#delete later vent sorry

[itsahotminuteinbetween]

small vent comic

(And more venting in the tags)

[zoneofsmites]

Still laughing about how they didn't want to "invalidate" anyone's worldstate. But that is exactly what they did.

Morrigan is the most obvious, I really cannot believe that a Morrigan who was a mother would have so willingly taken into her something like Mythal if she was a mother - of at this point - a 10 year old Kieran. Maybe she would, but it would be for different reasons.

Isabela is the most annoying to me. She's talking about how "Kirkwall taught her about family." as if she couldn't have been given up by Hawke to the Arishok. As if she couldn't have ran away from Kirkwall and never looked back. If I had met an Isabela from a world state like that, she would never have said that.

Harding talking about the Inquisition also feels like it misses some... extra flavour here and there based on actual choices. Like my Inquisitor didn't do well with Blackwall, and he didn't survive to see the end of the game. But Lace speaks about him fondly and in such a way that I don't think she should if the Inquisitor never 'redeemed' him.

Zevran is never mentioned by name, but what if a warden outright killed the assassin hunting them. Or he turned on them in Denerim and died later? Then explain to me that entire banter Lucanis has with Harding about why House Arainai messed up so bad they went trough several Talons about it. And now the Crows don't take contracts in Ferelden anymore.

At that point the reason that was given to us for the lack of worldbuild choices to prevent 'invalidating everyone's worldstate' feels null and void. Because you have. You have invalidated many worldstates already by bringing back these character or have people talk around them in such a way that doesn't make sense.

[artsymeeshee]

one of those nights

[quarterlifekitty]

I just wanna know if the boys will kill a spider for me - not capture and release, I'm talking insides on its outsides otherwise I will live in the artic where they have ZERO spiders (for now, yay global warming)

#not all lives are sacred such as Spiders, Pedophiles, Nazis, anyone who is a p.o.s

Okay, I was on the fence about posting this because I don’t want anyone to dogpile. Obviously there was no ill intent. But:

Please do not send me asks like this.

This is truly a very saddening thing for me to see. We are literally so fortunate to share our time on this earth with other creatures. Biodiversity is a blessing in our lives and a great source of beauty in the world. I am pleading with you not to wish death on things that you fear. Jumping spiders are able to see the very same moon in the sky that you do. It is deeply upsetting that you think that a bug you find gross or scary is at the same level as a Nazi or pedophile. What did spiders ever do to deserve that? You’re allowed to not like them, but it’s extremely cruel to say that their lives have no value just because you don’t like them. They have to eat and live and find a place for themselves just like you do, even when the world isn’t kind. They don’t know that you don’t want them in your house. I hope that if I find myself in a place where I’m not wanted, that I will be treated gently, and that my treatment will not be up to someone like you.

This might be kind of an overreaction. But this message really did make me so, so sad.

[captainpricespuppyhusband]

My f/os would never make me feel bad about my anger issues they would never make me feel like a horrible person just because i can’t control my rage and would do whatever they can to help me calm down

Pro.shippers/com.shippers DNI please

[spammy-selfships]

I know it probably shouldn’t bother me but I got someone being a bitch to me on Twitter about the yume stuff because of my age… yeah I know I’m a grown ass adult but does that really mean I have to stop loving characters? I grew up loving cartoon characters idk why people expect you to just stop and morph into a boring corporate slave with no personality the moment you turn 30…

Are there any other older yumes on this app? Is it really that bad and I’m too old? My imposter syndrome is telling me people only like my art because they don’t know how old I am and if they did something would flip and they’d find it cringe. Almost like my age is a dirty secret… even though I openly have it on my account.

[immadatdisney2]

Can you guys just stop fighting

Stop telling me I'm wrong

Stop making me disappear

Stop lying

Stop yelling

Stop hurting

Stop hating

Plase just stop

[cupiidzbow]

can i be so honest for second

i don’t post it i don’t bring attention to it on here, i don’t want to show other people on here and i know i failed in ignoring it by talking about it.

I get racist shit flung at me so much and it fucks with me so much more than i’d like to admit , and like I know im an easy to target bc i love primates my sonas are monkeys and I know theres racial connotations that can be flung AT me that I didn’t ask for .

i know its used to be hateful against black people and people purposefully use it to be discriminatory and people use it against me. I can’t escape that, and I always have to live with the knowledge that people are probably giggling to themselves coming into my inbox calling me the hard r or someone coming on my pinned post to call me a slur or call me a disgusting monkey or my f/o will never love me bc im black or whatever .

and it makes sad that the moment I want to be upset and vocalize something about it people get uncomfortable and want to bail bc I guess hearing me complain about people being blatantly racist to me and makes me upset is too much . I don’t know i just wish I was allowed to be openly upset about it without people getting upset at me. I don’t know

[jobeeart]

im posting this on main bc it's art related and i just want to say. shit fuckin sucks right now and there are fascists on the rise everywhere and every day i grow more and more dissatisfied with the like. apolitical-ness of my own art. like sure no such thing as apolitical art, especially not when my art is frequently queer but like. it does not reflect my anger and sadness with the state of the world u know. and i know!!! that making "cute" or "wholesome" art in the face of Horrors is it's own type of resistance but rn im just not in the mood for that. im in the mood for blood and guts and erotic cannibalism and shit like that. so if my art gets Weird. that's what happened.

ok thanks

[eilinelsghost]

So I ran across a (not particularly pleasant) conversation about my writing on someone else’s post the other day in which it was put forward that the correct way to frame Bëor’s wife was to erase her entirely and make his sons his nephews; also heavily implying a lack of creativity on my part (and a lack of commitment to the authenticity of Finrod and Balan's relationship) for not having utilized this "much easier solution that changes nothing much but allows for way less cringe".

I vented to friends and just moved on and tried to ignore it, but this particular aspect of the commentary has been bothering me so much that I'm going to take a moment for my own peace of mind to briefly address it here.

Bëor's wife is not a problem to be solved

The majority of women in the Silmarillion already exist as textual ghosts (Bëor's wife included). Why would the story be better served by eliminating her existence? One of the strengths of Silm fanfic that I've consistently appreciated has been the commitment to lifting women from the margins of the text and fleshing them out with full, complicated, and detailed identities. Her unspoken presence in the text is an opportunity to draw another woman forward into the narrative, not an excuse to erase them even further.

Furthermore, we know of Bëor's wife because of the existence of Baran and Belen. This suggested approach holds that they thus create a "problem" within the text for this particular story and the simplest solution should be to take her children from her and give them to someone else, all so that her husband can be free to fall in love without the encumbrance of her existence. Which leads me to the next issue.

Bëor's wife does not need to be erased to make Finrod/Bëor ok

The implication in these comments was that she needed to be scrubbed from the narrative in order for Finrod and Balan's relationship to be authentic or "monogamous." I'm not even going to get into the second part of that (which is...sure a take) but the authenticity of a relationship or the depth of someone's love is not determined by whether this is the only person they have ever been in love with. To be perfectly frank, that sounds more like the purity culture slop I was fed growing up than it does like the desire to uplift and enhance the queer relationship in the narrative that the op seemed to indicate was their intent.

It matters that the House of Bëor are the actual descendants of Bëor

This is a key point in the arc of the Silmarillion itself, but focusing just on what this means within a Finrod/Bëor context, it matters that the House of Bëor - who are consistently loyal to Finrod, who sacrifice to save his life, and for whom he eventually sacrifices his own life - are the offspring of the man for whom he crossed wisdom and wedded despite the chasm of sundered fates. They are how Bëor lives on even after Finrod's irreparable loss. Caring for them - dying for them - is a large part of how he carries Balan forward with him through the years of solitude and how he remains true to his love long after they are sundered.

There is a good deal more I could go on about, but I did say this would be brief, so I should leave it there.

[homelanderbutbig]

I've blathered on and on about my undiagnosed "issue" ad nauseam so I won't make this very long. I've had a recent downturn in my health over the last month, moreso in the last week. The toll it's taking physically and mentally is getting to my breaking point.

There may come a point within the next few months where this blog becomes more than I can handle. I can't say what happens in the future, of course. But unless I can get some relief or even a proper diagnosis I just want to put this information out there in case I just stop posting for a while. I feel like I'm already starting to slow down in general, I haven't been checking Tumblr or posting as often as I have before. I do like drawing and writing Homelander stuff but I am really starting to struggle and I'm not enjoying it. There's only so much I can do to fight through the vision problems and muscle pain.

Also if you've sent an ask lately you might have noticed it's been taking me like, 1-2 months to respond and I'm sorry. I'm almost finished through May 💀 so please don't think I've been ignoring anyone. I like to take my time with asks and I've fallen pretty far behind because it's just taking me longer to draw.

I don't know how to end this so here's yet another sad gremlin Homie I've drawn with my mouse, lol. He really do be me sometimes. <3

[smilesrobotlover]

I’m sorry, I really need to vent about this.

This Saturday, my brother and sister in law are moving away for an internship, and I’m so happy for them, I really am, but I’m also so incredibly devastated over it. When I moved up to college, I was terrified about making friends and meeting people, but my brother made sure I wasn’t alone because he went to the same college as me. I met and became close friends with my sis in law before they got engaged which eased my worries about having a sister in law. They only lived ten minutes away and so I’d see them every night. I’d play games, talk, whatever. I grew so close to them and I grew so close to their son who now crawls all over me and smiles at me everytime I see him since he recognizes my voice from when he was in the womb. I love them so much and I’m so freaking sad that they’re leaving. I literally can’t stop thinking about it. They haven’t left yet and I can feel the emptiness that they’ll eventually leave. I look at images of my nephew and feel so sad that I’m not gonna be able to see him often anymore. I’m scared he’ll forget me. They’re going from ten minutes away, to 5 hours, to literal states away. Idk how I’m going to do this. I’m so upset over this and everything happening these past few days are just making things worse for me.

This week is so weird cuz I’m receiving my endowments this Friday. Im so excited for it. My whole family will be there. Then they’ll all be gone on Saturday. I feel so alone.

[itsahotminuteinbetween]

(shut up shut up shut up shut up-)

(they’d give good hugs…)

[notelizapancakes]

y'all i HATE having a crush on someone... i literally dispise the way it makes me feel, it's digusting. like, why do i think about this MAN all the time, why do i check if this MAN has texted me all the time???? all of this for a MAN???? i am disgusted by myself lol. EW! 💀

[readingismyhobby24]

It always hurts so much when the people who are supposed to care about you the most just....don't. but they say they do and yet it just doesn't feel like it. And I wish it didn't affect me as much as it does, but it really does and I don't know what to do about it. I've put EVERYTHING I have into them when I wished I would have put it into something else. Something that would have had an actual positive outcome in the end. I want to live my life and not have to CONSTANTLY fear about messing up.

( more venting is in the tags)

[shycroissanti]

I HATE AI AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I HATE THAT I'M IN A CLASSROOM THAT FULLY SUPPORTS AI AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA