#days not going as planned

[lumine-no-hikari]

Dear Sephiroth: (a letter to a fictional character, because why not) #271

I ended up not cooking today. Last night, I stayed up until about 4 in the morning, worried about various things, and writing a lengthy email to the acquaintance I mentioned yesterday in response to those worries. This interaction is not going to work unless I keep my instincts sharp and my boundaries robust.

I've written things before in this Tumblr space about the importance of being kind to everyone, while also recognizing that care must be taken to assert very strong boundaries in response to certain patterns of trauma behavior. I've written before on the notion that kindness without boundaries and the willingness to enforce them and follow through with the consequences is not actually kindness, but is instead enabling as a form of conflict avoidance.

I think a lot of people mistake kindness for weakness because they try to do "kindness" in the absence of boundary skills.

Today, though I went to bed at 4am, I got a phone call from this acquaintance somewhere around 6am, for reasons I don't actually understand. I didn't answer it, because I do not answer my phone except during my normal waking hours, and my normal waking hours are not before 8am on most days. I did end up waking somewhere between 8 and 9am. But that just means I've only got about 5 hours of broken sleep, which is definitely not ideal.

…Oh well.

In between being focused on other persons who were talking to me on and off today, I did a lot of leisure writing in a way that was… long overdue, I think. Once again, it was cathartic and necessary. When it came to be about the time I intended to do dishes and make food, though, I was able to do the dishes. But I didn't have any "oomph" leftover after that to make food. Lame.

Tomorrow, for sure. After I get home from some sleep appointment that's happening at… some time tomorrow... to make sure my CPAP is still doing its job, I guess. But it's doing its job. I've no complaints. I get the final dose of the HPV vaccine sometime after the sleep appointment. So that's pretty rad; having protection against potentially cancer-causing pathogens is always pretty rad!

Ma from work was supposed to pop by; I was supposed to pick him up at around 2pm. But he had something come up at the last minute, so that didn't really pan out. But maybe it's just as well; my brain was a bit too zombied to do much of anything today, and I can't imagine that I would have been very good company.

I guess I'm a little sad about it. I wanted to do so many things today. Ma visit. Dead Cells. Epic noms. Today did not go at all as planned.

...Sometimes it happens that way, though. It's good to be flexible.

J and I did take a brief evening stroll, though, and that was pretty good. I got another picture of our moon for you:

...I've gotten pictures of the moon over the last few days. It's really filling out! Soon, it will be full, and that's pretty cool! I'm still pretty sad about the fact that I can't share the pictures in the Brother Sun book, but... I'm getting pretty good at taking my own pictures. So maybe it's not too sad after all.

...Goodness. I am legit falling asleep as I try to write this. I should probably take the hint from my body and actually go to bed.

...Sephiroth... are you doing okay out there? I'm maybe struggling just a little bit where I am, but... it's not as though I'm stuck underground, unable to see the sky or smell the rain or touch the breeze. I worry about you. I imagine the mako you're suspended in sustains you, but... still... you deserve to eat actual food and to get actual sunlight and breathe actual fresh air.

...Even if your situation is difficult, don't succumb to despair, okay? Because there are people out here who love you and are waiting for you to throw off the shackles of your trauma so that you can rise up into happiness and wholesomeness. Keep trying. Keep your chin up.

I'll give you this one for today; you can replace "little girl" with "little one":

...Don't write yourself off yet, okay? You're not unloved.

I love you. Please stay safe out there, okay? I'll write again tomorrow.

Your friend, Lumine

[hinamie]

trick or treat!

[aerequets]

cost and benefit

[chloesimaginationthings]

Sorry poppy,, IT’S SECRET OF THE MIMIC TIME!!

[dovewingkinnie]

william afton song mv progress... (no longer willku i apologize..) gonna make this the best fnaf music video !!! i'll probably share like 1 more piece of it later but i just wanted to share a little...

[daisybell-on-a-carousel]

Being someone who read Under The Red Hood and came out with the firm belief that, for Jason, it's not about killing Joker, it's about Jason wanting proof Batman would choose him over the Joker (bc shelia chose the joker). Makes seeing any other media where it's all about just wanting the Joker dead is a teeny bit frustrating. to be honest

Jason could've killed the Joker himself, really, really easily. Jason kidnaps the Joker before the confrontation. I can't open my comic for a reference right now, but it felt like he had the Joker for quite a bit before the confrontation. He had him. He beat him up with a crowbar. He had every single opportunity to kill the Joker himself, but he didn't because that wasn't his goal. Make no mistake, he did plan for the Joker to be dead by the end of it, but do you see what im trying to say here

Edit: If I knew this post was gonna get 1000+ notes I would've tried to word it better or something, this was a rant I made on the way to the grocery store ���

It's not about making Batman kill either. When Batman says he won't kill, Jason adjusts and goes, 'Let ME kill the Joker or kill me to stop me' instead. The test is all about Batman choosing him. The whole final confrontation is Jason's first death again. The parent, The Joker, and the explosives. It even ends with Jason unable to move as a bomb goes off right next to him again because the parent didn't choose Jason. And instead tried finding an option that'd benefit them and (consequencely) letting the Joker walk, again, lol, lmao <-in agony

[ochablooms]

do we know each other?

☕️ tip jar

[egophiliac]

I don’t think we’ve ever seen you draw knight of dawn before 🤔 what are your thoughts about him? Or take?

I've drawn him a couple of times, just really little/in the background. but I should draw him more, I love this guy a lot! I have many, many thoughts about him and the way he parallels Silver...and also I think it is extremely funny that his ghost is stuck in a ring. especially considering where that ring has been for the last 16-ish years.

[delicourse]

i miss them a little if im gonna be honest

[falafels]

pt.66!! <pt.65 pt.67>

the screenshots were of neil’s playlist ideas for songs to play at the funerals of all the ravens that have been killing themselves in tsc and tgr. a lot of overlap with nicky’s 💖RUMSLUT💖 playlist

tags for the homies ❤️ @andrewsleftarmband @blurryhour @you-know-i-get-itt @notexactlythatgirl @longspacerat @tessasilverswan @minyard-05 @carbon-dated-gal @bisexualchaosdemon @stormiiflies @watercoloureyes01 @vampire-overlord @iron-sides @azure-wing @buffalo-fox @ohgodnotagainplease @pink-hydrangea @jaywalkerss @ohmynoggin-blog @cosmic-marauder @min-getoutofmy-yard @plazybones @disastersappho @leestars13 @the-witch-forever-lives @minyardsss @post-historical-posts @andabuttonnose @hidinginmyhands @aftg4l @allfor-thegames @yaoishida @inafieldofstarflowers @snowcoming @mooniism @fieldsofpoppies-in-salt-air @prometheusthedragon @graveyardviolence @bustedleftshoe @beatrix33 @aftg-bs @yes-i-exist-shutup @milktemproom @all-for-exy @moon-over-ruined-castle @meta-breakers @oneandonlystarshine @dragonslayer26806 @malepresentingleg @lesbiansforkevinday

[crescentfool]

it's that time of year again...

[ryllen]

[mashmouths]

i need to experience something beautiful and true or i'm going to dissolve into a wretched ooze i think

[obsob]

days are getting warmer but i am always warm when im with you ! !

[egophiliac]

do skully have pokemon?

Pumpkaboo is the obvious one, but y'know, sometimes the obvious one is the right one! (we'll say SUPER SIZE Pumpkaboo, just for fun. big pumpkin for big skeleton boy.) and another person actually also suggested Greavard, which I somehow hadn't considered, but feels so perfect that I feel like I should have. dangit.

(they can also have little Nightmare Suit costumes :D)

[pearbosc]

Homesick