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Note: In regard to romantic relationships.

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You’re someone who has undergone nostalgia, apathy, discontent and boredom in the past, and has come out of it. Due to this, you try to be present and know how to leave the past behind you. You’ve undergone a lot of growth emotionally and have accepted the situations that occurred as well as yourself, and your own nature so you’re ready to move forward and know your responsibilities. There’s awareness of how regretful you are about having wasted your time in discontent and negative focus instead of being present because those days, that time won’t come back again. You’ve released so many negative emotions and have had to deeply reset your mindset which is not child’s play. Most people stay stuck in the way they are their entire life because they simply can’t bring themselves to change and would rather live in ignorance, and misery but you have pulled yourself out of such a rut and have a desire to truly live. The thing about living is that, the past is gone, the future is not here yet, the only thing we have is the present moment so living is about being in the present moment. “Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans” as they say. You’re aware of this and try to be present. That’s your active focus. You’re also someone who knows when change may be needed and you try to bring it about despite discomfort because you’ve already changed yourself very deeply, and overcome what had you consumed, stuck, and trapped. You don’t have the heart to put the one who’s actively choosing you and loving you below anyone. You’re not going to think of some great past love that could not even stick through the test of time as the greatest love you’ve ever had. You’re going to let them go completely, cherishing and loving only the one who is right in front of you because you now know that you deserve a love that is present, and chooses you over and over again, and want to offer the same love to your partner. The concept of ‘exes’ is not a real thing for you anymore. You tend to be grateful for what you already have and who you already have because you seek contentment and enlightenment in life after all the negativity that you’ve put yourself through. You see the positives in any negative situation and simply just possess a zest for life. You’re self aware in many ways because having experienced such negativity, you understand your own negative tendencies and you try to be self aware, and focused. Due to this trait of yours, when you get with someone, you’re still focused on yourself and the person in front of you rather than having your energy be all over the place. You’re also extremely contemplative because you had undergone a phase of negativity, nostalgia, overthinking, boredom, discontent and apathy, and have a lot of capacity to think and many interesting insights on life. You’re also someone who understands love in its most divine and sacred form. It is not just about love, you possess a lot of unique knowledge about many different matters because most people don’t have access to such divine knowledge or are just ignorant.

You’re a very intuitive partner and likely untouchable even when you’re single. You understand your partner and connect with them in a way in which you understand, and feel them on an almost psychic level. You understand their psyche, the conscious, subconscious and unconscious very well, and tend to be very in-tune with their higher needs. You experience love as something very divine and might even hold it as being sacred. I don’t think that you’re willing to share or experience such love with just anyone. You are the very definition of a divine feminine and if you don’t hold yourself, romance, and connections in general to a divine, and sacred standard, you’re either being nudged to do so, will grow into this as you tap into your love nature, should pick another pile or need to accept your true love nature based on your needs, desires and what you can give out. You’re very intelligent and wise, and what I find to be incredibly fascinating is that people might not get this side of you to its fullest or even be aware of its existence unless they get really close to you one on one, or especially unless they’re married to you. I am putting a very big emphasis on marriage here because some of you might be naturally hesitant to share certain things, certain moments of intimacy with those who you are not closely bonded with on a soul and life level, and even if you do, your present partner, your life partner will hold the highest place and will get access to your unique insights, and wisdom the most because they’ll be sharing their life with you and the amount of depth you have, the thoughts, the philosophies, the wisdom, the knowledge, everything that you possess is not something that people can experience and understand in a few months or years plus because of your desire, and ability to live in the present moment and your willingness to change for the better even if it’s hard, you tend to learn more and more from life, and attain more and more wisdom, and knowledge so people of the past don’t even know you. The ones who leave you do not really get to know, understand and experience you, and life with you in the way that the one you share your life with will. You are very feminine and possess a depth, and duality that may seem contradictory but that’s just the way you are. You end up channelling different sides of you depending on what side of you is needed but all of these sides exist in you so even if you may look really cute on the outside, on the inside, you can be the biggest freak or even if you present yourself as being dumb on the outside, you can be very intelligent, wise and aware on the inside, or even if you look very serious and stoic, you have a very playful, fun loving and cute side or even if you present yourself as very intelligent and strategic, you can be very innocent and naive on the inside because you function from genuineness and divinity, or even if you look or present yourself as being mature, emotionless and emotionally controlled, you possess a very sensitive, empathetic and crybaby side.

Honestly, you could relate to all of the above because you have experienced being who you are and that includes the contradictions, and the different views that people have had of you based on the image that you ended up projecting depending on what side of you you were channelling at that time. Those who stick around get to see and experience all of these sides. You’re also very observant and intuitive, recognising your partner’s needs and patterns. You can be a bit passive and not voice out all that you observe instead trying to help them through actions in whatever way you can, and even so, there’s some level of passivity. Many of you are untouchable and unattainable despite your desirability. Also, there’s likely a deep desire for sex and intimacy but in a sacred way in which you do it with the same person again, and again? I’m getting that you tend to be curious and seek knowledge not just about life, divinity or/and academics but also about sex and human connections. You want to do right by your partner at all times and know how to take accountability. You’re fair and accepting of whatever mistake you made, and you don’t mind having to take responsibility and apologise. In fact, if you have to deal with the consequences of your actions, you’ll be willing to do so too. However, you’re someone who desires such fairness for yourself as well. You’re not swayed by external factors, love or affection, you use your mind to make fair decisions and let people deal with the consequences of their actions rather than negotiating every single time. You also have this odd ability in which you can subconsciously pick up on something being off and the future of the connection being not so bright. For example, if you’re being deceived, even if you’re not aware of it yet, you might suddenly get the urge to block them and never talk to them again. You treat your partner as an equal and don’t mind compromising for the greater good. You have a lot of integrity, causing you to try to fulfil your duties within the relationship to the best of your abilities. You usually don’t betray your relationship and partner in any way but even if you do something that you’re not proud of or could cost you the relationship, you are honest with them. You won’t take away their right to make a decision for themself. You’ll give them all the factors needed for them to make a choice for themself, by themself. You deeply desire and require such fairness from your significant other too. You’re a truth seeker and do not appreciate or enjoy being deceived and blindsided. You’re also very decisive and once you decide that you want someone, you stick by it. You feel a great deal of love towards them and you’re clear in that. You also make the right decisions with fairness and integrity. You know how to communicate effectively and you place a really strong emphasis on understanding. You know that communication will do nothing for a couple unless they possess a basic understanding of each other, a desire to understand each other and want to do right by each other.

You have had a breakthrough, a realisation that people in the world are not as honest and fair as you are, and that there will always be people who will deceive you. Some of them may lie to you while the others may just leave details out, either way, it is deception. So you seek clarity and truth in relationships, and have grown a certain resilience. Breakthroughs and realisations about other people’s deception towards you used to hurt you deeply in the past, and they still will if you find out but you’d rather have that over living in a lie, in deception, in an illusion. You have developed a certain resilience around such matters and will be glad to have clarity, and enlightenment and will make the best possible choice for yourself, choosing to be fair with yourself in such situations. You will also attain knowledge and wisdom from these situations. You’re very playful and pure in romance. You likely need a partner who you can admire and look up to but also makes your inner child feel safe because you have a tendency to act very childish in relationships. You love in an innocent manner with a lot of genuine emotional involvement. You tend to be smitten when in love and get flustered easily. The type to have a crush on your partner years into the relationship. This is honestly so adorable. You value intimacy and emotions, and enjoy doing things to display affection such as writing love letters, romantic messages, etc. You’re very affectionate and tender, and honestly a bit vulnerable, sensitive, and almost naive? Due to how genuinely and purely you love, you have zero tolerance for deception, and lies in your relationship. You will not even tolerate deception through leaving details out. When you love someone and when they hold the space for you to feel safe enough to be as childish, affectionate, pure, and tender as you want, you naturally open up and treat the connection as something sacred, intimate and pure, you just open up, and give all of yourself away without reservations, just pure love. You also treat your partner with a lot of reverence. You’re very childlike and sensitive, and very affectionate and tender, and might cry easily with your partner as well as joyfully joke, dance and laugh around with them. You tend to play with your partner, as in, have light hearted fun like an actual child and find new ways to communicate with them in witty, and affectionate ways. For example, notes around the house, notes in their locker or textbook, discussing different topics ranging from playful jabs and jokes to deep, and insightful conversations and even your tone might change. You might speak in a sweet but high pitched tone with a childish cadence sometimes but a grounded, deeper and more serious tone at other times. You’re also very romantic, flirty and almost obsessive but unattainable, and they’re the only one who gets access to this side of you.

When it comes to your cons, you’re someone who worries a lot. In the past, you had connections that ended suddenly or didn’t progress past a certain point, or things were just moving awfully slowly despite you providing a lot of value and service to the other person, and it has left deep wounds in your psyche. You tend to be fearful and paranoid. The other person was not taking action and just lacked the passion, energy, and drive to try with you and you were left directionless. This situation or possibly even multiple situations was very stagnant. They could have fed off your comfort and assistance just to pull the “I’m busy” card when they found someone else, and many of you weren’t even given the truth in that situation, you had to find out by yourself so well, you felt deceived, used, discarded and you couldn’t even complain about it because you felt like you had put yourself into that situation by sticking around for so long. You were craving both comfort and stimulation at that time so you connected with these people in a very fun, almost childlike manner and were not taken seriously. I don’t think that it was a you problem at all but the only con that I’m personally getting here is your negative thinking due to your past experiences. You have intense negative emotions come up from a very deep seated place. You overthink a lot and have your mental health fall apart when in a relationship. You seem to have dealt with public/social humiliation, having people gang up on you or gossip about you because of someone you were involved with. It could have been that others decided that you were not good enough for your partner or your partner publicly betrayed you causing you to be the butt of the joke. Either way, it was incredibly humiliating and left a very toxic effect on you. It’s like, supposing you ate something toxic, even if you took an anecdote, the toxins remained in your system, that’s how it is with you. I got so many qualities for your pros but for your cons, there’s a big focus on your fears, paranoia, anxieties and deep seated negative beliefs, and the other cards are only there to support it. You seek and desire the truth, and have been left scorned in the past so you are a bit bitter about it still and tend to be very critical of your partner. In fact, before you even get with them. you’re already criticising them. “You found someone more exciting, the next second, you were gone and you left me there crying, wondering what I did wrong. You said I’m never satisfied but I don’t think it’s true cause all I ever wanted was to be enough. Don’t you think I loved you too much to be used and discarded? Don’t you think I loved you too much to think I deserve nothing?” By this point, you’re aware that not all your thoughts and beliefs are true but you still fear that the history will repeat itself. You fear that people will not take you seriously but will still use you for what you can do for them and what comfort you can provide for them just to not even be honest with you, and lead you on while you were simply just trying to respect their pace. You fear that you’ll feel discarded, used, scorned, naive, unimportant, unwanted, undesired and undesirable. Your only con is that you will either keep this to yourself, sabotage the relationship and hurt yourself silently, or will drive your partner crazy with all this negativity and intensity.

Pros:

i) Tries to be present because you have dealt with not being so

ii) Notices when and where change is needed, and brings it about even if it is hard or takes time

iii) Has already dealt with being stuck in the past and the nostalgic “I’ll never get over this”, “I’ll never love anyone like that again”, “I’ll never forget ___” or/and “what if I never find love again?” phase and regrets having wasted time like that, and desires present love in the present moment and is capable as well as willing to give it back

iv) Cherishes present love and leaves the past in the past, possibly considering past love to not have been real because of the discontent, pain and the feeling of being lost that it caused

v) Has grown significantly emotionally and continues doing so

vi) Is unwilling to be consumed by anything unless it’s present and shows the promise of being present in the future but even so, if it leaves, you’re willing to leave it behind and find something that is present, and cherish it wholeheartedly instead

vii) Your main priority is the one right in front of you and you are present with them, cherishing, and loving them wholeheartedly, not putting them beneath anyone else in your heart and life

viii) You know how to be grateful or at least try to be and seek contentment, pleasure, and enlightenment in the present moment

ix) Sees the positives in negative situations and tries to maintain a positive focus

x) Self aware about one’s negative tendencies and a willingness to gain more self awareness

xi) You try to keep your focus on yourself, your life, being present and your own partner, wanting to cherish them, and actively fulfill your responsibilities towards them

xii) Extremely contemplative and has interesting, and insightful philosophies and thoughts on life due to having contemplated deeply in the past

xiii) Possesses a strong capacity to think

xiv) Has many interesting insights on life

xv) Someone who understands love in its most divine and sacred form

xvi) Understands partner and connects with them in a way in which you understand, and feel them on an almost psychic level

xvii) Divine feminine and a very deep personality

xviii) Highly intelligent and wise

xix) Depth not easily accessible to others: only fully revealed in close, soul-level connections (especially in marriage)

xx) Selective with intimacy and emotional sharing

xxi) Continuously evolving through a commitment to self-growth and living in the present

xxii) Deeply feminine with a rich inner world

xxiii) Embody contrasting traits, such as:

- Cute appearance vs. deep internal complexity

- Seeming naive or playful vs. being actually strategic and insightful

- Stoic exterior vs. emotional sensitivity

- Intelligent presentation vs. innocent inner nature

- Multifaceted personality, channeling different sides as needed

xxiv) Those who stay close get to experience your full depth

xxv) Observant and highly intuitive

xxvi) Supportive through actions more than words, with a tendency toward passivity

xxvii) Desirable yet emotionally or spiritually unattainable to many

xxviii) Craves deep, sacred intimacy, particularly with one consistent partner

xxix) Curious and seeking knowledge across diverse areas (life, divinity, human connection, sexuality)

xxx) Accountable and fair, willing to admit mistakes and accept consequences

xxxi) Desires mutual fairness in relationships

xxxii) Emotionally grounded, makes decisions based on reason rather than being swayed by affection or manipulation

xxxiii) Able to detect misalignment or deception even subconsciously with instinctive urges (like cutting off contact)

xxxiv) Deeply genuine, operating from a place of authenticity and spiritual alignment

xxxv) You treat your partner as an equal and don’t mind compromising for the greater good

xxxvi) Strong sense of integrity and fulfill your relationship duties to the best of your ability

xxxvii) You are honest, respecting your partner’s right to make their own decisions by being fully transparent

xxxviii) You deeply desire and need the same level of fairness and honesty from your partner

xxxix) You are a truth seeker and cannot stand deception or being blindsided

xl. You are decisive in love - once you choose someone, you remain loyal and clear in your affection

xli. You make relationship decisions with fairness, clarity and integrity

xlii. You communicate effectively and value deep mutual understanding over surface-level conversation

xliii. You believe that real communication requires the will to understand and do right by one another

xliv. Have had a breakthrough about the dishonesty of others and learned to accept painful truths over comforting illusions

xlv. You’ve built resilience around deception and now choose clarity, even if it hurts

xlvi. You grow wiser and more grounded from such experiences, always choosing fairness toward yourself

xlvii. In romance, you are playful, pure-hearted and emotionally genuine

xlviii. You need a partner who you can admire but who also nurtures your inner child

xlix. You tend to act very childlike in love with innocent affection and emotional sincerity

l. You get easily flustered and smitten, having a crush on your partner even years into the relationship

li. You value intimacy, affection and emotional expression through romantic gestures like love letters and messages

lii. You are extremely affectionate, tender and emotionally vulnerable in love

liii. Your love is so pure that you have zero tolerance for lies, even lies by omission

liv. When someone makes you feel emotionally safe, you open up completely and love without reservation

lv. You treat the connection as sacred, giving your all with purity and reverence

lvi. You enjoy lighthearted playfulness with your partner

lvii. You find creative and witty ways to connect, such as leaving notes or using playful tones in conversation

lviii. You’re deeply romantic almost obsessive in your love but emotionally and spiritually unattainable to most, making your partner feel uniquely chosen as the only one with access to this side of you

Cons:

i) You worry excessively and tend to overthink, often allowing fear and paranoia to dominate your emotional landscape

ii) You’ve internalized guilt for staying too long in unhealthy dynamics, blaming yourself for trusting and giving too much

iii) You are deeply scarred by emotional deception, especially when others masked disinterest with excuses like being “busy” while entertaining someone else

iv) You often weren’t given closure or truth; you had to uncover it yourself, further intensifying your trust issues

v) Your negative thinking, stemming from these past experiences, is your greatest con, it clouds your perception even when things are going well

vi) Intense, deep-seated negative emotions can surface suddenly and powerfully, often overwhelming you

vii) Your mental health may decline during a relationship due to these unhealed traumas and emotional instability

viii) You’ve experienced public or social humiliation related to a partner perhaps being gossiped about or made to feel inferior

ix) You may have been betrayed publicly or treated as less-than, becoming the subject of ridicule or pity

x) These humiliating experiences linger like toxins in your system, creating emotional reactivity even when the current situation is safe or different

xi) While you are highly self-aware, your lingering bitterness and unresolved pain can make you critical of your partner even before they’ve done anything wrong

xii) You tend to project fears from your past relationships onto your current partner, expecting betrayal, abandonment or replacement

xiii) You question your worth and fear you’re not enough that others only value you for what you offer, not who you are

xiv) You doubt your desirability and fear being viewed as naive, unimportant or disposable

xv) Despite knowing your thoughts aren’t always rational, you struggle to fully trust love again and fear history repeating itself

xvi) This fear may manifest in two ways:

- You suppress it and suffer silently, slowly sabotaging yourself and the relationship, or

- You express it with overwhelming intensity, which may emotionally exhaust or alienate your partner

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Your pros are that you are intolerant to bullshit and have high standards for yourself, and others. You’re a bit ruthless when it comes to your standards even with yourself. You know how to be patient and build upon a connection with consistency, effort, and hard work. You’re perseverant and don’t give up easily. Once you’re invested, that is it, your commitment is unwavering. You also become so focused on building upon the connection through your own effort that in the past, you used to not notice that the other person was not doing the same. This is why you’ve developed such high standards as well. You are very keen on your own growth and want to live up to your own standards so you persevere in that way too. You are naturally a provider regardless of your sex. You prefer long term connections that are grounded and can be depended on, and naturally take on the role of someone reliable who can be depended upon. You value certain traditions and old school ways of doing relationships, and do not entertain dusties looking for a grounded, mature, wise provider who’s a reliable partner in every way. You genuinely can’t bring yourself to do so. You try to consistently better yourself and look for the same quality in your partner too. You are guided by values, principles and ethics, and want a partner like that too. I keep on getting that your standards can be considered really high by many but they’re actually completely grounded in reality. Why is it wrong of you to want a mature, loyal, ethical and responsible provider? You are someone who is naturally more focused on building yourself and your life i.e. money, character, career, all of it so you want a partner who’s similar in nature. Someone who is focused on looking after themself, their family, career, character and growth rather than looking at random girls everywhere. You cannot tolerate the mere idea of wandering eyes. You want to be respected and respectful of your partner so it’s very important for you to find someone who’s rich in character, focused on building themself, their life, money and career, values long term relationships, and does not have wandering eyes because otherwise, you’d not be able to respect them enough to be with them. However, you try to maintain as strong of a character as you can and are naturally a provider. You’re also someone who has already worked a lot on yourself so when you are in a partnership, you have a lot to offer to the person in front of you. You have every right to be demanding and picky honestly because when you connect with someone, you risk breaking and losing all that you’ve built for yourself. Be it your character, money, life, values, etc. I’m saying this because it’s been proven that it takes only a few days for humans to start getting influenced by their environment and that includes the people around them. You’re also someone who compromises in relationships so it’s important that you find someone who’s rich in character, well meaning towards you, mature, wise and wants to provide for you so you’re not at a loss.

You are accepting of people’s differences and might enjoy some level of fighting, and aggression but you have a more peaceful personality. You enjoy the making up part of fighting 😭. The energy that I’m getting here is so adorable and funny. You will only be with someone who can you respect, admire and look up to because you have a lot of self respect, and wouldn’t want to risk losing all that you’ve built for yourself and all the progress that you’ve made so supposing something happens and they’re correcting, and scolding you, you will either silently take it or try to fight back but will still end up listening to them and taking it in the end xD. You seek peace but you have an ability to find passion and beauty even in conflict, and have it strengthen your bond with your partner rather than break it. You have a lot of integrity and are incredibly honest. Supposing you did something that most people would hide or lie about, you’d just expose it because it’s just a natural part of you. If it is concerning past matters, I’m getting that you would talk about these things in a more unapologetic manner but if it is something that is happening in the present moment or could harm the connection, you would be more remorseful with your speech but you feel like someone who wants to love you should know you and someone who wants to understand you will do so. You quite literally have nothing to hide. You also understand the nuances of emotions and human relationships, if you do anything to hurt your partner. You try to make up for it and build trust back again gradually rather than getting mad at them for not forgiving or trusting you. Most of you wouldn’t really do things that would betray or hurt your partner but I’m getting certain things coming through. You have high standards and before you get with your partner, you don’t trust their intentions and are naturally secretive. You try to be cautious and strategic not to manipulate but to protect yourself, and not fall victim to manipulation and mind games, and this is not a con, it is a pro but this can also create a bit more of a distrustful dynamic between you and your partner initially. So once you trust them enough, you’re honest with them about how you felt and how you feel, and all of that. You don’t hide much if anything from your partner once you feel safe enough. In fact, you don’t mind showing them your uglier sides or talking about the worst things that you have done, you want them to know you deeply, even the ugly parts and be able to accept, and love them. You have no intention of putting your partner through anything ugly but you just want them to know how shitty of a person you have been or can be. You don’t want them to love the ugly parts of you as in, put up with them but to have faith in you as a person despite what you may have done in the past. The thing is, you seem to be a person of a lot of integrity naturally so the ugly things that you’ve done in the past were mostly reactions to what other people were doing to you? But even so, you were treated as and seen as the villain in such situations but you don’t really care to explain your side to anyone.

However, with your partner, you do. I think that it’s a subconscious thing for you actually, you might not be aware that this side of you exists until you actually get into a relationship. Also, you have dealt with a lot of fights, competitions, aggression and conflicts, and do not want to deal with these anymore. You want a more understanding and peaceful dynamic with acceptance of differences, and fights that add passion into the bond and strengthen it rather than weaken, and break it. You are tired of being misunderstood :(. You know how to be alone and don’t act desperate for connections so when you do connect with someone, it’s not out of desperation but from a place of grounded place of truly choosing someone and connecting with them. You have likely experienced money or even if you haven’t, you are not money hungry. Yes, you do want money, it’s very obvious that you’re interested in building a life full of abundance for yourself and you see it as a valuable asset that can make life more beautiful but you think that character and true connections are beyond value. Even though you’re pretty self regulated when you’re single or try to be, you rely on your partner and want them to rely on you. You let them rely on you and work as a team with them. You do not want to burden your partner initially maybe so you’ll try to keep up appearances of stability but overtime, the more comfortable that you get with them, the more that you rely on them. You’re very candid and don’t try to be elegant for no reason, you’re just real. Obviously, you will still want to self regulate sometimes but you’re so grateful to have someone to rely on and want to be the same for them. You seem to have mixed feelings about dependency in a connection but you know how to maintain a fine balance. You want a provider and are a provider yourself, and would love the finer things in life but you are fine with not having it. Even if your partner’s finances were to fall apart, you’d stick by their side because you have faith in them and you enjoy the down to earth moments of comfort just as much as you may enjoy a luxury retreat. What matters is your constant companion :,). How sweet. Also, you’re the type to tire yourself out by working for your relationship and partner, trying to be everything for them, trying to be the one that they can depend on at all times. You go above and beyond for them, and your relationship with them. This is why you need a partner who is well meaning and wants to work for the relationship too because you’re not going to care if you’re tired, hungry, whatever, you’re just going to work, work, work for them. I think that you’ve developed high standards and certain demands, and requirements that you need your partner to meet because in the past, all you did was work, work, work and for people who couldn’t or just didn’t do the same for you. You didn’t even ask for anything. You just kept on doing. You deserved so much better than that. I’m glad that you can see that now.

Moving onto your cons, once you’re invested and committed, that is it. Your devotion reaches the highest point possible and you’re so busy fulfilling, managing, and balancing the relationship that you don’t notice or take into account your own happiness or lack of it. You’re very flexible and keen on seeing, and understanding your partner’s perspective and manage your emotions well in order to fulfil your role in the relationship, and plan and prepare for the future but you’re often too patient, and understanding. You try to find balance and happiness even if the relationship is unfulfilling for you. There are times when you are so busy balancing, understanding and maintaining the relationship by doing for it that you don’t notice how you’re being deprived of your wants and needs until it hits you really hard or even if you know that it’s not bringing you happiness, you continue trying because you’re borderline addicted to the person and are willing to put your needs, and wants in the backseat. You try to be understanding instead of leaving the relationship. “Not everything is about me.” “Not everything has to be how I dreamed of it to be.” You are able to find satisfaction in situations that are not satisfactory and you deserve so much better than that. You continue maintaining an image of being happy and fulfilled on the outside even if you’re dying on the inside due to how the relationship is not doing much for you. Your connections tend to drain you and in fact, rob you off your happiness and abundance, and you let it. You go through phases in your relationships but throughout it, you try your best to be understanding and patient, and maintain and fulfil the relationship. You think of the relationship as something divine and fulfilling initially, and try your best to fulfil it as such but then you start noticing that the connection is not what you dreamed of it to be but even so, you maintain optimism and continue doing for it because you understand that people are different, and that not every dream needs to come true but the more time that passes by, the more you lose your inner sense of abundance because you start bringing addicted to the other person and the lack of satisfaction only becomes more evident. Even so, you continue doing your best, you continue maintaining the relationship and being understanding, and patient but then you start becoming sadder, and start feeling lonelier. Then, you start mourning the relationship while you’re still in it. After that, you start thinking about things more logically. You start using your reasoning skills and enter a period of analysis. By this point, you’ve felt and mourned enough, you become more mind oriented than heart oriented and seek mental clarity, and truth above everything.

Then you enter a period of dissatisfaction, boredom, contemplation and nostalgia. Until the sorrow phase, you are very understanding. Starting from the thinker phase onwards, you start becoming more and more dissatisfied. After this phase of dissatisfaction and contemplation is over, you realise that the connection was not even that solid, stable and grounded, and you finally have the courage to break it. You are someone who maintains the relationship in such a way that you handle both the feminine and masculine parts because you genuinely don’t mind doing for love which is actually a really good trait but in this case, it’s a con because you wouldn’t have to fulfil both the roles if your partner was not complacent in the first place. You also give away your dreams in order to find happiness in whatever the relationship is and whatever your partner has to offer. You are not someone who gives up simply because your partner and the relationship is not living up to your wishes, instead you try to make the most out of the relationship by doing your best and remain patient, understanding, and satisfied through it all until you absolutely cannot take it anymore. I feel like if you’ve had past relationships, situationships, whatever, they wouldn’t have lasted as long as they did if it wasn’t for you. They lasted as long as they did only because of the effort you put into them, all the roles you took on and all the understanding, and patience that you showed. There could also be a history of getting deeply involved in situations that were not even grounded in the first place i.e. the person you were involved with was not committed to you and you were not leaving these situations despite dissatisfaction, and sorrow until you absolutely couldn’t take it anymore. If it’s not a history, it could be a tendency that you’re not even aware of yet. Be careful because you will get deeply wounded by these situations due to how much you give away. You cannot and should not try anything not committed because that’s not how you’re programmed, that’s not what you’re made for. In fact, if you feel or have felt used by friends of whatever sex you’re attracted to (because many of you have or will), I suggest that you make a firm decision to not be friends with them, not on a personal level at least i.e. no texting, no calling, no sorrow sharing, etc. because due to your natural provider tendencies, you might end up giving them more than you should. ‘You’re losing me’ by Taylor Swift is coming through. I’m glad that your pros showed that you’ve become more demanding and have developed high standards because it will truly protect you from so many low quality experiences.

Pros:

i) You are highly intolerant of nonsense and uphold firm standards - both for yourself and for others.

ii) You are ruthlessly self-disciplined, holding yourself accountable to your own values and goals.

iii) You are patient and understand the importance of building a connection with consistency, effort and long-term investment.

iv) You are extremely perseverant, once you commit, you’re all in and don’t back down easily.

v) You’ve learned from the past to value reciprocity and have developed high standards after noticing imbalanced efforts in previous relationships.

vi) You are growth-oriented, constantly working on yourself and striving to meet your own evolving standards.

vii) You are naturally a provider, regardless of gender, and take on a role of dependability and support in relationships.

viii) You value stability and long-term commitment, and prefer grounded connections over fleeting ones.

ix) You have a traditional side when it comes to relationships, valuing maturity, wisdom and reliability

x) You do not entertain people who aren’t serious or grounded, you seek meaningful and stable partnerships.

xi) You consistently strive to better yourself and want a partner with the same mindset and drive.

xii) You are guided by values, ethics and principles, and desire a partner who is equally rooted in integrity.

xiii) While your standards are considered ‘high’, they are realistic and rooted in experience and self-awareness.

xiv) You seek a partner who is mature, loyal, focused on growth, and respectful - not one with wandering eyes.

xv) You cannot respect someone who lacks discipline or character, as your self-respect wouldn’t allow you to stay in that dynamic.

xvi) You have every right to be discerning in love because you risk your whole foundation i.e. your values, character and peace when entering a relationship.

xvii) You compromise in relationships but require someone whose character is rich, intentions are pure and who wants to contribute as much as you do.

xviii) You are peaceful by nature but enjoy occasional conflict if it adds passion and depth, when followed by reconciliation.

xix) You value peace but can find beauty in passionate, emotionally charged moments that strengthen your bond.

xx) You possess a deep sense of honesty and integrity. Even when you mess up, you are transparent.

xxi) You don’t hide your flaws, you reveal even your ‘ugly’ sides because you desire to be deeply known and authentically accepted.

xxii) You are unapologetically open about your past mistakes, seeing them as part of your truth, not something to be ashamed of.

xxiii) You’re remorseful when your actions hurt your partner and put effort into rebuilding trust, showing emotional maturity.

xxiv) You’re cautious and strategic at the beginning of a connection, not to manipulate but to protect yourself.

xxv) Once trust is built, you are transparent, candid and willing to reveal your deepest truths.

xxvi) You want your partner to love and understand you as a whole, even the parts of you that you’ve struggled with yourself.

xxvii) Despite being misunderstood by others, you long for a partner who will hear your side and see the full context of who you are, and will express your truth to them.

xxviii) You are tired of conflict, competition and misunderstanding, you now seek peace, understanding and calmness in love.

xxix) You are emotionally independent - you do not chase relationships from desperation but choose them from clarity and groundedness.

xxx) You have likely experienced wealth or comfort yet are not materialistic. You value character and deep connection above material things.

xxxi) While you can self-regulate, you value mutual dependency in relationships and welcome shared vulnerability.

xxxii) You don’t put on a polished act, you’re real, raw and authentic, even if that means being a little messy at times.

xxxiii) You strive to balance independence with healthy dependency. You are reliable and incredibly grateful to have someone to rely on.

xxxiv) You are willing to stick by your partner through both abundance and scarcity, valuing emotional constancy over material security.

xxxv) You work tirelessly in your relationships - providing, nurturing, supporting, always beyond what is asked of you.

xxxvi) You require a partner who can meet you in effort and intention, you’ve likely learned from exhausting one-sided relationships.

xxxvii) You’ve developed your high standards as a response to past imbalance where you gave endlessly without asking for anything in return.

xxxviii) You now recognize your worth, the value you bring, and that you deserve a partner who matches your energy and effort.

Cons:

i) Once you’re emotionally invested, your devotion becomes absolute, even to your own detriment. You over-prioritize the relationship, often neglecting your own happiness.

ii) You’re too patient and understanding, sometimes to a fault. You’ll sacrifice your own needs in favor of maintaining harmony and ‘doing the right thing.’

iii) You tend to internalize dissatisfaction, trying to make peace with unfulfilling situations by convincing yourself to be grateful for whatever little you’re receiving.

iv) You’re so focused on making the relationship work that you don’t realize how deprived you are until it crashes down on you emotionally.

v) You continue giving your all and keeping up appearances even while emotionally dying inside, carrying the entire emotional load silently.

vi) You minimize your needs and abandon your dreams to find satisfaction in whatever your partner is able or willing to offer, even if it’s not enough.

vii) Your emotional resilience becomes a double-edged sword allowing you to stay too long in connections that are unbalanced and hurtful.

viii) You shift into a caregiving role and unconsciously take on both the masculine and feminine energies in a relationship, trying to do everything yourself.

ix) You tend to become addicted to the person rather than the reality of the relationship, which clouds your judgment.

x) You mourn the relationship while still being in it, silently grieving the emotional starvation while continuing to serve and stay.

xi) You delay walking away from a connection that isn’t working, hoping your emotional labor will somehow transform the dynamic.

xii) You rationalize subpar treatment by telling yourself, “not everything is about me” or “it doesn’t have to be perfect,” slowly eroding your own boundaries.

xiii) You try to remain optimistic and patient even as the joy and emotional richness of the connection disappears.

xiv) You experience phases in relationships: deep emotional commitment → subtle dissatisfaction → silent sorrow → mental detachment → heavy dissatisfaction → eventual clarity and breakup.

xv) Once you hit emotional burnout, you switch from heart-led to logic-driven, seeking mental clarity and analyzing everything in retrospect.

xvi) Your pattern often leads to eventual heartbreak not because you were blind but because you delayed acting on what you already knew inside.

xvii) The relationship sometimes only lasts as long as it does because of your effort, sacrifice and emotional labor, not because of equal contribution from the other side.

xviii) You may have a pattern or history of being deeply invested in connections that were never fully committed or grounded to begin with.

xix) You could be prone to entering or staying in ambiguous dynamics (e.g. situationships) even though they do not align with your true needs for security and commitment.

xx) Your natural provider energy makes you give more than you should, even to friends or casual connections, leaving you feeling used or emotionally drained.

xxi) You are deeply wounded by experiences where you gave your all and received inconsistency or emotional neglect in return.

xxii) You are not built for emotionally casual or undefined relationships and trying to engage in them could be damaging to your well-being.

xxiii) You might unknowingly attract people who take advantage of your loyalty, patience and giving nature, especially if they sense your emotional endurance.

xxiv) Even though you have now developed higher standards, there’s still a lingering vulnerability to fall into old emotional patterns if not constantly self-aware.

xxv) If your history includes being used by emotionally intimate friendships with those you’re attracted to, it may be necessary to establish stricter emotional boundaries.

xxvi) You have a tendency to perform emotional labor for others, taking on their pain, worries, and chaos, even when it harms your peace.

xxvii) You’re often too understanding of poor treatment, interpreting it as ‘human flaw’ rather than a red flag which slows your exit from unhealthy dynamics.

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Starting with your pros, you are someone who seeks to learn and teach in a romantic relationship. In fact, you’re always learning from everywhere and so, you want to be with someone who you can look up to and learn from, and who looks up to you and learns from you as well. You’re very happy go lucky in many ways and have different sides to you. You’ve likely experienced the ups and downs of life but most people see you as having experienced only the ups because you can act very happy, and bubbly. You’re also someone who can accept both the positives and negatives that come your way, and will stick with your partner through the ups and downs of life. You won’t let life come in between you and your partner, instead you’ll go with the flow of things and try to turn life around with them. You see love as a commitment, you value certain traditions and old school ideas, and naturally live by them and aspire to live by them, and do not let your commitment waver. Also, whether people know it or not, you bring a lot of luck into your romantic partner’s life. It doesn’t have to be that good things start happening to them after you enter their life (though it very well could be) but instead that simply just having a partner like you itself is very fortunate. You understand love and commitment very deeply, and love in a divine manner. You’re traditional and old school in many ways, and it makes you very dutiful and responsible. You do not leave your partner when they’re going through an emotional low or a low point in their life instead you remain patient, understanding and try to see things from their perspective. You instead try to maintain the connection and work with your partner in harmony, and cooperation by understanding their emotions and taking on their usual role if you have to. You’re flexible and don’t mind changing when life calls for it. People don’t give women enough credit. When people think about a traditional relationship, they immediately think about a working husband and a stay at home wife but they forget that life is not that simple for everyone. Even the most traditional couples from our parent’s generation and before that, the women have worked to provide for their family if they had to.

That didn’t make their relationship any less traditional. It’s similar with you, you value old school and traditional relationships but your idea of a traditional relationship is a lot about ethics, values, and responsibilities rather than the typical traditional roles alone. You do not mind stepping up for a while if the relationship calls for it but you are definitely not willing to provide for a bum for the rest of your life. You still expect your partner to want to be a provider and if they stop trying, you’d frankly lose a lot of respect for them. You don’t mind changing and transforming deeply through your partner, relationship or for them but you’re also okay with endings. You’re not someone who keeps on holding onto a connection just because the start of the relationship was beautiful. You’ve learned healthy self regulation by now and have changed a lot, in fact, you’re always learning, and always in the process of change and also like I said earlier, you’ve experienced the ups and downs of life which includes losing connections, and people and all of it has caused you to be more comfortable with endings. You don’t care about how much potential any connection has, if you feel slightly disrespected or realise that it’s not what you want, that you’d be disrespecting yourself by staying in the connection, you will leave. You’re a very ethical person who truly tries to watch your character and empathise, understand, and work with your partner so if you don’t receive the same, you’ll leave. For you, losing respect and feeling disrespected is enough of a reason to leave because you value integrity. Character is a big thing for you and I’m so glad that you seem to have more of a self assured approach to connections, and know what you want and can offer. You’re also okay with not exploring the potential of connections at all and not taking them to the next level if it requires you to lose integrity, turn a blind eye to disrespect, turn a blind eye to lack of values of the other person, etc. You know how to experience relationships in a divine manner in which you become one with your partner and work as a team with patience, understanding, and love but when relationships end, you are able to see and accept that it was clearly not as grounded, stable and deep as you may have wanted it to be.

Moving onto your cons, there’s a big emphasis on your past for those of you who have it. Your past experiences could cause you to have a more negative view of love and I mean, overwhelmingly negative. A fear of history repeating itself, a belief that whatever happened in the past will happen again, I’m getting sleepless nights or nightmares kind of stuff but that’s not the case for most of you and even if it is, you are able to move past it. The real problem is your partner’s past. You want a divine and devoted love in which you pretty much become one with your partner, and you hold commitment and love to a very high standard as well as caliber. You would not get with just anyone and even if some of you have in the past, those experiences were not real, they weren’t grounded and you accept, and understand that so they hold no meaning to you but for your partner, it could, you fear that. You want to be the only one for them. It would not be a con but you’re someone who will legit break down to tears, lose sleep or wake up deeply sad at the thought of your partner having been with and loved someone else :,). I’m the same so no judgement. You’re also very naive and pure, you love in a young, and innocent manner and fear not receiving love in the same way. When you love someone, they’re the only one for you and you fear that that’s not the case for them. The mere thought of them having memories of someone else, being able to remember their touch, voice, intimate moments with them, romantic moments with them, the feeling of being with them, all and any of it is enough to break you down into tears, make you overthink and lose sleep. This is interesting, you have always been a risk taker in relationships, often ending up rushing into them and your innocent nature caused you to be taken advantage of. You were honestly very naive and still are but now you’re aware of it, and you fear having to experience such moments again. It doesn’t even have to have happened regarding romance but your past seems to have made you feel naive causing you to be afraid of taking risks now.

You’re incredibly childlike and naive, having faith and believing in your partner without questioning things much if at all 🥹. It’s funny because you could give them hell about their past and drive yourself insane by thoughts of it but you love them so purely, and have so much faith in them. You lack assertiveness and become very soft, too soft. You’re sensitive and are ever loving. You become too empathetic and too caring. You’re extremely sensitive and vulnerable as well though, and despite lacking assertiveness, you tend to be very sharp and reckless when hurt. You possess a duality in which you can be out of control sometimes but are mostly not this way, in fact, you’re more subservient and meek, not expressing much assertiveness most of the time. You are instead very soft and sensitive, and loving and understanding. You experience the relationship as something very deep. It causes you to change a lot internally and question your beliefs, and change them and despite your comfortability with change, it is very intense and extreme so you try not to show the effects of it externally. However, this intensity, extremity, transformation and resistance has its way of showing up externally so you end up showing very vulnerable sides of yourself in the process of trying not to do so? Also, a very romantic thing is coming through, you try to avoid falling or showing that you’ve fallen and in the process of doing so, you fail even harder or when you realise, or show that you’ve fallen, there’s just no way of getting over it. It’s just so profound and deep. What’s that Mariah Carrey song that’s been trending recently? The one that goes “I give my all to him, just one more night with you. That song is coming through and also ‘hopelessly devoted to you’. You get deeply involved with your romantic partner and will have a hard time moving on from them due to how sensitive, soft and vulnerable they made you feel. You love deeply even if you are emotionally well regulated on the outside and can have a very hard time moving on. Being haunted by your past romantic partner for a really long time. Those of you who have loved someone this deeply are likely aware of this side of yourself.

Pros:

i) You approach love as a mutual journey of growth, you want to both learn from and teach your partner, creating a dynamic of shared wisdom.

ii) You are genuinely happy-go-lucky with a lighthearted spirit that coexists with emotional depth. You’ve experienced real lows but carry yourself with joy and resilience.

iii) You’re emotionally adaptable, able to accept both the highs and lows of life without letting them disrupt your connection with your partner.

iv) You’re committed and grounded in your view of love. For you, love is not a fleeting feeling but a deep-rooted responsibility and choice.

v) You believe in traditional values but not in a rigid or outdated way. Your version of tradition is based on ethics, responsibility and mutual respect, not gender roles.

vi) You bring genuine emotional abundance into your partner’s life. Simply being with you is a source of good fortune, stability and growth for them.

vii) You love in a divine, spiritual way- your love is loyal, enduring and deeply respectful of the sacredness of commitment.

viii) You do not abandon your partner in their low moments. Instead, you become more understanding, empathetic and willing to help carry the emotional weight if needed.

ix) You’re emotionally flexible and can adapt to life’s changing circumstances, taking on more or less in the relationship depending on what’s needed.

x) You honor and admire traditional structures, but you don’t cling to outdated norms. Your version of tradition is modern, realistic, and rooted in character and values.

xi) You don’t shy away from responsibility when love calls for it but you have clear boundaries. You’re not willing to support someone endlessly if they’re not putting in effort.

xii) You expect your partner to have the drive to provide and contribute. If they stop trying altogether, you lose respect which is a clear dealbreaker for you.

xiii) You’re capable of deep transformation through love and relationship, and open to evolving alongside your partner, while still maintaining your sense of self.

xiv) You have developed strong emotional maturity and self-regulation, which allows you to navigate endings with grace and clarity when needed.

xv) You no longer chase potential. If a connection disrespects your values or self-worth in any way, you are confident enough to walk away, no matter how beautiful it once was.

xvi) You are grounded in integrity and character. You offer understanding, empathy and accountability, and expect the same in return.

xvii) You do not tolerate disrespect, even in subtle forms. Respect is a non-negotiable for you and you trust yourself to walk away when it’s compromised.

xviii) You are not interested in ‘fixing’ or ‘seeing potential’ in people, you know what you want and you don’t waste energy on connections that can’t meet you there.

xix) You’ve accepted the impermanence of relationships. You’ve known loss, and it has made you wiser, stronger and more discerning with your energy.

xx) You seek a divine, team-oriented connection - one where both people contribute with patience, understanding and love. You strive for harmony, not hierarchy.

xxi) When something ends, you are able to reflect with honesty and accept that the connection wasn’t as deep, stable or reciprocal as you hoped, and you let it go.

Cons:

i) Your past romantic experiences, especially if painful or unfulfilling, still linger in your emotional body and may cause you to approach love with an underlying fear of history repeating itself.

ii) You have a deeply idealistic and divine view of love, so any reminder of your partner’s romantic or intimate past can deeply distress you, even to the point of sleepless nights, sadness or emotional spiraling.

iii) You want to be your partner’s one and only, not just in the present but in emotional and spiritual history. The thought that you may not be, even if irrational, can cause you overwhelming sadness and insecurity.

iv) You love in a deeply innocent, childlike and devoted way. You fear not receiving love in that same pure and all-encompassing form from your partner.

v) The mere idea of your partner remembering someone else’s voice, touch or presence can break you down because you love with your whole being.

vi) You’ve always been a risk-taker, rushing into things with open arms but this innocent approach has left you vulnerable to manipulation or being taken advantage of.

vii) Your past has made you question your judgment. Now, even though you crave deep love, you’re afraid of taking emotional risks and getting hurt again.

viii) You still carry a very innocent and trusting heart. You often believe in your partner fully, without questioning much.

ix) You lack assertiveness in romantic relationships, becoming soft, overly gentle and self-sacrificing. You tend to put your partner’s emotional needs above your own, often to a fault.

x) You’re extremely sensitive and deeply empathetic. While this is beautiful, it often leads to emotional overwhelm and an inability to set healthy emotional boundaries.

xi) Despite your gentle nature, when you’re hurt, you can become sharp, reactive and even reckless. You swing between emotional softness and sudden, unexpected intensity.

xii) This emotional duality - being mostly meek and self-sacrificing but occasionally eruptive when deeply wounded creates inner turmoil, and can confuse both you and your partner.

xiii) You go through deep internal transformations in relationships, questioning and shifting your core beliefs but you try to suppress or hide the external signs of this emotional upheaval.

xiv) Even though you try to appear strong or unaffected, the emotional weight of your romantic transformation leaks out, making you appear vulnerable, exposed or even fragile.

xv) You try not to show when you’ve fallen in love, but the more you resist, the deeper you fall. When you do fall, it’s intense, absolute and all-consuming.

xvi) Once you’ve fallen for someone, there is no easy way out for you. The love is profound, spiritually binding and not something you can detach from easily or quickly.

xvii) You are the type to give everything in love - your time, energy, emotional presence and when that love ends, it can haunt you for years.

xviii) You can carry emotional imprints of past relationships long after they’re over.

xix) You have a hard time letting go because of how deeply the relationship affected your emotional and spiritual identity. You mourn lost love in slow, aching ways.

xx) Your emotional vulnerability is a double-edged sword, it allows you to love deeply and purely, but it also leaves you feeling devastated and fragmented when that love is not returned in kind.

xxi) Despite appearing emotionally composed or even mature on the outside, your inner world is tender, volatile and very much affected by love, even long after the relationship is over.

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they've been through some stuff and came out the other side with a calm, steady mindset. they're the type who doesn't get easily shaken or overwhelmed by life’s challenges.

when things get hectic or stressful, they stay chill and don’t panic. they can handle chaos without losing their cool, making them someone you can rely on in tough situations.

they’re not the type to rush into things. they like to take things slow, think things through, and make sure they’re making the right moves, whether it’s in relationships, work, or life decisions.

they probably have a strong sense of family and respect for long-held values. they believe in things like loyalty, commitment, and honoring what came before, whether that’s family traditions or their own personal principles.

they’re either spiritual or have a strong personal philosophy that guides their life. they probably reflect on the bigger picture and have a deep understanding of their own purpose or place in the world.

they're not afraid to step out of their comfort zone. they love exploring new places, trying new things, and keeping life exciting. they can be spontaneous and enjoy breaking out of routines.

always thinking outside the box. they might have a knack for coming up with new ideas or solutions, whether it’s in their work, hobbies, or just life in general. they love expressing themselves in unique ways.

they don’t take shortcuts. they put in the effort and grind steadily toward their goals, even if it takes time. they understand that success is built on consistent work and dedication.

you can count on them, no questions asked. they keep their promises and show up when they say they will, whether it’s for something big or small. they’re the kind of person you can trust with anything.

they’ve got their finances together. they don’t live paycheck to paycheck, and they know how to manage money responsibly. they’ve probably built a secure foundation for themselves and are smart about financial decisions.

once they’re in, they’re in for the long haul. they’re fiercely loyal and protective of the people they love. they’ll stand by your side through thick and thin, and you’ll always know they’ve got your back no matter what.

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they’ve been through some tough stuff before (like heartbreak or betrayal), and they’re still working on getting over it. they’re in a process of healing, so they might be a bit cautious when it comes to love, but they’re definitely growing through it.

at times, they might feel a little lost or unsure about where they’re headed. they’re working on figuring things out, but they can get stuck in their head, trying to make the right choices. they may need a bit of time to get their confidence back before moving forward with big decisions.

they used to hold onto things too tightly, whether it was their money, their emotions, or their need to control everything. but now, they’re realizing they need to loosen up a bit and trust the process. they’re getting better at letting go of the things they can’t control.

they care a lot about building something real and secure for the future. they’re the kind of person who’s thinking about their career, their finances, and how to make sure they’ve got a strong foundation. they’re not into quick fixes; they’re focused on what lasts.

they can get caught up in the “what ifs” and feel like there are too many options to choose from. they might struggle with indecision or fantasizing about all the possibilities instead of making moves. they’re learning to focus and stop overthinking everything.

they’re someone who’s always looking for fresh starts. they might be starting a new chapter in their life—whether it’s career, relationships, or just personal growth. they’re focused on making things better and are always willing to work toward something new and more secure.

they’re ambitious and want more for themselves. they’re standing at a crossroads, thinking about what the next step looks like. they’re starting to plan ahead, but they’re also trying to figure out what path is the right one for them.

they’re soft-hearted and sensitive, not afraid to show their feelings. they’re the type to express their emotions and be vulnerable with the people they trust. they’re also really intuitive and can pick up on how others are feeling, offering emotional support when needed.

— 𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝟑

they’re someone who’s got their life together and doesn’t rely on others to feel secure. they’re proud of what they’ve built and enjoy the rewards of their hard work. they’re confident in their own abilities and don’t need validation from anyone else.

they know that good things take time. they’re not into rushing through life but are all about putting in the work and letting things grow naturally. they’re all about steady progress and building something real and long-lasting.

sometimes they feel unsure of themselves, especially when things aren’t going as planned. they may have moments of questioning their strength or abilities. they’re still figuring out how to trust themselves fully, but they’re working through it.

they can be a little guarded, especially when it comes to their emotions or what they’ve worked hard for. they like to keep control, but they’re learning to let go and trust more. it’s a process, but they’re getting there.

they’re the type of person who handles life with a lot of maturity. they take responsibility seriously and know how to manage their finances, their career, and their relationships in a practical way. they don’t take shortcuts.

they can be hard to read sometimes, and their emotions are deeper than they let on. they’re intuitive and sensitive, but they often keep their feelings under wraps. they might struggle to fully express what they’re going through, but they’re working on understanding themselves better.

they don’t like rushing into decisions. they’ll spend a lot of time weighing out their options and might even avoid making tough choices altogether. they want to make sure they’re doing the right thing, but they can get stuck in overthinking.

when they finally make up their mind, they’re sharp, direct, and won’t hesitate to go after what they want. they’re all about clarity and truth, and once they’re sure about something, they’re confident in their actions.

𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 !

hi! it's daphne here.

i'm currently offering personal readings for €8 and soulmate readings for €15 so don't hesitate to send me a private message if you're interested!

thank you for being here!

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rose-maidenn · 4 months ago

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Pac : What is your soul purpose ?

Pile 1-2-3

Hi loves hope you have been doing well , I'm sorry for the inactivity . Here's a new reading focus your intention and choose what calls out to you most , take what resonates .

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Pile 1 :

This is the birth you have been praying for this is the birth where you finally get initiated to a certain lifestyle, to be the devote of a certain God or Goddess this is it. You're born to be great to understand your own soul. You are the oracle you are the altar, this is the Pile of healers and people who know the truth about life. This lifetime play because most things in your life aren't hard but you're making it hard by getting into the mindset of hustle life's meant to be really easy for you , take it slow . There are really some good inventors in this pile , you may invent a new way of life , an idea or you may do some discoveries or inventions you are on the way to find something that will be remembered by the generations to come . You are here to show people how growth is an ongoing process and that healing isn't linear you're meant to play and keep growing , stress isn't a factor in your life believe that you deserve easy things and life will prove that you sure do .

Pile 2 :

You're the warrior you're the one who fights for justice , you Will fight for a good life and you will have it. Some of you might have dealt with adverse life situations in this pile. Bullying , toxic people etc were always around you have to now go through this take a sword and kill all the bad memories and start a new life have no resentments, your growth is the greatest revenge, let it go you grow like nature grows . You also are meant to gather people for a big purpose build a community (like be in social media, start classes in some art or academics) have a beautiful family life , but all this will happen when you realise that you're a leader Don't be afraid and don't gaslight you , you definitely are Born to lead now don't be scared hold your own hand this is meant to be . You will find so many people from your soul family , you will have so much support just trust the universe and keep working .

Pile 3 :

This lifetime has been hard hasn't it ? Everytime you think it will get better you see that there's something that's making it worse right ? Well trust that all the hurt would turn because each hurt is a lesson learned , you have to take the lessons right okay , don't just go through it write and apply what you learnt sit and talk to your higher self . You are what your ancestors prayed for you're healing your family you're the chosen one , the life of a chosen one is never an easy one but it's monumental and it teaches everyone a lot so trust your path see how you can make flowers grow on graveyard dust , because that's what it is about , you are meant to see the good despite the fall . Dance with life , if it makes you bow make sure you take the bow and show your moves because life's not something that happens to you but for you , you have been training for this for lifetimes this life this it it where you get ready for the biggest blessing this is when you let go of all hurts and grow into the person you're meant to be . Big time scorpio energy , you're a Phoenix don't be scared you will go down in history if you learn your lessons right .

Thank you so much for reading have a great time ahead love love

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realprissygirl · 6 months ago

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❥ — maramaxxing:

.𖥔 ݁ ˖ becoming prissier and sexier 🍨👛🐈‍⬛˖ ࣪

❤︎ ྀི˖𓍢 my personal pinkprint to aligning with my princess agenda—style, mindset, and routines to embody my future self. as I pivot in life, this will be one of my final blog posts like this. i’m transitioning it off blogging and will now document everything in my video diary… 𐙚

🎀 self prioritization, boundaries, and independence - i come before anyone else. i have no children and my only commitment is to make myself happy.

🍨 shadow work - to reveal what has made me how i am (strengths, traumas, interests, fears), i’ve done so much reflecting on my triggers and responses to specific stimuli. it feels good to know that i’m getting to know myself. that says growth to me.

🎀 studying my birth chart - finding out how my placements, and which houses they’re in has really made my day to day interactions and experiences very insightful and fun to dissect.

🎀 so fab so glam lately - my vibe lately has been just g-l-a-m, glamorous. just oozing sex appeal and hyper femininity with a sophisticated twist. i can’t wait to document this on youtube.

🍨 bougie and sexy - black and satin have been a common theme for me. my aesthetic is naturally going in a very sultry direction along with animal prints, lace and diamanté detailing.

🎀 body mods - back dermal piercings, more ear piercings and super pretty tattoos, nothing too much just small and pretty embellishmentz!

🍨 fab color palette - brown, cream, soft pink, metallic accents (champagne gold, white gold), and leopard print. my everything.

🎀 gold n pink jewelry - this combo is so pretty on everything else so why wouldn’t be just as pretty on my personal adornments? ordered three gold and pink belly rings and i can’t want to mix the metals once my piercings heal.

🍨keeping a physical lookbook in my fashion diary - this year i’m not holding back. the looks are coming. the photos are coming. i want to document my fav looks, accessories, and details in real time. almost like personal portfolio.

🎀 sexy and grownifying my closet - investing in a luxurious, cohesive closet that says grown. gonna be using high heels and casual glamour to achieve this. the fabrics and cuts are extremely crucial too.

🍨 staple designer bags - if you know me you know i love designer purses. especially if they’re neutral colored and essential. i definitely plan on expanding my repertoire of bags.

🎀 customizing my wardrobe - i’m getting a sewing machine and i’m learning how to hotfix rhinestones to personalize and bedazzle anything i want to. i’m so so excited!

🍨 making my own jewelry - i’m so excited to talk about this! i’m making a kit of chains and threads along with beads and charms all in my color palette and i’m going to start popping out with so much custom made shit! body chains, waist beads, charm bracelets, just so exclusive + #prissy.

🎀 new makeup styles - been loving smoky eyes and black waterlines, overlining with a muted brown, lash clusters, rhinestones, and more sultry details.

🍨 interior lingerie - the goal is to have a boudoir that is just a sexy and alluring as my lingerie closet! sweet n sexy kitten! ❤︎︎

🎀 currently healing my gut - psyllium husk supplements, fiber, kombucha/prebiotic soda, chia seeds and an adequate amount of water have all become a part of my routine over the last month or so and i definitely feel different.

🍨 #prettiedup - bleach my hair, signature makeup routines, regular nail appointments (found a tech that i can rely on 🎀), korean skincare + african black soap, and anything else to boost my beauty.

🎀 got a personal trainer to maintain my “skinny bbl” look - i’m a tall girl with long legs and that with a tiny waist and round butt is so my look. currently training for it and i’m pretty happy so far. at this rate, by the end of march i’ll be at my goals.

🍨 building my vitamin and supplement routine - collagen, probiotics + prebiotics, maca, berberine, + some hum essentials.

🎀 my love of teas - cannot live without tea. it’s my favorite form of caffeine. and herbal teas always help me feel as if i’ve boosted my health. my favorite teas right now are green tea, matcha, and double spice chai. also love black, spearmint, and raspberry teas.

🍨 weekly digital detox - one day a week i go out of my way to avoid my phone. i simply rely on other things for entertainment, radio for music and try to interact with those around me.

🎀 hair extension wardrobe - tape ins in natural black and honey blonde, vixen sew ins with 30” bundles (i’m a tall girl so long hair to me is at least 26”)

🍨 cycle syncing - i’ve changed the way i eat depending on where i am in my menstrual cycle. i find my gut responds to the things i eat better. even with the time of day, being intentional with the way i live my life is so important to me now.

🎀 new personalized diet - high protein and low artificial sugar is pretty much what i’ve been following. what i typically eat in a day is berries, rice, oranges, lots of water, almond and peanut butter, etc. my fav sources of protein are grilled chicken, sushi, steak, salmon and eggs. of course i still like sweets they’re for sure few and far between.

🎀 trust in my intuition - it’s taken a while but i’m finally learning to trust myself. if my body is telling me to do something i do it, i don’t try to force what isn’t there, and i respect my mind by honoring the discerning abilities i was blessed with.

🍨 gratitude and thought reframing - so many things in my life changed for the better when i learned to flip my thoughts. in a glass half full fashion. it’s literally the law of assumption. i’m forever grateful for everyone and everything i have. and miss universe has only blessed me with more because i’m now so much more receptive.

🎀 no bull shit + not easily impressed - i literally have the shortest tolerance. i expect a certain standard of behavior from those that wish to be in my presence and this is because i give a certain level of care, consideration, authenticity and respect.

🍨 manifestation journal - my literal best friend. everything i write in my LOA journal comes true. i’m not exaggerating. i read it in the morning and tend to write in it before bed. i keep it right next to my bed along with some stickers and gel pens.

🎀 semipermanent beauty treatments - making appointments for lash lifts and brow microblading as we speak. also super interested in finding a great medspa in my area.

🍨 youtube #vloggingbabe🎀 - i finally made my long awaited comeback and i’ll actually be recording some of the things in this post on video. i love recording and editing. it feels like the best form of self expression to me right now! subscribe!

🎀 glam squad (esthetics, hair, nails) - i’m so anal about things being seamless and easy to remember. i like to go the same place for particular services and i’m determined to find a reliable hairstylist and esthetician that i can stay loyal to (i already have a bomb ass nail tech)

#❤︎ ྀི˖𓍢ִ໋#luvs it #certified princess! ❤︎ ྀི

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bitegore · 3 months ago

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I made a character sheet to plot your OC's development over time! (There's supposed to be a character name in the big white space next to "over time" but it got eaten a little lmao)

You can use this for whatever you want, and you don't have to credit me. Feel free to change or edit anything you feel like. Please don't tag me if you credit me - just link to the original post.

Credits, explanations & a transparent version under the cut :D

Credits:

The actual image was made with the free NBOS character sheet creator, which is a sort of dated but free and solid text-layout sheet maker intended for ttrpg style character sheet creation.

Fonts used were Bisdak (titles) and Rockwell (body). Both are free! You can use them to fill it out if you like.

Inspired by a comment @maybe-solar-powered-calculator made on this other post about filling it out for characters at multiple points along their arcs. Thanks for putting the idea in my head :D

This is explicitly released under a CC0 1.0 deed, ie: you can do fucking whatever you want with it and I don't care and you don't have to tell anyone where you got it from and no one gets to stop you.

Last time I made one of these I got a bunch of questions on all manner of things, and I can never keep up, so I'm just appending a set of notes for how to use it and a glossary because I know some of these phrasings will be confusing.

Ignore or change anything you don't feel like works for you here. You can do whatever you want forever.

Suggested / intended use & general notes:

This sheet could work for something story-level, if you want. But it's really only good for individual arcs; if the character goes through multiple arcs in your story, then they're going to fit poorly here. In that case, you're probably better off doing versions for each arc, or just adapting this to a different format more suited to your thing.

Also, if your arc has a nontraditional structure - divorced from the typical "rising action - climax - conclusion" type of structure where there's a clear 'important turning point' - it may not work as well either.

The mindset section is meant to come at it from a 'golden mean' standpoint - that is, everything on either extreme of the slider is 'too much' and therefore bad. It's not bad-to-good! The far right side is a flaw too. They're only grouped the way they are on basis of the specific OCs I personally had in mind when I put it together.

Growth is labeled 'worse'-to-'better' but it means, like, active decrease in that area vs active increase; if nothing changes, it should stay at the center even if it sucks. The category is about contrasting changes, and sometimes changes are for the worse!

The entire sheet is very deliberately subjective. It should really be answered from the character's perspective - how they feel about it, not what's necessarily true. Technically you can do whatever you want and I can't stop you, but it's a better tool if you approach it from the point of view that the character may believe things that aren't true - that will define their behavior way more than the objective facts of the story.

Definitions:

This part is long as hell - recommend using ctrl+f to find the specific words you're stuck on. I defined everything.

General categories:

Mindset: how your character thinks about themself and how they act. Their understanding of their own approach to life. Attitude, viewpoint, decision-making process, that sort of thing.

Circumstances: the relationship between your character and the world around them. Where they are, what that place is like, and how they feel about it.

Growth: how the character and their impact - their attitude, their behavior, their immediate surroundings - changes over time.

Outset: the start of the character's arc.

Present: the 'center' of the arc. If you're planning something ahead of time and it hasn't 'happened' yet, then this is the near future.

End-game: where they are after the conclusion of the arc.

Mindset terms:

Center of the world: "If I have a problem, it's the only thing that matters to me." Self-centered, self-absorbed. Doesn't necessarily mean anything beyond that - they don't necessarily have to be unpleasant to be entirely focused on their own life.

my life isn't relevant: "Everyone else's problems are so significant, I don't pay any attention to my own". Someone who ignores or neglects their own life in service of some other thing, or doesn't consider their own behavior to have any real importance.

Only see enemies: Paranoid. Everyone's out to get them. Anyone who seems nonthreatening is hiding their potential for danger and everyone who seems threatening is a threat. The character must remain ever-vigilant, lest the cashier at the 7/11 suddenly stab them, or their best friend turn out to secretly be trying to poison them to death.

Only see friends: Naïve. Everyone is a good actor who wishes everyone else well, and if they don't seem like they're acting from a place of kindness or care then you probably don't understand what they're up to. The character is pretty sure the stranger holding that knife is, like, someone to chat up maybe, they're clearly only hanging out in this dark alleyway because it's a nice spot and no other possible reason.

overthink everything: Ten thousand thoughts per every single action taken. Maybe they never get around to acting at all. They have to consider every possible outcome. What if by eating lunch they accidentally trigger the apocalypse?! Who's going to think about these things if not them?!?!?!

impulsive to action: Act first, think never. What do you mean "consequences of actions"?

Unilateral decisions: "I will make every choice and no one else's opinions or thoughts are relevant". Discounts outside suggestions. Firmly convinced that they know best in any situation, and will brook no disagreement with their views when it comes to actually doing things.

Command me, please: "I don't know what to do and I don't know what to even start with, someone please tell me what to think". No confidence in their own views. Will not make any decisions unless forced and even then will beg someone else to please tell them what to do. Has no idea what's best and is pretty sure anyone else will have a better idea.

can't ask for help: No one will ever help the character; they have to do everything themself, even the things other people have repeatedly offered to do for them and have much more experience with. Doesn't necessarily mean that no one will help them or that they are explicitly barred by some real-world circumstance; just that, for whatever reason, they refuse to ask for help. This is an attitude thing - will they ever reach out? No? Then they're here.

too reliant on others: Have they ever solved a problem alone? Do they believe they're even capable of doing so? The character all the way at this end of the scale absolutely never expects to be able to do anything themself, has no trust in their ability to solve a problem, and needs someone else to come save them from it. The kind of person who needs ChatGPT to do their homework. Again - doesn't actually mean anyone will help them, or that the people they're relying on are reliable - just that they think they are helpless without ... well, help.

Weapon maker: This has to do with problem-solving strategies and not actual weapons. The weapon-maker is a character who views every situation as a conflict that cannot be de-escalated or solved by cooperation, and responds appropriately. The most fundamental weapon maker character turns everything into an argument, a fight, a war, etc. There are a bunch of other responses to conflict, though - they might avoid problems that need solving because they avoid conflict generally too. Fundamentally what you want to answer here is: when they see a locked box and they don't have the key, do they respond to it the same way they'd respond to someone telling them "you can't open this box"? And how do they respond to that? Typical weapon-maker approaches: - brute-force the box open or try and then give up if it doesn't work; and also get into an argument that might turn physical with the hypothetical person - shrug and give up immediately, in both situations so on and so forth. Another hallmark is that they kind of suck at problem-solving and give up if brute-forcing a problem doesn't work. This is not someone who is picking locks unless someone else told them to - they have one solution, it's to make everything into a conflict, and then to win that conflict by beating them or to give up because they think they'll lose.

Tool maker: This person approaches every situation like it's a puzzle, not a fight - up to and including actual fights. Tool-maker characters generally assume that a situation can be solved by just finding the right approach and doing it the clever way. There's the same fundamental question as above - if your character sees a locked box and has no key, would they approach it differently than someone telling them they're not allowed to open the box? 'Typical' tool-maker approaches: - I can trick the person into giving me the key by saying the right things, and I can also pick the lock because fundamentally there are 'right answers' to both of these - If i make friends with this person, they might change their mind, because now we're cooperating. I can still pick the lock because there are 'right answers' there. - The person has a reason for wanting me not to open the box, so I can definitely figure out what that is and solve the reason so then they'll let me open it. I can take whatever it is even if they really want to keep it if I just find the right answer. I'm going to break this box into little pieces because that's the easiest way to get into it but I could probably open it some other way if that wouldn't work.

A note - the center of this bar is someone who generally has different responses to different kinds of situations - like, in the box example, they'd approach the box and the person with two different general attitudes and processes - but generally responds to those situations using the same kind of decision-making process for each category every time. Most people are nowhere near either extreme. Characters tend to be classifiable into weapon-maker and tool-maker because they are fictional and it's easier to define one kind of approach than many. Approximately average approaches: - pick the lock if no one's around, but give up if someone is there because someone telling me not to open the box is a conflict i think i'll lose but a locked box is just a puzzle that i can solve - argue with the person, but give up on the box, because they're approaching the box as a puzzle and they don't think they have the skill to get into it, but the person is someone who can be convinced or bullied into handing over the key

I made this particular dichotomy up, which is why I think I get a lot of questions on it whenever I put it into anything, but I also don't know of any other snappy way to describe this sort of thought or approach variance, and it's genuinely useful for character writing in my opinion.

Pessimist spot-finder: Generally a downer but not necessarily. This kind of character just approaches everything with a close eye for problems, issues, reasons to find fault. If they're miserable, it might be why, but like, they can be a cheerful spot-finder if you want, I just wanted to get at "the glass is half empty" and "the glass is half full" more than anything.

Optimist upside fan: The opposite. "The glass is half full". If there are problems, they can find something about them that's not so frustrating or bad to focus on. Pretty damn good at overlooking minor issues if there's no reason to fixate on them. Not necessarily cheerful.

Abysmal company: could not give less of a damn about treating people the way they 'should' be treated. Maybe they take pride in that. Maybe they just think it's irrelevant. Either way, they know they treat people badly and they don't see any reason to stop. Does not necessarily mean that they treat people badly if they think they're doing the right thing and are wrong. Doesn't mean they're actually pleasant or unpleasant to hang out with, either, unless you really want it to mean that.

Decent to others: treats people well as a matter of course, or at least they sure think they do. Makes an effort. Would probably care and/or consider changing their behavior if someone said they were treating someone poorly. As before - they can be completely un-self-aware and just think they're doing right by people while treating them completely horribly.

Morality is irrelevant: 'abysmal company' for broader approaches to life and problems. Maybe they just know they're myopic and don't think other people's problems matter. Maybe they just gave up on trying to differentiate between 'good' and 'bad' and outsourced it to someone else or stopped paying any attention. Maybe they just like to take morally unjust actions and can't be bothered giving a damn when someone points out that they're morally unjust, or maybe they're proud of it. Kind of a villain trait generally, but not necessarily - it doesn't have to mean they act badly, just that they don't care if they do. Also, this is about how they choose their own actions and view their own behavior. They can think morality is relevant for other people as long as they ignore it when they act themself.

Always in the right: feels morally righteous in every decision they make. Standard superhero type of trait. Doesn't necessarily pass judgement on others, doesn't necessarily act well according to everyone's moral code (see: blue and orange morality), but they are extremely principled and will never deviate from the moral code they personally believe in. And they do genuinely believe in it.

Circumstances terms:

Generally terrible to generally excellent: how subjectively decent is your character's situation, overall? If they think everything is horrible, but the situation is charmed to everyone except them, then it's generally terrible.

Need for changes to passive tolerance: will they do something about it? Do they feel like they have to?

No agency in action to decisions are huge: agency being "how much power do I have to make changes here?", this just asks how much they have. No agency means that, no matter what they do, nothing will happen - they might be locked in a cage or somehow otherwise completely unable to use any sort of power at all, even the power of just leaving. The other end of the spectrum is where every decision the character makes makes a huge difference, not just to themself but to everyone around them as well. They can start wars, they can have anyone they want killed, they can do anything whenever they feel like it. If they think they have no agency even though they do actually have agency, they don't have agency here. If they feel like they have all the agency in the world and can do anything, then they do even if it's not true. It's perceptual again.

Stakes are deadly to mistakes solvable: what are the consequences of failure? Will you die, will you lose status you can't afford to lose, will you lose belongings, will you have to apologize, will nothing happen at all? Mistakes solvable is where they think every mistake is solvable forever - the character pushes someone through a woodchipper and they come out and to fix it, maybe an apology has to occur, but not much else. Does not necessarily mean no one gets hurt or killed as long as the character thinks there are no permanent consequences. This is the most important one on this section to keep subjective because it will greatly influence how your character approaches situations. A character who thinks everything is deadly-stakes may go to cartoonishly-extreme lengths to avoid turning a report in a day late. A character who thinks all mistakes are always solvable may push someone through a woodchipper and then just assume they can say they're sorry and it'll all go away. The setting and their approach do not need to be applicable.

Needs go unmet to attended with care: how do the people around them treat them? Do they pay attention when the character needs something, or do they ignore it? Does the character have to do everything themself around here, or are there people who will help out?

Regarded poorly to regarded well: how do they think other people see them? Are they respected, are they liked, or are they disliked? Do people broadly trust them or are they pretty sure everyone regards them with suspicion?

Nothing changes to changes in seconds: functionally the 'stability' meter of your setting - is the situation generally stable, or are things constantly changing? Does your character feel like every five minutes, there's a new problem that needs dealing with, or do they feel like nothing has ever happened ever?

Growth terms:

Changes in place: do they go somewhere else? Does the physical setting otherwise change (eg; earthquake, war, etc) ? Are there any other reasons that the 'vibe' or 'experience' of the place is different from before?

Change in power: does the character's percieved agency (see: no agency in action to decisions are huge) change? Alternately you can use it if they've gained or lost power in some percieved way (deposed, assigned a commanding position, etc).

Change in bonds: do their relationships with people change? Have they made new friends, lost old friends, changed the nature of their relationships with friends or partners, etc?

Change in beliefs: straightforwardly, have their beliefs, morals, etc, changed?

Change in hurts: have they undergone some horrible experience? Do they have past trauma from some pre-arc horrible experience they're healing from and/or discovering they're more powerfully subject to? Did they experience a physical injury that they're recovering from or which materially changed their life? Did something recent dredge up old issues? So on and so forth.

Change in hopes: Do their desires for the future look the way they used to? Do they care about different things now? This is something the character is not actively working for, but may be tied to actual goals.

Change in fears: are they overcoming fears? Growing past them? Gaining new ones? Are they scared of shit different from how they used to be?

Change in goals: Not the same as a hope because it needs to have a specific, achievable outcome the character is actively working toward. Do those material goals look different? Perhaps they no longer want to work against something, maybe they didn't have any goals and now they do. Or maybe they've realized the goal is impossible, or something has happened to make that goal unachieveable. Whatever it is, if there's a change, it's a change.

Change in self-awareness: their beliefs about who they are and what they're like, and what their circumstances are. Have they gotten more self-aware, have they gotten less self-aware, or has nothing changed?

Change in relationships: their relationships' overall health and resilience, as far as the character is concerned - which doesn't mean they're necessarily good, just that the character thinks they're how they're supposed to be. Have they improved? Have they gotten worse? Have they not changed?

Change in knowledge: do they feel like they know more about the world, their place in it, the people around them, etc? Not necessarily how to do things - just general information and awareness.

Change in social standing: how does others' regard for the character change over this part of their arc? Do people like them more or less? Are they respected more or less than before? Has nothing changed? And so on.

Change in skills and abilities: do they feel more skilled than they were before? Do they feel like they know how to do as many things as before? Again - not necessarily rooted in reality - a classic example of a character being wrong about this is a 'big fish in a small pond' character who used to be the high school sports star going to college on a sports scholarship and discovering they're not the best any more, and suddenly feeling like they're the worst - when they're better than they've ever been in an objective light. Use a subjective viewpoint for this.

Change in agency in life: how does the character's percieved agency change? Do their decisions matter less now than ever? Do their actions make way more happen than before? (See: no agency in action vs decisions are huge)

Change in outlook: Here's the upper/downer part. Are they more or less hopeful for the future? Do they think things are more terrible now? Are things improving as far as they're concerned? Or has that not changed?

Change in goal progress: how do they feel like they're progressing on the goals they've set for themself? Are they getting further and further away? Are they getting closer?

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corvusblackk · 4 months ago

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choose an image, get a message on what you need to know right now

1. 2. 3.

These messages are noted over imagery shuffling on pinterest because I wanted to try something new. I love divination in any way so I’d love to start experimenting with different ways and tools to practice it, so here I am!

so, it is important for me if you tell me if it works and it resonated with you, because I also used my intuition, I’m still learning.

thank you! 🦉

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Pile 1:

I want to remind you that finding a hobby and diving deeper into studying the laws of the universe will pay off in ways you can’t fully comprehend yet, your future self will thank you for it because the more you explore and learn the more you’ll grow into the person you’re meant to be (aka who you WANT to be).

the universe encourages you to start believing in people again despite everything you’ve been through, people can surprise you and there’s still good in the world, even if it’s hard to see sometimes, just trust the process and rebuild your faith even if it’s slowly step by step.

finally focus on building consistency while still having fun, because life isn’t just about the grind, it’s about enjoying the journey, learning, and embracing who you’re becoming, so shift your identity to align with your dreams and remember that it’s okay to evolve along the way.

if you care about what you do, keep doing it.

some other short and specific messages for a few of you who will know:

do you have a cat? I see lots of related imagery, so take care and give all of your love to them (this goes for other pets too though!)

feeling like a bird in a cage? know that it’s open, you’re just blinded by your limiting beliefs, so work on that “why are you still here? fly away now”.

are you in a band or want to be a musician? (maybe you play electric guitar, bass or piano) you’re definitely on the right path but you have to practice more and be truly dedicated to it.

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Pile 2:

it’s time to start focusing on finding your ideal daily routine, I know some of you hate those organising tasks BUT trust, find one that works specifically for you, cause it’s not about following someone elses blueprint but about discovering what helps you feel energized, productive and at peace, so experiment with different habits until you find your flow and remember that it’s all about consistency.

also, it’s important to work on socializing more, especially with people who can support and uplift you, some of you shouldn’t shy away from building healthier relationships with men (even tho I understand). sometimes healing and growth take time but your mindset will make all the difference.

believe in the impossible/unrealistic because you truly can achieve anything if you put in the discipline, trust that your efforts will lead you to places you never imagined, and never doubt your ability to create the life you want.

some other short and specific messages for a few of you who will know:

are you struggling with intrusive thoughts? I see you waking up in the morning with your cup of tea/coffee and getting flooded already with those, and this is your reminder that those are just thoughts and they’re not you, you’re not them

some of you really want to travel the world, I see you, and you should never decline this dream, take your stuff and go, find some friends who want to go along the way with you if you want but alone is so valid (just be safe please)

some of you I sense that are overachieving or have great dreams but feel in a slump from time to time, just remember why you started, oh and you’re so smart I promise you

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Pile 3:

I want you to remember that the only opinion that truly matters is your own so don’t waste energy worrying about what others think of you, “there’s no audience to perform for, just you” so focus on your own journey and growth.

take time to work on your wisdom, dive into spiritual books, explore new ideas and build a stronger soul, cause the more you nourish your inner self the more resilient and centered you’ll become.

NEVER settle for less than what you deserve, it’s all destined to happen if you truly choose it, so trust your choices, stay aligned with your vision, and believe that the best is yet to come.

some other short and specific messages for a few of you who will know:

you should give witchcraft a try (if you already practice then go on, make a spell!), learn deeply about protection first thing and then study the rest, and use it to reach your goals (this is a big topic so I won’t focus on it on this post, but I might make a series if any of you is interested, just let me know)

do you have libra placements? (specifically in your moon?) this reading was for you, I sense your beauty and desires to build your life from here lol, you have my respect

sometimes you forget about how EASY and SIMPLE manifestation/shifting is, so I’m here to remind you: 1. decide 2. done

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majimaisms · 4 months ago

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@ccile03 has very kindly invited me to give my two (million) cents on this and i wanted to explain, as best i could, how i interpreted majima's character arc in pirate yakuza. however. this post definitely got away from me, so be prepared, this is going to be a LONG one, and it's the most comprehensive analysis i've done of majima as a character to date. i think i just wanted an excuse to talk about the game, honestly

introduction

i think i should start by saying that i think what we see in this game is not an arc for majima in its entirety, but the culmination of one that we had been observing (glimpsing, really) from the sidelines for years. so the question of "what arc did majima have in this game?" is really a question of "what arc did majima have in this series?" and to answer that, we have to start at the beginning.

from the moment he's introduced in the first game, majima is shown to be cynical and nihilistic.

scott strichart, who was in charge of majima's english localization throughout y0-k2 and y6-y7, had this to say about this scene, which i completely agree with:

First, you need to understand Majima's primary motivation - Saejima. Ever since he missed participating in that hit, Majima's singular, driving goal is to give Saejima the opportunity to confront him and exact whatever punishment he feels is appropriate. So Majima sets out from square -1 to get back into the Tojo Clan and gain enough power and position to do that. But as you know, in Y0, he discovers that some costs are too great, which throws his entire life's purpose into question: How do I balance my own sense of right and wrong with the tenacity I must have in order get back into the clan and to Saejima? That answer comes in the shape of three different dudes who give him three different answers to how one is "tenacious" - Lee, who would go to ANY length to protect the ones he loves, Nishitani, who throws his entire self into his pursuit of pleasure, and even Sagawa, who as Majima tells him, is "practically immortal." But what happens to his three paragons of tenacity? Well, you know that answer if you've played Y0. What happens when Majima attempts to take the moral high ground? What happens when he dares to show some modicum of emotion? [...] And the evidence of Majima's mindset in Kiwami is right in the first few lines when you meet him: What's the point of doing the right thing? "Doing things that way is going to break you." But no… that's just a projection. Majima is the one who got broken. And if you've played Y2 through Y5, you see the facade slowly start to fade. It's a really interesting growth of the character.

note the parts i highlighted in bold. we will get back to these later.

i think to understand majima and what this game does for him as a character, you have to understand both his problem and how he has tried to solve that problem. you have to understand his tragedy. and for that, you have to understand the psychological consequences of being part of an organization like the yakuza. the emotional impact it has on your life, on your relationship with yourself, and why. this context informs most of my analysis because i think its inextricable from majima as a character. i will also be heavily quoting simone weil to talk about these ideas, so please bear with me.

1. understanding the problem (and what it isn't)

the thing is, it's not easy to do awful things to other people. it's not easy to extort money from people, it's not easy to threaten them, it's not easy to attack someone when it's not in self defense. it's not easy to be mean. it's not easy to lie, cheat, steal. all of these things have an emotional toll: guilt. now, guilt goes away if you let it, but that has a spiritual toll. but where does that guilt come from in the first place?

simone weil says:

There exists an obligation towards every human being for the sole reason that he or she is a human being, without any other condition requiring to be fulfilled, and even without any recognition of such obligation on the part of the individual concerned.

All human beings are bound by identical obligations [...]. No human being, whoever he may be, under whatever circumstances, can escape them without being guilty of crime; save where there are two genuine obligations which are in fact incompatible, and a man is forced to sacrifice one of them. The imperfections of a social order can be measured by the number of situations of this kind it harbours within itself. But even in such a case, a crime is committed if the obligation so sacrificed is not merely sacrificed in fact, but its existence denied into the bargain.

majima is torn between two incompatible obligations. his obligation towards every human being in the world, and his obligation towards saejima. whether or not his obligation to saejima is a genuine one is a matter of interpretation (as in, whether or not he was really responsible for failing saejima. i think there is merit to his sense of responsibility regarding this, but that's another post) and an important distinction to make, but the fact remains that it registers to majima as a genuine one.

weil also says:

There is a reality outside the world, that is to say, outside space and time, outside man's mental universe, outside any sphere whatsoever that is accessible to human faculties. Corresponding to this reality, at the centre of the human heart, is the longing for an absolute good, a longing which is always there and is never appeased by any object in this world. That reality is the unique source of all the good that can exist in this world: that is to say, all beauty, all truth, all justice, all legitimacy, all order, and all human behaviour that is mindful of obligations. Those minds whose attention and love are turned towards that reality are the sole intermediary through which good can descend from there and come among men. Although it is beyond the reach of any human faculties, man has the power of turning his attention and love towards it. Nothing can ever justify the assumption that any man, whoever he may be, has been deprived of this power. It is a power which is only real in this world in so far as it is exercised. The sole condition for exercising it is consent.

now, you don't have to agree with any of this, but i will be using this framework and language to make my points because i find it useful.

what this all comes down to is that "moral behavior" is not something done only for the sake of others, and that in fact there is no distinction between the sake of oneself and others. you cannot hurt others without also hurting yourself in some way. my analysis rests on this key point.

weil says that corresponding to these human obligations, we can identify a number of human needs, some of which have to do with the physical side of life (like food, shelter, security) and some of which have to do with the moral side.

They form, like our physical needs, a necessary condition of our life on this earth. Which means to say that if they are not satisfied, we fall little by little into a state more or less resembling death, more or less akin to a purely vegetative existence.

she says that human collectivities (family, country, organization, etc.) fulfill these needs. the collectivity that majima is part of is the tojo clan and in a broader sense, the yakuza. they are not part of civil society, but as weil notes, their obligations towards people outside of the yakuza are not lessened by this fact, and anyone whose attention and love is turned towards "good" is aware of this. so they feel the full weight of these obligations. majima feels this weight.

we can see here that majima is being driven by a need, a need that corresponds to his obligations to other people. he calls it "being a man", weil calls it "being mindful of obligations."

weil has identified some of these needs, which she calls "the needs of the soul", as follows:

HONOUR is a vital need of the human soul. [...] honour has to do with a human being considered not simply as such, but from the point of view of his social surroundings. This need is fully satisfied where each of the social organisms to which a human being belongs allows him to share in a noble tradition enshrined in its past history and given public acknowledgment. For example, for the need of honour to be satisfied in professional life, every profession requires to have some association really capable of keeping alive the memory of all the store of nobility, heroism, probity, generosity and genius spent in the exercise of that profession.

PUNISHMENT is a vital need of the human soul. [...] The most indispensable punishment for the soul is that inflicted for crime. By committing crime, a man places himself, of his own accord, outside the chain of eternal obligations which bind every human being to every other one. Punishment alone can weld him back again; fully so, if accompanied by consent on his part; otherwise only partially so.

Initiative and RESPONSIBILITY, to feel one is useful and even indispensable, are vital needs of the human soul. [...] For this need to be satisfied it is necessary that a man should often have to take decisions in matters great or small affecting interests that are distinct from his own, but in regard to which he feels a personal concern. He also requires to be continually called upon to supply fresh efforts.

i find this language and framework for talking about the concepts of virtue, guilt, redemption and how those things tie into one's professional and social life very useful when exploring the relationship rgg characters have to the yakuza and to themselves.

i will be focusing on these three needs for now because i think they are where the crux of majima's struggle lies. not only majima, but every yakuza who feels the weight of human obligations. because the work they do as yakuza does not fulfill their need for honor, and the crimes they commit by not fulfilling their obligations (as they are exploiting and profiting off innocent people, depriving them of their vital needs) creates the need for punishment. this is part of why we see these characters go to prison so willingly.

being yakuza means effectively denying one's own need for honor. this compels these characters to remedy this by clinging to whatever amount or kind of honor they can maintain. it's this cycle that keeps them going, that pushes these characters to commit the extraordinary acts of heroism we admire them for. it's because they are driven by the need to make up for something. for being yakuza.

weil says:

[...] a collectivity has its roots in the past. It constitutes the sole agency for preserving the spiritual treasures accumulated by the dead, the sole transmitting agency by means of which the dead can speak to the living.

she says that the need to be rooted is the most important need of the soul, and that being part of a collectivity, a "social organism" as she calls it, and having active participation in it is the only means of fulfilling this need. yakuza are no exception. RGG's consistent theme of carrying on the dreams of others is a form of "the dead speaking to the living", that is to say, a form of fulfilling the need for roots – which by the way is the name of the book these excerpts are from.

Every social organism, of whatever kind it may be, which does not provide its members with these satisfactions, is diseased and must be restored to health.

There are collectivities which, instead of serving as food, do just the opposite: they devour souls. In such cases, the social body is diseased, and the first duty is to attempt a cure; in certain circumstances, it may be necessary to have recourse to surgical methods. With regard to this matter, too, the obligation for those inside as for those outside the collectivity is an identical one. [...] Finally, there are dead collectivities which, without devouring souls, don’t nourish them either. If it is absolutely certain that they are well and truly dead, that it isn’t just a question of a temporary lethargy, then and only then should they be destroyed.

the yakuza, by measure of the number of situations it creates where incompatible obligations have to compete against each other, is a deeply imperfect social order. but as weil notes, sacrificing obligations and denying their existence are distinct compromises. "guilt goes away if you let it" – this is where that distinction lies. to free yourself of guilt, you have to deny the existence of these obligations, and so deny your own need for punishment. and the spiritual toll of that exchange is pragmatism, which weil describes as "spiritually crossing a boundary equivalent to death."

she says this about denying the existence of obligations:

Actually, such a negation is impossible. It amounts to spiritual suicide. And Man is so made that in him spiritual death is accompanied by psychological diseases in themselves fatal. So that, in fact, the instinct of self-preservation prevents the soul from doing more than draw closer to such a state [...]. Almost always, he who denies all obligations lies to others and to himself; in actual fact, he recognizes some amongst them. There isn’t a man on earth who doesn’t at times pronounce an opinion on good and evil, even if it be only to find fault with somebody else.

many yakuza try to avoid guilt (and the need for punishment) by denying the existence of human obligations. simply put, it's a way of running from accountability.

but guilt is not the reason for majima's struggle with this. majima has already decided that he is not going to cross that spiritual boundary to avoid guilt, because he understands that the consequences would be nothing more than a self-betrayal. he has too much respect for the truth to lie to himself like that. his "longing for an absolute good" compels him to accept his need for punishment. and he is not confused about what he thinks is right or wrong.

yakuza 0 was not about majima trying to decide whether or not killing an innocent girl was wrong. he knew it was wrong. it was about whether or not it was worth it to kill an innocent person. if he had been grappling with whether or not murder was wrong, it would've been equivalent to "spiritual suicide" as weil calls it. but he never denies the existence of such an obligation on his part – he never pretends it wasn't wrong to kill a defenseless civilian.

and his takeaway was that it was not worth it. it was not worth it to kill makoto to fulfill his obligation to saejima. he sacrificed his obligation to saejima, but no "crime" was committed in this process because he did not deny the existence of his obligations towards anyone. his need for honor was not sacrificed, and thus no self-betrayal took place. once again, denying human obligations is synonymous with self betrayal in this framework.

majima simply will not do something that he knows he will regret later out of guilt, and he takes care to predict what he will feel guilty about so as to avoid this outcome. his judgment regarding this remained solid throughout y0, even if it wavered at times.

another example of majima being torn between two genuine obligations was in y5.

this scene is remarkable to me because it's the only other time, aside from y0, we see the consequences of majima "daring to show a modicum of emotion." his obligations are being used against him. the "longing for an absolute good" in his heart is being used against him. because in order to fulfill his obligation to saejima here (to not put him to the same impossible choice), he would have to sacrifice a much more universal one, as well as a personal one to kiryu. and then how could he "call himself a man"?

saejima tells him that if he was the kind of person who would let haruka die, he would've killed him anyway. but this doesn't stop majima from still being apologetic in this scene – he still feels the weight of his responsibility to saejima, even if they are in agreement that it should be sacrificed. the existence of both obligations are acknowledged, thus no "crime" takes place, just like in y0. once again, we see that majima's problem is not in denying the existence of obligations.

majima's struggle here has to do with how to prevent things from coming to a point where he has to sacrifice obligations in the first place. this was his takeaway from y0. the obvious answer to this is to quit the clan, but it's too late for that. he already did that and just ended up going back. his obligations to the people in his life (saejima, kiryu) and his need for roots keep him tied to the clan.

so, what does he do instead?

2. understanding the "solution"

this is where we return to scott strichart's comment.

"How do I balance my own sense of right and wrong with the tenacity I must have in order get back into the clan and to Saejima?"

it's misleading to think of his obligation towards saejima as something to be balanced against his sense of right and wrong, as strichart puts it – in reality they are one and the same. the fact that he has to be tenacious is merely an extension of his obligation towards saejima.

more importantly, this is not a question of what moral philosophy to subscribe to, or anything that has to do with speculative reasoning. the singular question majima is struggling with the most in his life is a question of "how" – it's a question of methods.

majima has always been primarily concerned with methods. he is someone who locks onto ends and produces means to achieve them. this is what makes him resourceful. he gets his way, because he finds and makes a way. he is all about getting results.

but strichart's question is only half of majima's problem. the other half comes from his answer to the first one: "by preventing situations in which i will find myself having to choose between obligations."

majima, like strichart, has identified correctly that these situations arise only when he "dares to show a modicum of emotion." thus, the goal should be to simply stop doing that. but how is he going to do that? what method should he choose for that?

his answer to that question is mad dog. this is an answer equivalent to "whichever method works." because the factors that he takes into consideration when trying to formulate an answer for that "should" are concerned entirely with the effectiveness of the method. in other words, majima's mistake is that he doesn't think what he thinks is right or wrong should be the most important deciding factor in determining his methods for preventing situations where he has to sacrifice obligations.

it is, ironically, his dedication to solving this problem without sacrificing either obligation that makes him cross that spiritual boundary. because you see, this too is a form of pragmatism. he's essentially trading one form of spiritual death for another, and so he is still stuck in the cycle of honor and punishment. because methods are not exempt from human obligations either, yet he is denying the existence of those obligations. their existence is "denied into the bargain." pragmatism is the justification for this denial. "the world doesn't give two shits if there's a point or not, so it's better if i don't either."

weil understood the crucial role methods played:

Everything in creation is dependent on method, including the points of intersection between this world and the next.

"the next world" she is referring to is the one she says is the source of all "good" in the world. she is concerned with how to align her methods with her obligations, which is itself a problem of methods.

to majima as well, the most valuable resources in the world are methods that are effective and align with his obligations. why betray himself like this if he can avoid it? and he learns methods from observing people. this was why he ended up following shimano. this is what his "men i respect" thing is about. he means, "people i can learn something from."

but despite being already disillusioned with shimano's methods by the time he dies, he's never been able to successfully replace them with anything else. unable to find anyone around he could learn from, he has resorted to compromise. he decided he couldn't afford to commit to aligning his methods with his obligations. he has prioritized his continued survival and success in the yakuza because of his obligation to saejima, at the cost of his soul. mad dog is the product of that exchange. mad dog is the solution, the justification, the lie.

this is a sacrifice he has had to make because of the social order he exists in. this is why the yakuza is a "diseased" social organism, as weil calls it. this aspect of the yakuza and majima's views on it were explored in majima saga in k2.

let's take a look at majima's methods:

you might note, at this point, that all of these things are things kiryu would never do.

this was what fascinated him about kiryu. because kiryu is suggesting there is a right and wrong method, and not only that, he's saying it's a factor that should be considered, that deserves our attention and love, and we should be mindful of it. he's the embodiment of the principle that we can't justify denying our obligations. this is what he admires kiryu so much for – that he is not betraying himself in the way majima has. he has things to learn from kiryu, and that is what majima respects most above all else.

kiryu represented a solution to his self-imposed spiritual exile. however, this solution was not as straightforward as you would think.

fighting has always been a form of communication, of debate, in RGG. when majima and kiryu are fighting, these are the conflicting ideas that are being tested against each other. and he wants kiryu to prove his methods wrong. because he hates his methods. he realizes he's fighting for the wrong side, and he wants everything he represents to be defeated. to be able to be defeated. and he trains and mentors kiryu specifically for this purpose. he has made himself into a mascot of this spiritually vacant philosophy, but at least he can offer its enemies (which includes himself) something that would effectively function as a training dummy. he is giving kiryu the opportunity to know his enemy. this is a noble goal. it justifies the continued existence of mad dog.

this was a method he thought would work. it's pretty clever, you have to give him that. but in fact, it's only another instance of the two incompatible obligations problem. he's fulfilling his need for honor and punishment, but he's failing to fulfill his need for responsibility towards kiryu.

he needs to make up for this ongoing failure, so the series is full of examples of him going out of his way to help kiryu (y2, y3, y5, iw and now pirate yakuza). as weil said, majima "requires to be continually called upon to supply fresh efforts" for his need for responsibility to be fulfilled. he's glad for the opportunity to help kiryu. he needs kiryu to need his support. in simpler terms, he wants to be useful. he feels this need as it corresponds to his obligations towards kiryu, which are identical to his obligations towards anyone, but which he feels more keenly with kiryu because he's stuck in this cycle of honor, punishment and responsibility, trying to make up for the lack of one through fulfilling the other. and it's specifically tied to kiryu because he can only fulfill his need for honor/punishment through kiryu, because kiryu is the only one strong enough to defeat him in a fight. and yet he is failing his other obligations to him in the process BECAUSE of his method.

it would not be too much of an exaggeration to say that the integrity of majima's soul rests in the balance that is the conflict between himself and kiryu. this is why this conflict cannot end. it will remain self-perpetuating so long as they both remain mindful of obligations. they are yin and yang.

let's go back to scott strichart's comment again.

And if you've played Y2 through Y5, you see the facade slowly start to fade. It's a really interesting growth of the character.

while i agree with this, it should be noted that even though majima's facade slowly fades, nothing substantial takes its place. he literally dies in yakuza 5, and he is reborn as nothing more than a mascot, a symbol, a boss fight as far as the games are concerned. just as he was in kiwami. his methods do not change, because he still can't afford to change them. because he is still yakuza.

but he is feeling the emotional and spiritual toll of continuing those methods.

he doesn't have it in him anymore to keep up the act, to prop up mad dog to act as an interface between himself and the world around him.

note here that majima is the perfect visual representation of a dead thing – he's literally wearing the skin of dead animals, and "majima goro" is the first among them. the fact that he is narratively dead in y5, a game about dreams where everyone has an honest job is really, really on the nose when you consider things in these terms.

but y5 does a spectacular job of reminding majima why he needs to stay dead, why he chose to avoid emotional attachments and obfuscate the ones he does have in the first place. if it weren't for an impossibly unlikely chain of events, either haruka would've died or saejima would've had to kill majima. majima doesn't want to risk anyone being put to that choice again. kurosawa's whole plan hinged on the fact that he identified this as a weakness in majima that he planned to use against him – and it almost worked.

this is what he risks happening every time he has conflicting obligations. every time he "shows a modicum of emotion." he has enemies who will use it against him to hurt his loved ones. so even if he is disillusioned with mad dog, as long as he cannot think of a better method of preventing this, he needs to keep up the act. his "solution" has become another cage he finds himself in, because he can't escape the bigger cage he's in: the yakuza.

this is not a problem unique to majima. any yakuza mindful of their obligations struggles with similar problems, because it's the yakuza as an organization imposes this problem on them. it devours souls. this was why it needed to be destroyed.

3. the dissolution, and pirate yakuza

you would think that being out of the yakuza would finally solve a bunch of these problems for majima (and saejima and daigo.) instead, this is the state they're in.

because they understand that they were not the only ones who gave their souls to the clan. there were thousands of others, and those thousands joined the clan because of them. because of the promises they made. it is their responsibility to honor their men's sacrifices and their own promises by taking care of them after the dissolution, but they have no way of fulfilling their need for responsibility, honor or punishment as it concerns their obligations to these people.

the shame, guilt and helplessness is really setting in as they are forced to face their failure. and the sacrifices they made along the way? they have nothing to show for any of it. all the justifications, all the self-betrayals, all the compromises. the obligations they sacrificed. the people they've hurt. this is where it all culminates.

this is how lost they are, how lost majima is – he seems to be doing the worst out of the three of them – in the absence of any methods to reconnect to and do right by the social organism he's part of, his roots. they are cut off from any means of helping the people they used to lead and feel responsible for. they are uprooted.

weil says:

Uprootedness is by far the most dangerous malady to which human societies are exposed, for it is a self-propagating one. For people who are really uprooted there remain only two possible sorts of behaviour: either to fall into a spiritual lethargy resembling death [...] or to hurl themselves into some form of activity necessarily designed to uproot, often by the most violent methods, those who are not yet uprooted, or only partly so.

Whoever is uprooted himself uproots others. Whoever is rooted himself doesn’t uproot others.

majima, saejima and daigo fell into the former category. it is a testament to how mindful they are of obligations that they did not fall into the latter.

kiryu tried to break them out of that spiritual lethargy in infinite wealth, reminding them of their obligations. remember what i said earlier about kiryu being the "embodiment of the principle that we can't justify denying our obligations"? this is him doing it again, as always. and this was the single most life-affirming thing he could do for them.

on the growing of roots, weil had this to say:

The problem of a method for breathing an inspiration into a people is quite a new one. [...] It is unfortunate for us that this problem, in regard to which, unless I am wrong, we have nothing we can look to for guidance, should be precisely the one that requires today the most urgent solution on our part.

she identified the problem of growing roots as a problem of methods of inspiring people. on this, she wrote:

It sometimes happens that a thought, either formulated to oneself or not formulated at all, works secretly on the mind and yet has but little direct influence over it. If one hears this thought expressed publicly by some other person, and especially by someone whose words are listened to with respect, its force is increased an hundredfold and can sometimes bring about an inner transformation. It can also happen that one needs, whether one realizes it or not, to hear certain words, which, if they are effectively pronounced, and in a quarter whence one would normally expect good to come from, infuse comfort, energy and as it were a food.

just as this was the case with kiryu in infinite wealth, it is the case with noah in pirate yakuza.

violence is a tool. majima has always viewed it as such, but here noah is telling him that not only is it a tool, he doesn't think it's an inherently bad one. he thinks it's cool. he is radically accepting of majima in a way he has never experienced before.

we know that majima has had a complicated history with violence. he hit his wife and left her. he's been using it as a method to keep his subordinates in line for years – something he ideologically does not agree with, but has accepted as a necessary sacrifice. it's not a coincidence that the first thing majima remembers about himself is his guilt surrounding his violence – guilt enabled to become manifest in the absence of his justification, in the absence of mad dog, which had acted not only as an interface between majima and the world, but between himself and his own needs. everything was filtered through mad dog.

but instead of condoning violence via majima's philosophy of pragmatism, which majima has used as a justification (a lie), noah is offering him a way out of the dilemma he's been stuck in for decades. he suggests that as long as you're fighting for the right thing (which majima is in this case), violence is a perfectly acceptable method that does not constitute a crime, and thus, should not create a need for punishment. it's reassuring to majima in exactly the way he needs. it's also something no one else in his life could reassure him about, because they're too busy feeling guilty about their own violence. only someone who is truly "innocent" could absolve majima of this guilt.

majima's face in that last shot is all the evidence you need for its impact. this is what he's needed to hear his whole life, and it would not have had the same impact coming from anyone other than a child. and it had to be this specific child, because:

To no matter whom the question may be put in general terms, nobody is of the opinion that any man is innocent if, possessing food himself in abundance and finding someone on his doorstep three parts dead from hunger, he brushes past without giving him anything. So it is an eternal obligation towards the human being not to let him suffer from hunger when one has the chance of coming to his assistance.

this was the model on which weil based her theory of human needs and obligations, because it was "the most obvious obligation of all." it also happens to be the opening scene of pirate yakuza.

noah's attention and love is demonstrably turned towards human obligations. he is also notably the only person around who has fulfilled this most obvious of obligations. majima himself acknowledges this, saying he "never thought hawaii would be so cold."

noah represents an ideal for majima that he has aspired to his whole life: innocence. this is why he is inspired by noah. the "method" of inspiration in question that majima had been lacking comes to him in the form of a person. and it had to be a person, because majima has always been inspired by individuals. and not only majima, either. RGG as a series is full of examples of this.

It is only through things and individual beings on this earth that human love can penetrate to that which lies beyond.

it's our connections to individuals that remind us of our obligations towards every human being. love becomes universal through the particular. weil understood the important part love plays in motivating people to change. it was her answer to how to grow roots again – her answer to the question of how to inspire people.

it is precisely this form of inspiration that majima had been deprived of for decades, especially after the dissolution as he'd sunk into depression. and this was always the solution, but there were several obstacles to it prior to this game:

he could not afford to have personal human connections in his life, even after the dissolution. he'd learned the hard way what happens when he "dares to show a modicum of emotion," as scott strichart put it.

as long as he was still relying the same tools, he could not effectively change his methods. this game forced him to do that by taking away his favorite tool: mad dog.

even if he wanted to use his violence only for the right things, he had obligations to the clan that would have him using that tool for less-than-noble ends.

because of this, even after the dissolution, he was stuck in the cycle between honor and punishment which obfuscated the truth and confused him. and there can be no inspiration without access to truth.

all of these problems were imposed on him by the social order he was part of – namely, the yakuza. this is why its dissolution was a necessary prerequisite to majima's "growth", but it was still not enough on its own. the amnesia was the second prerequisite.

he needed to face his past, but for that to help him in any way, he first needed to be inspired, so that he could look back on events with a new perspective. and the amnesia was the prerequisite for the inspiration, because it reduced the weight of his guilt and thus his need for punishment, breaking the honor-punishment cycle.

what this game is for majima is an exit. it's an exit from the emotional and spiritual exile he's imposed on himself, that the yakuza has imposed on him, and the self-alienation he's suffered because of it. amnesia is what it takes for him to be reunited with himself. he had to forget who he is so he could be who he is. such was the extent of his self-betrayal.

within the space provided him by this exit, there is room for change. transformation. for majima, that means changing his methods. this game is addressing a problem he's been aware of for decades but could not do anything about.

some examples of him facing his past with this new perspective:

he's realizing what he was to these people, who looked up to him, who he allowed to look up to him, who he took upon himself to lead – and he's hating what he sees. he doesn't like his methods. and he's running from the responsibility of doing right by them, refusing saejima when he asks him to go back.

he's afraid of facing how much he's failed his subordinates by his own standards – a reality he'd lived with for decades before his amnesia. the fact that we actually see how much it bothers him in this game is invaluable, because it means he's letting himself acknowledge that. he can no longer rely on the lie (justification) he had been telling himself to sustain this self betrayal. he is disillusioned with his own pragmatism. noah has exposed the lie, and he allowed it to be exposed. he is now ready to take right and wrong into consideration when deciding his methods – all because noah has reminded him of his obligations in a way that commands his attention, in a way he can't turn away from, and because he no longer has to sacrifice his soul to the clan. this game is, effectively, undoing the spiritual death he had undergone.

he's outright calling his old self, his old ideas, his old methods, "dumb as shit." majima is reinventing his identity, his reputation, his presence in the world and his connection to it. he's been given a chance to become someone he can be proud of again – this is why he likes the way noah looks at him, why he doesn't want to give up on it. it motivates him to commit to his transformation instead of wallowing in guilt like he was in infinite wealth.

he's getting to do it all over again with noah in a way he himself actually approves of, with a clear conscience. not just because noah is a kid, not just because he's lost his memory, not just because he's not yakuza anymore, but because of all those things in combination. that is to say, none of these factors are arbitrary. they were each necessary for achieving this state for majima – a state where change is possible, and he is inspired to change.

"captain majima" is someone he can be proud of.

he rejects his legacy as a yakuza completely. this goes as far as rejecting his bond with saejima. he doesn't want to be called "kyoudai" by him, he'll only answer to "captain." as he's coming to terms with how much it went against his nature to be yakuza, he's trying to distance himself from it as much as possible.

but he's running. he's not trying to run from his responsibilities to the yakuza like saejima thinks – he's running from owning up to his legacy. this is why he pretends to still not have his memories back when shigaki confronts him.

but it's not just the yakuza: the nebulous entity that told them that. it's what majima told them. it's what majima built his legend around.

yakuza 0 was not a game of positive character development for majima. it was the story of how and why he learned to betray himself. it was the origin story of his justification, his nihilism. it was the birth of mad dog. and this game is the counterpart to that – the death of mad dog.

One of the indispensable foods of the human soul is LIBERTY. Liberty, taking the word in its concrete sense, consists in the ability to choose.

the mad dog legend wasn't something that majima stumbled upon against his will like kiryu's dragon of the dojima legend. majima built this. he wanted this. he was trying to rise in the ranks (for saejima), and his legend is what it is because he was so, so wary of being taken advantage of. not only out of his own need for liberty, but out of the obligation he feels towards everyone else. this is the price of turning yourself into a weapon: you have to be very, very careful who you allow to wield you, and towards what end. that becomes your responsibility.

this was why majima was apologetic in that y5 scene – he had failed to prevent kurosawa from using him, and he understands that it is his responsibility to prevent that. this is why the mad dog legend is what it is. he had to find a way to "tear his leash" so that no one could wield him.

but his own preoccupation with freedom, his fear of being used by others, this fight he's been fighting against himself for decades has made him a bad role model. he's finally facing that, and not only that, but he is remedying it, too.

his own unhealthy treatment of himself, his own betrayal of himself, has done actual harm to others. his own misjudgment has led people who looked up to him astray. and he should've known better. done better, been more.

he should've been the one inspiring his subordinates, he should've been the one reminding them of their obligations. instead he has created a legend that has done just the opposite. a legend that has given people another excuse to deny their obligations. because that legend was born out of majima's own excuse for denying his own obligations. THAT is majima's failure. he has failed others in the exact same way he has failed himself. it could not have turned out any other way.

he has failed as a leader, as a patriarch and he's acknowledging that. but that on its own doesn't do much in the way of helping him. this game is about majima stepping up to not only hold himself accountable, which he already HAS been doing, but to do something about it. holding yourself accountable for mistakes you just continue to make or cannot begin to make up for is the very definition of being stagnant. this is the "state more or less resembling death, more or less akin to a purely vegetative existence" he was in for pretty much the entirety of the series, reaching its peak in infinite wealth when he had been cut off from all means of effectively taking responsibility.

and he is finally being given the opportunity to take responsibility – a vital need. he is being given the opportunity to undo the damage, to guide them towards a better path, to remind them of their obligations. just like kiryu.

majima, in true kiryu fashion, is telling these people exactly what he himself needs to hear – needed to hear, and that noah made him realize the moment they met. he is being given a second chance. an opportunity to redeem himself, to START redeeming himself. start over. and he's paying the same kindness forward. if it's not too late to for him to start doing the right thing, then it isn't too late for shigaki either, and vice versa.

[...] man has the power of turning his attention and love towards it. Nothing can ever justify the assumption that any man, whoever he may be, has been deprived of this power. [...] The sole condition for exercising it is consent.

majima understands this, and he understands that applying this principle to shigaki necessitates that he apply it to himself also. a person can always, always choose to do good – not only that, they are compelled to at all times. it takes energy to resist it. this was what caused his burnout in y5 and arguably y4 before that.

this game is about majima taking responsibility for his legacy as a yakuza, much like kiryu did in infinite wealth. this is what they're using his amnesia for. a story about him wallowing in guilt or trying to fulfill his need for punishment would have been the opposite of growth for majima, because the whole problem was that his method of trying to achieve personal growth through honor and punishment had not been working for him. a radically new approach was required. you can't fix something with the same tools that broke it.

just as his own neglect of his needs had caused the problem, the solution also comes from fulfilling those needs for himself. he has to stop betraying himself in order to make things right with the people he's failed. to take responsibility, he has to give up mad dog.

this does not necessarily mean giving up violence, but it does mean using it as a tool for ends that do not conflict his needs. a good example of this is the scene where he threatens to cut fingers.

it's his last resort, not his first one. he is being given room for that now. it's important to note here that he is not threatening to cut fingers to punish someone for insubordination as he has done his entire life – instead it's in the name of ensuring cooperation between others (a noble goal), for something he has no personal stake in. he doesn't want any of the money, he refuses to take a cut of it. he is not playing the antagonist here, and he is very open about his intentions unlike the "old" majima goro who obscured his intentions at every turn for the sake of playing the antagonist.

y0 was the last time we saw majima so earnest, because it was y0 that taught him not to be earnest. this game is undoing the damage.

[...] complete, unlimited freedom of expression for every sort of opinion, without the least restriction or reserve, is an absolute need on the part of the intelligence. It follows from this that it is a need of the soul, for when the intelligence is ill-at-ease the whole soul is sick.

sure, he didn't hold his tongue against his superiors, we've seen him do it countless times throughout the series. but to be able to openly express his goals, his intentions, his own judgment and act accordingly is a previously unthinkable mode of living for majima.

once again, it's about methods, and this game IS the difference between methods, especially as it concerns communication.

it's the difference between "if adults like us are good for anything, it should be nurturing that hope" and "keep that up, and it'll break you." him establishing himself as an ally, instead of an antagonist. he has played the antagonist his entire life, because it was the only way he could think to fulfill his obligations, but the world doesn't need more antagonists. and he's been failing not only his subordinates or himself, but kiryu and everyone else he loves as well.

this is what this scene in infinite wealth was about. majima's methods are destructive, not only to everyone he cares about, but also to himself – because there is no difference between those things. such is the nature of love.

majima finally, finally gets to play the hero after a lifetime of playing the antagonist. he's taking the leaf out of kiryu's book that he couldn't until this point, that he so admired kiryu for. it's a dream come true for him – maybe the oldest one he had.

and in some ways, this is also majima carrying on kiryu's dream, by applying the lessons he learned from him. by emulating him, he's honoring kiryu's principles. he'd told him, all the way back in 1995, that he'd "see those ideals of his to the end." well, this is what that looks like in its most effective form.

this ending really says it all, in my opinion, because it's majima looking at the journey and finding joy in that instead of the end goal. for ONCE in his life. maybe for the first time in his life. because for the first time he is ABLE to do that. for the first time there is something to enjoy about the journey. he is so unconcerned with results here that he doesn't even take the money.

he has been so, so preoccupied with reaching his goals that he has sacrificed the journey, the "methods" and betrayed himself in the process his whole life. this is where it stops.

[...] honour has to do with a human being considered not simply as such, but from the point of view of his social surroundings.

i think it's fair to say that his new methods and outlook on life are here to stay.

conclusion

this game is no joke. it's the most beautiful and profound thing they've done with majima... ever.

to be honest, whether or not most of this should be called "growth" is debatable – i think it can be said instead, more accurately, that growth was not the point of this game. the point of this game and how significant the things it does for majima lie beyond "growth". its value comes from the fact that it fulfills needs for majima that he had not been able to for decades.

majima's problem was not that he needed growing. his problem was that he had been in spiritual exile for 40 years. pirate yakuza was not just "upbeat", it was a celebration of majima being reunited with his soul. and as any celebration ought to be, it was joyful and inspiring. the light tone of the game is not because it is lacking in depth, but because the nature of the subject matter lends itself to hope more than anything else.

a game that was conceptualized as an infinite wealth gaiden had to deal with these themes. to tie the loose end that is majima, so to speak – to give a satisfying conclusion to his arc we'd been observing for years. just as infinite wealth was about kiryu's relationship to the yakuza, this game is about majima's relationship to the yakuza and the yakuza's relationship to him. it cannot be thought of separately from infinite wealth and what it was for kiryu. pirate yakuza and infinite wealth are the yin and yang to each other, just as majima and kiryu are to each other. majima has always been, before and above all else, a narrative foil to kiryu. this game is no exception, they're just changing how they're exploring that in the narrative. it's almost like an inversion of what the series has done with the two of them so far, but still united in one theme above all else: hope for the future.

whether or not these themes have been done justice in execution is entirely up to you to decide, so you can still be disappointed with how the game dealt with them – after all, a method still has to be effective to be a good one – but i hope i have been able to give you some perspective on what this game accomplishes with majima as a character.

thanks for reading <3

#i want to note also that the 'got a reputation to protect' line is 'who do you think i am?' in japanese #pirate yakuza in hawaii #majima goro #yakuza #ryu ga gotoku #if anyones made it this far: you are so so brave for reading all of this and i love you #tldr: if youve ever been like 'majima needs to go to therapy'. this game is it #they fixed majima. they did it #my analysis #majeem #majima gaiden #dont ask me the word count of this post btw. i checked. its. not good

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