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fiendishartist2 · 6 days ago
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i dontWANT to have a panic attack i want to go to SLEEP
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aastarions · 3 months ago
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can i just complain tho i need to complain im at the stage in pregnancy where i am uncomfortable 95% of the time between the weight of my tummy and the pelvic pressure and no matter how many times i pee i always feel like i need to go and im always out of breath and standing too long hurts my back and i could go on and on but all to say is i looked on reddit for other people who have had twin pregnancies and they all say it only gets better when they're born it just keeps :') getting :') harder :') until then :')
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lilac-melody · 2 years ago
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hm.
#i am. quite annoyed when i tell my family i do not wish to eat unhealthy very often#and when i explain nutritional value i get ignored#even mocked and laughed at#the internet has ruined humanity. if you eat unhealthy foods it will cause an influx of issues like diabetes and high blood pressure#and other various sort of issues. like obesity as well.#i am. Literally. a former fat person. i used to be big. i used to take low dose aspirin often bc i was scared id have a heart attack#i Had sleep apnea. eating unhealthy here and there in small doses is fine but if thats all youre eating you WILL have issues!!!!#when i began eating healthier my body and health improved. /I/ feel better. i cant work out rn bc of my ankle#BUT ive been making it up by eating extra nutritional foods. sure. i had an unhealthy dinner on friday and even some alcohol.#but i do not make that a habit.#im not telling people that they HAVE to eat healthy or anything. im just annoyed that voices like mine get shut down and labelled as bs#aka ''ftphbia'' and then told im intolerant and WRONG abt health#when I MYSELF EXPERIENCED THIS SHIT AND FELT BETTER WHEN I BETTERED MY EATING HABITS#im not ''blessed'' for my thin/curvy body. i had to WORK to get it. i gain weight VERY easily and STRUGGLE to lose it#im proud of how far ive come. im proud of how im not as big as i used to be. im proud that im much healthier now.#and yet despite my mom formerly telling me i needed to lose weight? now shes scoffing at me pointing out nutritional value in food???#bruh.#ill delete this later i just need to vent
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heyitslapis · 11 days ago
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Oh I'm so lonely
#spent the day surrounded by friends#so i shouldnt feel lonely#but its past midnight#im listening to red wine supernova (came up on my shuffled repeat playlist)#and im finding myself staring at the tv feeling...lonely. for her specially#i'll probably never hold her. i know shes just playing with me. i think. but i cant help but like her#i just want to hold her. i want to kiss her head while she sleeps on my chest. i miss her#i hate how much i actually like/want her. especially knowing we'll never be an actual thing#but i do. i just want to listen to her talk. hear her laugh. see her gorgeous smile. her breathtaking eyes. i just like her. i miss her#idk what im doing. idk what i truly want love-life wise. but rn i want her.#i dont even mind to share her with buddy boy. if it means getting a portion of her time to myself it would be worth it#haha nothing like crying over a straight girl that will probably never see me as more than a 'friend' to get attention from 🙃#but are we gonna stop feeling the things we're feeling? not likely ✌️✌️✌️✌️✌️#what does everything mean? or does it even mean anything at all?#i hate my fucking 'tistic ass brain that doesnt understand people and relationships and situations and shit#i hate that once i get attached to someone even if i know i shouldnt be it takes me foreverrrrrrrrrrr to stop feeling for them#so much has been going on in my head lately. between her & my feelings for her work drama introspective gender feelings etc#and worrying about saving for an apartment and thinking about the next phase of my life coming up#ive just felt so overwhelmed and stressed and confused lately#idk what to do with myself. idk what to do with my life#delete later#personal#heyitslapis rambles#ive been so burnt out lately. fuck
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steampoweredskeleton · 27 days ago
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coridallasmultipass · 27 days ago
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#im gonna cry i went thru my back injury log diary journal note thing#i wrote out the important parts so i have a paper version with me for my appointment w the back specialist tomorrow#and im just so fucking scared man i dont want to have my back pressed on its gonna hurt so fucking badly getting prodded tmr#especially after the long car ride there#and i really dont want to be awake rn im so fucking scared but i still have to do my pt exercises tonight but like#fuck im scared i have no idea what the treatment is gonna be or if the doctor is gonna be mean#ive started seeing just a tiny bit of improvement over the last week but its so fucking marginal but its like#its a fact of life that im gonna hurt after my appointment#like hshahdjshks im panicking now lol fuck i dont want to do this#ive been waiting basically since MAY.#i dont want to be sober rn man i cant take anxiety pills this late bc i need sleeping meds more but im so fucking scared#i just wanna be able to sleep and not think about appointments#its fucking cold in my room too so all my whole body hurts rn i wanna get in bed but i HAVE to do the pt exercises#especially bc of the slight improvement like okay maybe the small exercises were what i needed#sucks that it takes an hour to do them all like im fucking freezing rn#just fuckk man#its been months of trauma so tomorrow is important and i dont want the months of waiting to be for nothing#im still in a lot of fucking pain rn too ofc but like im scared more rn#when am i gonna be able to relax#like genuinely relax#its like a whole struggle just to do the functions that keep me alive#im so fucking tired of everything#i know im prob gonna start panicking in the doctors office and not be able to voice my words#its so fucking hard to talk about how traumatic this whole year has been for me#it started w endo in january 2nd and then everything else after sucked lmao like ugh fuck theres too much weighing on the appointment tmr#delete later / /#personal / /#ShitPost.exe#medical / /
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4b9 · 6 months ago
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am I annoying to you guys be honest
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gazeboarcade · 7 months ago
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#i started my new job on monday#and its rlly rlly hard#all i can think the last couple days is im not cut out for it#and that i made a mistake by agreeing to it and possibly to my degree as a whole#i haven't been able to sit down for more than 5 minutes the whole shift#which i am not dumb shouldnt be so hard but im also fat rn so that does make my feet hurt so bad its lowkey all i can feel physically#and i get asked like . 100+ questions a day (i do not even think that's exaggerating)#and its a LOT to learn all this new stuff about all these new clients and like . they have rlly high needs so its important that like#if no one else understands at least i do bc im like. their point person#and im qualified to do the job. if not more so than all my coworkers : /#but i have left each day barely even understanding everything that happened that day. It FLIES by because there is not a dull moment#and when there is so far its been actually a Problem i need to address making it dull that i am not immediately aware of#im sure itll even out in the coming days but like : ((((((( this is VERY hard for me and i feel like i cant convey that well#bc logically i should be good at it so i must just be being dramatic or smthn idk#and i feel like i cant talk to my friends lately bc idk that feels rlly hard#but its not like i rlly have the time to its just rlly sad#im up too late but im not even tired enough to sleep im just really sad and overwhelmed and i wish i could just like . explode briefly#just till its over or normal#fucking. wretched man idk like its jjust a lot : ((((((#i wish i could communicate that effectively so the bigness of it would come across#delete later
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mewrails · 1 year ago
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i accidentally pulled like. the third all nighter of the year
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butchshepherd · 2 years ago
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i am insane and i need a dog before i steal one from someone (for legal reasons this is a joke)
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kirishwima · 2 years ago
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i need. coffee. or a cigarette. or both
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employee052 · 4 months ago
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kinda vent under the cut? idk
(prefacing this by the fact that this is made at around midnight my time, so this is probably just my brain being a stinker rn)
i hate how i just dont have many thoughts for tsp rn
its still my main fandom, i love it dearly, but i cant think of any story or thing to do with it rn, and its making me sad
i wish i had a unique narrator design thats elegant and unique and brings something new to the table
i wish i had a cool sprawling au that tells its own story thats based in tsp
i wish i could have an au with an amazing story that brings something new while also staying the same, the balance of new and old
i want to find that spike in brainrot for the game again, i want to do something with it
but my mind rn is just...
blank.
idk, it might just be the late night voices speaking, but im just worried that im not really bringing anything new.
i want to make a cool new au that tells this cool story with lore drops n plot events and whatnot
but my aus are simple n light mostly, out of bounds/fourth wall is self indulgent "hey what if they were taken to the real world", control group is just me sticking to the base game while also still doing the real world schtick of fourth wall
and outside of that... nothing.
i want to tell a story, i want to explore their characters again, to tug at heartstrings and to have people feel
idk. maybe im just feeling self conscious over having fourth wall as an au
n thats not even getting to how ive been feeling self conscious over my designs recently, with tk, curator, and lynne their designs feel unique enough that i feel okay with. but with my narry? with virgil??? i feel like the swoop isnt enough anymore. i feel like i need to do more with it but idk what or where or why
because i love my narry design so far, but meanie voice in my heads telling me that its too simple, that theres a dozen other narrator designs like mine that are 10x more cooler and unique and original than mine, n i feel bad bc i felt this issue last year, and its one of those things that doesnt seem like its going to leave me any time soon.
idk. im rambling rn
ill probably delete this later idk.
ty for reading ig if anyone does. gonna go sleep this train of thought out.
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myunne · 1 year ago
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- omg wait heeseung is so quidditch captain codeddd
- also i’m in slytherin (help) but ill let it slide ig
"he's not my boyfriend!" you denied, shaking your head so hard it started to hurt. jay chuckled at your flushed reaction. "relax, i'm just teasing." "i know," you deflate, pointedly looking away.
- im gonna cry you wrote the denial into the body language / dialogue sooo well
he wore a simple black button up, with the last few left open, allowing the world to see the smooth skin of his collarbones. paired with his black undercut, it was honestly a very simple outfit. it's the little details that made him all the more attractive, and it brought your attention to his pink lips. soft and light in contrast to his dark appearance.
- STOP THE DESCRITPFION ISNK SO FIEIODOD I THINK IM IN LIVE WITH THE WORDING
the corners tug upwards into a smile, and you realise he's noticed you looking. you turn away ashamedly and pointedly engage beomgyu in a conversation, ignoring the burning gaze set on you.
- are you trying to kill me. bc i would die if he caught me staring at him i can’t
"please? i'll buy you that one bag you wanted." "are you talking about the dragonskin one? i only mentioned that once,"
- nononoono he remembereddeeejwjsnnsan i can’t take it
heeseung grinned that pretty smile of his. "do you want to kiss me?"
- NO BC IM SCREAMING YOU DONT UNDERSTAND. YOU DONT US WERDTANS
he leans in, closer to the center. closer to you. "i dare you to kiss me."
- I LITERALLY HATE YOU IM GONAN BAN YOU FEOM WIRITING SFOP HES SO KEKSJQKKZK I CANT
you'll probably realise it was a mistake later on, a kiss that never should have happened between two friends. because friends don't kiss, and yet, you can't seem to pull away.
- i don’t even have words for this part likeee. this came from your brain. i’ve never kissed my best friend before but now i feel like ik what it feels like ?? and the knowing you’ll regret it but staying anyway <////3
after all, if you just ran away from the problem, you'd never have to confront it, right? over time, your (five year old) crush will definitely dissipate, right?
- exactly like yn js gets it
“i was waiting for the right time to say this, but then i'd be waiting forever. "i like you, possibly even love you. i don't know when these feelings started, but i realised when jay asked you out last year. i've liked you for way longer before that though. "i suddenly became aware of how, when everyone cheered for me in my games, it was only ever your voice that mattered. or how much i missed holding your hand in my sleep like we used to as kids. and then you kept looking at me with those eyes earlier, and i just needed to know how your lips felt right then. time feels like it stops when i look at you, i think i'm going a little crazy."
- ok that’s Enough. this confession is the only thing i need in life idc other people say “ily” but heeseung says “iwwftrttstbtibwf”
- also jay asked yn out what ??? drama 👀
"y/n, please. can i be yours?" he murmured into your neck. "you always have been."
- i’m done i’m leaving bye gone dead deceased unexisted deleted IM CRYING I NEED THIS TO HAPPEN IM SO DELULU RN
— 💌
- you are literally so good at writing. like your writing style made it feel realistic but so descriptive and the WYA YOU WROTE HEESEUNG IMG
- and the use of veritaserum is so genius ?? especially when r didn’t even say anything under it rlly and the joke at the end >>
- there were so many times reading this where i was genuinely invested like i was screaming irl
- i’ve written / read so many bsf2lovers but this one. WAS SO GOOD like it didn’t even feel chiché despite the tropes it was just so goodd
- AND THE ENDING OMGGG STOPI WILL NEVE GET OVER THE ENDING LINE WHYYY
- i’m literally gonna reread this sm
<3
VERITASERUM. - LHS
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; SYNOPSIS - after gryffindor’s victorious quidditch match earlier in the day, celebrations ensue in the common room that night, and you find yourself dragged into a game of magical truth or dare. when you make eye contact with lee heeseung, your best friend since diapers, the smirk on his face has you dreading whatever question or dare he sends your way. 
"do you want to kiss me?"
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; PAIRING - heeseung x gn!reader
; WC - 2.8k
; TAGS - one-shot, fluff, barely any angst, hogwarts au, childhood best friends to lovers, gryffindor!heeseung, griffindor!r, truth or dare/spin the bottle trope ; WARNINGS - underage drinking (Plz don’t do this !!!!), kissing
; AUTHOR'S CORNER! i don’t really have anything to say lol
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the best thing about being a gryffindor?
the parties.
granted, students will always celebrate a win, no matter what house they belong to. but gryffindor was known to host the best post-match parties. (but maybe you're a little biased.)
gryffindor had won the quidditch match against ravenclaw earlier today by a landslide. that's the fifth time in a row that your house has won in a match - all thanks to heeseung, the team's captain; your childhood best friend since you were eight.
oh, and your crush of five years.
once the match ended, you wasted no time running down to the pitch to congratulate your friend. when heeseung caught sight of you approaching, his face broke into an achingly wide grin, one that sent your heart into overdrive. he spread his arms wide and enveloped you in a hug before spinning you around as you tucked your nose into the nook between his neck and shoulder. he smelled of grass and dirt and was coated in sweat, but it didn't matter to you.
"gross," jake's voice ruins the moment.
looking over heeseung's shoulder, you find jake scrunching his nose at you two.
"couldn't you save the PDA for when you're in private?"
you pulled away from heeseung's embrace and cross your arms across yourself in embarrassment. you missed his warmth immediately. he groans as you retreat from his arms.
somewhere along the journey of growing up, innocent hugs with your best friend gained more implications to their meanings.
"always ruining things," heeseung mutters as he turns to his teammate.
"suddenly, i can't hear," jake smiles with mock-sweetness. he turns to you and nods in acknowledgement. "see you at the party later, y/n?"
"this one over here would never let me miss one," you roll your eyes playfully, nudging heeseung in the side.
by the time you came down from your dorm to the common room, the festivities were in full-blast. half the students looked either tipsy or well on their way to being full-out drunk. you could see people from other houses trickling into the red and gold of the gryffindor common room, streamers and balloons decorating the walls.
"y/n!" you looked to find jay, one of heeseung's friends, had called you over.
"hey," you greeted. pointing at his cup, you asked, "what's that?"
"well, it was originally a non-alcoholic cocktail, but someone had added a full bottle of firewhiskey to the mix."
"ah, so that explains the situation..." you nod in in understanding.
jay pursed his lips. "yeah, and since no one here really drinks much, you can imagine how low the tolerance around here is," he says as he gestures to the common room filled with stumbling and giddy teenagers.
you cringe as you see someone crash into a table, causing the game of wizarding chess another student had been playing on it to fall to the ground. yep, there'll be quite a mess after tonight.
"where's heeseung?" you asked the slytherin, looking around curiously.
"he's gone back upstairs to get something." jay looked at you as he sipped from his drink. "why, is my presence more boring than your boyfriend's?"
"he's not my boyfriend!" you denied, shaking your head so hard it started to hurt.
jay chuckled at your flushed reaction. "relax, i'm just teasing."
"i know," you deflate, pointedly looking away.
it's at that moment you spot jake walking up to you two.
"guys! come here, let's play a game."
"what game?"
"truth or dare." then, he grinned mischievously. "with a twist."
"i don't like the sound of this," you say immediately.
"c'mon, don't you want to play?"
"not really, no thanks."
"everyone's joining, let's go!"
and with that, you were left with no choice but to follow as jay and jake all but dragged you by your wrists.
you all sat around the fire place, with ten or more other students joining in on the fun.
heeseung finally joined just before it started, sitting just opposite you in the circle. you two share a secret smile, one that has you almost forgetting there were other people with you in the moment.
he wore a simple black button up, with the last few left open, allowing the world to see the smooth skin of his collarbones. paired with his black undercut, it was honestly a very simple outfit. it's the little details that made him all the more attractive, and it brought your attention to his pink lips. soft and light in contrast to his dark appearance.
the corners tug upwards into a smile, and you realise he's noticed you looking. you turn away ashamedly and pointedly engage beomgyu in a conversation, ignoring the burning gaze set on you.
jake summons cups full of the (now alcoholic) cocktail in front of everyone, before placing an empty bottle of firewhiskey in the center of the circle. you get a trickle of suspicion that he's the cause behind all of this, but you shrug it off.
"okay. so, as per the rules of the game, whoever spins the bottle is the one asking a question or giving a dare. the person the bottle lands on is on the receiving end of it. if you absolutely can't answer the question or do the dare, then take a swig from the cup." jake then shrugs, stating, "be a pussy and test your alcohol-tolerance, or grow some balls and stay sober."
"you said there was a twist," you remind him. these were all rules of a typical truth or dare game, everyone knew them.
"right you are, y/n!" he smiled brightly, clicking his fingers at you. with a swirl of his wand, he summons a familiar vial labelled 'veritaserum'.
a chill goes down your spine.
"truth serum? wait, isn't it like- illegal to misuse it like this? aren't we breaking some rule about students not being allowed to use veritaserum?"
"it's only breaking the rules if you get caught," he winks. "so, if you choose truth, you have to take three drops of this. that way, we'll know you're definitely not lying, seeing as you can't lie with this in your system." you begin to wonder how many rules jake's broken in the name of fun.
"ready?"
and the games started.
an hour into truth or dare, your cup was half empty.
by this point, jake had half of his left eyebrow singed off, yunjin had become a human magnet, and beomgyu’s mouth and nose had been transfigured into a duck beak. you yourself had half your hair jinxed to a red so bright it hurt everyone’s eyes, but that’s a story for another day.
everyone agreed not to take more than three drops of the truth serum, since no one was really interested in finding out what might happen if they overdosed. besides, the effect lasts up ‘til the morning, so there wasn't really any need to take more every time you chose truth.
not that you chose that option, anyway. the bottle had landed on you a grand total of five times, and you’d chosen dare each time.
it’s not like you had anything to hide, you tell yourself. you just like a bit of challenge, right? right.
after heeseung admitted to having used felix felicis at least once during his games (a little luck never hurt anyone, especially when they won those games), it was his turn to spin the bottle.
heeseung reached for the bottle; you waited with baited breath as it spun around.
every spin that cursed bottle took, you could hear your heart pounding louder and louder in your ears. please not you.
please not you pleasenotyou please-
you lean back and look up to whatever being out there decided to play with you today, because of course it stopped, nose pointed at you.
one look at heeseung’s face doesn’t quelm the uneasiness you’re feeling.
the corner of his lips are quirked up into a subtle smirk, one you can only see because you’ve known him for so long; memorised his behaviour patterns. not even the buzz from the alcohol could stop you from noticing that he’s planning something.
“go nice on me, hee. dare.”
“c’mon, y/n. that’s the fourth dare. are you hiding something from us?” a relatively sober jake asks with a raised eyebrow.
“no, it’s just more fun to complete dares,” you defend yourself.
“it’s fun to tell the truth, too,” heeseung remarks. his intense stare sets a fire in your stomach ablaze. there’s a mix of curiosity and challenge in his eyes.
"just give me a dare," you sigh.
heeseung shakes his head. "i won't ask anything too bad," he says, but you want to accuse him of lying. his questions this game have been the most brutal. and his insistence on getting a truth hints to you that there's a question he really wants to ask.
"please? i'll buy you that one bag you wanted."
"are you talking about the dragonskin one? i only mentioned that once," you say, surprised. your best friend just shrugged and waited for your answer.
if he still planned to hang out with you after this question, then maybe he really didn't plan to ask about your feelings, not in front of all these people, at least. but if you said no, you know heeseung would never pressure you into choosing the truth.
maybe you should have done all the dares you were given, if only so you would have been in the right mind.
otherwise, you would never have asked jake for the vial of veritaserum, which had everyone (who wasn't flat out drunk and were still following the game) cheering loudly.
"truth," you stared heeseung in the eye, gathering fake confidence after your three drops of veritaserum. heeseung grinned that pretty smile of his.
"do you want to kiss me?"
yeah, no. you were a liar (at least, before you took the truth serum). that fake confidence fell away instantly. had you really been looking at his lips that much the whole evening?
"dare." just because you took the serum doesn't mean you can't choose to not answer.
heeseung's smile widened, as if he'd already gotten his answer. he leans in, closer to the center. closer to you.
"i dare you to kiss me."
'oouuhh's and whistles echoes throughout the room, and people who hadn't joined the game turned towards the circle curiously.
you slapped your hands to your mouth in shock, you hadn't expected him to be so upfront. he sat and waited, whether for you to answer his question, or act on his dare.
you don't know if it was the firewhiskey, the chants of everyone saying 'kiss! kiss! kiss!', or maybe the electricity in the air between you two. maybe it was all three, plus the feelings you harboured over these last few years. whatever the case was didn't matter though - not when you went in for it anyway.
in a swift moment, you captured his lips in a kiss, which he reciprocated in pulling you closer, his hands firm on your shoulders. all of your feelings and thoughts pour into the action, setting aside all of the hesitation and doubt to immerse yourself just for a moment.
you couldn't break away, and neither did he. his lips were soft, but so full of life and emotion, fueling you to kiss him harder. a flickering thought that maybe, he felt the same. a small hope that your feelings for him weren't so unrequited. it was exhilarating, treading on that fine line between friends and lovers.
you'll probably realise it was a mistake later on, a kiss that never should have happened between two friends. because friends don't kiss, and yet, you can't seem to pull away.
when you finally did though, heeseung kept you in place, his arm draped around your waist.
"wait," he huffed, panting and trying to catch his breath. you could tell he was trying to gather his thoughts.
you'd been avoiding this, because you had an inkling feeling about the words words he wanted to say, but couldn't. you were honestly scared of what they were: rejection? saying he knew you liked him, but didn't feel the same? pity? disgust?
if he didn't like you back, you would never recover. the end of your friendship - a ten year one all ruined in the blink of an eye. all of the effort you'd put in to it, only to be destroyed by a stupid stupid stupid kiss.
for a long while now, friendly conversations on a winter evening by the fireplace and innocent letters you'd owl to each other's dorm every night no longer seemed to suffice. but you had to accept it, knowing you'd never have a chance with him. so instead, you just avoided that topic whenever the conversation headed in that direction, veering it away to a lighter one.
after all, if you just ran away from the problem, you'd never have to confront it, right? over time, your (five year old) crush will definitely dissipate, right?
and now, you were stuck in an awkward position.
"sorry, can we speak in private?" he looks to jake for permission, who nods with a sparkle in his eye, a smile barely hidden.
heeseung got up from the floor, and dragged you up by your wrist. you tried to ignore all the murmurs, but you couldn't stop yourself from hiding behind your hands. your face was certainly red, and definitely not from the alcohol. you were much more sober now.
when he brought you to a secluded place, heeseung pulled your hands away, and looked at you with concern.
"are you okay? i'm sorry if you felt pressured back there. i shouldn't have done that."
dread filled you, the blood draining from your body and a cool shiver took over.
"you shouldn't have done what? we shouldn't have kissed?" you asked, holding back tears. this was going exactly the way you always imagined.
"what? no!" his eyes widened, speechless for a moment. "y/n, that kiss was everything to me. you don't know how long i've wanted to do that."
you gaped at him, confused. it was your turn to be speechless.
"what do you mean...?"
heeseung leaned back, retreating into himself. he couldn't look at you as he confessed, "i was waiting for the right time to say this, but then i'd be waiting forever.
"i like you, possibly even love you. i don't know when these feelings started, but i realised when jay asked you out last year. i've liked you for way longer before that though.
"i suddenly became aware of how, when everyone cheered for me in my games, it was only ever your voice that mattered. or how much i missed holding your hand in my sleep like we used to as kids. and then you kept looking at me with those eyes earlier, and i just needed to know how your lips felt right then. time feels like it stops when i look at you, i think i'm going a little crazy."
your heart raced, you couldn't believe your ears.
"wait, because i've felt this way for you since we were thirteen. have you really liked me back all this time?"
heeseung turned to you, a meaningful look in his eyes.
"i wouldn't have asked for a kiss if i didn't think about you like that. you're the world to me, and i didn't want to lose you because of how i felt. i don't know where that surge of confidence from earlier came from."
you start to laugh. "you don't know how long i've wanted to do that either," you say simply, relief filling your veins.
"longer than just tonight, i hope?"
"way longer before that," you parroted.
heeseung grinned, and pulled out a gift bag from his back pocket, charmed to hold bigger items.
you gasped. "this is the bag!" you look up at him. "you already bought it?"
it hit you then that this was the 'thing' he'd been getting earlier, back when you spoke with jay.
"i did," he smiled, handing it over to you.
"so when you said that earlier..."
"i planned to give it anyway, whether or not your accepted my dare or not."
"so you're saying i could have avoided all that anyway? i hate you," you folded your arms and rolled your eyes playfully.
"i didn't know you could still lie under veritaserum!" he gasped, with equally as much playfulness in his tone.
"some are less affected," you shrugged.
he laughed before wrapping his arms around you, hanging on the small of your back. you hugged him back, placing a soft kiss on his jaw.
"y/n, please. can i be yours?" he murmured into your neck.
"you always have been."
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anarchistbitch · 1 year ago
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well it's not like according to tradition I replied in a timely manner lmao dont worry about it
sfjkfjsdk me too, i dont usually make playlists, i just leave everything in my liked and shuffle it and let it be what the universe dictates but idk i felt like getting them into one playlist
well if you add pepa pig id burst out laughing in the middle of a call probably and one of my work friends would probably shout "send her to sleep" bc thats what we say when we send clients back bc we cant do anything from our end so it would be funny and we would just ultimately skip it lmao
im looking forward to whatever songs you add, the playlist is long as fuck already tbh so it might take a while for the oli london song to come on
SFGDSJKFGDS well in my defense I had to ask bc i didnt know how long youve been on tumblr so yeah (shiro's cloning and the episode about it and the fight with keith)
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anyways i motherfucking hated that they exploded adam and then tried to console us with curtis but anywaaaaaaay the fanfic is dirty laundry which if you were in the fandom i doubt you didnt end up hearing of it or at least the discourse around it but anyway it got deleted but i had it downloaded so have a google drive link https://drive.google.com/file/d/0BwU9LMiUJoN7RjFWSGZVUlJQd1U/view?
yeah, the whole not enrolling classes in uni is a mess and i try not to think about it too much rn (i am seeing a therapist and i hope that by next year i have figured out what i want to do) but i like my job, we(my team)'re actually planning to rent a house and stay there a weekend very soon to celebrate our supervisor's bday :'3
making choices that will greatly impact our futures is seriously so hard, and i also not qualified for any career advice but manifesting that whatever you choose in the end allows you to be happy
just last night it started raining hard so i got up to turn off the fan but then like two minutes later i got up to turn it on again bc even tho it was raining it is still so fucking hot, seriously hate the weather rn
god mountains are so preetty, specially when the weather is cool and they get all foggy
atsv is a masterpiece and it continues from itsv so damn well, i really do love it and i hope hollywood gets up it's ass and pays their workers what they're owed so we can see it soon
KJSDFJKSDFHJS i am still seeing so many miguel o hara edits everywhere for real, i gotta say tho im in love with hobie and pavitr
JKSHFJS i used to do something similar with fob, i had a lot of them printed out and would put them on my binder cover so that i could memorize the lyrics so i was all day everyday singing them until i memorized it and the changed it for another song
idk how id rank fob albums, its so hard when theyre soo good but i really do love so much for stardust, aside from that one i think my favs are save rock and roll and american beauty american pyscho, mania was the first album i was a fan of them when it came out so it has a special place in my heart as well
my special lyric is part time soulmates full time problem, ive always been a fan of soulmate aus and hhhhhhhh just makes my brain smooth, also we started off as shiny dimes but we got flipped too many times, we did it for futures that never came and for pasts that we're never going to change 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹
cheers to us and our interesting meeting jdfshjf
love you and i hope you have a good week :3 get plenty of rest and fun and water!!
-M
i feel like if we had a competition on late replies i would emerge victorious😎(crying inside)
honestly fall is prolly the best time to make playlists[not that im gonna, but sure is a nice time yk] but ahhhh anyway!!!! havent added anything but u will know when i add it <3
check hello tumblr user nonbinarymikaela pls provide access to the drive check [i checked out of any fandom drama cause i had so many exams that yr lmao. only time the edu system saved me]
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[this is me actually hi]
honestly idek if i like my degree rn, like i really wanted to go for a history degree a couple years back before i changed my stream[its a whole educational system thats actually fucking fucked in india i hope it dies soon💜] but on the flip side - it was pretty hard to get a spot in my uni anyway so now im just in a whirlpool of smth. bleh
thinking of how next year is so close is like skewering me and roasting me like a kebab😭😭😭😭[but like dont keep a strict timeline yk, ur like seriously cool and i think any decision you take will be the best as along as your the one taking it ] [i wish i had answered this earlier so i couldve wish you good time on ur retreat but i hope it was good anyway💜💜💜💜💜💜💜]
man i need to like seriously cope up with my decisions cause i need to take an exam for my career which is seriously sooo..... but yea thats how its going
omg its raining here too and my college[which is seriously just a reformated jungle] turned into a swamp ish and they STILL didnt cancel classes. and i forgot my umbrella. i came back home like a sad wet cat .
gotta love that near-to-the-equator ass weather with climate change [i need to kill billionaires rn]
hope the strikes come to a fruitful end soon[for saf-aftra & iatse !!! fuck the amptp!!] but also i wouldnt mind waiting a couple years for btsv if the animators need that time to like animate in a safe and healthy manner yk
OH wait also im on my halloween movies watch rn!! just finished the addams family and watching paranorman rn [i need a gomez man btw. need him to be silly and obsessed and intense.and mwah]
[also if u wanna watch an indian series made in heaven is pretty cool(its okay-ish in terms of writing but it covers some very important social issues + the main leads are hot and dubious. what more do i need to watch a show)]
hobie kinda scratched a very specific itch in my brain like i want to be him AND kiss him , pavitr is so slay, and o'hara needs like a massage session thing where they unlock the trauma in ur knees or like a stamlo 50mg.
me & my friends fav fob lyrics was the 'how the mighty fall' cause we would do that "fall out...boi" intro everytime lol
i dont think i have a fave lyric but i think immortals was a top contender for reasons[i like big hero 6 :3]
Song rec: nothings new by rio romeo (saw it in a reels animatic and .. yea)
to many more yrs of late asks 🥂(appy juice cause i dont like the taste of alcohol)
my love and hopes to u💜💜💜 and also an umbrella for this weather☔
p.s. drink water/soup/iced tea + i care for u+ W in the chats
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vurelly · 2 years ago
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illinois fucking sucks
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coridallasmultipass · 9 months ago
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#ughhhh i started writing a quick bro / dave for todays date but im def not gonna finish in 45 minutes nooooo#its my ki.nk and i wanted to savour what i was writing by dragging it out hffffffff#wish i thought to start it before last night ughhhhh#but ughhhhhhhh dudeeeee its hapeninggggggggggg#god im so fucking thorsty for it#no one writes it the way i want it#and now ive gone and made it silly by trying to do it for today#but i cant just take those parts out bc they're so... baked... into the plotline#hfffffffff why didnt i just make this its own thing ughhhhhh (bc dave would never wanna do that sober thats why)#hffffffffffff screams#writing sm. ut is so time consuming for me#(tbh writing is on its own lol)#but to write. my fave thing. for the first time. its a lot of pressure for a fic that was supposed to be a quick joke#bro ended up being fucking smitten as hell too bc thats how i feel abt this ki. nk lmao#i dont think im even gonna get hi tonight lmao its okay a holiday doesnt mean shit when its something i do on the reg#im so tired hhhhh im just wasting more time typing out more tags bc im too tired to write fic words lol ugh#delete later / /#maybe i will so i can just go the fuck to sleep rn and write more when im more awake. date be damned. im not finishing in 30 mins lol#and even if i did finish in 30 mins i sure as hell aint proofreading and posting within 30 mins#ok yeah gonna get ready for bed and set the writing down for when im not gonna write something rushed ill regret and have to undo later
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