME and still do and yet you cant TELL !!!!!!! when i do bc when i do it its a stupid argument#and when YOU do it its some racist sexist shit or smth lmao#anyway the jooooooooys of conservaaaaaativeeeeee paaaaaaaarentsssssssss#theyre VERY intelligent :) <3
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i dont wanna be a dick and act like i have no responsibility in this but after a point dont u think if all you ever say to ur friend is Omg you never make it out why dont you ever come out with us you bail all the time youre such a flake etc. dont u think that person (me) is like. not gonna feel so inclined to. be there
#like. yeah i was bad last semester i get it. and probably i shouldve tried at least once or twice to push thru#but i was so exhausted. and every time they would bring up hanging out it was on my longest days#and when i casually brought this up they were just like Well we have long days too. Okay!#and i love and miss these friends and i know for the most part. or at least think. theyre just teasing#i hate being seen as the flake like any time i do have to be like Oh i cant make that or Shit im sorry i have to bail#i try to offer an alternative???? and they never compromise on that. how is that fair like im not just outright rejecting u all the time#not to mention most of the time last semester it was always gonna be somewhere super easy for them to get home and far from me#im not like constantly holding this against them btw but i feel like they're holding it against me and i dont have any more apologies in me#anyway. that said. if theyre somewhere really expensive and far from me tn and i get out of work early#i. probably will not make it. lol! if theyd be willing to come a little closer to my place to one of the dives or some shit thatd be great#and like im not doing much today until class and work so really like. i WILL try. but i think they could sometimes not go for the most#expensive and inconvenient option as well. and these r all things ill say if it becomes like a problem problem or smth#but rn im not gonna be a dickhead and shit on their plans#but also! ok whatever im not gonna keep going on i just feel shitty im not 100% better from being sick and im just frustrated#about having to fuckign grovel over and over and over. i meant it the first few times now im just like#u could try not to be an asshole to me for five seconds too. like. i am very clearly not someone trying to secretly stop being friends#w yall. things happen#abby talks#and maybe this is an esp sore spot bc like ive certainly had some of you bail on me or be flaky or whatever before. and i didnt throw#a fucking fit to your face about it. probably bc it actually did feel more mean spirited sometimes#OK im sorry im not trying to make my friends sound evil and its mostly just the one and like im working on forgiving her for it cause it#was years ago but also like christ!
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someone needs to bail me out of class for the next too days and lock me in solitary so i can finally have some alone time and properly cry
#mmmmmmm my roommate has many habits that drive me insane#and im too scared to tell her off despite knowing holding it in will absolutely make me feel worse and worse#also i spilt ramen sauce all over my shit and on a white shirt i love so#one more thing to add to the cry abt list#also weird rant now#my moms given me such a bad fucking relationship with money food and gifts#and suddenly shes been so nice to me now that if feels suspicious#which is a really bad fucking thing to feel about your own mom#she got me cupcakes???? theyre being sent/for pickup via my college dining program which i didnt even know you could do#but idk why she did it in the first place nor why she didnt do it for my birthday if she did it at all?#anyways times like this makes me wish i was way more emotionally avaliable and less emotionally constipated#but i vent enough abt shit already that i feel like im whining and complaining more than anything so#a genuine hug from one of my friends or smth that doesnt immediantly give me the ick#bc i genuinely hate that it can happen to me for literally any of my friends#anyways a genuine hug would make me break down crying immediantly#this has been my rant of the day and my horror upon realizing i think one of my irl college friends actually follow me#hi if youre reading this#no you didnt
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the link to the past manga is decent. making agahnim more of his own character is good, making him a lot more interesting. ghanti is an ok addition, though the quick pace of link’s collection of pendants causes things to fall apart a little bit. the tower of hera is given one page. all of the dark world dungeons are pretty much skipped over save for snippets explaining the bosses. the dark world looks cool when you get to see it, but since its so shortened in the manga, you don’t get much. it’s a shame. this one starts off good and the stuff with agahnim and the art, but kind of slides down the slippery slope of streamlining the story just to make it fit.
#salty talks#bitching about the loz manga#also have not played alttp but this one was good too ig#i dont. care about ghanti? idk what purpose she serves being added aside from being a vaguely interesting character#shes not bad but. eh#i did not play alttp all the way. i don't really know what's missing. i can only guess based on my experience with albw#but the first half is good#and then the dark world segment is less than half the book#isnt the dark world segment pretty long? this is again based off my playing albw but like. arent there more dungeons? isnt it longer?#whatever. this one is fine it at least shouldve been two volumes#also the stuff with the flute (ocarina) kid was neat.#next one is ph and that one is uh. going to be different! i might go chapter-by-chapter and tear into it that way#until then (i might take some time before posting a ph manga review) if you wanna talk to me abt the loz manga feel free to send an ask#like if you want to talk about something i didnt mention in a post then hey! you can ask me abt it or tell me smth you like or dislike
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#why did i Do That why whywhywhy#i think im actually going to throw up#I JUST WANTNRD TO SAY HI YP MY FROEND BUT NOOO OFC ITS NOT ACTIALLY HER ON WHATS SUPPOSED TO BE H E R FUCKING PAGE#“since you eont syop messaging ny sister” BRO THAT EAS LITERALLY OVER A WEEK AGO WHAT??#and when something happend between her mom and i thats been iver a year oh my god.#i shoulfve fucking known it wasnt her why did it fucking do it#UGDHDHDHSHS#i fucking hate it here#i sent maybe like 5 total meaages but thats bc i had things to say dickhead AMD ALOT OF IT WASNT EVEN ABOUT SPECIFICALLY WJAT HAPPEND WOTH#HER FUCKING MOM AND I LIKE?? IM BEINH CALLED THE FUCKING INSANE ONE WHAT#Thats not continually messaging your sister thats beukg concerned for her asshole and again! LITERALLY. OVER A WEEK AGO.#its not like i messaged anyone else either like. i did last year WHICH STILL WASNT ABOUT THE THING I (ADMITTEDLY STUPIDLY#bc iy was smth else i was mad ad-) GOT MAD AT HER MOM ABOUT LIKE.#im just really concerned for my friend and im supposed to stop caring like that?#idk ehy i did that. ofc it was her mom on her fucking page.#I EVEN GOT TOLD TO LEAVE HER ALONE?? AS IF IVE BEEN MESSAGING CONSTANTLY OH MY GODDD#“drama stirrer” my fucking ass i was just hoping one of you was actually a fucking decent person so my friend can get the proper help she#should have#i did have a inking that ofc it wasnt myfriend on there so i did send a message saying how sad it was for other people to be on someones pag#page acting as them i didnt say anything hateful or anything either and yet i get told “friend showed me this and basically you can fuck of”#and a whole rant from her sibling. acting as if i messaged them specifically again. lmao okay then#IF THRY DONT WANT HER BEING FRIENDS WITH ME SO BAD WHEN ITS BAD ENOYGH IM LITERALLY IN THE SAME FUCKING AREA AS HER#THEN JUST FUCKING BLOCK ME?? ATLEAST I WOULFNT BE GOING IN HOPIMG IT WAS ACTUALLY MY FRIEND THIS TIME.
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Y'know now that I'm seeing a small handful of ppl actually giving a shit abt oni lore it's making it so much harder to not become a nerd emoji every five seconds anytime I see someone talk abt oni because I forget that every source of oni information is comically outdated
#rat rambles#oni posting#I have had my fair bit of mistenteripitations as well I have to fight myself every day to not go and delete a bunch of old posts#I wont delete them because they are a catalog of me getting into oni and thats rly important to me but also aghhhhhh#I was wrong abt so much shit that wasnt even because of misenterpretation just me being bad at reading lol#Im still learning new things every time I revisit the logs because I am that prone to misreading and glazing over things#which is why I Really need to finish up and post all the logs so that other ppl can double check with me lol#well in theory theres still not That many ppl interested in lore and Im not even sure if said ppl would see my catalog#but I still want ppl to have an actually complete source for this stuff so Ill probably start cleaning it up more tomorrow#I also will have to go double check that I didnt miss anything because it's very likely I did#it wont be too hard to clean up just annoying since its copy and pasted from the code#again its just abt cleaning it up so that its a bit more readable#I will keep in the name of each log in the files because I think thats information that ppl should be able to access#yknow in case you wanna read it in game without having to hunt it down#for context you can manually unlock a log in one of the oni folders where log unlocks are stored#you can just open it on a note app or smth and add the logs you wanna unlock and it should add them#I haven't done it myself but Ive done similar stuff and its not hard as long as you know the file names#not saying ppl Should cheat in the logs just that I want those who want to to have the option#now my biggest problem is that I dont actually know which logs are spaced out logs#idk maybe theres a way to tell in the files but chances are Ill just have to leave it unspecified for now#I also might end up digging up any set piece item descriptions since while the vast majotity of them are very much not lore relevant#I know at least 2 (3 To Me) are and if I include those and not others thatd just feel weird#its a similar thing I had with the artifacts where the line between lore relevant and not gets blurred the more I include#so yeah Ill start with just logs and artifacts and Maybe do setpiece building descriptions if I feel up to it#but if any of you find the jackie's office setpiece in your saves then know that you have access to both my favorite setpiece and one of my#favorite lines of text in the game Period#its maybe not that big of a deal but it is 2 Me Ok#and to be clear its not jackies desk although I do love that one too girlie is not over her divorce#anyways time to shower and think abt sploon toon some more since well yknow
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#INSANE ABOUT EDGAR AND MADDIE I SHOULD HAVE NEVER REWATXHED ED1984 now im literally CRAZY#HEHJSGAHHEHRHRHEHRREEEHHGGERREERR#ughghghghhhjhdihdk i honestly wann get into how miles is literally a douchbag and maddie should dump him and how he sucks#but i think i might be torn apart#I LIKE MILES AND IM NOT SAYING YOU CANT but wow is he just a piece of fucking shit#i have a rewrite in my head that makes him an asshole (silly) instead of an asshole (derogatory) but in cannon WOW#i hope maddie dumps him#also not related to him sucking but he NEEEDDDDSSS to get an adhd and dyspraxia diagnosis soooo bad#adhd dyspraxic miles REAL#anyway ed1984 au edgar and maddie start talking in secret post movie#(edgar like gets a way to talk to her directly and privately or smth idk)#and then they ditch miles and go frolic together (or whatever the computer equivalent of frolicking is)#they both deserved so much better the movie really did them both so dirty#and i like miles' dynamic with eddie and maddie when hes not being shitty so it makes me upset to remember that he just like SUCKS! SO BAD!#bros just downright abusive with edgar and mean to maddie#AND WHEN HE TELLS HER TO SHUT UP!!!!! broooo that scene it makes me sooo mad#like he had the WHOLE car ride to apologize and he didnt????? DID IT EVEN CROSS HIS MIND???? AT ALL????#just waiting until the last second to try and salvage his relationship with madeline after realizing his actions might have consequences#and then his actions actually DONT have any consequences! surprise!#because maddie is just fine with him the next time we see them interact#its like nothing happened! idk maybe im making way to big of a deal#but whatever#we can all agree he treats edgar like garbage though right?#like actively and doesnt even try to make peace with him even though id say edgar was overly patient with miles and set boundaries that#miles just fucking ignores doesnt even make a consistent effort#okay ill be quiet now............ cannon miles just UGAJGSJSHSH#i like him sooo much when hes not being shitty its upsetting#ribsy rambles#im on mobile so this is probably REALLY scuffed because i hate writing tags on moblie (ive now prettied them up a lil on desktop)#also i dont think he ever tells her the truth........ he just says “btw ive been lying to you LOL! anywaysss why do you love me UWU” like??
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need to sleep but the Dread is consuming me
#i just feel like smth bad is going to happen tonight. but also i feel like this p often on random nights where nothing bad happens so.#it could be bc i had caffeine this morning and its still fucking with my. brain#or more likely its bc im back on the overnight call list for work starting tonight and continuing the rest of the time i have this job#being able to not be on it while i was on vacation was so nice like i could actually sleep#still couldnt sleep through the night but at least when i did wake up it didnt take me an hour to fall back to sleep#generally when i feel this much dread on a night i can get work calls its bc theres going to be a call sometime between 3 and 6am that nigh#hopefully there wont be but ik this dread and anxietys gonna fuck up my sleep regardless so whatever#i dont really want to move to nyc but if i get this job offer i think i just need to bc this job is fucking me up so bad#if it wasnt for this fucking on call thing itd be tolerable but i just can't handle the on call thing#the fear that ill get a call and not know how to solve the problem and have to call my boss or coworker to help is killing me#ik its stupid but i have really bad anxiety around waking ppl up and asking ppl for help and calling ppl so#perfect combination to make me Suffer ig#and i did try talking to my boss about it and told him it was the reason i was unhappy on the team#and he essentially said i just need to be better at my job so we get less calls and that being on call is essential and unavoidable#if i dont get the nyc job i might need to just quit anyway which i know is pathetic but i just cant handle this on top of the other things#like i cant have no friends and a useless therapist and meds that dont work and no sense of self and a million other things#and then on top of that a job that makes it so i cant even sleep which is the one thing ive always been okay at and not had problems with#i know its so silly and i know i need to be grateful this job pays me well and shut up#i just am so miserable and i need to be able to sleep like i need that one thing please#sorry for being ridiculous and insane i know its stupid to be this upset over this#sorry dkdkjd sorry about all this i genuinely cant believe anyone still follows me when i post this bullshit#hopefully its fairly easy to ignore and everyones just not expanding the tags so im just screaming into the void#cant tell if i really want no one to see this or if im putting it all here all the time so i can pretend someone is reading it and cares#idk im just so tired and so sad and so scared all the fucking time and i think i just dont want to always be alone in it idk#and i know my problems arent real or serious or bad but unfortunately im pathetic and spoiled and theyre destroying me anyway
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redrawing my very first chiscara comic/art i ever did for chscr day!!
old comic under the cut!!
lol a bunch of sappy semi serious stuff below bc i cant help but be a bit genuine about this ship today :’3
i cant possibly put into words how important this silly little ship and its community mean to me haha,,,, this comic was made in 2021 but i didnt really get serious about chscr until late 2022 after a bunch of pretty bad interpersonal stuff happened and i needed an outlet,, COINCIDENTALLY a certain someone was announced to be playable around then and i was already thought chscr was Pretty Neat™️ so i ended up diving headfirst into the ship. it also gave me a good excuse to work on more comics too!! i’d done a pretty big zhongven comic earlier that year in the summer, but in terms of lore there was only so much i could have worked with at the moment.
childe and scaramouche have that perfect combination of silliness and angst and violence that could be explored or expanded in so many ways and i love love love seeing other people’s interpretations of their dynamic and relationship. they’re so complex,,,,they’re narrative foils,,,they’re narrative parallels,,,they’re trans allegories,,,they’re flies in the spiderweb of the games lore,,,they’re my stupid little meow meows,,, they’re just two losers i want to see make out,,,
in a nutshell, they’re everything to me. well, i hope i get that kind of sentiment across in my own comics,,,,
and i cant get started on all the people ive met through chiscara or the way that having something i can call “my thing”, as in, the thing that i like and that i will spend a lot of time and effort (and money, but lets not talk about that) to surround myself with because it makes me smile. its stupid to say, but being a nerd about these two stupid guys who have never had a single canon onscreen interaction in some random game has made me a much happier and confident person that i could have ever imagined back in my freshman year of college,,, when i say i dont know who i’d be if i hadnt gotten into chiscara, i really do mean it lol
i’m actually surprised i’m making it to over a full year of regular-ishly making art, especially for the same game and ship! thats never happened before and my art has improved so much over this past year!! more than anything else, i’m happy! i get to be excited talking about these characters with my friends and i love to see art of them pop up on the tl. i make stickers of them and decorate my phonecase with them and have little figures of them in my room that i look at when im up late at night working on schoolwork. sometimes just the thought of finishing a comic or daydreaming about a scenario or seeing what my mutuals are up to are some of the few things getting me through a tough day.
,,,,so believe me when i say, to both childe and scara and to everyone else as obsessed with these pathic losers as i am, thank you! i’m having a lot of fun!!!
(also i just found out tumblrs copy/paste doesnt work on my ipad??? idk if this ends up legible i may or may not have deleted smth by accident and im not in a mood to proofread haha)
#genshin impact#childe#tartaglia#scaramouche#chiscara#scarachilde#my art#comic#no super long rant in the tags this time bc i already made a chscr rant haha#happy chiscara day everybody!!
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helooo can i request saiki x reader bf texts please? thank you so much !! anything is fine honestly as long as its saiki content i miss him 😭😭😭😭
ooooou I haven’t got a request like this yet and it seems very fun!! No problem hun <3
IKR after you finish the anime it feels like such limited content is left for the saiki k fandom!! 😭😭
💓💗 Saiki and his boyfriend~ 💗💓
“Wanna go get some coffee jelly”
“This is oddly specific but can you tell the magician outside to leave please?”
”can you keep aiura and torisuka distracted so I can leave school?”
”thanks I’ll pay you back in (favorite thing)”
”let’s meet at the arcade”
”I’m annoyed my mom is forcing me to go outside but I know I’m gonna run into kaido”
”please come with me to make this more bearable”
”don’t forget to study for that test”
convos :3
”how do I make friends with that average guy from the other class without seeming weird”
”Kusuo idk just go up to him and talk to him 😭”
”yeah but if I don’t have something to talk about it’ll be awkward and my likeability meter will go down”
”can you figure out his interests for me so I can talk to him?”
”what? YOU do it 🤦”
”no i can’t the nuisances will find me”
convo 2 ;P
“Do you wanna come shopping with me?”
”your not gonna invite the nuisances too are you?”
”no kusuo 😭”
”oh okay well no”
“I'm NOT!”
“I know but nuisance number 4 just showed up”
”at your house?”
”no at the mall”
”ohh well fine 🤦”
convo 3
”can I borrow your bike nendo broke mine”
”HOW?”
”idk he sat on it”
”WHAT LOLL”
”I need it so I don’t have to go shopping with my dad”
”why is that so bad?? 😭”
”because he starts begging for things at the store”
”??”
“Isn’t he a grown man?”
”yeah I know that’s why I need to borrow your bike”
”sure babe..😭🤦”
convo 4
”my mom wants you to come over for dinner”
”oh alright!”
”no”
“??”
”say your sick”
”kuu why? 😭😭”
”can’t I come over??”
”no my parents are embarrassing”
”LOL”
”but I’ve come over plenty of times before tho”
”I know but, please just don’t come over”
”what’s happening??”
”fine. My dad wants to play a prank on someone because when he try to scare me it didn’t work. So I need you to come over and pretend to be scared so my mom doesn’t kill me”
”what?? So now I’m supposed to come over?”
”let’s just get it over with”
”you go through so much I swear 😭💗”
convo 5
”when you come over and my mom asks if you wanna meet my brother say no”
”whaaat but I kinda wanna meet him”
”say no”
”for both of our sakes”
”if you don’t go I won’t have to either”
”fine 😒”
convo 6
”goodnight kuu”
”goodnight m/n”
convo 7
“I hear nuisance number 4 isn’t showing up to school today”
”no she isn’t”
”rejoice. God is real.”
”KUSUO 😭😭”
convo 8
“your driving home today right? Can I hitch a ride? Nuisance number 1 is here”
”wait which nuisance is that again?”
”how can you forget? It’s the second most terrible one. Nuisance 1 is nendo”
”OHH YEAHH”
”hurry he’s coming”
”YEAH MEET ME AT THE CAR LOL”
convo 9
”come with me to nuisance number 2’s house so I don’t have to go alone”
”kaido right? he’s not so bad right? I can’t I have homework”
”no he’s just really weird and cringe and awkward”
“I’ll wait”
”okay 😭”
convo 10
“can I come over and we can watch that show you recommended me?”
”yeah sure any time kuu”
”you really don’t have to ask, I could get you a spare key if you want”
”yes an emergency escape route in case of nuisance surprises”
”WOW OK”
”and you ig”
convo 11
”that was sweet. what you did for them”
“Yeah I guess they’re not so bad for now”
”for now Kusuo?”
”you sound like my mom”
”actually, that’s not an insult I love your mom”
”I know”
”WYM 😭”
”you hug her more than I do”
”well that proves smth 🤨����”
”eh. I’ll get her a gift”
”good cuz she’s awesome 😙”
convo 12
“let’s finish playing that game you have”
”NO”
”WHY IT WAS SO FUNNY”
”you have never even played it he’s so annoying”
”LOLL YOU DIDNT HAVE TO TELL HIM TO DIE THO”
”you wouldn’t even think it’s funny if I hadn’t have told you”
”come on at least least me see the chapter you said you hated”
”you just wanna see me suffer”
”If I did I wouldn’t have distracted hairo for you earlier”
”FINE”
”LOL YIPPIE I’m coming over as soon as I’m done with my homework 🙂”
”😒”
convo 13
“How do I transfer to class 2”
”you just wanna be with satou don’t you”
”you don’t know how?”
”no kuu, I don’t 🤦”
convo 14
“I have to go visit my grandparents and my granddad is really awkward come with me”
“I’D LOVE TO MEET THEM”
”why do you love my family so much?”
”they’re strange”
”I love YOU 😒”
”are you calling me weird”
”in what way are you normal mister magic powers with weird friends and family who also has to stop a volcano from erupting yearly”
”those are just ordinary daily tasks”
”now your coming right?”
”I should leave you”
”you wish you were normal so bad”
”when are we going”
”on second thought you can stay here”
”STOP BEING SALTY IM COMING”
”NOW TELL ME WHEN”
convo 15
”let’s reschedule the coffee jelly date for Sunday”
”it’s too chaotic”
”it’s Friday”
”I know I’m dreading the weekend”
”my poor kuu 😭”
”stop”
”you sound like my mom again”
*read* 1:39pm
LOL I LOVE CONVO 10-15 😊😈 (it got more chaotic as it went on- 😭)
muahahahahhaha hope you enjoyed! these were quite fun :3
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hii, it's me again 🤍)
can i request main 3(south park) with f!reader headcannons, when they realized that they fell in love w reader? like, how they confessed, with words or gifts, etc
sure anon!!
⋆ MAIN 3 CONFESSING THEIR LOVE :
✩ — STAN !
he probably would never realize it himself if kyle didnt tell him that he fell for u
after that he ignored the feeling for as long as possible
didnt wanna ruin your friendship
kyle again told him to finally confess
and he did
by messaging you😭
okay i know thats kinda bad but no way he would do it face to face
he would be like an awkward and stutterin mess
and through the phone he can express his feelings better
after sending the message he turned his phone off and just stared at the wall in silence
"what if she doesnt feel the same thing? what if she just laughs at me? omg im so stupid why did i even confess"
fidgets with his sleeve while waiting for you to text back
he lets the loudest and biggest sigh of relief and smilez when u say u love him back :)
cutie
✩ — KYLE !
he realized it himself
and it didnt take him really long to realize
he was also struggling to confess
its not because he was nervous about just confessing, he was nervous bc of his past experiences with girls😭
hes 100% sure it wont work and then it would be awkward for you 2 to still continue the friendship after breaking up or smth
in the end he decides to do it
it wont kill him, right?
unlike stan, he actually asks to meet up with you
brought you flowers🤗🤗
tries to play it cool but stutters just a rlly small bit
he just goes kinda like "uh.." every now and then but just a few times
after saying u love him too blah blah blah he smiles in the cutest way possible
he just prays for it to work out!
puts sm effort in too <3
✩ — KENNY !
kenny knew after some time
started flirting with you 'as a joke' in a 'friendly way'
he was hoping that you would understand
or maybe if he got lucky you felt the same way abt him and the flirting would motivate you to confess to him
nah
how were u supposed to get it if his pick up lines were so corny😿
"are you 14? bc you're the 1 4 me"
woop woop thats the sound of da police..
besides that he compliments you more often
"woo u look like bilion dollars bae, take my hand in marriage"
he confesses through flirtimg
sort of
"yooo u look so hot rn like kizz me"
"bet"
"what if im serious"
"..what?"
he said that bc if you said youre not serious he could save it and say that he was just joking🤗
when u say u luv him too u get the promised kiss!
u can request baes
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