#damon 'killing them is the only option' salvatore

[cin3mas]

how do you want to go about this ? / damon

↪ 𝑩𝑨𝑵𝑫𝑬𝑹𝑺𝑵𝑨𝑻𝑪𝑯 prompt meme. / @salvatoraes , stefan salvatore &. damon salvatore.

is he seriously asking him that question ? it wasn't something new to him. his brother asking him how he would go about this situation. though, he has to admit that sometimes, ( rarely ), he wants to show mercy on people and let others decides, today, he has other plans. thinking about torturous things that he could do, he looked up at his little brother while hissing.

" i don't think you're gonna like the plan i have but, why not killing them ? it's not like people will miss them. they are ... useless ? fearless, they are, but you all should tell me one word and the little incoveniance that we have on our hands would like ... poof. dissapearing. "

[andreal831]

If you don’t mind, can you make a post ranking all of the mothers in TVDU (e.g. Esther, Lily, Hayley, Caroline, Liz, etc)?

Ranking of TVDU Mothers, Worst to Best:

16. Dahlia

While Dahlia is not Freya's biological mother, she raised her. She was the only maternal figure Freya had over a thousand years. It goes without saying why Dahlia is dead last. While she is an excellent villain with a complex backstory, it doesn't change the fact that she was awful to Freya. So much so that Freya tried to take her own life, causing her to lose her baby. Dahlia had no love for Freya, only seeing her as a tool for power. She was ready to discard Freya as soon as a more powerful, easier to manipulate option came along. Dahlia never viewed herself as Freya's mother, which explains why she put no effort into being a good one.

15. Kelly Donovan

It's honestly surprising how good of a guy Matt is considering he had Kelly as his only role model. Kelly abandoned her kids when they are both in high school to chase after a man, forcing Matt to work nearly full time to afford to live and take care of Vicki who had a known drug problem. She only ever showed back up when she needed something and wound up causing havoc in her children's lives. While we can feel sympathy for Kelly losing her daughter the way she did, Kelly then continues to abandon her son, forcing Matt to deal with the loss on his own. Matt throughout the series is seen struggling much more than his friends due to his financial insecurity and his very warranted emotional attachment issues. Every other male character is given slack for having mommy-issues, but Kelly really did a number on Matt and he is given no sympathy by anyone. Not even the other parents on the show who could have stepped up and helped.

We also can't forget her SAing her son's best friend, Tyler.

14. Greta Sienna

We don't know much of how Greta was before Klaus killed her husband, but Greta allowed her hate and need of vengeance to consume her, shifting her focus away from her children, Roman and Antoinette. While she did care for them, risking Klaus' wrath to protect them, she then largely abandons them to lead her cult. Greta attempts to influence her children with her ideals, however, when Antoinette does not follow her beliefs, their relationship seemed to suffer. Roman also spent 50 years desiccating before Greta saves him. When they are reunited she uses him to get close to Hope, putting him in danger of angering the Mikaelsons. She then drags Antoinette into the conflict by manipulating both her daughter and Elijah with lies. Greta repeatedly put her own anger and hatred over her children, and it almost cost them their lives.

13. Lily Salvatore

We are told that Lily cares for her sons, and we even get glimpse of it throughout the show. But like Greta, Lily largely abandons them for her cult. She gets some credit for attempting to take her sons and run, but then quickly loses them for letting her son take the blame for the missing money and be beaten by his father. Lily then fakes her own death, forcing her sons to mourn her, all the while leaving them behind to face the abuse she was aware of from their father. While she is a ripper and potentially worried about harming her children, the fact that she didn't hunt down Giuseppe and kill him puts her pretty low in the ranking. Damon and Stefan would have been better off being orphaned at that point. But we see her getting control of herself enough to form her new family, never once going back for her children.

Even when she is released from the prison world, she prioritizes her new family over her sons. While I have sympathy for Lily for what she likely went through with her husband, it doesn't redeem her as a mother. Stefan does attempt to repair their relationship, but it is in a large part due to his forgiveness and less of an effort on her part. She is a better mother to her heretics, but even then, prioritizes Julian over their needs until the very end. She gets a couple of points for sacrificing herself to protect her heretics, who she viewed as her children more than her own sons, however, it does little to help her rank as a mother.

12. Isobel Flemming

Isobel does get some credit for knowing she wasn't ready to have a child since she was only a teenager, hoping Elena would have a better life with the Gilberts. But her caring more about her ancestor, Katherine Pierce, than her own daughter puts her pretty far down on the list. It seems that a lot of her actions against Elena are either from being compelled by Klaus or just fearing him, however, nearly all of her actions throughout the show seem to be putting her own daughter in harms way.

While Isobel clearly never wanted children and does not appear to be very maternal, she at least had the compassion for Elena to tell John to get Elena away from the Salvatores. While, as an audience, we may love the supernatural relationships, as a mother, Isobel did not want Elena to be invovled in the dangerous, supernatural world.

11. Katherine Pierce

Katherine was forced to give away her daughter and that clearly stuck with her. We see glimpses of the mother Katherine could have been had her life been different, but that unfortunately wasn't the mother Nadia had. Katherine did attempt to search for her missing daughter when Nadia was still a child, which is more than a lot of these mothers do, however, when given a second chance with Nadia, Katherine struggles to bond her.

Like everyone, Katherine has some valid reasons for her actions, but it doesn't fix how she treated her daughter. Much of their relationship seems to be Katherine using Nadia, prioritizing Stefan over her own daughter. She gets some credit for being by Nadia's side at the very end, however, it's a little too late.

10. Esther

This is a complex one because on one hand, Esther tried to murder her children multiple times. But on the other, she truly did lover her children in the classic toxic, Mikaelson way.

Esther only has her children thanks to her sister, Dahlia, and a bargain they made forcing her to give up her first born child. Esther is clearly devastated by this deal when she realizes just what it cost her, effecting her relationship with each of her children later.

Like Lily, Esther should have done more for her children to protect them in an abusive household. However, unlike Lily, Esther never leaves them. She does attempt to shield them from Mikael's abuse, often putting him to sleep or lying to Mikael to protect her children from her mistakes. Even after Klaus murders her, she still shows him forgiveness. Yes, she is attempting to kill him at that point, but I can't fully blame her.

At least the next time when Esther comes back, she attempts to give them another option rather than just death. While her actions are questionable, she does it out of love, which is more than a lot of the mothers on this list can say. At the end she sacrifices her life for her children. Similar to Katherine, it is too late, but it is clear she has a complex relationship with all of her children. They all show a fondness for her at points, signifying that there is mutual love there. Her sacrifice at the end at least allowed her children to attempt to remember her fondly.

9. Abby Bennett

At least when Abby abandoned her daughter, she left her in good hands. It is clear Abby loved Bonnie, but for whatever reason decided she couldn't raise her. However, watching her prioritize her adoptive son over Bonnie was devastating. Bonnie didn't deserve that.

She gets some credit for showing up a few times when she was needed, however, the fact that she didn't even know Bonnie died shows just how out of touch she is with her own daughter. Abby's motivations are unclear as to why she couldn't be more present in Bonnie's life. They hint at it a few times, but the fact that Abby didn't even bother to show up for Bonnie when Grams died or when she lost her father speaks volumes.

8. Liz Forbes

Liz and Caroline have a complicated relationship. Liz ends up raising Caroline on her own after husband abandons them. However, Liz's focus on her career tends to put a strain on their relationship. It only gets worse when Liz finds out Caroline is a vampire. Liz takes a lot of time, but eventually comes around to it and accepts Caroline, even saying she is proud of her. Liz standing up for Caroline against Bill was such a great moment for them.

Liz has the benefit of living longer than a lot of the mothers which allows her and Caroline to repair their relationship and even develop a close bond.

But she loses massive points for ignoring the twenty-something year old man hanging around her daughter and then later befriending him. Yes, she didn't know what Damon did to Caroline, but still. I need her to be a little more invovled in Caroline's life and recognize what she was going through. She is a cop after all.

7. Carol Lockwood

Carol is yet another example in the series of a mother allowing their child to face abuse at the hands of their father. Like the other examples, we can't dismiss how difficult it can be for a woman and her child to escape abusive men, especially when they are well connected like Mayor Lockwood was. Carol seemed to be a better mother after the death of her husband. Although her elitism likely contributed to much of Tyler's bad behavior in the early seasons.

Carol gets massive points for never turning on her son even when she finds out he is a werewolf. While Carol doesn't appear to be an overly affectionate mother, she did everything in her power to protect her son with no hesitation. She was definitely in over her head trying to protect the town from the supernatural, it was still clear that her son was her priority. Her last words were trying to protect Tyler.

6. Pearl

The worst thing Pearl did to her daughter was befriending Katherine Pierce which led to them being separated for a century, leaving Anna alone. We don't know much about their long lives, but it is clear Anna and Pearl had a close bond and clearly loved each other very much.

5. Jenna Sommers

Again, Jenna is not biologically a mother, but she does become Jeremy and Elena's legal guardians after their parents die. Jenna is still so young when she takes on this responsibility, balancing school on top of managing two children mourning their parents. Jenna is far from a perfect parent, often letting her emotions cloud her parenting, however, she has a closer bond with her children than most of the parents on this list. She allows them to be messy and imperfect, but makes sure they still feel loved and safe. In her last moments, she spends them trying to protect Elena.

She gets massive points for finding Damon hanging around her teenage niece weird. But does lose some for not actually doing anything about it. Jenna likely would have been even better had they trusted her with the truth. A lot of her struggles was her attempting to make sense of what was happening with only half of the information.

4. Caroline Forbes

Caroline clearly loves her daughters and would do anything for them. If we were only looking at TVD, then she would be right up at the top. But we can't ignore Legacies. While the writers do a better job of implying Caroline is invovled in the twins lives, there are just too many moments that it didn't make sense for her not to be present. She essentially, like so many of the TVDU moms, abandons her daughters due to writing.

I haven't seen Legacies, but even I know that Lizzie dies and becomes a heretic and Caroline doesn't come back for an entire season. While I believe the excuse is that Caroline is seeking a way to end the merge, the twins are still years away from the merge and her daughters needed her. Especially with how neglected they felt with Alaric prioritizing Hope. It's a shame the writers ruined Caroline as a mother because she was clearly dedicated to them when they were little.

3. Freya Mikaelson

While Freya wasn't Hope's mother, she essentially becomes a surrogate parent to her when the rest of the family is forced to separate. Freya is willing to do anything for family and oddly enough that does lose her some points. At times she does allow her determination to keep her family together to put Hope in questionable positions. But it always comes from a place of love. She is also one of the few family members that stays connected with Hope after she loses her family. Freya would do anything for Hope and she proves it by being willing to turn into a vampire and take the Hollow to save her. Even though Freya is a late arrival to the Mikaelson family, she winds up having one of the closest bonds with Hope out of any of them.

She and Keelin also have a child later, so honorable mention to Keelin because, even with zero evidence, I just know Keelin would be such a great mom.

2. Sheila Bennett

We don't know much about Sheila as a mother to Abby, but she took on that role for Bonnie and excelled. Sheila was one of the few adults who was actively invovled. She would do anything for Bonnie, even watching over her from the otherside. Anytime Bonnie needed her, she was there. They had such a special bond and Grams died far too soon. Grams knew just how kind and selfless Bonnie was and attempted to protect her from herself multiple times. But Grams wasn't much different, performing the complex spell, knowing it would likely take all of her energy. If Grams had lived, I just know she wouldn't have allows Bonnie to be taken advantage of the way she often was throughout the series. Sheila Bennett was a force to be reckoned with and no one was allowed to hurt her granddaughter.

Again, extra points for warning Damon to stay away from Bonnie, but she could have held that same energy for Stefan. We needed more mothers protecting their teenagers from being preyed upon by these 100+ year old men.

1. Hayley Marshall

There's no question who the best mother, no best parent, in TVDU is. From the moment Hayley decides to keep Hope, she does everything in her power to make the best life she possible can for Hope. Not only does she protect Hope's physical safety, but she also protects her emotionally and mentally, something that is missing from a lot of the other parents. Hayley will do whatever it takes to protect Hope, even if it is not a popular decision.

She was at a large disadvantage since many of the threats to her child were leagues more powerful than she was, but she never backed down. The amount of enemies she faced off with, knowing she likely didn't stand a chance, all in the name of protecting Hope. She was ready from the beginning to die for Hope and inevitably did.

There is also something to say about the bond they have throughout the show. Hope clearly feels safe and loved by Hayley, even when her life is in complete chaos. I don't think a mother-daughter bond comes close to the trust and love Hayley and Hope have for each other (besides Grams and Bonnie). Hayley had to be killed off in TO, because there is no way Hope would have been able to go through what she did in Legacies if Hayley was around. Hayley got one phone call from Alaric and dropped everything, traveling halfway across the country to bring Hope home. She disciplines Hope, but also talks to her, making sure she understands the deeper reasons for why Hope was acting out. There is nothing Hope could do that would make Hayley hesitate for a second to love and protect her.

I just know if Hayley had heard about a 150 year old vampire (Roman) hanging around her daughter, she would have immediately gotten invovled. She had gone down that path and wasn't about to let Hope get dragged down it as well.

Honorable Mentions:

Jo Laughlin - If Jo had been given the chance, she would have been a great mother. She was a very maternal person and loved the twins so much. Unfortunately it's hard to judge since Kai took that chance away from her. Valerie Tulle - Valerie is another one that I am just assuming she would have done a great job if given the chance to have her child. While she did a lot of questionable things, at the end of the day she was a compassionate person who would have done anything to protect her child. Miranda Gilbert - Miranda seemed like an overall good parent, seeming supportive and compassionate to Elena when she was having issues with Matt. I honestly don't remember how much she knew about the supernatural world or the vampire hunting her husband's family was into, so potentially problematic if they were dragging their family into the supernatural world. However, we don't know much about Elena's mother, but we do know how much she loved her. Hayley's Mother - Again, we don't know much about Hayley's mother, except for the fact that she agreed to her daughter's arranged marriage when she was an infant and that she sacrificed her life to protect Hayley. From what we are told, it seemed like Hayley's parents were on the right side of the war, but it is hard to say. Nadia Petrova - We assume Nadia had a child so she is in the honorable mentions as a mother, but we have zero information on what she was like as a mother. Kai's Mother - I'm just going to assume she was awful. We know Kai grew up not being allowed to touch others, and being isolated. We don't know anything about his mother, so it could be that she had no control over her own life, but considering she is never mentioned, it doesn't seem that her kids have fond memories of her. Tatia - People often forget that Tatia had a child, but she did. We know she took her child and ran to protect them after her husband died in battle, but not much else. There is no mention of what happened to her child after she died. However, she was a mother so she gets an honorable mention.

[splatooshy]

i have a confession

i don’t actually like damon salvatore (the vampire diaries)

there. i said it.

it’s true — his character had no development outside of loving a girl (who he is completely incompatible with) and everything interesting about him was ruined by delena or the plot in an attempt to make him ‘redeemable’.

after s3 (and even during s2&3) he was totally out of character. (the whole show, actually. was he ever in character??) he didn’t make any sense, and julie only ever utilised him as the ‘reformed bad guy’, and went about it in the worst possible ways.

“but you’re always writing and posting about damon??” you ask.

and that’s the thing.

MY damon salvatore is one invented in my head.

MY damon salvatore is a slutty little italian who was considered ‘evil’ and ‘wicked’ long before he turned - for reasons that never really made sense to him. every new ‘big bad’ that comes around - damon’s probably slept with them. or their sibling/s. or both.

MY damon salvatore doesn’t want to be considered ‘good’, because he refuses to live up to the expectations of people who want to fix him, change him, turn him into something he’s not, and doesn’t even want to be. he could never quite fit the mould, no matter how hard he tried, and eventually, he created his own.

MY damon salvatore doesn’t consider ‘stefan is so much better than you’ to be the massive insult it’s intended to be. he knows stefan’s better. he made sure of it. really, it’s a compliment to his parenting skills.

MY damon salvatore has been torn down since long before he’d ever begun to rise. he’s not fussed when told he’s a monster, he’s evil, he deserves to rot in hell because he’s not worth the effort — because none of that’s new to him. nobody hates damon salvatore more than he hates himself. he shouldn’t have to broadcast that. — he went through transition only a month after he deserted the army. all of that trauma - the shell-shock, the horrors - was heightened. and yet, he learned control, and tried to make a life for himself and katherine.

he’s a monster for killing people, and feeding, when some of which deserved it? funny, because he’s still considered to be a hero for fighting on the wrong side of a war he never believed in.

naturally, he has to be a self-serving psychopath with no redeeming qualities, because he refuses to bow down and roll over for the lives of humans. why should he? all they’ve ever done is shoot him down. he’s seen the atrocities man is capable of. knew it years before he turned. humans can be just as monstrous - if not worse! - as vampires, but their lives are automatically worth more, because they’re human.

MY damon salvatore loves being a vampire. it gives him a purpose; options he never would have had, strength, speed, power. he can live.

MY damon salvatore does not exist during tvd canon. maybe at times, during flashbacks or whatever, but he is NOT the kind of guy to give up everything just for a girl… again.

sometimes when i read things and it’s damon/delena bashing i have to sit there for a moment before i remember that MY damon salvatore is even more fictional than YOUR damon salvatore

xoxo, splatooshy.

[boundbyeclipse]

the devil to to the rescue.

genre : angst, fluff (?)

word count : 1.5k

tags : vampire!female!reader, heretic!kai, brother!damon, bestfriend!enzo, bestfriend!bonnie, reader feeds on an animal, small mentions of Caroline, Tyler, and Klaus

a/n : i don’t know if there’s fluff in this but maybe a tiny sprinkle of it (?), wrote this in one go because i was bored so excuse any grammar mistakes if there are any ♡

Full moon shone brightly above your head as you were out to feed in the dark woods. As a newly turned vampire, you needed to feed, and having some knowledge, thanks to Caroline, you decided to head out alone. Though Damon had encouraged you to try out human blood, you refused it under any circumstance. There was no way in the world you were going to hurt people, and if control was lost, you could kill them. It just wasn’t what you wanted.

As you found your target, which was a deer, you took a deep breath and focused on it before dashing over to it. It wasn’t the best feeling, nor was the taste, but you did what you had to do. And you may ask, why not just go for human blood bags? Tell you what, there were none at the Salvatore boarding house, but you weren’t going to rob a hospital either. This was your only option right now.

“I’m so sorry” you whispered to the poor animal that was lying dead on the ground, wiping off the dripping blood off of your face as you stood up to leave.

You were almost out of the woods when you heard something shuffling and breathing behind you. A pair of glowing eyes is what you saw in between the bushes. Your body tensed up as you began to slowly walk backwards, but your back hit a tree. As you were about to apologise and vanish, a snarling wolf jumped out and sped at you, sinking its teeth into your shoulder mercilessly. It hurt like hell, and you wanted to fight back, but the wolf kept on chewing on the flesh ; you felt weak. But to your advantage, a howl in the distance made the wolf climb off of you and run off deep into the forest without looking back.

You winced in pain, pressing your hand against the wound as you put all of your strength into running, making your way back to the house.

Opening the door you saw Bonnie and Enzo cozily cuddling by the fireplace, whilst Damon was busy looking through the books on the shelves.

“You’re ba- Oh my god, what happened?” Bonnie’s eyes widened as she saw you stumble towards the couch.

“I was out in the woods… I fed…” you could barely speak, hissing at the pain of the bite, your chest heaving.

“I got attacked”

“What? By who?!” Damon spoke with concern in his voice, sitting next to you as he grabbed your hand and revealed the wound to everyone.

“Werewolf” Enzo answered before you could. All three of them exchanged looks, probably thinking about a solution to this problem.

Bonnie pulled the blanket off of her and stood up, Enzo following her movements right after.

“What do we do?”

“Well… Klaus is in New Orleans and he sure as hell won’t show up for just a drop of blood to heal her” Enzo pressed his lips together as he crossed his arms. Damon blinked, deep in his thoughts as he tried to figure a way out. He wasn’t going to let you die, you’re his sister and he loves you to death, so any chance given, he’ll do anything to protect you and save you.

Damon snapped his fingers as he came to a conclusion.

“I think I know who could help us”

Bonnie tilted her head.

“Who?”

“Let me just make a quick call”

The pair looked at each other, Enzo shrugging his shoulders and Bonnie frowning at him, not quite grasping the situation yet. Damon dialed someone’s number and the person on the other line wasted no time in answering. All of you listened to the conversation, impatiently waiting to hear something good. Whoever it was, it didn’t take long to convince them to agree.

“So, do we have a deal?” he asked Damon.

“Yes, yes we have a deal. Now please, hurry up, I don’t want to see my sister in pain for another second”

Bonnie walked up to Damon, her voice stern, hands sweaty in distress.

“A deal? What kind of a deal did you make this time, Damon?”

“Not a big one. Won’t hurt you, promise” the left side of his mouth curved up into a smirk. None of you had any idea what the hell was going on. And knowing Damon, it didn’t really sound like this deal is not a big one.

“Damon” she insisted.

“Relax, Bonnie. I’m handling things just fine. Like I told you - it won’t hurt you. I’m doing this for ____”

“Don’t tell me you’re talking about-“

The door swung open and a tall man entered the house, a little smile on his face as he walked towards the living room you were all at.

“Missed me?” he smiled, raising eyebrows at Damon, then shooting a glance over at Enzo, and lastly, Bonnie.

Enzo narrowed his dark brown eyes “Kai Parker”

“You’ve got to be kidding me” Bonnie whispered under her breath in disbelief, cursing the Salvatore in her head for inviting the enemy.

“Nice to see you too, Bon” Kai smiled, giving her a little wave. Even you couldn’t believe that your brother put faith in this sociopath to save your life. Deep inside you wished you could just smack him across the face, but if Kai is the only option left, then so be it.

“Seriously, Damon?” you looked at him through half-lidded eyes, huffing as you leaned against the back of the couch.

“Great. Not even a thank you”

“I won’t say it until I’m actually healed” you snapped back.

Bonnie sighed, wrinkling her nose, her upper lip pulled up. You could tell how mad she was, and you knew how much she hated Kai. She definitely had a reason to react this way.

“Tell me, how in the hell is this ruthless idiot going to help? Aren’t you at least a little bit worried that he might kill her?”

Damon rolled his eyes and grabbed an empty glass, pouring himself a shot of bourbon. He whisked the liquid in circles before drinking some of it. But before he could reply, Kai was the one who answered her question.

“A little bit of magic. Ever heard of siphoning?”

Enzo furrowed his eyebrows and scoffed at him.

“And how are you so sure it’s going to work?”

“Well,” Kai took a seat next to you, “I healed Damon that way after… What was his name again?”

“Tyler Lockwood”

“Oh, right. right. So, Tyler bit him and I just happened to be the one he asked to quite literally, lend a hand”

“Ugh” Bonnie grunted, “just get it over with”

Kai turned his body sideways, you mirroring him so it’s more comfortable for the both of you. He carefully placed his hand over your wound, the contact making you clench your teeth as your skin ached. A deeper shade of orange glimmered from under Kai’s palm, his eyes closed as he siphoned the infection out of you. In a matter of seconds, the wound was gone and you no longer felt any pain. It surprised you how it actually worked.

“There,” Kai raised his hands up, but somehow couldn’t take his eyes off you, “sorry, my bad. You’re just really pretty”

Bonnie rolled her eyes again, stepping closer to Kai.

“Oh, come on, enough of that. You did what you were asked to do, you can leave now”

“Nu-uh, me and Damon had a deal. Which room’s mine?” Kai looked over at your brother.

“Care to tell us what the heck you agreed upon?” Enzo asked.

“Mhm. We’ll let him settle in here. For a little while”

All of you gasped, beginning to argue and go against it. Kai just sat there calmly, observing everyone’s facial expressions and listening to your complaints.

“Your room is upstairs, all the way down the hall on the left. And don’t give me those looks, folks. A deal is a deal. Plus,” Damon pointed at you, “my sister is alive and well”

“I cannot believe you” Bonnie shook her head, exiting the room with anger written all over her face. Enzo cleared his throat and followed his girlfriend to wherever she took off.

“Ouch” Kai raised his eyebrows, hearing no thank you’s from your friends.

“Thanks” you murmured, standing up and walking over to Damon to grab the transparent glass from his hands, filling it up with the amber liquor. Both men watched as you swallowed down the entire shot, surprise written all over their faces as your eyes darted from one to another. You shook your head in a ‘what?’.

“Didn’t expect that from someone who was wailing in pain minutes ago”

“Shut up, Damon” you turned around and made your way towards the stairs, but stopped in your tracks to say more.

“Oh, and,” you pointed at Kai, “you saving my life doesn’t mean I’ll be best friends with you. Also, don’t think about knocking on my door at three in the morning just because you think I’m pretty and you want to stare at me. That’s it for now. Have a good night”

Damon and Kai looked at each other in question, your brother grabbing the whole bottle of alcohol and drinking straight from it.

“You heard her”

Kai snorted.

“Don’t think I heard her say I can’t stare at her while she makes breakfast”

[hyperactivewhore]

Hi! I just like binge read all of your tvd post and I adore them, I feel like you talk about the Mikaelson the way I feel about them, like I love the characters but they ARE awful and it causes this very push and pull with the way I view them and I'm ngl the fandom doesn't help when I'm trying to acknowledge the pit falls of the characters. that and I can't articulate the way I view characters well and I just really appreciate how multi dimensionally you view them because it really refreshing to see some one put it into words in a way I can't.

I don't know if this is the kind of thing you do or anything but I was wondering if I could ask you your opinion on Kai Parker? I feel like I view him the way I do Klaus and kol in sense. Like obviously he's a bad person but I feel like the level of fucked up he is and why hes that level of fucked up makes him a really interesting and enjoyable character for me, and it's kinda hard for me to say this because I Adore Bonnie Bennett. I personally don't believe liking one character cancels out the liking another but seeing how the fandom acts about it especially how many people will stand by Kia entirely and make Bonnie out to be this monster (because they're racist weirdos point blank.) makes it harder for me to feel comfortable voicing my intrestest in him as a character. Now I do think a lot of factors played into Kai becoming who he is and I can understand why people would empathize with him but I don't think it justifys how weird they are to Bonnie, yk? Idk this wasn't about Bonnie I got carried away but yeah I'd love your option about Kia Parker if you have one. I also understand entirely if you don't like him obviously everyone's entitled to there opinion and he did kill his siblings and stuff, but I'd love to hear your opinion on him regardless if your interested,that is. have a good day/night :)

Hello, love! I'm really glad you do, and I definitely agree. This fandom is very, very strict in which characters you can like and which ones you cannot. It's exhausting, to be honest.

I definitely like Kai, he was the only thing that kept my attention glued to the screen after the Originals left and he made the plot more entertaining. He was funny, downright evil and enjoyable to watch, but he was, at least for me, a very obvious mix between all the main villains/antagonists (Klaus, Damon, Kol, Katherine), and the writers clearly intended for their audience to see him as irredeemable, and this is of course tied to the fact there were no available white women to beacon him into "becoming a better person". Bonnie was around, but for obvious reasons she could never be that woman, though the writers certainly played around bonkai, having Kai have a clear interest in her even after she wasn't the key to make him escape his prison world.

I definitely think Kai had a rough childhood and did not deserve to be isolated, though that obviously doesn't excuse what he did to his siblings, but that's what makes him a good character in my eyes. He was a good antagonist but an awful evil person, the circumstances surrounding why he became that person are tragic and sad, and that's okay, because that's in my opinion exactly what a character like Kai should be. And no, that doesn't excuse what he did to his family either, before anyone thinks that's what I was implying.

Though I do not understand why Kai gets so much hate over the whole "killing children" as if the Mikaelson or the Salvatore had gone through centuries of their lives without harming a single child (Klaus ordered to have his unborn daughter killed, for god's sake), and it's really funny how bonkai is portrayed as this top awful abusive couple when every single ship in tvd is. I definitely get the appeal of Bonnie and Kai, the only thing that prevents me from shipping them is the fact she nearly killed herself because of him, there are a few lines I won't cross when it comes to shipping, sa/rape and suicide are on that list, but people need to stop acting like they're worse than the other more popular couples.

To summarize it, I like Kai a lot, I understand why some other people don't (I do, really!), but nothing justifies what he put his family and Bonnie through.

Thanks for the ask, darling. You have a good day/night too!

[the-vampire-queer]

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What is Being Human (US + UK) about?

Summary:

US version: ""Being Human," based on a BBC series of the same name, features three 20-something roommates who each try to keep a secret from the rest of the world -- one is a ghost, another is a vampire and the third is a werewolf. The three roomies try to help one another navigate the complexities of living double lives." Source: Rotten Tomatoes

UK version: "Deciding to turn over a new leaf, a group of friends who also happen to be vampires and werewolves move into a house together, only to find that it is haunted by ghosts of people who have been killed under mysterious circumstances. As they deal with the challenges of being supernatural creatures, their desire to be human bonds them." Source: Rotten Tomatoes

Source: Being Human UK

Cast:

Russell Tovey - George Sands

Guy Flanagan (pilot) + Aidan Turner - John Mitchell (UK)

Andrea Riseborough (pilot) + Lenora Crichlow - Annie Sawyer (UK)

Sam Huntington - Josh Levison (US)

Sam Witwer - Aidan Waite (US)

Meaghan Rath - Sally Malik (US)

Mark Pellegrino - Bishop (US)

Note: Cast lists provided here are not complete lists of people and characters featured in the media being listed. These are partial lists that include some of the main characters and their actors.

Additional information: The UK version of the show came out first, airing on the BBC, dubbed Being Human (UK). Later, a new show of the same title would come out, dubbed Being Human (US).

In the UK version, two of the original three cast from the pilot would be replaced. These two would be Guy Flanagan and Andrea Riseborough, replaced by Aidan Turner and Lenora Crichlow respectively.

What is The Vampire Diaries (+ The Originals + Legacies) about?

Summary (TVD only, due to nature of spoilers when it comes to spin-offs): "This supernatural drama, based on the series of novels by L.J. Smith, details the lives of two brothers, Damon and Stefan Salvatore, who have been living as vampires for centuries. After years of moving from from place-to-place to hide their eternal youth (and bloodthirsty condition), the brothers return to the small Virginia town, Mystic Falls, where their lives as humans ended. Damon is snarky, handsome and charming, with a propensity for evil, while Stefan tries to remain noble -- in part to atone for bad behavior in his past." Source: Rotten Tomatoes

Source: The Vampire Diaries

Cast:

Nina Dobrev - Elena Gilbert (TVD)

Ian Somerhalder - Damon Salvatore (TVD)

Paul Wesley - Stefan Salvatore (TVD)

Candice King - Caroline Forbes (TVD)

Kat Graham - Bonnie Bennett (TVD)

Note: Cast lists provided here are not complete lists of people and characters featured in the media being listed. These are partial lists that include some of the main characters and their actors.

Additional information: The Vampire Diaries show is based on the books of the same name by L. J. Smith. Lots was changed in the book-to-show transfer. Some fans prefer the show over the books.

[thatfanficstuff]

Not About You - 29

Pairing: Damon Salvatore x ofc

Warnings: canon main character 'death'

A/N: It's been a minute. I seem to be getting back into the swing of things though.

It was mid-morning of the next day that Caroline got a text from an unknown number. Her smile fell as she read it. “Lucy.” Her voice trembled as she held the phone out to her best friend.

Lucy’s brow furrowed as she took the phone. Lexi zoomed over to read over her shoulder.

I want the moonstone or I start killing. This town is overdue for a slaughter. Tonight at the masquerade.

“Katherine. Great,” Lucy said as she typed out a response.

“The Katherine?” Lexi asked.

Lucy nodded as the bitch responded. “Fuck.” She tossed the phone to the blonde beside her and went over to pour herself a drink. Lexi read over the rest of the exchange.

We don’t have it. Already gave it to its new owner.

I don’t believe you. And if you did, the previous statement still stands. Mystic Falls becomes a bloodbath.

Lucy took a long sip of her drink as she contemplated their options.

“So we have the boys bring back the stone, meet with Katherine and end her existence,” Lexi suggested.

The only human in the room shook her head. “I’m not certain they could get back in time. Besides, I don’t want that rock anywhere near the bitch. We use a decoy. We’ll have to take her down ourselves. Find someplace to keep her until she’s needed.” As much as she wanted to just end her, Elijah wanted to talk to her first.

“What about the tomb?” Caroline said. “Bree could put a containment spell on it.”

Lucy blinked. She was rather fond of this new ruthless streak of Care’s. “Lock her up with the burnt corpses of her old friends? Sounds like a plan.”

“Okay, but do we use to replace the moonstone?” the witch asked.

Lucy shrugged. “Damon has a whole bowl of soap in his room. It’s stupid and something else to dust, but they’re the right shape. A little witchy juju and one should pass no problem.”

Lexi grinned and clapped her hands together. “Time to plan the downfall of a raging bitch.”

Much to Lucy’s protestations, she was instructed to remain in the house while the rest of them went to enact their plan. This was such bullshit, but she couldn’t exactly argue with the point that she was human. It didn’t mean she had to like being left out though. She’d even tried to bribe them with the daylight ring she’d had Elijah send for Lee but Lexi just held out her hand and Lucy folded. She was just too nice damn it.

Her eyes stayed glued to the clock as she tapped her foot anxiously. They were supposed to keep her updated but she hadn’t heard from anyone in ages. “That’s it,” she said as she pushed herself up from her seat. She was going to find out what was going on.

She arrived at the venue and pulled her car to the side away from the other vehicles. She wanted to make sure she could get out easily. She wove through the cars trying to find her way to the house. She stopped short when she saw Elena headed her way as she talked on her phone. The teen was in jeans in a casual top so she obviously hadn’t been here for the festivities.

“Elena,” she called to get the girl’s attention as she hung up her phone.

The brunette looked up with frown just as a figure wearing a clown mask stepped up behind her and grabbed her with a hand over her mouth.

“Hey,” Lucy shouted. “Let her go.” A moment later, a heavy blow struck the side of her head and pain radiated through her before everything went black.

“Lucy.”

She groaned and tried to shut out the voice that hissed her name. An aching throb radiated through her body, centered on her head and her neck. She just wanted to go back to sleep.

“Lucy.”

It was a little louder this time. More insistent.

She reluctantly blinked her eyes open to find herself laying on a tattered couch in a rundown room. Elena sat on the floor in front of her, staring worriedly. The girl sighed in relief when she noticed Lucy was awake. Lucy had certainly woken up to better sights.

The circumstances that had landed her here came back to her in a rush and groaned as she ran a hand down her face. For once, she wished she’d done as she was told and just stayed at the boarding house. To no surprise at all, Elena had gotten herself in trouble again and this time brought Lucy along for the ride. This was just fantastic.

“Do you know what’s going on?” Lucy asked as she sat up. A fresh wave of pain ran through her head and neck and she grimaced. Her hand shot up to her throat only to come back covered in blood.

Elena shook her head and moved to sit on the couch beside Lucy. “Not really. Two vampires have us. They want to turn me over to someone named Elijah.”

Lucy huffed a laugh. Well, wasn’t that convenient? She wondered if they’d managed to get ahold of him. She could always give them his phone number.

“Okay. What the hell happened to me? I remember the head but what’s up with the neck?”

The teen frowned. “The male vampire, I think his name is Trevor, wanted to feed from me but the other one wouldn’t let him. She said you were fair game though.”

Irritation flared through Lucy but what good would it do. What was done was done. It’s not like she could change it now.

“Oh good, you’re awake,” a female voice said and a glance showed a red-headed vampire standing at the top of a flight of stairs.

“He’s here. He’s here,” a male said and started running around the room anxiously. “I’m not sure this was a good idea.”

Lucy resisted the urge to roll her eyes. It was a bit late to think of that now. She just wanted to get this over with and go home. She wondered if the boys would be with Elijah. Eh. At the very least he would take her home.

“Please don’t let him take me,” Elena whined from beside her.

“Us,” Lucy automatically corrected. She wasn’t frightened of her uncle but it was the principle of the thing.

Elena looked over, her brow furrowed in confusion. “What?”

She finally gave into temptation and rolled her eyes. “There’s two of us, Elena. It’s not just you.”

The conversation was interrupted by the appearance of an elegantly suited vampire. He stood at the top of the stairs and ran his gaze over the room. Relief flashed through his eyes when spotted Lucy and she gave him a small smile. He zoomed until he stood in front of her. Using two fingers, he lifted her chin to look over the injury on her neck.

“Why is she here?” he asked after a moment while keeping his eyes on her.

“She was there when we took the doppelganger. We had to take her, too,” the male explained.

Elijah closed his eyes as if praying to some long-forgotten deity for patience. When he opened them, he rolled his eyes and gave a little half smile before turning to face the vampires again. “And why is she bleeding?”

“I was hungry?”

Lucy cringed. Sucks to be that guy.

She watched impassively as Elijah removed the offender’s head with a single swipe of his hand. When the female vampire moved as if to attack, Elijah stopped her with one raised hand. “Let it go before you join him, Rose. He harmed that which wasn’t his to touch. Don’t join him in his stupidity.”

“Excuse me,” Elena said. “I’m still here.”

For someone that was so concerned a moment ago, she was certainly upset to find the attention wasn’t on her. Idiot. Elijah didn’t spare her a glance. “Yes. I am aware. I’ll deal with you in a moment.”

“Where are the boys?” Lucy asked.

“They’re a bit behind. They were finishing something up. They should be here shortly.”

She answered with a nod. The sound of breaking glass interrupted before either could say anything else.

“Who else is here?” he asked looking between the three of them.

“I don’t know,” Rose answered as Elena shook her head.

“I’d say it’s probably my babysitters,” Lucy said.

Elijah smirked. “Stay here until I ensure your safety.”

She crossed her arms over her chest. “I can take care of myself, you know. You made sure of it.”

He arched a brow and gave a cockeyed smile before grabbing Elena and rushing her up the stairs to the entryway. Lucy sighed before following along at a much more human pace.

She arrived at the top of the stairs just as Elijah was shot through the hand with a stake. She yelped in surprise but before she could do anything else, she was grabbed and rushed to another area. Lexi looked down at her with a hand over her mouth. Lucy shook her head and tugged at her friend’s wrist but she wouldn’t relent.

“Come out with the girls and we will discuss this,” Elijah said. “I believe there has been a misunderstanding of sorts.”

Lucy kicked Lexi in the shin. “Ow,” the vampire said with a frown. Finally, she moved her hand so the human could talk.

“Stop. It’s Elijah. He’s family. He’s the one the boys were helping.”

Lexi frowned. “But he kidnapped you.”

“No, he didn’t. Someone else did. He was going to bring us home.”

Elijah shouted in pain and both their heads jerked in that direction. Lexi raced toward the sound and Lucy ran behind. “No!” she screamed when she saw Elijah prepared to remove Lee’s heart. At the same time, the front door opened to admit the Salvatores. Distracted, Elijah glanced over just as Lexi drove a large piece of wood into his chest.

Lucy screamed and dropped to her knees. Not Elijah. He couldn’t leave her. He promised she’d never lose him. Her vision blurred as she sobbed and rocked as she chanted the word “no” over and over again.

Arms wrapped around her and she buried her face in Damon’s chest so Elijah’s gray face was blocked from her vision. He hooked a hand around the back of her neck and she gipped his shirt. She gasped as she struggled to breathe, to ease the tightness in her chest. Elijah was gone. He was really gone. Oh, gods.

“Shh, Luce. I’ve got you. I’m sorry. So sorry. We should have gotten here sooner. God, I’m sorry.”

She sucked in a breath. “Not your fault.”

A warm hand settled on her back. “Is she okay?” Stefan asked.

“No. Not even close,” Damon answered as he tightened his hold on her.

“I’m sorry, Lucy,” Lexi said, her voice sounding far away. “We thought you were in danger and then he was going to kill Lee. I had to stop him. I’m sorry.”

Lucy couldn’t muster the strength to say anything. Her heart was too broken.

Damon grunted to let her know she’d been heard. “I hope you mean it. Unless, I’m very much mistaken—and I’m not—you had him to think for those rings. What a nice thank you.”

“Damon,” Stefan snapped.

The elder brother shot a glare at his sibling. “What? They hurt my girl. She might not hold a grudge but I sure as hell do.”

Lucy took it all in as she kept her boyfriend’s shirt clutched tightly in her fists. She tried to regulate her breathing but wasn’t having much luck. “I’m sorry,” she muttered.

He shushed her. “You have nothing to be sorry for. Take what you need.”

“Can we go?” Elena asked as she stepped up behind Stefan. “I just want to go home.”

“Not the time, Elena,” Damon said.

“But—” she started only for Stefan to cut her off.

“Enough, Elena.”

“We’ll take her home,” Lee said.

Only once she was certain the others had left did Lucy pull back from Damon’s chest. She kept her eyes turned from where she knew Elijah was pinned to the wall like some macabre butterfly.

Damon ran his eyes over her before he grasped her chin and turned her head gently to examine the bite on her neck. “What’s this?”

“Kidnapper got the munchies apparently.” She sniffed and glanced between the brothers. “Can we go? I need to get out of here.”

Damon nodded and helped her to her feet. A breath later and he’d swept her into his arms. She didn’t even think about protesting, just nuzzling into his chest and taking comfort in his warmth wrapped around her.

“Can you drive, Stef? I’ll get in the back with her.”

“Of course,” Stefan answered with no hesitation.

She kept her head pressed against Damon’s chest with her eyes closed so she wouldn’t get another glimpse of Elijah. That wasn’t how she wanted to remember him. Damon kissed her head and held her more tightly. She wrapped her arms around his neck and just let him take care of her.

[rockclimbinglover12107]

Rating TVD ships :

Stelena: 6/10. Paul and Nina had good chemistry and it was certainly the better option of the two main ships but I found them very vanilla and I take the stance that the brothers ruined Elena so I can’t bring myself to fully support it. Also, the retconning of this ship after season 4 always bugged me.

Delena: 1/10. Nothing about this toxic ship made sense and it was clearly done as fan service. Elena HATED Damon in the earlier seasons and it was clear her only loved her because of Katherine. Damon was clearly manipulative towards Elena, always controlling and undermining her, and I have already mentioned the fact that the Salvatore brothers traumatised Elena and ruined her life.

Steroline: 4/10. This ship had the sole purpose of giving two main characters an ending with another person. It was boring and they were obviously better as friends. However, they weren’t overly toxic or impactful so I didn’t mind them too much.

Bamon: 8/10. It was much better than Delena and their chemistry was good. Their time in the prison world was one of the only semi-interesting elements of the story after Katherine died . Bonnie deserved a dynamic love interest and she brouggt out the good in Damon, something that Elena did the opposite of. However, I don’t see the ship lasting as Bonnie is a very moral character and Damon is pretty much the opposite.

Klaroline: -100000/10. Everything about this ship sucked. His attraction and interest in Caroline made no sense and realistically she would be a brief fling at best. Her sleeping with the guy who essentially wanted to kill her best mate was shady and the fact that KATHERINE of all people had to call this out was honestly sad. Also some ( not all ) of their fans are so annoying, always complaining that they didn’t end up together and disregarding all of the pain that Klaus caused. Most TVD fanfiction revolves around either them or Dullena and this is really annoying to me, as someone who doesn’t ship them.

Forwood: 3/10. It’s better than Klaroline but it’s still toxic and both characters annoyed me when they were together. Caroline was better when paired with one of the other girls or Stefan ( as a friend ) and I thought that Tyler was always either boring or a horrible person.

Steferine: 5/10. Paul and Nina’s chemistry really shone with this pairing and they were interesting in season 2 but as time went on they became tiresome and Katherine’s obsession in season 5 was both annoying and completely out of character. I was much more interested in the Katherine / Caroline dynamic and also the Katherine / Elena dynamic than the Steferine one in this season.

Kalijah: -5/10. This man found a way to free her but chose not to use it and instead was going to allow her to die at the hands of Klaus. Then he got upset when she fled to stay alive and held it against her for years. Finally, when they had a fling in season 4, he broke up with her and betrayed her over killing ONE guy who was her enemy, conveniently ignoring the amount of innocent people that he and his family have killed. Everything about this ship, aside from the actor’s chemistry, sucked and the idea that he was loyal to her for 500 years is absolute bull.

That’s it for now, but I may do a part 2 with some non-canon ships or any canon ships that I haven’t covered yet.

[kmze]

Kw said Stefan & Caroline were ideologically at odds because he wanted to be human and she wanted to be a vampire and I was like umm maybe you hate them Mr. but just don't spout absolute nonsense.Caroline was a vampire and she was still being the most humane of all humans-raising kids,thinking of starting a school for kids,wanting to get married while Stefan who became human was not only alive despite suffering multiple fatal wounds on consecutive days but was still somehow a human with just a small syringe of cure in his system despite losing lots of blood and in the end had just a scratch on his forehead( 'You're a Harry Potter,Stefan')And then like you mentioned,he went on a revenge mission and got kicked & beaten by a 4000 year old psychic and was still A-okay!I don't know I don't think humans see that as day-to-day activity.

I swear every-time that man opened his mouth after the finale I wanted to throw up because he could not stand the idea of Stefan living and not being with Elena in the finale. So I found the article to re-read it and like he's missing the very key aspect that STEFAN HAD THE CURE FORCED ON HIM! He DID NOT want to be human, he literally feel back into depression because he was human, I swear no one ever actually listens to what Stefan says. Here's what he says to Caroline when they're searching for the woman Ripper Stefan left to die and he has a major attitude with Caroline and she rightfully calls him out:

Stefan: Look, I don't know what to think. I don't know how to deal with what I want or what I thought I was gonna have. I don't know what to do.

Does that sound like someone who's happy he's human?! Even Damon told him to remember all the times he wanted to be human and he was not here for it. I mean we already did the Stefan doesn't want to be human plot in S7 and he said out loud being human SUCKS! He wanted forever with Caroline, he promised her forever "I pledged my life to Caroline forever" 8x07 and when that got taken away he was miserable. He felt like a burden and it took the pep talk from Damon and killing Cade for him to be like it doesn't matter how many years I have left I just want to spend them with Caroline. Being turned into a human was his punishment, that was what he got for choosing to turn his humanity off and killing Enzo and like that's fine, he was a maniac working for Cade but that's what it was punishment!

I don't even understand what he means by Caroline didn't want to take the sure because it wasn't even an option? I mean the cure is probably the most annoying plot device this show ever did and they can't even follow their own mythology about it. And again, Caroline loved Stefan no matter what she still wanted to marry him as a human and it's not like they were the only human/vampire relationship I just...

Honestly Anon I think the fact that Stefan kept bleeding and being put in danger ALL THE TIME as a human showed even more how much the writers did not feel Stefan as human. Stefan always walked head-first into danger and it was like that aspect of him did not work as a human but the amount of times he was HEMORRHAGING BLOOD I truly could not. He was stabbed with a pole, shot, stabbed in the hand and beaten by a 4000 year old psychic. Which like you said resulted in a scratch on the forehead meanwhile he was being kicked where he had been shot and stabbed less that two days ago.

That article also makes it kind of obvious Kevin couldn't care less about the Salvatore school and Julie trying to do the spin-off which is why he especially did not care about that being Stefan's redemption. It's just amazing this guy started two shows left and then came back and expected everyone to want to do what was applicable to the plot when he left. Say what you want about Julie but she's the showrunner who is actually able to make seasons upon seasons of a show and KW keeps getting his shows cancelled after two seasons.

Still endlessly amazing too how Stefan had to die for killing Enzo who showed up in S5 but Damon was absolved for killing Tyler a character who’d been there since the pilot.

[scienter]

Kai Parker was such a fascinating villain and I think the writers did a great job with him.His arc was short but impactful.The writers wanted him to be a sociopath and never even bothered to woobify him.There was a void in the villain department once Klaus left and Katherine died.I would say Kai was able to fill that void to an extent. But the Parker family was so weird.They kept producing twins as fail-safe option just to ensure their coven always had a leader.I bet they were all pro-life fu**ers since they chose to use the body of an eternally 17 and emotionally 20 year old with zero concern about her agency just because they wanted to save the future of their coven!!!That's outrageous!

And then there were the siphoners turned heretics who were this very coven's(Gemini coven)outcasts!I think this is when writers failed miserably.The heretics not only failed to make an impact but the concept of the heretics was under-developed.As heretics,if they siphoned from their own blood,shouldn't they have dropped dead like flies?I mean remember when the twins siphoned from Caroline in their foetal state and Caroline almost died?In fact,Kai siphoned from Damon and he did sort of die in s8.And Kai was not even alive at the time!Even their backstory had so much ambiguity.According to Jo and Kai,they were coming to New York to avenge the Gemini coven but the coven got to them first.But according to s7,they were running from Rayna!If Jo and Kai knew so much about the heretics they should have known about Rayna Cruz too and warned the others!The whole thing was such a ridiculous mess honestly.I don't think the writers knew what they wanted to do with them.Were they the good guys or the bad guys?Why were they on my screen all the time taking away precious time from Caroline and Bonnie?Neither did the heretics like each other nor did anyone like them.Oscar was the only interesting one among them but he was killed off in just 1 episode!WHY? Instead, we had to sit through Walmart Quetsiyah-Katherine-Lexi-Elena-Caroline's ( you know which one) theatrics for months in a row.I think the writers did a poor job with Rayna too.She had an interesting backstory but then I never understood her MO.No offense she seemed like an underpaid influencer trying to advertise for Defan ! "You only wanted Damon" Brand new information!😴

I agree. Kai was one of the best villains on the show. He ranks up there with Katherine, Elijah, and Klaus. Like you, I appreciated that they didn’t give him some sad origin story – he was just a sociopath. It was a breath of fresh air. While I love complex villains and anti-villains, a story grows boring if the villains are too similar.

I hardly remember the siphoners/heretics storyline tbh. Except for Kai and Lily Salvatore, the antagonists in the later seasons weren’t compelling enough for me to take note of them. The villains felt repetitive (Valerie) or flat (the coven). It made Kai stand out all the more I suppose.  

“But the Parker family was so weird. They kept producing twins as fail-safe option just to ensure their coven always had a leader. I bet they were all pro-life fu**ers since they chose to use the body of an eternally 17 and emotionally 20 year old with zero concern about her agency just because they wanted to save the future of their coven!!! That's outrageous!”

That storyline always infuriated me. It’s only grown more gross post-Dobbs. 🤬

[kiss-my-freckle]

It had to be Lexi.

Re-watching Damon's scene with Liz, I realized that it had to be Lexi, and it had to be Lexi because she was Stefan's friend.

"Should turn up a suspect or two." - Liz

Liz is looking for people that are new to town. A suspect or two means one Salvatore or two. Simple enough to understand. Damon has to offer up a vampire for slaughter.

"We have to consider that vampires may be walking around during the day." - Liz

It couldn't be just any vampire, the vampire had to be a nightwalker because Liz started to suspect daywalkers. The council suspecting daywalkers would result in traps being set, so Damon is killing two birds with one stone. So, Damon has to offer up a nightwalking vampire for slaughter.

"We've exhausted every other option." - Liz

It should be as simple as turning a random human, killing them, then handing their vampire corpse over to Liz. It's not. Damon needs Liz to get "daywalker" completely out of her mind. Offering up a dead vampire would've been too convenient after Liz just told him they searched high and low for nightwalkers only to come up empty.

Liz has no idea how a vampire could walk in the sun, so that issue would always remain. One has to consider how horrible it would've been had Damon turned someone into a vampire, and upon taking their corpse to Liz, she asks how he was able to find it when they tried like hell and failed.

"What are you doing?!" - Damon

There was only one way for Damon to nip it completely. A living nightwalker could remove daywalker from her mind, and him finding said nightwalker wouldn't appear convenient on his part if Liz were the one to find it. That's why he responds the way he does when Liz vervains Lexi. He pretends not to know she's a vampire because Liz was meant to locate that vampire.

A vampire. A nightwalker. A nightwalking vampire that's still alive.

One has to consider how horrible it would've been had Damon turned someone into a vampire, and while killing them in front of Liz, that vampire outed him as a vampire. This would remove the point of turning them into a vampire in the first place. To offer up a living vampire and kill that vampire in front of Liz, he needed a vampire that wouldn't out him as a vampire in the process. Stefan's "best friend" won't out Damon as a vampire because Damon is Stefan's brother.

As I said, a living nightwalker could remove daywalker from Liz's mind. If it did, a plus for Damon. If not, Liz would continue to trust Damon enough for him to continue getting updates from her.

Imagine Damon turning someone into a vampire, and that newly-turned vampire sitting at the bar with Damon as comfortably as Lexi is, and sitting there for the sake of being "discovered" by Liz. Yeah, right.. it wouldn't happen. It had to be Lexi.

At any rate, killing Lexi put an end to the issue of daywalkers until Mason outs the Salvatores in season 2. So Lexi's death kept them safe from the council for almost a season.

[justjessame]

Light Through the Darkness: Chapter 36

Mystic Falls, VA Late January 2010

Damon left and collected his car from the house. He went to find the only person he could think of for advice for what he needed, who also wouldn't ask unnecessary questions. Pearl's daughter, Anna. She was skulking around Elena's brother and the two of them were too adorable for words.

Luckily he caught her outside the school, about to embark on a new life of her own. Calling her over, he told her what he needed, noticing for the first time she was close to the same size as Abigail. Still slightly taller, she would do for a shopping partner.

While Anna looked curious, she shrugged it off and took him to the mall. Passing by the offerings of stores with names that caused him to cringe, as she was leading him from store to store, a dress finally caught his eye. It was shorter than she'd ever worn, and it showed more of her back and shoulders than he'd ever really seen her show, but it was THE dress.

"Who's this for?" She asked, as he asked her to choose it in a size closest to hers. "I'm not the same size as Katherine and Elena, so who's the mystery woman?"

As he moved to another store, contemplating heavily on the finer points of Victoria's Secret, and getting sidetracked by need for Abigail for a moment he pushed past. Shoes, he thought, I'll focus on shoes and send Anna for her lingerie.

"Never you mind," he answered finally, gesturing to the vivid pink and black storefront that would be his undoing. "Could you, please, pick out a few pairs of panties. Same size as the dress." He was walking away, but heard her rebuttal.

"Even you know that's not how they're sized, Damon." He chuckled until she left him speechless with the next question. "Do you have mystery woman's bra size, or do I skip those?"

His mouth went dry. The dress, carefully wrapped in the bag he held was strapless and had a defined bodice. Her breasts had always been under so many layers, but would be on perfect display. Close and tempting. He shook his head and answered, knowing she could hear him, "No, but pick up a jacket, that size you can guess."

She laughed behind his back. Whomever the mystery woman was and she had a fair idea, she had Damon Salvatore tied in knots.

The shoe store was overflowing with options. Would Abigail want the comfort of a canvas sneaker or the familiarity of low cut booties? He smiled wistfully at a pair of heels he'd kill to see her wear, but put those on hold for now. He wasn't worried about sizing her shoes, he'd held her feet in his hands enough to know the exact size and shape. Hazard of dancing at too many parties, and the dresses that made reaching down so difficult.

Unable to choose, Damon picked both and then tossed in a pair of dress flats for good measure. Better to allow her some choice, he thought, remembering her irritation with Emily's choices.

Doubling back to meet Anna, he found her holding three bags. Quirking an eyebrow, at her abundance of bags, she shook her head. Men.

"One bag," she said, holding up the smallest, "has the articles you requested. This one, she held up a slightly larger bag, has things that a woman would like to have access to on her vanity." She gave it a shake and he could hear liquid sloshing inside. "I grabbed some socks, hose, brush, comb, perfume." She showed the larger bag and he already knew it held the jackets. Nodding his understanding, they walked back to his car.

Anna really was curious if she was correct about the identity of the mystery woman. As he drove her back to the school, she contemplated his temperament.

"It's Abigail Morgan, isn't it?" She blurted, watching his profile and noticing the clench of his jaw. "I won't tell anyone, Damon, I just thought it might be her."

A curt nod was all the confirmation she received. Abigail Morgan had been an enigma to her when they'd arrived in Mystic Falls in the 1860s. Her bearing, looking so regal, but she was filled with warmth and acceptance. She recalled seeing her walk through town, shopping, yet stopping to speak to not only those of her own station, but to slaves and servants running errands. Anna watched in awe when this young woman spoke to field hands and the mayor in the same warm and open matter. She had been so different from the others.

"I hope she likes what we chose," Anna offered as he stopped to let her out.

"Thank you," he offered, and she knew it covered everything.

Nodding she joined her fellow classmates. She'd need to compel her skipping, but it was worth it. Seeing Damon Salvatore go breathless at the mere mention of bras would carry her though days of ill humor.

MORGAN HOUSE

"Are you quiet certain this constitutes as a dress in the present?" Abigail's voice, coming from behind a set of changing screens made him smile. "There seems to be quite a bit missing."

"It's all there, Abi." He assured her, fighting the urge to duck behind and see the finished vision for himself.

He heard a loud sigh, and then felt his mouth go dry again when she asked, "And the, did you call them panties? Are you sure I'm meant to wear just one at a time?"

The thought of her in whatever panties Anna had chosen was making him distracted. Groaning with the same longing, he begged her to come out, assuring her one pair was more than enough.

"Fine," she said with petulance. "But if I'm run out of town for being shameless, it's on your head."

She moved and was in full view. The breath knocked from his lungs. The dress was perfect. Strapless, her breasts were pushed up with the tightness of the bodice. Torturing him with the view it presented. A pinched waist, the knee length skirt flared. Her legs, always a mystery because even her nightgowns had been floor length, were surprisingly toned. Bare feet and hair swinging loose to her hips, Abigail Morgan was heartstopping. Thank God he was already dead.

"Well?" She asked, looking completely unsure. "It's disgraceful, isn't it?"

He shook his head to clear it and answer her. "The ONLY disgrace is having to wait this long to see you in it." His voice sounded choked, which he was. Choked with need. Every slice of skin left uncovered beckoned to be tasted. And he was aching to accept. "If you'd prefer, in the larger bag are some jackets. They'll offer more cover." Part of him wished against her taking the offer, another thought his sanity required it.

She nodded taking the larger bag off the chest sitting at the foot of her bed. She pulled out the two jackets. One was fitted leather, the other looser denim. Turning to him with furrowed brow, she held them up for his inspection. "It would appear that I am at the mercy of your superior knowledge of the styles of this time." She looked adorable in her confusion and he wanted to help.

"The leather," he replied, it was more fitted, but it would set the dress off perfectly. Anna had chosen a light grey color and when Abi set the denim down to pull on her preference, he stopped her. "Allow me?" Moving the heavy length of her hair to lay over her left shoulder, he removed the tag from the back of her dress first. "Let's make sure you look perfect, shall we?" He saw the goosebumps on her skin and heard her pulse speed up. Running the fingertips of his right hand slowly up her arm and across her shoulder, he felt her skin flush with warmth. "I love this dress on you, Abigail." His voice was husky with need. "I love it because it shows this," his fingertips traced up her neck, then down the part of her spine left uncovered. He heard her swallow. "Because if it shows it, then I can taste it." Leaning forward he let his lips follow the path from where her shoulder met her neck, flicking his tongue gently as he passed her pulse point and smiling at her gasp. "I love the taste of you, Abigail Morgan." His lips ran down the back of her neck and he felt more gooseflesh, more heat. Kissing lightly, he ran his tongue down the bumps of her spine and felt her knees shake, so he moved his left arm around to hold her up. "Should I stop, Abi?" He needed her to stop him, with words, because he wanted her so badly his body felt like fire.

Abigail swallowed again. Did she want him to stop? NEVER! But should they stop? Yes, unfortunately. She needed to fulfill a promise she made to her papa and while the image of Damon taking everything he promised to take was distracting and more than welcome-she needed to focus.

"We should probably pause this," she said, need heavy in her tone. "Not forever, but I do need to leave the house. I have an errand to run."

It worked, breaking the spell enough for him to remove the jacket's tags and help her into it. She turned and pulled his head down for a kiss that held the promise of more. Just not right now.

Choosing her shoes, the canvas sneakers that he stepped back to allow her to put on herself. He didn't trust himself to touch her bare legs. Stopping may prove impossible. He smiled as she stood before him in her new outfit asking his opinion.

"Perfect, of course." He said. "Your hair-"

Her eyes widened in fear of what he might suggest for her hair. She fought the urge to clutch it to her.

"Do you need help putting it up?" He asked, seeing her fear. "I wouldn't dare suggest any changes, Abi. I just wanted to know if you had ever put it up or styled it yourself before?"

Ah yes, that would be an issue. She'd always had Sallie to brush and arrange it for her. Seeing him pick up another bag, she watched him pull out a brush, comb, and some types of pins and clips. She took the brush from him and ran it through her curls, happy to find no tangles. He handed her something stretchy and circular. Quirking her eyebrow, he smiled and took the brush from her.

"I'm no lady's maid, but I think I can manage a ponytail." Damon said, using the brush to pull her hair into a smooth clutch high on the crown of her head. Making sure her hair was out of her face, he stretched the band and used it to wrap around the clutch. Even pulled high, her hair was still midway down her back.

"There," he said, and pulled her to the full length mirror in the corner. He stood behind her as she studied herself. "You look like a modern young woman, Abi."

Abigail had to admit, once she got over the scandalous length and the exposure of her new dress, with the jacket and the comfortable shoes, she did look nice. Her hair, did he call this style a ponytail? Was nice too. Feeling better about the complete picture, she returned his smile.

"Ready to venture outside?" He asked, almost wishing she'd say no, so he could keep her to himself longer.

She nodded and turned to him. Stepping closer, she wrapped her arms around him, pressing her face against his chest. His arms returned her embrace automatically. Kissing the top of her head, he waited her to be fully ready. She said she had an errand, and he had a goal as her guide to Mystic Falls 2010- help her in any way she needed.

She pulled back and smiled up at him. "Let's go."

And Damon, taking her hand in his, was determined to keep his goal's aim on track.

[thelikesoffinn]

Hey there! Great to get a pro-Ascension point of view in here, I loved seeing how you view ascended Astarion. I hope you don't mind me hopping onto your reply to offer up some more babbling.

(And please, don't take this as me berating you or correcting you, that is never my intention. I'm really just a slut for healthy discussions!)

I do absolutely agree with you that both ways work for Astarion, and both endings make sense in their own right. And I do, in fact, like the ascended ending exactly for what it is - the bad ending, where we couldn't save him. I wouldn't even go as far as calling it the "wrong" ending either, because it's really not a question of right and wrong. It's truly more a question of good and bad. And if we go by that, ascension is the bad ending for him. Because, and I think a lot of people forget this, Astarion doesn't just "ascend". He becomes the vampire ascendant. That means he turns into a true vampire and ascends. He's basically a Vampire+ now, and that is an important factor in how we should regard ascension.

To see why, I think we need to look at how DnD (and, in turn, bg3) treats vampires, since it's less the type of vampire we see in modern popculture. As in, less Damon Salvatore and more Dracula.

In DnD, true vampires are deeply twisted beings. Everything that was once lively and pure about the person dies upon, well, death. Their needs turn into physical cravings, and overall, they want but one thing: power. They want a lair, spawn, and people they can own and control.

"Friends" are mostly no longer close, beloved people that you trust and care for. With vampires, it's more likely that they view their friends as something "useful". They can use their affection to get them to help and support them. There's also likely to be envy or jealousy towards what was formerly considered a friend (and personally, I wouldn't put it past them to turn their friends into spawn as some form of power play).

Love is similarly twisted since it's no longer the deep feeling of love we know. Love for vampires is a heavy, dark obsession. They don't love and care for a person any longer, they just want to have them; to own them, and to play with them until they're bored of them.

Stradh von Zarovich is a perfect example here. His obsession is a woman called Tatyana. A woman he couldn't have in life or death, that he is still so obsessed with that he later tries to kill and turn another woman, Ireena, into his spawn consort, simply because she looks exactly like Tatyana and he believes that she is Tatyanas reincarnation. (She may or may not be, but Stradh doesn't have definite proof of that.)

That behaviour can be seen in ascended Astarion as well. He wants to own Tav, and he will take them by force if given the option. And to him, Tav is no longer considered an equal either. Sure, he still talks like they are, but his true opinion slips through every now and again if you listen close enough. He constantly puts himself above them and he makes it very clear that they'll be nothing but his consort.

Tav will sit beside him as he rules. Nothing more.

Taking all this into account, we can already sort of make out why ascended Astarion is the bad ending.

Ascended Astarion is no longer Astarion. He looses himself - or rather: he throws himself away - because he's deeply deeply terrified of being hurt. Astarion craves safety and believes he will find it as the vampire ascendant.

And maybe he will.

Vampires are already hard enough to kill.

But he'll find it only at the cost of his own person.

This is also where the crux of the argument "Astarion wants to ascend" lies.

It is true that Astarion thinks he wants to ascend.

But he is, as I said originally, blinded by fear.

Astarion is deeply afraid of being abused further, for obvious reasons, and he thinks the only way he'll find peace and solace is as a true vampire - or, better even, the vampire ascendant. He doesn't think about the consequences of his actions or where his path will lead him, he just thinks about safety. Survival.

Ascension is his form of running away. Astarion is running, and he is running hard from something he probably can't explain, and the finish line is "safety" aka "ascension".

Tav can now choose to either take him by the hand and show him what exactly he is running towards - that where he sees safety, others see loneliness; where he sees solace and warmth, others see nothing but cold emptiness - or they can let him keep on running.

If they choose the latter, Astarions fear wins. It overpowers him, drowns him, and Astarion is no more.

He is safe, but he's lost all he once was in the process.

Is that the wrong choice? Not necessarily. Right and wrong are deeply nuanced labels that everyone will view differently.

But is it the bad choice? Very likely, yes. And not only that - it's an extremely sad choice as well.

To me, letting Astarion ascend feels like I'm giving up on him. Like I'm showing him that he himself is not enough and that he needs ascension to live a happy, safe life.

And yes, that is very likely the social worker in me crying because we could've helped him get better without this. We could have helped him save himself. But after ascension, he's beyond our grasp, and all we can do is watch shit go down eventually.

„Astarion ending as the Vampire Ascendant is the correct ending for him, because it is what he wants.”

That is a claim I’ve been seeing pop up more and more often these days. And I think it’s both a very bold and a very odd claim to make.

But first things first: Hello, I’m a licensed social worker! So far, I’ve worked with children, refugees and youths with behavioural issues stemming from bullying and or abuse.

Please be aware that I will be mentioning different kinds of abuse, coping mechanisms, and victim/abuser relationships. If any of this is difficult for you, don’t force yourself through it. My jabbering about a traumatised vampire is not worth your wellbeing, not ever.

I will, however try to stick to Astarion and not use other examples. If, in any case, I do use a non-Astarion example, I’ll add a warning beforehand so that you can skip the part. And I’ll make it clear what will be discussed in the next bit, so that you have a chance to skip it entirely.

This is an effort to make this as accessible as possible for everyone that wants to indulge on a mad woman’s rambling – and I know there’s a few people that like this sort of stuff!

And, uh, there's obviously spoilers for all three acts. Serious spoilers, even.

Before I can get into the whole ‘why Astarion didn’t really want to ascend,’ we need to understand him a little more. And to understand this pretty boy’s brain, we first need to understand the gist of what we’re talking about when we throw around the word ‘abuse.’

“Abuse” is when someone is treated with cruelty, violence, or neglect – often to bad effect – on a regular basis. Repetitively. Check’s out for Astarion, I’d say, but we all knew that already. I mean, if one thing was obvious, it was this.

1. Astarions Abuse

Next we need to look at what kind of abuse Astarion faced over his long years of torment, seeing as different types of abuse will have different effects on the victim.

Not that that is anything we have to worry about with him – Astarion won the abuse lottery, to put it bluntly. In a horrible game of fate, he got everything. He himself indirectly mentions all the types of abuse he faced, albeit never using the correct terms.

The first we properly notice – fitting, seeing as it is often the most obvious form of abuse – is the physical abuse. Astarions scars are probably the biggest tell Larian could shove down our throats, only underlined by Astarion’s tale about the night itself. About how Cazador ‘misspelled something’ every time he flinched or screamed and had to do ‘many corrections. On top of this, Cazador locked Astarion up for months on end and tortured him – or had him tortured – on a regular basis both as a rite and as a punishment.

Next up, we have the fact that Astarion was forced to basically prostitute himself repeatedly. This is what we call sexual exploitation.

“I spent two hundred years using my body to lure pretty things back for my Master.” – Act 2

Two hundred years is a long time, filled with great many people. Now, we don’t know how many of those people actually tapped into the sexual exploitation and how many he could just lure back with other means, but the fact that it happened a lot is undeniable.

Next we have a form of abuse that we often disregard in adults: Neglect. It sounds odd, I know, saying that a fully grown adult was neglected. They can care for themselves, can they not?

Well. Yes and no.

Adult neglect is proceeded by the condition that one adult has to lean on another adult to fulfil their needs for whatever reason. This could be anything, from disability to income-based issues.  

Seeing as Astarion had absolutely nothing, while Cazador had everything, we can assume this was the case. Cazador had the house, the money, the power. Astarion owns but one pair of clothes, assumedly, that he has fixes over and over again. Fair to say, that’s pretty neglectful. (And it’s one more reason to shower the guy in pretty armour and camp clothes. Go ham, people.)

Last we have the form of abuse we actually get to witness later in the game – emotional abuse.

Once again, it’s undeniable that this happened. Especially since we’re all seeing it in the flesh upon meeting Cazador in his crypt.

“Have you no respect for yourself?”

“I strove for perfection in all things. Even those as imperfect as you.”

“A pity you amounted to so little, despite my efforts.”

“A pathetic little boy who never amounted to anything.”

All Act 3, Crypt

Here we have just a few examples of things Cazador throws in his face. It’s like reading a textbook on emotional abuse, this one (and it’s definitely a reason to throw hands).

Blaming the victim, keeping their sense of self and their self-worth as tiny as possible to make them cower and flee. A true classic.

This pretty much shows that Astarion suffered all forms of abuse we commonly see and it is implied – once again by Astarion himself – that at least a few of those instances were ritualistic.

Now, what does that mean exactly? Well, I fear I need to use a real example here, so please skip the next paragraph.

Ritualistic doesn’t refer to a proper ritual – it can, but that’s mostly a thing for those in a cult. So, we’re not necessarily talking about a ‘Vampire Ascendent Ritual’. A husband, beating his wife every evening after his third bottle of beer is also called ritual abuse. It happens regularly. It is part of a routine. Both parties know what will happen.

I can’t find the exact quote, so I’m working of my memory here, but at one point he said that when Cazador invited him to eat and he said yes, he would be served a putrid rat. If he said no, he’d be beaten.

The way it was phrased made it clear that it happened more than once and that Astarion clearly knew what would happen. So, this can be classified as ritualistic abuse.

2. A Note on Conditioning and Compliance

By default, abuse victims are conditioned to behave a certain way or in a certain fashion. This is a natural response to avoid further abuse.

In Astarion, the thing we see most often is his inherent need to please. Not literally, he doesn’t mind being an arsehole. But he initially feels the need to follow Tav’s orders, even if they go against his own wishes.

This can be clearly seen in the conversation with Araj Oblodra. Astarion very clearly doesn’t want to bite her. He doesn’t. But he will do so, if Tav tells him to. This behaviour is not conscious – he doesn’t know why he does it, he just does – and it is to be expected. This is how he kept himself save for two centuries, so of course he will fall back into his usual pattern when the pressure is high.

This goes hand in hand with the fact that most abuse victims don’t fight. Maybe initially, but not after long term abuse. Especially not after two fucking centuries.

This is true in Astarion – offered by his ‘siblings’ during act 3 and unhappily acquiesced by the man himself. Astarion stopped fighting and, once again implied, cowered, and did as he was told in order to survive.

3. The Astarion we know and love

Obviously, all that abuse does have an impact on our vampire boyfriend. He shows various common signs of abuse and just like with the forms of abuse, Astarion raked every coping mechanism he could find. (Not really, but it feels like it.) It’s also important to note that nearly all of the following things happen inwardly. Astarion is not one of the victims, that tries to rationalise and minimise the actions of his abuser. Quite the opposite, actually.

I’ll note from the beginning, that rationalisation will not be covered in this bit, as most examples will be important later on. But he definitely does it.

One of his biggest skills is to hide every ounce of fear or hurt behind sarcasm and snarky theatrics. He doesn’t seem to hide his anger much, though, so that’s something! Our boy is cool with anger, not so much with being afraid.

“Ahahaha, now that you mention it….I might have done…that.” – Act 3, regarding the Gur children

“The thing that will decide my fate forever more? Yeees, it’s been on my miiiind. Why?” – Act 2, regarding the Ritual

And there’s many more instances that prove this. Honestly, half his dialogue is sarcasm, so it would really be too long to get into and we all know what I mean, right? We have alltalked to the guy before. It’s obvious that he’s sarcastic to a fault.

This goes hand in hand with his penchant for defensiveness. I would personally state that he’s simply not really good with guilt. When talking about fear, he usually just opts for sarcasm or avoids the topic completely, but guilt especially has his defences going up. This is also when he’s most likely to shove all the blame off to Cazador.

“Don’t look at me like that. Cazadors orders.” – Act 3, Crypt

“I just did what I had to!” – Act 3, Crypt

And don’t get me wrong, he does that anyway. And with good reason. Astarion didn’t have a choice for the most part, but he’s still easy to shove things off.

This kind of connects to his penchant for denial.

Astarion doesn’t really like to talk about most things. He firmly believes he is an ‘action’ sort of person that just does instead of plans, which invertedly just means he’s great at pushing the thinking stuff away. He also likes to get rid of stuff, so that he doesn’t need to face it ever again.

“I never want to see these little scraps of misery again. The world doesn’t need to know my shame.” – Act 3, about the children

And yes, this partly rings true. He’s probably ashamed and doesn’t want anyone to know what he’s done. But it’s also very clear that he himself simply doesn’t want to face his own actions, something that is just  underlined by his extreme willingness to red rid of the other spawn.

As mentioned by Astarion himself, he’s big on manipulation. I mean, I don’t think there is much explaining necessary. The guy is willing to do a whole lot in order to get what he desires – which mostly revolves around safety and survival, to be honest – and he’s not really shy about it either. And that’s despite the fact that he doesn’t really like intimacy – especially in form of sex.

It’s not a secret that Astarion is not big on sex and anything surrounding it. This goes far enough for people to consider him either ace or ace coded.

A claim that, personally, I’m not super in line with.

Now, it’s not entirely wrong and if this is your head cannon I’m surely not going to stand in your way – but on a larger spectrum, I think he’s more traumatised than ace. And while those go hand in hand sometimes, it’s a bit difficult for the ace community if you attach traumatised characters to them because it can fuel a whole lot of stigma that is honestly neither needed nor wanted. But I digress!

If it comes to his own behaviour, he’s great at minimising his mistakes. Honestly, he’s a master of minimisation. A very obvious and famous example would be:

“’Killed’ feels like a…strong word. Not many corpses have your vigour.” – Act 1, after killing Tav

Astarion. You literally sucked poor Tav dry and left them flopping around, cold, and dead. Killed is exactly the right word and we all know it.

“Quite the deviation from my usual routine. Capture, not lure. I didn’t bring them in with sweet rolls or anything.” – Act 3, Gur Children

This is another attempt at minimising what he did, if a bit less obvious because at this point there isn’t much he can say. But at least he didn’t sexualise the gur children, right? They’re still spawn but whoo, at least that didn’t happen.  

The next point would be dissociation, which is extremely common in abuse victims – of all forms of abuse.

Astarion himself mentioned certain moments that could be classified as dissociation over course of the story, which is probably the coping mechanism I personally expected the most.

The pale elf has a penchant for violence, but he’s not entirely shameless or abhorrently vile, which gets clearer the more the story progresses. So, two hundred years of forced prostitution, torture and doing whatever other horrible things? Yeah, I’d be more surprised if he didn’t dissociate.

Examples of that would be:

“A moment of disgust to push myself through and then I could’ve carried on, just like before.” – Act 2, after Araj

“I felt nothing the moment I handed them over.” – Act 3, Gur Children

“Did you enjoy it? It felt like you weren’t fully there.” – Act 1, Tav after Sex

The latter is generally more of an assumption than actual prove, but with context it does make sense.

The last common sign of abuse we find in our boyfriend would be his low self-worth. It’s a consistent trait that stays over the course of all three acts, noticeable in many different conversations.

We can see it in his reaction to wanting to break up before finishing his story. We can see it in his genuine surprise when Tav picks him over any of the other characters. We see it in his insecurity whenever Tav asks to sleep with another character. He’s fine with it, but he still worries their decision to sleep with someone else is based on something he did.

It eases up ever so slightly after Cazador is dead, but even then he’s still struggling which is once again perfectly illustrated if you try to break up with him.

“Oh shit. I- Did I do something wrong?”

That is the first thing he asks and I think it speaks for itself. He genuinely doesn’t believe he has much to offer and for Astarion, it’s likely that Astarion will always be the problem.

4. "Oh, I tried them all none of them answered.”

Another big thing that’s important to note, is that Astarion was never saved. No one came to save him from Cazador. There was no darling boy on a white steed riding into that castle to rescue him and princess carry him away. Not even the gods answered his desperate calls.

So, he never received any kindness or luck. To him, the world seems as cruel and horrid as before because he didn’t have the chance to experience goodness in two centuries.

But worse than that, he didn’t even get to save himself. Astarion didn’t stand up to Cazador, he didn’t run out of his own might.

He was beaten to near death and ‘saved’ by Cazador, who would become his abuser.

He tried to save someone and, in turn, was locked up and starved for an entire year.

He was abducted by mind flayers, i.e., saved from Cazador, only to end up tadpoled and on the cusp of getting a fancy, squiddy beard.

Anything that’s good, any kindness, any selfless action…it all came with a ginormous price tag.

5. Over the Course of the Story

Astarions behaviour changes a whole lot over the course of three acts – which is important once we talk about his quests climax – so let’s review what we’re working with!

Act 1 Astarion is guarded as fuck. The man has walls around him that are so high, even the gods can touch them.

A lot of his behaviour in act 1 revolves around staying save and staying liked. He lies, manipulates, and flutters his lashes in order to get what he wants and needs. Instead of asking, like Wyll, Karlach and Gale do, Astarion uses all he has to offer to get by. He is still very much in survival mode and tries to weasel his way through an unfamiliar situation with familiar methods.

On top of that, and most notably, he’s absolutely not fond of kindness or selflessness.

#I saved a child and now my boyfriend is mad

Here, we are most likely to gain disapproval for doing the decent thing – unless you sent him outside for a minute whenever you’re being a good person.

And I’d assume that this is because of two things.

First: The very traditional ‘Why not me?’

As I mentioned before, Astarion wasn’t saved. He hasn’t experienced kindness in a very long time so seeing that the world is literally filled with kind people is hurtful. Why didn’t anyone save him? Why was he left to his own devices for so long? Why should he care about others when it’s so clear that no one ever cared about him? No, dead to all of them. If he didn’t get it, neither will they.

“And what am I owed? What about the injustices I suffered? Am I not entitled to anything?” – Act 3, Crypt

“I was in the prime of my life when I was turned. Everything was taken from me too.” – Act 3, Crypt

And secondly is the fact that, as I mentioned, goodness always has a price. And it’s one most people won’t be willing to pay. That’s how his life has been, so why would theirs be different?

This is precisely why Astarion may disapprove of kind actions, but he mostly neither approves nor disapproves if Tav asks for payment. That’s just how the world works.

Once you venture out into act 2, after getting to know him a whole lot more, he starts to mellow a bit – if only towards Tav.

“He’s afraid, so afraid, of everyone but you, who she should fear the most.” – Sceleritas about Astarion

His approval is a lot easier to gain – or at least keep! – and he tends to approve of some more proper actions. He doesn’t throw a fit if you promise to find Mol, he approves of Tav being kind to His Majesty, of saving Aylin and he even approves of Durge apologising to Isobel after threatening to rip her to pieces.

He's slowly starting to open up, allowing Tav to see some parts of him he previously kept hidden. He accepts their offer to help, if hesitantly and, by god, the man starts experimenting with boundaries.

The social worker in me is shedding tears at this. It’s my favourite thing to see in my clients and it’s no different here. Yay to saying no!

Of course, it’s still a bit hit or miss. If Tav urges him to bite Araj, for example, he will only to later notice that he didn’t fucking have to. He recognises this on his own and he calls Tav out on it. Just like he calls them out on not helping him with his Orthon quest.

Good job, chap. Good fucking job.

And the growth-train won’t stop going even as we reach act 3.

In act 3, there’s not many things he disapproves as of right now – those he does, mostly have to do with how Tav treats him and not with anyone else. In fact, he’s more likely to approve good behaviour now, like giving Yenna food or money.

And yes, we need to consider that this could simply be because he gets used to Tav’s behaviour and just learns to roll with it. But it’s also highly likely that he notices that there’s truly good people around. At least one person. And that person is not only good, no, they’re in the process of helping him break free once and for all.

They’re helping him save himself.

By act 3, he has learned that he can absolutely say his piece where Tav is concerned and he’s more likely to disagree with them on certain things. It’s seen during a lot of small dialogue that he’s no longer terribly afraid to be honest with them, willing to listen and talk and he’ll ask for help if he needs it.

“I can do this. But I need your help.” – Act 3, Crypt

Something that can be viewed both positively and negatively is that he’s definitely loyal to a fault. He will stick by Tav’s side, no matter what.

“I really hoped we could avoid being pawns for a dark god, but here we are, I suppose. I’m with you, my dear, wherever this might lead.” – Act 3, After Jaheira confronts durge

As I said, this can be both positive and negative. On one count, it’s a recipe for disaster, seeing as he could be waltzing into a really bad situation for Tav alone.

But on the other side…this is a man who only cared about himself because that is the only person he could afford to care about. He needed to survive. He now has enough room to breathe and the capacity to care for someone else and I’d be inclined to count that as a good thing.

6. The Crypt

All the progress he made in act 2 and 3 is nearly tossed into the wind as soon as the crew enters Cazadors castle.

It’s not an immediate thing, of course.

At first, Astarion tries to stay light and simple and he hides behind flippant tones and relaxed faces. The way he recounts this is almost comically disinterested and the façade is actually quite good.

It’s start’s cracking after we meet Godie, one of the people who tortured him on more than one account, but he mostly manages to remain as upbeat as one can honestly expect for the first half of the journey.

All that, however, is done for the very moment we meet Sebastian. His mask not only slips, no, it full on shatters and there’s none of his apparent lightness left.

Which, of course it does.

The man is suddenly faced with years and years and years of victims. Innocent, unlucky people he lured back to his master over two centuries. People he liked, people he pitied.

“It’s sickening, seeing them again.”

It’s basically a room filled with guilt, exclusively for Astarion. And, as we mentioned before…Astarion is not great with guilt.

The guilt, however, is not where it ends.

No, he’s also faced with reflections of his own past. The spawn pose as reminders of what he did, sure, but also as reminders of what he was.

Weak, desperate, hungry.

There’s an abundance of images of his worst moments, reflected back at him in the thousands. It’s probably like staring into a funhouse mirror, but instead of seeing yourself in a funky way he just sees everything he so desperately doesn’t want to be.

“It should be [who I am]! I don’t want to be like them. They’re pathetic, horrible…”

He’s forcefully made aware of how darn weak he can be, which claws at all the wounds he’s barely had time to close. Something, he of course won’t admit if asked.

“THEY DO NOT [remind me of myself]. That weakness in me is dead, IT’S DEAD. I have a higher purpose.”

The high pressure of the moment brings out all of his act 1 traits in but a few moments. You can pretty much watch how he starts to shut down mid conversation, one of his old walls snapping back into place to remove himself from the situation.

Thing is though, walls usually become a bit brittle after disuse. Especially when talking to a person you don’t usually want to wall out.

Or, in his case, when talking to Tav.

After meeting Sebastian, Astarion shows extreme reactions to Tav nudging any of his weak spots. His reaction varies on whatever choice you make, but it ranges from aggression to defensiveness, to denial and even to downright begging Tav.

“Don’t hate me. I just did what I had to. I swear I did what I had to.”

This probably the most shocking out of all of them, since that is not something we got to witness before. The begging is likely a mixture of intense fear of losing Tav, his low self-esteem and pre-Tav behaviour, since we can assume that Cazador made him beg more than once.

Another old coat he puts back on would also be the least surprising of them all.

Manipulation.

He falls right back into it, using Tav’s affection to get what he want if we trigger the right action.

“If they die and I ascend, I won't have to rely on the parasite to walk in the sun. I'll be free. Truly completely free. Isn't that what you want?”

This, to me, was probably the biggest tell that Astarion was back in survival mode. He’s panicking, for fucks sake, and who can blame the guy? He’s back. He’s about to face down his abuser.

Of course he’s fucking panicking.

Panic leads to an increased craving for safety and, in his case, power. This is why he clings to Tav, why he begs them to love him still. And this is why he jumps head first into the rationalisation pool.

“I will need to sacrifice them all if I want to perform the ritual. - [You can save them.] – What’s the point? They're as good as dead! I thought they were dead. If they are unleashed, they will cause incredible carnage. […] They must die. Better they serve a purpose.”

Another textbook example.

They must die anyway. They’re basically dead. No need to save them now. They’re dangerous, I’m doing the right thing by sacrificing them. I already thought they were dead, so it’s not changing anything for me. They’re a lost cause and I deserve  all this power. I deserve it, because I suffered and nothing will change if they die.

So, seeing as we already spoke about his usual behaviour in act 3 – behaviour he showed after we allowed him to breathe and be himself for a while – I think we can fairly easily conclude he’s not thinking straight.

Astarion is right back in survival mode, where all that matters is he himself. If it weren’t for the seven thousand spawns, he might have moved through this more gracefully, but seeing those tipped the scales and Astarion is absolutely losing it.

Remember that for the last section, per favore.

7. The Ascension

“Astarion wants to ascend and Tav manipulates him into doing what they want.”

That is basically the essence of what people often claim and I can’t help but shake my head at such a blatant disregard of everything he has become. This is completely ignoring the change and growth he has gone through over the course of their journey.

Astarion wants to be free. He wants to be safe. That does not mean he wants to ascend.

And the claim that Tav manipulates him into doing anything is even more baffling. We are all aware that Tav is not manipulative by nature, yes? That is entirely on you. You decide who your Tav is.

And then let’s remember: Astarion is panicked. He’s afraid and he’s not thinking straight. His abuser is on his knees before him and he still feels so weak. And there’s seven thousand spawns that need handling.

Astarion is very much not okay right now.

In fact, reading his thoughts just proves this theory.

“You can see the fear in his eyes but also the hunger. The thick smell of blood in the air and the promise of power being so close is intoxicating to him. All he can see is the power of the ritual and the freedom that power brings. The freedom to do anything. To be anything.”

Tav, however, has none of those problems. They can actually see beyond the current situation and they are fully aware what the consequences are. Astarion is not. As we previously established, Astarion is a doer. Not a thinker. He didn’t think this through, not at all.

The only thing Tav is doing – the persuasion roll – is reminding him of the very real consequences he is facing. The consequences he hasn’t thought about before.

"I know you think this will set you free, but it won't. This power will trap you, just like it trapped Cazador."

And that is the kindest thing Tav could do in this situation. They’re not bodily dragging him away from Cazador. They’re not even telling him to not do it. They’re just offering him the truth. He can do with that information whatever he desires.

“Astarion cries when he doesn’t ascend, that just shows that it was the wrong choice.”

A hare-brained point that I thankfully have only seen once so far.

That crying? That is healthy crying.

That is him, crumbling under the stress that suddenly dissipates. That is him mourning two hundred years of torment. That’s him letting out feelings he hasn’t been able to for centuries.

And, for the love of god, try to put yourself in his shoes.

Two hundred years of torment, ended in but a moment.

Astarion was abused and tortured for so long, afraid for so long only to see his tormentor die just like that.

Cazador died within a moment and all Astarion needed was a darn blade. Of course he fucking cries.

Seeing how pathetic a being the very core of your life’s misery actually is hurts. It hurts like hell because not only are you finally free – free! – no, you’re faced with the fact that this pile of nothing, the thing that’s bleeding out right in front of you…this was what tortured for so long.

This thing hurt you so much. That guy took everything from you, everything you once were, and broke it again and again and again over years.

You were so scared of this thing.

And yet he has the gall and the gumption to die just like that.

It was so easy.

And yet you suffered for so long.

8. Evil Playthrough?

An evil playthrough is really a different setting altogether.

All of this, as you can probably tell, is really only applicable on a good playthrough. Realistically speaking. I’m not sure how the game mechanics handle it.

On an evil path, Astarion never really gets to experience kindness and goodness. Evil Tav will just prove him right in his believe that the world is a vile and cold place, meaning that he realistically would be more inclined to actually want to ascend.

9. Final Conclusion

I think all of this should be enough to make it clear that no, ascended Astarion is not the best ending for the guy. In fact, it is probably the worst. Because it’s just him, running away. He’s running into a lonely and cold state of being, where cruelty and power lord over everything else and he’s running because he’s terrified of being hurt again. He’s running despite desperately wanting to stop running.

“I'll spend the rest of my life running watching the shadows, never feeling safe…no, this has to happen. Here and now.”

And, the worst part is: Nothing about Astarion is left after he ascends. Even his tone of speaking gradually changes, his theatrics fading. He’s slowly losing himself, until there’s nothing but an evil caricature left.

So, in the end, ascension will have proven him right.

That version of him is dead.

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RP Mini-Solo Number Two: 'Leaving Mystic Falls'

I sit in front of a roaring fire in the parlor slash living room of the Salvatore Boarding House...a half-empty glass of Bourbon in my right hand...staring into the flames...contemplating the rest of my eternity. It's the middle of the night...and I'm all alone...as usual. I've been trying to figure out what to do with my life for months now...and I think I've finally come to a decision. I can't take this anymore. It's coming up on the one-year anniversary of me meeting 'Hotness'...not to mention when I was turned...and my boyfriend is no where to be found...again. I really wish he was around more...and I wish I knew where he keeps disappearing to...whenever he goes wherever he's going...to.

Damn. That just made no sense at all. My thoughts are all over the place right now...and I can no longer deny what I've also been dreading for months...my humanity is indeed coming back...and I can no longer keep it at bay...which also puts things into a really clear perspective for me. I'm done with this crap. I'm done with my boyfriend. I keep telling myself that I love him...and I do...I always will...forever...literally...but no man is worth this. I can't wait around for him to come back any longer. I deserve more than this. I deserve to be happy...dammit. I'm done with this crap town in general. It's time to move on. I have no idea where to go...or what I'm going to do when I get to wherever I might be going...but I have to get out of here. As big as this house is...the walls feel like they're starting to close in on me. 

Swallowing the last few sips of my drink in one gulp, I set the empty glass down on the floor, stand up and then trudge slowly upstairs. Walking into our bedroom...which I haven't even been sleeping in much lately...I grab a large duffel bag from the closet...quickly toss some clothes and other things into it...pick up my cell phone from on top of the bedside table...shove that into the back pocket of my shorts...then leave the room and go back downstairs...bag in hand. I walk to the front door and pause there...my palm against the wood. I turn and glance back over my shoulder...looking around the large space one last time. This is it. I should've done this a long time ago. I've considered staking myself...locking myself into the basement and dessicating myself...but I ended up kicking out both ideas. I don't really want to die...I mean...'die'...for real...and I know from past experience that dessication is too freaking painful...long story...and I don't feel like going through that again...so this is my best option. The only option. I turn my head back around...facing forward once again. 

Taking a deep breath...I open the door...step outside...walk down the driveway...and keep on going. I didn't even bother leaving a note for my man telling him that I left...or where I'm planning on going...because I don't even know myself yet. I have no set destination in mind at this point. I'm just going to have to...see where life takes me. Hmmm...maybe I'll go back to California to visit my old boss and my willing blood donor peeps...it's probably not a very good idea...seeing as how I'm a vampire ripper now and all...and I might try to kill said former boss...but it's about time that I face them and reveal what I am...something that I've also been dreading...and avoiding...since last year. I really don't feel like walking all the way to California though...hopefully I can hitchhike along the way. That shouldn't be too hard. Well...this should be fun...ish. Also...what's that saying again? If you love someone...let them go...and if they really love you...they will come back to you...or whatever? If Damon loves me as much as I hope he always has...since the first day that we met...then he can damn well find me himself...if not...then I guess it was...never meant to be. Maybe I was never meant to be a vampire either...since I totally seem to suck at it...no pun intended...but...it's not like I can do anything about that now...okay...that's enough of that...the open road is calling to me. (End)

[seriesxwriting]

It’s been a few years.

Paring/series - Damon Salvatore and you, the vampire diaries

Summary- you are badly wounded and have no other option than to go to the salvation mansion. Only thing is you have history with them boys. Especially Damon Salvatore. Did he miss you as much as you missed him?

Warnings- mention of blood and wounds, one kiss. One swear word🫢

Sorry I haven’t posted in a while GCSEs are happening! And I’ve had no ideassss…

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I knocked on the Salvatore door with all force left before sliding down the oak leaving blood in a long pattern all the way to the floor. I gasped for breath several times but none came through my lungs.

What felt like hours later the door clicked open, an unfamiliar face appeared looking around and then her brown eyes fell upon my wounded body curled up on the door step.

“Is Damon in?” I choked out with the last of my strength.

The sweet girl scanned my body with worry and sadness then bending down to me after screaming Stefan’s name out. She pealed back the cloth off my biggest wound and her eyes widened.

“It’s okay- your going to be okay” she smiled comforting me, even though we’d never met and it was obvious she didn’t think that. Stefan hurried to the door searching for why the girl was distressed.

“Y/n?” He stuttered. Completely taken back by me being here.

“Help me bring her inside” she looked up at his shocked emerald eyes.

Stefan took a second to embrace the fact I’d turned up on his doorstep before scooping me in his arms like a spade with ease. I hadn’t seen the Salvatore’s In years. Years.

Stefan brought me up to a room and laid me on the bed “it’s a werewolf bite Stefan- she’s a vampire right?” The girl had her fingers in her mouth staring at the scene. At me.

“It’s okay we should have the cure downstairs, Elena watch her while I go and get some of Klaus’s blood” Stefan ordered though nicely. There was something between them even I could sense through all my pain.

The way they moved, spoke.

Elena took a seat next to me and clasped my hand with Hers. “Nice to meet you y/n, I’m Elena Gilbert” she twinkled crossing her legs next to me and shaking her gorgeous brown hair out her eyes.

——

Stefan rushed down the stairs to find the cure in the millions of boxes in the basement but the boys were all out of Klaus’s blood. Stefan started to sweat not knowing what to do.

He climbed back up into the living room in time to watch Damon walking into the house through the front door holding a white car-board box.

“Damon… your back” Stefan rubbed his eye.

“Looks like it” he yawned walking up to his brother. Eyeing his bloody hands. “Trouble in paradise?” He wiggled his eyebrows trying to be funny. “Also why’s there blood on our front door”

“Not that kind of trouble but something has just happened”

Damon stared back confused before opening the box and pulling out a blood bag. His face looked unfazed. “Am I gonna care?” He lifted up his brow sarcastically pulling the bag every way to open it.

“Yes your going to care a lot- y/n is here” Stefan whispered to his older brother.

Damon looked back at Stefan in an instant dropping the ruby red blood bag onto the floor of their living room after only taking a sip. He switched on his vamp hearing to find me and sped all the way to his room where I was laying. Dying. Before Stefan could even get another word in to explain.

He stood in the doorway making eye contact with me but not doing anything. He was frozen to the core. Shock. Fear. Regret. Sadness. Just some of the things he felt when he saw me there in pain.

“Damon…” Elena whispered. His eye contact with me didn’t switch but he did walk towards me.

“What are you doing here lamb” his face softened and he came over to the other side of the bed slowly.

“Here to see you before this thing kills me” I tumbled out. Hearing his nickname for me made me smile and fight though the anguish. “What is it” he peered at my bloody, cut up body.

“Werewolf bite but… we’re out of cure damon” Stefan breathed from just outside the room. “No. We’re not” Damon shook his head vigorously. “I stashed our last two viles at Bonnies house” he relayed.

The room was silent for a second or two.

“GO!” Damon yelled at his little brother. Stefan nodded not upset but sympathising and Elena jumped up to go with him. And probably just get out of the whole situation here. 

“So your a vampire” he half laughed looking back at me and taking my hand that had gone cold when Elena left. “Your a vampire” I whispered back giggling. “Who turned you- why didn’t you come find me earlier”

“I don’t know some older man- he was- well I trusted him and he did this” Damon pulled my body onto his and wrapped an arm around me.

“And i didn’t know how to come and see you.. so much time had passed I wasn’t sure if you even wanted to see me” my words barely came out but Damon understood them perfectly fine.

“Of course I wanted to see you”

His thumb swayed across my forearm in comfort. “I’ve missed you I assumed you were dead” “no I didn’t t-turn long after you” my speech became worse as my body began to shake. His grasp on my arm became tighter like he was holding on for life.

I was hot then cold then hot again.

“Hold in there love- Stefan will be back soon and then we can properly talk” his gentle yet rough hand parted through my hair.

——

“So what’s with them two? Who is she” Elena asked in the passenger seat of stefans car. He sighed and gripped the steering wheel tighter.

“We knew her when we were human we had no idea y/n turned”

Elena nodded thinking about their human life. The night was clear no cars on the road no animal sounds. “It almost sounds too quiet out there” Elena whispered getting distracted.

“Damon and y/n were once engaged to be married, he was deeply in love with her and she him, but Damon was killed and turned. He believed it to be too dangerous to go back for her so he left” Stefan continued while parking in Bonnies drive with skil.

“We have to save her, for Damon” Elena enthusiastically prompted.

——

“Where did you run into a wolf it’s not a full moon?” Damon wondered wiping my brow with a wet cloth. “I didn’t” my head shook while the room did too. My body was on fire I could hear noises that weren’t there. See things that were impossible. Damon was the only thing keeping me here right now.

“What do you mean” he hushed slightly lost.

“There was this man- ughhh ahh and he was torturing me… ughhh i- I found my self in mystic falls when I escaped so I came h-here” my eyes fluttered shut coming close to the end.

“Your saying he injected werewolf venom into you- and cut you? Hurt you?” “Yeah” I reached up to his neck looking at him in the eyes “I missed you so much”. Hot burning tears rolled down the side of my face.

“I’m sorry I didn’t come back lamb- we could have had all these years together” Damon kissed my forehead. Through the blurred vision I could see his full eyes.

He linked our hands together cutely. “But we have now, and we have the future that we can now spend together”.

With that Stefan rushed through the door with his human lady not far behind.

He handed it to Damon nodding.

“Thank you brother” Damon patted him on the back. The man I’d missed all these years propped me up and put the glass to my lips with care. “Go on love, it’s okay now”

With the confirmation I downed the so called cure and the blood ran a marathon down my throat. “Elena go get some blood bags” Damon tipped his head at the door.

I took a deep breath while Elena vanished round the corner. My sight began to come back quite fast and the wound from the werewolf toxin closed up in an instant. The rest of them from the tools were still cut and bloody but they should heal up after some blood bags.

“Thank you- thank you so much” I pulled Damon into a hug as more tears splashed out my eyes this time with happiness. I’d found him. Finally. And I was going to be okay.

Elena carried up four or five bags placing them on the bed. “We will give you guys a moment” Stefan suggested finding his way around elenas hip to rest his hand. “Stefan” I called.

“Thank you too”. He beamed at me knowingly “it’s good to see you after all these years” he told me while exiting.

I pulled away from the hug still quite close to Damon’s face. “You don’t need to say that lamb, I would do it in a heartbeat you know that I’d do anything for you” “don’t mean I’m any less thankful” I giggled wiggling my fingers through his hair now.

Our eye contact was everything. It made my stomach twist with nerves like no one had done in the past 155 years. He pulled my head slowly down for conformation but I’d been waiting for this since he left.

There was never anyone else. Only Damon Salvatore.

His lips reached mine. Softly. Just how I’d remember him to be. Damons thumb rubbed my cheek making my face go redder than roses under his touch. We both worked together the same way as before like we hadn’t ever been parted, it was perfect the moment was everything.

“I definitely missed you more” Damon smirked as he pulled away by an inch but I’m sure it wouldn’t be too long till we were at it again.

“I doubt that”

“Why don’t you drink up them blood bags lamb so that our first date can be killing that son of a bitch who did this to you”

Butterfly’s fluttered in my stomach as I nodded with excitement.

He was just as crazy as me.

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Please can you do a Mikealsonsxreader where the reader is their younger sister and get cheated on xx

Cheated Sibling

Damon Salvatore is a jackass

He cheated on me with that stupid human Elena. The doppelganger that my brother Nik needs to make more hybrids. I mean he knows she's going to die at some point right. Turn old and be gone while he stays young forever. Slamming my bedroom door open I grab a. chair throwing it across the room. "Can I ask why you've decided to start destroying the livingroom little sis?" My older sister Rebekah asked coming out of the kitchen leaning against the doorframe. "Because Damon Salvatore fucking cheated on me!"

Nik vamps downstairs from his art room hands bawled into fists. "He did what now!" Elijah came from the library book in hand before Kol entered the house his baseball bat in his hands. "What is this about the Salvatore? Elijah closed his book seeing my face red from tears. I slump down on the couch tears still falling down my face remembering the phone call he left me. "Damon cheated on me with Elena Gilbert. He didn't even have the desceny to tell me in person. He freaking - left me a voicemail!"

"I say we get revenge. Let's set him on fire, you know how much you and I love it Y/n." Rebekah chimes in with a smirk. Kol tosses his bat around coming up with another option. "We could train him of his blood in the basement." Klaus comes to sit beside me on the couch brushing my hair from my eyes seeing them still red from hours of crying. "I vote we tear out his liver or better yet kill his precious doppelganger right in front of him. I'd do anything to see a smile on your face again little sister." A wicked smirk plastered on his face only grew bigger when I mirrored my own.

Finally all of my siblings looked to Elijah figuring he'd be against violence. He sits his book on the table rolling up his suits sleeves, a stern look on his face. "Normally I'd say let's be peaceful with the Salvatore brother. But no one hurts you dear Y/n. There will consequences." Getting to my feet I hug him sniffing into his suit. "Thank you brother, for agreeing to help me get revenge." Everyone gets to there feet pulling me in for a hug until I remembered theirs a dance tonight. "Oh I love that look in your eyes. Care to share Y/n." Klaus smirks staring down at me since he's a little taller than I am. "There's a high school dance tonight. He'll be there so let's strike tonight." Rebekah flips her hair over her shoulder smiling. "That's bloody brilliant."

Nobody messes with the youngest Mikaelson

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