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(shut up shut up shut up shut up-)
(they’d give good hugs…)
#minute doodles#delete later#fnaf moon#fnaf sun#daycare attendant#fnaf dca#my sona#minute sona#shut up no one say anything just stop talking#(we like hugs and there was no one around)#(also our emotions have just been all over the place lately and this was one of many results)#anyhow#these are from september i think#We need them today cuz#things are#hard for us rn#The thoughts and the#Yknow#(Sorry for venting like 12 times on main this week folks)#Delete later#sun fnaf#moon fnaf
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Im soooo weak to when Bond is like casually being used or exploited at his expense for some ostensible Greater Good except the situation doesn't HAVE to come to that, not really, and he's so inured and even numb to it that he barely pays it any mind; meanwhile, Q absolutely minds and is very indignant on his behalf and works overtime to like either try to avert or forestall the situation before it gets to the point where Bond has to dig his own claws into more of his soft underbelly to offer up on the sacrificial alter of politics of all tawdry things, or to manufacture a way in which he does the needless "needful" so as to spare Bond at least one unnecessary additional wound upon his psyche.
bonus if Bond finds out and maybe after being angry or indignant about it - I don't need you to do my job for me, Q, this is what I'm here to do - and either Q tells him/lets slip or he deduces that like, this isn't Q thinking he can't get the job done, this is Q finding him precious and worthy of protecting, and like. he's just very in awe of that and does in fact feel very safe and cherished within the cradle of his Quartermaster's regard
#00q#of like... yes it's constant surveillance. but also it's like. constantly having a companion & constantly having an all-seeing eye#looking out for you and reaching out to influence your life#I'd imagine it's very like religion (*puts a Bond thought bubble on this*)#it's the Take Me to Church-ism of it all#lmao I didn't start this off as a web-weaving but now I'm weaving it into a web#but yeah in this fic - looked it up it's Playing the Part - this other rando agent is like. is he in your ear rn? the Quartermaster?#and the guy is like. I don't know how you handle it‚ being under his watch all the time. I know he's supposed to be your guardian angel but#I hope I never come to his attention‚ I don't want him to care enough to know a thing about me.#and it's sooo so interesting in the context of Q and this like. pathological need for omniscience we often assign him#cuz yeah it COULD be very oppressive and overbearing#but like. I think it complements Bond's Ambiguous Disorders a lot bc it WOULD read to Bond as Caring#like so much of his life doesn't belong to himself anyway so a lot of the puppeting is old hat#but what a novelty to have someone who does it not because they want something from him or because of what he can do for them#but because they care so deeply about *him* as to want to do right by him and look out for his well-being#also sidebar'ing back but like there's a lot stupid about Business English but 'do the needful' is probably one of if not THE dumbest thing#I've ever heard or seen in my life. like. absolute epitome of garbage bullshit bureaucracy-speak nonsense and I know I'm getting into dicey#territory cuz despite whatever origin it may have had it's seen more today as an Indianism. but still like in and of itself it's such#a dumb phrase. and speaks to such a height of bureacracy & it's like. you don't have to say it like that. there are other words you can use#okay anyway. back to 00q#somehow I've brought this into 'blasphemy but make it sexy. as a treat' lmao but yeah... Q as Bond's wrathful & jealous God....#WAIT another web weaving. Ulysses when Bond is like. no not a guardian angel. Q is his patron deity his household god. mm yes *chefs kiss*
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I have too many WIP ideas and I feel a bit like I’m drowning
#no time to write them#haven’t worked on black sweatshirt since I posted the new chapter#feeling scared I’m gonna drop black sweatshirt cuz I keep wanting to work on other things#but I want to finish it so bad#stress stress we don’t need this#I also know my terumob ideas will be more popular probably#I dunno#I’m also trying to buy plane tickets today that I want to buy but also makes me anxious#anxious Friday
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My aunt decided a good way to wish me a happy birthday would be to text me a picture of me & my dead dad from my 22nd birthday.
Like yay thanks, I totally wanted to be sad and missing my dad on my birthday. I definitely wasn't trying to do the "out of sight out of mind don't think about sad things" thing to get through it without crying or anything 👍 Definitely wasn't already struggling missing not getting a happy birthday text from him 👍👍
#and like I get that her intentions were good but i find it SO rude#why would you bring up something heart wrenchingly sad to someone on their birthday? Unless they've indicated to you that they want that#it wasn't even like it was a new picture/one she could reasonably believe I hadn't seen before#we literally used a cropped version of that exact photo for his obituary#she has done something similar with EVERY SINGLE holiday since he died#fathers day & his birthday & thanksgiving & christmas all of them we got texts like “i know how hard today must be!”#like uh no i was doing fine til I got your text actually cuz I was blocking it all out & now your text has forced me to think about it#we're not even that close? Like she legit had never texted me before my dad died#and the last conversation I had with her was her telling me that me needing help with things was co-dependence#rather than a legit need because I am disabled#and that keeping my curtains closed all the time was unhealthy#and when I tried to explain sensory issues she said that she 'gets headaches from the sun sometimes too but you just have to power through'#as if that's the same thing as sensory issues from autism#(which she is apparently an expert on because she is a nurse and has worked with a few young boys with autism)#like literally she claimed she knew better than my actual doctor who diagnoses autism for a living#or my therapist who sees me twice a week (whereas i speak to my aunt MAYBE once a year)#oh also did you know that I should totally be able to hold down a full time job?#because the 18 year old autistic boy she knows whose parents do literally everything to support him and who has zero other responsibilities#and a huge support network trying to meet his needs#well HE'S able to work part time at the movie theater#so obviously that means that I should be able to work too because we're all the same#yeah anyway sorry rant over#it just really upset me#also because I was so upset I forgot I wanted to go to the park on my way home from the weed store 😔#beth posts
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Was doing so good holding it together today but now that I’m laying down and trying to sleep I’m tearing up and I can feel that I’m about to burst into tears any second now
#my mom called me like ten minutes before I was off work today#and asked if I had talked to my grandpa lately and I was like yeah some why?#I’ve been showing what I’ve been cooking with him and my grandma because I was proud of myself#and she was like oh so you know about his potential surgery?#and I was like. his what???????#apparently his pace maker is dying and malfunctioning and he needs a new one#but this is the third time it’s had to be replaced and as he’s gotten older he’s had a lot more health issues#and they’re not even sure his heart can handle getting it replaced…. he has an appointment tomorrow to find that out#and no one told me. no one fucking told me it was that bad and I’m so#like man my feelings on my grandparents are so insanely complicated but I do love them#I love them so much and they practically raised me and loved me more and treated me better than my mother EVER did#they’re the only family members I’ve ever been legitimately terrified and upset over not accepting me cuz I’m queer#like my mom and siblings? I could not give a flying fuck if they hated me for my gender or sexuality#if my grandparents had a bad reaction I think I would fucking kill myself#and idk the point is I love him and I’ve barely seen him at all the past few years because we live far away now and I never visit because I#hate the rest of my family#but what if he can’t have this surgery?????#or what if he can but something goes wrong??????#what if he’s dying and I’m only able to go down and see him one more time#and he could be fine. it might all work out and he could be fine#but man I’m terrified that won’t happen because WHY WOULD NO ONE TELL ME ANY OF THIS#and yeah no I’m fully crying now I can’t do this#he taught me to draw and he built the house I grew up in and he got me into lord of the rings and would take me book shopping#and and and I’m gonna fucking throw up#kaz rambles
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hmmmm think i'm gonna go play some afop
#been in the mood to play but haven't gotten the chance in like two weeks#because i was out of town for a few days last week and even when home most of my free time has gone to working on my paws#speaking of my paws i hoped to finish them today but yeah that's not happening 😩#utah and/or the airport must've poisoned my family cuz all of us except my youngest brother#have been down with some sort or other of cough/congestion since we got back#and needless to say that's put a damper on my productivity#i did get some work done on the paws today just not as much as i'd hoped#oh well#can't breathe through my nose and my head's been hurting so#yeah need a break to chill for a while gonna play a bit of afop#probably not even my new save file i can't brain that hard right now#just gonna log into my main and do kukulope's challenges and call it good#woo
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good morning and merry christmas !! aesthetic photo of my cookies be upon ye
#just me hi#i put them on the plate and then the little devil and my shoulder said Hey what if we spent the next 20+ minutes editing it#and they were right that was fun lmfvshgh#Except for looking for a glitter brush on ibis! why are all the thumbnails so blurry it hurts my eyes Ghfksfjvk#yea the phone is working out good :) i'm gonna be taking pictures of everything now ehehehgh#also forgot to eat these for the 20+ minutes i was playing w/ the pictures#my breakfastttt: (went to go count but i have eaten some now. ouh) ✋10 🤚 christmas cookies :3#they're little ones- oh hey these pretzel one are kinda salty! yaaay#i like the swirly/horseshoe ones the most though. nyum#/we have pozole my mom made last night but i think that has to be warmed up hfhsvh#we got back from christmas midnight mass and everyone- Everyone (crazy) went to bed as soon as we got home lmfhvshg#i don't think that's ever happened. usually a couple are still awake until dawn and Then they go to sleep lol#yea but we didn't even get to try to the pozole last night <//3 helped to strain it last night though :D it smelled kinda sweet+spicy so ou#//we're waiting til i think friday or saturday for presents this year because of the Events so noo wrapping cleaning today 🎉💥 kfsvh#and i've been asked what i wanted. see i don't have that trouble of suddenly not having a want in the world: i just kinda don't have that#already for some reason lmao ?? so yea default state. do you think i'll get socks kfshvfh#//do love having to go back into my tags and add the topic slash bc every topic is related All the time Forever lmfsh#//hey but i DO need socks HEY i'm not joking anymore. don't want any with patterns though they will bother me lol#cuz unless i like the patterns i am not going to wear them :/ that is unless i think they're silly then they pass#are they holiday-themed? i'll prolly still wear them during the fourth of july so we can guarantee 1 whole day of use lhfshvjg#however during the warmer days (anything above 55 degrees) i wear chanclas w/o socks. so maybe not so much guaranteed#and also if i can't find it's match i will just never wear it again. truly tragic#i'm painstakingly matching my plain white socks i can Not handle patterned socks again#/wait was this post about cookies. dude how did we get here Lmfjvskfhvahfhvj#//Okay i'm gonna ummm#Ummmmmmmm#uuuuhm. draw :3 Toodles !! merry christmas !! <3
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ok wait i might have woken up at 12 but imma try to make today productive 😣😣
#i love weekends#but i hate that i have nothing to do#but then when i have plans#i hate them#so idk#but i feel like i always just rot and feel useless on weekends#and i hateeee that feeling#but idk what to do!!#so imma try do be productive today#im gonna go shower#and then clean my room#and then EAT#CUZ I NEVER DO THAT#and then probably do some writing#then maybe walk the dogs#bc i never leave the house#one of my friends asked if we could hang out today#but idk if that'll happen#then read#oh! and do my laundry#i need to do that#and i have to remember to drink water#ugh why is living so weird#why cant i just exist and be fine#i have to DO things#whatever#eunoia annoys '♡'
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cleared the fridge out so that we don't have a dozen condiments that expired last year ... we rarely make food waste anymore but some of those random sauces get pushed to the back and never thought of again
#[static]#i need to do a big shopping trip today cuz we finally got through all our eggs and hearty vegetables#and I gave a couple of bags of pantry items to a coworker who just moved and was struggling to have food at home#im gonna try and make a few different meals this week just based on what i have left in there#looking like chicken stuffing casserole. enchiladas. crunch wraps and mandarin orange chicken#im trying to be a lot better about my fiber intake ... because even though I rarely have stomach troubles i just know that i should be-#-eating way more fiber than I do. beans and legumes forever (and I'm perfectly alright with that ... I love them)#i got some beef chuck that i need to use in the next couple weeks ... maybe some stew for the start of september
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love the invalidation when u openly express ur concerns 🥰
#no bcs my dog had surgery 12 days ago#been telling everyone and i mean EVRYONE neighbors included that her wound is looking a bit open and off#the only one who was worried as much as me was my mom#my dad brother neighbors and friends kept saying we were ‘overly anxious’ and ‘overthinking’ and that her wound was fine#anyway big fuck u to them cuz i took her to the vet today and i was right she had a small opening and needed to be re-stitched#she could’ve gotten an infection if I hadn’t brought her in#the way i almost cancelled my Uber bcs they kept saying i was crazy HAH thank god i put my foot down#anyway#trust your guts babe#ok bye!#chatter#nonsims
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LOOK AT MY SPOON VESSEL ON CWB'S LIVE BAHAHAHAH 😭‼️
#context ofc:#cwb on tiktok was celebrating her 3 year anniversary#and shared with us her emotional support spoon#then she opened orders for emotional support spoon cuz she thought we needed them#and i rushed to order vessel as one. AND IT WAS ON TODAY'S LIVE AND NOW I CAN'T BREAAATHE LOOK AT IT BAHAHAH#can't wait till he gets home hehehe <3#sleep token
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supposed to be getting a call abt the apartment today. how late do i wait before calling THEM
#.txt#called them yesterday and they said i should hear back today. but its almost 2 pm and i havent heard anything.#nervous.#if we didnt get this apartment i need to know NOW cuz our lease ends at the end of april#i need to be able to apply to more apartments#considering no one will schedule a showing with me cuz i already have a current app with one of the only leasing places in town 🙄
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I am really living in the least serious most idiotic timeline. we’re having a joke with this one. everything is stupidity forever.
#in a directing class and we have auditions today for all four of our short plays#YESTERSAY I asked the (very young not always responsible) group if anyone needed help printing their sides#cuz I was at the library.#crickets. absolute crickets.#this morning half of them: ‘ohhh I can’t get to the library in time can somekne PLEASEEE print my sides’#I don’t want to be anyone’s mom I don’t enjoy it either but I DO have to scold now!!!!!
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CHLOE BDAY HIP HIP HURRAY
#stardust speaking !#saw the preview with chloes lines. oh hes so endearing#im highly in the 'thats akiras lil bro' corner but congrats to the chloe fans#(thinks of lennox bday card with the whole 'the one who wins can ask the loser to do something' ->akira asks leno to bend down#so they can PAT HIM ON THE HEAD......................ure so tall so it probably doessnt happen often right.....#......#????????#lenoaki is so tender it makes my head spin#<-person who cried during lennox chara story so is biased#shakes everyone listen the wizard are ssooooo important to akira and for akiras development and building selfconfidence and selflove this#is why i will nvr ever shut up about them here cuz they have such a massive role- <-just likes them a lot#T_^#okay anyway i actually wrote a lil thing for myself today HURRAY ive been in a more. oh i can do things. mood lately#theres a selfindulgent thing i wanna write a lil bit off but aside from that i wanna. do something here#inb4 itll be a tiny teeny thing ive been thinking about lately before tackling 2 para+ stuff. WE WILL SEE eventually#not tonite for sure i am zzzzzzzzz#but i missed writing tiny things for myself so im gonna try to keep at this.#one day ill do that for akira things too. i need to write down my silly postmhyk aus and my silly dramatic modern aus for me myself and i#i dont talk about it a lot here cuz its embarrassing but wizards in akiras world is always a funny concept to me#5ever thinking about INTERNET IS SUGOI figaro from that one figaaki comic#actually that one where figaro memorized akiras name when its written makes me dizzy I WANNA TALK ABOUT STUFF LIKE THAT AGAIN.....#T_T akira learning how to write the wizards names. yknow. at least. since they cant read the language at all#okay its way past my bedtime#i cant get into akira & their language at this hour itll be too much#tldr while i think its difficult for akira to rly pick it up (cuz they understand everything they say!??!?!??!?!)#recognizing words u see commonly....................happens..........+ akira making an effort to learn certain words
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ok y'all, as of tonight I've temporarily set the queue to post once a day instead of twice! this will affect the time it posts as well, and I'll definitely go back to twice a day once I'm done with this batch of requests
(tho... to be 10000% honest, I'll most likely peace out for a bit after I do that, half to focus on other fandoms/content and half because it'll probably be near the start of NaNoWriMo or slightly into it by the time I finish this batch, and NaNo will obviously take a lot of my attention lol)
BUT, we're getting there! I currently have 31 requests left, and when I get to about 25 I'll redo my list one last time (because I just can't help myself XD) and I'm really really close, I'm super hoping I'll be at 25 by tomorrow night!
love you guys so so so much, thank you for sticking with me even tho I'm really slow and scatterbrained!!! <3 <3 <3
#mod post#girl help I'm TIRED#the store wasn't open by the time I left today cuz of our big truck dropping off a ton of shit we don't need#I worked my ass off but guess what........ it's still there!! XD#n e way don't come at me but I still got them Dabi hoe vibes going#MHA is tightening its grip every day and I just wanna get this batch finished before I give in completely |D
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need to be exploding something but i Can't for some reason. just Can Not. my ability to do is just. Nay
#just me hi#GOUHHH#okay so I can't go back to bed rn cuz I was So tired earlier I went to bed at 7#Bad move !! But I also didn't have anything to do so kind of the only one lmao#So I slept for 4 hours and here I am now. At 2 am. Vibing [<- this is untrue]#I have Energy that I Need to dedicate to SOMETHING but I can't figure out what so I'm just vibrating really aggressively and pacing kfvshf#I could funkin writeeeee but I don't know what and i don't think I'll be able to focus so lmaoo 💥#// 💥🎶NONSTOP AUTOMATIC LIVIN IN DELUSION🎶💥#anywho loll--#//i could draw but that's Slow and Caramalizing work. Like when I want to evenly toast my thoughts you know what I'm saying kfshf#Or when I'm just trying to be Thourough. Or just rotating shiz so fast I gotta slow down lol#And then if I draw what should it be? The things in my brain ??? God forbid#What I'm just sposed to pick between the 3+ projects I have blasting at full volume in my head rn ?? That's crazy talk man#//mnm i want. a Snack#Snack tiymeeee#If only we had those kfshvfh#Ik where to get marshmallows (thought they could hide them from me. Impossible) but that's not a good choice for the hour or the craving lo#//what's the point !!! What's the pooooint !!! 🎶#i love you music hfvsh#/speaking of i took my mp3 player w/ me to skate w/ and played oldies and you know that was pretty good man I gotta do that again#Meant to do it last time but I didn't charge her :( and I don't want to stress her battery by killing her so </3#//oh also we went to the movies today !! Part of the reason I'm tired lmao#I always forget to bring smth to plug my ears (it's so funkin loudddd man oTL) but you know what I Didn't forget? Mp3 player w/ the noise#Canceling earbuds. Which worked insanely well I had Zero discomfort :D#Usually the theater experience starts to suck hard at abt the 2/3rds point cuz everything gets loud ;w;#but i forgot abt the sound thing w/ my buds in so :D yay yippee !!#We watched gladiator 2 :) watched the first one the night before so full context let's go 💥#It was good! I think anyway! I'm not sure i was completely clocked in kfshfh#//ooou I'm running out of tag space..#I'll say ciao right here loll :> toodles !!
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